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Sunday, August 16, 2009
Hard hidden lesson
This is something that I have picked up now. It's okay if people think you are having a hard time, and they want to help you by giving you advice. I say try to accommodate them by following their advice as close as possible. Maybe your image will be affected in a bad manner to some people. I still do not think it hurts to really listen to people. I think it just means dying to yourself. It deals with the length of time that they ask of you. It's really hard to be patient if you want to things your way. I guess in life, sometimes things are not supposed to go your way. I now see that I need to live my life submitting to people who really want to help and trusting them and be ready to forgive them all at the same time. As long as you are submitting to them in all respect, I think there's something called negotiation. I don't think I will have the need to mess up in this area anymore with people in my life. Just speak up boy and be ready to commit to others' needs and wishes. I'm ready to do this without getting any professional help.
Friday, August 14, 2009
5 year old trumpet player
It's really amazing how he plays it. It like comes across as so natural for him. I've played the trumpet all my life, and my high school band teacher was like complaining that I would pinch on the horn so much. He switched me over to a low brass instrument, the euphonium. The horn was like a nightmare for me. It gave me low marks on my college days.
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Monday, August 10, 2009
Pretty Bored
I write so much and it pretty much is a waste of time for others to look at. I don't really mind now that I stay away from some of that naughty stuff that offends a lot of people on the internet. I'm starting to make an important connection now about some people. They sometimes don't want to get along with you because they want to be selfish. They try to hide that emotion by explaining things to you. It's very important to cover your ears up with their comments that would make you really angry with these people.
I'm starting to understand this area now and that it's not really me that is the problem. It's really them who has problems. I need to still be careful with the things I say and do now. The main point is pretty much getting cleared up, and I'm now understanding enough with happiness in the Lord. I can't believe I am finally understanding this value. It's easy to state you have no problem moving on with people who are being selfish and unreasonable. If you can really prove it, then I think it's really good on your part and very bad for them.
I'm starting to understand this area now and that it's not really me that is the problem. It's really them who has problems. I need to still be careful with the things I say and do now. The main point is pretty much getting cleared up, and I'm now understanding enough with happiness in the Lord. I can't believe I am finally understanding this value. It's easy to state you have no problem moving on with people who are being selfish and unreasonable. If you can really prove it, then I think it's really good on your part and very bad for them.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Random boy/girl stuff
Another comment. I hope I'm not causing any people to feel aggravated with me talking about God all the time. I know how I feel that way with others sometimes and how I need to put a lid on it because my body just wants to perceive things that way.
I've always been good at coming on top when someone does something really bad to me. It's something innate and a part of me. I just hope it does not create in me something that wants to go nuts like awhile go.
Anyway, I sort of have it figured out but have to find it tested. In Jesus, we are forgiven for our sins. Through trusting him, he gives us strength to overcome any sinful obstacles. In him, we find peace and a renewed joyful heart. Jesus promised all of mankind that any man who would believe onto him would find everlasting life. (John 3:16)
I sort of stumbled on something practical, possibly for people who been struggling with pornography. This may sound sick. I apologize. I feel that we should not be in a pursuit of porn, it's the feeling or that desire of arousal which is part of guys no matter how strong it is through our biological build-up that gives us fuel to find the right mate. I sort of been turned off by someone I've been sexually attracted to, and man it really bites another dust. It's the feeling of pursuit that guys should get accustomed to and normal with. Remember, not everyone is made for you. I think it's looking for common grounds and attaching yourself with someone who does not mind the attention you give her. It is also being patient and taking it easy with the person.
It's extremely hard to sometimes just have the mentality of being friends with certain girls...They seem to make it hard when you want to just hang out and talk about whatever and just chill. It must deal with having a good character and nice sense of humor. I think most girls dig that type of sweet sensible individual. It does not really matter how bad you look as long as you have viable characteristics. For me, I'm really really short. I think I have a nice body for my size, but still I hate the idea of being short. I guess if you have to choose something that you want to lack in, might as well be height. I hope to find out about short and well-known CEOs with taller and attractive wives soon. (*chuckles, sorry) Frost said something like "What lacks in height makes up for what is in depth." Stole it from a friend's AIM profile. Another saying from my mom is, "A more chilli red pepper is shorter than a normal one." Another cheesy analogy, but quite interesting as it runs through a culture.
I see myself always as an imperfect individual because I want to stay living in the truth. Realizing this makes it possible to build a firmer relationship with anyone. A friend of mine wants to get a little foolish and say that he is perfect in some area like courting millions of girls. I'm of course, exaggerating just for laughs; I sort of have fun pointing out his weaknesses in whatever he says. I guess that's how a boy sometimes grows up into a man!
I've always been good at coming on top when someone does something really bad to me. It's something innate and a part of me. I just hope it does not create in me something that wants to go nuts like awhile go.
