Yesterday, I did feel a little vulnerable about not being married to a lady I want to be with. I felt this uneasiness but when I left the house to just go outside, the change of environment just felt so much better. I guess I'm meant to be outdoors then. When I'm inside my home, I want to have this feeling of sharing it with my wife someday. When I go outside, then it's going to be fun I suppose and maybe I'll be able to take my wife and kids which I both don't have currently along with me for the ride too!
What kept me going while I was feeling human yesterday is that I willed myself forward by leaning on working towards confidence and hard work mainly. It's nice to have this drive, but what would have satisfied it further is to base those things off of being inspired from my faith in God. I just need to put in the physical work and it's a pain to get myself started each day! It's pretty funny with how I realize that now.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Monday, November 11, 2019
Making Most Of My Time
Yesterday, I really spent the day considering my backup plan of playing Poker to earn a living if my current job falls out of place and I need something to do. Poker is a game of grinding and competing against one another while taking advantage of breaks and concealing them to the opponent. It's difficult to pick up on these signs so against a very seasoned player, the personal earnings will take a dip unless luck was on your side that time. My primary urge is to believe other players are bluffing in a real money situation. I have found out for play chips that the players don't really bluff as often as they could or I just found a really nice online community to practice my skills on.
I'm finding it to be fun and I can just waste hours playing online with one table while betting only $1.50 to $5.00 at a time. I can probably last for hours at a time too and sometimes I just leave to take a break like everybody else does after they are disappointed to lose all of their chips.
The thing about playing Poker to make a living off the low-stakes tables is that it can get very time consuming and since I already have a day job that pays better and has less hours to work and feels more rewarding, then maybe I should work hard to increase my skillset for this career and keep building upon it. It's nice as a last resort that playing Poker against other scrubs online for a living would be fun, but I'm going to have to eventually fold on this idea if I can.
I'm finding it to be fun and I can just waste hours playing online with one table while betting only $1.50 to $5.00 at a time. I can probably last for hours at a time too and sometimes I just leave to take a break like everybody else does after they are disappointed to lose all of their chips.
The thing about playing Poker to make a living off the low-stakes tables is that it can get very time consuming and since I already have a day job that pays better and has less hours to work and feels more rewarding, then maybe I should work hard to increase my skillset for this career and keep building upon it. It's nice as a last resort that playing Poker against other scrubs online for a living would be fun, but I'm going to have to eventually fold on this idea if I can.
Comparing Status Update
Yesterday, on what's traditionally a day of fellowshipping with other believers at a church, I ended up doing a gross activity that probably almost 99.99% of guys are familiar with. It's funny to mention it like this because I just feel like writing it this way. One thing I won't ever do is use vulgar language in my writing or speech with others. I haven't written out an actual cuss word all my life and sent it to someone to read. I've come close by using them in the form of **** but not actually typing it out for them to visually see all the letters!
It's my style which I think is sometimes weak because it's harder to flow when saying an expletive word instead would just bring out all that passionate energy, but I'm going to stick to my unannounced record of never writing the worst level of vulgar language which I don't even care to keep track of for anyone to read for rest of my days because it's worked out for me and can accept messaging someone that they suck works just as effectively! I guess this means I can be a pretty mellow person around others even when I'm feeling a bit short-tempered sometimes.
The reason why I went against my own preferred type of being close to living an asexual life while still single and looking for a hot, single lady to be with in marriage who will engage in a lot of it to make me do a complete 180 turn with my current lifestyle of abstinence is because I was wondering if my sexual functions are falling out. Let's just say, I wanted to see something about my body and it performed beyond my own expectations yesterday! I don't know if it can be analogous to doing a routine oil change which I took my car in for the same day! I'm more joking about that instead.
I think it's something to not really worry too much over and I think it's becoming more internalized and feel that looking at porn is just wasting my time to getting closer to what I want to truly imagine for my life. I should be putting my focus in that, so I definitely didn't give yesterday the proper justice of time management.
It's my style which I think is sometimes weak because it's harder to flow when saying an expletive word instead would just bring out all that passionate energy, but I'm going to stick to my unannounced record of never writing the worst level of vulgar language which I don't even care to keep track of for anyone to read for rest of my days because it's worked out for me and can accept messaging someone that they suck works just as effectively! I guess this means I can be a pretty mellow person around others even when I'm feeling a bit short-tempered sometimes.
The reason why I went against my own preferred type of being close to living an asexual life while still single and looking for a hot, single lady to be with in marriage who will engage in a lot of it to make me do a complete 180 turn with my current lifestyle of abstinence is because I was wondering if my sexual functions are falling out. Let's just say, I wanted to see something about my body and it performed beyond my own expectations yesterday! I don't know if it can be analogous to doing a routine oil change which I took my car in for the same day! I'm more joking about that instead.
I think it's something to not really worry too much over and I think it's becoming more internalized and feel that looking at porn is just wasting my time to getting closer to what I want to truly imagine for my life. I should be putting my focus in that, so I definitely didn't give yesterday the proper justice of time management.
Thursday, November 7, 2019
Main Game Plan
I know a friend who is trying to make a living off of day trading stocks which is looking at 1 minute and 5 minute charts while looking to make a quick buck before closing trades. It's a lot like playing poker for me because it's really about competing to take each other's money in a sense. I personally believe that it's senseless to be stuck to the monitor for long hours daily watching people's money rise and fall, but some still don't mind making a living off of it.
It really comes down to having a personal strategy and the best way to get one is to keep on practicing until there's some consistency. The traders will collectively cause the market to rise and fall for whatever reason, so it's all a bunch of risky speculation and making a living off of trying to predict how the chips will fall is an art.
