Going for Main Goals

I'm now figuring that I want to work really hard and then retire with enough money while having a stable passive income. I'm open to getting married now as well, but right now my bigger focus is on becoming financially stable on my own. I think it's like having this personal ego trip of not relying on my parents for anything. I want to be the one who can actually support them and do more things in the future.

Currently, I do have a girl who I'm very close to and get invited to spend the night at her home often. We travel, sing, eat, exercise, and even do small projects together.  I stay in her guest room, even though she's offered me to share the same bed and from getting cold too easily. I naturally declined from thinking it would get too warm. This is only platonic but I recognize from an emotional or mental state that we have a very special bond. 

Overall, I'm starting to feel she's like a sister to me which keeps our relationship platonic while we're still technically friends with benefits. How I came to believe we have this status is that she says I can freely practice on being a good partner with her. I'm making the effort as well. It's a really unique relationship and nothing like I've ever experienced before. I'm very comfortable sharing things with her and she's really open about it with me as well. 

Working on Little Things

I'm now realizing what I want to accomplish in practical things while keeping it on a timely basis. It's really difficult to figure things out sometimes while also being quite stressful, but I find it to be still rewarding in the end now even if I made very little progress for the day.

For my life right now which is trying to work hard and become financially successful, I'm attracted to long-term investments and swing trades. I don't think I'm really meant to be a professional Poker player because it does feel meaningless to me sometimes. I think the top-rated professional Poker player is very skilled at it and can also be quite a nutty individual from getting angry and then blaming his failures on others who won some of his money! It's very entertaining and funny when I think about it, but I just think it's meaningless in the end with making money while staring down some hidden cards and trying to hustle around others to take all of their chips. I guess it's just not really meant for me to take that seriously even though I always like to play my game whenever I buy into any table, so I'll try to be the best opponent I can be that you have to beat to take some dollars off of me! I'll just live with any result.

To make money, I'm now feeling a deeper interest with programming mobile apps so I just need a one-hit wonder to make something happen for me. This doesn't feel impossible for me at all, since I like to go off of inspiration and surprisingly, I do have very few things about myself that can connect with plenty of people at the right moment. I like to consider myself to be average and nothing more. 

I want to manage my time better and just get my focus off of dumb things to distract me while I'm temporarily disavowing my personal goals to have fun and feed my other weird curiousities. I think half the battle is already won from just committing yourself to getting started each day and just keeping a level of moderate effort without blowing yourself out. I'll still love myself and keep on living with any result. I think I need to set a reasonable time limit that I can handle to do all these things before giving over to fun and personal distractions to let the day or night go by quicker. 

Finding Solid Grounds

I'm going to be honest but still keep this PG so I can't really talk about the birds flying around to reach their tree! Okay, I have to admit that I already wrote some very mature content and still didn't get busted for it so I would be safe to write it so bluntly while technically being anonymous but yet, I don't exactly know my readers here and I do prefer being nicer and less controversial whenever possible so it makes sense with where I'm trying to get at now. 

I've already dealt with a few stupid people and just getting over all of my personal insecurities now. It was difficult doing this on my own, but what helped me was pursuing and reading up on resources and doing things in a natural and straight-forward manner to let my own individual personality shine through with my writings. In addition, my faith in the Lord has always supplied me this sense of serenity whenever things feel like it's going south. 

It's been neat to notice how Christ can still be working on my heart. Also, now I realize that other well-referenced believers can have bias in their faith just as much as I do, so it can be challenging sometimes to find out who to agree with in an impartial manner. I'm seriously just relying on the Holy Spirit in faith to guide me through those wrestled moments. 

Message to My Former Dumb Buddies

"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood"- Marie Curie.

[To Former Dumb Buddies]:

In the past, you guys did a full 180 in dealing with me and then blew it up into something that went exponentially out of proportion! At the surface, it's easy to judge and say "Not enough prayer!" or make lamenting complaints about how stupid you guys were which I still like to do but that's not the big issue. It's all vanity in the end anyway, so it shows people can be so petty sometimes and not want to make time for the silliest thing and focus on other things from being selfish. You guys definitely didn't rock and for that, I have to be in gratitude for having already experienced this fallout with dumb asinine people like you guys at some point in my life.

