Working Efficiently as Possible

I now feel that it's urgent for me to reach my main personal goal as fast as possible, so I don't leave my soul friend/soulmate hanging. These emotions are from being sensitive about how she's dating someone and I don't yet. I also want to reach my goals, so I think this is helping me with giving me that extra push I need to stay vigilant. 

I'm not feeling impatient about all of this and willing to keep myself pushing forward. It can also be that I need a break from my special friend.  

Becoming More Productive

Since I've found out my ideal type who I'm already great friends with and is my soulmate, I'm not interested in pursuing her if she ever becomes single again. I want to try finding someone who is a tad better than her. I think this will make me really happy, and I know what to look for mainly that's going to work for me so it's nice that I can treat her like the dating standard for me. Another thing that I want to try for is looking for someone a little younger than her as well to possibly have more healthy kids. 

I don't think I need to fool around now by searching online for images of attractive ladies since looks don't really matter that much to me. I will just work on being serious about fulfilling my main personal goal because it's a stepping stone for me to build my full confidence for finding a good partner. 

What I Need to Work on

I keep on forgetting to do my nightly cleanup like brushing my teeth before going to bed. I have been just falling asleep somewhere while sitting on something and then hours can whiz on by sometimes. One of my friends thinks I have a gift because she constantly wakes up early! I thought things might be changing a bit with her having a boyfriend now, but I guess it's not anything too much different still. 

It also makes some weird sense in that this friend of mine is my soulmate. I don't even want to associate as a third wheel nor even travel with them anywhere. She's the one who likes to invite me to go out with them. I'm like no way each time. After the first couple times, I started focusing on why I'm so uncomfortable with them and told her everything about it. Another friend thinks I'm brave, but it's just because I'm also soul buddies with my soulmate! 

I've mentioned already that we both don't want to be lovers and I'm the one saying she's my soulmate. She and I have agreed that we are absolute soul friends. I think with her being a soul friend, it's also part of the reason for her being my soulmate. For me to be happy, I just need to find a person who is a little better than my absolute one and only soulmate and then this person is technically better than my soulmate! I'm not going to say better soulmate but just better than my soulmate which just makes it feel so much better for me. 

Two Main Things for Resolving Stupid Conversations

For the pre-step, I guess it helps to be able to already accept what you are going into and then hear the other person start saying that he thinks you are really crazy. This didn't bother me. I told him that I know he doesn't like it. He said he's not bothered by it. I told him then there's no need to say anything negative about it. He didn't say anything after and then I said we can take this personal matter to higher ups which he declined. I ended up winning the verbal sparring match while he looked like a dork. 

To make things flow so smoothly like that for yourself, you have to be able to 1.) put in the effort to communicate properly and 2.) just be yourself. It's really that simple or maybe it's just being myself that I like to feel how I whooped someone at a stupid conflict. 

Interesting Standard for Romance

I have come to learn that a really good friend and yes, she already knows about it is my one and only soulmate. We can be lovers if we both wanted to, but we don't. We are still like the greatest of buddies who are out there. It's like we were meant for each other to be this way, and how it must be fate that we both discovered each other. 

She's my standard with a person I'm looking to partner up with. I'm interested in trying to find someone who is a little better than her. I think I'll be really happy if I do for the 

Staying in Touch With Reality

I think my reality right now is reaching my main goals. Along the way, I'm starting to make some significant progress with people and it looks like I can still break the bad ones from my past conflicts I feel bothered by. 

Man, I have some power to break people more than I do with lifting them up. I guess it's just a matter of being in the mood for spraying some salt or black pepper.  

Email to Friend Who I Fired as My Dating Coach

Hey [female friend],

Looking back I now think it was messed up that you thought I was like a brother to you and asking me to be my dating coach. It's not right and failure is already waiting to happen. You were already giving off some type of negative energy there with your friend lol.

It would be better if you coached a guy who really needs it from you and is good looking enough to you like [weird, good-looking friend]. He won't ever accept your offer though no matter how hard you try lol. Guys like [my weird, good-looking friend] who are interested in getting a dating coach and have a blank slate with you. I think those are the guys you should be finding. 

It shouldn't ever be your guy friends who you think are like brothers lol. 

For myself, I found my soulmate. We can be lovers if we both want to, but we don't. I can just talk to her about dating for free lol. 

Working Hard to Gain Goals

My number two goal after reaching my first one is finding myself a better partner than my soulmate! I'm glad that I'm lucky enough to have found her but she's been in a lot of failed relationships and I'm not always physically attracted to her. We can seriously be lovers if we both wanted to but we don't. She's dating another person right now, and I think that guy might not be as lucky as he thinks. 

We recently celebrated his birthday at her place and then I felt like they were going to do some of that intimate couple business while she insisted on me spending the night. She said that he was going to leave but then they ended up laying down in bed together and she said they were just talking. I was originally in her guest room, but then I was like no way, I'm out of here after hearing them!

My next goal will be finding a better partner than my only soulmate. She's going to be forever my only human soulmate while I'm alive. It might be hard to understand, but that's how I want to just run it for myself. I don't think it's going to be an impossible task, so I guess I'm making my soulmate a standard for me to surpass in finding a partner to be happy for the rest of my life. I'm starting to become pretty open about dating anybody and being patient about it, so it's going to be interesting to find out more about the ladies who tend to be attracted to me since I used to be really shy about dating. I also don't care about being rejected because that will only annoy me more and motivate me to find a better partner than my forever and only human soulmate!

Going With Main Goals

I'm finally understanding the type of player I am with making money. I want to make a living off of being a low maintenance, zero-sum game player. I don't need any recognition of how much I made; neither do I need social contact with people while doing work. 

For maintaining happiness in my personal life, I think it's really all about continually striving for something and working on having good communication. I do have my faith in Jesus though and still want to practice the Christian life even if mine isn't the ideal, religious type anymore. I'm just listening to a pure Bible recording whenever I get the chance since it's like the same thing as going to a worship service for me. I like to tune in and let my mind wander off sometimes. I'm also cool with staying supportive and hanging out with my less dedicated friends who are believers. 

I think I've already had several moments to share my faith with unbelieving friends. Even if the discussion and examination of my life might only be so brief, I hope it does positively influence them to trust in Jesus someday. I think I should say a few prayers or more, but I'm so non-judgemental with my friends about their lifestyle choices and pretty easygoing. 

Finding Motivation from Irritating Circumstances

It's now apparent to me and about time that I'm feeling irritated at sensing some unfairness directed towards me. I'm ready to even feel more resolved with fulfilling what I want to do quicker.

I'm going to start using these emotions to propel me to greatness with my obtaining my main goals. I'm noticing that I can still work around my current ailments and find something to improve upon even if it takes me a while. 

If anything now, it's like if I'm rejected by a girl I want to try dating then I'm only going to feel greater resolve to get there so I won't be giving up on finding someone else who is supposedly better for me. I have the total self-confidence and enough positivity under my belt to work hard for it even though I'm a short guy which is going to be already naturally rejected by several ladies. My only defense is that I'm very confident I have normal genes based on my physical appearance.  

Maybe my soulmate isn't that great of a person from what she likes to call herself and being sometimes full of it. Yet, she's my soulmate and I'm never letting that go forever. It's just that I don't need to be with her to be happy. 

Current Outlook

I'm now taking a more practical approach. As of this moment, I'm feeling very irritated to the point of being motivated to complete my intended goals faster.

What happened to me is that my soulmate ended up finding someone else to date. She's been giving me mixed signals and now frankly, I'm ready to just move on from her. She's always going to be my soulmate which is only buddy based, but still, I believe that a soulmate's a soulmate so it means the same thing to me. 

I know that I don't need to be with her to be happy and I believe that I can do better. I'm just more motivated from being irritated to be on the move and finish my goals quicker. She may have been giving me mixed signals which I decided not to talk about but it's like maybe flash forward, a few years later if I find someone else more attractive and nicer than her to be partners with then I'm going to stay happy.

For the time being, what I want to work on is having better communication with people so I'm going to start discussing these thoughts with my soulmate. To me a soulmate is just a title given to only one person and she has it forever with me. We're confirmed at the soulmate friend level but I'm just going to give her the title soulmate since it means the same thing to me. It shouldn't be too hard to accept that based on my current belief, I can at least meet someone better than my soulmate! 

Main Method of Making Money

It looks like I'm going to be doing the best I can to net my first $10 K profit with the tools I have now. So far, I am making some return while having about $20 K invested. With the current rate of growth, I will need to save and accumulate about a $100,000 portfolio before I proceed to take it to the next level. I currently project the length of time to be about four years.

I do want to speed up my rate of return while keeping the same investment style as closely as possible. I will also be looking to get myself into trading cryptocurrency. 

