I believe that wanting to give into natural desires without putting much thought into it is foolish. Looking back at them, it sometimes leaves me with feeling quite a bit of regret. Even though I make promises to myself, I haven't been consistent about it. I can probably run with it for about a day or two on average before relapsing. Fortunately, I don't personally support getting into drugs and alcohol no matter what the situation arises. I also do not believe in gambling when the odds are against the person because mathematically it means losing in the long run; a friend has this inflated view that he was meant to win at casino games and ends up losing sometimes, so I think he's just being crazy and wants to stay ignorant about details.
I do a lot of thinking and my guilty pleasures have been in the past being addicted to fun video games and TV shows. I guess it's all normal for me then, but I continue to not be satisfied and want to work hard on myself and stay consistent. I know I can be among the smart crowd and perform at a high level while being really happy about it and not looking down on everybody if I end up beating them. I'm not even fretting so much about people being better than me either, except for probably ladies running faster than me on a trail!
Overall, it's just a really strong emotion that personally influences me to escape off of finding entertainment and being bored of it sometimes. If I could live through this painful feeling and uncertainty in the present while being on top of things then I think I will be successful enough but always feeling room for myself to keep on growing. On top of this, I can find other things I want to work on at the same time. It's just a matter of committing with everything I'm saying now because my thoughts and plans are very good but I have historically not done anything about it.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
