People in general with the exception of those lovely and sensitive ladies and gentlemen love to complain a lot. I have some truthful complaints about only myself and not anyone else. I am going to share seriously about all the wrong things I've done with myself and the wrong feelings that I have with myself. This is to ensure that I am being totally honest with myself and ready to cry it out and then just live in my life being pleasing to the Lord. This could be fun and probably something you are grateful not having ever been caught up with. In a way, I hope to be of service with this truthful bashing of myself. The reason why I share it is because it is the worst part of myself and somehow not life ending for me, which has been a blessing. 1 John 5:16 states "If anyone sees his brother commit a sin that does not lead to death, he should pray and God will give him life. I refer to those whose sin does not lead to death. There is a sin that leads to death. I am not saying that he should pray about that." Note: God does not want us to be in any sinful behavior. Please see Greg Laurie if you have any concerns or questions about self-defense killing, lying to enemies, death penalty, etc.
Okay where do I begin? I'm a person who gets really turned on and wants to view porn for my pleasure sometimes. It's wrong and cheats with being kind and gentle to every women who deserve to be respected. I have tempted thoughts related to fornication and act accordingly sometimes. I get these feelings of strong sexual desires sometimes. I guess I won't mind lots of babies for now with only one lady I pledge to...
Here's another bad thing about me. I feel super short for some reason. I feel like it's a hindrance to my health because of my relatively large build compared to others around my height. I also feel like I don't have the confidence to date taller women, even though I can talk to them now without too many problems. I feel that my life is being ruined sometimes by being short and want to give a quiet fit with myself. I see that the majority of Americans here are like way taller than me, with the exception of a lot of cute girls smaller than me. I don't know what macho part of me wants to make me to strive to become taller. I guess I don't want to be viewed as this short guy getting married to another short girl... I seem to really mind my height for some reason. I have had several battles with these emotions and has been drawing me closer to possessing less confidence in myself except when it comes to knowing Jesus. I know that I'm not super short and really diminutive to the point where an 8-foot man would need spectacles to see me. It still bugs me with being only a 5' 4" male and weighing in at 155 pounds at the moment. Last year, I was 5' 2" and up to 170 pounds. I'm sure I could making a few guys under 5' jealous, but that's not the point. This total height issue is about me and I think those guys under 5' could be total gentlemen and marry the hottest chick in town. They can be very gentle and even tempered!
A friend of mine really ticked me off when he wrote on his prank, which was a temporary restraining order, that I was 5' 2" and 200 pounds. I guess that's really scary to a 5' 7" 130 pounder. I personally see it as totally unhealthy with a ton of fat that can't move for any junk. That guy's name is Washington by the way and has a whole state supporting American-born idiots like him. No need to really bash him because I've been an idiot countless times too!
I can't seem to burn off this excess weight for me, so I really feel that in order for me to be considered healthy I have to work a lot of stressful hours to get super skinny. I can't do that because my body isn't shaped to. I know that many girls would feel pretty enormous if they had my stature. I guess it's a bothersome thing to care about your weight, and there are plenty of nice and honest folk around there to encourage you. I personally want to do the best I can to stay relaxed. The best solution for me is to pray my heart out and work at getting taller. I see myself a taller and stronger family man someday... By the way I'm reaching 25 and I read that you could work your bone growth up to the age 30. Hmm, I don't want to wait until I'm 30 to get married just to wait getting taller and then not get it. I will be super old by then and maybe with a sore back. This is a dilemma that I have psychologically, and I personally think it's really entertaining to share. I'm going to be part of God's kingdom one day too and I thought this would be something fun to enjoy. The worst part of me has been shown and confessed; I feel even more liberated now. There are some things we should not share, if we feel they will cause another person to sin.
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Friday, May 23, 2008
Connection With Sermon Lesson
Paul states in Philippians 2:12, "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." (NIV) The senior pastor at a church I fellowship with said that Paul learned to be happy without having to compare others, while he was in prison. I think this brings up a connection with a lot of Asian family social circles. Some Chinese Christians feel left out because they are being compared to unworldly cousins or siblings in the family. This really deals with them being scorned upon because of a family gossiper viewing lack of success in their life.
