4AverageLife's Main Personal List
- I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for: I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy, 4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
- I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
- Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
- Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
- Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
- Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
- Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body, and yoga classes. I must be committed and remind myself.
- Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
- Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
- Read something from a book. I must commit.
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."
My Top 10 values are in order
- Faith
- Love, Happiness, and Joy
- Personal freedom
- Balance
- Understanding
- Health
- Strength and self-reliance
- Inner harmony
- Goodness
- Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.
Affirmations of what I want:
- I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
- I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
- I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
- I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
- I have a purpose for living.
- I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
- I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
- I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
- I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
- I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
- I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
- I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:
Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.
Summary of interpersonal goals:
Work on close friendships and love.
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What did I do right today?
I am now fully trying to make the right kind of approach for finding joy.
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What feels impossible is enjoying a great relationship with a charming narcissist. I managed to finally do it against the odds. It's a shame that another person I formerly called a soulmate is currently a narc as well. I am naturally not reacting to it in any negative manner while accepting it without any harmful intentions.
It looks like I've become a lot stronger about being able to move on even if I hit her up later and she feels that she will never be able to get past it. I can then sort of laugh at her own folly on lacking some admirable abilities or qualities while feeling bad for her. I can already find better people to associate with so it's not really a big deal to me anymore.
However, once a soulmate then always a soulmate so I'll live with it while knowing that it's not really the expected way of going about things. I can definitely find someone better than this soulmate to be with for the rest of my life.
I do need to be around people every once in a while. I don't need to really interact with them heavily and only want to feel someone else's presence to be happy. I'm mostly an extrovert.
With all the narcs who have been trying to push forward their agenda with me whether I did something perceivably right or wrong, I just realized that my best defense is to provide them with better advice or think about one to the best of my ability. This way, I won't ever go crazy while being mad underneath and can also sense their opinion might sometimes be a good one.
