No Longer Hurting

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and play a decent round of online Poker. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing, trading, and playing online Poker. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there. 

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What did I do right today? 

I'm realizing from the work I've been putting in and understanding myself, I'm always living in a much better place. 

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I think there's really no shortcut to knowing how to live a great life. It's really from putting in a lot of effort because initially it's going to be hard with toughening the mind and getting to your objective. 

I no longer feel bad about some narcissistic friends walking out on my life. They were being bad company and couldn't suck up whatever problem they had with me. Actually, I also ended up acting narcissistic too and walking out on a couple but I technically never really did leave them. They just don't want to come running to me for any help. The people I acted narcissistic towards were behaving like covert narcs themselves.

I'm in a much better place and have the mental capacity to make it happen again. It's thanks to a close female buddy who can act narcissistic with me and getting enough practice with her on how to manage a great relationship with narcs in general. 

Planning Steps Ahead

  4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and play a decent round of online Poker. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing, trading, and playing online Poker. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there. 

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What did I do right today? 

I'm looking forward to planning for good times ahead.

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I don't think I really need to get so serious about my career development anymore, as I am working on my primary already and currently have some job security that I can live with. I am fortunate to do what I have and to realize my true passions for making a living. It's definitely thinking outside the box for me.

I just know now that if I really have to get another job while struggling then it's going to be somewhere in the IT field. I don't mind IT security, database administration, or software engineering to earn enough income for doing some other side investing. 

Bare Minimum to Spend Time Wisely

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am learning to figure out how not to occupy my time and then feel guilty about slacking off.

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The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and play a decent round of online Poker. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing, trading, and playing online Poker. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there. 

Vision to Make Money

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I have come up with a plan to make myself my own boss while making money.

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I know the financial instruments that I favor now to gain financial independence. I want to be an investor of stocks, trading options and Forex, and eventually investing in some real estate and bonds. I think hanging onto cryptocurrency coins for dear life and believing it's causing a revolution is a little too radical for me. I do have a significant portion of it that I'm waiting to cash out on for though.

It looks like this guy I'm talking to about the crypto world just has an absolute disdain for how the money system works in this country. He really believes in his heart that the system is going to fail and that crypto will be the way it goes afterwards. 

I personally think the most stable form of capital in an established government is owning property and having control over tools that continually produce goods to contribute or dominate a market. 

Maybe the guy just wants to feel like he outsmarted a system and wants to be far ahead of the pack that made him feel some suffering over it. He probably wants to feel like he outplayed the system and has some sense of poetic justice just to feel like his life is worth some meaning. He's going to keep adding on all these emotional beliefs and hang onto it, but for myself, I'm going to work with what keeps on allowing positive cash flow. 

Making Money

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am learning to put together an effective plan to make money comfortably and to the best of my ability.

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I don't really feel bad about competing to make some money now in this world. I wouldn't really label it as evil either but something that's just set in place as a system for sometimes gaining resources and influence from others. Being financially successful is important for me and something that I want to do well in to provide for the family and allow for plenty of free time to have fun and be independent. 

I think it's worth the hard work and to also not hang onto things in a narcissistic manner. It's just not good to do that. When some ladies and friends have admitted to not being perfect, I'm now noticing it's because they are being self-centered and having trouble with not being happy about something. 

It's better to just stay confident and work through the storm. This is probably a new strength of mine that I'm developing. I really do want to ultimately serve the Lord of Hosts as my greatest objective in life. 

Creating Working Trading System

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am learning to execute patience.

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For everything that I'm trying to do right now, I guess I want my primary focus to be on making money as a self-employed person now. To gather some cash flow and pay some bills, I want to continue doing something IT-related. 

I want to be a swing trader/investor for the most part to make my money. It doesn't hurt either to try to make money as an anonymous online Poker player too. For now, I am playing this app and ranked in the top 80 out of a million players for acquiring the most play chips. Once I can reach the top 10, then I think it's my sign to start trying to make money by playing online more seriously and whenever I want to. 