1 Timothy 6:6 states "But godliness with contentment is great gain." (NIV) I believe that we don't really need to doubt in how God is working through us because of our faith. God counts us as righteous because of our faith. Romans 3:22 states, "This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe..." (NIV) I know we are all human and sometimes look to be pleasing in other's eyes so we could may be lead them to the Lord. I totally believe it's all in God's personal timing for us to be a witness. Romans 8:28 states "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Remember the story of David waiting in the wilderness to be the next king of Judah and how he went through lot of pain and suffering from Saul? Remember Job's lament that placed Job in a situation to wait for his death to face eternal happiness with the Lord? God delivered both the hands of David and Job. Let's not doubt what Jesus could do for us.
1 Timothy 6:6 states "But godliness with contentment is great gain." (NIV) I believe that we don't really need to doubt in how God is working through us because of our faith. God counts us as righteous because of our faith. Romans 3:22 states, "This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe..." (NIV) I know we are all human and sometimes look to be pleasing in other's eyes so we could may be lead them to the Lord. I totally believe it's all in God's personal timing for us to be a witness. Romans 8:28 states "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Remember the story of David waiting in the wilderness to be the next king of Judah and how he went through lot of pain and suffering from Saul? Remember Job's lament that placed Job in a situation to wait for his death to face eternal happiness with the Lord? God delivered both the hands of David and Job. Let's not doubt what Jesus could do for us.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
No Struggle No Life
What I really enjoy about my surreal life is that I'm enjoying my young age of being 24! Surely enough, I totally feel that my relationship with God has helped me overcome my immaturity with several things in my life. I feel totally free to do a lot of things that will promote my health, to pursue after a career I could be passionate about, and to be open about my genuine faith.
I think we all go through struggles in life sometimes. There are still moments when I write where I feel like I'm repressing some painful moments. I think it's my will to want to connect with others and totally make sense with them. Being highly balanced for me is starting to deal with my commitment and fun factors. I had a long drought of being productive because I spent numerous hours playing computer games that didn't pay for my food! It took a lot of heart for me to give up all my game items to new players, but I did it because I wanted to show these strangers love. I'm realizing that my head is starting to pound away at making key decisions in my life and that I'm capable of becoming responsible. Praise the Lord Jesus for all my progress.
I think we all go through struggles in life sometimes. There are still moments when I write where I feel like I'm repressing some painful moments. I think it's my will to want to connect with others and totally make sense with them. Being highly balanced for me is starting to deal with my commitment and fun factors. I had a long drought of being productive because I spent numerous hours playing computer games that didn't pay for my food! It took a lot of heart for me to give up all my game items to new players, but I did it because I wanted to show these strangers love. I'm realizing that my head is starting to pound away at making key decisions in my life and that I'm capable of becoming responsible. Praise the Lord Jesus for all my progress.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Family Annoyances
I'm starting to realize that when close people who are feeling selfish want to control you, they tend to belittle your behavior; especially if it's hindering their desire at the moment. This brings me up to a new understanding of my mom and sister. I believe that I am entitled to make this negative judgment to them, as it will help me love them better. My sister and mom both exhibit a small heart with lots of screaming and yelling, which gets me really enraged! It is so pestering that I'm going to publish the memory and get on with it.
I realized that they want attention for themselves with trivial pursuit from viewing media. I think there are plenty of close women out there who would act really flustered with you, if they were missing their favorite T.V. show. What I do is play the piano so much, and it bugs the heck out of them. It's really important to me, so I can't stop all of a sudden in general. I feel like I'm serving people. I think playing an instrument and developing a skill is better than being entertained by an idol. I really wonder if my mom and sister are having some trouble with socializing or just in the mood for being totally lazy. I realize that when they tell me to stop, I'm not really obligated to because what they are doing is insignificant to life. I also have this feeling of them being jealous with successful people. Successful people need to get some practice time in. I think overall their hearts are not fully mature, no matter how intelligent they try to portray outwardly. I know they believe they can't be changed inwardly, so they submit if I keep arguing with them. It's really important for me to be honest with myself and not really care about their character attacks, as I know we all can adjust our outwardly appearance anytime temporarily.