How this applies to my personal preference is that I don't want to be a day trader. I want to be a swing trader and the expected time for practicing to become a pretty good one can be years, but the pay out with benefits for me is more worth it. I will keep on trying to model something profitable all the way to riches on a daily basis. It's pretty much all about coming up with a profitable set and forget model. I'm only caring about something that I can understand and model off of, which I have now so I'll be seeing where it takes me now. This pretty much means that I'll be having to make the most of my time optimally as possible.
Wednesday, November 6, 2019
New Thoughts About Dating Hot Women
I think relating to what might go on a hot lady's mind is that one can never really tell because ladies are individuals! This being said, I'm going to try to focus on something general from having put some thought into it. A hot lady is basically a person and still a girl. She might have some privileges from others or just annoyed by how so many unattractive guys like her based on just the looks. There might also be quite a few who enjoy being seen upon as hot, too, and not mind the attention.
In the long run of a human life, everybody is going to grow into looking something like a granny or grandpa someday if they can live that long. Maybe on the exception of plastic surgery, someone can make him or herself look younger and attractive still but it's never going to be super hot! The good looks that was there with all the hot ladies will be leaving her someday, so this gets me thinking that maybe an intelligent woman who happens to be hot could be not wanting to stress out about this and choose a guy who she feels a true connection with and ideally physically attracted to. For a lady, I think her decisions about settling down with a partner is mainly based on her emotions, more than how for guys they are visually stimulated on the go when they spot someone really attractive. There probably are some girls who think like guys also, so it's not always going to be all fitting into one category.
So basically I'm attracted to slender women, but what if I find someone to have kids with and she ends up keeping her bigger weight after pregnancy? I might actually make some women feel insecure about this thought if I ended up dating her, so she could be thinking that there's really nothing to build upon with me already and get ready to move on. Maybe all this machoism that I like to proudly display might be a little too much for some girls out there.
Yet, I still think there's a universal pass for all straight guys out there to reach the best single women out there. I can relate it to like starting up a hot business and attracting a lot of good-looking women. I guess the good looks fading will be something that every shallow guy out there in the world will have to deal with towards his partner, or just join the club of average dumb joes like one of my disappointing friends has already!
To get started, like one of my buddies who is pretty much the runt of his family, he is lazy so that's already a no-go. He can't really focus on getting through the hardships to get to his happiness so he doesn't have that perseverance which is an attractive quality and found in so many self-made rich guys. There's one thing about being wealthy, in that it does attract women especially if it happened from putting in a lot of hard work. It's about being one of the lucky few with social privileges, which having money brings, and not a lot of women out there are rich in general so they could possibly desire their man to spoil them and treat them like a princess!
It's really about having this attitude and demeanor that just matches up and connects well with the attractive woman. It's also about being there at the right time and right place without really any other distractions. My current distraction really is developing myself and even though I'm able to project tons of personal confidence, which is handsome in the eyes of common people despite being a shorty, I still have to put in the work to reach that physical state to earn all this credit that will afford me some good dates with the hot, single ladies out there.
In the long run of a human life, everybody is going to grow into looking something like a granny or grandpa someday if they can live that long. Maybe on the exception of plastic surgery, someone can make him or herself look younger and attractive still but it's never going to be super hot! The good looks that was there with all the hot ladies will be leaving her someday, so this gets me thinking that maybe an intelligent woman who happens to be hot could be not wanting to stress out about this and choose a guy who she feels a true connection with and ideally physically attracted to. For a lady, I think her decisions about settling down with a partner is mainly based on her emotions, more than how for guys they are visually stimulated on the go when they spot someone really attractive. There probably are some girls who think like guys also, so it's not always going to be all fitting into one category.
So basically I'm attracted to slender women, but what if I find someone to have kids with and she ends up keeping her bigger weight after pregnancy? I might actually make some women feel insecure about this thought if I ended up dating her, so she could be thinking that there's really nothing to build upon with me already and get ready to move on. Maybe all this machoism that I like to proudly display might be a little too much for some girls out there.
Yet, I still think there's a universal pass for all straight guys out there to reach the best single women out there. I can relate it to like starting up a hot business and attracting a lot of good-looking women. I guess the good looks fading will be something that every shallow guy out there in the world will have to deal with towards his partner, or just join the club of average dumb joes like one of my disappointing friends has already!
To get started, like one of my buddies who is pretty much the runt of his family, he is lazy so that's already a no-go. He can't really focus on getting through the hardships to get to his happiness so he doesn't have that perseverance which is an attractive quality and found in so many self-made rich guys. There's one thing about being wealthy, in that it does attract women especially if it happened from putting in a lot of hard work. It's about being one of the lucky few with social privileges, which having money brings, and not a lot of women out there are rich in general so they could possibly desire their man to spoil them and treat them like a princess!
It's really about having this attitude and demeanor that just matches up and connects well with the attractive woman. It's also about being there at the right time and right place without really any other distractions. My current distraction really is developing myself and even though I'm able to project tons of personal confidence, which is handsome in the eyes of common people despite being a shorty, I still have to put in the work to reach that physical state to earn all this credit that will afford me some good dates with the hot, single ladies out there.
Monday, November 4, 2019
Possible Secret To Sucess
I went last weekend on a hiking trip with an okay looking friend. She's become more like a close little sister to me. I do hold back an instinctual desire to make sexual advances with my lady friends in general. It's weird that on rare occasions I just feel like being bi-sexual but it just ends there from being a feeling because if I think further it grosses me out with the thought of being with another guy! I have heard a couple lady friends openly admitting that they are into just guys, also. It definitely must be working out for them with some type of attraction that they are bonded to.
