Nowadays, a really fast processor (Intel i7), plenty of hard drive space (2 TB), 8 GB of memory, a decent graphics card, 23" touch screen, expansion slots, and a good brand (Dell) costs a person about a $1000. I purchased this computer from Costco online and am really having fun with the touch screen capability and also liking how the price compares with others by whooping the field. There are plenty of inferior quality computers that are being sold with the same price online. I'm glad it was useful enough for my eye to actually catch onto it.
Basically, in the world of computers and gaming, it's basically holding out until you feel like a reasonable product with an affordable price is something you could handle within your budget. That's the main principle, and I guess it doesn't hurt to compare with other products out there to ensure that you can be confident with your purchase. After all, it's a competition and all companies do want continually an endless supply of happy customers so what better way to compete among each other and make the world a better place while earning a living off of it.
It's pretty crazy because I used to feel so anxious and stressed out from having to look up on stuff I didn't know anything about. Now, I'm just comfortable about googling for answers and just not even caring about giving the source any credit. I'm just taking the useful information and applying it without really hesitating now.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Living Strongly
It's a little hard to follow through with this post because I'm a little fatigued from doing so much today. I basically ran hard and worked out at a gym which is nothing irregular. I had a pretty normal day and am enjoying listening to some of my co-workers' stories they have to share. I'm just not really feeling stigmatized to do any more actual caring now in a moral sense, even though I know it's wrong. I'm not judging because I understand the human aspect of where they are coming from now.
Yet, instead of feeling any more rage of jealousy or condemnation from being so uptight and surprised at what others reveal, I'm really okay with focusing on loving the people I'm around and providing a little support by just listening. I'm basically acting like another guy now and even though I haven't tried some crazy stuff, I understand my own personal limitations and boundaries. For being this really small guy, I am now exhibiting characteristics of a decent attitude and someone who can also grind things out while being taken granted for with what I do to earn a living.
Yet, instead of feeling any more rage of jealousy or condemnation from being so uptight and surprised at what others reveal, I'm really okay with focusing on loving the people I'm around and providing a little support by just listening. I'm basically acting like another guy now and even though I haven't tried some crazy stuff, I understand my own personal limitations and boundaries. For being this really small guy, I am now exhibiting characteristics of a decent attitude and someone who can also grind things out while being taken granted for with what I do to earn a living.
Getting Through Important Hurdles
I am realizing how valuable my personal time is and that by wasting my time lounging around and playing some computer games, it made me lose some ground on what I really have set out to accomplish. I think most video games are fun and all, but there's always that little perversion inside a couple people's heads that make it seem really bad. I guess it's just a heart issue with when it's appropriate to have fun- there's nothing wrong with it in general, but doing it responsibly is more important and to be careful while hopefully being well-guided and intending to stay in that path.
I'm basically saying that messing around with fun and entertaining video games just for the sake of killing time with friends and family isn't that bad when all the work required has been accomplished and how some down time has formed. With attributing how hard one should work, I think it really comes down to how much it satisfies the individual's heart. Doing less than one would like and expecting to succeed would reasonably be a foolish thought.
I'm basically saying that messing around with fun and entertaining video games just for the sake of killing time with friends and family isn't that bad when all the work required has been accomplished and how some down time has formed. With attributing how hard one should work, I think it really comes down to how much it satisfies the individual's heart. Doing less than one would like and expecting to succeed would reasonably be a foolish thought.
Timing Things Properly
It's not so hard for me any more to exercise some form of self-discipline. Initially, I feel like rebelling against my good self but that inner soft voice that ministers to me always seems to come through for me.
Ummm, it's one of those nights where I'm just writing anything and really quick so that I can put something down. I've been hoping to master the art of micro-managing myself now. I'm no longer so angry about a couple crazy incidents that happened to me, and I guess it was for the better because I now see the bigger picture and have regained my composure over it.
Still, I'm lacking a little depth perception meaning that I space out a few important elements that would make me flawless; I notice those mistakes and am not really so angry at myself anymore when they do happen. I just accept that I will have to try harder to concentrate next time.
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
It Takes Work
For a guy like myself, I have realized that a woman's appearance to me means almost nothing. I appreciate beauty from inward and value how well the lady takes care of herself. If she is fit or well-toned, then obviously she might be above -average in physical attractiveness. Yet, it seems like any woman with the right combination of makeup and hair composition could make herself look beautiful. Therefore, the whole package of a physically beautiful lady is something I don't really care to judge. One of my friends told me that a girl's appearance and personality counts as 50/50. I think it's a little shallow but I do understand what he was thinking.