Coming Across More Understanding of Routine

Currently, I'm trying my best to reach this goal of becoming a millionaire with a six pack. I have been messaging a Christian girl who might sound a little hostile with me sometimes, but I definitely have a stronger influence upon her now than before. It's crazy because I know I could be selfish all I want to and put her down so much while getting away with it if I want to, but I don't out of my fear in the Lord. 

She tried to reach out to me out of a misunderstanding that I was just bragging about my goals, which I wasn't. I explained to her that it really isn't anything worldly but something I'm doing from being happy in the Lord. 

Philippians 4:8 talks about how anyone should apply themselves in a highly positive manner and reach excellence. We can do this by dedicating ourselves to the Lord on reaching our goals. 

It looks like my interpersonal senses are back up and I can definitely tear apart my old and foolish Bible study group if I want to for the past conflict they forced upon me. I can turn into like the chess piece that the spiritual Enemy uses to terrorize them! God will probably even allow it for a while, if I pursued it. I choose to take a nicer path, but it will definitely be an unsettling learning experience for them. Those are the best situations to be forced into because it's like being put in the hot seat while not knowing what you are getting into and going to inevitably fail. In the aftermath, a true believer should look to come to the Lord while humbled and be brought back up again. 

Working Hard for Favored Living

I'm now realizing that investing in stocks, trading options, and trading in Forex looks like the best way for me to go right now for building my personal wealth. It's starting to make a lot of sense for me and slowly building it up to upgrade my current tools. I'm still roughly about half way there before I break even with using my expensive tools. I have been climbing my way up here in only a year so I should be surpassing it by next year. I'm looking forward to taking it to the next level.

For the time being, I want to start working out on my own at home using DIY tutorials and also practicing a good diet. I'm going to cancel my gym membership which I haven't been using because it doesn't make sense to leave it alone for so long and save me a little more money. I want to try to do growing taller stretches for fun to see if it works. I don't feel bad about being short anymore and so over it. I'm only going to do this for fun. I'm just fortunate that I feel very confident about believing that I was supposed to come out taller but something happened to me.  

For chasing after the right ladies, I'm noticing that I have a shot with all the ones who are already stable which may be hard to find. It sort of makes sense for ladies to have some form of insecurity in general. The Bible considers them to be the weaker vessels for a reason. 

Resolving Main Personal Insecurity

I wouldn't say that I grew up in the best environment while being a good kid and trying to soak in everything like a sponge but finally overcoming negativity and personal insecurity as a grown-up, I can say that it was cute to have gotten away with a few bad things that resulted in just a slap on the wrist. I'm still inclined to do good though and I'm just not in it for the money so you could count on me to distribute resources with however I'm supposed to based on any plans or agreements (laws). 

Something that affected me for most of my life was always being a shorty! Going on online dating profiles and constantly seeing attractive profiles that said their ideal mate's height numbers were taller than me didn't help my confidence that much either for a while. What really changed everything in scope was starting to think in a positive direction. Positivity is also well-intended by God. Take for instance what this famous Bible verse says:

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.  Philippians 4:8 (NIV)

Without a doubt, combining self-confidence with a positive and diligent attitude fits in like a charm! It's important to remember that true humility which is admirable isn't about thinking any less of yourself. It's thinking less often about yourself. 

I've been able to get away with realizing that I was probably meant to be taller but something happened! My male cousins are tall. I have broad shoulders and large wide feet that would match the profile of an average height Caucasian (5'8"-5'9")! 

It's all about nuances that one has to realize which is difficult at first while being moody and unwilling to let go of something, which will make some dumb people insecure about you like it already happened to me!  

For going on to the dating world now, I believe that women wanting men to look a certain way including their height is more likely to be based on physical attraction with having some form of insecurity. It totally makes sense because including some good friends I know, there are several ladies out there who wish they were taller, smarter, richer, slimmer, or prettier. How this fits into my life now is that I think I have a shot at pursuing a lady slightly taller than me because she might already feel very secure about her height and able to manage herself well around others. I've already been fortunate to meet a girl like this and she was so head over heels romantically interested in me before, even though I said it's too much! I'm not running back to her either, even though my heart for any love interest has opened up recently. 

