Hmm..Quest Fulfilled?

I'm back to the recovery block again with abstaining from porno. I lasted about a week. I guess it didn't take that long for me. What killed me was my desire to do some edging and I managed to last 25 minutes. Nothing to really boast about. I know how to control it now and there's a technique that I am able to logically put to use. I can also release when called on command. Heck, I have the ability to be a male porn star now from practicing but don't want it. Again, with this ability and being slightly above average, it's nothing to really brag about, but yeah, I beat my quest of getting this task out of the way.

I don't have to be a premature bomber now if I ever get married. I know how to control it, but yeah, again it's nothing to flaunt my way about. Okay, because of that and that actually I was able to control it while feeling at ease and conscious with everything- just because I think it's immoral based on my own beliefs, I feel really dirty.

I even prayed to God to get this answer man! Okay, I have it now so time to move on and not come back to it. It's like packing my goods up and keeping it in a storage unit for later use. I don't think I'll need to dust it off very much. With this whole being turned on thing now with hot girls, I'm actually quite used to it and see it as normal! There's only one drawback though; a girl doesn't stay that hot for long unless I'm really into her. It looks like falling in love might seriously come into play for me. It's besides just going for physical and chemically induced intimacy with a partner.

Watching that "Survey says" game Family Feud, it said that women don't really care for their lover to be concerned about sex. This basically means then that hanging out and laughing while having fun being together like expressing love and cooking for her or even putting on some dance moves to entertain her is what they value more. Basically, sex is not on the top of the list for a typical woman.

This gets me thinking that this one friend I'm getting these interesting feelings for is not really into sex. She's probably thinking it's more for raising a family then something pleasurable. She's fun and super cool to hang out with, so I guess a relationship growing from that doesn't seem too bad after all.