It looks like I'm trying to keep myself busy and stay on track even though I'm feeling a little stressed out and tired. I think one way to combat all of this is to go work out to relieve some stress and then drink some coffee or tea after to help me stay up and concentrate. There's really some things going for me, and I'm happy that it's going there.
Basically, I just need to avoid playing too much poker right now and also not watch that much TV while enjoying some good munchies which is so easy to do right after coming home. I should really be focusing on other big things, like researching on a trip for next month and seeing how that figures. I'm really interested though so I guess I'm going to have to suck it up more and drink some coffee or tea basically to keep myself going. I'm going to be like a caffeine junkie or something.
I think it's just work, exercise, cooking, planning, and mainly maintaining my social relationships with my significant buddies and staying open to finding someone good for myself. I'm going to be dwelling more deep into studying software engineering once again so I guess if I'm falling asleep I should really be drinking like tea or coffee because I want to keep on working. I do also have a little thing going with having fun in playing the piano for a hobby. I really do miss having fellowship and some fun with other true believing Christians even though I have a mix of good friends who aren't that into figuring out what the Bible means to them.
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Wednesday, November 27, 2019
Keeping Myself Busy
Let's see I have more outdoor activities to plan with my asexual partner. She wants to go see snow like the first day it arrives and very enthusiastic about it. I really don't care so much about it because I've been stuck in a blizzard with my family before and it wasn't that fun to me! It's cool that she wants to ask me out to go do these types of activities.
In a way, it's pretty nice to have her as a sort of substitute or another extended family member to have fun with to distract myself from waiting upon a girlfriend or spouse to develop so it's going to be a bummer when she has to take off by the end of next fall. I hope to stay in contact with her and probably will. I will have to see how busy she gets though, so maybe I should start reaching out to finding other meaningful friendships to hang out with and enjoy my time together. It's been pretty cool to do this with a girl at least and share something in common while keeping it platonic.
In a way, it's pretty nice to have her as a sort of substitute or another extended family member to have fun with to distract myself from waiting upon a girlfriend or spouse to develop so it's going to be a bummer when she has to take off by the end of next fall. I hope to stay in contact with her and probably will. I will have to see how busy she gets though, so maybe I should start reaching out to finding other meaningful friendships to hang out with and enjoy my time together. It's been pretty cool to do this with a girl at least and share something in common while keeping it platonic.
Tuesday, November 26, 2019
Hanging Out With Old Buddy
There's an old high school buddy and he is the closest organism to me known as the oldest friend I have kept in contact with all these years. Boy, he is still dumb about personal awareness and social issues! I text him that he is an average dumb joe often and he just takes it and keeps on being friends with me. He just works very hard at simple tasks to come up with something complicated that he finds satisfying but doesn't connect it very well to mainstream. In a way, he's still a kid who is programmed to keep imagining all the bad stuff that could happen around him while approaching middle age.
This kid who is the same age as me used to trigger me often when he talked and I would just go off on him while talking about how stupid his beliefs are which would always end up hurting his feelings. He still does the same, but he's a little wise about what he says around me because he treats me like company who can run off of him again which I have done countless times, only to still let myself be around him. I think I'll just keep it going with hanging out with him less often and leaving things on a good note; otherwise, he will just be too annoying for me to personally handle.
This kid who is the same age as me used to trigger me often when he talked and I would just go off on him while talking about how stupid his beliefs are which would always end up hurting his feelings. He still does the same, but he's a little wise about what he says around me because he treats me like company who can run off of him again which I have done countless times, only to still let myself be around him. I think I'll just keep it going with hanging out with him less often and leaving things on a good note; otherwise, he will just be too annoying for me to personally handle.
Starting With Self
It's really smart to have this power of self-reflection and to be able to reach very difficult goals that might feel out of reach. Yeah, that one guy has a mental disease for sure now so I don't know how this post will apply so very well for him. His brain activity must be pretty out of whack to make his mood go unstable and just lose it completely while not being able to keep a lid on it!
Yeah, it's a little eccentric to have been around people like that but from having started out like that, I am finding my way to doing more better with having good relationships with the ladies now! Life is too short and those crazy people are totally in the zone while not being influenceable after being approached by someone. Maybe they are better off to get lucky with finding the help they want and deserve whenever they are ready.
Yeah, it's a little eccentric to have been around people like that but from having started out like that, I am finding my way to doing more better with having good relationships with the ladies now! Life is too short and those crazy people are totally in the zone while not being influenceable after being approached by someone. Maybe they are better off to get lucky with finding the help they want and deserve whenever they are ready.
Releasing Anger Issues
It's probably because of the stress buildup, but sometimes I just want to yell at people for all sorts of reasons. I don't go about doing it because I'll probably be losing my job at work if I did. I also like to stay courteous with others even if I'm mad, so it's just personal preference to not give into it as I would want to.
Looking back though, some people who really ticked me off actually said and did things that are actually laughable to recall a little. Since it's the past, I'm willing to look forward unless it becomes compelling for me to discuss about it because my blood is boiling at that point. I really needed to just talk about it and reveal what was going on inside my head to the people affected by me. It's interesting because from just being honest and letting it all out, it feels so much better and a lot more relaxing now. I had trouble doing this in the beginning from being a people pleaser and from getting constantly mad about others not being so considerate as I would have liked them to be.
When a friend told me that I was acting crazy towards a girl with stalking elements, I explained to him it was because I was mad at her not wanting to tell me what was going on with her and that it was frustrating me a whole lot. It was difficult to cope with it while letting it be a part of my daily thoughts to try to problem solve. Maybe I could have used some free therapy sessions from a good friend, but I didn't know where he or she was at the time.
It really just comes down to self-realization and seeking the absolute truth about your own self. It's probably the easiest to start with yourself because there's no way of really telling what others are going through unless they want to open up about it. That lady didn't want to be with me because maybe she thought it was a waste of time or was even mad at me for not being considerate enough to her. Overall though, I think it was just dealing with others having personal insecurities they can't resolve very well with me, which I believe came from misjudgments. It made me so mad while thinking these people were a bunch of idiots throwing away a good friendship with me just because of that. Then again, they have sort of been relationships based on not being able to fulfill their conditions and how I have had some stress while feeling they can't fully accept me as a person yet.
Monday, November 25, 2019
Getting Back To Managing Stress While Having Fun
I haven't in a long time studied for long periods of time like cramming for final exams. It's obviously very stressful and feels mandatory to deal with it while taking least amount of breaks as possible if you are struggling to get a good grade in the course and it's currently a little below than what you desire. On the other hand, if it's so fun and enjoyable then it would make it more worthwhile to get ahead of less concerned students and be in the running for a healthy competition among the best.
There are also fun activities that could sometimes be really stressful to deal with like doing a lot of preparation to try to seduce a nonchalant lover! Those moments can sometimes be a little tricky to manage personal time with because it might just feel more fun to let yourself get carried away and make time to watch addictive shows. It probably takes a good amount of self-reflection and self-awareness to reach those higher limits that might currently feel out of reach. A couple questions to ask yourself could be, is it already too overwhelming because it just might not be that cut out or interesting for you anymore? Are you just in it because you only need a certain dosage of it and want to instead enjoy yourself more?
There are also fun activities that could sometimes be really stressful to deal with like doing a lot of preparation to try to seduce a nonchalant lover! Those moments can sometimes be a little tricky to manage personal time with because it might just feel more fun to let yourself get carried away and make time to watch addictive shows. It probably takes a good amount of self-reflection and self-awareness to reach those higher limits that might currently feel out of reach. A couple questions to ask yourself could be, is it already too overwhelming because it just might not be that cut out or interesting for you anymore? Are you just in it because you only need a certain dosage of it and want to instead enjoy yourself more?