Staying Focused

Something new that I finally noticed for myself is how I mentally relapse and then let time fly by. What's going on in my mind can be a variety of different feelings and imaginations. It can happen to me a lot while I'm focusing on some type of work. 

It looks like working with what I have and being satisfied with it might really be just enough to turn myself into a millionaire. I don't really see myself working so hard at it eventually and just being patient about building up income as fast as possible while putting in the least amount of effort. This is my type of cup of tea with being financially independent and having freedom to explore different parts of this world while dabbling on different 

Starting to Work at Making Money

I'm realizing that I'm pretty bored with sitting at the computer and actively engaging in a game of online Poker while trying to look for weaker opponents to take all their money from. It just doesn't feel worth my time when I end up losing my whole buy-in! 

I'm going to just stick to stocks, forex, and cryptocurrency for now. We will see how this goes. 

Trying Out Something New With Reading and Preparation

I'm going to start playing a game with myself to make it fun in whatever I read by just practicing speed reading and trying to gain as much as possible out of it on my first try. If it's important and has details I think I need to achieve something, then I will go back to review it more closely. 

This is really going to start speeding up my process of reading through like 100 emails per day at work! I'm ready to start going after becoming more efficient. This morning I woke up super early at around 3:15 am and it took me almost two hours to get myself ready for work. I was showering, shaving, going to the bathroom, and grooming myself! This is just way too long for me. I want to start speeding up the process, so I think I'll take a shower, shave, and lay out my clothes I will wear the next day first to cut down on preparation. I would really like to go no longer than thirty minutes while going at a comfortable pace. 

Giving Up and Moving On With Friend Who Wants to be Dating Coach

She started out by being defensive and saying that I misinterpreted her about what she meant with "stepping out of your comfort zone" and then went into what a normal friend would do to be supportive. I responded by telling her that being positive doesn't really relate to anything at all with stepping out of your comfort zone. That's naturally a feel good type of thing. Just because she says most friends agree with her doesn't mean people she doesn't know will. Her friends could just naturally be supportive of her. She does get to be selective who she chooses to be friends with. 

I then told her she sounds pretty full of it with her whole coaching gig! I'm not a believer and probably won't be convincing her either with my view. I conceded that if it makes her happy then good luck. I'm moving on with this. 

She asked if I've seen the TV show Indian matchmaker but I've only seen an episode on a similar American show. My take on it is it's just really for entertainment purposes but doesn't really suit my interests too well. 

I'm pretty much seen as a scrub and it's really the pretty ladies and successful "It" people getting over-attention in this world so I just have a decent support system with two trusted homegirls and one of them happens to be my soulmate. 

Positivity does work but it's great to combine it with self-confidence and hard work. If you are blinded by too much ego, then things will go wrong but you can still learn from those experiences while staying positive. I think it's the ideal art of perseverance. 

Polishing Up Reaching Goal

I'm actually much more motivated than ever, but looking at the long run it's probably not so bad that even my soulmate might not end up getting with me. It's totally possible we could though, but I'm currently prioritizing focusing on reaching my goals and even the soulmate says I should focus on these important goals first!

It's pretty cool that I actually have a soulmate and it took a while to notice it with her since I wasn't even looking for it. She brought it up with me first and I naturally brushed it off with a pretty lame joke. It was still funny to her though. 

I'm processing this now after realizing that she's dating someone and wants me to always be there with him! I don't want to be a third wheel and it's really irritating to me to think what they could end up doing with each other. I would rather stay so far away from it and will be trying to find my own dating partner so that I won't feel so irritated anymore being around them. To get there though, I have only one goal in my way; it's becoming a millionaire with a six pack!

Continued Debate With Friend Who Says She's a Great Dating Coach

I told her that she shouldn't consider that her methods will always work. She believes that if anyone steps out of their comfort zone with her methods then they will succeed. Stepping out of your comfort zone without any backed science can be another way of saying you are brainwashing someone into doing whatever you say is right. It's like stepping into a cult and everyone telling you to step out of your comfort zone to make yourself happy and then you end up giving up all your savings! There may also be exceptions to saying her coaching methods will always work, but yeah she shouldn't go around advertising her services with people who remind her of how I used to be in the past. It might be a big mistake!  Plus, she never mentioned any timeframe. These are people's sensitive lives she is dealing with and mentioning stepping out of your comfort zone without breaking it down analytically is already a red flag. 

I'm ready to move on with this debate going nowhere and her just wanting to keep on saying she's right about everything without explaining. I told her that she should just go ahead and be herself. I'm happy I've learned to be assertive about holding my position with anything that doesn't make sense to me. The best coaching methods should be effective and easy to apply while making sense to them and appealing to the willing individual. It's not about just going out of your comfort zone. I have a feeling she isn't going to get that big of a recognition for any groundbreaking work and that many referrals from customers with how she currently plans to coach. She already knows my stance if people ever ask about her coaching ability. 

I recommended that she should look up Tony Robbins. This guy has been successful with coaching millions of people and even the top world leaders.  

Happy New Years

At this point, I don't really care anymore about a few mistakes from some peers causing me some emotional grief and anger management issues. I was crazy to get out of it without prescribing any therapy. It's because I felt very strongly that I would have wanted to keep on slapping the shriek, if I ever did show up for a session. It took me a very long time to figure it out. However, it always feels like I finally understood everything only yesterday. 

What has helped me so much is changing up my brain chemistry with some positivity and self-confidence! I only discovered this inspired route maybe two years ago, so that's probably why it still feels so fresh to me. The next thing I practiced was just totally being myself 24-7, so it meant being totally honest even in uncomfortable situations. I have been considered to be brave to a normally attractive buddy with social anxiety (not my type, but still very protective of her), especially when it came to opening up about my true feelings with my soulmate when she got into a new relationship. I'm currently on a break with her and feel happier to be working on clearing my angry feelings with her. It's just that I totally wish she was more open with me about this relationship besides trying to play it lowkey with me more smoothly. I feel like I can't trust her thoughts about her dating life so much anymore. 

It's probably that she's quite into public affection, which made me more incensed to make me feel like I'm going to get back at her by dating a partner who is just a hair better than her. This is what I'm very motivated to do right now. I might even settle with this goodhearted woman I find next, since my soulmate and I have already made up our minds to never be with each other anyway! We're still soul friends, as complex as this interpersonal conflict has driven us into so far. 

Reaching Goal as Fast as Possible

As of this moment, I'm doing the best I can to be awesome at my day job so that I can gain so much more job experience and take it with me to the next one if I'm forced to. 

For my side endeavors, I'm dabbling mainly in stocks and Forex. I'm slowly building upon experience with holding and trading cryptocurrency assets and playing fast-fold online Poker. These are the main things that I want to be decent enough at to diversify my good and bad days while balancing out to a net worth over a million dollars someday. I'll be happy with just that amount and then start chilling while looking for a genuinely nice lady to settle down with. 

I've made a little progress in my non-dating life. I have a confirmed soulmate friend who is a girl! She really isn't perfect and I think it really just irritates me thinking about her being with someone else, so I guess it reminds me to pick up the pace and work harder to reach my goal so that I can then place my next goal on looking for someone to settle down with. I think I'll just be constantly irritated whenever she's dating someone and I think about it until I'm with a good girlfriend! As of this moment, I'm not interested in trying to get with her but I have started to argue with her to accept the idea of dating short guys who are like me.

Reaching Personal Success Before Getting a Girlfriend

I think personal success for me is becoming a millionaire on my terms from making investments and trades. My style is about holding on as long as possible while holding profit and letting go of losses. 

I do know a friend who thought he was the best from making short term trades, but then he ended up getting burned. He believes in taking a little piece each time and being accurate about it while risking a huge load of money. This adds up to a lot of frustration ultimately. 

My style might not seem even plausible and too laughable to even try to achieve but so far, it's been working out for me and I'm staying super relaxed. It's really about being patient and going at a moderate pace for me. There's no need to let greed or too much blind confidence take over with getting rich. I've sort of passed those stages of emotions now.

Once I've reached my first million dollar net worth and have six pack abs, I'll be ready to get a girlfriend. She might not even be from my parents' ethnicity which will be disappointing to the parents and other old time thinkers but I'm obviously not going to care about eloping since I know the type of girl I really want to marry. 

