Trying Hard And Enduring Suffering

Sometimes, it could feel as if people do not want to deal with you. It takes a lot of work, especially when you don't know what's happening. I have dealt with a lot of harsh situations and turned up a little short on knowing where my successes lie. It takes a little bit of talent to be able to come up with things on the fly. You always wish you could have this ideal situation, but it might not always come to pass. I think if it's a manageable situation then things can really occur in what you were looking for.

A lot of it for me deals with having an open heart. To be able to carry the burden of a big heart and be diligent. I think one of the neat things about being born different is that it could used as an advantage. Let's say, I was burned up in a car accident which would be really enraging and stressful or make me want to get some plastic surgery. I think if there's an understanding we can negotiate then things turn out better. For me, my crippling effect has been failure to get a grip of myself. I realize that I'm trying to keep my intentions to the purest form with no compromise and be honest without any intent of hurting the person. It gets frankly odd that a person may not see this as good and go spinning out of control, like it's okay for them to show it around me. I don't think I really have anything to apologize for. More or less, it must be just a person's sinful nature that I'm dealing with. I must be standing in his or her way. The balance that occurs is to think about the opposition. I think it's just simply that they don't like it, but what I really feel is that they are going to put themselves in a guilty situation. I really have to learn the right conduct to stay happy with these people who just plainly associate with weirdness.

Made Up Jack and Jill Story

One day, Jack and Jill were playing on a hill. Jack was the older brother, who used to watch his parents fight all the time. Jack always longed for a little brother that he could rough-house, but he never had one. Jill longed to be a middle child and have a little sister. Jill also did not receive her wish. Jack grew up a little mentally messed up from feeling lack of confidence. He felt low body-image and brain power, even though he excelled pretty well in school. He was a pretty well-disciplined boy, but felt an empty load of stress. It came to a period in life where Jack finally decided to put up his covers and stop considering others. He was just so fed up with everyone hurting his feelings by feeling so sensitive.

Jill on the other hand grew up pretty assertive and eventually started using some foul language. Jack does not know where Jill gets it from. Jack having a messed up head starts pumping adrenaline and gets no regard for his sister. It turned out to be a wrestling match because he was only trying to hug Jill. Jack did throw Jill into the grass once. I think Jack did not mind so much because he felt she would not get hurt. Jill then tiger-clawed Jack on the neck. Jack said, "You are hurting me." "Let go!" Jill said. Jack is the older brother and had absolutely no regard for his behavior that night. Jack was so fed up with Jill about not letting him change the radio station and being insulted for his taste in music. He was also fed up with Jill being so rude to him. Jill said, "I could take you! I could take you!" She wanted to avoid getting hugged, so she started screaming "Help me! Help me!" The neighbors would hear her and Jack would just stand there letting Jill look like a fool. Later, Jack stamped on Jill's car window and kept apologizing for his testosterone-driven moment. Jill just sped off, I think in the end, Jack was declared the victor.

Living In Confidence With Jesus

These days I sometimes feel like I'm a loose junkie because I can't get worries off my mind that I'm not in the same situation anymore. I guess I don't feel so secure about being very stable with myself always, like nothing is happening in my life. I really want to feel excited about something. It's really difficult for me to place commitments in this world because I've brought myself down so many times. I think by placing my desires upon living out the Bible, it has made me feel more encouraged to be of this world. Even through our shortcomings, it's by figuring out that the center of our very lives is on the Savior of this world that we fill ourselves back up when things are tough.

Repentance is truly a vital part, to get right with God. I know that some of us are more consumed with other things- it could be having looks, money, the best girlfriend/boyfriend, or stability. Through all the sufferings that occur, some have fallen even into suicide and selfish crimes only to allow the Enemy of this world to momentarily, weaken the faith. I get really uncomfortable around others at times too, with the thought of not wanting to come across as a negative person. It's been really hard for me to make negative remarks about people; it's like I want to try to still stay nice. I've sometimes believed that by reconciling with the people who have been against me, after being friendly to them, we would have a stronger relationship.

I believe that the curiosity of sex has also made me a little naughty on myself. Here's what I've come to discover, sexual abstinence leading up to marriage should be very sexy with all the tensions and strings flying up to the roof. Even if you are single and desiring it so much, you just have to be brave and observe God's command, so that you can reap this sexy benefit. It may be hard to see emotionally when under distress, but following God's commands are really in our best interest because the Lord has interest in all our human needs. We don't have to settle for second best under the Lord's wing. We just need to have a strong relationship with Jesus. I guess we know where our strengths and weaknesses are. It's generally important to me to really be able to see the potential goodness placed on the heart. Losing it could just really disrupt the flow in each of our lives. What the Bible truly says is by taking the whole account of the Bible and letting the Spirit teach us. This happens by having a strong relationship with Jesus. The relationship can grow even with the faith of a mustard seed.

Self-discipline and Being Dashing

I guess my life right now is centered around being emotionally filled. I've been through some ups and downs with inexplicable matters at times, but I'm not quite ready to classify myself as a person who has bi-polar disease. I think life is characterized with difficulties sometimes. To go through some pains of development because without it, it's hard to stay humbled. I think some people feel hardships in their heart but try to internalize it to try to encourage others to stay on pace. Some of these people could also go through misconceptions that they are angry about and start being disruptive in their private social circles, too.

I haven't done much growing apart with individuals because I haven't confided in what makes me unique or acceptable to others. Philippians 4:13 says, "I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me." I believe that God has developed man in His image, but that because of sin in our human nature; His Spirit has called us to become reliant on Him for direction and answers. I have heard parents and elders tell me to have self-esteem. I've been a little reluctant about doing it for just confidence because I'm questioning some of my selfish motives, right now.

I think the more useful approach to encourage ourselves is to develop self-discipline and being dashing. By being self-disciplined, we can avoid things that surely make us and other people who count in our lives unhappy. By being dashing, the energy can be circulated from love and it's healthy to interact with others and to be so enthused about being around good people. These two attributes to me are down-to-earth and not encouraging others to be deceitful and selfish. It's just a pure coincidence in how God intended for us to truly help ourselves.

Election Time of the Year

I think my writing has finally come to a period with my development of keeping in check with reliance on the Holy Spirit. I believe that the best times have occurred from trying to be in overdrive and not worrying so much about how I am conceived. I think by being that way and tuning out to some friends going through a mid-life crisis of some sort really caused me to get some frustrated remarks. I guess people can feel a little jealous with you sometimes and them not knowing it. I used to feel really diffident, shy, and left out of the circle without that effortless ability we all need from each other.

It's come to a time in my life where it's really about making a stand for the truth. Today's date marks a very important day in history for a lot of us. We all have a good part in the making of something. Today is the Election Day with some important propositions to vote upon. I guess I became really rattled growing up and now that I'm getting out of it and willing to make some life's improvements for myself, I realize that my passions can be good but sometimes selfish. I have tried countless times to deprive my heart of desires by growing up, it's been hard to just want to give up. In anything I did, I would also conceive this expectation of myself and be willing to spend hours working at it. I would always find people better than me because of my nervousness. I'm starting to grow out of all those things. The Bible has truly been a mystery to me and changed my life through living out its applications. In a sense, I feel so free to be myself and acknowledge that there is a loving Creator out there to heal the heart, which is way more important than the countenance.

When Things Get Rough

When things get rough, I've realized that placing trust in God to deliver me into better times has come true. Sometimes, it's hard for an individual to see where God is especially if everything does not quite fit in a complete puzzle for him or her. I know that I've struggled emotionally to find Jesus, but there's been a period where I just decided to dedicate my time to studying the Bible and listening to the inspired teaching of God's Word. It's really filling and edifying and sometimes, our lives need to center around it so we don't starve ourselves and place our focus on idols of this world.

Currently, with my life I am trying to find a job to focus on. I have also had some friends ask me if I have a girlfriend. My next door neighbor and mom are expecting me to find a nice woman to marry soon. They just emphasize how they would want their man to have a stable job so that she could be supported by him. It's like the guy is supposed to support the woman and not the other way around. It must stem from how they are really tired with working so hard and want some relaxation. I think women seem to feel a little more bothered than guys do at times. Another friend told me the man in a relationship is someone who she gets to lean on during her fallen moments. I can really live with it because there's a joy in living with the spouse you really love and become best friends with. Right now, my life is a little tough because my emotions are not quite what they used to be. I really need to refrain from some things so that I can experience a more self-controlled life and allow the Holy Spirit to move me. I feel really good about marrying someone right now. I just can't deny what God may have in store for me with someone. I know that the world sees us as young still and marrying at around the age of twenty-five seems to be average. I will admit that my heart is desiring and getting excited to know more about a woman whose my type.

Brutal Confession (Effects on Pornography)

Pornography is an issue that I have struggled with in the past. I am currently recovering from this addiction and luckily, I never came to a relationship with a woman and invaded her special territory. I have to assume all the guilt for piquing my sexual desire even more by using a medium, instead of allowing it to flow naturally. This causes me to in a way get neutered with the thought of finding a decent woman to carry a long-term relationship with.