My Forex trading system is starting to make sense and the drawdown doesn't look that bad either for managing a lot of live trades. It seems to be averaging out into very respectable numbers. I can only wait to see if I can keep this system up for another two more months before plugging in more cash to trade with. 

Achieving Mental Fortitude

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I'm starting to maintain relationships that I want to keep as important.

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I do have a female buddy who I'm very close to. She's sometimes almost like an emotional train wreck. I thought I had these feelings of having a crush on her, but I think it just turns out that I naturally possess those kinds of pheromones from being straight. From being able to control it better, it's been useful for maintaining a good relationship with her. She's not a very affectionate person and her personality is also naturally self-centered even if her focus is on family. 

From analyzing personal conflicts in group settings rather than at an individual basis, I've been noticing some type of herding mentality with having a common goal to treat so selfishly on their own as an individual. It's a pretty interesting psychological phenomenon I think I can recognize as a personal hypothesis that I probably will never try to research on. It's pretty much people with narcissistic traits banding together to seek a common interest that is failing to be met from the leader's perspective or could be perceived from presuming equality, so they can act out in a capricious and rambunctious manner to the person they see as the perpetrator. In other words, they aren't happy about not getting what they want so they act out unreasonably and emotionally out of control to a certain extent that is allowed by their personal conscience which will vary individually.

I might be onto something here. For myself, I have better mental fortitude from labeling some of my negative attributes as narcissistic and it keeps me in check better because I have a strong belief system that convinces me as such. I don't really need to depend on a regular person defining my happiness parameters. I see this as being individualized which makes us all unique and beautiful in our own way. 

Stabilizing on Profiting Reliably

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I'm learning to manage and make trades rationally without letting emotions get a hold of me.

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What is starting to become really nice is understanding how my investing portfolio is coming to order and profiting. It's been just a couple years for me, but I'm pretty much just combining stocks, options, and Forex as my main trading instruments to make money. 

I do rely on a more short-term swing trading method for my trading style. My work is starting to pay off and it came with plenty of hard issues for me to figure out initially but I kept on sticking with it while wagering so little to be able to keep on affording the small losses which I can attribute to like paying the bills. 

I guess it is really smart what I have in mind to do to afford a clean, happy life for mainly family and to also be able to donate some earnings to deserving communities. 

Detailing What I Think About a Few Close Friends

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I'm starting to find a way to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

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It's pretty amazing to me with how I'm feeling very stable underneath after putting it all together now mentally. I don't really feel it's necessary to start flipping out or even joking like that too with anybody in general. I know a rude uncle-in-law who likes to do this and shows narcissistic traits. I clashed with him already and he's currently not interested in being outplayed by me anytime soon while making it look easy.

Even in my conflicts which have mainly been with covert narcissists which has been distracting a lot of my personal attention with some personal development, I have realized that I've been doing what I want all this time. It's really not hard for me anymore to move on from these narcs since they are the ones who can't handle it and complain about me more than I do about them to others. 

I can bring it up and spot the symptoms now and just communicate thoroughly and assuredly now. It's just part of my natural personality. I think some personalities are doomed to have a few narcissistic traits if theirs can be more turbulent like a close female friend of mine does. She can be pretty weird sometimes while going crazy and act like a narc. She is going in to see a therapist and even recommends it to everyone like how a narcissist would! We manage to have a close budding relationship and she claims that I broke her curse over being friends with any guy. 

I'm not really telling her what I think the reason is to her face, but it's because she can't help it sometimes with acting up in an anxious and narcissistic manner. Notably, it happens to be that her close female buddies and other family members can tolerate the way she is more than straight guys would typically be able to. I'm surprised she doesn't even have any close gay male friends as well so maybe that extends to her general anxiety or envy with the male population. 