In conclusion, when it comes to refusing to date a short but average good man, the lady is either insecure from being below his height level or massively a giant(!) or she's just choosing to look down upon that aspect out of personal preference. It's no worries because I've realized that the ones who aren't that insecure or shallow tend to be very beautiful outwardly anyway. It goes to say that a short but good ole' single and interested man should stay happy, confident with himself, and be diligent at it while waiting patiently upon the Lord to deliver him a heavenly match!  ( Honestly, what helps me the most now to stay upbeat is that I have strong personal evidence that I at least have average and healthy genes on American standards to pass on to posterity. I think something happened that made me become shorter than I would have liked.)

Message to Same Old Acquaintance that Builds a Strong Embarrassing Case

Leaders appointed by God don't necessarily have absolute power over the individuals they are assigned to oversee. This idea came about during the medieval times, which led to the revolutionary Magna Carta and then inspired the creation of many, modern human rights laws.

This is how Crazy Lee and most of you guys felt in that you guys said I was supposed to fully submit to your irrational thinking and then made it sound like it came from God. I hope you know that before the first king was introduced to Israel in the Bible, Samuel was reluctant to do it for the people. The idea of a king to those early Jews is having someone who is strong and charismatic enough to lead a powerful army and protect them from enemies. In other words, a king is ideally a servant to the people in God's eyes.

With me pouncing around freely and joyfully while never having declared any serious ties at your old church, the true spiritual leaders shouldn't be in any scornful or negative mood and be happy for me as well. I'm going to take a shot at all of you; you guys sometimes stay stuck in the Dark Ages and fortunately you guys all suck so much that you won't ever band together to form a messed up nation like North Korea. 

Message to Old Acquaintance

Romans 8:31-33 KJV says,

If God be for us, who can be against us? [32] He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things? [33] Who shall lay anything to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.

With how most of you guys treated me and ended up deciding to remove me as Facebook friends, it's all based on insecurities. I see it now just like how most short ladies try to avoid dating short men! I'm short myself at around 5'3" so I've finally taken notice of these nuances. What I'm saying is that since I'm on God's side, it's still cute that I've always been able to get away from all these "petty things" in the past, which also includes your [referring to everyone who showed signs of being miserable or frustrated with negative energy by yelling at me at that church as a whole like how God says my people Israel in the context of you] horrible and low-class mannerisms which drove me up a wall! The hard part is personally learning to control any negative moods and converting it into something positive. I'm doing it out of love for life and what's primarily fueling it these days is my full faith in Christ.

With your guys' insecurities and making decisions to avoid communicating with me while yelling and shouting at me to be quiet while I keep on pursuing a normal conversation, it's actually quite funny and shows you guys are only human. Out of ignorance or silly pride, Chris and Jarred have a tendency to say they are better than most people and try to be selfish while letting their crazy hormonal feelings take over to the point of forgetting their true identities in Christ. It's like they've momentarily become heathens and this is what I experienced with most of the old members at that church. This is wild beyond my imaginations. You guys should really go see a therapist, if an annoyance this little is something you still can't handle that well for moving on to adding me back as a Facebook friend and even being more open-minded afterwards.

I totally get it now with why I want you guys as a Facebook friend. It's symbolic of me taking you guys under my wing. I'm the guy who is half-millionaire and forming six pack abs right now. I'm aiming for my ultimate goal of being a millionaire with six pack abs.

I'm so focused that this is my main priority over finding someone to settle down with. I'm also satisfied and glad beyond indescribable words thanks to the Lord and finding out who I am. It's like having the same good emotion that never ends day in and day out. I'm a positive person, so turning the page instantaneously after being driven angry and venting in a very intelligent way after making very late realizations from learning new things in the present and reflecting with my remnant of memories for answers is part of why I'm still writing to you. I want you to still benefit from this because I'm such a nice guy! 

Staying Focused and Working Hard

I now really want to keep on staying focused and working hard at something while being happy about it. I really want to develop a better level of concentration for doing detailed work in everything regarding my life. It's going to take some practice along with self-discipline and maybe some self-sacrifice. I'm pretty serious about doing well for myself now. 

Overall, it's really just having a nice run with carrying lots of patience while staying positive and diligent. It's like I believe for myself that when I'm ready to settle down and find the ideal woman for me to marry, I realize that it's going to be like finding a needle in a haystack. I know that I'm not so worried about being turned down by anyone and able to move on while staying friends, if she's okay with it. 