After all, these are just open-ended feelings that aren't hard to cope with for me. The thought of being lonely for the rest of my life has eased up from meeting random strangers at hangout spots and continuing to believe I will find the one someday. I just stopped worrying about it while hanging out with a girl who says that she is used to being pursued and seeing her as like a sister to me now. She naturally puts in a decent amount of effort to the equation of going out there to have some fun while getting me to go along with her plans. I'm really easy going I suppose so I'm usually all for it.
From watching some documentaries on her AppleTV box that she brought along, I watched a few interesting videos that explored Bill Gates's mind. I have come to the conclusion that the secret to Bill Gates's success is working long hours and sometimes all-night without quitting while loving what he's doing. It's too bad that I don't really favor Poker nor playing video games that much anymore because I used to grind so many hours on them just for fun. I just might be getting serious about Poker if anything happens to my current cushy job though. I still don't consider myself financially stable until I can get my own home and become wealthy. This isn't going to happen without putting in a lot of work and from still being single, I should be able to make a lot of time for it.
After all, these are just open-ended feelings that aren't hard to cope with for me. The thought of being lonely for the rest of my life has eased up from meeting random strangers at hangout spots and continuing to believe I will find the one someday. I just stopped worrying about it while hanging out with a girl who says that she is used to being pursued and seeing her as like a sister to me now. She naturally puts in a decent amount of effort to the equation of going out there to have some fun while getting me to go along with her plans. I'm really easy going I suppose so I'm usually all for it.
From watching some documentaries on her AppleTV box that she brought along, I watched a few interesting videos that explored Bill Gates's mind. I have come to the conclusion that the secret to Bill Gates's success is working long hours and sometimes all-night without quitting while loving what he's doing. It's too bad that I don't really favor Poker nor playing video games that much anymore because I used to grind so many hours on them just for fun. I just might be getting serious about Poker if anything happens to my current cushy job though. I still don't consider myself financially stable until I can get my own home and become wealthy. This isn't going to happen without putting in a lot of work and from still being single, I should be able to make a lot of time for it.
Leaving It Behind
I think it just feels stressful with working on something and being so antsy about it coming together. It then becomes really easy to stop focusing on it and do something else that's fun to pass off the time. I really should be focusing on mainly my priorities, instead of just relaxing after work. I mean it's nice to be able to afford to do it, but I just want to do more to get ahead now.
It gets me thinking that depending on the day, it might be better to lay off of something in favor of doing something else because it will have a better return of satisfaction. Sometimes, being able to afford the luxury of watching TV because of something interesting like the World Series that finished last Wednesday was just too good to pass up. I still could have done something personal in place of it though.
I think I just have unique plans that don't really match up with others. Also, I haven't appealed to many from not reaching the top. To get there, I would really have to compete against other frontrunners and I just don't know how to naturally. It isn't that much in my interest, and I'm only it to satisfy my personal standards mainly. Overall, it really looks like I have a set routine that I could work with.
A friend has called me a regimental person, and I think she was right. It's something I did while feeling empty underneath because I was really pushing myself harder and not feeling anything for a little while. It's something I was accustomed to and would like to get back into again while feeling more joyful and sure of myself this time around.
It gets me thinking that depending on the day, it might be better to lay off of something in favor of doing something else because it will have a better return of satisfaction. Sometimes, being able to afford the luxury of watching TV because of something interesting like the World Series that finished last Wednesday was just too good to pass up. I still could have done something personal in place of it though.
I think I just have unique plans that don't really match up with others. Also, I haven't appealed to many from not reaching the top. To get there, I would really have to compete against other frontrunners and I just don't know how to naturally. It isn't that much in my interest, and I'm only it to satisfy my personal standards mainly. Overall, it really looks like I have a set routine that I could work with.
A friend has called me a regimental person, and I think she was right. It's something I did while feeling empty underneath because I was really pushing myself harder and not feeling anything for a little while. It's something I was accustomed to and would like to get back into again while feeling more joyful and sure of myself this time around.
Reaching Back For Some Old Things
Well, it really looks like I would like to go back to applying some facial products to have some fun with clear skin and to also double down on my hair loss prevention products. They haven't really made me lose any more hair, and I have been growing thin hair strands. I'm just working at trying to make them get thicker and not fall out! I also would like to do some more of those growing taller stretches too just to see if I can get any more taller. I managed to get 1/2 inch from applying them at the age of 27.
It's just that it's tiring to remember to do all of these things. I can manage to conduct hygiene including brushing my teeth and taking a bath once a day regularly but it's hard for me to brush my teeth again and apply some more hair loss prevention products before I go to sleep. I'm finding myself glued in to doing something, and I think I just need to force myself out of that concentration momentarily to focus on these little tasks before heading back in. It's probably that I don't want to be so tired afterwards and go to sleep while missing out on what I was indulging myself in.
Regardless though, I'm still finding myself going straight to bed without putting much thought and not already doing enough as I had planned. Maybe I just need to try calling it right there and move on to the next day. Honestly, I think if I can be really squared away with the current personality I have then I might be able to maintain a future marriage with a beautiful single lady who is made out of some fine substance!
It's just that it's tiring to remember to do all of these things. I can manage to conduct hygiene including brushing my teeth and taking a bath once a day regularly but it's hard for me to brush my teeth again and apply some more hair loss prevention products before I go to sleep. I'm finding myself glued in to doing something, and I think I just need to force myself out of that concentration momentarily to focus on these little tasks before heading back in. It's probably that I don't want to be so tired afterwards and go to sleep while missing out on what I was indulging myself in.