She doesn't always hang out with her besties 24/7 and they all sometimes seem to be always very busy with their personal lives while not being able to give each other time. It's starting to make sense that her weaknesses might traditionally have been the areas that I struggle to reconcile in the eyes of others. Her stubbornness about wanting to stay friends has turned out to be the trump card that I've needed all along to learn how to maintain a working relationship if necessary with any narcissistic friend in the near future. 

Becoming Mentally Tougher

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I'm introspectively understanding something about myself in a good way.

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Based on what friends and love interests have told me, I now believe that they are telling me the truth when it comes to good things about me. I'm not going to let it get to my head and make me start acting like I'm so full of it. I guess this is a good thing about me that I pride myself in, which is keeping myself in check honestly while being brave about getting through any holes that I feel reluctant or afraid of burying myself into. 

One of the things I have placed a label on is that acting or thinking negatively is being narcissistic in a bad way. I see myself just being level headed and open-minded these days while relying on some intuition to keep myself happy. 

Another thing I have figured out about myself is that it's not really in my nature to want to always read or listen to the Bible but I try anyway not for fulfilling any chore but because of my undying faith in the Lord. It's making sense to me with how I gravitate towards letting my mind wander off to other personal things that I feel excited or still wrestling with thoughts about in my life. I have been apt to do this a lot whenever I play Scriptures and drive around in my car. It's been quite rewarding to me though to listen to the Bible and learn about the spiritual battles God's people have had throughout several generations in the Old Testament. There's a pattern that seems to be working to get them aligned with the Lord's ways, and it's also becoming more of a profound meaning to me of how an everlasting God truly does love His people. 

Understanding My Lingering Fantasy

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am trying my best to make money and to maintain balance with my life.

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I've been told that I'm fun, very smart, a good person, and sometimes complimented on my good appearances from what I choose to wear as fashion by some nice ladies who would be of interest. 

My personal struggles with relationships have come from others who behave like narcissists. I think I used to be a vulnerable narcissist myself from being selfish about wanting to be called the nicest man in the world. 

Another one of my struggles has come from people who try to give me advice and I disagree with them while they keep on insisting that their way is better than mine. This could be a sign that they are narcissists because I suspect they want to selfishly get their happy fix on from feeling like they did something to help a friend. Also, they carry some narcissistic traits over from ending up not being happy about me disagreeing while becoming flustered over thinking they were trying to help while not realizing instead that they were being more of a nuisance from instigating. 

The way I dealt with this struggle was strategizing on coming up with better advice or the best one I can and communicating it with them. From taking upon this approach, I have made a narcissistic friend not really try to give me advice anymore. I speculate that it would drive her crazy since it was so annoying to me. We are still very close friends and I see her as family, so it's been great to pick up my confidence on even having a working relationship with these narcissistic types. 

Committing to a Finer Approach

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am trying to counteract my personal nature of wanting to do something else versus committing.  

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A big part of me that has grown so much is opening myself up better and being accepting of how people behave and are like. In other words, it's more of a necessity for me to always avoid becoming a narcissist in order to live a fulfilling life. 

I feel empowered by my belief in Christ, so this means to me that the Holy Spirit is continually working on my self-centered ways and giving me this everlasting joyful feeling and peace that fills a personal void. I think I finally found the emotional sweet spot that I always intended on getting myself to. I'm a laid back Christian now, too. 

Working On Living With Balance for Satisfaction

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am understanding more about my fantasies and how to control them without going too overboard. 

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Something that I'm doing is playing online Poker with play chips, watching cool anime, and researching on how to do physical intimacy properly for fun. I guess there's nothing fully wrong with it on my end now, since so many others do it already while not getting in trouble for it. 

I guess I'm living out having fun while imagining a fantasy that I long for. I think I like to try to push myself often to live a more balanced life. I'm willing to put in the hard work. 

Currently, I have almost $50,000 invested on my own. Most of it is on stocks and I have 1/5 on a defi crypto exchange. Everybody is entitled to their own opinion, so I think it's important to not get offended by someone else freely offering their views. I can clearly see some bias that can offer up some interesting conspiracy theories. Whether it's true or not is debatable. 

