Seemingly Appropriate

It's fun sending a cute female friend some cute messages. I'm starting to have some fun with it. In a way, it keeps my frustration level down and helps me stay more level-headed. It's better preparation for my ultimate test I feel is destined for me at a very high level. It's like my calling that I'm looking forward to.

One of these days, that's going to happen. I'm not going to go make myself all spaz out or anything.

Playing Catch Up

I do have a weird habit of neglecting my own blog for awhile and then coming back to it. By actually not allowing anyone to comment here and just continually counting visitors, I feel like I'm the master of this terrain. It just takes one post for people to blow up all over me! I just know now how the ordinary mind works. It's selfish, inconsiderate, and stupid.

People's agendas are always going to be meet with some trial or difficulty for most people. Even if people have it so easy, in some cases possibly the mind will feel empty from not having fulfillment. Talking about how others have self-interests while I reveal I have my own is interesting in itself. Well then, from having a cool and relaxed mind and willingness to stay positive is definitely the driving force behind the agitated feelings and anger that I'm always tempted to let out! I'm a rich and successful guy at heart.

Just Like Texting

Okay I found myself in a spot where I have a lot of down time which isn't good in general because life sucks being bored. So I'm just typing away on my iPhone because this is the only form of Internet I have at the moment. This reminds me, I should be reading the Bible soon. My time management feels a little out of whack.

Honestly right now I feel so good about going out and meeting new people and just being friends with people. I'm assuming the good looking and nice girls are already taken so I'm going to just take it easy then. I guess I'm going after an attractive lady I desire to marry but she has to feel the same way about me and think of me as her best choice.

I'm just a short guy who has a pretty decent work ethic a little above average. I'm just going to continue to improve upon myself and eventually master the finishing touches. By playing it cool and trying to be smart, it shouldn't be a problem.

Work Smarter Not Harder

I guess visualizing the situation and going after making things convenient for you is what will really help you get more money out of life. I remember watching Duck Tales and it's a pretty cheesy example but the old duck Uncle Scrooge in that show talked about his life story of earning millions. He just worked smarter not harder.

What my grandpa did to earn a fairly comfortable living in the past was farm on a land and then save up the money to buy more land and produce more crops for earning a living. It seems to make sense and a pretty humble way to make a living. He ended up telling every young kid in the family to grow up to be a doctor. No one in my family line took that path. It's not that easy as it seems.

I myself am stating to feel crazy about learning medical practice. The sight of blood doesn't scare me but the thought of saving a person's life would be an exciting business to me.

Keeping In Perspective

I guess what I'm learning is that I was pretty dumb in the past even though I thought I was smart. Maybe I'm actually just slow to learn and full of errors because I'm absent-minded and can feel a little jittery or uptight for no reason. I then have this innate desire to perform at the highest level and impress my peers by getting favors done in a swift manner. What ticked me off in the past was that I ended up feeling under-valued when a few of my peers who were acting in a supervising position sounded condescending with me.

Now I know what triggered my upsetting behavior with them but they still really had no reason to be irritated with me as well. It really doesn't make sense but I guess you won't know unless it happens to you.

Well, This Is Fun

I actually have a hang out buddy with a girl who other guys might find hot! I'm sort of passed that stage of seeing her that way now and like her company now. I don't have too many female friends that I've gone around places with and got to know, but definitely I'm sticking around with this one I've known a little under a year. It's really fun to do stuff with her!

She's introducing me to women who are already taken, but eventually I might come across to meeting one of her really attractive friends and maybe she'll also dig me from being single. This is funny to write about. Patience is a virtue and I'm developing plenty from hanging with this friendly female. She's really nice and maybe, I'll date someone with similar personality like her someday.

On a secondary account of having fun, I'm not quite so irritated about situations that people try to fault me for now. The past situation with that girl who put a restraining order on me is so much of a headache! Thinking about trying to be friends with her feels very unattainable at the moment. The good thing now is that I don't feel so irritated as I used to and stopped making fun of her to really tick her off some more. I was contacting her through messages of Facebook after she failed to extend the restraining order at court.

I sent her about two messages that made fun of her while I was feeling very annoyed, before she blocked my profile. The fact that she couldn't get me arrested brings me some satisfaction. I feel greedy about getting her to unblock me and then add me as a friend. I want to announce on Facebook once I have her as a friend that we ended up becoming friends and burying the hatchet much to her embarrassment.