Regardless though, I'm still finding myself going straight to bed without putting much thought and not already doing enough as I had planned. Maybe I just need to try calling it right there and move on to the next day. Honestly, I think if I can be really squared away with the current personality I have then I might be able to maintain a future marriage with a beautiful single lady who is made out of some fine substance!
Finding A Hot Girlfriend
It looks like a hot single lady has privileges on dating sites and will get a lot of interest from guys who probably know what they are doing. Competing with that, it's pretty much about being the lucky guy chosen I suppose. I'm not really much of a guy in physical comparison to these people, but it doesn't hinder my confidence still.
From what I've been reading, it does make sense from an honest source that it's about having a natural connection with the right person you are looking for. I mean the guy would also need to put in some effort to be a gentleman and treat her out for her to be in the mood for making some love! The lady would also just need to be naturally attracted to the guy somehow for there to be a chance for something like that. If it isn't there and the guy tried then I suppose it's moving along to the next one and trying to find another opportunity while testing out and developing different dating strategies that might work! I think the most important thing for the guy is to maintain a strong interest for a single lady and be accepting if she just isn't interested and move on to find another attractive single lady.
For myself, it's been hard because of my high standards to find the right lady for me. There was one lady who I actually admired while thinking she's my ideal type but she was dating someone and later on married him which is cool, and I even attended her wedding. It was so cute! It might be a long while until I find a truly hot lady with one of the sweetest personalities you can ever be around and her becoming my girlfriend. I hope it gets to that point and will have to see who I end up with.
From what I've been reading, it does make sense from an honest source that it's about having a natural connection with the right person you are looking for. I mean the guy would also need to put in some effort to be a gentleman and treat her out for her to be in the mood for making some love! The lady would also just need to be naturally attracted to the guy somehow for there to be a chance for something like that. If it isn't there and the guy tried then I suppose it's moving along to the next one and trying to find another opportunity while testing out and developing different dating strategies that might work! I think the most important thing for the guy is to maintain a strong interest for a single lady and be accepting if she just isn't interested and move on to find another attractive single lady.
For myself, it's been hard because of my high standards to find the right lady for me. There was one lady who I actually admired while thinking she's my ideal type but she was dating someone and later on married him which is cool, and I even attended her wedding. It was so cute! It might be a long while until I find a truly hot lady with one of the sweetest personalities you can ever be around and her becoming my girlfriend. I hope it gets to that point and will have to see who I end up with.
Tuesday, October 29, 2019
Living This Complicated Personal Life
From being single, it's amazing how much freedom I have to do whatever I want. Yet, I want to find a very sexy single lady to marry who will do it proudly with me! I'm not sure about having kids, but if they pop out then I have to feed and raise them. It's just what happens, I suppose. When that day happens, I think it's going to make me want to cry a little out of so much joy with finally getting to be a dad.
Yeah, it will be a fun routine of making love in marriage for the rest of my days or as much as my body can handle it. Being around the same lady friend who I was physically attracted to, I guess it comes and go but I just don't care about it. I just have this feeling she's not into doing that sort of thing with me. I accept it because she doesn't feel like my type either. I guess I'm really getting this feel that a weird chick who is one of my closest lady friends and will be moving away soon is like a sister to me! However, she does like me being more confident and hard working. It's universally an attractive trait to keep in mind. Something to keep going with myself, basically even when I finally find my happy match.
I think life is really attitude driven and without a positive one, it makes life a lot harder to deal with. I'm just going to have to personally get in there and make it happen with what I desire to do while leaving out the smaller distractions because after all, there's only 24 hours to spend each day and trying to do everything at once is overwhelming so have to pick the most optimal ones. I guess it doesn't hurt to have cheat days as well sometimes because it makes life so much more fun. I don't believe life should really be all about work until you drop dead. I guess it needs to really be about prioritizing personal values and developing yourself while continuing to go around and meet people while adjusting your outlook in life as necessary.
Yeah, it will be a fun routine of making love in marriage for the rest of my days or as much as my body can handle it. Being around the same lady friend who I was physically attracted to, I guess it comes and go but I just don't care about it. I just have this feeling she's not into doing that sort of thing with me. I accept it because she doesn't feel like my type either. I guess I'm really getting this feel that a weird chick who is one of my closest lady friends and will be moving away soon is like a sister to me! However, she does like me being more confident and hard working. It's universally an attractive trait to keep in mind. Something to keep going with myself, basically even when I finally find my happy match.
I think life is really attitude driven and without a positive one, it makes life a lot harder to deal with. I'm just going to have to personally get in there and make it happen with what I desire to do while leaving out the smaller distractions because after all, there's only 24 hours to spend each day and trying to do everything at once is overwhelming so have to pick the most optimal ones. I guess it doesn't hurt to have cheat days as well sometimes because it makes life so much more fun. I don't believe life should really be all about work until you drop dead. I guess it needs to really be about prioritizing personal values and developing yourself while continuing to go around and meet people while adjusting your outlook in life as necessary.
How Times Have Changed
I used to have a hard time mentally from feeling worn out and with a moody attitude that would constantly flicker around from being emotionally weak to my surroundings. It wasn't easy because I was looking for approval from others, while not being able to accept everything about myself wasn't good at all. It just started to change around when I decided one day to just keep on working hard while keeping self-confidence. It just happens for me like turning on a switch.
A few things in the past are still pretty irritating for me to think about, but I'm not about to let them put me in a bad mood now. I have come to accept that some people just blocked me on Facebook because they just didn't want to get my messages that they were reading. These people sort of upset me, but not really because I was trying to make fun of them with those messages the whole time to relieve myself of my frustrations with them. They obviously had a hard time with me sending them those messages, which is funny in a way actually. I'm totally okay with how the past turned out for me, and it's all meant for the better because there's always room for me to make personal improvements on.