One of these days when I'm rich and have so much time on my hands, I'll be trying to make a move on some nice and beautiful ladies! Something that I'm visualizing for myself and getting comfortable with is the thought of getting physically intimate while knowing I'm a short guy. It seems like there are few women out there who don't care, so I just need to find that attractive one who happens to be available and ready for me! This part is going to be like finding a needle in a haystack and for myself, I'm feeling happy about pursuing it and waiting for it to happen even if it never gets there in my lifetime. 

More Trading Adjustments

For trading the OTC Forex market, I'm now examining the monthly, weekly, and daily charts while looking at the 4-hour chart for a good entry. I'm pretty fed up with constantly checking every few hours and want to limit having to do this. This approach is known as swing trading and it's taking a lot longer than I thought. I'm trading with real money and currently losing at it but it's not enough to even sting. 

A few days ago, I mentioned that I was only trading the Daily chart. This didn't result in a desired outcome, so I'm now back on the drawing board and briefly looking at indicators on the last four highest timeframes of Metatrader 4. I have both leading and lagging indicators and am looking to trade in both directions. I'm not planning on giving up with my own system any time soon. 

For playing Poker,  I have learned that it's not a bad thing to keep on playing if you are winning and then to stop if you are losing too much that day. Even the pros will sometimes lose a ton of money in the short term. It is actually advisable to not play against great players and only try to beat silly players for making a living. Still, it looks like there are days where you won't be able to make anything but in the long term, if you are a winning player then that's all you need to get started.  

Chasing After Main Goals

I now have my main goals in mind which is really to settle with being financially independent and creating a lot of time on my hands so I can enjoy doing a bunch of common things without needing to stress out about not having enough resources and being uncomfortable. For the time being, dating is out of the question since accomplishing my personal goal is coming first. I feel happy to be single right now and having a purpose that aligns with the Lord's will so it's about just pushing onward and loving people. 

I just need to get used to working hard while feeling a lot of stress sometimes and being able to turn it off when I don't need to work anymore. I need to practice and keep on self-monitoring myself while maintaining a positive attitude. I don't think I'm that special and just want to work really hard now to just earn a happy average life. 

Focusing on Building Wealth

I am now ready to embrace however long it takes on my own time to become a millionaire and not have to work a single day in the office anymore! It looks like I'm buying into strategies from two investing groups for doing stocks and anything else related to it. I'm about half-way there now with turning a net profit from what I paid out of pocket to use their resources. It's been only a year and to me that's pretty good for the long term and stable process that I'm buying into.  

I'm still working on a convenient system with the Forex market but it looks like I'm back down to trading only the Daily and looking at it once ideally in the mornings. I don't really want to constantly check it every four hours, when I prefer just letting it sit there comfortably in a highly volatile market with a stop loss level that can hit at any given moment! 

I'm just going to let my cryptocurrencies keep on riding at this point while not purchasing any more. I really need an edge that I believe in and something that I can simply apply to gain a lot of profit and I think I have the system in mind that interests me but it's on hold for me this year. 

To add to my side business of trading and investing, I'm also interested in programming an app to sell on the market now to gain some profit and experience. I'm also not playing Poker that often anymore but I think I picked up on a resource for playing successfully at the micro level, so it's just to have fun mainly while trying to win in the long run on average.  

Staying Focused on General Task

It's been pretty hard for me because out of bad habits, my mind likes to wander off all the time to ward off stressful feelings. I honestly don't want to feel stressed out anymore and just think it's all like a fun, grown-up game! I want to keep on leveling up and then find myself with the ultimate prize of being able to walk out of my career and enjoy so much time to travel with my homegirl while asking out all the available hot ladies I can connect with and reasonably visualize a steamy and romantic marriage! 

This might happen at a later time in life and I'm okay with it because I've learned that I'm happy with working on what I'm trying to obtain right now. 

Staying Joyful While Grinding at Work

I'm now figuring that this is probably what God has intended for me to do all along. It's joining the family business and getting paid as an IT nerd who sometimes tries not to slack off so much! 

Right now I think I have a calling for leaving this business and the only way I see it is to become wealthy. It might be a long time before I get there and maybe it will happen at retirement but I'm honestly content at the core of living my current single life. 