Friday, November 22, 2019
Things To Work On
It's pretty hard to not let my mind wander and do fun stuff still with my time even though I have managed to miraculously get myself out of a video game addiction. It's more like procrastination to me, but I'm feeling that stress and how my mind just wants to play while reflecting on the day's events or how good my relationship is with my asexual partner. She thinks it's weird the way I mention that to her and thinks of me as the guy friend she cares about the most and an older brother.
Yeah, it's working out because I'm treating her like a partner and all supportive while knowing it's an open asexual relationship! I think that could very well be what a close friendship with the opposite gender is if there's a special bond like we share. I know she feels accepted and treasured by me from the way I have adjusted to her temperament. She's sick with a physical condition right now, so I feel it's sort of my rightful place to try help her out a lot.
Yeah, it's working out because I'm treating her like a partner and all supportive while knowing it's an open asexual relationship! I think that could very well be what a close friendship with the opposite gender is if there's a special bond like we share. I know she feels accepted and treasured by me from the way I have adjusted to her temperament. She's sick with a physical condition right now, so I feel it's sort of my rightful place to try help her out a lot.
Working On My Self
I guess I'm just going to hang out with ladies I'm interested in like this one who hit me up today. I want to have some fun and it seems like it might be nice to ask her for a relationship if it ends up working out, and I can see us being attracted to one another. In the meantime, I'm just going to keep on building my confidence and working on myself to get to where I want to be.
I'm pretty much open to being in a relationship with a nice girl now, and I guess the one who hit me up said "Yes" after I asked her to hang out and looks pretty hot in photos too. I saw her in person once and she sat next to me at the restaurant we ate at and chatted a little. I didn't really remember much from just going through the motions but she seemed really cool. It might be interesting actually, so I'll see where that ends up leading too and she's also Asian.
Well, my parents want her specifically to be our Asian ethnicity, so I'm probably going to have to keep this under wraps for awhile and work hard for my money, so I can move out and not need them for any financial support. I'm working at the family company, so yeah I'm lucky to have work there while gaining more useful experience as a software developer. If they end up letting me go for some drastic reason because of me marrying her on a worst-case scenario, then yeah if I have some money from doing a side business then it's probably not going to hurt that badly. I would still be all smiles while being married to a hot lady.
I'm pretty much open to being in a relationship with a nice girl now, and I guess the one who hit me up said "Yes" after I asked her to hang out and looks pretty hot in photos too. I saw her in person once and she sat next to me at the restaurant we ate at and chatted a little. I didn't really remember much from just going through the motions but she seemed really cool. It might be interesting actually, so I'll see where that ends up leading too and she's also Asian.
Well, my parents want her specifically to be our Asian ethnicity, so I'm probably going to have to keep this under wraps for awhile and work hard for my money, so I can move out and not need them for any financial support. I'm working at the family company, so yeah I'm lucky to have work there while gaining more useful experience as a software developer. If they end up letting me go for some drastic reason because of me marrying her on a worst-case scenario, then yeah if I have some money from doing a side business then it's probably not going to hurt that badly. I would still be all smiles while being married to a hot lady.
Thursday, November 21, 2019
Establishing Routine
I'm trying to get used to studying and focusing on other tasks besides just coming home to chill from feeling worn out. In a sense, I'm trying to build more tolerance for stress while staying a completely normal guy! Well, good luck to anyone who also tries to do what I'm attempting.
My idea of a fun routine really deals with being married to a sexy wife who wants to do it a lot! I'm not going to lie because it will be so fun and something I wouldn't mind to pass a lot of my free time. I guess it's a typical feeling for most guys.
This being said, since I don't have it, I don't think porn is the answer for me neither is philandering nor buying favors from certain women. I prefer being life partners with a full woman and hope she always stays a nice one for me. I'm just going to have to keep on meeting hot women and assume they are taken so be gentlemen to them and maybe on a whim, I'll meet someone nice, smart, pretty hot, and available. It seems like averagely, good-looking women in the medical field who like to do long hikes on their free time are premiums for me to meet, since they possess some patience while not having had a lot of time to meet someone good for them and have enough physical endurance if they are into the idea of doing it. Actually, my asexual partner is going to be part of the medical field and she really loves to go hiking and has only me to go with so yeah, there's some meaningfulness with my assertion to us being compatible except with her preference of wanting to always sleep alone.
I'm practically looking at the big scope now and how I'm figuring out what I want to grind my time in for gaining riches. Trying to get rich off of playing online poker is going to have its fun and down days. I know from constantly feeling this cycle and it just doesn't feel like it brings that much impact to this world for me. It's definitely a lot of grinding at times to work at figuring out some tough opponents or trying to dodge other players getting lucky and trying to take all your money.
Overall, I think the proper grinding option is for me to keep on picking up knowledge and experience while being a software developer. I successfully completed programming projects in college and had perfect scores on them while feeling on top of the world each time. I even did them at record pace like starting on the project in the evening before it was due the next day. I have this natural determination while just feeling that it's fun and could probably do it all day and everyday and even after passed my working hours.
Poker is really sometimes fun when the money is rolling in from catching a good run. Other times, it's just a numb activity to focus on while pushing off other personal things or this is just how it feels for me. I think I'll never have enough time to dedicate myself to poker for becoming successful at it, so I'm going to have to limit myself to it much as possible right now so I can focus on my other endeavors that I want to do like preparing ingredients to put into my pressure cooking!
I think I have too many valuable objectives that I want to do with my time to really make playing poker a serious option for me now. I'm not chickening out from the professional competitiveness of the game, but it's just that I could probably fit in like three good tasks to surpass the value of playing poker right now. Out of analyzing my personal values with what I'm doing to my available time, I'm going to have to run with this decision now.
Wednesday, November 20, 2019
Pretty Inspiring
I just went and read some works by other bloggers related to my major, and it's easy to tell who has his or her recent update. It's everybody else whose profile appears higher than mine. I'm trying to stay at the first spot just for fun and at a point, I had a little healthy competition with another unmentionable blogger. He or she is totally gone now because those posts were pretty obscene man!
I have had two days of good traffic and don't really know how long it's going to keep up. It's probably going to die down like usual, but receiving the traction was pretty nice. I have some old posts that might be naughty on my mind because I'm really making fun of some real people with their actual names. I'm also sticking closely to the truth and it's really my opinion judged against theirs so in a way, it's like payback because they acted like lunatics while never letting me have any say. I don't think I regret what I put there and even though I feel a little scared or want to panic if I felt I shouldn't have put something on there I shouldn't, it's not really that half as bad while maintaining my personal style that's pretty prevalent all these years of blogging on here.
From reading up on other bloggers, I'm pretty inspired by what they put. It's pretty intelligent with what they have going. I only looked through the top five or so on that link I put up for anyone. I know what it feels like to have no audience really and that maybe nobody cares for you. It's tough and as a man going through those emotions, it was rough at times but glad to have come to peaceful terms with it. Maybe, it's just a sign of growing up seriously!
Tuesday, November 19, 2019
Cool Day
I'm going to be detailing a little about what I'm feeling without trying to brag a whole lot because I think it's totally off-putting. It's really cool to see my view chart below the total pageviews make this funny surge to what looks like it's trying to break the ceiling! I don't know who is on my site because I don't record IP addresses and don't really care to know my readers' addresses, but yeah, it's still flattering to realize that I am recording a lot more views on here than my own!