In a way, masturbating to porn reminds me of self-abuse. It's just killing the sensation that could be enjoyed with a loving wife. The Bible states to avoid fornication, and I think it's not that God does not want us to please ourselves, it's more about a genuine protection. It really protects us by giving us time to think about who we are committing to. God ideally would like for us to have one partner, just as Adam found his ideal woman out of Eve. There's an Eve to every man whose ever been interested in marriage or has a sexual liking to the opposite sex. There's definitely a danger of making your life more hectic by fooling around. Two of the most womanizers of the Bible are King David and King Solomon- father and son. They transgressed against God's command to take and marry only one wife. Genesis 2:24 says "This explains why a man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one." (NLT) A husband and wife's utmost devotion is a prized possession to God's eyes and places imagery on a strong relationship with Christ. I've surprised myself by finding someone whose my type. I would not want to disrupt a good relationship by deceiving it with pornographic material. I don't mind the idea of working out and increasing stamina for anticipated sex life. According to Apostle Paul, little profit is gained from exercise!

Porn just gets you feeling down on yourself. The second you blow your lute, it's like the fun is over and you get down again. It's not fun to always mess around with yourself when it's repetitious and you are now conscience of all the acts. After awhile, the mellow fun just turns more gloomier and things will get harder. I've just personally had it with porn now. It's an area that I want to conquer for life. I am still like on a mission to find the most beautiful wife to enjoy sex and raise a family with. She will then be my best friend for life.

Porn in itself is really condemned by a lot of preachers. I personally want to condemn it too, but my feelings can get carried away. I want to let go of it because it's a temptation that I don't want to get too cocky with. I don't want to imagine myself sleeping around with many women and then find unwanted surprises. Some things included are AIDS, pregnancy, and moody girl to deal with. To just do it for pleasure and use a nice woman as a toy, just fills my heart with sadness. I really do not want to resist the Holy Spirit in my life. I know how society tries to help us cope with the consequences but relationships are really stemmed from genuine trust. Someone can really get hurt, if the relationship is not placed at a higher level.

Personally, I write this even though I know that I have a chance to hurt my reputation. I want to finally come clean with God by letting cyberspace be my witness. I am one of those people who want to experience an ecstatic, full meaning life. It's like the best calling you could ever get from the Creator. I know that I internalize most of my sins by not trying to get others involved with my selfishness. My own selfishness can become a snare to me and really nail my emotions. At the time of this writing, I'm in a period where I long to be in a committed relationship, have no snares that affect it, and be ecstatic about life while worshiping the Bible wholeheartedly.

Spiritual Life With Convenience of Marriage

Being more of a grownup now, I feel that I have way more privileges than I did before. With this time that's been given to me, I realize that time is too short and that life follows consequently in that path. To be able to make a spiritual connection with Jesus, it's been a very long and tough journey. It's been hard to be patient and to test some Biblical principles; it sometimes may feel like you are locked up in a religion rather than have this liberating life. The Son of God and Holy Spirit should not really come to surprise to anyone. I am sure that we have gone through some really good times that we wanted to last and were very peaceful. These things are a reminder of what is yet to come in heaven. True faith is also not meant to be blasphemous, but based on reality.

I have heard that God works a different time frame because God alone is the ruler of the universe. It sometimes gets me thinking that life's situations are things that we would like to blame on something other than ourselves. If Jesus already paid the ultimate sacrifice by being the sacrificial lamb on the cross that pours blood for all our life's sins, then why must we be still human? Heaven is marked with pure joy and happiness and even is implausible to many unbelievers. God does not force upon us the Holy Spirit, even though it can be evident at certain time periods. To be able to see it takes one to open up his or her heart to the possibility of a loving Father in heaven. This does not mean that Christians always have this arrogance about them and deal with difficult hardships without any fault. We're all human and Christians have this liberation in their souls. To be joyful, accepted by the Creator, loved and forgiven by Him, our souls have a void filled in the heavenly realms.

Briefly, I will confess a sin and give my human reasons why I should away stay from it. Apart from knowing that if one willingly repents of his sins and confesses it before the Lord, 1 John 1:9 shows us that Jesus washes away our sins and gives us a new life without constantly dwelling in a guilty conscience and to have the heart protected. I have been struggling to be patient with sexual satisfaction. To be married means to me, being an undefiled sexual partner with a lovely wife. Despite the fears and curiosity of losing my virginity, sex is ordained by God to Man as recreation, but to only be practiced in a godly marriage. To have that longing intimacy and commitment and trust in each other, is something that is not going to be found in one night stands or short-term sexual encounters. What I'm starting to realize is that a man can work up to a heightened sexual experience with his loving wife and never want to give up the attraction to an idol, such as porn, media, or other individuals. Abstaining from fornication is making a pledge to hold love in marriage with high enthusiasm! The time could definitely be right during the honeymoon.

Practicality Centered Around Human Reasoning

This title is a very general one for a very specific issue that I want to boldly address. My weaknesses have been centered around lack of discipline and inconsistency. Therefore, it fills me with nerves that cannot be explained sometimes and agitates me throughout the day. By relying on emotions, I lack a lot of knowledge, common sense, and government sometimes. I'm starting to realize that emotions do play a nice role with moral standards. It totally feels good to uphold wonderful values that have been going around since the beginning of Man. I think that sometimes we want to hold on to a few things to muster enough confidence in ourselves. Like, it gives us a reason to want to think we're better than others. What if those things you are looking for don't come to pass or another person proves how it will fail you?

Growing up from adolescence, I have a sin in my life that comes from a common, socially benign temptation compared to others; yet, Christ has shown me mercy and not put me to death through the guilt I have undergone. I still remain innocent from not having made physical contact in an intimate sense, but my spirit-filled life is always endangered. I now realize the importance of placing confidence in God, the author and finisher of our faith, according to the original Biblical text. This active faith found in transpiring reason, truths, and obedience fills the mind, heart, and soul. I now realize the joys that God has personally given me and the priorities that still are becoming more apparent. It does not really strike me as really stressful anymore, but more of an alarm or a calling in my life. Because of faith, with all of these human things that inspire goodness and encouragement I am able to put my life more on overdrive and enjoy that ideal life worth finding. Placing trust in the Lord through doubtful times and by being confident about my deflowering ability, I don't need to visit and give into these old temptations. Living life selfishly is something that I have a hard time telling myself, but I realize that desire should be centered in God's kingdom and that we need it to walk closer with the Lord. Sin may be pleasurable, but the real meat comes from accepting ourselves, not trying to sin, confessing when we do, and not torturing our personal aspirations, especially if we can conceive God in it! No need to stay stuck or rotten when something can be done to fix it.

Just A Story Part 2

One day there was this man who just felt that life was really a mixed up box of candy. What he took out would be used to bring him delight. He felt that others around him prevented him from enjoying a piece of chocolate. He was feeling a little jealous with Forrest Gump who had plenty of chocolate to eat. The man had a dream that was explained emotionally and could not be fulfilled by seeking only his own pleasures. The things he went looking for were fairly common to a man with no confidence.

One day, he felt enlivened with the thought of helping out a friend. This friend, Mikestar Vonovich Sticker, gave him a call and said an opening was available at work. He was very friendly and joyful and was like hey, you have an opportunity to kill me at work by neglecting every piece of it! So Joe here thinks about it and is like yes, I need a job and I want a place to serve someone. He worked on a cool resume to submit for the first time, even lied about having a degree, and then started examining a template that had some meaning to him. The degree part was later found by management and they were like he's not advancing without proof of that degree. That degree was what he wanted to pursue after before leaving, so the inconsistency settles in and kiss his chances of a safe career there.

Mr. Sticker had some girl problems and always led his support circle, and it was not highly evident that he was so bottled up about life. He had so many regrets that he shared with Joe, but Joe could not see through him. One day, Joe was clowning around at work and was like yes, I made an absolute strive to befriend a client who was a jerk. I should share it with Mr. Sticker. Mr. Sticker became very mad and was like no, you shouldn't do that. Joe insisted he was so happy and became flustered by his remarks. After all, Joe had done everything that he could to get up to date. Joe took advantage of the work place, and started studying for a course and eventually, Aced it!

Then one day, Mr. Sticker expressed absolute distrust with a spiritual community. The type of community that is hard to bond in with absolute shyness. It's quite frankly weird that a very friendly dude like Mr. Sticker would have some hatred and need to exalt himself by discussing these matters. Joe has been part of these gossip circles and never once lifted up his voice to tell a concern. Joe happened to be well-liked by everyone, and did not know he much he was valued. Joe just started blogging and stated jokingly, that Mr. Sticker was a crack head after trying to communicate that he wished to know how he was raised and why Mr. Sticker always seemed to be in a good mood. His father had passed away at an early age, but he had such a pretty big family; something Joe envied. Joe felt very distant from his sister. His sister lies to Joe about how they never were close and had time spent together; she feels emotionally incompetent about herself.

Mr. Sticker became very angry about the remark and started researching for details about how Joe could be a psycho-maniac out to cap everyone with a machete. Joe stated out of stress, in his own body he felt as burning buildings. The torture of school equated with September 11 attacks to Joe. Mr. Sticker took the statement out of context and started convincing his low I.Q. buddy that Joe was a terrorist and needed a restraining order. He succeeded because Joe did not want to defend himself and wanted to settle down first.

