At first glance, I am thinking to myself, no, I am not going to be a jerk to force myself to never find a girlfriend. I feel like I'm not qualified because I am a culprit who has looked at pornography and tried to feel like it is not perverted. It has been an addiction to enjoy looking at the female body. It's something that's been hard to keep my mind off of. I mean I have great friends who are female and they are very tall and attractive as well. I don't mind having female friends because it helps me out personally, a lot. I think it's been more about keeping to myself and living out a fallacious fantasy.
A silly worry that I have developed to try to trick myself into watching porn is that I might think that I don't have enough sexual stamina. I guess it's not true entirely because I think I have an average amount so I know I'd get the job done. Okay, this is really making me laugh writing all this down. I don't ever want to deal with this gross thing of masturbating ever again. I was feeling really uncomfortable about being around others because I would occasionally feel like I'm slipping up from viewing porn and then masturbating. I really want to get out of this habitual sin for life. If my consequences from God is to never be able to enjoy a sex life, then might as well suck it up like a man and still be a diligent and sexy as possible even though I could be single for the rest of my life.
A silly worry that I have developed to try to trick myself into watching porn is that I might think that I don't have enough sexual stamina. I guess it's not true entirely because I think I have an average amount so I know I'd get the job done. Okay, this is really making me laugh writing all this down. I don't ever want to deal with this gross thing of masturbating ever again. I was feeling really uncomfortable about being around others because I would occasionally feel like I'm slipping up from viewing porn and then masturbating. I really want to get out of this habitual sin for life. If my consequences from God is to never be able to enjoy a sex life, then might as well suck it up like a man and still be a diligent and sexy as possible even though I could be single for the rest of my life.