Still, I'm not trying to exploit my audience and keeping this all free. I can make money doing other things like trying to build an app right now with a team I'm working with on the side. I'm also working at being a really good swing trader someday. I'm trying to fight my urges to do some grinding with online poker because that's going to take away time to do a lot of my other endeavors.
From the years I did actually try to make money, my total amount I have made from this site is less than $1 in ten years. Yes, it's very unappealing to blog and get users on Blogger.com with a domain that says blogspot.com! Everyone wants to think their own thoughts with some privacy and some are just more happier to share them than others. Hence, I'm calling myself the #1 blogger related to my college major because nobody really cares to update their site that regularly like I do out of like the remaining 1900 profiles.
I have put up a link at the top that sends you to other people's profiles. I'm a little turned off from currently seeing profiles from like Africa or India being among the top ten. I wouldn't mind reading some more posts from US citizens even though I won't comment on them most of the time. Because of my lack of audience participation, I shut my commenting privileges off. It was getting too bothersome continuously seeing doughnuts (Os) on my page.
I am actually aware of a business model regarding using blogger.com to make some passive income. It makes so much sense and will even feature original content. It's just that I'm not really interested in going that route from it being risky and not my ideal way to make money. I'll just stick to what I think would be best for me, even though it's really tough to stay in the game. I'm not going to reveal how to do the Blogger method of making money because it might seem pretty shady for some!
Still, I'm not trying to exploit my audience and keeping this all free. I can make money doing other things like trying to build an app right now with a team I'm working with on the side. I'm also working at being a really good swing trader someday. I'm trying to fight my urges to do some grinding with online poker because that's going to take away time to do a lot of my other endeavors.
From the years I did actually try to make money, my total amount I have made from this site is less than $1 in ten years. Yes, it's very unappealing to blog and get users on Blogger.com with a domain that says blogspot.com! Everyone wants to think their own thoughts with some privacy and some are just more happier to share them than others. Hence, I'm calling myself the #1 blogger related to my college major because nobody really cares to update their site that regularly like I do out of like the remaining 1900 profiles.
I have put up a link at the top that sends you to other people's profiles. I'm a little turned off from currently seeing profiles from like Africa or India being among the top ten. I wouldn't mind reading some more posts from US citizens even though I won't comment on them most of the time. Because of my lack of audience participation, I shut my commenting privileges off. It was getting too bothersome continuously seeing doughnuts (Os) on my page.
I am actually aware of a business model regarding using blogger.com to make some passive income. It makes so much sense and will even feature original content. It's just that I'm not really interested in going that route from it being risky and not my ideal way to make money. I'll just stick to what I think would be best for me, even though it's really tough to stay in the game. I'm not going to reveal how to do the Blogger method of making money because it might seem pretty shady for some!
Monday, November 18, 2019
Putting Up Perseverance
I want to build up more of a work horse mentality while maintaining my personal confidence. On top of that, I want to keep on working out, start cooking, and looking to go out there and meet more people. I guess it's just all the natural things to do. I'm going to do my best to limit personal entertainment and find pleasure in the things I'm working on. I know it's going to be pretty hard to do, but I want to catch on to something that's going to be really rewarding.
I think as long as you hang on to the personal confidence and keep on putting in the effort then you are good. Emotionally it hurts with the thought of losing my asexual partner but then again, I don't think I'm going to be marrying her right now so might as well just go explore and try to build more relationships. I mean she's moving away next year to start her awesome, medical career while making lots of money. She's probably going to try to pick up an actual life partner by the time she settles with all the space she's going to have to herself. I mean I think that's cool. She did invite me out to come live near her for some reason, so it's not like she's leaving me behind all of a sudden. I think we will continue to plan some more cool family trips together, so it's not going to be a huge worry for me. Hopefully, by then I'll feel rich and sexy enough to find an ideal date even though I'm barely putting in the effort to look around while trying to figure out my game.
Gaining More Useful Knowledge
It looks like all my life, I'm just a one-hit wonder pretty much. I might have repeated a few negative things about me a couple times more than good, but they are the highlight of my life. I struggled in a way that was weird, and I think going through those hard transitions and roughing it all out psychologically is necessary to figure out one's own path to enlightenment. That being said, let's focus on what I think is going to make the most money based on what I have going.
Looking at it, I don't think putting all eggs into one basket is going to be a very satisfying business model. It all depends on personal preference, but I like to have some variety. It's just that what I'm looking for is pretty tough, while not having a really good understanding of it yet. I do know two friends who are trying to start an e-business based on an idea that I'm not revealing out of good conscience. They are ladies, still young, and happily married too!
Regarding going into business, I have identified my weakness to being not having that much patience to win over customers and also from being a follower to the point of letting myself drown with the ship if it sinks. I'm easy to influence, but then a strong point about myself is that I highly reflect on what caused me misery or frustration to the point of not forgetting why when I move on from having been stupid. I was very stupid to try to stick around with that old church. I should have just told the ladies there I was attracted to that I feel uncomfortable about trying to pursue after them because that's the truth and then move on!
The point of the lesson is that there doesn't have to be a final destination point in life. It can be always subject to change even if it's rough, and I think it's necessary sometimes for the better. I'm still on the move with finding my future wife, and I just stumbled on this class with a life coach who has a Ph. D in psychology and is offering a cheap $25 seminar on how to attract high quality ladies around my vicinity, so I'm definitely attending! I want to attract the hottest lady with the sweetest personality even though I'm still a shorty! I mean I'm not going to stop at where I'm at, even though it would be enough for some charming, tall, and handsome guys. Go kid yourself, it really isn't enough and will cause stress on marriage life.
I don't know how this one couple I'm feeling a little envious of sometimes does it with a quiet image and posts up beautiful family photos with like five kids while barely turning almost 40. That's pretty crazy and wild I guess while possibly sacrificing some personal selfish dreams just for the kids. I don't think they can afford dream wedding vacations that much either. Their kids might be suffering from something, but the husband when I knew him at the time was pretty chill. I think you are almost forced to be chill around me when I go off on someone enough times, but I never really fully engaged him like that. I still stressed him out plenty so maybe I had a role in that for him to be reminded of how you win some and lose some, so make the best of what you have going. The guy's wife is pretty understanding and she is able to put up with me still and was even able to communicate through all the craziness I was writing to her about. I think she truly loved me as a person when I was around, so it might play a role and she's not budging from that marriage so it's don't even think about it for me. I'm a little sad that I didn't try to make a pass at her but she was dating that guy she would go on to marry, but I would have problems with my parents then because she's not my parents' ethnicity. I never really thought about having mixed kids at the time and her kids are mixed and they are popping out so many of those beautiful kids with possible futures for them to wrestle thoughts over. It's interesting how my parents have lightened up with my sister marrying a nice and tall, white man!
You really can't win them all and complaining is only going to pass the time emotionally but not really solve anything. It's still what people do though before they try to get on with their lives.
Analyzing Something About Myself
I don't want to go out and bluntly say that I will be analyzing my own sexuality with this post, but yeah, that's precisely what I'm going to attempt! I'm definitely not gay nor am I bi. I totally feel something below when I see physically attractive ladies. Sometimes, I get worried when I don't feel enough of it when I see a hot girl, so yeah, and other times, I just let myself get distracted from feeling that buzz for awhile.