Critique on Friend About Being Dating Coach

My friend is a slightly funky type of girl and wants to coach one of her friends who has dating problems. I told her good luck on working with that girlfriend. I don't really know if she will be successful with coaching her though. If she was like her sister she grew up with then I would understand but her personality issue seems to be rooted in something deeper than just forcing her to change around a few main behaviors for dating. What if she reverts back to any unwanted behavior for the guy she truly wants to be with? With this whole thing about wanting to be in a committed relationship and failing to do it with someone already with a particular guy she likes, it's like the guy might actually be a good match for her and wants long term too but there might be something about her that just hinders it. I think she could be a candidate for seeing a well-credentialed relationship therapist. I don't even know if my friend has time for studying something so intense like that. 

I honestly think her best level of starting out with some date coaching success will be working with someone hot and interested in a dating relationship but just shy about meeting people. She can then be like their professional wingwoman and make suggestions but they would have to also like them. Overall, I don't think she's totally cut out for coaching people through the more commonly difficult dating issues. 

Following Up Story About Friend Who Was Trying to Force Her Way in to Being My Date Coach

I'm going to share something since I'm starting to warm up to decent discussions about my potential dating life. My thoughts about it are becoming more detailed and pretty interesting. 

A long time ago this friend was quite a party animal and liked making herself drunk. She was more of a lightweight, if you compare her to a regular guy. Maybe she pregamed as well, but I think with just two stiff cocktails, she became so buzzed and blacked out. She hosted and threw some fun gatherings, which I'm grateful to have been part of even though it ended up having an unfortunate scuffle with a former couple. Those two were labeled by another friend as the perfect drama king and queen couple! 

Here's the juicy part. She was a lovey dovey drunk and came onto me a couple times. It was so annoying since I never will take advantage of a drunk girl to begin with. It's just not winning the right way at basically having some good and fun time! I'm still proudly holding onto my chastity like a champ and don't want it to go to waste since I'm just not ready yet to find someone to date and eventually settle down. I just don't have it made for myself yet, but I'm trying harder than ever this time.

I really don't know if she liked me a little in the past and maybe she's forgotten about it by now if she did, since I'll admit that I wasn't at least ugly for a short guy and probably a gentleman for some time before a few crazy incidents took me out of commission. I was just uptight about dating since I had to work on myself and figure it out

Giving Tip for Friend Who Tried to Force Being a Dating Coach

You can start off by being realistic and finding an actual pretty hot or cute person with a high chance of finding dating success. Start off with something easy. I'm not someone dating coaches should seriously consider coaching to begin with. I wasn't very satisfied yet to start looking for dates seriously and distracted with finding personal answers. I'm now living my life to fulfill these answers. Basically, it's a given that a guy being short generally gives him a harder time with finding someone to date. I can't respect a dating coach who can't address this aspect and this friend failed to live up to it.  

The friend is trying to coach another friend who is a girl to find a long-term relationship. I'm not sure if it's occurred to her that maybe the type her friend is dating is the reason for short term relationships. Maybe she should try out something fresh. Also appearances wouldn't matter in the long term when it comes to making daily decisions with a partner anyway. If a handsome guy or beautiful lady you are dating cheats, do the looks still matter with retaining your trust? Why be so close-minded to begin with? 

This is all starting to make sense. 

Updating New Method of Trading Forex

I'm going to just keep it simple with how I trade this time around by looking at the monthly and daily chart, while making an entry on the 4-hour chart. This seems to be making the most sense to me. I'm noticing that with how the monthly chart forms with its candlesticks, the daily chart will show the market following in that same direction in the long term. This practically means to me making reliable money! 

My plan of attack is treating the Forex market like I'm treating them as long-term stocks. I really do like playing it this way, so I'll see how it goes from here on out for the next few months with this same simple strategy. 

Merry Christmas

I've grown up around tradition and I've bought into the Christian faith. There are plenty of people out there who don't want to abide by religious beliefs. I guess I sort of get it now too. It's just so wrong to try to force people to believe something that they aren't ready to receive nor can't perceive. 

I was such an annoying person even to my old and crazy stupid peers who turned into a bunch of failures with leading a highly successful life at the top level. I mean who really gets there, right? For sure, they didn't, which I can write down with a sign of relief! 

I'm someone who is motivated and very confident about reaching his end-game level and then going beyond with just a constant barrage of high-level enthusiasm filled with positive energy and great attitude while sharing a wonderful life with a good woman. 

Honestly, I don't really care about looks anymore. Just don't be a partner who turns too fat and lazy with me. I will be such a mess to deal with from trying to always force that person to improve her health condition. Whatever physically good things I'm feeling with some women, it can still work on all body types and it gets accentuated from just getting to know her nice self. 

It turns out that even my soulmate isn't that wonderful of a person and can be a little ignorant, even though she is still amazing to me, so it won't be too hard for me now to find an interested lady who will exceed her by just a hair. 

Happy Christmas Eve

What's pretty crazy is that I'm writing this post on September 15 of this year. It's just interesting how I'm running these posts. I'm well ahead of my goal of averaging just one post per day on this blog site. 

I've managed to do it fairly well for the most part for almost the past ten years. It's something to be expected of me now, and this is really all for nothing. I thought I freaked out a few people while I was dealing with some emotional problems but I've worked on it over all these years and now I'm happy with a ton of confidence underneath me. 

Physical appearances on a woman really don't matter to me period! I'm really into an acquaintance right now because of her sweet demeanor. I'm one of those kinds of guys. 

For example, a friend told me that I'm like a brother to her and that she wouldn't ever think of dating me. I messaged her a few days later that I was never interested in her anyway and didn't know why she brought that up with me. She felt like I was picking on her! Wow, she better watch out what she says to me in person. I've learned that I'm really sensitive about being called like a brother by a girl except for my actual sister, so I better tell her that before she gets around to hearing how I never was going to ask her out anyway! 

Making Progress

So looking back on the progress I've been making with myself so far, I never did really appreciate a friend demanding to be my dating coach! I mainly had issues with lack of self-confidence and nobody not even those dumb annoying folks who claimed to know more than they thought about me was of any good help to me. Typically, I just need factual information and as a guy who naturally uses the scientific method, I can run personal hypotheses with tests and personally come up with analyzed conclusions that are always subject to change. To explain how it worked practically for me, I just went to a professional researcher's free presentation on neuroscience and then that changed my life around! 

Even though it might feel a little cringy to me at first glance while receiving feedback from a friend sometimes while I know I can't see her facial expressions, I really do appreciate her taking some interest to comment and ask me questions even if I sort of feel like she is still rubbing me the wrong way a little. It's a test of personal strength utilizing anger management! In a way since she is already taken, I can see her like an older sister that I never had while growing up! If she wasn't then, I would want to say to her like most girls that she isn't my type. I don't like mentioning this to most girls when they say I'm like a brother to them. It's because I'm giving off a negative. If I think there's potential with someone like the one who switches back and forth with how I'm like a brother and then later she goes "I love you" then I think I will be happy to tell her she isn't perfect and that I can still date other ladies. She's still quite a special friend to me though! 

Getting Things in Order

I think the reason for maintaining a To-Do list for me is just to see with my eyes the list I have set in place for me. It's like a starting point for me because I have a bunch of distractions lined up to take me off course at any given moment. 

The art of time management is to be fully invested on the important tasks and prioritize them in order of time sensitivity. I prefer to get things out of the way first that can be done quickly that are important and stand out.

Staying Fully Invested

I think my secret and internally intangible sauce comes from just thinking fully invested while putting it on auto-pilot instinctually. 

From what I'm feeling, it looks like my friendship with this one lady is blossoming more beautifully and emotionally it's better than awesome when things are going good. I don't know, but maybe I've found my future romantic partner. She isn't perfect by any means, neither is she the ideal body type I look for in ladies normally but there's just something really special about her to me. I guess I'm more mentally checked in with her than I was with being zoned out in the past. 

Understanding How to Be Da Bomb

I've managed to write a pretty good song for use on the piano and it also includes original lyrics. It took me a pretty good three years to just get the gist of the whole composition. It's a sad song about breakups but has a very positive tune to it. Yesterday, I played it for a girlfriend. 

Our future status is pretty wild and unknown. It's fun and I like it that way! She's been such a sweetheart with me and I always enjoy respecting her space. I'm making subtle moves on her whenever I feel like it and it's just for fun. She's also dating other people and hasn't felt committed to someone yet understandably. Anyhow, I'm taking her dating tips and suggestions very seriously whenever she shares them. It's important for me to put them into use right away for her primarily and keep it in mind whenever I try to seriously date another lady. She's been such a cool find for me! She says that I've practically gained many qualities over the years to be her type. 

Getting to my main lesson of the day (TA-DA!!!) , the song I made by myself and can proudly state is like a favorite child of mine came out to be pretty good. However, when I tried singing Backstreet Boys with a seasoned singer at a small TV studio yesterday, boy, I was so terrible and out of tune. Yet, the audience and singer were super sweet with me. 

