Chasing After Main Goals

I now have my main goals in mind which is really to settle with being financially independent and creating a lot of time on my hands so I can enjoy doing a bunch of common things without needing to stress out about not having enough resources and being uncomfortable. For the time being, dating is out of the question since accomplishing my personal goal is coming first. I feel happy to be single right now and having a purpose that aligns with the Lord's will so it's about just pushing onward and loving people. 

I just need to get used to working hard while feeling a lot of stress sometimes and being able to turn it off when I don't need to work anymore. I need to practice and keep on self-monitoring myself while maintaining a positive attitude. I don't think I'm that special and just want to work really hard now to just earn a happy average life. 

Focusing on Building Wealth

I am now ready to embrace however long it takes on my own time to become a millionaire and not have to work a single day in the office anymore! It looks like I'm buying into strategies from two investing groups for doing stocks and anything else related to it. I'm about half-way there now with turning a net profit from what I paid out of pocket to use their resources. It's been only a year and to me that's pretty good for the long term and stable process that I'm buying into.  

I'm still working on a convenient system with the Forex market but it looks like I'm back down to trading only the Daily and looking at it once ideally in the mornings. I don't really want to constantly check it every four hours, when I prefer just letting it sit there comfortably in a highly volatile market with a stop loss level that can hit at any given moment! 

I'm just going to let my cryptocurrencies keep on riding at this point while not purchasing any more. I really need an edge that I believe in and something that I can simply apply to gain a lot of profit and I think I have the system in mind that interests me but it's on hold for me this year. 

To add to my side business of trading and investing, I'm also interested in programming an app to sell on the market now to gain some profit and experience. I'm also not playing Poker that often anymore but I think I picked up on a resource for playing successfully at the micro level, so it's just to have fun mainly while trying to win in the long run on average.  

Staying Focused on General Task

It's been pretty hard for me because out of bad habits, my mind likes to wander off all the time to ward off stressful feelings. I honestly don't want to feel stressed out anymore and just think it's all like a fun, grown-up game! I want to keep on leveling up and then find myself with the ultimate prize of being able to walk out of my career and enjoy so much time to travel with my homegirl while asking out all the available hot ladies I can connect with and reasonably visualize a steamy and romantic marriage! 

This might happen at a later time in life and I'm okay with it because I've learned that I'm happy with working on what I'm trying to obtain right now. 

Staying Joyful While Grinding at Work

I'm now figuring that this is probably what God has intended for me to do all along. It's joining the family business and getting paid as an IT nerd who sometimes tries not to slack off so much! 

Right now I think I have a calling for leaving this business and the only way I see it is to become wealthy. It might be a long time before I get there and maybe it will happen at retirement but I'm honestly content at the core of living my current single life. 

Nobody told me how I am as a person, so I had to figure this out on my own. I've always felt God even kept quiet and let me find out my own personal identity dealing with the body of Christ. 

It's been a blessing to find out, and I realize that it's always been right under my nose with how I function. I enjoy grinding it out and reaching a desirable goal, no matter how big or small it contributes to the overall schematics of my life. From playing video games to mastering them while having no reasonable direction to working on a happy average life now, this is who I really am. 

I can see how listening to the Bible every day if possible is grinding it out for developing my spiritual walk. I'm leaning more towards putting my full trust in Jesus and learning to navigate through some tough waves. 

Letting Bad Things Go

Something important I've learned today is that moving on is awesome if you can think positively and accept the bad thing that just transpired. It's an experience with something you can learn from and take something positive with you for next time. 

Living the full average life that I want is going to take a lot of hard work with proper time management and making the right decisions during tough moments. I just don't mind letting it go so much anymore, since I'm convinced about how I see things. It will be for the better or worse and something I want to accept while going on making a living and someday, maintaining a good family. 