It's a little hard to defeat the self-thought of how natural it is for a man to view the physicality and have lots of fun with it. I understand entirely and laugh along in enjoyment with some of the guys' stories too. Yet, it's really about the ability to make a commitment and die to the self, along with endearing terms of stability that makes all the difference. The friend who cared about appearance equally as personality told me that he hasn't figured out the ladies yet. I have an idea of what's going on with his love life now.
It's a little hard to defeat the self-thought of how natural it is for a man to view the physicality and have lots of fun with it. I understand entirely and laugh along in enjoyment with some of the guys' stories too. Yet, it's really about the ability to make a commitment and die to the self, along with endearing terms of stability that makes all the difference. The friend who cared about appearance equally as personality told me that he hasn't figured out the ladies yet. I have an idea of what's going on with his love life now.
Becoming Very Comfortable Around Girls
For a guy of my small stature and ability to rouse concern in others still, I was actually really shy about asking out girls. When this situation occurred where my buddy's sister was getting married, (that reminds me, I need to mail the card for accepting her invitation) I started sending out practice messages of asking out the girls I didn't really care would reject me. Basically, it was to make them feel a little weird inside because it seems like I feel what a girl would be feeling so that was like my intuition for doing so, and I had fun.
After writing out those messages, I just copied and pasted my favorite lines to ask out the girls. I then went down the list and lo and behold, on my third try, I received an acceptance while the other two reached back to me politely decline the invitation. Now, I seriously have the feeling that those messages I sent to the girls who never got back to me, have had a positive effect for my situation. The positive effect is basically making them feel like a bunch of weird and crazy ladies.
Just flat out, I seriously don't care if any woman rejects my advances now because I can just move on while feeling a little sorrow. I don't care about feeling the sorrow because I believe that eventually I will figure it out and the right person is someone I will be able to form a good relationship with me. Obviously, the ones who are attracted to me and accept my offerings would be the best for me to work with.
After writing out those messages, I just copied and pasted my favorite lines to ask out the girls. I then went down the list and lo and behold, on my third try, I received an acceptance while the other two reached back to me politely decline the invitation. Now, I seriously have the feeling that those messages I sent to the girls who never got back to me, have had a positive effect for my situation. The positive effect is basically making them feel like a bunch of weird and crazy ladies.
Just flat out, I seriously don't care if any woman rejects my advances now because I can just move on while feeling a little sorrow. I don't care about feeling the sorrow because I believe that eventually I will figure it out and the right person is someone I will be able to form a good relationship with me. Obviously, the ones who are attracted to me and accept my offerings would be the best for me to work with.
Becoming More Organized In Perfect Manner
I'm starting to look at my priorities at a more detailed fashion these days. It seems like it's pretty much doing something I would like to call action and review. From my actions and conduct, I basically do some self-reflecting on the spot and take mental notes and then put it all together from what I did in the past. Because I'm so used to my daily routine and applying this new strategy as a whole all of a sudden, it's like really natural for me in what I need to do to make the situation more ideally perfect. I'm sure that because there aren't too many variables to jumble around in this personal game of mine, I would be able to achieve near perfection eventually by like possibly the next couple encounters.
I used to feel this heavy burden of repressed guilt that felt actually really good. Yet, I was a hard time reading the situation and controlling my nerves. Some friends have told me to calm down and that I look so nervous. It's because I am having trouble assessing some situations from missing key information and then making a polite fit with the use of my body language. Calming my nerves to the point of actually feeling satisfied with having that warm and fuzzy feeling from having a really clear mind just happened all of a sudden for me.
I am realizing that small improvements in one's life do add up and increase confidence, mobility, and abilities. The key thing to get to do all these things has to start with committing to dying to the self. I believe there is a source that can feed you all the inspiration you need, along with finding the right kind of love to conduct oneself.
I used to feel this heavy burden of repressed guilt that felt actually really good. Yet, I was a hard time reading the situation and controlling my nerves. Some friends have told me to calm down and that I look so nervous. It's because I am having trouble assessing some situations from missing key information and then making a polite fit with the use of my body language. Calming my nerves to the point of actually feeling satisfied with having that warm and fuzzy feeling from having a really clear mind just happened all of a sudden for me.
I am realizing that small improvements in one's life do add up and increase confidence, mobility, and abilities. The key thing to get to do all these things has to start with committing to dying to the self. I believe there is a source that can feed you all the inspiration you need, along with finding the right kind of love to conduct oneself.