Anyway, I sort of have it figured out but have to find it tested. In Jesus, we are forgiven for our sins. Through trusting him, he gives us strength to overcome any sinful obstacles. In him, we find peace and a renewed joyful heart. Jesus promised all of mankind that any man who would believe onto him would find everlasting life. (John 3:16)
I sort of stumbled on something practical, possibly for people who been struggling with pornography. This may sound sick. I apologize. I feel that we should not be in a pursuit of porn, it's the feeling or that desire of arousal which is part of guys no matter how strong it is through our biological build-up that gives us fuel to find the right mate. I sort of been turned off by someone I've been sexually attracted to, and man it really bites another dust. It's the feeling of pursuit that guys should get accustomed to and normal with. Remember, not everyone is made for you. I think it's looking for common grounds and attaching yourself with someone who does not mind the attention you give her. It is also being patient and taking it easy with the person.
It's extremely hard to sometimes just have the mentality of being friends with certain girls...They seem to make it hard when you want to just hang out and talk about whatever and just chill. It must deal with having a good character and nice sense of humor. I think most girls dig that type of sweet sensible individual. It does not really matter how bad you look as long as you have viable characteristics. For me, I'm really really short. I think I have a nice body for my size, but still I hate the idea of being short. I guess if you have to choose something that you want to lack in, might as well be height. I hope to find out about short and well-known CEOs with taller and attractive wives soon. (*chuckles, sorry) Frost said something like "What lacks in height makes up for what is in depth." Stole it from a friend's AIM profile. Another saying from my mom is, "A more chilli red pepper is shorter than a normal one." Another cheesy analogy, but quite interesting as it runs through a culture.
I see myself always as an imperfect individual because I want to stay living in the truth. Realizing this makes it possible to build a firmer relationship with anyone. A friend of mine wants to get a little foolish and say that he is perfect in some area like courting millions of girls. I'm of course, exaggerating just for laughs; I sort of have fun pointing out his weaknesses in whatever he says. I guess that's how a boy sometimes grows up into a man!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Just writing really fast
I can now see how the normal reaction for my statements are to laugh basically. It really has pretty significant meaning in that it might lighten up the mood in a stressful environment. It all depends on how successful you are. Most of the time, I guess being quiet could mean that you are not having any trouble at all. With how people start caring about you, I think that just comes from not trying to mess around and wanting to make sense and doing something in your power.
Many of us are like not patient enough to get results. Some of us try to think that it's impossible after some certain length of time has passed on. God is not like this. Because of His perfect nature, He understands through our strengths and weaknesses that in time we will change. It's only God who can change a man or woman inside out. We are just a passing vessel; however, we all have a gift that gives us joy in the Lord.
Many of us are like not patient enough to get results. Some of us try to think that it's impossible after some certain length of time has passed on. God is not like this. Because of His perfect nature, He understands through our strengths and weaknesses that in time we will change. It's only God who can change a man or woman inside out. We are just a passing vessel; however, we all have a gift that gives us joy in the Lord.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
This is pretty cool
I think I like to write a lot when I'm in some destructive mood. I try to cover it up basically through writing. Communicating is wonderful, and I don't really care to do something illegal like a cop might try to blame me for in an ignorant way.
Okay, I feel good right now after just writing it. I write like this to a lot of people who wrong me. They don't respond to me the way I expect, but it makes me laugh every time I write or going back to think about it. Eventually, the agitation goes away after writing about seriously nothing bad and comes to a normal sense of accepting them. Even if they want to lock me up, I will still write and now that I have patience and a normal head, I'm pretty gung ho about making them change into better people.
There are a few things I want to occupy myself with: 1) Study 2) Rest 3) Exercise 4) Be with a friend. In my spare time, I want to read a lot. I struggle with spiritual things a lot too, and I'm glad that I'm coming around even though it's vexing to hear people want you to be some way that you don't want to be. My desirable roots are forming.
Okay, I feel good right now after just writing it. I write like this to a lot of people who wrong me. They don't respond to me the way I expect, but it makes me laugh every time I write or going back to think about it. Eventually, the agitation goes away after writing about seriously nothing bad and comes to a normal sense of accepting them. Even if they want to lock me up, I will still write and now that I have patience and a normal head, I'm pretty gung ho about making them change into better people.
There are a few things I want to occupy myself with: 1) Study 2) Rest 3) Exercise 4) Be with a friend. In my spare time, I want to read a lot. I struggle with spiritual things a lot too, and I'm glad that I'm coming around even though it's vexing to hear people want you to be some way that you don't want to be. My desirable roots are forming.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Trying to let go of the flesh
I know all my struggles, and how I don't wish to publicize them or speak about it in private that often. There's a saying that ignorance is sometimes bliss. It's funny how by being right in your motives and actions, people can react in an insecure manner when you confront them initially. There are many painful ways to go about this, but I'm trying to get over it fast right now.