Joe later regretted not defending himself as he now knows that he never deserved one in the first place because he has rights to being a decent human being. Although Mr. Sticker felt that his life was a mess and torturous which Joe didn't pick up on, Mr. Sticker never once told him what made him scared with his angry and bitter eyes. Joe started seeking after God in life because he felt stuck, aggravated, angry at something, and in love with someone all at the same time. He experienced an ultimate high and low and eventually, confirmed that God is totally real and cannot be denied. The man pushes away God to create his own image of Him; there is an identity of God that no man can consecrate, it's like settling on a higher principle ground and guess what, God truly lives because the Old Testament of the Bible has been validated with the main message- the delivery of the Messiah speech. One can truly research on the truths of the Dead Sea Scrolls and may result in a horrific turn-around for someone who wants to keep denying for sake of his pride and turf- a man who sold his soul.

Just A Story

One day a man came to his senses and said to himself, "Boy, I have been depressed at myself for no reason." He eventually felt that life didn't matter with how his appearance was. His mom would tell him that she was continuously worried about him losing hair and getting bald. The man would be like, "Hey, I think I'm ugly naturally so why does it matter with being a dude?" The difficulty in life sometimes for this man is that he has problems settling on people's desires and wants people to change to suit his personal needs. It could in a way, mean that he wants to be served selfishly.

The man's friend just one day decided to tear his computer apart and started trash talking to the world. He was just in a fit of raging filth and had no idea why this woman in his life left him. He never really had a chance to bed her, while he was married to her. Even after exchanging their dues, the couple never interlocked lips. It was because he received a phone call that sent him to go desperately confirm that a lost cow was now in the stomach of a jailed thief.

And then the story goes that they decided to meet Jesus in their hearts. The best thing to have ever happened to them, despite all the miserable things that can occur. Life sometimes feel unfair, and it may be that a person's true desire may never be met in this world, out of having committed sins. It's a tough journey with the walk, and when our hearts are closed we just can't see anything. Some people are closer to the narrow path of happiness, and just happen to try to cope with the good things by trying to be positive. In a way, I think it gives a defensive mechanism. Complaining and whining to others is just a sign of weakness, especially if it's a little thing. It's my prayer that people would have a glad understanding of what Jesus has done. To be able to see how he works in the individual's life and to grow in faith. To become transformed and have a type of peace and moral prosperity that transcends human will and understanding.

Staying On Track

There are rough seasons that I believe I'm going through emotionally. I don't think that I have any struggles with depression or anything. I have been writing this blog for almost a year now pretty consistently, and I find it a little tough to pull through right now. Maybe I'm hitting a rough bump this season. I might as well visit the basics that has kept me trying to focus on God whenever I have written. The Bible tells us in 1 Cor 10:31, whether you eat or drink, whatever you do, do for the glory of God. It may feel like a plain statement that even includes our dining to focus on God. Like every area of our lives should be on track with the Lord. How then is it possible that people become Christians and remain in the Lord even through a bunch of crisis situations?

I think I have been the person who has only wanted to hear good news about people. I have never really done so well with new thoughts and burdens, except for merely existing and feeling lonely for not interacting with people, even family. All of those things are starting to change; it feels sure pretty vexing to feel sidelined at times. I think in times of boredom and blocking out priorities, we can surely get under someone's thick skin easily. I guess it's normal for close people who love you to start questioning your antics, when this happens. For a time being, I just did not want to defend myself. I just wanted all this conflict to go away. I just wanted to flap my wings and splutter and allow the Lord to intervene in my life. It's hard adjusting, but man I'm glad that my faith has not stayed put. It feels like I have the potential to imagine thousands of lives on paper. Perhaps, I should start having fun by writing imaginary stories that are dedicated to portraying human reasoning to honor God and the will of the Father with down-to-earth Biblical applications.

Short Glimpse of Transition

I believe that some of us go through a really hard time in life, such as; family issues and relationship compatibility issues. It just goes to show that living life at large may not always entail that true good feeling you were looking for. I'm pretty positive that there are some things that we just can't let go of, but may put off in times of facing hardships. To be someone who looks very closely at himself, I think some of us come to the conclusion that it's better not to judge ourselves out of fear with feeling self-pity. I am sure it's sometimes a burdensome task or rather comical thing to push out opposition that states your two cents are wrong.

Having had a little fun experience with writing all these years, I'm realizing the effects of how it's easier for me to transition with thoughts a lot quicker, egocentrically; therefore, I may feel that I'm being under self-absorption. One of the neat experiences I have had is not knowing how my writing effects others; by being so naive, I have forgotten how people can wrongly place blame on you. I recall that I did not defend myself and allowed a bewildered friend to attack me with something he held back from illustrating. It was an expression of disapproval in his life, but then later, I started defending myself after all the attacks took place. Therefore, it feels like I did everything in vain! Perhaps, there's this old guy's voice underneath me guffawing at everything that's taking place. I don't think I have the credentials to pretend to label myself as a professor anymore! God is good and loving and wishes no one would perish in this world. Read the Bible and see if God is right for you.

Are You Questioning Christian Morals?

It's interesting how sometimes being a person could be the hardest thing. Take for instance, a pastor's child who does not want to be brought up with Biblical fundamentals. I believe that a lot of us have gone through a period of wanting to rebel against an authoritative figure and question the existence of living. Maybe the closest people in your life are the ones you have to feel disappointed with for a temporary time. I honestly believe that being a part of something great while growing up is sometimes an individual's dream. Like a son who wants to take over his dad's business and have a dad who is proud of him and showing approval of his worth. I think too often some of us like to push away religion and only come to question its validity, whereas some of us may try to block it out completely.

I've learned that it's not about thinking that you are completely special. So many examples in this world will question that insane compliment about yourself. Christians do have an exciting title called the "Sons of God" from being adopted into God's family after receiving the spiritual cleansing of our guilty sins and experiencing a new walk with Jesus. Sons of God does not necessarily mean you become this buffed up character that goes around taking people's money for the purpose of having a rich life off of taking advantage. It's just a logical definition of what a true Christian is. It's root word in Hebrew simply means "Being a creature of God". I think an understanding that people even believers and unbelievers alike have a hard time getting across is submission to Christ. There are a bunch of good reasons to do so, and wanting to come across as a regular person with an uncontrollable passion to write about the good news and how it's human is what this blog is. I'm a sinner just like anyone else, but through Christ revealing himself to others and me, sinning is something I don't really want to continue living in.

Blogging about Jesus

There isn't much for me to write about today. I think I'm just sitting here on my laptop and praying for the Lord to intercede in my life. How do I know that Jesus is real to me? God's Word states that Jesus died for the ungodly by being crucified on the cross in the period of the Roman Empire at around 30 A.D. It's really interesting to note that some people who claim to be Christians are not really born-again believers but just practicing out of religious obligations. To be truly a part of the journey with Jesus, one needs to take the narrow road whereas many would rather be in the broad path out of selfish ambitions. This narrow road is simply submitting to the Holy Spirit and truly hearing God's Word out of studying the Bible and fellowshipping with others.

I have heard of theory of the faith gene on a television program, which details how some are born to be believers of God whereas some would be considerable atheists. A book I saw at a local store states that Atheism is also a religion. A school I attended had a gathering of people who questioned their faith called the Round Earth Society. It's sort of a mockery of how ignorant ministers of the past felt that the Earth was flat and that you would fall off if you traveled to the end of the planet. It's until Christopher Columbus discovered the New World on his ship that Europe finally understood the world may not have been flat. Before Columbus, there were really dedicated Bible believers like Sir Issac Newton who did research on Physics. I also believe Galileo and other astronomers had a feeling of for a Creator. Even a famous Chemist who came up with the idea of an element believed in God. These scientists who had a belief in God came up with amazing discoveries. It's just to say that believing in God is a normal thing to do. Just look at how at least 90% of the world would think that a God exists after contemplating about it. It's just a matter of being on the right path and being forgiven for your sins that you may have covered up or don't remember or see as justified. There is no justification of sins, you are just as evil as the rest of them if you do not repent of your sins. The only way to do this is to accept Jesus who died for our sins and let the Holy Spirit work in your life. To truly have a transformation by knowing that the Creator is in heaven waiting for you to turn back to Him and that He wants to bless your life and let you know that He truly loves you above anything on Earth.

Making Proper Judgments

I think the reason why some people are tempted to not be so cool about life is that they can make comparisons with obtaining ideal goals. It gets pretty tough when a person you rely on doesn't come through for you. I know this area of heartache because I truly didn't comprehend it in the past. What I do find suitable these days is that making an effort to trust in the Savior of this world, Jesus, who died on the cross and rose again from the dead in the third day, is that what the canonized Scriptures are in the Bible we know of today, comes to be true!

There are an incredible amount of great speakers, teachers, and individuals in this world. Sometimes, our selfish desires can really block us from understanding the reasons why we end up hurting ourselves. To make a life centered around pleasing another person, there needs to be a balance under true agape love. My family has already been pretty vexing to me with their petty complaints about how I play the piano too much, or how I speak out my mind out so much, or how I fail to be better than them. It's really all about defending their perspective per say with weakness by resorting to kicking and screaming sometimes. This type of talk does not really build anyone up and totally can leave a person distraught and nagging about how they were not placed in a good foundation of maturing. In truth, with a true heart that abides and seeks after Biblical counsel, one needs not to ever compromise themselves morally and stay offensive. I'm a pretty emotional person sometimes, but I think it's good to appeal to the truth in an edifying manner without being angry with another. It is to be on the safe side, and I think it may be awhile sometimes to resolve it with the self. It takes a lot of bravery to be able to consider the truth when it's so easy to want to shelter our pride. A Bible verse states, "The righteous are bold as a lion."