Power of Self-preservation
The title is just something cool I felt and wanted to put down. I'm sure that a lot of people value their own personal lives and do want to come up on top and be satisfied with themselves. It's just a natural human phenomenon. The way things have been turning out has been rather interesting because I am able to relate to most of my buddies' shared experiences, feelings, and thoughts. I don't mind listening to fun stories from the past some of them want to share, which is actually fun to listen to these days.
I have also told quite a bit about mine too and made people laugh. I have even laughed at my own comments too. I've been told by a former pseudo-enemy that I can be funny like heck sometimes. Others have told me that I am so weird and hence, there goes the ignoring my pleas to add me as a friend on Facebook.
I'm actually not so weird anymore and am actually pretty aware of what's going and able to man up now. It's only getting better for me on a daily basis.
I have also told quite a bit about mine too and made people laugh. I have even laughed at my own comments too. I've been told by a former pseudo-enemy that I can be funny like heck sometimes. Others have told me that I am so weird and hence, there goes the ignoring my pleas to add me as a friend on Facebook.
I'm actually not so weird anymore and am actually pretty aware of what's going and able to man up now. It's only getting better for me on a daily basis.
Starting To Stay Put
It seems like with all the seemingly mindful digressions I've been making with my own writing, none could really stand out any more than what appeals to the majority. I'm basically talking about the ones who genuinely care about my writing. I guess it's one of those quiet implications that are easy to catch on to or sometimes misinterpret.
All this time, I'm just illustrating that I'm really cool about almost anything that's happening now because I realize that my own emotion of feeling angry is actually the easiest to deal with and that's what I felt most of the time dealing with those weird and funny people. They are a bunch of knuckleheads but what can one do about it? The relaxation part really comes through exercising a selfless commitment of dying to the self which means not letting personal feelings or thoughts control your life's decisions.
All this time, I'm just illustrating that I'm really cool about almost anything that's happening now because I realize that my own emotion of feeling angry is actually the easiest to deal with and that's what I felt most of the time dealing with those weird and funny people. They are a bunch of knuckleheads but what can one do about it? The relaxation part really comes through exercising a selfless commitment of dying to the self which means not letting personal feelings or thoughts control your life's decisions.
Monday, July 29, 2013
Plugging Into A Routine
It's actually a lot of fun to be mindful about fun and exciting things to try out. I guess from all the weird issues with others I have faced, it's not really quite that bad as I had initially worried. My confidence level has just been sky-rocketing from the past year. It's just amazing how the heart of a man or woman could transform into better or worse so dramatically over a short period.
Looks like throughout my work days, I'm looking to complete mainly three different tasks. One of them is to work out and learn a foreign language really well.
Looks like throughout my work days, I'm looking to complete mainly three different tasks. One of them is to work out and learn a foreign language really well.
Monday, July 22, 2013
Absolute Personal Path
It looks like I'm pretty much into my personal time and also because I'm not so disappointed about how things turn out anymore, I'm not even afraid of being rejected by countless beautiful women. I don't really have time to go approach and ask them out because I think it's a little rude to go up to them in public and say something. All I would really have to base it on with first impressions is their looks, and I don't really like that in principle. I would prefer someone that I can get to know as a friend and then start dating them to understand their true personality and then make a decision from there. Also, I don't really like unhealthy women to date for some reason; I don't really fancy it that much.
Overall, just a good spirit and someone whose willing to try hard is good enough for me. Honestly, I'm slightly biased towards my own upbringing and culture but I'm always open to hang out to try new enlightenment. More and more, I have a personal direction that I can feel with how I want to live my life and that's where I'm getting geared more towards now.
One of the bigger problems that I want to solve right now is finding financial freedom in the fastest amount of time while being the most comfortable at obtaining it. I have something right now to build off of, and I am so glad that I have read enough free information out there to have a great idea of what to look for. It's pretty much putting in the effort and time, but I realize that my knowledge could become really sought after if I do become successful, and I wouldn't really want to share it with just some stranger. I realize that I'm now committed to this endeavor and won't be disappointed no matter how long it takes for me to find the gold that I'm looking for. I think I'm feeling really confident with what I have to work with now.
Overall, just a good spirit and someone whose willing to try hard is good enough for me. Honestly, I'm slightly biased towards my own upbringing and culture but I'm always open to hang out to try new enlightenment. More and more, I have a personal direction that I can feel with how I want to live my life and that's where I'm getting geared more towards now.