I now know my aspirations, what bugs me a lot, and how I should cope with it. It's really crazy because I have all these wonderful ideas for myself to self-motivate myself, but then I forget it the next day with my crazy emotions taking over. I sometimes lose it with this self-hedonism approach to life. It's wrong to live in this deceitfulness, but so many do to this day. It's a struggle, and I know I have it underneath me to push to the finish, but I still fail all the time to this day. I hope that by writing about it, I'll be able to take comfort in the hands of the Lord when I do face it and not forget a confession that I made like two weeks ago. I hope that I will be able to face my selfish attitude and the pain that goes along with it. To pursue in a loving way that is the right and best way even though others may see it as wrong. I hope that this connection would be linked up to me. I hope that it would change the majority and their views about me.
I'm wrong to this day somewhere, and there's no way of making it right. Ending the act of doing something and changing it to nothing could sometimes be defensive, but it could be worthless in the end. There's a dilemma to try and to change and to resist and to pursue. It's like facing myself, close to being my worst enemy. The devil Satan is our worst enemy, but let's not forget how we could bring others down and that doing something is sometimes required even though it's super messy and things go spiraling downwards. Something has to be learned from it. History should never repeat itself. Guys like me keep forgetting. Maybe there is a hard lesson to learn while pursuing after something you prize like a beautiful woman who has a heart for you, but everybody keeps you from getting to her. Maybe you want to say a lot of mean things in a nice way and laugh about it in secret and while the other person gets so mad at you. I think it's best not to care so much about unproductive things that want to haunt you from the past.
It's to look to Jesus' true intentions, so that means if you are uncomfortable about his teaching you should really research and take time to meditate on it. Not just give up or make unnecessary assumptions and not to get so mad about people disagreeing with you. He sacrificed his life and reminded us of this quote, "A best friend will lay down his life for you. " He stated to God that they know not what they are doing and to forgive them. He then stated, "It is finished" and died with a broken heart.
I now know my aspirations, what bugs me a lot, and how I should cope with it. It's really crazy because I have all these wonderful ideas for myself to self-motivate myself, but then I forget it the next day with my crazy emotions taking over. I sometimes lose it with this self-hedonism approach to life. It's wrong to live in this deceitfulness, but so many do to this day. It's a struggle, and I know I have it underneath me to push to the finish, but I still fail all the time to this day. I hope that by writing about it, I'll be able to take comfort in the hands of the Lord when I do face it and not forget a confession that I made like two weeks ago. I hope that I will be able to face my selfish attitude and the pain that goes along with it. To pursue in a loving way that is the right and best way even though others may see it as wrong. I hope that this connection would be linked up to me. I hope that it would change the majority and their views about me.
I'm wrong to this day somewhere, and there's no way of making it right. Ending the act of doing something and changing it to nothing could sometimes be defensive, but it could be worthless in the end. There's a dilemma to try and to change and to resist and to pursue. It's like facing myself, close to being my worst enemy. The devil Satan is our worst enemy, but let's not forget how we could bring others down and that doing something is sometimes required even though it's super messy and things go spiraling downwards. Something has to be learned from it. History should never repeat itself. Guys like me keep forgetting. Maybe there is a hard lesson to learn while pursuing after something you prize like a beautiful woman who has a heart for you, but everybody keeps you from getting to her. Maybe you want to say a lot of mean things in a nice way and laugh about it in secret and while the other person gets so mad at you. I think it's best not to care so much about unproductive things that want to haunt you from the past.
It's to look to Jesus' true intentions, so that means if you are uncomfortable about his teaching you should really research and take time to meditate on it. Not just give up or make unnecessary assumptions and not to get so mad about people disagreeing with you. He sacrificed his life and reminded us of this quote, "A best friend will lay down his life for you. " He stated to God that they know not what they are doing and to forgive them. He then stated, "It is finished" and died with a broken heart.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Here we go again
I really need to encourage myself to write more often. In a way, my mind is working so fast that some of the things I could be jotting down may amaze me in the future. In some days, it may just feel like fluff. I think we all have our good and bad days. It's just the extremes that some of us need to forget about or try to rely on faith with having good counsel. I once read this article about an atheist who was complaining that his AA meetings emphasized having faith in God to change him. It felt like he was trying to state that the idea was ludicrous and really not doing much for his addiction problem. We're all not perfect but it does not mean the norm can't be challenged by anyone who is devastatingly overwhelmed by a system.
I also work up a flair a lot when I'm in disagreement with people. I've been trying to write more in these moments because I know that I don't really say crazy things. If I can write things that sends a guilty conscience wringing down someone's throat without having stated anything bad about them , then why really give it up. It's a talent that I must possess or in some weird way that needs to be explored. If I was super sad, I probably would not be writing about my perils with the offensive person. It does not do well to communicate; everybody around me communicates like they are on a hot plate sometimes. It's just important for me to not to lose it in the end and then get super sad about it and then get so hurt that I withdraw from society and then try resolving things without any help with professionals or anybody. Man, that type of lifestyle is something I don't want to get into again. My emotions are not too overboard as it used to be. Thank goodness with age and dealing with enraging issues in attempting positive acts. In greater news, thank Jesus for committing the greatest act for all of man's sins. The perfect man who was blameless and did not fall to the temptations of the flesh and the devil. He sacrificed himself that whoever would look upon him in faith, the person would be granted everlasting life. The gospel is so wonderful and overfilling. It is a message of love, hope, and faith wherever your life is at.
