What I'm noticing is that my mind is capable of thinking about my own personal priorities, but I'm letting my mind try to escape the reality by doing other wasteful activities. I think I just want to be lazy, but I don't feel that it is right so I might as well just give into just letting my heart feel worn out while I just go after a commitment. This is really hard to keep up with and to keep a strong appetite afterwards to developing even more after.
Maybe I actually did need some professional help back then because I was filled with too much anxiety over my problems and having trouble concentrating. I'm not so much like that anymore because I'm not really feeling anything and more about accepting the struggles I'm dealing with.
I guess I turned into a little more straight-forward person, but my patience has been continually tested. Because I just feel emotionally troubled sometimes, I lose a little track of things sometimes. I do want to perform at an optimal level but I guess it's not always going to be happening like that I suppose.
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