Happy 4th

I can't show my avatar using an app called BitMoji on here. I find it to be quite cute and can add some humor to my text messages. It's really easy to send but does take a little time to set it up.

I think the best things are meant to take awhile sometimes. Along with having a patient and diligent attitude, I guess overall it just takes time and giving it your best.

Keeping It Simple

Man, I have a lot that I need to accomplish. Anyhow, I'm feeling depressed while I'm talking sometimes and planning stuff with people. Yet, it passes away. I think feelings are really unreliable to begin with and even though I may be suffering underneath, it's great to have something to look forward to anyway. It helps to work on yourself and to let those feelings that are rotting underneath to stabilize.

Okay, with my friend that I like I think I'm going to continue just being friends with her. I actually enjoy that friendship with her. It's nice having that feeling of validation and acknowledgement. That's all I'm really looking for from her. I don't really need to be dating her or anything to receive that type of high. I guess I'm good where it lies now. At first, my feelings were just messing with me and I thought I was falling in love with her or something, but all of that goes away eventually. It just comes down to being if the person is really right for you or not.

Overall, she's pretty good as a friend, and I acknowledge her. I'm still learning to be better with interacting with a girl at a personal level. I'm definitely not shy with attractive-looking women anymore. I guess it helps to work out with scantily clad women. I just don't see women in that way anymore with how they dress. I personally don't care. I'd rather focus on the bigger picture, which is love and finding the right person. I really like the idea of being friends with her. I think she's turning out to be very good for making me a better person and with that experience I'm going to try to find someone a little more hotter and compatible than her. She also needs to be a Christian in my book, as well, so I'll be lying in wait and maybe it will happen someday while I continue to work on myself.

A lot of good people are already taken and will be in the future. I'll just have to let timing play a role then and roll with the punches. I'd rather not give up and that's about it.

Proposing This Stunt

I guess I have a lot that I need to work on still with myself. Timing is of the essence. Learning to have a great deal of patience and also being positive while trying to put in a great deal of hard work, it's been a long journey trying to get there. I'm slowly progressing into that.

I naturally have a to-do list that I don't follow at all. Right now, I'm letting this blog post be my own personal distraction from the pains of living right now. I'm actually embracing it as of this moment and okay with just filling my head with continual positivity.

One thing that's been in my head is that I'm thinking about how I could make that girl with former civil restraining order on me to be my friend. It's really hard at the thought of trying to be her friend. I'm irritated as heck about the whole incident! She didn't want me to be friends with some girls that she knows and so that's why she did that.

I think she did express liking me before all of that naughty development and I was like what the heck at the beginning because I see myself as too short to be dating anybody. Now, I think being good friends with taller girls isn't really a problem.

I see having her as a Facebook friend and hangout buddy as more of a comic relief for me. It's valuable in that if I were to put in monetary value, it would be worth than $10,000 to me. Yeah, I would give up that amount just to hang out with her and comment on her Facebook profile. There's definitely monetary value here and also it contributes to getting work done from lower levels of paranoid feelings and wasteful thoughts of being resentful with a person. I'm soliciting for her being my employee of the job title, friend. There's a lot of business things that I could literally relate this without going off-topic.

Trying To Kick Off With A Bang

Okay, I thought maybe I could fill in a lonely void from being bored by trying to chat with people online.  All I was really doing was saying stuff to make myself laugh. I was making some of the people I chatted with laugh too with remarks like LOL and totally laughing my butt off remarks. Some random guy messaged me to shut the heck up after I was chatting with some ladies on a chatroom. Every remark I was sending was just to make myself laugh and that's what I really was doing.

I think with the whole Facebook thing, maybe one of the reasons why I was losing a friend or two is because I'm adding people I don't really recognize or know. If I were to add someone who I'm pretty familiar with, then maybe that's what keeps my friend count from going away. Actually with the stuff I'm posting, I'm not really trying to be annoying or anything. I just realize that some of those photos have this raw energy that's just very positive. I think positivity will retain people on Facebook, along with continuing to add people who I have a great level of familiarity with.

Starting To Seriously Chill~~~

I like the title in that I put chill ~~~. I'm trying to say it with emphasis and longer Californian tone. Okay, so I'm not doing any copy and pasting for the art of trying to make money off of dumb web surfers who don't know any better. I'm seriously just posting my own original thoughts here and it's being appreciated by some passerbys. I never met them and probably never will. Maybe they came on this incredibly small-time blog site by accident looking for something that I can't afford to give them.