I myself am waking up looking in the mirror. I am like man, I wish I was taller and had better looks with a smile now. I don't seem to be bothered by my outside appearance anymore that much. I think exercising more would be great for my health and give me considerable benefits in mobility and lifting power. It feels like a lot of my average friends wish they were a little taller too. Even though I'm really short, my friends try to say that I don't look that proportionately short. I even heard a tall professor state that he felt a lot of anxiety about standing out in the crowd. A super gentleman that he is- he married his best friend and has no trouble announcing how great his sexual needs are being met.
I also work up a flair a lot when I'm in disagreement with people. I've been trying to write more in these moments because I know that I don't really say crazy things. If I can write things that sends a guilty conscience wringing down someone's throat without having stated anything bad about them , then why really give it up. It's a talent that I must possess or in some weird way that needs to be explored. If I was super sad, I probably would not be writing about my perils with the offensive person. It does not do well to communicate; everybody around me communicates like they are on a hot plate sometimes. It's just important for me to not to lose it in the end and then get super sad about it and then get so hurt that I withdraw from society and then try resolving things without any help with professionals or anybody. Man, that type of lifestyle is something I don't want to get into again. My emotions are not too overboard as it used to be. Thank goodness with age and dealing with enraging issues in attempting positive acts. In greater news, thank Jesus for committing the greatest act for all of man's sins. The perfect man who was blameless and did not fall to the temptations of the flesh and the devil. He sacrificed himself that whoever would look upon him in faith, the person would be granted everlasting life. The gospel is so wonderful and overfilling. It is a message of love, hope, and faith wherever your life is at.
I myself am waking up looking in the mirror. I am like man, I wish I was taller and had better looks with a smile now. I don't seem to be bothered by my outside appearance anymore that much. I think exercising more would be great for my health and give me considerable benefits in mobility and lifting power. It feels like a lot of my average friends wish they were a little taller too. Even though I'm really short, my friends try to say that I don't look that proportionately short. I even heard a tall professor state that he felt a lot of anxiety about standing out in the crowd. A super gentleman that he is- he married his best friend and has no trouble announcing how great his sexual needs are being met.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Ending the Act of Irritating Others
I seriously imagine myself having the ability to frustrate others unintentionally. With my age getting very close to thirty, I believe that there are a lot of expectations that I have been imposed with by people who do not seem to handle life very well. I see that they have tears coming out of their eyes, which probably means there is a guilt trip that they do not want to come out of.
They don't want to be exposed about something. It drives me a little irritated and the more I think about it, the more I come up with solutions to end this matter that I don't want to deepen. I know what I need to do. It's about having a drive of confidence that swoops others and straightens them up. I have discernment that sees the weird in others sometimes instead of feeling like I need to run away.
They don't want to be exposed about something. It drives me a little irritated and the more I think about it, the more I come up with solutions to end this matter that I don't want to deepen. I know what I need to do. It's about having a drive of confidence that swoops others and straightens them up. I have discernment that sees the weird in others sometimes instead of feeling like I need to run away.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Life Is Seriously Painful
It is okay. Life is meant to be hard! There are some things we should just forget about it. Until that day comes, things will be very painful. People say I've had a very good life. I'm so ashamed of myself. It's time to move on. I am seriously okay with that.
This is what I plan to do to get back into a club that kicked me out for writing too many bad e-mails to them. They have also called a crooked cop, and he is very feisty. I wonder if I could get him to cooperate with me. It would be an interesting marvel. I project this whole thing of getting back is going to take about a year.
I'm just simply going to keep coming, park in a convenient location, and run to my car if a cop tells me to leave. I will do this every week, until I can catch my breath to speak to one of those cops. I will also be wearing a white shirt and black shorts. I don't think it will be long for everyone to catch that I should be in.
This is what I plan to do to get back into a club that kicked me out for writing too many bad e-mails to them. They have also called a crooked cop, and he is very feisty. I wonder if I could get him to cooperate with me. It would be an interesting marvel. I project this whole thing of getting back is going to take about a year.
I'm just simply going to keep coming, park in a convenient location, and run to my car if a cop tells me to leave. I will do this every week, until I can catch my breath to speak to one of those cops. I will also be wearing a white shirt and black shorts. I don't think it will be long for everyone to catch that I should be in.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Dumb Group Issue
Okay, a Bible verse states "Honesty is like a kiss on the lips" and it also states something like a friend who wounds you is more greater than an enemy who tries to suppress you with sweet words. I believe this opens up an interesting area of how angered people can be hypocritical if they try to reach out to you. Just having knowledge of the Word alone sometimes is enough to help you out in exercising good principles.
What I'm getting at is that sometimes you need to be honest by jabbing at your love one's actions and justifying how he is wrong and then leading him to how you want him to behave. It takes a lot of humility to accept defeat. I guess in my end, a restraining order pretty much means I did something terrible and should accept that I did something very bad. The restraining order is something I see that people could easily overreact over. It's a strange occurrence sometimes to deal with. It's not breaking the law, if it gets on you. Just give it some time to allow the other person to calm down and give the person space.