Emotive Passion

Bodily urges gaining control over mindset,
The overdrive causes one to flight away from gathering of saints.
Emotional begrudgings of giving oneself away,
Ashamed of own attaching identity to another.

Struggling in tight circles of life by substituting it with a pal,
Waiting for an answer through meditating throughout day.
Passionately engulfed by a simple stranger who is benign to it.
Sultry and yet so desiring it under patience, expressing physical.

Totally in a different state of mind, a requirement of her rescue.
Eloquent on off-hours, submissive under the presence of God.
Tantamount to just about anyone receiving the gift of salvation.
She is now with a new heart placed in what was once stone.

Morning Quibble

Blogging over all these recent years has become sort of an effort and phenomenon for me. I'm not too sure as to what will come out of my heart, but keeping the focus on glorifying God has surely saved some headaches. I just don't see myself toughing it out anymore, when I feel that people are letting me down. Over all these years, I truly struggled to find acceptance among others. Where every single individual would come to know me and be friends. I must have been super sensitive because some aggressive remarks really intimidated me from trying to make friends. I guess I just didn't feel right about pestering and roasting people in my circle who I tried to hang out with every snack period. I really had no voice and that sort of made me hurt deep down inside.

The Bible states in Matt 28:18 - 20 to go witness our faith to people we come across and have this sort of connection with. It's really a lot of prayers to begin with for me, if there are several emotional let-me-downs. The Bible encourages its readers to be active in living out moral principles, to be bold and courageous in alienated situations, and be completely renewed in joy that can't be found in materialism! Proverbs 28:1 states that the righteous are bold as a lion. I think it just means that living a good one is tough enough, and we need to confess our sins daily to approach the throne of God with humbleness. The Bible makes a lot of bold assertions too about righteousness, and I don't know too many books that will clearly state something is wrong. It's interesting how people like to fit God into their own pocket. Like their belief works out for them and because of it, they pride in the wrong interpretation! I think when dealing with stubborn people who are convicted about Jesus, one would surly need to have patience as a virtue.

Making A Little Meaning To My Life

Living in uncertain times sometimes, I really question where I belong to. God is this amazing being who is real to a lot of people's lives. I know how unbelievers would question about God being this figment of imagination. Or perhaps, a creation that only some people connect with so well to help serve as a distraction to life's worries. I have heard about some unbelievers challenge how Bible passages are vague and without any practical meaning to possibly change the course of our lives.

Several indicators tell me that few individuals who try to manage to be a mover in this world, lack trust in others and only want to believe in themselves to make meaning. In a way, they serve the physical world with their contributions to make a living. The Bible states that God has the ability to use both good and evil people to get His will done. I have heard on the radio that a lot of rock stars have complexes that keep them from being nice and down-to-earth; even though they could be idolized by so many fans. It's interesting how people are willing to submit to another man for happiness, but find it hard to submit to a higher order with no questions asked. Questions about God seem to stir up in everyone's lives. There's this film about this anti-creationist who just can't seem to accept why people denounce evolution; a total smart guy who made contributions to genetics. Even he has human flaws and weaknesses and must resort to authority for getting what he wants. If he takes requests to a court for getting compromises, he will still try to ignore all possible outcomes that lead to nice beliefs from the heart about God being around.

God loves you all!

I am pretty stoked out today about how God has provided this blog as a spiritual shield for me. I'm not talking to mention about any religion. Having a relationship with the Creator is not a religion to me. I sort of find it that perhaps, different walks of life are struggling with renouncing their sinful desires and at a point in time, come to accept these infirmities. In my opinion, I feel that it could make it a little discouraging to witness.

Despite the situations that we are around and how our focus could be on personal complaints about others failing to exceed our expectations, I believe that through having knowledge in God all things will come to pass. It's through trusting in how the Holy Spirit is delivering us through all meager situations that may be pestering. For example, I don't really seem to mind anymore if people don't want to hang out with me. If the wonder woman in my life would not want to be courted by me, I'm alright with it. This sense of relief can only be explained by the powers of heaven. The Bible states that the man of integrity walks securely. Only through the pages of the Bible, do we hear about this amazing God with amazing love, faith, and hope for dying nations would turn back to Him. That courageous individuals would live out a life of faithfulness and meaningfulness; all about returning the love and justification of righteousness through serving our forgiving Savior, Jesus Christ. Please read the Bible and see for yourself!

Struggles For Balance

Personality a wreck, heart sobbing.
Joys and pain are reaching the surface.
Drowning out the sorrows and cruising on continent.
Life where emotions can try to serve others.

Digging in deeper with the Word of Knowledge,
Spiritual things that sharpen our ways.
Satisfactions are almost here-
Human amusement and discerning values.

Acceptance that cannot be denied.
Servants who lead are not always counted on.
Right and wrong complaints that create temporarily sides,
But ultimately dissipate emotionally.

Bernie Mac and Issac Hayes Passing away this month

I recently heard about the deaths of Bernie Mac and Issac Hayes, who were well-known actors/comedians. I'm not really sure to what to make of it, but I did read somewhere that George Clooney said the death of a loved comedian makes the world a less funny place.

Giving people who passed away a tribute for appreciating their contributions in tough wrap-ups is like a de facto standard. How I view myself when I pass away doesn't seem to be very bothersome for me! My mom reasoned me that people who die will finally get the last laugh. This is a dark joke that I will reveal. I can imagine a play where a dying man tells his loving family that he re-financed all of his mortgage and donated it to the poor and then just falls flat dead on his death bed. It would make it kind of hard for the kids to pay off the house again if they are attached to it.

Another interesting theory would be to confess an enraging secret to a friendly nemesis and then pass away laughing. I don't necessarily advocate it because the Bible states that people should show love and respect for nice stewardship in this world. I realize that managers will be obsequious to entry-level workers, especially if their business is about training them. Respecting customers no matter what creates good business these days.

Lines of Identification God Only Understands

Temperamental riches that fade away.
Timing in the essence for the emotionally fatigued.
Traveling through the toughest tracks of normality.
Finding self at square disadvantage and advantages.

People who surprise you through giving them a chance.
Tough and sensitive morality through following Bible wholeheartedly.
Worship that fills the soul and powerful comfort of bravery.
Life filled with zero expectations for being disappointed.

Classic rituals stem the heart and do not rip off feelings to communicate.
Connecting variables that intrigue the soul in certain peaks.
Not to be proud with anything but letting a loving God take charge.
The dread and agony placed with working at unsought places, but opportunity knocks there.

God Witnesses to Our Little Needs

The joy of serving God is something amazing to get a grip on. I realize that many have lived a sinful life that separated them from the will of God. God's hold on us seems to be very drastically questionable to many unbelievers. I think a wonderful aspect of having a relationship with our Creator is that it's about being in love with Him. If we do not have His love that reaches out to us from heaven, then we can't surely experience this sense of security.

I realize through my struggles and written discussions that people will rarely respond to, my writing is just trying to reach out to people in an uplifting manner by being dependent on God. I know that my personality gets in the way with God's will. I'm not this perfect person that people who feel insecure can rely upon for friendship. It's amazing having been raised up in Biblical faith; despite my emotional challenges and will to succeed by facing my insecure faults. I am still growing everyday under the presence of God's Spirit. The freedom that one feels away from the low and big bondages of this world is amazingly a hard thing to get to. Sometimes our eyes are not willing to see the green fields or feel the light at the end of the tunnel. I know that we would like to trust upon some people as an ally. I always felt bad when a person had a misunderstanding with me and tried to push me away literally. It hurt my heart because I wanted to be accepted by everyone. I guess then God sort of intervened with my weaknesses in the form of like this "Invisible hand" and opened doors for me. It's amazing that God blessed me in difficult situations that wouldn't seem so big to others. It is really humbling for me to note that God cares about our little things even when it's hard for us to come to terms with it.

Discussion Enabled to the Intellect

What makes life a little funny is how people can view themselves when things don't go well for them. I guess people look to lean on each other instead of understanding why a certain individual is scorning him or her. I talk a lot in the general sense instead of making literally a personal judgment upon someone. The prose becomes a little interesting for me to read upon.

God states in the Bible that knowledge began with God. God should be seen upon as the Creator of this world. By viewing that, with Him being the Alpha (another fancy word for 'the Beginning'), we know that an all knowing, omnipresent, eternal God is the most perfect Spiritual being to ever have existed in the concept of man. That is why we revere God's perfections, many do like to complain about why God could be imperfect. God's plan wasn't for us to sin in the beginning when the first man and woman was created. God's plan was for us to glorify His Name (being in obedience to His doctrine). We live in a free society where each of our individual thoughts can have an influence. Having written stuff that a few individuals see as offensive material, the majority hasn't really brought it up with me. If it were serious, the honest type would really open up and fess to the problem. Yeah, my writing was built for arguing against the human flesh- all the sinful desires and expectations of selfish intentions through feeling frustrated, angry, or cheated. I've been around those individuals in their secret corner. I know how big nonsense gossip really is, and so if I continue to develop myself into the person that I feel is ideal and hear funny gossip that I know isn't true, then I shouldn't really let it get to me. Even the ones that seem a little true than others, I don't need to worry about what others think anymore because I'm equipped with something more powerful than any of them. It's having a true relationship with the Father in Heaven.