I don't even know what the average attention span is for a stranger who popped into this blog. I for sure spend quite a great deal of here. I'm the one that's typing all of this text, so yeah, it takes some substantial amount of effort!

Honestly, the reason why I made the title and decided to post some random funny details on it is because I was thinking about making fun of people from my past. They are all flipping out a great deal and calling me psycho and all of that fun stuff to make me laugh until the rooster crows next morning. Yeah, they don't even want to talk about it when I ask them. It's because it's bad on them and they can't handle me making fun of them. They have weak minds and can't let go of the past too well. That's why they are telling me that I can't let go of the past because they are so mindful about themselves and they can't do it themselves. It's logical because they don't want to talk about from me having made fun of them and given them a hard time. Why wouldn't they want to not talk about something that didn't bring them pleasure?

It's basically an embarrassing thing that went for them and something they are afraid I'll capitalize on if I end up noticing where their faults are. They end up trying to place blame on me. It's because they are totally aware and just going that route. If I play to win in the most insane and unfair manner, they lose. I guess I can just keep on giving them the "I'm better than you" speech and also the "I'm nicer than you so I can be your friend while you struggle" speech continuously and laugh about it. I can raise my voice to let everybody else hear what I'm talking about and to just annoy them while I'm embarrassing this idiot who blocked me on Facebook because I was irritated with that person and sent them message to make fun of them.

Okay, I'm praying for that person to lose big time now. I'm also praying that the person will love me, as I want to love him or her as a friend. I'm totally a gamer in this area and what makes me win is having that pumped up feeling of how I'm a winner and I'm just going to keep on going with that positive spirit to the finish line and drag that person with me. The person is going to be right behind me because I'm taking first place!

Managing Time Better

What I find myself doing a lot is that I end up sort of regretting letting something get out of my mind because it later comes back to me. This happens to me quite often. I guess I have so many things going on in my head that I end up overwhelming myself a little.

The only thing that I have been pretty consistent with is trying to get to work everyday and working at every other day. Every other activity after that has been so inconsistent. I think I hide my agenda and motives to my own self and just try to go back to rewarding habits which isn't really related to money at all. I don't think I really value money that much, but I would like to have plenty of it so I could have all this time to just mess around with doing fun activities with people. I'll even hang with people I hardly know.

I do feel that discomfort with some people and I believe that it's going to take some time for me to get used to it in some cases. However, I seem to be a pretty forgiving lad.

Trying To Be More Consistent

I guess it really comes down to the bottom line of consistency and controlling my feelings and cravings of wanting to just have fun and let time go loose. Time is money! Once the time is gone, it's not coming back.

I think the worn out feelings underneath probably just mean that I need to continue to persist and let myself aspire with the alotted time I decide to go with. I'm starting to just not really think about it as much anymore and to be able letting myself face better situations.

Going After Smarter Activities

I guess there's really no point now in spending time with some wasteful activities. There might not be anything wrong with it in some instances, but I'm finding out that I don't really have any time to afford in dealing with that mess now.

I think it's about time that I grew up and went after facing my own responsibilities and living in the most optimal manner that I could think of. With the Lord being a blessing to my life and also having made a likable and respectable friend by what just feels like chance, the options to chase after feel a lot more optimistic.

I should really be spending my time exhausting my optimal choices before going after having fun!

Planning Out Activity

It looks like I'm starting to hate my room being so messy! I just can't focus like that anymore. I need to have it cleaned and organized if I'm going to run a personal business of some sort. I think I can categorize my life into three separate piles and basically my personal overwhelms all the others, without a surprise there.

I have work in a category all by itself. My other one I'm listing is errands which are basically temporary activities that I like to put off the side, but once they are done, I don't have to worry about them anymore.

I have a running list of like 12 errands to do, compared to just one for my work category. My personal list, let's just not even go there.

Solution To Dealing With Idiots

I have a very Christian approach to all that madness when it comes to dealing with crazy people who you are just constantly reminded of. It's to pretty much pray everything about it to God and ask for a solution. If the person thinks it's too silly to pray about or something that God wouldn't even be mindful about, then the person is already wasting his or her time thinking about it. The person is just practically being retarded about letting it go!

On top praying for people you supposedly hate, you can't really ask for vengeance upon them or something bad to happen to them while praying about that to God. You need to just have patience and be loving towards them in your thoughts while praying about it. This is the spirit of Jesus that Christians should call upon before making their requests known. It's to have a forgiving attitude and to pray in an exceeding manner while being joyful and thankful for that person who has been irritating you!