I do have something like a non-sexual partner in my life and is a lady. I have seen her half-naked a couple times when I first met her in her sports bra and another time when she took off her hiking clothes to get into her underwear just for me to take a spontaneous photo on top of one of the world's tallest mountains. I don't know why she did that while smiling, but maybe because she felt comfortable in the moment after breaking up with her ex from being really cocky about herself. She is noticeably big there but wasn't that appealing to me since I was more into her younger sister. A complex switch-a-roo has happened in that now she is the more attractive one than her younger sister who just keeps on struggling to lose her weight or is too lazy to sometimes.
She defines herself as an asexual so I am defining our complex friendship to be an asexual, open relationship since she still talks about finding her ideal partner. We both like each other enough to hang out together with just the two of us on a road trip and she trusts me not trying to take advantage of her nor catch her naked while dressing even though she worries about her body image, if I did. I like to imagine how they look like honestly and try to get some help from looking at porn. It's just feeding my curiosity and I think I have enough exposure now to think of a visual image without having to ask her and make her feel uncomfortable.
Overall, our relationship is closer than just a friendship. We're like brother and sister to one another with occasional exploration of getting to know one another and getting others to speculate if we're going to be dating. Still, the adventures we have had are almost second-to-none and I just didn't feel that romantic vibe with her back then which would have made the experience something to die for. It's basically close but not close enough so working with what you got. In the meantime, I'm looking for a sexy single lady with a sweet personality to have some actual chemistry with.
I do have something like a non-sexual partner in my life and is a lady. I have seen her half-naked a couple times when I first met her in her sports bra and another time when she took off her hiking clothes to get into her underwear just for me to take a spontaneous photo on top of one of the world's tallest mountains. I don't know why she did that while smiling, but maybe because she felt comfortable in the moment after breaking up with her ex from being really cocky about herself. She is noticeably big there but wasn't that appealing to me since I was more into her younger sister. A complex switch-a-roo has happened in that now she is the more attractive one than her younger sister who just keeps on struggling to lose her weight or is too lazy to sometimes.
She defines herself as an asexual so I am defining our complex friendship to be an asexual, open relationship since she still talks about finding her ideal partner. We both like each other enough to hang out together with just the two of us on a road trip and she trusts me not trying to take advantage of her nor catch her naked while dressing even though she worries about her body image, if I did. I like to imagine how they look like honestly and try to get some help from looking at porn. It's just feeding my curiosity and I think I have enough exposure now to think of a visual image without having to ask her and make her feel uncomfortable.
Overall, our relationship is closer than just a friendship. We're like brother and sister to one another with occasional exploration of getting to know one another and getting others to speculate if we're going to be dating. Still, the adventures we have had are almost second-to-none and I just didn't feel that romantic vibe with her back then which would have made the experience something to die for. It's basically close but not close enough so working with what you got. In the meantime, I'm looking for a sexy single lady with a sweet personality to have some actual chemistry with.
Sunday, November 17, 2019
Defining Personal Goals
I'm going to take the liberty to share what I'm looking to obtain and acquire. Well, the crazy part about me is that I'm no longer really shy about backing down from an argument now. I have been making sense while just relentlessly attacking an old friend's character and laughing at him. He really just continues to take it, so he's been in a way my sparring buddy with handling arguments. He's a socially awkward knucklehead! I call him an average dumb joe all the time, but I'm never going to mention who on here because it just doesn't feel right.
For fun, I do play the piano and sing songs while planning to make that my revenge someday with this old crazy crowd from playing them successfully on their stage, but I'll have to put in a fight to get that spot. It's a little thing I do still and it's fun to go out and do Karaoke while checking up on how I perceive my singing voice is doing. I've recorded myself several times to not my enjoyment at times. I like how I sound live much better while trying to perform it in front of others.
I'm really looking to go to the gym and lift some weights and build muscle while getting some crazy sexy abs all for myself. I'll just be feeling good and then making a pass at sexy fitness ladies since I'm attracted to them and not caring if they reject me or not because it probably won't be from lacking anywhere with myself physically by then.
I have acquired over twenty cooking books and haven't even touched the bulk of those recipes yet! I have done a few and shared it with some friends who actually like those dishes, so that's been fun. I would like to keep on exploring those recipes. Currently, I'm into creating dishes that are good and don't take that long to make like using a pressure cooker. It's still quite a bit of work with preparing the ingredients and having to go out and pick it up at a store. I just might go back into Amazon Fresh to have all those items delivered to me on the same day by whenever I ask them too. It will just save so much time with searching for items at a grocery store.
Ultimately, I would like to stay wealthy off of swing trading and playing some really good online Poker so basically being a competitor of taking other people's money and what a lot of them like to do. I'm pretty comfortable about it now. Along with that, I would like to go into the business of developing software and be a part of every intricate detail so that would mean non-stop learning for me with doing the managing of people, design, and actual engineering work.
Lastly, people play an important role in my life. Love them or hate them, I can't stop loving them even when a person occasionally gets me to flip my handle. I'm pretty mellow even for an angry person, so I'm just probably going to be more vocal about my concerns and disagreements with those crazy boneheads. Once I'm able to find something like my life-long lover and partner now, I think that's living a complete life for me, along with always making some time each day to try to hear the Lord out from meditating on His Bible and praying which is based on my Christian faith.
For fun, I do play the piano and sing songs while planning to make that my revenge someday with this old crazy crowd from playing them successfully on their stage, but I'll have to put in a fight to get that spot. It's a little thing I do still and it's fun to go out and do Karaoke while checking up on how I perceive my singing voice is doing. I've recorded myself several times to not my enjoyment at times. I like how I sound live much better while trying to perform it in front of others.
I'm really looking to go to the gym and lift some weights and build muscle while getting some crazy sexy abs all for myself. I'll just be feeling good and then making a pass at sexy fitness ladies since I'm attracted to them and not caring if they reject me or not because it probably won't be from lacking anywhere with myself physically by then.
I have acquired over twenty cooking books and haven't even touched the bulk of those recipes yet! I have done a few and shared it with some friends who actually like those dishes, so that's been fun. I would like to keep on exploring those recipes. Currently, I'm into creating dishes that are good and don't take that long to make like using a pressure cooker. It's still quite a bit of work with preparing the ingredients and having to go out and pick it up at a store. I just might go back into Amazon Fresh to have all those items delivered to me on the same day by whenever I ask them too. It will just save so much time with searching for items at a grocery store.
Ultimately, I would like to stay wealthy off of swing trading and playing some really good online Poker so basically being a competitor of taking other people's money and what a lot of them like to do. I'm pretty comfortable about it now. Along with that, I would like to go into the business of developing software and be a part of every intricate detail so that would mean non-stop learning for me with doing the managing of people, design, and actual engineering work.
Lastly, people play an important role in my life. Love them or hate them, I can't stop loving them even when a person occasionally gets me to flip my handle. I'm pretty mellow even for an angry person, so I'm just probably going to be more vocal about my concerns and disagreements with those crazy boneheads. Once I'm able to find something like my life-long lover and partner now, I think that's living a complete life for me, along with always making some time each day to try to hear the Lord out from meditating on His Bible and praying which is based on my Christian faith.
Managing Time Effectively
It's got to this point now where I'm now thinking about everything I'm doing in my spare time. For the most part, I've been imagining what I want to do with my life and then other times just seeking after entertainment in grown-up form. I'm no longer really so engaged in video games like I was when I was younger. I'm not really finding myself buried into multiplayer games either even though they are really fun to be immersed in.