One of the bigger problems that I want to solve right now is finding financial freedom in the fastest amount of time while being the most comfortable at obtaining it. I have something right now to build off of, and I am so glad that I have read enough free information out there to have a great idea of what to look for. It's pretty much putting in the effort and time, but I realize that my knowledge could become really sought after if I do become successful, and I wouldn't really want to share it with just some stranger. I realize that I'm now committed to this endeavor and won't be disappointed no matter how long it takes for me to find the gold that I'm looking for. I think I'm feeling really confident with what I have to work with now.
Becoming So Busy
It seems like everyday that time is running out for me and that there are so many more things I would like to accomplish. I think it's because I value my personal time so much and have adopted a lot of activities that I enjoy doing on a daily basis. One of the hard and enjoyable things that I think a lot of adults don't really do is working out!
The satisfaction that comes from sweating and being diligent at burning those calories from running a couple miles everyday is just so beneficial. If the intentions are done for the right purpose, it seriously helps with creating a more self-appeasing personal image. It's now got to the point where I don't even judge a person's outer appearance anymore and use that to go out with the girl I'm into. I'm realizing that some of my friends have a difficult time talking to the ladies, and it's really frustrating to me with thinking about how they're feeling. I guess it's because this one friend might be a little too selfish and uptight about things and can't break out of that bubble; also, he's rationalized that his personality loses interest fast meaning that he's not really someone who likes to stick around with toughing out the bad times. Anyway, I think there's something good in it with how he verbally communicates his imperfections and tries to make some good out of his unfortunate predicament. He has changed his personal nickname with me from an evil tyrant to someone whose actually pretty successful at attracting the attention of other women. Hey, I can dig that!
The satisfaction that comes from sweating and being diligent at burning those calories from running a couple miles everyday is just so beneficial. If the intentions are done for the right purpose, it seriously helps with creating a more self-appeasing personal image. It's now got to the point where I don't even judge a person's outer appearance anymore and use that to go out with the girl I'm into. I'm realizing that some of my friends have a difficult time talking to the ladies, and it's really frustrating to me with thinking about how they're feeling. I guess it's because this one friend might be a little too selfish and uptight about things and can't break out of that bubble; also, he's rationalized that his personality loses interest fast meaning that he's not really someone who likes to stick around with toughing out the bad times. Anyway, I think there's something good in it with how he verbally communicates his imperfections and tries to make some good out of his unfortunate predicament. He has changed his personal nickname with me from an evil tyrant to someone whose actually pretty successful at attracting the attention of other women. Hey, I can dig that!
Some Things Are Not Worth It
I'm now applying a little bit of personal costs with some things that I do now. It's like some things might look good at the surface but by meditating on it, it seems like it wouldn't do me that much great service. Therefore, I must cut off ties with some approaches and go after something that fits my best interests. From having built a little bit of self-deprecating humor, I don't seem to mind all the loquacious, negative interjections targeted at me these days. It is especially from some women who are pretty direct like this one friend who seems to be very scornful and moody at times while not being able to keep up with attracting a useful mate.
I've applied a new approach at looking at things, which is pretty much just being plain honest about the wrongs you see with a person whether you like the person or not. My statements are just stated in a pretty bold and direct fashion and from being a guy, it isn't even stated to be intentionally rude with someone so it seems to factor in with my reputation of being a pretty sociable and open guy.
I am now making bigger life choices than I could have ever imagined. I'm no longer this nerdy, computer game addicted, and girl-obsessed college student. I have much bigger plans to think about now, and my appearance is showing the honest approach and confidence. I'm so glad I managed to understand my personal feelings and how to manage it a lot better.
I've applied a new approach at looking at things, which is pretty much just being plain honest about the wrongs you see with a person whether you like the person or not. My statements are just stated in a pretty bold and direct fashion and from being a guy, it isn't even stated to be intentionally rude with someone so it seems to factor in with my reputation of being a pretty sociable and open guy.
I am now making bigger life choices than I could have ever imagined. I'm no longer this nerdy, computer game addicted, and girl-obsessed college student. I have much bigger plans to think about now, and my appearance is showing the honest approach and confidence. I'm so glad I managed to understand my personal feelings and how to manage it a lot better.
Friday, July 19, 2013
Key Factors To Success
You just need proper motivation, a good library, competent knowledge, and commitment to succeed at anything tangible in this physical world. I pretty much broke it down in one general sentence, which comes from my own life experience.