So yeah, the people at the small church with attendance that would be at an all-time low and much less than the average amount of friends on Facebook, the ones who have been talking to me in a frustrated manner and made the decision to block me on Facebook as well because of my messages that made fun of them while I was irritated, those people haven't prayed enough to Jesus! I'll be happy to remind that to them someday. I'm going to be a spiritual and physical leader then and it's just part of my natural ability- not even going to force it upon myself to get the magic going.

For the longest time, I felt being a shorty was going to be a hindrance but I guess it isn't if you still have the ability and brains to compete against other tall and handsome guys in the world. I'm saying that I might end up with a gorgeous and compatible Christian wife that guys might really hate me for and start making fun of me while trying to tempt her maybe. I've made some development in not letting my anger get to me and just being patient with a friend that I like, so I'm glad that I met her and we can seriously be good texting/meet up buddies at least.

Nothing Wrong With It

I don't think there's anything wrong with playing Magic: the Gathering and enjoying it with other people for socializing or to see whose deck ends up being better. It's sort of like measuring each other up like whose muscles are bigger or who can make the better 3-point shots in basketball.

I guess the problem is to just find balance with it all. I think when someday I do manage to get the pretty girlfriend and then wife every guy is going to hate me for, I'm not really going to be able to afford having all this personal time. What I believe that I need to train myself in is really making the necessities of life a bigger priority than personal entertainment.

With the personal entertainment, I think I'm making that overlap so much over what I ought to be doing or thinking. For fun, I do enjoy playing and building decks for Magic: the Gathering. I also enjoy watching professional sports games like European soccer and MLB. It's great to watch very good international players compete against each other and to even marvel in their reactions. I also have fun watching anime as well.

Overall, it's not really a bad thing to like those things. I also like surfing the web as well and can get really caught up with playing a fun video game too. I think that's really the keyword for me in that it's about me being caught up with everything fun that I'm doing.

Some of the healthy endeavors that I find myself getting lost in the moment from having fun also include singing and playing the piano and also working out. I really think becoming the leader of creating video games the best I can while developing an all-around knowledge will be a very healthy activity for me. I also have an interest in fitness science and general practitioner's method of medical health. On top of all of that, I would really like delve myself into cooking as well. It's awesome that I have a nice friend whose really busy with stuff telling me about her concerns. I don't care if she has me on her friend zone because that's where I put her at the moment and she's also taken already, so no need to start sweating about a possible future with her.

Things I Need To Work On

With my precious hours right after I finish working out, I really could be using that time to study the Bible. I still have a habit of letting my mouth run off to myself in a bad way. I'm trying to fix that by praying to Jesus this time around. I'm now praying for the people that I feel angered about occasionally from the past. It's been hard letting it go and it comes up every once in awhile just to annoy me while thinking about the what could have been's. Oh well, what's lost is gone and not coming back. It's better to just move on and set sights on something positive and what could be done in the present to make the best out of life for yourself.

Indulging In Too Much

Okay, so I guess I'm going to play catch up then with reading the Bible, working out, and probably programming on my computer to get those trades that I want going.

I have been playing so much Magic: the Gathering. It's been such a pleasure playing against other people. I don't really care about winning or losing so much anymore with it now. Maybe, I'm putting my ambitions on it a little too highly and so I need to let that go and focus on other personal priorities that I have mind in accomplishing.

Once again if I sacrifice this leisure along with putting in a decent amount of effort while staying positive then maybe I'll be running with some consistency. I think for the most part being patient and sticking to Bible principles really help, even if one wouldn't care to believe in God, I still think reading and understanding the Bible should be essential to living a nice and happy life.

Back To Trading Mode

Okay looks like it's for me to start trading now and seeing if I could make a decent living off of it. I'm ready to write another program to assist in my trading and that's pretty much what I'm endeavoring before I go ahead and trade.

On top of that, I'm just starting to read the Bible and understand things better because I'm reading up on some commentaries. I think I'll just pray for the Holy Spirit to guide me in that sense then and just labor in the ways of the Lord while being mindful that one day, I might end up with a smoking hot Christian and compatible wife!

Okay I need to do that along with working out so I'll go after that then. I think I'm seriously going to just bowl for fun along with working out at the gym and playing guitar and piano. I will also try singing and dancing to some tunes, while also trying to create some of my own. I also should get that going in trying to grow taller and keep my patch of hair.

That's pretty much the main stuff that's going through my head.