I'm going to try to not really spend so much time on entertainment anymore because I have bigger goals in mind with achieving, and how they are going to be time consuming. Playing online poker professionally would be a lot of fun too, but right now it's just too hectic with what I have going in my current life. I'll just come back to it again whenever I have to as a last resort. Playing poker on my phone is really just going to be when I have some down time and nothing else to do like standing in line waiting for something.
In the meantime, I'm just going to go after working hard on myself while maintaining my personal confidence and trying to find an attractive single lady to have some romantic and sexy chemistry with!
I'm going to try to not really spend so much time on entertainment anymore because I have bigger goals in mind with achieving, and how they are going to be time consuming. Playing online poker professionally would be a lot of fun too, but right now it's just too hectic with what I have going in my current life. I'll just come back to it again whenever I have to as a last resort. Playing poker on my phone is really just going to be when I have some down time and nothing else to do like standing in line waiting for something.
In the meantime, I'm just going to go after working hard on myself while maintaining my personal confidence and trying to find an attractive single lady to have some romantic and sexy chemistry with!
Thursday, November 14, 2019
Putting It Together
Along with a few struggles where I indulge myself in the little entertainment I can afford myself each day before going to work the next day for a long day, it's really conflicting with what I actually want to do with my life. I'm finding room to trade and hope it someday leads me to Eureka and no more having to wake up so late regularly to drive in boring traffic and go work! If I had the money, I could wake up early and maybe ride a really expensive motorcycle with good enough safety features. I was also thinking about how convenient it would be to own a small airplane and be able to fly it but it would require planning with more synchronization to get a routine going. It would be fun to be one of the few up there though except for the large planes that do their route regularly.
I'm great at organizing my own steps and what I need to do, but the hard part for me is the doing part. I'm not going to lie. I'm pretty good at planning and fixing up my mistakes while monitoring it, so maybe I would be an ideal manager for some company. It's just that I haven't found myself in that position from not really going to seek after it. I guess I'm doing the hard stuff regardless at work that others would like to avoid. They are giving it to me from thinking I'm the smart one, while I get to struggle to make it work, but I do get my day's wages. I mean if they thought I was dumb then I wouldn't be in that position pretty regularly.
I also believe that being a great planner would need great people to go along with it, and for myself, I'm looking at needing some leadership skills to somehow motivate others to follow a shorty like me! Maybe, if I showed it through being really successful then yes, people will follow me like no problem or even travel from far away just to say "Yes sir!" to me in person.
Because of this total smart image that I portray, I am seen as also nice but there have been a couple times where I drove a few people crazy from being mad at them. I need to watch out for myself better next time. I might have the intellectual aspect while looking fit enough and also a decent personality to hang around with, but I'm still a short guy and haven't really pushed myself to connect intimately with someone. I could have a little bit of asexuality because I induced it from being upset about my short height for awhile. I still feel a little uncomfortable about dating taller women though. I'm getting better with being around ladies around my own height though, but they're just cool with being hangout buddies so far. It just might be that the lady I end up marrying is going to be towering over me while wearing high heels, but as long as she's hot to me, I honestly don't care anymore!
I'm great at organizing my own steps and what I need to do, but the hard part for me is the doing part. I'm not going to lie. I'm pretty good at planning and fixing up my mistakes while monitoring it, so maybe I would be an ideal manager for some company. It's just that I haven't found myself in that position from not really going to seek after it. I guess I'm doing the hard stuff regardless at work that others would like to avoid. They are giving it to me from thinking I'm the smart one, while I get to struggle to make it work, but I do get my day's wages. I mean if they thought I was dumb then I wouldn't be in that position pretty regularly.
I also believe that being a great planner would need great people to go along with it, and for myself, I'm looking at needing some leadership skills to somehow motivate others to follow a shorty like me! Maybe, if I showed it through being really successful then yes, people will follow me like no problem or even travel from far away just to say "Yes sir!" to me in person.
Because of this total smart image that I portray, I am seen as also nice but there have been a couple times where I drove a few people crazy from being mad at them. I need to watch out for myself better next time. I might have the intellectual aspect while looking fit enough and also a decent personality to hang around with, but I'm still a short guy and haven't really pushed myself to connect intimately with someone. I could have a little bit of asexuality because I induced it from being upset about my short height for awhile. I still feel a little uncomfortable about dating taller women though. I'm getting better with being around ladies around my own height though, but they're just cool with being hangout buddies so far. It just might be that the lady I end up marrying is going to be towering over me while wearing high heels, but as long as she's hot to me, I honestly don't care anymore!
What I'm Looking To Do
It looks like I'm going to have to go after forming good habits again. I remember from a few years back my goals were a lot more simpler. I only looked for three things even though it didn't quite bring me fulfillment. I was going after reading the Bible, making day trades, and working out on a daily basis. It was simple to make a schedule for it and I stuck to it!
Now, I'm having trouble going to the gym again even though I have a nice UFC membership. I haven't gone in months and still paying for it! It's about time I got off my butt and just went into the gym to work on the weight machines since that's what I'm interested in. Maybe I'll get inspired to take classes again which are fun from watching some people do them.
Also, the gym has some noticeably hot girls going there even though they keep to themselves and don't look like they want to hit up a conversation with me. I think I'll have to build myself a better body that I feel really good about first before going up to be like "What's up?" to a cute girl who regularly attends and ends up smiling back. Maybe she'll do that if she's in a good mood regardless but yeah, if I feel good about myself it won't matter to me if she responds coldly.
I have hung on to Forex trading for far as I know and instead of reading the Bible, I keep it on audio tracks while I'm driving so it's about whenever I can zone into it while not distracted by other thoughts. Overall, the only schedule I've made for working out is doing like a steady paced run for about an hour every Saturday. I guess I can put in some more weights, since I don't have too much trouble with my cardio. I'll try to hit up the gym again but what it looks like is that I'm not putting it in my schedule and it's something I don't feel I'm too successful at or can make a run with. The Bible is just faith-based even though I think there are lots of knowledgeable people out there. Trading is really like a personal sport, so no one to really compete with and taking it far as I want to go with it. Working out on the other hand, I notice stronger and much better looking people than me at the gym!
It could be a little psychological deterrent but I think I just have to shrug it off and put in a lot of hard work. Even if I notice some arrogant people laughing at my lack of ability, oh well, I'm not there to focus on them. I'm just going to have to be consistent at it, so it looks like if I could eventually get myself into a program with some trainer, it would help a lot too. I think I'll stick to free resources online and just putting some of my personal time into it to save up on money right now.
Things To Go Over
I stated to realize from three posts ago on Getting To The Meaning Of It , I'm still quite a bit of a procrastinator. It could be that sometimes I want to chicken out from feeling a lot of stress or just not in the mood for it while being addicted to something else more fun at the moment! It really is a pain to get started, and for myself, I just don't feel right at all if I don't get anything accomplished so I am one of those reluctant work horses out there. If I flip on the switch, then I will keep on going the whole day until I fall asleep. For the next day, I have to put in some effort again to flip on the switch before getting myself going again. I'm just sometimes not in the mood turning myself on to go work as funny that might sound.
It really does come down to being used to something out of dedication. A friend told me that in order to turn something into a habit, you need to make the effort to do it for at least three months and then after six months it will become like second nature. Once it falls out again for some personal reasons, it sure is hard to get back into it. It's just a matter of putting it into your schedule because you deem it worthy to be on there.