Wanting is the easy part in life because without it there's really no reason to exist in this world and also probably a reason why some people will never be fully satisfied in life. Selfish desire is a contributing factor to all the negativity in this world because let's face the reality, the majority lack something they desire so greatly. Even through all the bumps and bruises along the way with life's path, staying on the positive end and being so motivated becomes a really healthy asset.
It takes quite a bit of time and effort and so commitment would go in hand with establishing a good library which is like a river flowing with knowledge. Basically, it means that a person doesn't really have to download every single detail but can just make a mental bookmark and come back to the book later to seek the information when it becomes critically useful.
Knowledge is so important to have and with the background of taking classes and striving to complete assignments in class, it develops some working experience to help guide the individual with a confident approach on something that needs to be completed. Lastly, commitment is pretty much the will to succeed and would also go in hand with proper motivation. It's pretty much seeing it through all the way with great effort being made!
Wanting is the easy part in life because without it there's really no reason to exist in this world and also probably a reason why some people will never be fully satisfied in life. Selfish desire is a contributing factor to all the negativity in this world because let's face the reality, the majority lack something they desire so greatly. Even through all the bumps and bruises along the way with life's path, staying on the positive end and being so motivated becomes a really healthy asset.
It takes quite a bit of time and effort and so commitment would go in hand with establishing a good library which is like a river flowing with knowledge. Basically, it means that a person doesn't really have to download every single detail but can just make a mental bookmark and come back to the book later to seek the information when it becomes critically useful.
Knowledge is so important to have and with the background of taking classes and striving to complete assignments in class, it develops some working experience to help guide the individual with a confident approach on something that needs to be completed. Lastly, commitment is pretty much the will to succeed and would also go in hand with proper motivation. It's pretty much seeing it through all the way with great effort being made!
Monday, July 15, 2013
Making Time With Short Notice
A few personal things happen to me, so now I'm going to exercise my goals as best as possible now. Even if I can manage about ten minutes doing some goal, I might as well just make an effort at it now while taking care of the short term daily hassles that go through my current life.
I'm starting to see how much I value my personal time and what it's going to take for me to introduce another life into the world. Along with having to make commitment to the lovely spouse, I see the personal sacrifices that I will need to make to reach a lovely compromise with another lovable human being.
I basically worked out for only about 10 minutes and my time today was based on figuring out my road to take in the side career of making financial investments. I'm pretty much through with buying endless libraries of how to go about with investing. I'm basically ready to implement something that deals with using money to earn money. Buying information becomes useless if one can't use the information, so after all, there might be no real value in it but personal experiences that come from having made the struggles. Obviously, there are some pointers that need to be touched up on, so it's all based on personal preference I guess. I'm just glad I didn't become one of those pack rats who bought endless products and never got to working them because I didn't have the confidence to put it into action. It's pretty bad to be that type of individual and something wrong is happening in the head when that is happening. I'm glad I notice it now and am not really hurt from discerning these types of mistakes I was largely susceptible to.
I'm starting to see how much I value my personal time and what it's going to take for me to introduce another life into the world. Along with having to make commitment to the lovely spouse, I see the personal sacrifices that I will need to make to reach a lovely compromise with another lovable human being.
I basically worked out for only about 10 minutes and my time today was based on figuring out my road to take in the side career of making financial investments. I'm pretty much through with buying endless libraries of how to go about with investing. I'm basically ready to implement something that deals with using money to earn money. Buying information becomes useless if one can't use the information, so after all, there might be no real value in it but personal experiences that come from having made the struggles. Obviously, there are some pointers that need to be touched up on, so it's all based on personal preference I guess. I'm just glad I didn't become one of those pack rats who bought endless products and never got to working them because I didn't have the confidence to put it into action. It's pretty bad to be that type of individual and something wrong is happening in the head when that is happening. I'm glad I notice it now and am not really hurt from discerning these types of mistakes I was largely susceptible to.
Weird Dreams
While I was dreaming, I had this weird build up of emotions of wanting to pursue romantically after this one girl who is really weird but cute in looks. It's like I would seriously be committed to romancing her to enjoy lots of pleasure with her if one knows what I mean. I can't go too deep into details because of my tendency to want to stay with the general audience.
We have a pretty sour relationship right now, and boy she's actually a lot worse than I am. Everybody else has been laughing at my intended involvement with her, but I can discern how crazy she might be. I guess because of that craziness and my willingness to be more bolder makes me want to go after a daring route with her. Sticking to my morals, it wouldn't really be anything long term from how I've been brought up. It would be fun in the moment though, but from having thought over some things, I think it's possible for me to end up with a fun, beautiful, and loving wife at the same time too. I might as well exercise dying to myself over these short-term feelings which wouldn't do me much good for the greater prize that lies ahead.