Nobody told me how I am as a person, so I had to figure this out on my own. I've always felt God even kept quiet and let me find out my own personal identity dealing with the body of Christ. 

It's been a blessing to find out, and I realize that it's always been right under my nose with how I function. I enjoy grinding it out and reaching a desirable goal, no matter how big or small it contributes to the overall schematics of my life. From playing video games to mastering them while having no reasonable direction to working on a happy average life now, this is who I really am. 

I can see how listening to the Bible every day if possible is grinding it out for developing my spiritual walk. I'm leaning more towards putting my full trust in Jesus and learning to navigate through some tough waves. 

Letting Bad Things Go

Something important I've learned today is that moving on is awesome if you can think positively and accept the bad thing that just transpired. It's an experience with something you can learn from and take something positive with you for next time. 

Living the full average life that I want is going to take a lot of hard work with proper time management and making the right decisions during tough moments. I just don't mind letting it go so much anymore, since I'm convinced about how I see things. It will be for the better or worse and something I want to accept while going on making a living and someday, maintaining a good family. 

Keeping Busy

From talking to a good buddy who is a lady and older than me, I've learned to appreciate positive energy. This lady friend of mine was someone I really saw myself dating in the future, but now I don't really see it like that anymore. We have already connected at a good level of friendship and maybe there's more, but I don't want to force anything to go beyond its capacity in my personal relationships.  

I want to be more realistic with what I really want, and maybe she just won't be that person for me anymore. I know we are going to stay buddies regardless if I end up chasing after her and she doesn't want me to or vice versa. I'm open to developing feelings and wanting a romantic relationship with her again, but it's going to have to not be something with one-sided interest. I don't mind moving on and staying as good friends. 

Understanding How I Function Happily

I'm starting to understand that applying my faith in Jesus is allowing me to sustain a high amount of positive energy. I really do understand that I like to prioritize being a very focused individual and perfectionist to the point that any little detail of messing up can drive me crazy. I can really keep my head dwelling with negative energy on that one small thing. Learning to control this has taken me a long time because I didn't even know this is who I was to begin with. 

I have a proper visual of what will make me a completely happy individual and that I don't mind working at it while keeping myself smiling about reaching this goal. This is really the purpose of my small, insignificant life and I owe it all to Christ from believing he died for all our sins! I just consider myself to be an average person and very happy about staying that way. My view of the average life is just being a millionaire with a good home, sexy and loving wife with maybe an adorable kid or two, athletic with like a six pack and muscles, and fully content about living life. It's the full package for being just another average guy.

To me, all of this is just average and nothing really that extravagant after achieving all of it. It's something that I want to work towards, so right now I'm too focused on achieving my financial, physical, and spiritual goals to really care about asking out another woman. It's because I want to be prepared to take care of her once she ends up digging me and I find out that I can have a good future with her. I don't really mind with this taking me a long time because I'm so open-minded about it. I'm not going to kill myself over it. Pretty much, I'll get there or die trying while taking my time on it. 

Being Patient

I think it's very important to let things move on while focusing on working hard to make yourself happy. I mean I'm very committed these days to just write something on here which can take me only a few minutes sometimes. Everything is starting to flow better from finding personal acceptance with how things came about and even though I'm bothered by it a little, it isn't hard for me to not let those negative feelings get the best of me anymore. 

I have grown to be a pretty practical person, but I am still a little slower than what I expect out of myself with grasping any situation. I'm just going to have to keep on working at it and doing my best while exercising self-discipline with a positive attitude. I can suck at life sometimes, but I care about always improving myself so I see there's room for me to still grow even though my mind feels overloaded with stuff sometimes. 

Letting Things Walk

From having done a lot of work on myself with some help from the Holy Spirit, I'm having an easier time with letting my past crazy and stupid situation go away. I no longer seem so angry that I would want to curse at those who made me so mad. It's like chaff now that I can easily dust it off.

It's not a very difficult situation with where I'm finding myself these days. I'm trying to get to an ideal standard that I have made for myself and will be fully happy to finally reach. I want to work hard to live this average life. 

Living in Focus to Obtain Fun Rewards

Nowadays, I really want to try so hard to be good at both the big and small picture of managing my life. I don't feel let down nor depressed about having to work so hard to get anywhere now. I embrace this and want to keep at it while staying positive on a permanent basis.  