Despite me telling myself that I'm not going to play poker to try to make money by winning or entertain myself, yeah, I still use up a good portion of time every week to play with them. I'm finding myself not over indulging on them as I used to with video games during my college years. Those were some tough times while being a stupid college student! I made it out alive though with a 4-year degree in Computer Science or related to software engineering if it will help anyone remember better.
It really does come down to being used to something out of dedication. A friend told me that in order to turn something into a habit, you need to make the effort to do it for at least three months and then after six months it will become like second nature. Once it falls out again for some personal reasons, it sure is hard to get back into it. It's just a matter of putting it into your schedule because you deem it worthy to be on there.
Despite me telling myself that I'm not going to play poker to try to make money by winning or entertain myself, yeah, I still use up a good portion of time every week to play with them. I'm finding myself not over indulging on them as I used to with video games during my college years. Those were some tough times while being a stupid college student! I made it out alive though with a 4-year degree in Computer Science or related to software engineering if it will help anyone remember better.
Staying On Track
I'm realizing that from regularly running at a steady pace for around an hour, it's helping me to keep up with doing boring repetitive tasks at work. It sort of does help a lot with one's patience, despite being able to enjoy being outdoors every so often. I keep up with some trail running close by my current home, which is a mixture of passing through homes with a few devastating short inclines to climb and stepping over a bunch of dirt on a flat terrain. It leads to a nice looking lake with about a quarter mile circumference, and I just take a lap around the uneven terrain when I get there after running at least 2 - 1/4 miles.
Overall, it's really enjoyable to go out running and I'm reaping the benefits of feeling lighter on my feet and not having a hard time to walk around all day when I'm chilling with some buddies. I'm not gasping for air like I used to while I was fat growing up!
Overall, it's really enjoyable to go out running and I'm reaping the benefits of feeling lighter on my feet and not having a hard time to walk around all day when I'm chilling with some buddies. I'm not gasping for air like I used to while I was fat growing up!
Monday, November 11, 2019
Settling For Satisfying Time Management
I'm still reverting less frequently nowadays to procrastination. I've written on one of my social media intros that the only thing holding me back is falling asleep on my chair after procrastinating! It's something I really need to make an effort with because let's face it, I can get pretty bored easily while doing something that feels like I have to put a lot of focus on and is pretty hard at the moment. At the same time though, I'm just driven to solve the issue and receive a nice level of elation after putting in the effort. Fortunately, I have found a job that I really enjoy doing even when I'm bored of it!
I know how contradicting this really is, but come on being successful is about putting in a lot of hours on something that you want to be good at. Why not pick something that can pay good or something that you know you are good at while passionate about and feel you can make a reasonable gamble while hoping to get lucky? I mean we all have lives and have to do something about it.
I know how contradicting this really is, but come on being successful is about putting in a lot of hours on something that you want to be good at. Why not pick something that can pay good or something that you know you are good at while passionate about and feel you can make a reasonable gamble while hoping to get lucky? I mean we all have lives and have to do something about it.
Getting To The Meaning Of It
Yesterday, I did feel a little vulnerable about not being married to a lady I want to be with. I felt this uneasiness but when I left the house to just go outside, the change of environment just felt so much better. I guess I'm meant to be outdoors then. When I'm inside my home, I want to have this feeling of sharing it with my wife someday. When I go outside, then it's going to be fun I suppose and maybe I'll be able to take my wife and kids which I both don't have currently along with me for the ride too!
What kept me going while I was feeling human yesterday is that I willed myself forward by leaning on working towards confidence and hard work mainly. It's nice to have this drive, but what would have satisfied it further is to base those things off of being inspired from my faith in God. I just need to put in the physical work and it's a pain to get myself started each day! It's pretty funny with how I realize that now.
What kept me going while I was feeling human yesterday is that I willed myself forward by leaning on working towards confidence and hard work mainly. It's nice to have this drive, but what would have satisfied it further is to base those things off of being inspired from my faith in God. I just need to put in the physical work and it's a pain to get myself started each day! It's pretty funny with how I realize that now.
Making Most Of My Time
Yesterday, I really spent the day considering my backup plan of playing Poker to earn a living if my current job falls out of place and I need something to do. Poker is a game of grinding and competing against one another while taking advantage of breaks and concealing them to the opponent. It's difficult to pick up on these signs so against a very seasoned player, the personal earnings will take a dip unless luck was on your side that time. My primary urge is to believe other players are bluffing in a real money situation. I have found out for play chips that the players don't really bluff as often as they could or I just found a really nice online community to practice my skills on.
I'm finding it to be fun and I can just waste hours playing online with one table while betting only $1.50 to $5.00 at a time. I can probably last for hours at a time too and sometimes I just leave to take a break like everybody else does after they are disappointed to lose all of their chips.
The thing about playing Poker to make a living off the low-stakes tables is that it can get very time consuming and since I already have a day job that pays better and has less hours to work and feels more rewarding, then maybe I should work hard to increase my skillset for this career and keep building upon it. It's nice as a last resort that playing Poker against other scrubs online for a living would be fun, but I'm going to have to eventually fold on this idea if I can.
I'm finding it to be fun and I can just waste hours playing online with one table while betting only $1.50 to $5.00 at a time. I can probably last for hours at a time too and sometimes I just leave to take a break like everybody else does after they are disappointed to lose all of their chips.
The thing about playing Poker to make a living off the low-stakes tables is that it can get very time consuming and since I already have a day job that pays better and has less hours to work and feels more rewarding, then maybe I should work hard to increase my skillset for this career and keep building upon it. It's nice as a last resort that playing Poker against other scrubs online for a living would be fun, but I'm going to have to eventually fold on this idea if I can.
Comparing Status Update
Yesterday, on what's traditionally a day of fellowshipping with other believers at a church, I ended up doing a gross activity that probably almost 99.99% of guys are familiar with. It's funny to mention it like this because I just feel like writing it this way. One thing I won't ever do is use vulgar language in my writing or speech with others. I haven't written out an actual cuss word all my life and sent it to someone to read. I've come close by using them in the form of **** but not actually typing it out for them to visually see all the letters!
It's my style which I think is sometimes weak because it's harder to flow when saying an expletive word instead would just bring out all that passionate energy, but I'm going to stick to my unannounced record of never writing the worst level of vulgar language which I don't even care to keep track of for anyone to read for rest of my days because it's worked out for me and can accept messaging someone that they suck works just as effectively! I guess this means I can be a pretty mellow person around others even when I'm feeling a bit short-tempered sometimes.
The reason why I went against my own preferred type of being close to living an asexual life while still single and looking for a hot, single lady to be with in marriage who will engage in a lot of it to make me do a complete 180 turn with my current lifestyle of abstinence is because I was wondering if my sexual functions are falling out. Let's just say, I wanted to see something about my body and it performed beyond my own expectations yesterday! I don't know if it can be analogous to doing a routine oil change which I took my car in for the same day! I'm more joking about that instead.
I think it's something to not really worry too much over and I think it's becoming more internalized and feel that looking at porn is just wasting my time to getting closer to what I want to truly imagine for my life. I should be putting my focus in that, so I definitely didn't give yesterday the proper justice of time management.
It's my style which I think is sometimes weak because it's harder to flow when saying an expletive word instead would just bring out all that passionate energy, but I'm going to stick to my unannounced record of never writing the worst level of vulgar language which I don't even care to keep track of for anyone to read for rest of my days because it's worked out for me and can accept messaging someone that they suck works just as effectively! I guess this means I can be a pretty mellow person around others even when I'm feeling a bit short-tempered sometimes.