I'm going through an issue where girls are acting pretty crazy with me. They can't explain their personal reason for wanting space with me. I keep asking, and it could be frustrating but I'm not going to let it run my life down. I'm not going to mind any restraining order with them anymore. I just don't care about having to stalk them or anything anymore, if that's what they feel I'm doing. I'll just keep away and not care about their over-reactant intonation about their side of the story.
What I'm getting at is that sometimes you need to be honest by jabbing at your love one's actions and justifying how he is wrong and then leading him to how you want him to behave. It takes a lot of humility to accept defeat. I guess in my end, a restraining order pretty much means I did something terrible and should accept that I did something very bad. The restraining order is something I see that people could easily overreact over. It's a strange occurrence sometimes to deal with. It's not breaking the law, if it gets on you. Just give it some time to allow the other person to calm down and give the person space.
I'm going through an issue where girls are acting pretty crazy with me. They can't explain their personal reason for wanting space with me. I keep asking, and it could be frustrating but I'm not going to let it run my life down. I'm not going to mind any restraining order with them anymore. I just don't care about having to stalk them or anything anymore, if that's what they feel I'm doing. I'll just keep away and not care about their over-reactant intonation about their side of the story.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Going to Court With Mockers
Today, on Christina's Court I saw how two ladies had a dispute over a vallet car incident. It appeared that the defendant was going to win but she ended up losing. This brings me a little scare. I have naturally been scared of over-reacting people because they sort of give me the Buh G. B's. As the aftermath of these people's actions, I guess those kind of things happen where you feel like you would not mind the comfort of a therapist and then you imagine the therapist feeling like she's wasting time with you. Seriously, how often do you invest your faculty into thinking that you have the right to get involved but you are truly not going to and then nobody can really pick up on this incident. Then, by being so quiet these few individuals who scare you start talking behind people's backs with you around their little circle. Boy, I have tried so hard to avoid wraithful thinking on their part with the hands of God.
I think it had to do with me being extremely quiet in nature and having a penchant for being around whiners who are little in their ways and holding things in contempt. They all seemed to give off this similar nonchalant voice of being fully vexed about something and then they pause and put some breaks in between these repeated words. Okay, and then they start incanting the words "Don't let this out of this circle." These type of events used to horrify me and made me surly but slowly stay out of these people's paths. I then felt super lonely about something and it's so weird that I should not try to position myself in a defensive stance anymore. If people take me to court, I'm all theirs to slaughter. I just hope I didn't have enough involvement with them in the first place, and I hope my survival mode is in high gear and in ethical grounds. I say nothing about my current comfort zone.
I think it had to do with me being extremely quiet in nature and having a penchant for being around whiners who are little in their ways and holding things in contempt. They all seemed to give off this similar nonchalant voice of being fully vexed about something and then they pause and put some breaks in between these repeated words. Okay, and then they start incanting the words "Don't let this out of this circle." These type of events used to horrify me and made me surly but slowly stay out of these people's paths. I then felt super lonely about something and it's so weird that I should not try to position myself in a defensive stance anymore. If people take me to court, I'm all theirs to slaughter. I just hope I didn't have enough involvement with them in the first place, and I hope my survival mode is in high gear and in ethical grounds. I say nothing about my current comfort zone.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Interesting Spin-off
I write with some idea in mind. I think that if you truly like to do something, such as writing scripts, making songs, or designing software then you should see if you could take a project and finish it through and then, maybe you can research on what people like and if they also pertain to your interests you could pretty much stick with it and make a living off of it while feeling really cool about yourself.
That being said, I think it's really cool to think about what Jesus did for us. Jesus died on the cross practically two thousand years ago. As time has been progressing, I truly want to get to know him more. My problems are made into little pieces because of what Jesus has ultimately done for me. Sure, I'm a human being who has a selfish heart and who wants to destroy and oppress and take vengeance on the little things that people do to be evil! Presuming that it's sort of wrong, I should try to not be overreacting. The consistency rate occurs only because there is a discerning mention of doing something positive for myself that could prolong a painful feeling. To get out of this phase, I am pretty much going to have to pick it up and review my limits and privileges.
The fun part about this whole matter is that I get to mention what went wrong in a truthful manner and be laughing inside the whole time. I also get to say things in a nice and direct way that would mean that things need to be done to project things into a better situation. In other words, I need to try my hands in leading and not overreacting to negative responses.
For all the wrong things that's been done to me for trying to be under the table and not so noticeable and not wanting to follow the advice of selfish and misguided people, I am fine with all the mistreating that they have given me. I have this test which is to lead them and not overreact to it with just my emotions.