Fun sentence using whole alphabet

the queen and i rode on a van, listened to xylophone music, and kicked and jumped over the good can and the stuffed fox after eating a whole zebra.

Alternative:

the queen and i rode on a van, listened to xylophone music, and kicked and jumped over the good can and the stuffed fox after zealously reading a Bible verse!

God's Grace

I personally believe that everyone is under the grace of God individually. It may be hard to say where this issue of spirituality comes from with these certain individuals who are so bold and knowledgeable. I think that when we try to rely on what we think is our good nature, then we could sometimes get a little too carried away. Take for instance, a man who wants to be a doctor but the dad forces him to be a movie star; way off course, don't you think? Realistically, I think we sometimes feel we are capable of dictating order in areas we might not have too much of a clear understanding of. The root could most indefinitely be an issue of pride or just raging emotions that make you blurt out comments to your most trusted people.

I'm glad I've had people not be afraid of showing me their weaknesses through their aggressive behaviors! It's always been this fixated concentration of trying not to offend everyone that's got me almost every time. Waking up to a new consciousness of judging myself, I am also sort of able to predict a person's direction through convincing in trivial matters. Have you ever wondered how some people do so much that could really pump you up through time and then they just give you a simple answer that channels a lot of appreciation? Man, I would like to be that kind of guy or girl. Quick testimony: in light of being totally and freely a satisfied human, it has been about following the commands of the Bible in context to God's true words. I know how it's really against our nature with our feelings working against us sometimes. How we have so many fears and doubts, how we want to let go of stressful things and just entertain ourselves to weaken out the pain of uncertainty. A commitment to studying and applying the true intentions of the Bible is making a lifelong investment to greater wisdom, which will help you obtain the fruits of glory!

Life and Times of Few Good Riches

The time will come for everyone to make a choice in accepting God's offer. I personally find it a heartbreak when a person does not want to accept the Savior in their lives. Perhaps, there are some ailments or doubt or lack of trust in this whole Godly thing that people connect with. Maybe it's something that you fight against underneath?

I personally have no power to offer based on my own rights. What brings me a lot of appeal is a matter of doing something desirable for the Commonwealth. However, it also appears to me that people have this tendency to appear nice outwardly but stay corrupted in their hearts. Over these years, I have struggled so much about getting right with God. My heart would never seem to feel at ease with the sins I would commit. It then hits me that God knows when it's the right time to appeal. The Bible talks about God's purpose Romans 8:28 and how Jesus keeps knocking on the door (Somewhere in book of Revelations). Is there something you would like to make right with the Lord? I realize that as the sensitivity of erring with God is greatest when trying to search for the absolute joy in life. All of us do not need to simply give up with hopes of ever finding it. It's there, and I feel that a few unique individuals ever try to go on this quest to spiritual riches. If you had a wonderful life, people just love you, and riches have found you, then it's so wonderful! You also could find this hope of satisfaction in knowing universal love and the power of a person's transformation from evil.

Painful Experiences With People From Writing

This post isn't meant to harm anyone, but I realize that I'm a winner because the things I wrote had good intentions. I can now defend away every remark that gets thrown at me! It doesn't matter what the objection is because I now have the skills and enough closeness with myself to really be honest.

I guess I've been mad a lot and the best way for me has been to vent it out through writing by holding back the full anger. It's really been about serving those who have wronged me. They may not appreciate it at the moment, but I really think that with good intentions, I should never have panicked through people trying to cover their insecure hides in private by acting what they felt I wrote. That is why they want to call me selfish and all of that negative jazz, but I'm being of service to them even though they say they don't want it at that time. I keep going at it because my stubborn nature tells me that it's something else that's offensive. It's one of those gray areas where they may claim I'm so selfish and try to hurt my attempts of being a more polished individual. What I am currently doing is not illegal, and I just needed to learn to relax under all circumstances!

Personal Blogging Policy

1) Nobody shall be boldly degraded intentionally in this blog for the sake of appeasing the writer's angry mood.
2) The topic will virtually always include something related to God, even if it just contains one word about how the Son of God loves everyone.
3) Despite being able to acknowledge a specific person's negative characteristics that can really aggravate me so much and prove it online through writing for everyone to see, this criticism shall be made in private for that individual person's eyes to see. In other words, by closed doors only. Not to mention all the screaming and crooning with affection won't be recorded.
4) If under circumstances I feel pressured about breaking these rules, I will ensure the best explanation to try to clear out any scorn for a specific group of individuals, person, or entity. The Bible is not my writing, and I did not create it and so if it offends you, then it's mainly a problem with you and God and not me.
5) The Bible has the ultimate say in every issue that I address. It is the ultimate authority and whatever it implies even if it makes you feel uncomfortable, it's for you to deal with and not at my expense as I have my own issues with it. 
6) If any of these things mentioned are violated by the writer, who will try to accommodate (argue for passage of post), then he shall cut off his hand! Don't do the vow at home kids, because God can forgive and cleanse your spiritual body that gives you a clean slate of repentance in your physical bodies. It's truly by the grace of God! All the laws in the Bible were created to show everyone can't live up to God's expectations and that he sent His Son to die on the cross and give us eternal life with the Father in Heaven. It's very exciting!

Tribute to All Readers

It's pretty interesting to know that nice folk around my town have given their sparse time to read my writing and given me any feedback, whether negative or positive. Being of a guy with a background of keeping to himself and feeling lonely, I guess I just felt like connecting with someone out there. I think when I started writing I never felt that it could be seen upon as a fiery vomit to someone's reputation.

It's also been such an incredible journey with two sides of myself. I have this inner being that wants me to quit doing what I like to avoid offending others for sure! Another part of me says to keep moving forward to glorify God. I'm sure everyone faces challenges in life, and as my mom tells me, if it was easy everyone would become rich! With the experiences that I have growing under, I think the gross negatives upon myself with the possibly psychological doubts that stir in my head don't exceed the dialogue I have established with praying to the Lord! It's amazing how when I write, even though lackadaisically, I feel a burden with the writing that I have submitted for the whole world to see. This burden is really helping me keep in check with how I'm doing with my spiritual life. If I were to just post in a private journal, then I don't think the effect of wanting to worship God would be that great! We're witnesses in this world and trying to win others to Christ. A Christ-centered life is an unimaginable journey filled with the glorious spiritual riches that no one can truly fathom. It's a life filled with joys and pains, sacrifices, and honest recollections besides just feeling foolish all the time.

Protective Comment From Highly Persuasive Employers

I want to be firmly established in the core basics of work ethics from the current investments of knowledge I have obtained. I would like to continue to develop under someone's wings before I control my own financial destiny. I'm not sure how long it will take to finally feel ready to tackle my dreams. I believe that beginning at a more humble route will help me connect with other's satisfactions under living situations. (Mean it from the bottom of my heart!)

[I also intend to have several amusing journeys in primarily spirit-filled things that might be of interest to everyone while striving to eliminate many doubts that re-surface with my unintentinal remarks.]  

Food for Thought

I guess I'm realizing that people's focus is what may generate some productivity. Recently, I was somewhere where a lot of people like to attend on Sundays. Over here, I realized how a common goal empowers a large group of individuals to be better people. Yes, it's true that the majority of us are not gifted and that it's all by the grace of God that a truly nice person with no intent of taking advantage can get somewhere.

I received a keen verse from a friend in Proverbs 16:22 - "Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed." I think it's so easy to want to lament about how we don't receive any blessings. Are we not so alike with everyone? It comes to mind that our abilities were all created not so equally, but yet we are all given God-given rights to exercise freely the plans of serving God.

I'm starting to realize that knowledgeable people make important contributions to society for an individual with big plans to implement it. Some have this great mindset of being able to creatively use knowledge outside the box. I think that's where a big number of us have the advantage in doing something big. A question I do need to ask is where's God in the picture? Is not God our Creator and does not He acknowledge being the Almighty and purposeful God? Proverbs 27:17 states "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another." The Biblical principles do impose the need to be sharpened in wisdom for the sake of staying closer to the right path. Don't get me wrong in that, there's a wrong way in obtaining knowledge and we do have to be careful at times in what our sources are. I think the best person who can minister to self is the Lord, and it has to come through being dedicated with personally meditating on the Lord. We do use people for references, but ultimately the Lord is going to have the final say.

It's really hard to try to get along with people in general if we refuse to judge accordingly. No one has the right to judge whether a person ends up after they die, let's face it; not even the wisest person would have the keenest belief system of what heaven would be like except if he's been there.

Resparked Passion

Times may feel discouraging having no friends around sometimes. It becomes a major hurdle with wanting to fit in sometimes. I believe that God is the true being who can fill a major void in our lives. The main thing, analogously speaking the big kahuna, but I don't see how placing our life on feeding our emotional needs can really help us conquer that area of unworthy sin! There are some things that we feel guilty over and never wish we have touched upon. A common example would be being mad at your parents for not understanding them. Another could be having difficulty getting along with fighting sexual desires. Everyone in this world is susceptible to sin, and sorry to say even the priests! Romans 3:23 states "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. Matthew 26:41 (KJV)

Some may be wondering what it's all about with not giving into our guilty pleasures. It's about God loving us and wanting to bless us by not cutting us off. It may sometimes feel like that you are not doing anything wrong and people who are supposed to be on your side are going against you. We have all done things erroneously to each other at certain times of life. This is all living and God expects us to live according to His Commandments. It isn't all about being controlled, being swept into a religious institution, or being brainwashed with concepts that will help you ignore the pains in your life. It's about a true living God who wants to help you understand the difficulties of your life. Through Adam and Eve, sin entered the human species and we are always prone to make careless errors without knowing it. It's by the grace of God and believing in how Jesus rose from the dead that we find ourselves truly living.