I've learned something very valuable. In order to turn into someone good at something, you should be fully invested in it like how I was with developing my song.  

Finally Killed It

I think I finally killed it. The saying goes that you can only understand life from having past experiences but you can't live backwards. 

This is what I wrote to those dumb people and this is likely my final message that they will never be able to confirm with me:

The secret to being in harmony with me and also applies to others is knowing your spiritual gifts. What all of you guys tried to do with me is not a demonstration of your spiritual gifts. It was more of trying to force your opinions or advice on me that was never invited by me. I disagreed and you guys became too negative. 

Maybe identifying one of your weaknesses as not being that patient because there's really no length of time that should be involved and not in self-control while angry about not being left alone which all of you guys deserve to have placed upon you for having been stupid with me is a good place to start! 

What I Think It's About

Nowadays, I think it's all about having a ton of self-confidence with a positive attitude and working hard while concentrating as best as possible daily to reach your main goals! The key is to be consistent while committing to something that just interests you so you can stay motivated. 

I'm really not all that into being recognized and don't really mind the world never setting its attention on me. I'll just keep doing the best I can while continuing to grow as a person. I really enjoy doing this and still feel like a fresh person with this type of mindset. 

Continually Making Progress

My next line of interest after doing stocks and Forex trades is working with cryptocurrency coins. I'm looking to diversify my side business with low starting amounts and looking to let that ROI grow into an extravagant rate while moving fast and being able to repeat all of this as much as possible. I also want to keep all of this convenient without having to stare at the screen all day. I prefer managing all of it just once a day ideally, unless I'm trying to figure out something. This is what I'm mostly doing to begin with. 

I'm not entirely worried about going broke, since I have my limits already capped. 

My financial expenses are still in order with bills getting paid. I plan to keep it this way while working on this whole side business. Lastly, I'm back in business with learning to master some recreational and fast-fold online Poker. 

Gaining New Forex Creativity

I'm starting to understand that there's really no perfect system, but from tracing the current indicators I have, I might have put together something really powerful for myself. From reading up on past strategies that were hard to comprehend, I just made sense out of it with what I have and it's finally aligning up with telling a believable story. 

The idea is to buy low and sell high. This is pretty much the main idea and using trend lines to create a channel pretty much helps. I've found some likable indicators to make the filtering process smoother with analyzing potential trades, but for the most part I think I almost have a complete system that I can faithfully stick close to. The process of how I'm trading seems to be lining so well with the market's direction. It just totally makes sense. 

Updating Forex Trading Strategy

It looks like I'm back to another losing month where I'm trying to make sense out of my indicators and getting it to work conveniently for me like an artform. For me, the story goes like this. I want to first know the directional bias of the market for the week. The indicator I'm using is a simple oscillator that shows me up or down at any moment.

Next, I want to check if the price for today is at a favorable level to make a trade or is pointing in the same direction. I'm using a trend level indicator and/or the same indicator from the weekly. 

My last check is on a subset of the daily chart from breaking it down to 4-hour movements and looking at practically the same thing as I did with the daily. 

What I have going is based on how the week is doing and deciding if today is a good time to get in with set parameters, get out early, or switch directions. 

What I'm Noticing

I think the main things to do well in life are to basically put in the effort to consistently concentrate while knowing what you want to do and staying positive with a ton of confidence. It can be hard sometimes or maybe you will want to get lazy from feeling worn out. This is probably where the mental health concerns can come into play. It requires a ton of dedication to basically set your mind on something that appeals to you. It can really be just unexplained feelings of negativity and feeling worn out while pushing through, but it can be lived through from thinking positive thoughts and having confidence no matter what and just pushing yourself to the limit on a daily basis. 

What matters in the end result is that you're happy with what you are doing. 

Main Things

I think it really comes down to having confidence and building chemistry with the girl a guy wants to be with. Obviously, it gets a lot easier if both are each other's type. My type is simple. She has to be a very nice person and someone who I want to always get intimate with! 

I've learned something new that I should apply. If any lady, even if she's a friend, says that I'm like a brother to her, I can just say something along the lines of how I'm still busy working on reaching my goals and/or she isn't perfect while agreeing that I could be dating someone else. If I don't really like her after thinking about it in that way, then I can just tell her that she isn't my type and apologize to her about it while laughing. 

The past in dealing with others who turned crazy with me is ironically centered around the subject just being all about me. I accept it with a lot of positivity now and some hidden feel-good laughter. 

Balancing Time Management With Personal Principles

I think establishing a predefined set of actions with common decision-time situations will really help move things along more efficiently. This can help identify some wasteful activities from binging carelessly on some mental or physical cravings. There are also a bunch of in-betweens that can happen too and leave one without much resolve. 

I think it's really about just giving it your best every time and looking around the best way you know for solutions while staying positive about all of it! 

What I'm reminded of is that it's like putting yourself at the starting line and then going for a long run while self-managing and focusing on everything you can about yourself. 

Staying Committed With Self-discipline

This isn't anything old, but now I figure that in order to reach personal goals and especially those hard ones then it's going to require some consistency with putting in the effort, while setting aside the smaller things. It doesn't necessarily have to feel good sometimes unless you're lucky maybe but it's really about being committed to some sort of lifestyle. 

I do have some clear goals now, and I've gone through so many ups and downs that they are still the same after being tested for several years. I can now put those concerns of having a lack of direction aside and focus on the actual meat. 

This is very valuable and might as well treat it with taking care of the most important and mandatory or time-sensitive things first before giving in to other things to keep yourself balanced. I think this is the very essence of time management.

Feeling Willful Duty

I believe in my heart that it's my duty to remind the others from my past of how stupid they were with me! 

I couldn't tell what they were up to back then and I was really struggling to find my own personal ground from lacking so much confidence. I felt like I was being walked all over by them when I would persist in talking about what they were doing to me. I wanted to be nice by just nudging at them to remind them about being a bunch of jerks. They were so focused in that crazy zone to even take notice of themselves. 

Overall though, they failed to do whatever bad they were trying to do to me. They totally had it all wrong with trying to force their own help on me negatively. I never asked for their help and neither did I let it get to me so much that I put myself in any trouble. They couldn't handle me talking about myself and the subject was me which they claimed to know more by acting in a crazy manner because I disagreed with them and went for discussion. 

I'm totally on par or better with my optimal state so I'm ready to take on this duty to just let them know and advise them not to be like that with anyone or themselves when they are so angry about anything. Let's make this world a better place to live in for others who are shy to have less reason to be scared. I have been one of them, but broke out of my shell.  . 

Working Hard to Make Some Money

I'm figuring out based on my personal principles that it makes sense for me to take the long term and easy approach. I don't really want to spend my time researching anything and just use a systematic format that's just laid out conveniently for me. I don't want to limit myself in what I can invest, too. 

This is why with the funds I currently have, it makes the most sense for me to invest in stocks and trade in both Forex and cryptocurrency. With all of these, it's easy to put in any amount that you want to risk. I have been doing a little bit of options, but find that it's not that favorable for me because I don't have enough funds to risk it and the price of entry does get too high for me right now. I'm going to have to wait to build up my portfolio with the others first. This way, I'm going to have experience with the foundation in case I have to start over. I hope it never comes to that though because it's probably going to take many years for me to get there. I don't really mind though.  

It's just four things for me to build my wealth. My last one is software engineering. 

Asserting Something About Myself

From what I've learned about my preferences while having e-mail discussions, I think it sucks to hear regular people's thoughts about personal relationship topics! I never ask for it and a few have tried to impart their flawed wisdom on me. This is how Crazy Lee came barging into my life! It's a pet peeve of mine and something that I'm going to have to minimize experiencing by keeping my feelings to myself moving forward. 

I don't see my future S.O. as a regular person but someone super special! I have been learning that being completely honest about it with others when I'm confronted has been working well for me on maintaining relationships.

Understanding a Friend's Lack of Potential

Looking back, a high school friend of mine is really quite an idiot. He likes to be a show-off and feel like he's on top of the world one day if something happens and relive the most memorable ones, after it passes even if his life is sinking deeper into depression!

I can accept it while laughing at him and telling him straight up but I still need to put some work on myself so he won't be able to make any comeback statements that end up irritating me. For this reason, I'm not hanging out with him anymore but I'll be back once I have that in order. It's been a year already and might stretch out into several. I guess it's good to avoid his negativity and work on my main goals while being comfortable spending my time with some great friends instead. I just don't need anything from him anymore!

For the most part, I have four points about him that I will be sharing once I have my main goals in order:

1. He thinks working to make money on his own and then owning his own place is very hard. He claims that he knows everything, but this shows he doesn't.