That being said, I think it's really cool to think about what Jesus did for us. Jesus died on the cross practically two thousand years ago. As time has been progressing, I truly want to get to know him more. My problems are made into little pieces because of what Jesus has ultimately done for me. Sure, I'm a human being who has a selfish heart and who wants to destroy and oppress and take vengeance on the little things that people do to be evil! Presuming that it's sort of wrong, I should try to not be overreacting. The consistency rate occurs only because there is a discerning mention of doing something positive for myself that could prolong a painful feeling. To get out of this phase, I am pretty much going to have to pick it up and review my limits and privileges.
The fun part about this whole matter is that I get to mention what went wrong in a truthful manner and be laughing inside the whole time. I also get to say things in a nice and direct way that would mean that things need to be done to project things into a better situation. In other words, I need to try my hands in leading and not overreacting to negative responses.
For all the wrong things that's been done to me for trying to be under the table and not so noticeable and not wanting to follow the advice of selfish and misguided people, I am fine with all the mistreating that they have given me. I have this test which is to lead them and not overreact to it with just my emotions.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Conflict can be exciting
In circumstances that have a lot of heat, people can sometimes resort to selfish tactics to get what they want. By placing their own standards on some level of preference, it creates a bad yoke that can be tossed out eventually. What I mean by this is that sometimes people have reasons for taking action that don't really make any sense to an average person. In other words, you can sometimes hear people complaining about others behind their backs because they are constantly overreacting due to a lot of stress. This happened to bother me at one point because I thought it was being powerful when you talk bad about someone.
I'm not really worried about these little things anymore because I have had interest in neutralizing these situations. People sometimes are stubborn about changing, but appealing to them about something by placing God in the picture can be really edifying and encouraging. It takes a lot of discernment and willingness to understand my personal levels of aggression. I guess it can build up when you try to negotiate with people who think they are competent and then they end up overreacting to the circumstance.
I really see things a little better now. I don't really have to worry so much about it anymore. No matter what people who have done wrong want to advice me in, I sort of need to lead them in a better direction to ensure something good. Even if it's impossible, the personal effort is worth noting without getting personally hurt and avoiding indecent approaches.
I'm not really worried about these little things anymore because I have had interest in neutralizing these situations. People sometimes are stubborn about changing, but appealing to them about something by placing God in the picture can be really edifying and encouraging. It takes a lot of discernment and willingness to understand my personal levels of aggression. I guess it can build up when you try to negotiate with people who think they are competent and then they end up overreacting to the circumstance.
I really see things a little better now. I don't really have to worry so much about it anymore. No matter what people who have done wrong want to advice me in, I sort of need to lead them in a better direction to ensure something good. Even if it's impossible, the personal effort is worth noting without getting personally hurt and avoiding indecent approaches.
Monday, July 6, 2009
It's okay to open up.
Today, I write with a bittersweet smile on my mind. I think sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed about inexplicable things, but I feel like I can handle it without too much of problems. I really enjoy a lot of things that happen to my life and can also not be so mad about things, if the situation is not working out. I usually thrive when I'm in a rut by leading people. I've been trying to be careful about how I need to open up. I've also been trying to not give myself too much credit in general.
I guess people telling you that there's a fundamental concern does not always create enough light. With people making these truly bad calls with me, it pretty much details a lot about their insecurity and with me changing the situation around it's supposed to be good. I finally see the way I was supposed to feel. To feel a little hurt about something, it's not always good to maximize that feeling. I think it's getting closer to Presto for me!
There is power in knowledge. Being fully honest with others and seeking to be in genuinely in love about Jesus, maybe there's something normal about it.
I guess people telling you that there's a fundamental concern does not always create enough light. With people making these truly bad calls with me, it pretty much details a lot about their insecurity and with me changing the situation around it's supposed to be good. I finally see the way I was supposed to feel. To feel a little hurt about something, it's not always good to maximize that feeling. I think it's getting closer to Presto for me!
There is power in knowledge. Being fully honest with others and seeking to be in genuinely in love about Jesus, maybe there's something normal about it.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Writing about human nature
I realize the amount of hard work some people who get to the top do. It's really inspiring to figure how much pain that they might have passed through. To have the longing patience with the right attitude, it just helps to store up a lot of good treasures. Some things are probably not worth mentioning in light of some extremist behaviors.
I've been using writing as a tool to try to open up in an unoffensive way. To have people react to me as like they were flipping the handle, it makes me feel a little sheepish. I think it's a natural reaction that happens to people who don't feel hurt with what they are doing. To finally open up the heart and look beyond the fleshly condition, it's bringing me a lot more comfort that there's more to life than just people placing their unjustified worries with me. I think this just means to me that I need to lead in a heart-felt manner, have a lot of patience, and not be so worried or dreadful about the future with creating some misses. Rebounding is such an awesome thing when it occurs. To do it while maintaining good composure and being a normal person and finally getting everyone to come to terms with you, it pretty much opens up doors.