A Simple Truth of Living

Growing up through a tough life of seeking after God hasn't always been my idea of living. It's starting to feel that I'm becoming more self-absorbed and placing the idol on myself instead of Jesus. I long to be loved by God and be involved with all of the traditions that are instated with the Bible. It's becoming a little redundant meditating on the same verses and re-visiting them over and over again.

It's like life feels a repetitious routine that only the truly devout and certain personality type are deserving of receiving God's glory. Through heresay, God tries to bless everyone out of His love and grace. However, those who do not want anything to do with God have really no place with Him. How is it then, that we can harbor jealousies for certain successful people or still complain? God is in charge of letting the world rain or shine. It would be foolish principally for anyone to not receive the good crop in time of season. In times of enduring hardship, this is really where the best workers in the field will originate. I believe that the successful types are those who have this special-driven purpose to be in that business and will not cheat their way to the finish line. Cheaters may make a little more dough on the side for awhile, but greedy hearts do not know when it's time to be content. I think that's where greedy people become destroyed by becoming engulfed in their work and missing out on the joyful committments they were supposed to build upon. I believe that revealing all of my desires of my heart is foolish because well the Bible states that the heart is wicked and deceitful beyond measure.

Kick Start

Being able to write about several things over the past by being definitely true to my colors has helped me realize that God is great in delivering! With the struggles that still accumulate through success, it's more like a humbling feeling through the storm and good blessings associated with it. Being a young fellow coming to my senses after being a prodigal, I realize that absolute honesty and pursuing after God is the most important step anyone can take.

It's comely enough for me to continue writing despite the low probabilities of receiving any monetary gifts. I think through adjusting periodically and placing my writing under some tests of fire, I can be a voice that is heard. I know that I'm pretty sensitive and the thrill of not knowing what's happening through the civilized writing that I've composed. It's so easy to refuse hearing another man or woman's issues in the heart especially by being so self-absorbed.

My self-absorption in the past has always been about how I feel that I'm a lousy person making little strides to be a better person. Through trying my best to not offend and give all my energy to the other person in burdensome periods of myself, meaning I literally developed cortisones from self-induced stress by trying to connect with friends under total exhaustion. I was just too quiet through the times I felt baffled with things they had to say. I literally hated these periods because of all the confusion in my emotions, like being torn from my belief systems in a feeling-based way. In short conclusion to give myself another rest period, I realize that a person's voice can indeed be powerful even though the person doesn't feel it under the territory of pursuing after God with the heart and not for any selfish reason at all! Start reading the Bible already if you haven't, the Lord has many exciting stories to share. May be a little challenging to connect at first, that's why I encourage going out to a good Bible teaching and fellowshipping church. Read Acts Ch. 2 vs. 42 if you haven't already. "All the believers devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching, and to fellowship, and to sharing in meals (including the Lord's Supper), and to prayer." (NLT)

Ultimate Sex in Bible

I'm starting to realize the secret to women. I know how many stubborn guys who feel they have the ultimate reason that girls would love them say that their method is right. It's quite creative and amazing how being a moral person through facing inevitable rejections could really help you cope with being on the losing end.

The secret to women is that there isn't really any. The Bible explains most of it so nicely. It's just like women asking why men don't like any of them. We both coexist and the basics of marriage life is that women have to taken cared of by their hubby. It's an honest principle that a lot of masculine beefcakes fail to realize. The Biblical principles are amazing and really teach the core of a loving and happy relationship with the spouse. Basically, the man has to love God first and then put his wife second. The man looks out for his wife's needs first before his own. Just think of all the deserving women out there. Those who are not part of the "game" you guys would love to play.

Just when the man thinks he has a big load on his shoulders, wives also play a nice role for their husbands by submitting. This makes it easier for the man to lead the household and come up with solutions to manage daily dramatic affairs. Women were born to be perfect when Eve came along, but sin sent the world upside down. Therefore, women are a little more easier to lead astray emotionally. One girl carefully confessed that she bases a lot off her emotional decisions, which could make it hard to be logical sometimes- example, her going shopping and running a credit card bill a little high. Sin was not part of God's original intent which so many people have trouble understanding. We are loved by God and encouraged to multiply our faces in godly homes that disciple their children into holding their ground when being tossed around like waves.

Anyone struggling with their appearances? This is so amazing finding that I understand now. Women don't really care about a man's height, although some are negatively impressed by it. It can take some trivial convincing through the pursuance but that is not the main reason why women reject a man who so covets sexual attention at times. I find that women are not really too fond of men who like to flaunt their bodies and talk about being a model. This is one of the most lethal moves because women can't really use an uncommitted man's body for her being served. To be on the safe end and have protection from feeling doomed without a soul and no concern of living; the thrill of life includes sex and for it to become anything less than some fun with hormones is pointless. To have a dedicated and sexy wife, it's better to be rewarded a thousand times better than swinging with just a "consenting" adult.

Energy Testimony

I'm finding it a little difficult to battle my narcolepsy. I believe that it's all about having proper diet, rest, and utilizing time to work out. I did manage to control my diet for about two months, which helped me regain my physical level of energy. After that, I started to wind my way down the toilet a little. I think it's in this manly behavior that we as men would love to drink beer, party with pizza all the time, and watch a superbowl-type extravaganza as much as possible all year.

I personally find myself attracted to Jesus, even though the flesh tells me to ditch God's ideals. I don't do it for religious purposes but more for stability in my life and the hope attached with it. I think God does exist in heaven and that all should come to the knowledge of Jesus. I know it's a little hard with all these questions and from people not perceiving their hearts enough to turn to him. There are so many things to conquer in life, and all of it can't be done without the Lord's help.

I'm personally going to try my best to get enough rest, have enough healthy food to eat, exercise at least three times a week, invest some time developing spiritually through the renowned Bible, have tons of good fun like going on physical adventures (mountain climbing) and make some money...

My Thought About World Focus

I seriously wonder where all our focus has gone in this world. Like, it seems that people have a hardened heart for pleasing only themselves. I come to realize that everyone has a soft spot when they are in a weak position. I guess it's easy to judge how a few people can grow up having everything they ever wanted materialistically. Even though with all this money and glitz, some celebrities still resort to drugs and alcohol from trying to get a high in their life. Life can get seriously depressing for everyone at times.

I think most of us try to numb away the past pains that we have felt. We sometimes get hit in a position that could turn us into a shell. Having walked in a lot of misery over feeling like I was lacking in something, like money, recognition, and glory, I have come to realize that those things are influences that an average person doesn't need to worry about. We all seriously have a calling in life to find acceptance and be tuned in with the system. I myself had a little trouble finding a waking direction. My life all changed when I came to the realization of a simple faith has made a dramatic appeal to me. I was only a third grader when I came to realize a higher power in heaven, tugging on my heart. I remember that before I was not really accountable but trying my best to please my parents by obeying every command they told me. This faith to this day has been challenging to uphold with all the influences the world wants to uphold for selfish reasons. It's like friends support their selfish decisions as long as it appeals to them as well. Like a support group, and when someone in the group they love is acting weird they might have the heart to change the man. I am safe to say that I am not a religious person but someone who is experiencing an authentic relationship with God. If you feel like God is touching your heart, Romans 6:23 states For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord. By repenting our sins and turning in the direction Jesus the true savior of this world, we can experience ultimate joy and peace of security for eternity. God has designed man to worship a creator and to live in full harmonious satisfaction with Him through our living out the teachings of Jesus that remain in born again hearts.

How I small guy feel left out in tall man's world.

People in general with the exception of those lovely and sensitive ladies and gentlemen love to complain a lot. I have some truthful complaints about only myself and not anyone else. I am going to share seriously about all the wrong things I've done with myself and the wrong feelings that I have with myself. This is to ensure that I am being totally honest with myself and ready to cry it out and then just live in my life being pleasing to the Lord. This could be fun and probably something you are grateful not having ever been caught up with. In a way, I hope to be of service with this truthful bashing of myself. The reason why I share it is because it is the worst part of myself and somehow not life ending for me, which has been a blessing. 1 John 5:16 states "If anyone sees his brother commit a sin that does not lead to death, he should pray and God will give him life. I refer to those whose sin does not lead to death. There is a sin that leads to death. I am not saying that he should pray about that." Note: God does not want us to be in any sinful behavior. Please see Greg Laurie if you have any concerns or questions about self-defense killing, lying to enemies, death penalty, etc.

Okay where do I begin? I'm a person who gets really turned on and wants to view porn for my pleasure sometimes. It's wrong and cheats with being kind and gentle to every women who deserve to be respected. I have tempted thoughts related to fornication and act accordingly sometimes. I get these feelings of strong sexual desires sometimes. I guess I won't mind lots of babies for now with only one lady I pledge to...