2. He thinks he's a little better than everyone overall. There are people who have gone all the way from the bottom to the top. He's not better than these people.

3. Once I reach my main goals of being a millionaire with a nice home, six pack, good wife with possibly kids, and living much more happily; all of this is just a plain average life to me. He is below average.

4. It makes sense that he has come to accept his own depression. He deserves to be where he's at in life and to stay there. 

Basing It Off Personal Principle

In order to maximize reaching my main goal, I have realized a basic principle for myself. I want to get there in the smoothest way possible. This means that I'm setting aside my dating life and maximizing personal gain to the best of my ability. 

Poker is a pretty fun game to play with others and to try to master even with little money involved, but I don't want to get serious about making it a profession to reach my personal goal of becoming a millionaire. The reason for this is that I want to always put in the time for positive gain and how some Poker sessions can turn out to become a losing one. Even the best Poker players in the world have bad outings once in a blue moon and are televised for our entertainment!  

Playing online Poker to gain only play chips which I'm doing is enjoyable because none of my money is being put at risk. I'm even a high rolling billionaire in the Play Poker app I'm using! 

The unique situation I have going with investing in stocks while trading in Forex and cryptocurrency is that I don't need to put that much time into monitoring it while I can do something else. If my portfolio is losing one day, then I can just wait for it to turn around or just exit some positions. My money is being put at work to gain passive income and the associated risks don't really outweigh the benefits of enjoying my free time at any given moment. 

In contrast, for the very same reason of how my principle is to not put in work for a losing session, I'm not meant to be a traditional business owner because I don't want to put my money at risk like I'm doing with playing online Poker. However, investing in stocks and swing trading as a business is affording me a lifestyle that I have preference for. It's just different in that I can put in some negligible time into it, in order to build wealth. 

For my day job, I'm going to stick with software engineering because I enjoy it. It's a positive activity with learning because the more I know, the more I'll be putting myself in a good position to start off my own successful line of software products and working in a cushy job. 

To start off with building my wealth, I'm going to stick to only four things: stocks, Forex, cryptocurrency, and software engineering. 

Balancing Things Out

Maintaining my main goal in a sense does cause me to have a more balanced and cleaner life. I want to be a millionaire with six-pack abs! It's not really for all the social status as it would probably not even be enough for that. I just want liberty from having worked hard for financial independence and having free time to enjoy the great outdoors while being healthy. 

I think I have barely enough talent to make that happen for me. The rest of it is going to be putting in so much hard work. 

Let's Get Rich

Learning how to get rich will probably take a while to figure out because you will have to know what you are truly interested in. Exploring your options while going through some ups and downs is so worth it. It's just better to maintain a ton of positivity and keep it consistent once you are settled in.

For myself, I want to be less of a hands-on kind of person and spend a lot more time doing other things instead while investing or trading. This is why I enjoy long-term holds or swing trading. I don't want to be constantly staring at a computer screen while chasing after a target or figuring out when I should make an early exit. 

I've settled with hiring some help and am pretty happy with my setup. I have entrusted a conservative investing group for research and another for simple software tools to make managing my portfolios daily so much convenient. I probably average just thirty minutes a day at most now to build my portfolios. 

Something that could take me a little longer than an hour is playing fast-fold online Poker for money. I'm looking to double up or bust before calling it a day. I have a strategy that works fairly well and is starting to close in with consistent gains. 

Overall, I have five things right now to build my wealth. I plan to diversify with more once I have a high enough portfolio value. They are software engineering, Forex, stocks, cryptocurrency, and fast-fold online Poker. 

Getting Better at Making Money

I think the main thing is pretty much knowing what to look for and being comfortable with the money that's being put at risk. It's probably good to get your feet wet and read up on your sources and if it makes sense then just go along with it. 

I'm really looking forward to the day that I won't really have to work anymore and just be home while collecting wealth off of an early retirement and living comfortably in a good home while married to a nice, attractive lady. It seems like the best dream goal to go after for me. 

For a personal update on trading Forex, I'm implementing a multi-chart system and it seems to be working well so far with signaling a decent amount of profitable trades. I'm still fine tuning it but feel like I can only keep on getting better with it. I have made the Weekly to be looking for my main trend, the Daily to be matching the weekly trend, along with an oscillator that follows price action and is on the upper half of the price channel; and lastly, for the 4-hour chart to be on its upper half of the price channel. Something new I plan to add is that if the Daily trend is showing uncertainty then I will be looking at the 4-hour chart for confirmation. 

All this can't be explained without leaving out a video or chart but I'm not in the mood really to be fully sharing this system. I think I've given enough hints for anyone interested to start out with making their own trading system which will probably end up being entirely different from mine as well!

I'm going to be getting into cryptocurrency trades now as well. Online fast-fold Poker is something I look to be playing for profit as well. 

Reaching the Top Potential

I think in order to get there, you really have to be able to take on the labor intensive requirements while adjusting yourself on the go naturally. You have to start thinking about how you can utilize some things that interest you while letting yourself be educated by smart people! The way I like to learn right now, which is not too much different from the past, is doing it on my own. 

Looking back now, I don't think I ever needed to go to school and could have dropped out, but I lacked direction and had virtually no self-confidence and motivation from being mind-locked and eventually numb about my concerns with the future. I pretty much came up with a simple goal and did enough to barely graduate a 4-year college, despite not performing at my highest level while being a young college student. 

My worries used to be on things that didn't relate to school, like I wanted to do well on all my friendships, even the bad ones. I assumed in the beginning that everyone was good and equally trustworthy, so the ones who were friendly with me were okay to be around. It was only wishful thinking, now that I'm fairly disillusioned about it.  

Trying Hard to Gain Rewards

With the basics that I know so far and works for me, it's mainly about keeping a positive mindset while trying to stay focused and working so hard in a steady fashion. It's not easy to maintain this because the mind, body, and soul will naturally want to rust and place itself in a happier and less stressful environment sometimes. 

I think this is why always maintaining a high level of confidence with a positive attitude is so crucial to keep your main goals alive. It's really just a matter of doing it consistently and should start feeling better once you start experiencing more success from constantly practicing in something. 

Eliminating negative distractions really do help and it's also something that's tough to recognize for yourself. I realize now that I lucked out by doing it naturally for myself for some time. 

Staying True to Main Focus

Right now, I really want to work on reaching my main goals before finding a good lady to settle down with. Being simple minded, I possibly have in mind a couple girls already who I get along with if they end up staying single. I'm not too sure it will stay that way though, but still, I'm not worried at the very least about getting married late in my life. I already know my type of girl is bountiful in this world and that there will be plenty more to pursue if I ever get turned down.

I'm really enjoying what I'm going after right now. It's not the most difficult thing in the world either from being relaxed about the help I've decided to hire. I'm starting to connect the dots I want while feeling the confidence without having any qualms about working so hard. 

Relating to Something Interesting

It's probably a great thing to live life without having any regrets. Sometimes things happen from not getting timely information or not being dealt a good hand. In those situations, you just have to embrace it and do your best to work around it or just reset.

Something positive that I've learned from an inspiring quote is that anything isn't really a waste of time if you enjoy it, no matter how big or small it feels to you. I enjoy working on relationships, even the bad ones. I think I can end up making all of them look bad and project that image onto others who are near. It sort of makes sense to me that they would feel like they have nothing good anymore to add and how I naturally just like to pay attention to certain details while interacting with people whether it's good or bad and then bring it up right away to them whenever I feel it's necessary or appropriate. In other words, I've become absolutely capable of quieting annoying dissenters who claim they know more than me when it comes to relationships! I haven't ever been asking them for that kind of advice anyway. 

Making Plans to Get Rich

My personal goal is something I'm focusing on right now like a mission. I want to be financially settled in before dialing in with trying to settle down with a beautiful and nice lady. I will be keeping up with my goal to get a six pack as well too, along with working on my arms for more toned muscle. 

I have stocks, options trading, Forex trades, fast-fold Poker, cryptocurrency, and developing apps at my disposal for gaining financial independence and plenty of free time. This is what I want to work hard for from knowing God has something good for me out there upon reaching it! I feel like I can't wait for it underneath and have so much excitement. Let's get this done. 

Things I'm Working on

I think I've really figured out my type of girl that I'm really looking forward to marrying someday. The main thing is that I want her to have a nice personality and have enough to make me want to get intimate with her regularly. I can't find any other honest way of saying it properly!  I'm not really going to stay disappointed either if I get turned down for any reason. I believe there's already enough out there to try pursuing. Overall, I think this is just natural and comes from God. 

