Time Management Issues

I was mostly tired throughout the day and just ended up taking multiple naps to recover. Now I'm six hours in and don't feel satisfied with my day.

I ended up watching some golf, eating food, playing a little bit of MTG, sleeping some more, and watching porn for like 10 minutes after being bored with masturbating. I was interested in seeing if watching porn would make masturbating go by quicker and it did. Trying to go for seconds proved to be very boring and felt like would take quite awhile so I quit.

Yeah, it's wrong for me to do that and goes against my morals. I believe that I'm a hypocrite for believing that what I'm doing is wrong but helplessly giving into this guy's activity. Hey, people have sexual needs, but I need to get married to a hot and equally believing woman who loves sex to appease my spiritual desires and beliefs in God.

I have problems right now which is that my savings isn't enough. I need to come up with $200,000 to reach my goal. My money situation isn't that great. It could be better. If I decide to go for a humble lifestyle and not so much of this world, then yeah, I have enough, but it won't be easy. I'm not for that.

Writing about my activities, I feel shameful and could do better. Instead of doing what I've been doing, it's fun to me. I think I'll just turn those into rewarding activities and give myself bits and pieces of it without indulging too much. I think that's what my problem is. I'm spending way too much on my own rewarding and playful stages.

To have a more balanced lifestyle, I need to do other stuff as well. I think that's where I'm looking to go for.