Here's another bad thing about me. I feel super short for some reason. I feel like it's a hindrance to my health because of my relatively large build compared to others around my height. I also feel like I don't have the confidence to date taller women, even though I can talk to them now without too many problems. I feel that my life is being ruined sometimes by being short and want to give a quiet fit with myself. I see that the majority of Americans here are like way taller than me, with the exception of a lot of cute girls smaller than me. I don't know what macho part of me wants to make me to strive to become taller. I guess I don't want to be viewed as this short guy getting married to another short girl... I seem to really mind my height for some reason. I have had several battles with these emotions and has been drawing me closer to possessing less confidence in myself except when it comes to knowing Jesus. I know that I'm not super short and really diminutive to the point where an 8-foot man would need spectacles to see me. It still bugs me with being only a 5' 4" male and weighing in at 155 pounds at the moment. Last year, I was 5' 2" and up to 170 pounds. I'm sure I could making a few guys under 5' jealous, but that's not the point. This total height issue is about me and I think those guys under 5' could be total gentlemen and marry the hottest chick in town. They can be very gentle and even tempered!

A friend of mine really ticked me off when he wrote on his prank, which was a temporary restraining order, that I was 5' 2" and 200 pounds. I guess that's really scary to a 5' 7" 130 pounder. I personally see it as totally unhealthy with a ton of fat that can't move for any junk. That guy's name is Washington by the way and has a whole state supporting American-born idiots like him. No need to really bash him because I've been an idiot countless times too!

I can't seem to burn off this excess weight for me, so I really feel that in order for me to be considered healthy I have to work a lot of stressful hours to get super skinny. I can't do that because my body isn't shaped to. I know that many girls would feel pretty enormous if they had my stature. I guess it's a bothersome thing to care about your weight, and there are plenty of nice and honest folk around there to encourage you. I personally want to do the best I can to stay relaxed. The best solution for me is to pray my heart out and work at getting taller. I see myself a taller and stronger family man someday... By the way I'm reaching 25 and I read that you could work your bone growth up to the age 30. Hmm, I don't want to wait until I'm 30 to get married just to wait getting taller and then not get it. I will be super old by then and maybe with a sore back. This is a dilemma that I have psychologically, and I personally think it's really entertaining to share. I'm going to be part of God's kingdom one day too and I thought this would be something fun to enjoy. The worst part of me has been shown and confessed; I feel even more liberated now. There are some things we should not share, if we feel they will cause another person to sin.

Connection With Sermon Lesson

Paul states in Philippians 2:12, "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." (NIV) The senior pastor at a church I fellowship with said that Paul learned to be happy without having to compare others, while he was in prison. I think this brings up a connection with a lot of Asian family social circles. Some Chinese Christians feel left out because they are being compared to unworldly cousins or siblings in the family. This really deals with them being scorned upon because of a family gossiper viewing lack of success in their life.

1 Timothy 6:6 states "But godliness with contentment is great gain." (NIV) I believe that we don't really need to doubt in how God is working through us because of our faith. God counts us as righteous because of our faith. Romans 3:22 states, "This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe..." (NIV) I know we are all human and sometimes look to be pleasing in other's eyes so we could may be lead them to the Lord. I totally believe it's all in God's personal timing for us to be a witness. Romans 8:28 states "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Remember the story of David waiting in the wilderness to be the next king of Judah and how he went through lot of pain and suffering from Saul? Remember Job's lament that placed Job in a situation to wait for his death to face eternal happiness with the Lord? God delivered both the hands of David and Job. Let's not doubt what Jesus could do for us.

No Struggle No Life

What I really enjoy about my surreal life is that I'm enjoying my young age of being 24! Surely enough, I totally feel that my relationship with God has helped me overcome my immaturity with several things in my life. I feel totally free to do a lot of things that will promote my health, to pursue after a career I could be passionate about, and to be open about my genuine faith.

I think we all go through struggles in life sometimes. There are still moments when I write where I feel like I'm repressing some painful moments. I think it's my will to want to connect with others and totally make sense with them. Being highly balanced for me is starting to deal with my commitment and fun factors. I had a long drought of being productive because I spent numerous hours playing computer games that didn't pay for my food! It took a lot of heart for me to give up all my game items to new players, but I did it because I wanted to show these strangers love. I'm realizing that my head is starting to pound away at making key decisions in my life and that I'm capable of becoming responsible. Praise the Lord Jesus for all my progress.

Family Annoyances

I'm starting to realize that when close people who are feeling selfish want to control you, they tend to belittle your behavior; especially if it's hindering their desire at the moment. This brings me up to a new understanding of my mom and sister. I believe that I am entitled to make this negative judgment to them, as it will help me love them better. My sister and mom both exhibit a small heart with lots of screaming and yelling, which gets me really enraged! It is so pestering that I'm going to publish the memory and get on with it.

I realized that they want attention for themselves with trivial pursuit from viewing media. I think there are plenty of close women out there who would act really flustered with you, if they were missing their favorite T.V. show. What I do is play the piano so much, and it bugs the heck out of them. It's really important to me, so I can't stop all of a sudden in general. I feel like I'm serving people. I think playing an instrument and developing a skill is better than being entertained by an idol. I really wonder if my mom and sister are having some trouble with socializing or just in the mood for being totally lazy. I realize that when they tell me to stop, I'm not really obligated to because what they are doing is insignificant to life. I also have this feeling of them being jealous with successful people. Successful people need to get some practice time in. I think overall their hearts are not fully mature, no matter how intelligent they try to portray outwardly. I know they believe they can't be changed inwardly, so they submit if I keep arguing with them. It's really important for me to be honest with myself and not really care about their character attacks, as I know we all can adjust our outwardly appearance anytime temporarily.

My Meaning of Being Solely Devoted to Wife

The reason why I make this post is because I have been wrestling with the thought of placing a spouse above a relationship with God. I believe that all believers of the Word must make this journey of loving God before anything else. My real definition with this being solely devoted to a wife is to cast all my cares and concerns that belong in a marriage especially sex to the wife I have married and to not any other idol or person. The context of the Bible states to have sex only under the safety of marriage and not fornicate to protect our purity. More of my thoughts on this later.

I think it makes sense by being disciplined to a spouse, you are placing your primary devotion to the spouse without any other earthly thing interrupting the relationship. No one is perfect by all means, and we need to spend time with a spouse when apart for awhile. God also asks for a spot in our lives through meditating upon his Word. It's a simple thing with reading the Bible, just that not everyone does it enough. I myself have not really spent a lot of time building my faith through reading the Word. I do however study it as much as I can in my second Bible study service on Sundays.

The issue with sex is that I really struggled with piqued interest in the fifth grade for sexual maturity. I realized that a girl was really more special than deserving of being teased and taunted just as my other friends had done. Adding to this credit, it didn't help that I became ensnared with pornography. I really feel that my physiology became so aroused by the sight of pornography I lost control of it and ended up being dishonest by entering fake credit card numbers and passing through the account. I even disregarded the Deterrent page of "Must Be 18 to Enter." I don't think it was really quite enough to protect a struggling adolescent like me. I do know about filter systems nowadays that we could use to protect our children. I hope I can do a better job at leaving a greater impression of staying pure for marriage to my future children.

The thing that I'm realizing is that voyeurism of anything that may sexually pique our interest feeds our lustful temptations. This places us more near to enemy territory and may get us to discern some feelings of guilt and condemnation. I believe that God created our sexual energy for a beautiful purpose. Sex in itself is not a sin. The Bible states that for our happiness of expressing love for a husband and wife, we can enjoy this intimacy in a marriage. With the issue of pornography, I believe it cheats the person we are interested in or the spouse. It's because we are making porn an idol for getting sexually aroused and getting tempted to place it on par with the person we're in love with. "I don't know how this will make any woman feel, by her man having issues of being able to sexually confide only in her."

Another issue with pornography that I've been facing is that I feel a little worn out about getting married. It's been wearing out my natural feelings of being attracted to beautiful women. It's like my heart wants to condemn myself when natural feelings do arise for someone. It's an idol and not really a person. In effect, many feel that getting married to protect ourselves from porn will work. It's not the case because pornography is only used for piquing our sexual interest and not guiding ourselves to the person we want to make our wife. As a result, it causes these struggling feelings of viewing porn to still arise. There are many out there who face pornographic issues even after they marry. It's not to say that you won't be an exception. It's our physiological functions that have gone out of control and the only way to get back into being spiritually right is to learn to discipline ourselves.


I have learned that being turned on by a person is absolutely normal because God needs us to multiply. He also wants us to enjoy a creative expression of love in marriage with sex. It really helps out a lot with restoring our spiritual health in a fallen world. I believe that we don't need to make pornography a central focus in getting us aroused. We don't need it to remind ourselves that we are still in good physiological shape to have sex. Porn really interferes with what is supposed to be a natural feeling.

I believe that some men may feel that they can control themselves sexually by watching pornography. I don't think anyone would need porn to begin with if they didn't have any issue with having sex. Some men ignore fulfilling their wives' wishes of being sexually intimate with only the spouse. When porn is watched for sexual entertainment or for another purpose, it defeats the purpose of having a wife. It's because porn becomes like a standard and it's something you need to live up to the expectation of. Without experiencing a like experience, you can't be sexually happy. By humbling ourselves and letting go of porn, we will realize that there are so many blessings out there we can achieve. Therefore, repenting for the sake of Jesus gives us freedom to enjoy a more fulfilling and fuller life.

Bible Rambling

The meaning of the post is mainly what I feel like I've been doing. It's because I've been just saying stuff that comes out without really any effort.

