I guess what I'm learning is that I was pretty dumb in the past even though I thought I was smart. Maybe I'm actually just slow to learn and full of errors because I'm absent-minded and can feel a little jittery or uptight for no reason. I then have this innate desire to perform at the highest level and impress my peers by getting favors done in a swift manner. What ticked me off in the past was that I ended up feeling under-valued when a few of my peers who were acting in a supervising position sounded condescending with me.
Now I know what triggered my upsetting behavior with them but they still really had no reason to be irritated with me as well. It really doesn't make sense but I guess you won't know unless it happens to you.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