I've been using writing as a tool to try to open up in an unoffensive way. To have people react to me as like they were flipping the handle, it makes me feel a little sheepish. I think it's a natural reaction that happens to people who don't feel hurt with what they are doing. To finally open up the heart and look beyond the fleshly condition, it's bringing me a lot more comfort that there's more to life than just people placing their unjustified worries with me. I think this just means to me that I need to lead in a heart-felt manner, have a lot of patience, and not be so worried or dreadful about the future with creating some misses. Rebounding is such an awesome thing when it occurs. To do it while maintaining good composure and being a normal person and finally getting everyone to come to terms with you, it pretty much opens up doors.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
It's time to make it work
Not everyone can succeed in life or be really open with you. I think that's why you could sure use a little help from time to time with others who genuinely care for you. With people trying to direct you while them feeling repressed frustration, it gets sometimes a little hard to understand what they are complaining about with you.
I've been pretty stuck, and I just want to get out of it now. The best things that I value in this world can only persist by continually living in a continuance of struggles. I don't think I really need to go at it alone now. To be in a new direction and living with a little bit of pressure, it's important to get out of problems with a good attitude. It's important to not to blow up and be so angry about life, as I am prone to being. I guess others can relate to my situation. I'm pretty much just an individual who wants to transpire to lead in a good direction.
I've been pretty stuck, and I just want to get out of it now. The best things that I value in this world can only persist by continually living in a continuance of struggles. I don't think I really need to go at it alone now. To be in a new direction and living with a little bit of pressure, it's important to get out of problems with a good attitude. It's important to not to blow up and be so angry about life, as I am prone to being. I guess others can relate to my situation. I'm pretty much just an individual who wants to transpire to lead in a good direction.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
That Humble Feeling
This post is just about me releasing all my worries onto this small text box. I've always thought that having a certain emotion that contained a little overwhelming feeling would help me to get through the toughest obstacles. I think sometimes people fail to realize what they are doing wrong and become totally empowered into blaming someone else for their own misery. It could be even with them trying to stand up for someone. What I think occurs is that they feel egotistical and happy about what they are trying to impose on someone else.
It seems to be like their feelings need to be clarified in a loving direction by someone who could lead them. In the context of religion and legalism, I don't find them to be the solution to life. It's more of a distraction, rather than the answer to living out life. What you were born with and accepting some sort of misnomer does not always seem to hit the right places when faced with opposition.
I personally been wanting to show love to others, despite all the annoyances with their unreasonable impositions. I seem to be getting a lot of arguments and full-content breaths from basically people I come across. Just asking has brought me some confusion and triumphs. Perhaps, God knows that I'm listening to everyone's advice and that I have to still rely on God for all comfort when I cannot find it through people. I don't need to focus on theories; I practically want life. Right now, it's really important to get out of a jam in a likable standard.
It seems to be like their feelings need to be clarified in a loving direction by someone who could lead them. In the context of religion and legalism, I don't find them to be the solution to life. It's more of a distraction, rather than the answer to living out life. What you were born with and accepting some sort of misnomer does not always seem to hit the right places when faced with opposition.
I personally been wanting to show love to others, despite all the annoyances with their unreasonable impositions. I seem to be getting a lot of arguments and full-content breaths from basically people I come across. Just asking has brought me some confusion and triumphs. Perhaps, God knows that I'm listening to everyone's advice and that I have to still rely on God for all comfort when I cannot find it through people. I don't need to focus on theories; I practically want life. Right now, it's really important to get out of a jam in a likable standard.
Monday, June 29, 2009
This is just another post
I finally feel like I'm writing to an open space. I have my own personal psychology. I feel so comfortable just writing where everyone has the liberty to see it, if they choose. Maybe, it's bad for me to always go around and advertise that I have a blog. It must have been really horrible for me to test my writing. I basically went through a funk when I sent out a lot of e-mails. I was trying to get a clearer grasp of reality. Things were bothering me, but I was not intending on hurting anyone because of it. I feel that being direct with a purpose, especially long paragraphs that transcend several pages should be sufficient reason for me to vent whatever is needed to that person.
To do it in a literary manner with perfect grammar, nice speech, and average discernment pretty much encompasses my premature style of making myself a struggling writer. I think having nothing to write about it, but the pastime has brought me a lot more bizarre events with overly sensitive people. They have formed like a mob and pretty much ousted me from their party. If I ever show up again, they will pretty much notify the high officials and I get busted with a restraining order. Ouch, those things are really touchy and take a long time to heal from for the other guy who put it on you. For me, I'm just trying to neutralize the situation. Not that easy when the other guy is explaining his situation and you want to sympathize but something inside of you wants to take over and just literally drill him for being so wrong.
Life continues in the direction of the opposite or the positive, I suppose there's nothing good to expect out of everyone sometimes. To be accepting of it is pretty much my ultimate challenge.
I pretty much just want to get a job where I can make my own schedule, not really intrude on other people's lives, and be pretty lucrative in it. I also would like to repent from personal endeavors that are going to harm me on the long run, if another close person I get attached to finds out.
I just need to let life run its course, while listening avidly to what everyone wants me to do. I'm pretty lost with that direction right now, in how everyone says I should be doing something a particular way because they do not understand how I am feeling. I guess I'm a pretty mellow person, and I just need to open up better to give others room to compromise with me. This situation is something that is going to go on for a long time. The more ruts I go through, the less I want to commit suicide so I think I'm not going nuts because I'm just feeling more empowered.
