It looks like the truth is that it's pretty much the norm to suffer emotionally in this world. Probably from having gone through it so many times, maybe it just causes this feeling of numbness and lack of interest after awhile. What I come to deduce out of it is that it's going to take time with actively seeking out something and then when the right moment pops up, it's something you can just settle on.
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