Keeping Busy

From talking to a good buddy who is a lady and older than me, I've learned to appreciate positive energy. This lady friend of mine was someone I really saw myself dating in the future, but now I don't really see it like that anymore. We have already connected at a good level of friendship and maybe there's more, but I don't want to force anything to go beyond its capacity in my personal relationships.  

I want to be more realistic with what I really want, and maybe she just won't be that person for me anymore. I know we are going to stay buddies regardless if I end up chasing after her and she doesn't want me to or vice versa. I'm open to developing feelings and wanting a romantic relationship with her again, but it's going to have to not be something with one-sided interest. I don't mind moving on and staying as good friends. 

Understanding How I Function Happily

I'm starting to understand that applying my faith in Jesus is allowing me to sustain a high amount of positive energy. I really do understand that I like to prioritize being a very focused individual and perfectionist to the point that any little detail of messing up can drive me crazy. I can really keep my head dwelling with negative energy on that one small thing. Learning to control this has taken me a long time because I didn't even know this is who I was to begin with. 

I have a proper visual of what will make me a completely happy individual and that I don't mind working at it while keeping myself smiling about reaching this goal. This is really the purpose of my small, insignificant life and I owe it all to Christ from believing he died for all our sins! I just consider myself to be an average person and very happy about staying that way. My view of the average life is just being a millionaire with a good home, sexy and loving wife with maybe an adorable kid or two, athletic with like a six pack and muscles, and fully content about living life. It's the full package for being just another average guy.

To me, all of this is just average and nothing really that extravagant after achieving all of it. It's something that I want to work towards, so right now I'm too focused on achieving my financial, physical, and spiritual goals to really care about asking out another woman. It's because I want to be prepared to take care of her once she ends up digging me and I find out that I can have a good future with her. I don't really mind with this taking me a long time because I'm so open-minded about it. I'm not going to kill myself over it. Pretty much, I'll get there or die trying while taking my time on it. 

Being Patient

I think it's very important to let things move on while focusing on working hard to make yourself happy. I mean I'm very committed these days to just write something on here which can take me only a few minutes sometimes. Everything is starting to flow better from finding personal acceptance with how things came about and even though I'm bothered by it a little, it isn't hard for me to not let those negative feelings get the best of me anymore. 

I have grown to be a pretty practical person, but I am still a little slower than what I expect out of myself with grasping any situation. I'm just going to have to keep on working at it and doing my best while exercising self-discipline with a positive attitude. I can suck at life sometimes, but I care about always improving myself so I see there's room for me to still grow even though my mind feels overloaded with stuff sometimes. 

Letting Things Walk

From having done a lot of work on myself with some help from the Holy Spirit, I'm having an easier time with letting my past crazy and stupid situation go away. I no longer seem so angry that I would want to curse at those who made me so mad. It's like chaff now that I can easily dust it off.

It's not a very difficult situation with where I'm finding myself these days. I'm trying to get to an ideal standard that I have made for myself and will be fully happy to finally reach. I want to work hard to live this average life. 

Living in Focus to Obtain Fun Rewards

Nowadays, I really want to try so hard to be good at both the big and small picture of managing my life. I don't feel let down nor depressed about having to work so hard to get anywhere now. I embrace this and want to keep at it while staying positive on a permanent basis.  

I would really like to become so good at taking care of everything dealing with my own business while also always being adaptive to any changes and then delivering in a timely manner. This is what I want to mainly focus on now until it gets to a high enough level that I will feel happy about jumping into marriage with a good woman. 

Feel Good Message

Me: So, the restraining order turned out to be super dumb!

Holy Spirit (My subconscious): No, it was really dumb.

Me: It was really, really dumb!

Sweeeet! If I only exercised true humility after exerting self-confidence in Jesus, then this would have never happened to begin with. However, it was never my fault with all of you guys becoming stupid with me! It's time for me to move on now [lady]. Some things just take too long to heal from a human perspective. I wonder how any Christian in general can tap into God's supernatural power to heal his or her emotional ailment.