One of the Christian girls I used to write to ended up sounding weird with me. She said that we're going to be leaving this Earth anyway so it doesn't matter what we accomplish in the end. What she learned was probably just a hyperbole supported by a Bible verse but instead, God still has His plan for us while we are living in this world. It's already been said that all things work according to His goodness. It could be a coincidence but I think deep down inside she's been associating herself around ignorant believers with negative energy. I probably made her feel really dumb and offended with my response, which I intended as a joke because I was always trying to get her to laugh and she never showed any signs of doing that while I was trying to bug her with messages. She wasn't ever able to get me in trouble either and prefers shutting herself off right now.

   

I like to think outside the box and be successful with it, but it isn't easy to come by often. I think my main goals may really be in line with the Lord's plans since the Bible also talks about them without mentioning them to be sins. It's also naturally who I am as a person, as I am living my life based on the level of faith I have in Jesus. 

Update With Making Investments

Nowadays, I'm adjusting to my plan of getting rich while using the tools I currently have. I'm about taking a conservative approach with trading high volatile markets. Most of my investments are in stocks though, since it has been my most stable long term portfolio. I want to increase my ROI so I've sold some shares that I'm uncomfortable with and will transfer them into mostly crypto. I do have a system in mind that I will likely be following. 

The biggest thing that I've been uncomfortable about investing in crypto is the high tax rate that the IRS looks to impose on those traders. I plan to suck it up and pay my dues. I prefer being financially well-off rather than being fearful about high income tax that I'm totally against paying. I can find clever means later to do tax write-offs like the rich people do anyways, if things end up going my way. 

While doing options, I'm now open to calling puts and also selling covered calls later on when my stock portfolio gets to be big enough. I don't intend to risk more than 1-1.5% of my portfolio for speculated trades while gunning for huge profit. This way I get to take advantage of my highly diversified portfolio and have exposure to all the markets that are out there. 

Making Progress

I might honestly have stumbled upon a money making trading system that really suits me. The main idea is really simple- it's buy low and sell high. It's from testing out different ideas over the years that I'm just putting it all together that works best for me. We will see if this works out in the next three months. I think I'm really onto something that might always work consistently now. This can make it my secret million dollar trading system that I've been looking for all this time. 

Overall, I'm really happy to be doing things that I'm interested in and learning new things. I want to keep on getting better at being efficient while putting in the work. Basically, my money makers on the side are going to be for now investing in stocks, cryptocurrency, and options, playing online fast-fold Poker, trading Forex, and developing apps. I really have a deep interest in doing well at all of these things and would like to make myself into a millionaire. 

I plan to also get into investing in bonds, precious metals, and real estate as my wealth accumulates. It looks like I have a really satisfying direction to make myself financially independent for the rest of my life and will be obtaining an ability to pass this off to my posterity. 

This Can Happen to Normal People

I do a lot of self-analysis so I'm figuring out that people berating me over the little stuff gets me mad and then I do something I think is funny and creative to them to get it out of my system. It gets on the nerves of those who discontinued communicating with me. I was never that bad because they can't get me in trouble with the things I say to them while I can with them but those people have negative energy that they should get some mental help to exercise self-control or relieve some anger issues. 

So for example, Michelle got all scared from not understanding the situation. It was between only Washington and me and had nothing to do with her. I was asking her if she could get involved to help out with my vendetta against Washington. I just did it with the intent of getting even with Washington and just needed Michelle to talk to him about it to feel relieved of the situation. I also wrote in an obvious sentence that I wasn't going to bring it up ever and let it go if she said no but she ended up turning weird and dramatic while not being able to drop it. That's why she can't get me in trouble and blocked communication with me while complaining I was a scary 5 feet 3 inch man! I was filled with so much anger from calling it B.S. under my skin. She was just filled with negative energy from maybe like going through her girl cycle? I don't really know, but it's not important for me to ask her about it now. 

It's Really All in the Attitude

What I'm noticing for myself is that having a positive disposition in life helps a lot with personal confidence. I think a friend who I haven't spoken to in a while thinks he's always a little better than everyone else so ends up acting reckless with pursuing his dreams. What makes it even harder to relate to him is that he's also very shy about making a move on girls even though there's really nothing physically wrong with him. He talks about how he doesn't want to raise any kids, but wants to be with his soulmate at the same time. This type of negativity has been irritating me for some time. He isn't mentally fit enough for me anymore to be one of my closest confidants even though I've known him the longest from high school. 

For myself, I have tried and realized that in the online dating pool, my dating profile just doesn't interest the ladies I want to try being with in general. Studying the numbers, it has added up for me. 

Single ladies in general are insecure about dating short guys. There are only a handful in this world who are very secure about themselves and don't mind dating short men. From my experience though, I have some luck with dating mainly girls around my equal height. They don't seem to mind staring into my handsome face most of the time! I can't reach these girls online either, since I know they are already in demand with normal guys. I have to physically meet them in person to make the attraction count. This isn't really my preference most of the time, but I can also have dates with ladies who are slightly taller than me because I do have enough manly features. I just need to muster plenty of confidence and like them enough already before I try asking them out. 

Keeping Up With Energetic Focus

I'm gradually realizing my hopes and dreams a lot better, along with understanding true confidence. Ideally, nothing should bother someone and occasionally despite the disadvantages; you just have to find a smarter way around it while working harder than people normally would. It's just the way it is with working your way to get to the top and reaching a nice satisfaction point. 

I think with everything I have going so far, I'm only meant to be a one-hit wonder when it comes to getting people interested in me. I want to bank off of it by using any talent to make a popular app. I have reasons to keep on learning to be a better software engineer. 

In addition to being fun, I want to increase my wealth by perfecting my craft in trading and investing. I look forward to the day that everything comes together and I get to finally reach my ultimate goal. 

Applying Good Qualities for Obtaining Long Term Success

I'm having so much fun trying to get to my main life goal right now which is becoming a millionaire with a six-pack. It is really sad to notice a few individuals out there who look out of it and have nowhere to go in life. Whatever led them there, I can only hope that they can find the right souls or inspiration to keep on existing at least sufficiently in this world. 

I know what it's like to be suffering from not having any job that you can be happy with and also struggling with self-confidence issues. Still, I put myself through the grinder and it's from just seeking for answers out there while also being blessed in my faith of the Lord Jesus Christ that I've managed to come along and find inspiration to keep on perspiring with my purely good motives. 

The things I've identified for myself that will result in reaching my ultimate personal goal are positivity, confidence, patience, consistency, and hard work.

Working on Decent Hustles

For this post, I'm going to be using some jargon to mainly keep myself accountable. It's pretty interesting in that I feel that I am holding myself accountable by being honest about myself and doing all the emotional dumping that I have to do on this blog site and get away with it! This style of posting is really about never accepting any responses. It's mainly just plugging in regular content and then getting something or few people to visit this site daily, besides myself!

In general, a lot of these things are my side hustle besides my main job. I'm embracing my role now.

My main form of profession is software engineering with an emphasis on developing software. I'm happy to have found something that I'm decent at and enjoy doing to make a living. I'm going into mobile app development on the side and want to put something on the market based on being inspired. 

For investing in stocks and options, I'm relying on a conservative group for guidance and will be sticking with them for as long as they can keep the fire burning. I'm saving up my money and putting in at least $1000 each month into investments. It's just a matter of time before it compounds and makes me a healthy chunk of change!

My next level of investments belong on the riskier side. They deal with trades in Forex and cryptocurrency.

I'm making Forex trades on a 4-hour chart that I feel comfortable with after examining the monthly chart for each currency pair. This is now my new style that I'm experimenting with. 

For cryptocurrency, I'm only interested in holding Bitcoin for the long term so I'm trying to rely on my Forex indicators to give me a decent entry point. 

Lastly, I'm playing fast-fold online Poker at low-stakes buy-ins and it does have it's great moments without having to spend so much time at it. 

I've only been at all of these things for less than a year now. I'm always looking to raise my ROI so that I can obtain my goal faster. 

Current Happy Distractions

Besides wanting to be in a seriously intimate and fun relationship with a fine lady, I'm currently having fun with mainly two of my homegirls and enjoy trying to become a millionaire with a six-pack! These are serving to be a really fun distraction for me besides finding someone to settle down with right now. I'm in no hurry to get married from not wanting to be tied down to anyone I could end up losing interest for. Well, I can be starting to feel the hots for one of my homegirls who I've hung out with regularly while doing fun outdoor things. She can even sort of have trouble keeping up with me! She is older than me by a couple years and has been single for only little more than a year, but I at least feel that we could really be like soulmate buddies. 

I've had a few other opportunities as well already, but I just didn't feel ready for it at the time. 

For the time being, I honestly feel great and happy with myself underneath. I really want to focus on building my wealth and get to a beach body to challenge myself and reach a level of personal fitness to signify good health and provide me plenty of energy to enjoy different outdoor activities.

