I guess it really comes down to the bottom line of consistency and controlling my feelings and cravings of wanting to just have fun and let time go loose. Time is money! Once the time is gone, it's not coming back.
I think the worn out feelings underneath probably just mean that I need to continue to persist and let myself aspire with the alotted time I decide to go with. I'm starting to just not really think about it as much anymore and to be able letting myself face better situations.
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