"Step 0 starts with prayer" - [other guy] ( still have this guy and another girl I presented her first Bible with from that old cranky church on my Facebook and going to forever protect those connections). I squandered away your connection from not being careful and was too hard from already knowing you married dumb [guy]!

I can slowly work my evangelical "Magic" which was what your so-called sweet [guy] described to me back then even though he sucked at evangelism too and get you both back, but is there time for that? The Book of Ecclesiastes says there's a time and place for anything and I think that period has departed me already so moving on... 

Working Hard With Staying Focused

I think now that there needs to be an objective and I guess for me, it's as simple as making a living with something that interests or excites me. I feel fortunate to have made it this far based on not having enough trusted guidance that I could have used from someone. I have sort of been relying on my own personal intuition, and it looks like combining it with hard work will eventually lead from one thing to another. 

I no longer feel so nervous underneath either about having to perform so well. I see it as wasteful and negative energy that could be let go of. It's really combining passion, commitment, focus, and balance. I think these four things really do go well together. 

Thinking About Dating Potential Future Partner

Right now, there's a person who I think is the closest to being my ideal match. I believe that she can be a little full of herself sometimes and then it can lead to a small mishap with others that she takes seriously upon herself. It feels like she's been damaged quite a bit from her last marriage which she made sacrifices for and invested so much energy into, but ended up divorcing over irreconcilable differences. I'm not so sure she's in a great state of mind to try to date seriously right now, but she is an amazing person to be close hangout buddies with though. She's been like my best friend over these past few months since she reminds me often to stay over at her place. 

I think she's being full of herself when she says that I'm like a brother to her while participating in a discussion with some friends. Boy, she treats me so favorably if that's the case! I feel like she's contradicting herself, but when I think about it for myself, I'm not interested in jumping into any serious relationship at this time. I want to stay busy and focus on fully developing my 'A' game first, before trying to find a fine lady to settle down with. 

Increasing in Making Profit

I am now very open to trading options with stocks. The one I am looking into right now is buying call options. This allows for unlimited gains while setting a fixed loss and trading a larger amount for a bargain. It looks like I'm getting into now investing in stocks while trading options and in Forex. 

I read a free Kindle book called The Millionaire Trader on Amazon and this is the same recommendation the author made to get into doing. I'm slowly catching on, and I also do have a little bit of cryptocurrency. I'm starting to see how I can invest in the long term and make a lot of money. I think it's becoming more possible as I keep on working at it daily. 

Focusing Properly With Balance

Lately, I just want to be really on top of things and totally squared away with every minute detail as possible. At the same time, I want to be working hard and making some really good money while being smart about it. It seems like now the nonsense I had to deal with compared to others is small fish. It's no longer much of a big deal to concern myself over because I just feel good about myself in general.

I think it's a good time now to move on with the old, crazy care group and situation with Crazy Lee. I mean it's been so memorable to trouble myself through finding a strong footing and was difficult to discern, but now I feel at ease and just ready to move on to the next chapter. 

On top of this, it's a good time to move on from all bitter feelings for myself and not let those angry feelings get to me. I'm understanding how I really want to work it out with this past matter. It's probably going to be them who need to move on from feeling irritated by me proposing something they will be tired of refusing me for in a regular manner.

Allocating Effort Towards Achieving Wealth

It looks like with the tools I have acquired, I'm slowly gaining wealth now without putting in that much effort each day. I really do like this hands-off approach, but it's just that I'd like to make so much while doing this so I've been working on doing swing trades off the Forex market. 

I'm now also interested in buying call or put options for stocks. The benefit of doing this is that it can allow for speculation and cap the amount I will be risking which is the premium for buying the contract and the upside being unlimited gain. This is something that I feel I can handle now. For now, I'm taking the conservative approach by taking on minimal risk in doing options trading and I do have a useful tool that I can apply to it while not having to spend too much time on these trades daily, so I'll be doing that then. I even have a good guideline to follow, so it seems like I'm slowly on my way to gaining wealth. There's only three main steps- make more income, eliminate all debts, and invest smartly as much as possible.  

