People in general with the exception of those lovely and sensitive ladies and gentlemen love to complain a lot. I have some truthful complaints about only myself and not anyone else. I am going to share seriously about all the wrong things I've done with myself and the wrong feelings that I have with myself. This is to ensure that I am being totally honest with myself and ready to cry it out and then just live in my life being pleasing to the Lord. This could be fun and probably something you are grateful not having ever been caught up with. In a way, I hope to be of service with this truthful bashing of myself. The reason why I share it is because it is the worst part of myself and somehow not life ending for me, which has been a blessing. 1 John 5:16 states "If anyone sees his brother commit a sin that does not lead to death, he should pray and God will give him life. I refer to those whose sin does not lead to death. There is a sin that leads to death. I am not saying that he should pray about that." Note: God does not want us to be in any sinful behavior. Please see Greg Laurie if you have any concerns or questions about self-defense killing, lying to enemies, death penalty, etc.
Okay where do I begin? I'm a person who gets really turned on and wants to view porn for my pleasure sometimes. It's wrong and cheats with being kind and gentle to every women who deserve to be respected. I have tempted thoughts related to fornication and act accordingly sometimes. I get these feelings of strong sexual desires sometimes. I guess I won't mind lots of babies for now with only one lady I pledge to...
Here's another bad thing about me. I feel super short for some reason. I feel like it's a hindrance to my health because of my relatively large build compared to others around my height. I also feel like I don't have the confidence to date taller women, even though I can talk to them now without too many problems. I feel that my life is being ruined sometimes by being short and want to give a quiet fit with myself. I see that the majority of Americans here are like way taller than me, with the exception of a lot of cute girls smaller than me. I don't know what macho part of me wants to make me to strive to become taller. I guess I don't want to be viewed as this short guy getting married to another short girl... I seem to really mind my height for some reason. I have had several battles with these emotions and has been drawing me closer to possessing less confidence in myself except when it comes to knowing Jesus. I know that I'm not super short and really diminutive to the point where an 8-foot man would need spectacles to see me. It still bugs me with being only a 5' 4" male and weighing in at 155 pounds at the moment. Last year, I was 5' 2" and up to 170 pounds. I'm sure I could making a few guys under 5' jealous, but that's not the point. This total height issue is about me and I think those guys under 5' could be total gentlemen and marry the hottest chick in town. They can be very gentle and even tempered!
A friend of mine really ticked me off when he wrote on his prank, which was a temporary restraining order, that I was 5' 2" and 200 pounds. I guess that's really scary to a 5' 7" 130 pounder. I personally see it as totally unhealthy with a ton of fat that can't move for any junk. That guy's name is Washington by the way and has a whole state supporting American-born idiots like him. No need to really bash him because I've been an idiot countless times too!
I can't seem to burn off this excess weight for me, so I really feel that in order for me to be considered healthy I have to work a lot of stressful hours to get super skinny. I can't do that because my body isn't shaped to. I know that many girls would feel pretty enormous if they had my stature. I guess it's a bothersome thing to care about your weight, and there are plenty of nice and honest folk around there to encourage you. I personally want to do the best I can to stay relaxed. The best solution for me is to pray my heart out and work at getting taller. I see myself a taller and stronger family man someday... By the way I'm reaching 25 and I read that you could work your bone growth up to the age 30. Hmm, I don't want to wait until I'm 30 to get married just to wait getting taller and then not get it. I will be super old by then and maybe with a sore back. This is a dilemma that I have psychologically, and I personally think it's really entertaining to share. I'm going to be part of God's kingdom one day too and I thought this would be something fun to enjoy. The worst part of me has been shown and confessed; I feel even more liberated now. There are some things we should not share, if we feel they will cause another person to sin.
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