I realized that they want attention for themselves with trivial pursuit from viewing media. I think there are plenty of close women out there who would act really flustered with you, if they were missing their favorite T.V. show. What I do is play the piano so much, and it bugs the heck out of them. It's really important to me, so I can't stop all of a sudden in general. I feel like I'm serving people. I think playing an instrument and developing a skill is better than being entertained by an idol. I really wonder if my mom and sister are having some trouble with socializing or just in the mood for being totally lazy. I realize that when they tell me to stop, I'm not really obligated to because what they are doing is insignificant to life. I also have this feeling of them being jealous with successful people. Successful people need to get some practice time in. I think overall their hearts are not fully mature, no matter how intelligent they try to portray outwardly. I know they believe they can't be changed inwardly, so they submit if I keep arguing with them. It's really important for me to be honest with myself and not really care about their character attacks, as I know we all can adjust our outwardly appearance anytime temporarily.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
My Meaning of Being Solely Devoted to Wife
The reason why I make this post is because I have been wrestling with the thought of placing a spouse above a relationship with God. I believe that all believers of the Word must make this journey of loving God before anything else. My real definition with this being solely devoted to a wife is to cast all my cares and concerns that belong in a marriage especially sex to the wife I have married and to not any other idol or person. The context of the Bible states to have sex only under the safety of marriage and not fornicate to protect our purity. More of my thoughts on this later.
I think it makes sense by being disciplined to a spouse, you are placing your primary devotion to the spouse without any other earthly thing interrupting the relationship. No one is perfect by all means, and we need to spend time with a spouse when apart for awhile. God also asks for a spot in our lives through meditating upon his Word. It's a simple thing with reading the Bible, just that not everyone does it enough. I myself have not really spent a lot of time building my faith through reading the Word. I do however study it as much as I can in my second Bible study service on Sundays.
The issue with sex is that I really struggled with piqued interest in the fifth grade for sexual maturity. I realized that a girl was really more special than deserving of being teased and taunted just as my other friends had done. Adding to this credit, it didn't help that I became ensnared with pornography. I really feel that my physiology became so aroused by the sight of pornography I lost control of it and ended up being dishonest by entering fake credit card numbers and passing through the account. I even disregarded the Deterrent page of "Must Be 18 to Enter." I don't think it was really quite enough to protect a struggling adolescent like me. I do know about filter systems nowadays that we could use to protect our children. I hope I can do a better job at leaving a greater impression of staying pure for marriage to my future children.
The thing that I'm realizing is that voyeurism of anything that may sexually pique our interest feeds our lustful temptations. This places us more near to enemy territory and may get us to discern some feelings of guilt and condemnation. I believe that God created our sexual energy for a beautiful purpose. Sex in itself is not a sin. The Bible states that for our happiness of expressing love for a husband and wife, we can enjoy this intimacy in a marriage. With the issue of pornography, I believe it cheats the person we are interested in or the spouse. It's because we are making porn an idol for getting sexually aroused and getting tempted to place it on par with the person we're in love with. "I don't know how this will make any woman feel, by her man having issues of being able to sexually confide only in her."
Another issue with pornography that I've been facing is that I feel a little worn out about getting married. It's been wearing out my natural feelings of being attracted to beautiful women. It's like my heart wants to condemn myself when natural feelings do arise for someone. It's an idol and not really a person. In effect, many feel that getting married to protect ourselves from porn will work. It's not the case because pornography is only used for piquing our sexual interest and not guiding ourselves to the person we want to make our wife. As a result, it causes these struggling feelings of viewing porn to still arise. There are many out there who face pornographic issues even after they marry. It's not to say that you won't be an exception. It's our physiological functions that have gone out of control and the only way to get back into being spiritually right is to learn to discipline ourselves.