I would really like to become so good at taking care of everything dealing with my own business while also always being adaptive to any changes and then delivering in a timely manner. This is what I want to mainly focus on now until it gets to a high enough level that I will feel happy about jumping into marriage with a good woman. 

Feel Good Message

Me: So, the restraining order turned out to be super dumb!

Holy Spirit (My subconscious): No, it was really dumb.

Me: It was really, really dumb!

Sweeeet! If I only exercised true humility after exerting self-confidence in Jesus, then this would have never happened to begin with. However, it was never my fault with all of you guys becoming stupid with me! It's time for me to move on now [lady]. Some things just take too long to heal from a human perspective. I wonder how any Christian in general can tap into God's supernatural power to heal his or her emotional ailment.

"Step 0 starts with prayer" - [other guy] ( still have this guy and another girl I presented her first Bible with from that old cranky church on my Facebook and going to forever protect those connections). I squandered away your connection from not being careful and was too hard from already knowing you married dumb [guy]!

I can slowly work my evangelical "Magic" which was what your so-called sweet [guy] described to me back then even though he sucked at evangelism too and get you both back, but is there time for that? The Book of Ecclesiastes says there's a time and place for anything and I think that period has departed me already so moving on... 

Working Hard With Staying Focused

I think now that there needs to be an objective and I guess for me, it's as simple as making a living with something that interests or excites me. I feel fortunate to have made it this far based on not having enough trusted guidance that I could have used from someone. I have sort of been relying on my own personal intuition, and it looks like combining it with hard work will eventually lead from one thing to another. 

I no longer feel so nervous underneath either about having to perform so well. I see it as wasteful and negative energy that could be let go of. It's really combining passion, commitment, focus, and balance. I think these four things really do go well together. 

Thinking About Dating Potential Future Partner

Right now, there's a person who I think is the closest to being my ideal match. I believe that she can be a little full of herself sometimes and then it can lead to a small mishap with others that she takes seriously upon herself. It feels like she's been damaged quite a bit from her last marriage which she made sacrifices for and invested so much energy into, but ended up divorcing over irreconcilable differences. I'm not so sure she's in a great state of mind to try to date seriously right now, but she is an amazing person to be close hangout buddies with though. She's been like my best friend over these past few months since she reminds me often to stay over at her place. 

I think she's being full of herself when she says that I'm like a brother to her while participating in a discussion with some friends. Boy, she treats me so favorably if that's the case! I feel like she's contradicting herself, but when I think about it for myself, I'm not interested in jumping into any serious relationship at this time. I want to stay busy and focus on fully developing my 'A' game first, before trying to find a fine lady to settle down with. 

Increasing in Making Profit

I am now very open to trading options with stocks. The one I am looking into right now is buying call options. This allows for unlimited gains while setting a fixed loss and trading a larger amount for a bargain. It looks like I'm getting into now investing in stocks while trading options and in Forex. 

I read a free Kindle book called The Millionaire Trader on Amazon and this is the same recommendation the author made to get into doing. I'm slowly catching on, and I also do have a little bit of cryptocurrency. I'm starting to see how I can invest in the long term and make a lot of money. I think it's becoming more possible as I keep on working at it daily. 

Focusing Properly With Balance

Lately, I just want to be really on top of things and totally squared away with every minute detail as possible. At the same time, I want to be working hard and making some really good money while being smart about it. It seems like now the nonsense I had to deal with compared to others is small fish. It's no longer much of a big deal to concern myself over because I just feel good about myself in general.

I think it's a good time now to move on with the old, crazy care group and situation with Crazy Lee. I mean it's been so memorable to trouble myself through finding a strong footing and was difficult to discern, but now I feel at ease and just ready to move on to the next chapter. 

On top of this, it's a good time to move on from all bitter feelings for myself and not let those angry feelings get to me. I'm understanding how I really want to work it out with this past matter. It's probably going to be them who need to move on from feeling irritated by me proposing something they will be tired of refusing me for in a regular manner.

Allocating Effort Towards Achieving Wealth

It looks like with the tools I have acquired, I'm slowly gaining wealth now without putting in that much effort each day. I really do like this hands-off approach, but it's just that I'd like to make so much while doing this so I've been working on doing swing trades off the Forex market. 

