I guess I'm just starting to recover from a lot of bad stuff that happened to me with people. Those people are a bunch of idiots too! Oh well, it's just how it is and I have to keep on living and relying on the spirit of the Lord for all my strength.
I guess it's pretty ironic and deceptive to think about the most shallow things and be upset over not having them. This isn't really living a true and meaningful life. Being able to conquer those things that bring you down starting from your own heart is very cool.