4AverageLife's Main Personal List
- I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for: I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy, 4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
- I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
- Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
- Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
- Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
- Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
- Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body, and yoga classes. I must be committed and remind myself.
- Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
- Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
- Read something from a book. I must commit.
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."
My Top 10 values are in order
- Faith
- Love, Happiness, and Joy
- Personal freedom
- Balance
- Understanding
- Health
- Strength and self-reliance
- Inner harmony
- Goodness
- Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.
Affirmations of what I want:
- I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
- I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
- I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
- I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
- I have a purpose for living.
- I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
- I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
- I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
- I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
- I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
- I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
- I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:
Trading/investing, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.
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What did I do right today?
I am starting to see what romance is about.
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What I'm noticing is that there's no reason to hide out there and to come clean about yourself. It sucks to be a vulnerable narcissist in this situation who relies on receiving brownie points from friends and to feel brought down by them sometimes.
It's better to not be worried with those types of feelings and to stay stable. A lot of my main circle of friends I have gotten to know are also narcissists. It has been frustrating from being around them sometimes, and I just tried to keep on chugging it along. They aren't that mean though.
I finally see it from being able to judge their personality so I don't even need to take it the wrong way so much anymore if they sometimes act weird or pathetic and even my parents have acted narcissistic with me too. A lot of my social problems have originated from feeling personally conflicted with narcs. To add insult to injury, I was even a narc myself!
I no longer admit to being one now and have a stable grasp on all of my personal situations. A narc can still be one of the most stable, coolest, and nicest people out there, but a lot of times, we hear about those few bad apples. There are available women out there who are the right kind of people for me to practically be with. There's no need to become a narcissist from not finding one any sooner. I can still be happy about where I am in life and just let my love life flow into existence naturally with an open mind and heart.
A narcissistic friend tried giving me advice. He gets his high out of feeling he helped someone while he's also living on a high note and takes it personally if you don't see it his way and keeps on trying to spoon feed his approach with you. If he really cared, then he would have wondered if he was really bugging me about all this. He never asked while wanting his own agenda to be met. He never fully got what he wanted and after a few attempts which led to him getting rebuffed badly, he took it the wrong way. I'm not so bothered by seeing him as just another narc. I also have evidence of him not shining so well with his text messages with me which disrupted the ego of my main female friends who are narcs. The same goes for them who I thought that I maybe had a chance with. I recognize their narcissistic tendencies even though they aren't that mean.
I think how a possible romance started out for me was just a nice woman initiating a casual message and me staying open-minded about it. It seems like she took a liking to me and I eventually warmed up a little to her also.
For the arranged dates that I have, I'm open-minded about accepting any opportunity I have. It's been a great learning experience for me. I'm not going to try to force it and just be honest about it in person, which is probably not my strongest suit when it comes to dating since I'm so inexperienced. Yet, I've been researching and being reminded continually of all the classical ways people have gone about it before me. It's definitely hard work and I think it is totally worth it.