I have learned that being turned on by a person is absolutely normal because God needs us to multiply. He also wants us to enjoy a creative expression of love in marriage with sex. It really helps out a lot with restoring our spiritual health in a fallen world. I believe that we don't need to make pornography a central focus in getting us aroused. We don't need it to remind ourselves that we are still in good physiological shape to have sex. Porn really interferes with what is supposed to be a natural feeling.
I believe that some men may feel that they can control themselves sexually by watching pornography. I don't think anyone would need porn to begin with if they didn't have any issue with having sex. Some men ignore fulfilling their wives' wishes of being sexually intimate with only the spouse. When porn is watched for sexual entertainment or for another purpose, it defeats the purpose of having a wife. It's because porn becomes like a standard and it's something you need to live up to the expectation of. Without experiencing a like experience, you can't be sexually happy. By humbling ourselves and letting go of porn, we will realize that there are so many blessings out there we can achieve. Therefore, repenting for the sake of Jesus gives us freedom to enjoy a more fulfilling and fuller life.
I think it makes sense by being disciplined to a spouse, you are placing your primary devotion to the spouse without any other earthly thing interrupting the relationship. No one is perfect by all means, and we need to spend time with a spouse when apart for awhile. God also asks for a spot in our lives through meditating upon his Word. It's a simple thing with reading the Bible, just that not everyone does it enough. I myself have not really spent a lot of time building my faith through reading the Word. I do however study it as much as I can in my second Bible study service on Sundays.
The issue with sex is that I really struggled with piqued interest in the fifth grade for sexual maturity. I realized that a girl was really more special than deserving of being teased and taunted just as my other friends had done. Adding to this credit, it didn't help that I became ensnared with pornography. I really feel that my physiology became so aroused by the sight of pornography I lost control of it and ended up being dishonest by entering fake credit card numbers and passing through the account. I even disregarded the Deterrent page of "Must Be 18 to Enter." I don't think it was really quite enough to protect a struggling adolescent like me. I do know about filter systems nowadays that we could use to protect our children. I hope I can do a better job at leaving a greater impression of staying pure for marriage to my future children.
The thing that I'm realizing is that voyeurism of anything that may sexually pique our interest feeds our lustful temptations. This places us more near to enemy territory and may get us to discern some feelings of guilt and condemnation. I believe that God created our sexual energy for a beautiful purpose. Sex in itself is not a sin. The Bible states that for our happiness of expressing love for a husband and wife, we can enjoy this intimacy in a marriage. With the issue of pornography, I believe it cheats the person we are interested in or the spouse. It's because we are making porn an idol for getting sexually aroused and getting tempted to place it on par with the person we're in love with. "I don't know how this will make any woman feel, by her man having issues of being able to sexually confide only in her."
Another issue with pornography that I've been facing is that I feel a little worn out about getting married. It's been wearing out my natural feelings of being attracted to beautiful women. It's like my heart wants to condemn myself when natural feelings do arise for someone. It's an idol and not really a person. In effect, many feel that getting married to protect ourselves from porn will work. It's not the case because pornography is only used for piquing our sexual interest and not guiding ourselves to the person we want to make our wife. As a result, it causes these struggling feelings of viewing porn to still arise. There are many out there who face pornographic issues even after they marry. It's not to say that you won't be an exception. It's our physiological functions that have gone out of control and the only way to get back into being spiritually right is to learn to discipline ourselves.
I have learned that being turned on by a person is absolutely normal because God needs us to multiply. He also wants us to enjoy a creative expression of love in marriage with sex. It really helps out a lot with restoring our spiritual health in a fallen world. I believe that we don't need to make pornography a central focus in getting us aroused. We don't need it to remind ourselves that we are still in good physiological shape to have sex. Porn really interferes with what is supposed to be a natural feeling.