Spending Lots of Time on Important Things

It looks like I'm finding my personal direction that satisfies me. For the most part, the biggest thing for me is my faith in Christ. It's true though that this world is fleeting away like that one ignorant Christian lady messaged me while looking like she was all over the place and implying that my goals don't matter. I came up with a counter, which was absolutely honest on my end and told her that my goals are about being happy in the Lord and have nothing to do with being worldly. She doesn't truly get it and then I practically told her to shut up next in a nice way while meaning it as a joke. I think she doesn't see herself as equipped enough, so she wants to let anything I want to say go now. 

To keep the conversation alive longer, I could have pointed out the flaws in her assessment but I just felt like joking around with her. This could have upset her as well while making her feel dumb at the same time, so in the end, she's taken the unhealthy decision of running away or staying frozen there like a lame duck. I really shouldn't mind that much about it, but at least I think we both know that I will always have the upper hand. 

I'm pretty much a winner because of my artform. It's a passionate expression of how I'm responding to something crude that was done towards me and not minding on staying friends while taking some precautions with them and advising them to stay positive. It's a form that requires the person to be very direct and honest about himself and may involve telling them what's wrong and what they could do to make an improvement and telling them to stay positive. The last line is to keep on saying what I want from them while saying it like I don't care how they are acting even if it makes me react badly towards them and that I will stay friends and to let others know I said it. It's basically leaning in for a one-sided conflict that favors me more while always being truly honest about it at the same time. I'm ready to use it for the sake of wanting to inspire a better future for anyone who observes me doing this whenever I feel this way, no matter how big or small the situation is; I will still give it my all. 

Fun to Imagine Interpersonal Battles

The approach I'm going to be using is direct verbal contact instead of anything physical. I'm going to be just straight-forward and pick apart my opponents while telling them I don't care what they put me through and that I'll still be their friend in the end. I strongly believe that it's a winning artform in verbal sparring. I might enjoy some colorful choice of words and occasionally raising the voice, but other than that the most essential part of my art is that I will stay a friend while being careful about detecting my opponent's stupidity and not being keen on taking any of their advice. I will also be making a lot of honest comparisons between us that favor me more, of course!

In the end, I'm looking to make these continuously entertaining confrontations and inspire others to always interact nicely with each other and positively to make the world a better place. I'm doing this only for honor like a knight would and always has a big place in my heart. 

Personal Endeavor to Making Money on the Side

First of all, I'm not really doing this for the sake of being richer than anyone. It's really just a personal goal that I realize is something I should have done years ago. I want to play catch up in this area before making myself available to marry any lady I fall in love with. It's also possible that I may be hanging out with my actual soulmate right now regularly. 

My main purpose of investing is to save up money and create wealth for myself while looking to do it in the long term. I'm not really into day trading that much as it takes away too much of my time. I prefer just spending a few minutes each day managing my trades and then going on with my life.   

The current things I'm looking to invest in are stocks and call options once a day; secondly, managing Forex trades once in the morning and late afternoon; thirdly, playing some fast fold online Poker daily; fourthly, adding some Bitcoin investment on a dip at the end of the day weekly; lastly, working on a fun mobile app to sell and make some money with! 

I'll be happy with just becoming a millionaire as soon as possible and then living a much freer life. I'm really happy underneath with pursuing this dream life while being a positive and confident person who believes in Christ as his Savior.  

Current Ways With Making Money

One of the biggest things that should be taken into consideration is creating a stop loss when it comes to making any investment in stocks. This should also be applied while trading the Forex market as well. 

I'm currently doing stocks, options, cryptocurrency, and Forex. Forex is still a work in progress, but I just can't wait for everything to start coming together and start making enough. I only see money as a tool that I wish to acquire for my own personal usage. I want to have freedom besides relying on someone else's money. Another really fast hustle that I'm getting into is playing rapid fold Poker tables online for money. My stop loss for Poker games is losing two buy-ins per day. In a matter of up to two hours, I can double my buy-in or lose it. I seem to be doing fine at it, but will have to wait and see how the stiffer competition will act towards me. 

As I gain enough profit, I will be looking to exchange a little in for some more services I'm interested in. This way I keep on making progress with adding things onto a winning trading portfolio. 

Reason for Working Hard

I think my main reason for working hard is to just make enough money so that I can have more free time to do other things that interest me. Also, I will have a greater degree of freedom with gifting others after putting in all the labor I enjoyed. It's pretty straight-forward like that. Getting here mainly takes putting in a lot of time and hard work into it. It's a lot easier to do if there's some positive association to it like enjoyment and passionate pursuit. 

I'm just glad to be doing all I can these days while learning to manage my time. I'm not so lightly carried away anymore and making myself feel bad about having neglected a chore. It's really just a matter of committing yourself to something you need or want to do. Maybe, there's a craving to do something else during other moments but I'm not feeling like dying anymore from letting off of them. 

Making Money

I'm starting to figure that I really enjoy making money with long term investments. I don't mind just sitting there and letting a handsome return come back to me at a later date. Trying to gun for short-term profits isn't really cutting it for me. I probably need at least a few months in the stock market for me to be satisfied with any good returns. 

For the Forex market, it is really volatile and I have only managed to cut back on significantly decreasing the amount I'm losing each month while actively trading in it. It's acting slightly worse than a coin flip. I'm still going at it trying to come up with a reliable method that will let all my trades last a few days and average out to a good monthly profit. It's coming along though and won't be giving up any soon.

For the cryptocurrency market, I plan to just invest a miniscule amount into Bitcoin since I'm not comfortable having most of my money in it. I figure with that much high-growth potential and volatility at the same time, if I win big than the small amount I started out with is going to be a large number anyway; whereas, if I end up losing then it won't really negatively affect me. I'm not looking to be greedy about gaining as much as I can. I'm happy with taking some time to achieve a stable and continuous growth of my wealth. 

My last two things don't relate to investing that much, but I plan to try to keep on hustling players in Poker and take their money from fair play. The last one is that since I'm already working as a software engineer, I'm getting myself into mobile app development as a personal side business. 

Why Crazy Lee is Crazy to Me

Well Crazy Lee is crazy to me because she started yelling at me over stuff that had nothing to do with us both and then filed a stalker restraining order against me which I didn't contest out of shock. Anyway, those are traditionally reserved for crazy exes when there's opposite sex involved and we never dated each other. I was never that interested in dating her either from being against dating outside my ethnicity at the time. She went for trying to extend it and it got dismissed with prejudice by the judge. She went for petitioning and the motion was denied again. I didn't even know she did this, which I noticed on that public court website. She should learn not to do that while holding a grudge against others like me that was never meant to be hers. She took something from her church problems that she wanted to blame on me and then compartmentalized it into something that's meant for personal and dating purposes only. This isn't really the reason why people get restraining orders on each other in the first place. You can only expect that court order to have fallen through and never affect my personal life. 

My confidence is back and I know who I am and what I want while staying positive and going to be persistent. 

Investment Opportunities

What I'm figuring out now is that I'm really distracted right now with trying to make a lot of money and settle in with my own place. I'm really happy to be working on this goal right now along with having already some good friends to be with. It's probably good that I realize one of my good friends can possibly be my soulmate! I can tell sometimes she's physically attracted to me, but I'm not pushing it with her. She does want me to practice on her though for being a lover, while figuring that I'm acting more like a brother to her but this view could also be from her being insecure about finding another partner. I feel a little mushy and sad underneath when she brings it up, but yeah, I already told her that I don't believe those are her true feelings with me. 

She hasn't kicked me out of her life or anything. She invited me to go on a hiking trip with her out of state and her brother. It could be another strategic moment for me to make her strongly feel that I'm not really her true brother in any spiritual or physical form! 

With these investment opportunities, what's wonderful is that my successful approach can also work well with convincing people like Crazy Lee when I go see her someday. I hope she's not there honestly, but I'm committed to this crazy endeavor that could potentially turn out good for both of us.

What's required is just two steps. I like only two step methods; hence, it's my own inspired method because it's easy to remember just that my sentences might get too long! The first step is to always think positive. The last step is to work hard to be successful at all your endeavors. 

It's pretty rhetorical. How the first step relates to convincing Crazy Lee is to keep on telling her positive things she should do while pursuing something that's purely good that also deals with both of us. In turn, this is going to make her look like a trash can to others if she doesn't do them. Her image will go down so low, so consider it to be a constellation prize but tell her she shouldn't stay there and do the good thing that's so great for both of us. It's really being so rhetorical but you get to always be a positive person and be seen the way you want to be at the same time with others. It's pretty genius, so it's conclusive that Crazy Lee messed up and she's crazy enough that she should go fix herself up! 