This is something that I've had to work on because I seem to get worked up by it sometimes. Anyways, I've found out that friends and acquaintances can become narcissistic in this area if you offend them greatly while showing a vulnerable side that they can walk all over. Still, if you start feeling this way, then I think you are being a narc also in a bad way. 

The way to get over this is to not feel this way from the start by finding a healthy coping strategy that aligns with your personality to deal with it. My strategy that aligns with my personality is to look to give better advice or one that comes from the best of my personal ability. I believe that this has a tendency to annoy my peers who gave me their shoddy advice first, so they won't feel like giving me more advice that often. It also means that I get to stay relevant and make them feel like I can take control selfishly which they will want to run away from while trying to cover their tracks. 

Staying Occupied While Being Patient

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am now fully trying to make the right kind of approach for finding joy.

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What feels impossible is enjoying a great relationship with a charming narcissist. I managed to finally do it against the odds. It's a shame that another person I formerly called a soulmate is currently a narc as well. I am naturally not reacting to it in any negative manner while accepting it without any harmful intentions. 

It looks like I've become a lot stronger about being able to move on even if I hit her up later and she feels that she will never be able to get past it. I can then sort of laugh at her own folly on lacking some admirable abilities or qualities while feeling bad for her. I can already find better people to associate with so it's not really a big deal to me anymore. 

However, once a soulmate then always a soulmate so I'll live with it while knowing that it's not really the expected way of going about things. I can definitely find someone better than this soulmate to be with for the rest of my life. 

I do need to be around people every once in a while. I don't need to really interact with them heavily and only want to feel someone else's presence to be happy. I'm mostly an extrovert. 

With all the narcs who have been trying to push forward their agenda with me whether I did something perceivably right or wrong, I just realized that my best defense is to provide them with better advice or think about one to the best of my ability. This way, I won't ever go crazy while being mad underneath and can also sense their opinion might sometimes be a good one. 

Finding the Right Kind of Personal Balance With Fulfillment

  4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I am now fully trying to make the right kind of approach for finding joy.

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A major hindrance for myself that I have taken notice of is giving into my narcissistic nature. It doesn't bring me any pleasure to dwell on it. I finally realized this was my mistake the whole time. I also notice this nature in other friends as well who frustrated me a great deal with pressing their own agenda on me.

It's good to not react negatively, so basically not get bothered by it. If it does bother you and you act out on the feeling then you're being a narcissist in that moment. There really shouldn't be any need to complain about it, unless your life is in danger. Also, a few peers who freaked out because of me were taking it way overboard while fussing over a petty misunderstanding. Because of this, I now know they were behaving like narcs. 

From not admitting to being a narc myself anymore, I can focus on living a balanced life better and work hard for my own happiness. 

Experiencing Mental Stability in a Volatile Trading Market

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

Patience and persistence to obtain perfection in making money is starting to pay off.

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The thing about working hard and then obtaining a nice payoff afterward is that it can make you feel lazy. I think it's a rare thing to keep on being consistent successfully and maintaining it at a high pace. Maybe it's more sensible if it's required in your profession, like being an athlete. 

For myself, the balance I'm experiencing feels unprecedented and just keeps on getting better as I make proper adjustments along the way. In a matter of few days, I have experienced giant growth in my Forex trading portfolio. I am now at 25% total profit for this month alone! This is amazing considering how I have been placing low risk trades and piling them up. 

Being a private and individual retail Forex spot trader, it feels good to have something developing in place that's not well-known nor widely talked about and to experience some good profit. It really came down to tinkering my own system at my own expense and that's how it should be. 

Really Excited for Money Making Technique

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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What did I do right today? 

I'm starting to brilliantly come up with a trading system that makes money consistently.

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For my theory that I'm testing, I'm modeling how the market behaves. There are breakouts, reversal, and counter trend/sideway markets. I'm looking to position myself favorably to cash in profit systematically. 

It's so far been working.