I'm starting to feel a little base with my faith nowadays. This gives me a little concern that I may be biased. The Bible advises us to go from Genesis to Revelations to get to the full counsel of God. Acts 20:27 states, "You will think in a godly way as you receive the full counsel of God." I think we all like to get sharpened with a brother or sister who is knowledgeable in a key spiritual area. What I really like about the teaching ministry is that the gift of teaching is obtainable and able to be passed throughout generations. Paul stated he was really proud to teach the verse by verse Bible to a hard crowd of believers. I think ideally Paul intended on being an example of how teachers should model their teaching style also. A book of the Bible shows a synopsis of Ezra the high priest delivering the Word. It was taught by expository teaching and distinctive reading of the law of God. To be able to teach someone, the secret is to read the Scriptures and give a sense of its meaning with expository message; this will in fact give the understanding.

Condemnation is not the key

In response to my last post, I really feel putting this one up really deserves a short look. What I'm really starting to love about my relationship with Jesus is that there's no condemnation in worshiping him dealing with my posts, in light of my weaknesses. I'm really enjoying this fulfillment of my desires and living so freely away from bondage of worldly rules.

When I get into a state of aggravation, I don't really like to think that person I'm vexed with is going to end up in hell. I'm not quite so sure with what makes me moody but I guess it's getting me to open up my mouth. Whenever I open my mouth, my heart seems to want to speak out about Jesus or God or anything Biblically. It's kind of sensationally funny because I'm open to that person I'm mad at to give me Scriptures to apply to my life. I'll surely argue with him or her if I find disagreement in some cases. I've really embedded with my life with delighting in the Bible.

I think one of those mysteries is that God never condemns people who turn against Him. It's literally their choice to face Jesus or ignore him. I know that the world brings so many challenges that makes us want to reject our faith. Like, a tragedy that occurred in a person's life, being mad at a Christian for some reason, questioning about why you aren't fully happy with your life, or just not feeling it at the moment. There seems to be so many complaints that a person can petition against God. We do have hope though, that no matter how narrow your wants are in Earth like having prettier eyes or taller body. We'll be worshiping in heaven the moment this world passes away. We can't force ourselves to love God or change just because a pastor says you should be this way. It has to come from the will of our hearts. This heart that really feels the beat of the heart of Jesus while he lived here in this world. Isn't it amazing that our former lives are leaving us just because we get enlightened by the Word of God? I feel that we [the believers ] are aligned together in the Spirit and Truth. No matter how much Satan's stronghold gets a grab of us or life treats us, we remain in key communion with the Lord.

Consequences of raw honesty

I'm starting to realize that raw honesty towards self becomes a good habit to put on. It can definitely keep your hopes up. I'm starting to realize this perspective from looking at my updated resume. I have been trying to hide all the corners and promoting myself to employers. There are so many variables that could get them to misjudge my character. I realize that I have a really good experience in the things that I have accomplished. I managed to change my previous resume to include all the colors that represents me. I think my life's destination and path have been pretty reasonable so far. I know there are some encounters that has made me question my personal validity of existence, but coming through with the answers has made me a lot stronger.

I know that I have accomplished so little, but now I'm growing into a more fuller adult. It means good things to me because I am becoming more active about sacrificing my childish ways. I'm really learning to look after myself. To care the least about myself, the Bible teaches every believer to not worry about their materialistic and emotional needs. I can literally apply it in my life, and I'm seeing that I really appreciate the experiences that God has put me through with defunct relationships. There's a characteristic that I do have that I need to confess. I really love to state the truth, especially if it's going to affect someone after he or she aggravated me. The truth hurts, but it's better than lying and making them an enemy with kissing up to them. Being fake is totally pointless because the truth really does edify everyone engaged in it. Consider it an inconceivable gift that's going to make you happy by perceiving some retaliation upon a highly sensitive individual. Praise God for my self-defense mechanism with people who try to wrong me with their moral compromises.

Let's Get Happy, Biblically

What I enjoy most talking about God is that I can state the basic things about Jesus and then just leave it up to the Holy Spirit to invite the person I'm witnessing to. These days I am really starting to feel a little compassionate for everyone I meet. I realize that my emotions are becoming more sensitive and judging people in a sense that isn't condemning.

I know that raw honesty is one of the greatest tools that a person can have to tell their story of how Jesus has helped him or her. We have so many great teachers and opportunities available in this country. I find that many are still developing their faith because they are still unsure about everything the Bible says. Another reason I'm sensing is that a believer does not want to witness because he feels afraid he will stumble away from his faith. This is the emotion I felt because I was unstable for a period of time. The Christian walk isn't always that easy and in a way, the best relationship we can possibly find in this world. The Bible encourages to love God and others; it is very powerful because we see more love coming from the creator in Heaven.

There are many things that go on in my life. I personally don't want to define myself as a religious person. I have had so many failures in my life, and even a rock-bottom period. My parents have told me the emotions I've felt are entirely normal. I believe that I went through a period of stupidity and acted like a complete idiot at times. My thoughts and wants weren't aligned fully, until I repented into agreeing with every single word the Bible will truthfully induce. That's why the Bible says the path is narrow in our walk because there's only way, and it's Jesus!

Making Commitments

My life is starting to center a lot around commitments. It's pretty awkward having to write about a few things that could blow its cover. I believe that through honesty and placing our trust in the Lord, no matter what incidences we go through in life, the Lord will always be there. "Thy Word is a lamp onto my feet and a light onto my path." (Psalm 119:105)

We all should cast our cares and concerns with the Lord. I'm starting to think that prayer isn't about convincing God what we want, but rather spending time to know and grow in our relationship with God. 1 John 5:14-17 states that when we pray according to God's purposes, then we know that God hears us. It's a little hard to sometimes figure why God allows some things to happen in our lives. For this reason, the book of Job can stir a lot of questions for a believer when bad things happen for being faithful. The Bible is something we all can learn to trust and grow deeply rooted in. Sometimes, things may go wrong but that is only because sin affects the world too. We all do not have a full understanding of why bad things happen to good Christians. In this respect, it's something we all need to take consideration of with the Lord personally. I, myself, feel like I had problems emotionally before and that little things would test me. I've fallen because of me failing to use discernment from the Lord, which can help us to stay upright.

Staying Pure For Marriage

I've deeply found conviction on how it would be like to be married. A small worry that I have is that as a kid I watched a lot of pornography. It was a sin that I don't think will ever be excusable if caught in the present with a spouse. I have heard of some couples consenting to pornographic material to try to spice up their sex life. In my opinion, it's wrong to financially advocate these porn stars because it encourages them to live a life that could be filled with emptiness and guilt. Sex is among the most intimate acts that is treasured with a committed spouse. It's in our genes to be monogamous lovers and a lot of times, I think a special relationship gone bad can stigmatize the individual's emotions. God wishes to protect individuals who struggle with lust:

"Marriage must be honored among all and the marriage bed kept undefiled, for God will judge sexually immoral people and adulterers." (Hebrews 13:4)

I believe that when you factor in loving a pure woman for a wife, you want to really build her up and be solely devoted to her because you know that's how to make her life content. The influence where relying on porn like a drug to arouse oneself and use as a medium for sex is foolish. It's because pornography also promotes masturbation and ejaculation outside of the marriage box. This can make some lonely guys guilty and lack in confidence, which is in fact the most reported results of watching porn. I myself am finding that I want to keep pure for the reason of enjoying sex in marriage. Committing to having great sex with only the spouse reaps a great reward. We should be the judge of one night stands or relationships that don't seem to tie a knot.

Right Influences

Life in a nutshell for me feels like bonding with the right influences. Could the world be possibly be driven by powerful television ads that target emotionally driven teens and young adults? I'm personally starting to question the usage of my personal time off from a struggling sales environment. Of all aspects and of the least probability, I find myself associating with the principles of the Bible and as a believer of Jesus. This does not mean I have a religion of anything though. Religion to me is something a person subjects to authority other than a governing constitution, even if it be against his or her will. I personally find having a relationship with Jesus is not a religion because it's something I seek after out of my personal desires.

It's so much more powerful to exercise spiritual freedom out of having no human interference. A Muslim told me that he relied on a teacher to be able to connect to Allah. In contrast, the Bible states in 1 Timothy 2:5, "For there is only one God and one Mediator who can reconcile God and humanity- the man Christ Jesus." (NLT) Jesus stated in John 4:14 that "Whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst" (KJV). God came down to Earth in the form of man and sent his Son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. Jesus stated to the jealous religious leaders that he was the Savior of this world. I'm not quite sure how the Jehovah Witnesses have this idea that only 144,000 people are going to be saved. It implies a lot of laboring to find entrance in heaven, and obviously, being a prisoner to false teachings of the Bible. Ephesians 2:8-9 states that salvation comes from Jesus alone and that no man's works will convince God the person is holy.

Search For Controlled Direction

Life's temperaments fill us joys and sorrows.
Having a deeper sense of being creates a sense of belonging.
Words that form in the individual's heart to create a touched heart.
Subtle reminders that go unseen but can arise underneath the nose.

Questions continue to formulate in my childlike mind.
Getting to be polished and refined by trials of fire.
Taking control of time to fulfill the dreams of ourselves.
To be vaguely honest, suffering through lack of participating.

The source of life should be searched until grasped for its eternity.
Life has its positive moments, ups and downs, times of despair.
Pain that is unimaginable through some parts of the world.
A time and a place arises to be filled with God's love and show compassion.