We have a pretty sour relationship right now, and boy she's actually a lot worse than I am. Everybody else has been laughing at my intended involvement with her, but I can discern how crazy she might be. I guess because of that craziness and my willingness to be more bolder makes me want to go after a daring route with her. Sticking to my morals, it wouldn't really be anything long term from how I've been brought up. It would be fun in the moment though, but from having thought over some things, I think it's possible for me to end up with a fun, beautiful, and loving wife at the same time too. I might as well exercise dying to myself over these short-term feelings which wouldn't do me much good for the greater prize that lies ahead.
Time To Work Out And Have Fun
I'm starting to not mind sweating so much while working out now, and it actually feels pretty good for me to work at a more healthier and muscular body! I'm not even doing it to try to attract any pretty women anymore. I see that it's really a long term commitment, and I'm totally open and relaxed about it.
Over all the stresses that I have dealt with, I never really openly lost my cool so much that I would even want to attempt to break the law or anything. It's just not my style to contemplate those kinds of things for long periods of time. One of my friend's ignoble and dull brother believes that life is about giving into the evils and darkness of order in order to achieve success. He keeps talking about doing evil things to attain personal satisfaction, but that's all it is, talk because he doesn't even know the proper steps for doing anything because of his slow mind. It gets pretty annoying for his family members at times but I have felt their adamant disapproval because I'm a family friend.
Basically with all this talk that could get me feeling pretty mad is something I'm learning to deal with now. I'm learning that a lot of things don't really matter in life now and that it's really about dying to the self or making these selfless sacrifices for the greater good and actually being to able to handle it. Ultimately, the decision lies with the person but I've noticed that some people who act pretty weird with me have been afraid of me influencing them in a direction they don't want to go. I'm just that good at figuring out what's going on in their heads after some period of time passes.
Over all the stresses that I have dealt with, I never really openly lost my cool so much that I would even want to attempt to break the law or anything. It's just not my style to contemplate those kinds of things for long periods of time. One of my friend's ignoble and dull brother believes that life is about giving into the evils and darkness of order in order to achieve success. He keeps talking about doing evil things to attain personal satisfaction, but that's all it is, talk because he doesn't even know the proper steps for doing anything because of his slow mind. It gets pretty annoying for his family members at times but I have felt their adamant disapproval because I'm a family friend.
Basically with all this talk that could get me feeling pretty mad is something I'm learning to deal with now. I'm learning that a lot of things don't really matter in life now and that it's really about dying to the self or making these selfless sacrifices for the greater good and actually being to able to handle it. Ultimately, the decision lies with the person but I've noticed that some people who act pretty weird with me have been afraid of me influencing them in a direction they don't want to go. I'm just that good at figuring out what's going on in their heads after some period of time passes.
Making Affordable Risks
With the spending money I have, I think I have a clear idea of where I would like to risk my money into now for investing. I see myself risking possibly about $500 per month for investment ventures. I've been in it long enough to be comfortable losing that amount if it does happen, but to also have fun reaping any rewards that comes my way now.
For some reason, I'm really protective about the way I'm conducting myself now and enjoying myself really. I guess I could just have fun with it now and not really worry about the money so much. I'm just having this confident attitude in myself with managing my financial risk now. It's like I'm in personal control with how I much to deal with my own money now.
Originally, I was looking to risk about the same amount for poker but now I believe that my personality isn't really suited for playing cards at a professional level. The best way I'm making money is by running when I profit about 20% growth in my buy-in. This is how I'm running- basically, if I make any amount of profit once I lose that amount then I am looking to run after increasing by the desired amount again. Comparing with other investment choices and thinking logically, it would be better to risk capital for greater profit while setting it more-or-less on auto-pilot which would give me freedom to focus my interests on other things such as family and friends. This option is something I've been trying to work with for the last couple years and now after having made some costly mistakes, I'm ready to actually test the waters with it!
Since I never blew out my initial account and won't ever be tempted to risk so much for one trade, I think I'm confident enough to become a financial risk manager on the side and to hopefully earn a decent income off of it. I'm subscribed to so many sellers who say their system is the next best thing, but I know what I'm looking for. Mainly, something that's being given away for free and works effectively. Obviously, I have to put a little money into it if they manage to gain my trust, but I don't mind losing a couple thousand dollars over trying to launch a side career that I see has personal benefits for myself.