Quick Mental Refreshment

While this is fresh on my mind, I'm going to follow up from yesterday. It looks like I can sometimes keep on writing about the same topic for a while, so I'll just call it a theme now. My main themes have probably been about investing well and trying to do well in life while getting my mind off of making fun of Crazy Lee from thinking and feeling positive. I'm starting to have better control of my anger issues from reading these past posts. They are pretty therapeutic in a sense and originate from just intuition. I'm not really putting in the time to research anything and just writing what I currently think without expecting any backlash from people, since I haven't been too controversial.

I think it's fair to say that Crazy Lee is really not part of the mainstream and she can be classified as a freak by a large number in this world, along with the people I have talked about, so sadly they are being squashed by my painted words to add insult to injury. I see it as only a game though because I know I'm better than these people while feeling so confident. It's definitely a good time for me to move on now from also Annie and Betty who were being dumb and acted so frustrated around me a long time ago. 

I wrote a bad poem about them, and I don't have any regrets anymore because I spoke from my heart and they were just bitter sourpusses about it while worried about their image and how they were being portrayed. They were already weird to begin with and will show it from how they can't really win people's hearts that well to stay on course with following after Christ. Basically, they all sucked at evangelism and probably don't really have a true calling for it. 

While this is fresh on my mind to get back into topic, I think proper work is about relating to passion, commitment, focus, and balance. For balance, I believe that the mind does need to relax from working too hard sometimes when you are feeling worn out and that entrusting Jesus will rejuvenate your down spirit. 

Dealing With Physical Negative Feelings While Working Hard

I just texted a really good friend of mine to ask her how she copes with this issue while grinding on something at work. 

I wonder what her response will be. At the same time, I'm still feeling an adrenaline rush from copying word for word my last post at https://academyofscud.blogspot.com/2021/05/staying-dedicated-at-work.html and then sending it to a dumb antagonist I was forced to deal with in the past. He likes to trash talk, so I like to say that this add-on coupled with shutting up his hateful trash talk towards me will have sent a figurative dagger to his heart for a straight kill shot! From not being so weird anymore, I chose not to drag this on and end my initiated duel in one move. He's literally not about to respond to me anymore and will probably ignore all of my future messages now because he's going to know that it's totally unhealthy and unsettling for him.

Getting back to what my friend texted me back just now, we had a little discussion via text and came to the conclusion that these physical, negative feelings need to be dealt with by taking mental breaks. It's all finding the perfect balance despite knowing that I feel passionate about this line of work and still feel stressed out sometimes. 

It's about finding a balance of work and play while keeping the efficiency and awareness that people expect out of you.

Moving Forward With Hardwork

I think in the essence of applying great time management, it's important not to get yourself so carried away while having so much fun that would be unrelated to getting ethical tasks out of the way even if you can slack off a little. I guess in the Spirit of the Lord, I should be doing my best and putting in extra work whenever I can so I can get promoted from having put in the hard work and gain more rewards that I can apply to enjoying my life! It's just common sense and it will be just so much easier to give back in this state of happy mind while being smart enough to not get taken advantage of at the same time.

Now, since I'm starting to move into action with the things that I have mainly laid out to reach my main goal; I want to emphasize great time management and putting in a lot of hard work with related things that will help smoothen out the process. 

Working on Main Goal

My main goal is to become a millionaire with six pack abs and so far I have built up a networth of only a half-million. I'm seriously realizing that it's about maintaining a positive attitude and really putting in a lot of hard work with whatever that draws you in for making a living. 

I want to just keep on trying my best even when I'm not feeling it and just go for doing what I can without ever feeling let down about reaching my goal. Even being insulted by dumb people doesn't bother me that much anymore.