I also want to work out. I want to get everyone back on my Facebook again. I also want to get taller, even though the dream has been fading away. I don't want to be shy anymore and face my problems head on without running away after I try to initiate a negotiation process. I don't want to be worried about getting hurt and then start lambasting by shouting and yelling at the person and then end up feeling like I need the person in my life. I just want to be really cool with everyone in this world. If the person is hard to get along with, then I have no problem negotiating a basic friendship with them. Disagreeing somewhere does not mean you can't live peacably with everyone.
To do it in a literary manner with perfect grammar, nice speech, and average discernment pretty much encompasses my premature style of making myself a struggling writer. I think having nothing to write about it, but the pastime has brought me a lot more bizarre events with overly sensitive people. They have formed like a mob and pretty much ousted me from their party. If I ever show up again, they will pretty much notify the high officials and I get busted with a restraining order. Ouch, those things are really touchy and take a long time to heal from for the other guy who put it on you. For me, I'm just trying to neutralize the situation. Not that easy when the other guy is explaining his situation and you want to sympathize but something inside of you wants to take over and just literally drill him for being so wrong.
Life continues in the direction of the opposite or the positive, I suppose there's nothing good to expect out of everyone sometimes. To be accepting of it is pretty much my ultimate challenge.
I pretty much just want to get a job where I can make my own schedule, not really intrude on other people's lives, and be pretty lucrative in it. I also would like to repent from personal endeavors that are going to harm me on the long run, if another close person I get attached to finds out.
I just need to let life run its course, while listening avidly to what everyone wants me to do. I'm pretty lost with that direction right now, in how everyone says I should be doing something a particular way because they do not understand how I am feeling. I guess I'm a pretty mellow person, and I just need to open up better to give others room to compromise with me. This situation is something that is going to go on for a long time. The more ruts I go through, the less I want to commit suicide so I think I'm not going nuts because I'm just feeling more empowered.
I also want to work out. I want to get everyone back on my Facebook again. I also want to get taller, even though the dream has been fading away. I don't want to be shy anymore and face my problems head on without running away after I try to initiate a negotiation process. I don't want to be worried about getting hurt and then start lambasting by shouting and yelling at the person and then end up feeling like I need the person in my life. I just want to be really cool with everyone in this world. If the person is hard to get along with, then I have no problem negotiating a basic friendship with them. Disagreeing somewhere does not mean you can't live peacably with everyone.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Feeling is there, just need to persist
The reason why I write this passage today is to just self-motivate myself. I've finally come to terms with how I write. The mistakes that I've made are not entirely that bad, and I think the situation unfolds itself by sometimes allowing your instincts to take over. This is sometimes an even more huger mistake to rely on ourselves instead of a greater source.
I know it feels like a total contradiction with having to lower ourselves and totally consider others. I think the major part of life is to basically just be yourself, a unique creature who originated in some time ago in a certain sphere of space and time.
I am totally comfortable now with writing about whatever it is with others around me. If someone feels uncomfortable, I believe that I want to pursue after that person gently to understand what is bothering them. Letting go is a hard thing to do. The bothersome feeling may always be there, but look on the bright side. Life moves on, and we need to be alive so we can experience more comfortable things.
I guess it's about expecting what you are feeling as you pursue after some discomforts. To take effort in understanding it and being calm and relaxed and not so angry about it is something that could make God proud if you pass the test.
There are simple measures of tests that a person could do. Simply set up something that gives mechanics about failing or succeeding. Live in commitment to others and don't worry about it if you fail. There's always a brighter future to look forward to. Confess your mistakes, repent from that nature, and then move on knowing that there's something good out there waiting for you. If you don't know what it is, there's a loving savior who wants to release you of all your misery and walk of shame. He brings you to life and brings truth that holds peace that cannot be explained without the person experiencing it through faith.
I know it feels like a total contradiction with having to lower ourselves and totally consider others. I think the major part of life is to basically just be yourself, a unique creature who originated in some time ago in a certain sphere of space and time.
I am totally comfortable now with writing about whatever it is with others around me. If someone feels uncomfortable, I believe that I want to pursue after that person gently to understand what is bothering them. Letting go is a hard thing to do. The bothersome feeling may always be there, but look on the bright side. Life moves on, and we need to be alive so we can experience more comfortable things.
I guess it's about expecting what you are feeling as you pursue after some discomforts. To take effort in understanding it and being calm and relaxed and not so angry about it is something that could make God proud if you pass the test.
There are simple measures of tests that a person could do. Simply set up something that gives mechanics about failing or succeeding. Live in commitment to others and don't worry about it if you fail. There's always a brighter future to look forward to. Confess your mistakes, repent from that nature, and then move on knowing that there's something good out there waiting for you. If you don't know what it is, there's a loving savior who wants to release you of all your misery and walk of shame. He brings you to life and brings truth that holds peace that cannot be explained without the person experiencing it through faith.
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