Interesting to Go Figure

While still being single, I think I get tempted to lust after medium-to-large busty, slightly curvy to petite, and really nice Asian women in general! If I'm able to find one to marry and consummate on a regular basis, then I'm very sure I won't get that much of a bigger urge to be with someone else after getting used to it like a fun chore with her. This must mean that I need to marry well while continually making strides on being a great lover. 

The easy part is finding a girl who looks the part from being quite loose about appearances these days, but the difficult part is going to be finding one who doesn't have too many insecurities about being with me and doesn't really get under my nerves. I think short girls in general despite being a short man can still get around to being physically attracted to me like one of my really good homegirls. I can tell now that she likes being around me while being vice versa and is probably saying I'm like a brother to her because she is insecure about being in another serious relationship at the moment. 

My homegirl isn't quite that busty enough for me to want to naturally lust after her, but I'm finding that the emotional and physical connection we share sometimes can make things really tempting. In fact, she might even be my actual soulmate like she pointed out to me, but said it's only at a friendship level! It's starting to make sense that some of my girl friends may find me to be attractive despite feeling like I'm so short. I definitely have a few physical features that distinguish a taller guy like broad shoulders and chest, large and wide feet, and still weighing a lot while still looking like I'm skinny. 

When it comes down to it, it's really about staying genuinely confident while hanging out with these ladies so they don't feel that sign of something not being right and ruining any good opportunity that's supposed to happen. 

Keeping Diligence With Focus

I know now what I want to do to keep myself occupied. I'm totally accepting and have embraced any possibilities of things not going my way. I'm still going to be happy in the Lord regardless of whatever happens to me. 

I have learned to be grounded and it's just a matter of time before I get somewhere. It really looks like I have a shot with women who are around my height or slightly taller than me and they don't come across as too crazy to the point that I worked at a romantic possibility. It's really about how well a man can carry himself sometimes and that's where I've been headed. I'm a pretty rare individual living in this world. There aren't too many people out there who are in a position like I am and focusing collectively on the same things. I'm my own person and have different advantages despite being short in appearance. 

It doesn't really bother me anymore nor it shouldn't whenever I feel a little sorrowful. I should be working hard with the inward things more while doing the best I can to look good on the outside. I don't need to feel any personal insecurities anymore and conduct myself with plenty of self-confidence while being a man who is happy to worship the Lord in his heart daily. 

Just a Matter of Time

I'm gradually getting better each month with managing trades for Forex on my own. I see myself doing well enough consistently one day with it. I'm not really going to be a professional Poker player because I just don't have enough passion for it. However, it's fun to play competitively once in a while and hopefully come out with some winnings. 

I also feel like I have to project a lot more inward confidence with positivity while around others. It's hard to remind myself sometimes that I should be looking at things inwardly for myself because it just works better for me. It's all about putting in the hard work to understand how things are while constantly improving yourself to the point that you are leading yourself in a happy direction. 

From being asked how I know these things, I've responded that it's about holding onto a vision and working hard to obtain that position and then enjoying the fruits of labor. 

Getting Good at Life

I'm starting to realize that my programming skills are getting so much better and that most of the time it's really referencing technical information that you need to make your work run more efficiently. You just have to know your objective and then spend a lot of time thinking and working hard without skipping out on any detail. 

I know that my style can get really overwhelming, but I still enjoy it though. This is probably why it makes sense to make software engineering my ticket to bigger income, while I also do investing and trades on the side to build upon my wealth. I'm in the mood for working very hard and consistently while having fun with a positive attitude. I don't really care how long this takes now because I know my destination that I'm trying to reach. 

Tapping in on Long-term Wealth

Thanks to subscribing to two investing groups, I'm still profiting on my investment portfolios without having to put that much time into it. Eventually, I want to see a lot of dollar signs as fast as possible while doing this. For the time being, it's really about saving more money and managing growth. 

I'm still really into trading Forex and want to get good at it, so it's what I'm still working on. It looks like getting serious with playing Poker has become meaningless for me. I'm going to need something in place of it, and I've figured out what it already is. It's programming! 

Along with investing and trading, I now want to program on the side some apps to make money and turn this into a serious career for myself with gaining some more income. It's pretty simple with how my personal layout is now, and it's making a lot of sense with what I'm into. I'm fortunate to realize that I don't need to be noticed by others and have enough talent to get any opportunity. I can pave my own path. 

The basics still remain the same. It's about confidence, positive attitude, and hard work. 

Maybe I Met My Official Soulmate?

A girl who I'm very good friends with texted me the other day that she thinks I'm her soulmate, but only in a friend kind of way. 

I don't really feel like she's my true type for being lovers with, but I do recognize we have a very special and unique relationship. She likes to tell me to come over to her place regularly and that I'm always invited to spend the night. We never get dirty with each other, but I do feel like getting intimate with her just for fun often. It's not in my Christian belief system to behave in that manner, so I always refrain and am comfortable with it. I've been doing this for a long time now and it doesn't matter if she's the most beautiful person in the world, I'm going to consummate only in marriage. 

Cutting Out Excess Negativity

It appears that making up positive things of improving yourself in the moment and then sharing them with people who are clearly annoyed with you beyond crazy is such a funny thing. It's really hard to not let their negativity get to you, but it does happen. It's moments like these that I never look forward to, so now I figure that a stronger and positive attitude coupled with hard work will generate more meaningfulness and purpose underneath even if it never amounts to much. Getting used to hard work can create such a happy feeling anyway. 

I think that one Christian girl who shared with me about how we're all going to eventually die or leave this planet, so everything is vanity while pointing a finger at my goals made a foolish decision, since I relate them also to my faith. She has withdrawn herself from even looking at my messages and playing an active role now. I think she used to feel like she had some type of duty to place upon herself, but she inevitably failed. I'm too good for her, and she's pretty much useless and out of commission for now. I don't even feel bad for her honestly, and it looks like I've even grown stronger with more ammunition that could wipe out her evil circle of friends! Well, they are evil in a stupid or crazy sense and given over to a bunch of hypocrisy and emptiness with only a thin line of living under personal security. 

I feel very good underneath actually. 

Basics of Asking People Out

I had a conversation with one of my homegirls while we were doing a group trip together. I ended up filling her in with the basics of dating someone. It's really easy to remember and requires only two steps and the last one might require some more effort. 

The first thing is to have enough confidence. The second thing is to go ask her out. The last requirement is that she needs to be the right person in order for her to say yes and things to work out in the end. The last requirement might take a while to get it to work, but by playing a numbers game and approaching all the women you can, you will logically increase your chances. 

Honestly, I think there's really no reason to try to steal a girl who isn't that interested and says she's already taken! It's going to be a waste of time, plus there's a greater chance you will find out a deal breaker about her if she lets her guard down after being friends for several years which means all this time that can't be brought back was lost. It's pretty sad but it is still better to just move on, if you aren't interested in having any friendship.  

Message to All My Political Enemies

All I want from you guys is adding me back on Facebook as just a friend. I don't need access to your news feedback, nor do I really care who you associate with.  I don't even have a desire to hang out with you guys any further after working hard to earn this transaction. It's just who I am.  It's just symbolic to me of supporting a good thing.     

From looking at both my end and your end, you guys are currently messed up people who can't agree to this meaningless thing. It just shows me that you guys will be in trouble with handling bigger storms in your personal lives. I recommend you guys go see a counselor or therapist but it isn't my responsibility to ensure it. With you guys being paranoid about me doing stuff to you with just a harmless Facebook page that you guys have full control over already, you guys aren't even important people in this world. Get with the program, so I have a strong passionate reason to stay persistent now. This is going to happen once I reach my ultimate goal that's tied to my spirituality of being a millionaire with six pack abs. I'm half-way there now. 

This is all inward and has nothing to do with outwardly now. I have more potential than you guys because I've been at it longer and always will be moving forward. It just means I'm better at it than you guys. I consider myself to be just average. 

You Guys are Always so Out of It and I Accept that With All of You,

4AverageLife

Not Too Bothered

I'm honestly not that bothered by my height anymore. I'm standing at only 5'3" as a man, and it looks like it even doesn't phase the stupid individuals I forced myself to deal with! I can vouch that this is probably only the main good thing about them.

I've really learned to get over my personal insecurity from deducing how I have mostly tall cousins on my mom's side, my dad who is a pretty tall Asian, and how I have larger, wider feet with broader shoulders than my dad that I possess normal genes too and something might have happened. 

I don't really care so much about it anymore and always feel like I'm five inches taller underneath. I don't really have that much personal insecurity over it! Who cares, God can still use you regardless of how tall or short you are on the outside or inside.