The reason why I went against my own preferred type of being close to living an asexual life while still single and looking for a hot, single lady to be with in marriage who will engage in a lot of it to make me do a complete 180 turn with my current lifestyle of abstinence is because I was wondering if my sexual functions are falling out. Let's just say, I wanted to see something about my body and it performed beyond my own expectations yesterday! I don't know if it can be analogous to doing a routine oil change which I took my car in for the same day! I'm more joking about that instead.
I think it's something to not really worry too much over and I think it's becoming more internalized and feel that looking at porn is just wasting my time to getting closer to what I want to truly imagine for my life. I should be putting my focus in that, so I definitely didn't give yesterday the proper justice of time management.
Thursday, November 7, 2019
Main Game Plan
I know a friend who is trying to make a living off of day trading stocks which is looking at 1 minute and 5 minute charts while looking to make a quick buck before closing trades. It's a lot like playing poker for me because it's really about competing to take each other's money in a sense. I personally believe that it's senseless to be stuck to the monitor for long hours daily watching people's money rise and fall, but some still don't mind making a living off of it.
It really comes down to having a personal strategy and the best way to get one is to keep on practicing until there's some consistency. The traders will collectively cause the market to rise and fall for whatever reason, so it's all a bunch of risky speculation and making a living off of trying to predict how the chips will fall is an art.
How this applies to my personal preference is that I don't want to be a day trader. I want to be a swing trader and the expected time for practicing to become a pretty good one can be years, but the pay out with benefits for me is more worth it. I will keep on trying to model something profitable all the way to riches on a daily basis. It's pretty much all about coming up with a profitable set and forget model. I'm only caring about something that I can understand and model off of, which I have now so I'll be seeing where it takes me now. This pretty much means that I'll be having to make the most of my time optimally as possible.
Wednesday, November 6, 2019
New Thoughts About Dating Hot Women
I think relating to what might go on a hot lady's mind is that one can never really tell because ladies are individuals! This being said, I'm going to try to focus on something general from having put some thought into it. A hot lady is basically a person and still a girl. She might have some privileges from others or just annoyed by how so many unattractive guys like her based on just the looks. There might also be quite a few who enjoy being seen upon as hot, too, and not mind the attention.
In the long run of a human life, everybody is going to grow into looking something like a granny or grandpa someday if they can live that long. Maybe on the exception of plastic surgery, someone can make him or herself look younger and attractive still but it's never going to be super hot! The good looks that was there with all the hot ladies will be leaving her someday, so this gets me thinking that maybe an intelligent woman who happens to be hot could be not wanting to stress out about this and choose a guy who she feels a true connection with and ideally physically attracted to. For a lady, I think her decisions about settling down with a partner is mainly based on her emotions, more than how for guys they are visually stimulated on the go when they spot someone really attractive. There probably are some girls who think like guys also, so it's not always going to be all fitting into one category.
So basically I'm attracted to slender women, but what if I find someone to have kids with and she ends up keeping her bigger weight after pregnancy? I might actually make some women feel insecure about this thought if I ended up dating her, so she could be thinking that there's really nothing to build upon with me already and get ready to move on. Maybe all this machoism that I like to proudly display might be a little too much for some girls out there.
Yet, I still think there's a universal pass for all straight guys out there to reach the best single women out there. I can relate it to like starting up a hot business and attracting a lot of good-looking women. I guess the good looks fading will be something that every shallow guy out there in the world will have to deal with towards his partner, or just join the club of average dumb joes like one of my disappointing friends has already!
To get started, like one of my buddies who is pretty much the runt of his family, he is lazy so that's already a no-go. He can't really focus on getting through the hardships to get to his happiness so he doesn't have that perseverance which is an attractive quality and found in so many self-made rich guys. There's one thing about being wealthy, in that it does attract women especially if it happened from putting in a lot of hard work. It's about being one of the lucky few with social privileges, which having money brings, and not a lot of women out there are rich in general so they could possibly desire their man to spoil them and treat them like a princess!
It's really about having this attitude and demeanor that just matches up and connects well with the attractive woman. It's also about being there at the right time and right place without really any other distractions. My current distraction really is developing myself and even though I'm able to project tons of personal confidence, which is handsome in the eyes of common people despite being a shorty, I still have to put in the work to reach that physical state to earn all this credit that will afford me some good dates with the hot, single ladies out there.
In the long run of a human life, everybody is going to grow into looking something like a granny or grandpa someday if they can live that long. Maybe on the exception of plastic surgery, someone can make him or herself look younger and attractive still but it's never going to be super hot! The good looks that was there with all the hot ladies will be leaving her someday, so this gets me thinking that maybe an intelligent woman who happens to be hot could be not wanting to stress out about this and choose a guy who she feels a true connection with and ideally physically attracted to. For a lady, I think her decisions about settling down with a partner is mainly based on her emotions, more than how for guys they are visually stimulated on the go when they spot someone really attractive. There probably are some girls who think like guys also, so it's not always going to be all fitting into one category.
So basically I'm attracted to slender women, but what if I find someone to have kids with and she ends up keeping her bigger weight after pregnancy? I might actually make some women feel insecure about this thought if I ended up dating her, so she could be thinking that there's really nothing to build upon with me already and get ready to move on. Maybe all this machoism that I like to proudly display might be a little too much for some girls out there.
Yet, I still think there's a universal pass for all straight guys out there to reach the best single women out there. I can relate it to like starting up a hot business and attracting a lot of good-looking women. I guess the good looks fading will be something that every shallow guy out there in the world will have to deal with towards his partner, or just join the club of average dumb joes like one of my disappointing friends has already!
To get started, like one of my buddies who is pretty much the runt of his family, he is lazy so that's already a no-go. He can't really focus on getting through the hardships to get to his happiness so he doesn't have that perseverance which is an attractive quality and found in so many self-made rich guys. There's one thing about being wealthy, in that it does attract women especially if it happened from putting in a lot of hard work. It's about being one of the lucky few with social privileges, which having money brings, and not a lot of women out there are rich in general so they could possibly desire their man to spoil them and treat them like a princess!
It's really about having this attitude and demeanor that just matches up and connects well with the attractive woman. It's also about being there at the right time and right place without really any other distractions. My current distraction really is developing myself and even though I'm able to project tons of personal confidence, which is handsome in the eyes of common people despite being a shorty, I still have to put in the work to reach that physical state to earn all this credit that will afford me some good dates with the hot, single ladies out there.
Monday, November 4, 2019
Possible Secret To Sucess
I went last weekend on a hiking trip with an okay looking friend. She's become more like a close little sister to me. I do hold back an instinctual desire to make sexual advances with my lady friends in general. It's weird that on rare occasions I just feel like being bi-sexual but it just ends there from being a feeling because if I think further it grosses me out with the thought of being with another guy! I have heard a couple lady friends openly admitting that they are into just guys, also. It definitely must be working out for them with some type of attraction that they are bonded to.
After all, these are just open-ended feelings that aren't hard to cope with for me. The thought of being lonely for the rest of my life has eased up from meeting random strangers at hangout spots and continuing to believe I will find the one someday. I just stopped worrying about it while hanging out with a girl who says that she is used to being pursued and seeing her as like a sister to me now. She naturally puts in a decent amount of effort to the equation of going out there to have some fun while getting me to go along with her plans. I'm really easy going I suppose so I'm usually all for it.