It really doesn't matter, and if I ever go back to visit the few who chose to stay behind and not move on with their lives yet, I better really have some cute plans in store for them! I'm not afraid anymore to speak my mind out in person. I feel so alive and considerate with everyone also. It's not about them and never really was, it's always really been about being sure of myself.
A few things in the past are still pretty irritating for me to think about, but I'm not about to let them put me in a bad mood now. I have come to accept that some people just blocked me on Facebook because they just didn't want to get my messages that they were reading. These people sort of upset me, but not really because I was trying to make fun of them with those messages the whole time to relieve myself of my frustrations with them. They obviously had a hard time with me sending them those messages, which is funny in a way actually. I'm totally okay with how the past turned out for me, and it's all meant for the better because there's always room for me to make personal improvements on.
It really doesn't matter, and if I ever go back to visit the few who chose to stay behind and not move on with their lives yet, I better really have some cute plans in store for them! I'm not afraid anymore to speak my mind out in person. I feel so alive and considerate with everyone also. It's not about them and never really was, it's always really been about being sure of myself.
Plan Of Action With Spending Time
It looks like I'm putting too much time into something that doesn't always feel rewarding. Yet, it's something I'm only doing to try to earn money for making a living. I'm basically going to resort back to playing Poker seriously whenever I get laid off from work and really have to now. In the meantime, I do want to still work on building more of my software engineering skills and just keep on practicing with becoming a great swing trader. Adding in Poker has become too much for me with my busy life.
I think this is making a really wise move. In the meantime, I'm just going to keep on going after hard work and staying confident. It looks like I will be trying to tune out a lot of personal distractions and just go after reaching the goals of my true desires.
Currently, I'm engaged in developing a difficult app with a team on the side and want to put some more effort into building my programming skills. I work as a developer right now so in a way, it's pretty good to add that in as well for my years of experience. I'm slowly finding consistency with being a profitable trader. I would like to hit the gym to build up some more strength and also cook myself some fine meals. I'm also looking to go out to meetup groups which is a place for strangers to socialize and become familiar with each other. It's a great place to make some friends while doing something fun. Just maybe, I'll end up finding someone to be with someday. Also, I'm trying to make some time to keep on listening to my audio Bible daily. I also have a Nintendo Switch with like four controllers to play around with a little for entertainment and to bring with me whenever I can to play with friends.
Stuff To Work On
Well, I don't really practice ethical behavior for the most part if I can get still away with it. Probably the only thing I won't ever do is anything dealing with fornication. It's really ingrained in my soul somewhere to get married before enjoying sex! If I had no Jesus in my life, then I would probably have risked catching some venereal disease by now.
I'm not going to lie about the questionable activity I do, but I just do so because it's fun to pass the time with it and it's not really harming my body with drugs neither is it wasting my money from doing so. It's pretty much downloading software that is supposed to be paid for and using it to my heart's content. I haven't been caught, and I think a lot of people in the whole world do it too. I'm working with obtaining pirated copies of video games even though I believe that they are the only software you should ever pay for. The only consequence is really being banned from the developer's main server if they ever find out, so I'm only playing the offline content with other friends. I guess if I enjoy the game so much, then I'll go out and buy it so I can have fun with others online. On the other hand, I don't really have time to play it so I would never go out and buy it right now. I guess for myself, I'm just calling it a long term trial run for me and if I ever feel like spending a decent amount of time playing a fun game, then I'll go out and obtain the legal copy.
I think the trick to not get banned is to buy two consoles. One for amusement purposes and running pirated copies while the other being a fully legal version and then buying all the fun games you love to play for the legal version and keeping it online while the other being like a fun toy to mess with that you keep offline permanently. I'm not even going to host my pirated copies on a server either as I obtain them because I don't believe I should make any profit off of it or propagate it. Pretty much I'm just a leech with downloading copies and ending it there. It's a little dirty trick I'm playing to get away with not having to pay off some people I respect. I guess it comes down to comfort level and for the most part, it looks I'm just part of the minority really who would do something like this in the population anyway.
It's like if people had the time and money to spend, they would get into playing video games but it seems like the average person really doesn't and will get bored of it eventually so he ends up with only a few popular games that he paid for and played his heart out with already. I'm really looking to save money and explore what makes a great video game because I want to make one too, even though I know there will be a minority pirating a copy of my future game. If I ever get there that is because it will be like my end game level.
I think the best people to work with are those who don't really talk about how they are having a hard time with something and just keep going at it. I mean because it's really interesting to them that they will keep on putting in the hard work to try to make it work. If they are already talking about how they are lacking in skills, then I think it's a very toxic attitude to be around. Even though a few of these people are my friends, I don't think I can ever take them on as professional colleagues. I'll have to branch out and look for better people out there to make some money with.
I'm not going to lie about the questionable activity I do, but I just do so because it's fun to pass the time with it and it's not really harming my body with drugs neither is it wasting my money from doing so. It's pretty much downloading software that is supposed to be paid for and using it to my heart's content. I haven't been caught, and I think a lot of people in the whole world do it too. I'm working with obtaining pirated copies of video games even though I believe that they are the only software you should ever pay for. The only consequence is really being banned from the developer's main server if they ever find out, so I'm only playing the offline content with other friends. I guess if I enjoy the game so much, then I'll go out and buy it so I can have fun with others online. On the other hand, I don't really have time to play it so I would never go out and buy it right now. I guess for myself, I'm just calling it a long term trial run for me and if I ever feel like spending a decent amount of time playing a fun game, then I'll go out and obtain the legal copy.