I believe that some men may feel that they can control themselves sexually by watching pornography. I don't think anyone would need porn to begin with if they didn't have any issue with having sex. Some men ignore fulfilling their wives' wishes of being sexually intimate with only the spouse. When porn is watched for sexual entertainment or for another purpose, it defeats the purpose of having a wife. It's because porn becomes like a standard and it's something you need to live up to the expectation of. Without experiencing a like experience, you can't be sexually happy. By humbling ourselves and letting go of porn, we will realize that there are so many blessings out there we can achieve. Therefore, repenting for the sake of Jesus gives us freedom to enjoy a more fulfilling and fuller life.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Bible Rambling
The meaning of the post is mainly what I feel like I've been doing. It's because I've been just saying stuff that comes out without really any effort.
I'm starting to feel a little base with my faith nowadays. This gives me a little concern that I may be biased. The Bible advises us to go from Genesis to Revelations to get to the full counsel of God. Acts 20:27 states, "You will think in a godly way as you receive the full counsel of God." I think we all like to get sharpened with a brother or sister who is knowledgeable in a key spiritual area. What I really like about the teaching ministry is that the gift of teaching is obtainable and able to be passed throughout generations. Paul stated he was really proud to teach the verse by verse Bible to a hard crowd of believers. I think ideally Paul intended on being an example of how teachers should model their teaching style also. A book of the Bible shows a synopsis of Ezra the high priest delivering the Word. It was taught by expository teaching and distinctive reading of the law of God. To be able to teach someone, the secret is to read the Scriptures and give a sense of its meaning with expository message; this will in fact give the understanding.
I'm starting to feel a little base with my faith nowadays. This gives me a little concern that I may be biased. The Bible advises us to go from Genesis to Revelations to get to the full counsel of God. Acts 20:27 states, "You will think in a godly way as you receive the full counsel of God." I think we all like to get sharpened with a brother or sister who is knowledgeable in a key spiritual area. What I really like about the teaching ministry is that the gift of teaching is obtainable and able to be passed throughout generations. Paul stated he was really proud to teach the verse by verse Bible to a hard crowd of believers. I think ideally Paul intended on being an example of how teachers should model their teaching style also. A book of the Bible shows a synopsis of Ezra the high priest delivering the Word. It was taught by expository teaching and distinctive reading of the law of God. To be able to teach someone, the secret is to read the Scriptures and give a sense of its meaning with expository message; this will in fact give the understanding.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Condemnation is not the key
In response to my last post, I really feel putting this one up really deserves a short look. What I'm really starting to love about my relationship with Jesus is that there's no condemnation in worshiping him dealing with my posts, in light of my weaknesses. I'm really enjoying this fulfillment of my desires and living so freely away from bondage of worldly rules.
When I get into a state of aggravation, I don't really like to think that person I'm vexed with is going to end up in hell. I'm not quite so sure with what makes me moody but I guess it's getting me to open up my mouth. Whenever I open my mouth, my heart seems to want to speak out about Jesus or God or anything Biblically. It's kind of sensationally funny because I'm open to that person I'm mad at to give me Scriptures to apply to my life. I'll surely argue with him or her if I find disagreement in some cases. I've really embedded with my life with delighting in the Bible.
I think one of those mysteries is that God never condemns people who turn against Him. It's literally their choice to face Jesus or ignore him. I know that the world brings so many challenges that makes us want to reject our faith. Like, a tragedy that occurred in a person's life, being mad at a Christian for some reason, questioning about why you aren't fully happy with your life, or just not feeling it at the moment. There seems to be so many complaints that a person can petition against God. We do have hope though, that no matter how narrow your wants are in Earth like having prettier eyes or taller body. We'll be worshiping in heaven the moment this world passes away. We can't force ourselves to love God or change just because a pastor says you should be this way. It has to come from the will of our hearts. This heart that really feels the beat of the heart of Jesus while he lived here in this world. Isn't it amazing that our former lives are leaving us just because we get enlightened by the Word of God? I feel that we [the believers ] are aligned together in the Spirit and Truth. No matter how much Satan's stronghold gets a grab of us or life treats us, we remain in key communion with the Lord.
