Reviewing Personal Tasks Continued

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

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What did I do right today? 

I am understanding how to process my happy thoughts and to be more balanced.

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I think figuring out this whole narcissism thing along with my complex while angry has been helping me navigate through my main emotional struggle better. I feel so much better equipped moving forward now. I think to be rejected based on not having certain appearances is narcissistic too because well I'm not going to be with that person anyway for that reason. For that person, it's better to be the other person she wants to be with than being with that girl in general. It's because she's doing something self-centered with wanting to feel a certain way about how a person looks. 

I don't think judging a person based on their personality is a bad thing at all. It took me a while to realize all these things for myself, so now I'm ready to move forward with this happy and reasonable mindset without being too anxious about anything in general. 

Now with doing homework, I think I'm only going to spend about an hour on it a night to feel like I'm eventually getting somewhere in life. 

Overall, I feel like if I can get all these summary of tasks done then I feel like I can let loose and be a little more stupid without feeling so bad about it each night.