I think the trick to not get banned is to buy two consoles. One for amusement purposes and running pirated copies while the other being a fully legal version and then buying all the fun games you love to play for the legal version and keeping it online while the other being like a fun toy to mess with that you keep offline permanently. I'm not even going to host my pirated copies on a server either as I obtain them because I don't believe I should make any profit off of it or propagate it. Pretty much I'm just a leech with downloading copies and ending it there. It's a little dirty trick I'm playing to get away with not having to pay off some people I respect. I guess it comes down to comfort level and for the most part, it looks I'm just part of the minority really who would do something like this in the population anyway.
It's like if people had the time and money to spend, they would get into playing video games but it seems like the average person really doesn't and will get bored of it eventually so he ends up with only a few popular games that he paid for and played his heart out with already. I'm really looking to save money and explore what makes a great video game because I want to make one too, even though I know there will be a minority pirating a copy of my future game. If I ever get there that is because it will be like my end game level.
I think the best people to work with are those who don't really talk about how they are having a hard time with something and just keep going at it. I mean because it's really interesting to them that they will keep on putting in the hard work to try to make it work. If they are already talking about how they are lacking in skills, then I think it's a very toxic attitude to be around. Even though a few of these people are my friends, I don't think I can ever take them on as professional colleagues. I'll have to branch out and look for better people out there to make some money with.
Focusing On Time Management
I think there's really only two things for me to deal with now. The first is pushing myself to do some more and then also dealing with being very sleepy. It's pretty hard to do anything more when I'm under those two modes of thoughts. I guess that's why it's not possible for some people including my friends to be successful. After all, there really needs to be also some type of intelligence involved to be thinking about all these things that I'm dwelling on.
In a way, it's sort of a blessing to not have to worry about what others are really thinking about me now. I think I can seriously live my Christian life for Jesus by doing the best I can to live daily for him while also continuing to try to listen to the Bible daily. I'm actually not religious at all anymore, while maintaining my faith in Christ. The Bible is pretty challenging to listen to and understand sometimes for the most part. I'm just listening from using an audio Bible and it's already like my sixth time going through it in about three years. I never feel like I've heard enough so far!
In a way, it's sort of a blessing to not have to worry about what others are really thinking about me now. I think I can seriously live my Christian life for Jesus by doing the best I can to live daily for him while also continuing to try to listen to the Bible daily. I'm actually not religious at all anymore, while maintaining my faith in Christ. The Bible is pretty challenging to listen to and understand sometimes for the most part. I'm just listening from using an audio Bible and it's already like my sixth time going through it in about three years. I never feel like I've heard enough so far!
Monday, October 28, 2019
Manning Up To It
Sometimes, things don't go a person's way especially after asking so if you feel there's nothing wrong about it then it's best to move on, otherwise; open up about it while being nice as you can! I think being a real man is also being able to stay calm within yourself and be really nice to like the meanest person in the world. I'm laughing while knowing it might feel crazy but yeah, it takes a lot of good character to be able to do so.
I actually saved this draft while typing up something fast as I can, and it feels like I was on some major high three days ago. It's pretty nice to be like in that rush. I really need to start exercising better time management and picking things that are the most important. Since I have this job that I have to work and on the side I'm trying to program a really difficult app along with focusing a little on Poker and making lots of money trading currency, yeah it's a huge bundle to take care of each day.
I guess it's fun to play Poker for nothing serious and to not worry about it. It's an interesting skill in that it's like forming a habit and learning to brush off those bad hands or if an opponent catches his miracle card. It really does drive the best poker tournament player in the world nuts when his opponents get away with it and eliminate him. Of course, since his reputation is being a brat, it's okay for him if he gets away with it from everyone else whenever he has to!
I actually saved this draft while typing up something fast as I can, and it feels like I was on some major high three days ago. It's pretty nice to be like in that rush. I really need to start exercising better time management and picking things that are the most important. Since I have this job that I have to work and on the side I'm trying to program a really difficult app along with focusing a little on Poker and making lots of money trading currency, yeah it's a huge bundle to take care of each day.
I guess it's fun to play Poker for nothing serious and to not worry about it. It's an interesting skill in that it's like forming a habit and learning to brush off those bad hands or if an opponent catches his miracle card. It really does drive the best poker tournament player in the world nuts when his opponents get away with it and eliminate him. Of course, since his reputation is being a brat, it's okay for him if he gets away with it from everyone else whenever he has to!
Friday, October 25, 2019
Committing To The Effort
It's pretty much the same in what I'm looking for. I'm grinding away while trying to make a lot of money and obtain a really nice beach body. I'm not doing this for trying to get all the ladies, which might be fun but it's more like because I'm just interested in it. It's seriously the same old in that I just need to keep on pushing myself and working hard at it. At least things don't seem so empty anymore with what I'm trying to do in life.
I'm trying to make money from swing trading, programming an app with a group, sticking around to get a pay raise with my day job, and play low stakes poker. I still need to get outside and start hitting the gym to build some muscle. I also would like to start cooking too, so I need to figure all of that out. I mean it's fun to keep on doing the little things, but I think I just have way bigger plans in store for myself. It's still such a rush while feeling stressful sometimes.
Thursday, October 24, 2019
My Hunch About Dating
On dating sites, I don't think there are very many pretty ladies on there! I've been getting matches with unattractive looking ones since Day 1 while trying out two, new dating apps that highlight my confidence and getting rich potential. It's still fun while building some personal confidence because I know these ladies don't care about my height.
Besides, I can drown out those personal feelings of negativity because of my failures or from others by focusing my attention on being self-confident and working hard at something! It feels good and I give credit to the Lord and Savior of mankind, Jesus! It puts a smile on my face right now while thinking a little bit with after thought. True Christianity really is a liberating faith and this whole feeling of having bondage with religious ties is totally bogus. Some people are cool with submitting like that to an authority because maybe they feel good or something weird like that; I don't really know, but they are dumb in my opinion. It's still their preference, so I'm going to stop trying to make fun of it.