From watching some documentaries on her AppleTV box that she brought along, I watched a few interesting videos that explored Bill Gates's mind. I have come to the conclusion that the secret to Bill Gates's success is working long hours and sometimes all-night without quitting while loving what he's doing. It's too bad that I don't really favor Poker nor playing video games that much anymore because I used to grind so many hours on them just for fun. I just might be getting serious about Poker if anything happens to my current cushy job though. I still don't consider myself financially stable until I can get my own home and become wealthy. This isn't going to happen without putting in a lot of work and from still being single, I should be able to make a lot of time for it.
After all, these are just open-ended feelings that aren't hard to cope with for me. The thought of being lonely for the rest of my life has eased up from meeting random strangers at hangout spots and continuing to believe I will find the one someday. I just stopped worrying about it while hanging out with a girl who says that she is used to being pursued and seeing her as like a sister to me now. She naturally puts in a decent amount of effort to the equation of going out there to have some fun while getting me to go along with her plans. I'm really easy going I suppose so I'm usually all for it.
From watching some documentaries on her AppleTV box that she brought along, I watched a few interesting videos that explored Bill Gates's mind. I have come to the conclusion that the secret to Bill Gates's success is working long hours and sometimes all-night without quitting while loving what he's doing. It's too bad that I don't really favor Poker nor playing video games that much anymore because I used to grind so many hours on them just for fun. I just might be getting serious about Poker if anything happens to my current cushy job though. I still don't consider myself financially stable until I can get my own home and become wealthy. This isn't going to happen without putting in a lot of work and from still being single, I should be able to make a lot of time for it.
Leaving It Behind
I think it just feels stressful with working on something and being so antsy about it coming together. It then becomes really easy to stop focusing on it and do something else that's fun to pass off the time. I really should be focusing on mainly my priorities, instead of just relaxing after work. I mean it's nice to be able to afford to do it, but I just want to do more to get ahead now.
It gets me thinking that depending on the day, it might be better to lay off of something in favor of doing something else because it will have a better return of satisfaction. Sometimes, being able to afford the luxury of watching TV because of something interesting like the World Series that finished last Wednesday was just too good to pass up. I still could have done something personal in place of it though.
I think I just have unique plans that don't really match up with others. Also, I haven't appealed to many from not reaching the top. To get there, I would really have to compete against other frontrunners and I just don't know how to naturally. It isn't that much in my interest, and I'm only it to satisfy my personal standards mainly. Overall, it really looks like I have a set routine that I could work with.
A friend has called me a regimental person, and I think she was right. It's something I did while feeling empty underneath because I was really pushing myself harder and not feeling anything for a little while. It's something I was accustomed to and would like to get back into again while feeling more joyful and sure of myself this time around.
It gets me thinking that depending on the day, it might be better to lay off of something in favor of doing something else because it will have a better return of satisfaction. Sometimes, being able to afford the luxury of watching TV because of something interesting like the World Series that finished last Wednesday was just too good to pass up. I still could have done something personal in place of it though.
I think I just have unique plans that don't really match up with others. Also, I haven't appealed to many from not reaching the top. To get there, I would really have to compete against other frontrunners and I just don't know how to naturally. It isn't that much in my interest, and I'm only it to satisfy my personal standards mainly. Overall, it really looks like I have a set routine that I could work with.
A friend has called me a regimental person, and I think she was right. It's something I did while feeling empty underneath because I was really pushing myself harder and not feeling anything for a little while. It's something I was accustomed to and would like to get back into again while feeling more joyful and sure of myself this time around.
Reaching Back For Some Old Things
Well, it really looks like I would like to go back to applying some facial products to have some fun with clear skin and to also double down on my hair loss prevention products. They haven't really made me lose any more hair, and I have been growing thin hair strands. I'm just working at trying to make them get thicker and not fall out! I also would like to do some more of those growing taller stretches too just to see if I can get any more taller. I managed to get 1/2 inch from applying them at the age of 27.
It's just that it's tiring to remember to do all of these things. I can manage to conduct hygiene including brushing my teeth and taking a bath once a day regularly but it's hard for me to brush my teeth again and apply some more hair loss prevention products before I go to sleep. I'm finding myself glued in to doing something, and I think I just need to force myself out of that concentration momentarily to focus on these little tasks before heading back in. It's probably that I don't want to be so tired afterwards and go to sleep while missing out on what I was indulging myself in.
Regardless though, I'm still finding myself going straight to bed without putting much thought and not already doing enough as I had planned. Maybe I just need to try calling it right there and move on to the next day. Honestly, I think if I can be really squared away with the current personality I have then I might be able to maintain a future marriage with a beautiful single lady who is made out of some fine substance!
It's just that it's tiring to remember to do all of these things. I can manage to conduct hygiene including brushing my teeth and taking a bath once a day regularly but it's hard for me to brush my teeth again and apply some more hair loss prevention products before I go to sleep. I'm finding myself glued in to doing something, and I think I just need to force myself out of that concentration momentarily to focus on these little tasks before heading back in. It's probably that I don't want to be so tired afterwards and go to sleep while missing out on what I was indulging myself in.
Regardless though, I'm still finding myself going straight to bed without putting much thought and not already doing enough as I had planned. Maybe I just need to try calling it right there and move on to the next day. Honestly, I think if I can be really squared away with the current personality I have then I might be able to maintain a future marriage with a beautiful single lady who is made out of some fine substance!
Finding A Hot Girlfriend
It looks like a hot single lady has privileges on dating sites and will get a lot of interest from guys who probably know what they are doing. Competing with that, it's pretty much about being the lucky guy chosen I suppose. I'm not really much of a guy in physical comparison to these people, but it doesn't hinder my confidence still.
From what I've been reading, it does make sense from an honest source that it's about having a natural connection with the right person you are looking for. I mean the guy would also need to put in some effort to be a gentleman and treat her out for her to be in the mood for making some love! The lady would also just need to be naturally attracted to the guy somehow for there to be a chance for something like that. If it isn't there and the guy tried then I suppose it's moving along to the next one and trying to find another opportunity while testing out and developing different dating strategies that might work! I think the most important thing for the guy is to maintain a strong interest for a single lady and be accepting if she just isn't interested and move on to find another attractive single lady.
For myself, it's been hard because of my high standards to find the right lady for me. There was one lady who I actually admired while thinking she's my ideal type but she was dating someone and later on married him which is cool, and I even attended her wedding. It was so cute! It might be a long while until I find a truly hot lady with one of the sweetest personalities you can ever be around and her becoming my girlfriend. I hope it gets to that point and will have to see who I end up with.
From what I've been reading, it does make sense from an honest source that it's about having a natural connection with the right person you are looking for. I mean the guy would also need to put in some effort to be a gentleman and treat her out for her to be in the mood for making some love! The lady would also just need to be naturally attracted to the guy somehow for there to be a chance for something like that. If it isn't there and the guy tried then I suppose it's moving along to the next one and trying to find another opportunity while testing out and developing different dating strategies that might work! I think the most important thing for the guy is to maintain a strong interest for a single lady and be accepting if she just isn't interested and move on to find another attractive single lady.
For myself, it's been hard because of my high standards to find the right lady for me. There was one lady who I actually admired while thinking she's my ideal type but she was dating someone and later on married him which is cool, and I even attended her wedding. It was so cute! It might be a long while until I find a truly hot lady with one of the sweetest personalities you can ever be around and her becoming my girlfriend. I hope it gets to that point and will have to see who I end up with.
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