When I get into a state of aggravation, I don't really like to think that person I'm vexed with is going to end up in hell. I'm not quite so sure with what makes me moody but I guess it's getting me to open up my mouth. Whenever I open my mouth, my heart seems to want to speak out about Jesus or God or anything Biblically. It's kind of sensationally funny because I'm open to that person I'm mad at to give me Scriptures to apply to my life. I'll surely argue with him or her if I find disagreement in some cases. I've really embedded with my life with delighting in the Bible.
I think one of those mysteries is that God never condemns people who turn against Him. It's literally their choice to face Jesus or ignore him. I know that the world brings so many challenges that makes us want to reject our faith. Like, a tragedy that occurred in a person's life, being mad at a Christian for some reason, questioning about why you aren't fully happy with your life, or just not feeling it at the moment. There seems to be so many complaints that a person can petition against God. We do have hope though, that no matter how narrow your wants are in Earth like having prettier eyes or taller body. We'll be worshiping in heaven the moment this world passes away. We can't force ourselves to love God or change just because a pastor says you should be this way. It has to come from the will of our hearts. This heart that really feels the beat of the heart of Jesus while he lived here in this world. Isn't it amazing that our former lives are leaving us just because we get enlightened by the Word of God? I feel that we [the believers ] are aligned together in the Spirit and Truth. No matter how much Satan's stronghold gets a grab of us or life treats us, we remain in key communion with the Lord.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Consequences of raw honesty
I'm starting to realize that raw honesty towards self becomes a good habit to put on. It can definitely keep your hopes up. I'm starting to realize this perspective from looking at my updated resume. I have been trying to hide all the corners and promoting myself to employers. There are so many variables that could get them to misjudge my character. I realize that I have a really good experience in the things that I have accomplished. I managed to change my previous resume to include all the colors that represents me. I think my life's destination and path have been pretty reasonable so far. I know there are some encounters that has made me question my personal validity of existence, but coming through with the answers has made me a lot stronger.
I know that I have accomplished so little, but now I'm growing into a more fuller adult. It means good things to me because I am becoming more active about sacrificing my childish ways. I'm really learning to look after myself. To care the least about myself, the Bible teaches every believer to not worry about their materialistic and emotional needs. I can literally apply it in my life, and I'm seeing that I really appreciate the experiences that God has put me through with defunct relationships. There's a characteristic that I do have that I need to confess. I really love to state the truth, especially if it's going to affect someone after he or she aggravated me. The truth hurts, but it's better than lying and making them an enemy with kissing up to them. Being fake is totally pointless because the truth really does edify everyone engaged in it. Consider it an inconceivable gift that's going to make you happy by perceiving some retaliation upon a highly sensitive individual. Praise God for my self-defense mechanism with people who try to wrong me with their moral compromises.
I know that I have accomplished so little, but now I'm growing into a more fuller adult. It means good things to me because I am becoming more active about sacrificing my childish ways. I'm really learning to look after myself. To care the least about myself, the Bible teaches every believer to not worry about their materialistic and emotional needs. I can literally apply it in my life, and I'm seeing that I really appreciate the experiences that God has put me through with defunct relationships. There's a characteristic that I do have that I need to confess. I really love to state the truth, especially if it's going to affect someone after he or she aggravated me. The truth hurts, but it's better than lying and making them an enemy with kissing up to them. Being fake is totally pointless because the truth really does edify everyone engaged in it. Consider it an inconceivable gift that's going to make you happy by perceiving some retaliation upon a highly sensitive individual. Praise God for my self-defense mechanism with people who try to wrong me with their moral compromises.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Let's Get Happy, Biblically
What I enjoy most talking about God is that I can state the basic things about Jesus and then just leave it up to the Holy Spirit to invite the person I'm witnessing to. These days I am really starting to feel a little compassionate for everyone I meet. I realize that my emotions are becoming more sensitive and judging people in a sense that isn't condemning.