So in conclusion, I think being a genuinely nice person while working hard and confident along with being a successful person with the body of an Adonis, I don't think very many people who know me are going to keep on being so bothered about how short I am if I become that person. If they do otherwise, then I think they need to be recommended some therapy because it's not my problem! I'll see if I can land a beautiful chick. Supposedly, it makes sense after reading this article, https://nypost.com/2017/04/12/why-hot-people-arent-worth-dating/ .
I was going to post it on some social media, but felt it would be too clunky with sharing my opinion about it. Basically, the quote to share from that article is: “Successful men who are in shape have the pickings when it comes to dating, [but] eventually they want a woman of substance.”
I now understand how to change this font back to normal, cool! Okay enough digression, I'm going to try that out with being successful and having a major, hot bod at the same time. I want to test my theory of how being so short will make me harder to resist with shallow women out there, while having that. I'll play games with them while being genuinely nice at the same with hard work and confidence. I'll see if I can melt their hearts away!
Besides, I can drown out those personal feelings of negativity because of my failures or from others by focusing my attention on being self-confident and working hard at something! It feels good and I give credit to the Lord and Savior of mankind, Jesus! It puts a smile on my face right now while thinking a little bit with after thought. True Christianity really is a liberating faith and this whole feeling of having bondage with religious ties is totally bogus. Some people are cool with submitting like that to an authority because maybe they feel good or something weird like that; I don't really know, but they are dumb in my opinion. It's still their preference, so I'm going to stop trying to make fun of it.
So in conclusion, I think being a genuinely nice person while working hard and confident along with being a successful person with the body of an Adonis, I don't think very many people who know me are going to keep on being so bothered about how short I am if I become that person. If they do otherwise, then I think they need to be recommended some therapy because it's not my problem! I'll see if I can land a beautiful chick. Supposedly, it makes sense after reading this article, https://nypost.com/2017/04/12/why-hot-people-arent-worth-dating/ .
I was going to post it on some social media, but felt it would be too clunky with sharing my opinion about it. Basically, the quote to share from that article is: “Successful men who are in shape have the pickings when it comes to dating, [but] eventually they want a woman of substance.”
I now understand how to change this font back to normal, cool! Okay enough digression, I'm going to try that out with being successful and having a major, hot bod at the same time. I want to test my theory of how being so short will make me harder to resist with shallow women out there, while having that. I'll play games with them while being genuinely nice at the same with hard work and confidence. I'll see if I can melt their hearts away!
Seeing the Bright Future
A lot of letdowns happen all the time, and it can be discouraging. In those situations, it might be easy for some guys like myself to just plug themselves back into something wasteful like getting off on porn. I can see how it disgusts some ladies because it doesn't deal with them and maybe they haven't met a really pleasing husband in the bedroom! It is supposed to be like something private and a meaningful connection instead of like trying to put on a show for entertaining others while looking hot.
The solution to all of this mess underneath for me is to just focus on being confident while working hard. Even if it feels boring, it's just something you have to commit to sometimes especially with all these little details. I could be a little more vigilant with my decisions to be better successful while utilizing my time.
It looks like I've gravitated back to playing online poker again but this time I'm having fun with messing around with gaining play chips for free and trying to grow into a multi-billionaire and be one of the best players on there. Afterwards, playing low stakes speed poker makes it fun. They are both different worlds but getting a feel for how they can be interconnected really has helped me to appreciate my losing efforts better!
I'm just trying to conveniently make money nowadays and it looks like using my brain to outsmart opponents from engaging in currency trading wars and playing poker without having to do meaningless business chatting has been fun! I also have a developing job where I talk to others and it's also been fun to collaborate for making a big mobile app on the side. I can see that it's great experience and something to put on the resume, along with having some online mini master's degrees on software engineering, development, and design. I'm just trying to make a lot of money while doing something I'm into and staying in shape.
The solution to all of this mess underneath for me is to just focus on being confident while working hard. Even if it feels boring, it's just something you have to commit to sometimes especially with all these little details. I could be a little more vigilant with my decisions to be better successful while utilizing my time.
It looks like I've gravitated back to playing online poker again but this time I'm having fun with messing around with gaining play chips for free and trying to grow into a multi-billionaire and be one of the best players on there. Afterwards, playing low stakes speed poker makes it fun. They are both different worlds but getting a feel for how they can be interconnected really has helped me to appreciate my losing efforts better!
I'm just trying to conveniently make money nowadays and it looks like using my brain to outsmart opponents from engaging in currency trading wars and playing poker without having to do meaningless business chatting has been fun! I also have a developing job where I talk to others and it's also been fun to collaborate for making a big mobile app on the side. I can see that it's great experience and something to put on the resume, along with having some online mini master's degrees on software engineering, development, and design. I'm just trying to make a lot of money while doing something I'm into and staying in shape.
Tuesday, October 22, 2019
Keeping Head High
I guess a few things can really end up worrying me like yesterday. I thought I lost something I've been working on and putting a good amount of time into. It was really a bummer and thought someone stole it from me. It ends up I just left it in one of my desk compartment. It was a sigh of relief but during yesterday while I was stressing out, I was considering how I could wise up for next time. I'm not going to forget that lesson learned and seriously watch my back better!
There's a few things I seriously need to work on, like putting in the effort to do more even though I feel worn out. I think that's about it! I just need to push myself to get it done more and to deal with all of those confused emotions and to continuing replacing them with an attitude of personal confidence and hard work.