I'm now also interested in buying call or put options for stocks. The benefit of doing this is that it can allow for speculation and cap the amount I will be risking which is the premium for buying the contract and the upside being unlimited gain. This is something that I feel I can handle now. For now, I'm taking the conservative approach by taking on minimal risk in doing options trading and I do have a useful tool that I can apply to it while not having to spend too much time on these trades daily, so I'll be doing that then. I even have a good guideline to follow, so it seems like I'm slowly on my way to gaining wealth. There's only three main steps- make more income, eliminate all debts, and invest smartly as much as possible.  

Quick Mental Refreshment

While this is fresh on my mind, I'm going to follow up from yesterday. It looks like I can sometimes keep on writing about the same topic for a while, so I'll just call it a theme now. My main themes have probably been about investing well and trying to do well in life while getting my mind off of making fun of Crazy Lee from thinking and feeling positive. I'm starting to have better control of my anger issues from reading these past posts. They are pretty therapeutic in a sense and originate from just intuition. I'm not really putting in the time to research anything and just writing what I currently think without expecting any backlash from people, since I haven't been too controversial.

I think it's fair to say that Crazy Lee is really not part of the mainstream and she can be classified as a freak by a large number in this world, along with the people I have talked about, so sadly they are being squashed by my painted words to add insult to injury. I see it as only a game though because I know I'm better than these people while feeling so confident. It's definitely a good time for me to move on now from also Annie and Betty who were being dumb and acted so frustrated around me a long time ago. 

I wrote a bad poem about them, and I don't have any regrets anymore because I spoke from my heart and they were just bitter sourpusses about it while worried about their image and how they were being portrayed. They were already weird to begin with and will show it from how they can't really win people's hearts that well to stay on course with following after Christ. Basically, they all sucked at evangelism and probably don't really have a true calling for it. 

While this is fresh on my mind to get back into topic, I think proper work is about relating to passion, commitment, focus, and balance. For balance, I believe that the mind does need to relax from working too hard sometimes when you are feeling worn out and that entrusting Jesus will rejuvenate your down spirit. 

Dealing With Physical Negative Feelings While Working Hard

I just texted a really good friend of mine to ask her how she copes with this issue while grinding on something at work. 

I wonder what her response will be. At the same time, I'm still feeling an adrenaline rush from copying word for word my last post at https://academyofscud.blogspot.com/2021/05/staying-dedicated-at-work.html and then sending it to a dumb antagonist I was forced to deal with in the past. He likes to trash talk, so I like to say that this add-on coupled with shutting up his hateful trash talk towards me will have sent a figurative dagger to his heart for a straight kill shot! From not being so weird anymore, I chose not to drag this on and end my initiated duel in one move. He's literally not about to respond to me anymore and will probably ignore all of my future messages now because he's going to know that it's totally unhealthy and unsettling for him.

Getting back to what my friend texted me back just now, we had a little discussion via text and came to the conclusion that these physical, negative feelings need to be dealt with by taking mental breaks. It's all finding the perfect balance despite knowing that I feel passionate about this line of work and still feel stressed out sometimes. 

It's about finding a balance of work and play while keeping the efficiency and awareness that people expect out of you.

Moving Forward With Hardwork

I think in the essence of applying great time management, it's important not to get yourself so carried away while having so much fun that would be unrelated to getting ethical tasks out of the way even if you can slack off a little. I guess in the Spirit of the Lord, I should be doing my best and putting in extra work whenever I can so I can get promoted from having put in the hard work and gain more rewards that I can apply to enjoying my life! It's just common sense and it will be just so much easier to give back in this state of happy mind while being smart enough to not get taken advantage of at the same time.

Now, since I'm starting to move into action with the things that I have mainly laid out to reach my main goal; I want to emphasize great time management and putting in a lot of hard work with related things that will help smoothen out the process. 

Working on Main Goal

My main goal is to become a millionaire with six pack abs and so far I have built up a networth of only a half-million. I'm seriously realizing that it's about maintaining a positive attitude and really putting in a lot of hard work with whatever that draws you in for making a living. 

I want to just keep on trying my best even when I'm not feeling it and just go for doing what I can without ever feeling let down about reaching my goal. Even being insulted by dumb people doesn't bother me that much anymore.