Honesty Rules

This whole working at two jobs sort of thing doesn't really seem to be working out for me. I mean I'm not working literally at a company, but really trying to support myself. I'm finding that only one of them is actually making some serious profit for me, so I might as well just invest enough sole energy on that by becoming a specialist with it. Another cool part that I keep repeating a lot is that I'm enjoying it. It doesn't seem to make sense sometimes how my mind and heart just doesn't want to be into it and do something else. There's just this constant worry of what ifs' for me. Once I get profits rolling to good numbers where I could just live on my own and pay off all my debts, I'm going to seriously put some time on decent stuff that I really want to learn and going to make those things my backup plans for making a living in case this business just goes bust.

I don't really see how this business is going to go bankrupt on the long run with the way I'm managing it though. Still, I don't want to get too cocky about it. I'm seriously on the road of putting myself ahead of 95% of the workforce. I pretty much have to study everyday to conduct a daily routine for my job, so it seems like that's the part which is helping my brain stay in shape. Definitely and overall, this whole being straight-forward business gets me laughing in the end and relaxed so I think those people who end up roasting other celebrities are just being honest in a funny way- I believe that I can be that way too if I want to be.

I think I have another element to offer the best lady for me who feels the same way about me haha. A few years ago, I really had trouble opening up and I guess with those whole people doing their worst sin upon me sort of thing [They are on my weird people list haha], I just learned to be straight-forward about the situation to let it go and just laugh about it even if I confront them and they act very dumb and funny afterward haha. It's not hard for me to make fun of people; honestly, even though I don't think some people deserve it, but in some places I guess I need to let it out to realize they're only human.

I think the worst comments that I think about myself are the things I laugh at anyway so I'm not really going to be surprised if a jerk does that to me. I know his or her heart's intention, but I'm still laughing at how it won't really pain me- I guess this is where I could sort of help the person out so that they'll give up something for the benefit of others haha. With me around understanding all of this stuff, they'll lose support from their peers and look like an overreacting retarded person haha.

My line of work never really has an end to working in that if a person wanted to, he could pretty much work all day and get much accomplished. I'm thinking about balancing it- oh yeah, my mom keeps on telling me to do the stuff I tell her that I'm going to be doing. It seems to annoy her a lot that I do this a lot to her. Only recently, it seems like she stopped trying to bother me about doing that to her haha. I have my way of talking through things to get what I want, even though getting it naturally would be a blessing haha. Allusively speaking, I hope to find a desirable spouse naturally without needing to talk that much and just listening to what she's about which would make life so much simpler on me haha.  I also think about what they would gossip about me- yeah, even my own mom sometimes haha and then bring it up with the person which probably makes them want to go crazy if they think about me in general. In other words, they end up letting go of something underneath and allowing me to project myself as a human being. I've dealt with people who were not that enthusiastic with hanging out with me haha and even got them to hang out with me still- I remember yelling at them too because I was so fed up about something with them but they would just smile after I let it out which was so bothersome to me but now I see that it's because maybe, I placed them as a supporting cast wittingly. Therefore, I think I was still a likable person to them.