There's a few things I seriously need to work on, like putting in the effort to do more even though I feel worn out. I think that's about it! I just need to push myself to get it done more and to deal with all of those confused emotions and to continuing replacing them with an attitude of personal confidence and hard work.
Monday, October 21, 2019
Best Things To Pursue After
For myself, I think the best things to pursue after in life are the things that you think or know would provide the biggest happiness. It's not just one thing, but from having several desirable things achieved. I guess having proper mental health does play a huge factor. It's also from acknowledging how there's someone close to you or a stranger who can act like a jerk from not being very comfortable about his or her situation.
It was annoying having to deal with some peers who started showing signs of being paranoid and angry with me over something they really had no responsibility with me over in the first place. They were adding in lines of saying how people should live and these people already made their decisions. It made sense that these former friends would act all weird like this because they were trying to boss me around to create what they thought was the ideal church we attended together. I made the mistake of asking for their help, and I didn't think I was that big part of their church. They were mainly showing their cold side because they were unaware of the stress they accumulated from the fast paced culture in Los Angeles. It didn't work out for them and they are laughing stocks, but I'll try to stay classy about it while keeping my cool right now.
I can see that it is pretty overwhelming to contain for some people while being able to fit all this together and stay relaxed. It's really just two things needed for the enjoyable consistency that will follow after: personal confidence and hard work. This being said, let's get to what I think is best for me since this is my personal blog!
Accumulated wealth with freedom to not work
It's easy to see why. The saying of work hard and play hard is at its full effect!
Sexy and healthy body
This is like the ultimate feel-good scenario of building up so much of that up for oneself. It's a lot of hard work to maintain it and so easy to neglect which I disagree with doing.
Preparing delicious or healthy food
There's nothing that could be more rewarding like putting in so much effort to cook tasty food that is also nutritious and filling. I really don't care if this even attracts certain ladies, but it's just something that feels really good personally for me. To be able to cook for loved ones and see them eating it while they are totally honest about having enjoyed it, yeah it's always like the feel good moment of the century whenever that happens. Yet, I don't care if they criticize my work because I can always try again or move on to something else.
Fun
With so many different activities to go try and enjoy a pleasant experience on, the list will never be completed in anyone's lifetime!
Useful Knowledge
Life sure becomes a lot more fun and convenient when you understand how things work and have to solve some minor problems without losing any time.
Sexy and loving wife
Since I'm a straight guy, I'm saying really hot wife! If she is all into giving or getting a fix then it's a no-brainer that she's an amazing woman to her husband, along with having an awesome body.
Love of Christ-centered life
I think the first six things are universally agreed upon to be what would make life so much enjoyable and fulfilling from a human perspective. In fact, the Bible symbolizes the number six to represent man and it means imperfection. The number seven means completeness and heavenly perfection to the ancient world. It's similar to the seven wonders of the world that went around in ancient times. In other words, the Bible symbolizes the number seven to represent God! I really do think having a spiritual resting place by giving worship to the Lord really does rejuvenate our failed heart and provides foundational support with being consistently confident and hard working for a very happy life! It helps one to be resilient, disciplined, and likeable while being mild-mannered.
It was annoying having to deal with some peers who started showing signs of being paranoid and angry with me over something they really had no responsibility with me over in the first place. They were adding in lines of saying how people should live and these people already made their decisions. It made sense that these former friends would act all weird like this because they were trying to boss me around to create what they thought was the ideal church we attended together. I made the mistake of asking for their help, and I didn't think I was that big part of their church. They were mainly showing their cold side because they were unaware of the stress they accumulated from the fast paced culture in Los Angeles. It didn't work out for them and they are laughing stocks, but I'll try to stay classy about it while keeping my cool right now.
I can see that it is pretty overwhelming to contain for some people while being able to fit all this together and stay relaxed. It's really just two things needed for the enjoyable consistency that will follow after: personal confidence and hard work. This being said, let's get to what I think is best for me since this is my personal blog!
Accumulated wealth with freedom to not work
It's easy to see why. The saying of work hard and play hard is at its full effect!
Sexy and healthy body
This is like the ultimate feel-good scenario of building up so much of that up for oneself. It's a lot of hard work to maintain it and so easy to neglect which I disagree with doing.
Preparing delicious or healthy food
There's nothing that could be more rewarding like putting in so much effort to cook tasty food that is also nutritious and filling. I really don't care if this even attracts certain ladies, but it's just something that feels really good personally for me. To be able to cook for loved ones and see them eating it while they are totally honest about having enjoyed it, yeah it's always like the feel good moment of the century whenever that happens. Yet, I don't care if they criticize my work because I can always try again or move on to something else.
Fun
With so many different activities to go try and enjoy a pleasant experience on, the list will never be completed in anyone's lifetime!
Useful Knowledge
Life sure becomes a lot more fun and convenient when you understand how things work and have to solve some minor problems without losing any time.
Sexy and loving wife
Since I'm a straight guy, I'm saying really hot wife! If she is all into giving or getting a fix then it's a no-brainer that she's an amazing woman to her husband, along with having an awesome body.
Love of Christ-centered life
I think the first six things are universally agreed upon to be what would make life so much enjoyable and fulfilling from a human perspective. In fact, the Bible symbolizes the number six to represent man and it means imperfection. The number seven means completeness and heavenly perfection to the ancient world. It's similar to the seven wonders of the world that went around in ancient times. In other words, the Bible symbolizes the number seven to represent God! I really do think having a spiritual resting place by giving worship to the Lord really does rejuvenate our failed heart and provides foundational support with being consistently confident and hard working for a very happy life! It helps one to be resilient, disciplined, and likeable while being mild-mannered.
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