Friday, July 12, 2013
Googling My Way To Hope
It's pretty crazy how being at the computer and browsing through info feels so seamless and effortless to me now. I think it's from having plenty of experience and knowing what I'm literally looking for. Basically, I'm just going after what my motivation lies at first and simplemost and not being letdown if it doesn't come to me right away.
It even works out for me in the area of relationships. I don't mind if a girl I like or even if I end up disliking her attitude later decides to reject me for any purpose. I'll just move on to another girl who I actually like and will accept me for who I am. It's pretty simple but very hard to achieve because of these personal feelings of expectation not being met. It's from having lost a lot of heart and discerning how life just isn't going so well in a sense.
Getting out of that state of emotional depression took quite a bit of effort, but now I'm just feeling really healthy underneath and like a flying bird! First off, it took smaller building steps to get to me to the goal I was looking to achieve and to have a better understanding. For instance, I had to learn that some things others do to me don't really matter in the long term. This set me up to mess around with those people and have some fun with them while doing something to them that would make me laugh and at the same time, I would share with them that it didn't matter.
Lastly, after awhile I have finally learned the bigger picture and it's pretty much personal sacrifice being made into a commitment. It's really powerful to be selfless and even feels really good when it's let out during approriate times. In other words, I've been learning to die to myself to accept the daily situations of feeling angry, and it's worked out pretty well for me and I'm just glad as a result while noticing that the things that have been bothering me don't really matter anymore.
It even works out for me in the area of relationships. I don't mind if a girl I like or even if I end up disliking her attitude later decides to reject me for any purpose. I'll just move on to another girl who I actually like and will accept me for who I am. It's pretty simple but very hard to achieve because of these personal feelings of expectation not being met. It's from having lost a lot of heart and discerning how life just isn't going so well in a sense.
Getting out of that state of emotional depression took quite a bit of effort, but now I'm just feeling really healthy underneath and like a flying bird! First off, it took smaller building steps to get to me to the goal I was looking to achieve and to have a better understanding. For instance, I had to learn that some things others do to me don't really matter in the long term. This set me up to mess around with those people and have some fun with them while doing something to them that would make me laugh and at the same time, I would share with them that it didn't matter.
Lastly, after awhile I have finally learned the bigger picture and it's pretty much personal sacrifice being made into a commitment. It's really powerful to be selfless and even feels really good when it's let out during approriate times. In other words, I've been learning to die to myself to accept the daily situations of feeling angry, and it's worked out pretty well for me and I'm just glad as a result while noticing that the things that have been bothering me don't really matter anymore.
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Personal Preference In Card Games
For all the time I have spent playing online poker, it now looks like the most, boring and least compelling game of fixed limit hold-em is actually becoming my best style of earning money! It's pretty weird because I've been always trying to beat the odds in NL and despite me being dealt the best cards, I've been still getting hammered by other gamblers.
By playing fixed limit, it's basically limiting my loss in case other players to do get lucky against me or give me a better fighting chance to catch up on a hand. Everybody else might find fixed limit to be boring and slow but it's given me a chance at making the most reliable form of return. I'm realizing that poker is a game of marginal returns; it isn't something that will provide a huge return on the long run because of all the time or money that must be put into it. I see the pay off might be realistically like 20% growth of buy-in amount per hour. Therefore, poker is only going to be something I do to just have fun occasionally but for serious purposes I would rather focus on burning my money for a trading career and other educational endeavors that will reward me with stipends.
By playing fixed limit, it's basically limiting my loss in case other players to do get lucky against me or give me a better fighting chance to catch up on a hand. Everybody else might find fixed limit to be boring and slow but it's given me a chance at making the most reliable form of return. I'm realizing that poker is a game of marginal returns; it isn't something that will provide a huge return on the long run because of all the time or money that must be put into it. I see the pay off might be realistically like 20% growth of buy-in amount per hour. Therefore, poker is only going to be something I do to just have fun occasionally but for serious purposes I would rather focus on burning my money for a trading career and other educational endeavors that will reward me with stipends.
Exercising Well
Currently, I'm doing about three sets up of 25 quick push-ups separated about a minute apart and then breaking out with a set of 80 sit-ups. I then repeat those exercises again. Afterwards, I go for about a 2.5 mile run. I'm now adding in maxing out my pull-ups from having actually acquired a bar. The next day, I'm giving my abs and biceps a rest by just doing the run and pull-up exercises. I plan on keeping up with this exercise program until I can perform a set of 75 push-ups three times under a minute each and do 150 sit-ups. I'm managing to increase a repetition of push-ups once every two sessions and five reps for sit-ups at the same time.