I know that raw honesty is one of the greatest tools that a person can have to tell their story of how Jesus has helped him or her. We have so many great teachers and opportunities available in this country. I find that many are still developing their faith because they are still unsure about everything the Bible says. Another reason I'm sensing is that a believer does not want to witness because he feels afraid he will stumble away from his faith. This is the emotion I felt because I was unstable for a period of time. The Christian walk isn't always that easy and in a way, the best relationship we can possibly find in this world. The Bible encourages to love God and others; it is very powerful because we see more love coming from the creator in Heaven.
There are many things that go on in my life. I personally don't want to define myself as a religious person. I have had so many failures in my life, and even a rock-bottom period. My parents have told me the emotions I've felt are entirely normal. I believe that I went through a period of stupidity and acted like a complete idiot at times. My thoughts and wants weren't aligned fully, until I repented into agreeing with every single word the Bible will truthfully induce. That's why the Bible says the path is narrow in our walk because there's only way, and it's Jesus!
I know that raw honesty is one of the greatest tools that a person can have to tell their story of how Jesus has helped him or her. We have so many great teachers and opportunities available in this country. I find that many are still developing their faith because they are still unsure about everything the Bible says. Another reason I'm sensing is that a believer does not want to witness because he feels afraid he will stumble away from his faith. This is the emotion I felt because I was unstable for a period of time. The Christian walk isn't always that easy and in a way, the best relationship we can possibly find in this world. The Bible encourages to love God and others; it is very powerful because we see more love coming from the creator in Heaven.
There are many things that go on in my life. I personally don't want to define myself as a religious person. I have had so many failures in my life, and even a rock-bottom period. My parents have told me the emotions I've felt are entirely normal. I believe that I went through a period of stupidity and acted like a complete idiot at times. My thoughts and wants weren't aligned fully, until I repented into agreeing with every single word the Bible will truthfully induce. That's why the Bible says the path is narrow in our walk because there's only way, and it's Jesus!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Making Commitments
My life is starting to center a lot around commitments. It's pretty awkward having to write about a few things that could blow its cover. I believe that through honesty and placing our trust in the Lord, no matter what incidences we go through in life, the Lord will always be there. "Thy Word is a lamp onto my feet and a light onto my path." (Psalm 119:105)
We all should cast our cares and concerns with the Lord. I'm starting to think that prayer isn't about convincing God what we want, but rather spending time to know and grow in our relationship with God. 1 John 5:14-17 states that when we pray according to God's purposes, then we know that God hears us. It's a little hard to sometimes figure why God allows some things to happen in our lives. For this reason, the book of Job can stir a lot of questions for a believer when bad things happen for being faithful. The Bible is something we all can learn to trust and grow deeply rooted in. Sometimes, things may go wrong but that is only because sin affects the world too. We all do not have a full understanding of why bad things happen to good Christians. In this respect, it's something we all need to take consideration of with the Lord personally. I, myself, feel like I had problems emotionally before and that little things would test me. I've fallen because of me failing to use discernment from the Lord, which can help us to stay upright.
We all should cast our cares and concerns with the Lord. I'm starting to think that prayer isn't about convincing God what we want, but rather spending time to know and grow in our relationship with God. 1 John 5:14-17 states that when we pray according to God's purposes, then we know that God hears us. It's a little hard to sometimes figure why God allows some things to happen in our lives. For this reason, the book of Job can stir a lot of questions for a believer when bad things happen for being faithful. The Bible is something we all can learn to trust and grow deeply rooted in. Sometimes, things may go wrong but that is only because sin affects the world too. We all do not have a full understanding of why bad things happen to good Christians. In this respect, it's something we all need to take consideration of with the Lord personally. I, myself, feel like I had problems emotionally before and that little things would test me. I've fallen because of me failing to use discernment from the Lord, which can help us to stay upright.
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