Once I have that goal down, I plan on focusing on muscle building through the all-body work out programs like P90X and Insanity. It should be pretty cool to be engaged in those things. Also, for being a pretty good looking short fellow, I'm going to attempt to make myself taller by burning possibly less than a thousand each year on healthy nutrition, supplements, and research books to see if I can grow bone tissue well into my later 30s! I don't care what anyone thinks, I'm just crazy about trying because I am willing to spend the money with my hard earned cash!
Once I have that goal down, I plan on focusing on muscle building through the all-body work out programs like P90X and Insanity. It should be pretty cool to be engaged in those things. Also, for being a pretty good looking short fellow, I'm going to attempt to make myself taller by burning possibly less than a thousand each year on healthy nutrition, supplements, and research books to see if I can grow bone tissue well into my later 30s! I don't care what anyone thinks, I'm just crazy about trying because I am willing to spend the money with my hard earned cash!
Finding Suitable Grounds of Living
It looks like I'm actually starting to live the way I want to now and actually feeling quite good about it. A lot of it comes from not being too worried about things and decisively going after what I really want in life. It really comes down to perceiving things accurately and sometimes making difficult personal sacrifices, but in the end I think it can amount to something good no matter how big or small. It's how things should really be after all.
It takes a lot of experience building for myself and also making great effort to go with common sense. After all, the personal excitement can come from finding a niche that others don't really find in life. One of my closest buddies bugs me a little by gambling at casino games where the odds are slightly stacked against him but so far he's been having a good winning streak and is having a lot of fun from winning. Once he starts losing, he's a pretty sore loser so I guess it's good then that he knows when to stop once the massive bad luck starts kicking in.
Anyhow, I'm starting to look for a way to make a decent return in living and am going after trading my money. I'm pretty much looking for free information and something that could kick start my trading career. Basically, I don't mind losing a couple thousand dollars over it because I have a full time job that pays decent enough to cover my personal expenses. I guess it's worth the excitement to try the thrills of a good trading career. I've been at it for quite some time and have memorized a decorum of how winning traders behave. It's basically a long term thing and I can accept that because the skill is worth gaining for myself and once I have it, it's going to be all for myself. I plan on also giving back to society for the skills I learn because it just feels good to help out the needy for myself. I'm going to hook up some buddies of mine but the valuable skill I learn to master will be mine to keep for life, which is well worth the couple thousand dollars of loss, much like the price of a decent education.
It takes a lot of experience building for myself and also making great effort to go with common sense. After all, the personal excitement can come from finding a niche that others don't really find in life. One of my closest buddies bugs me a little by gambling at casino games where the odds are slightly stacked against him but so far he's been having a good winning streak and is having a lot of fun from winning. Once he starts losing, he's a pretty sore loser so I guess it's good then that he knows when to stop once the massive bad luck starts kicking in.
Anyhow, I'm starting to look for a way to make a decent return in living and am going after trading my money. I'm pretty much looking for free information and something that could kick start my trading career. Basically, I don't mind losing a couple thousand dollars over it because I have a full time job that pays decent enough to cover my personal expenses. I guess it's worth the excitement to try the thrills of a good trading career. I've been at it for quite some time and have memorized a decorum of how winning traders behave. It's basically a long term thing and I can accept that because the skill is worth gaining for myself and once I have it, it's going to be all for myself. I plan on also giving back to society for the skills I learn because it just feels good to help out the needy for myself. I'm going to hook up some buddies of mine but the valuable skill I learn to master will be mine to keep for life, which is well worth the couple thousand dollars of loss, much like the price of a decent education.
Monday, July 8, 2013
Moving On So Easily
It's not so hard for me to move on over some past issues I had trouble dealing with now. It's from realizing that they are not so serious and doesn't really matter a whole lot. Sweet! I guess the only reason for going back there to the Lion's Den is just to mess with people now, so yeah, I can expect them to get their shotgun shells nice and polished to aim straight at me.
I pretty much am satisfied emotionally and physically to the point that I can move on now from being aware of the situation that got out of hand. For the permanent record, it really doesn't matter and is not such a big deal.
I pretty much am satisfied emotionally and physically to the point that I can move on now from being aware of the situation that got out of hand. For the permanent record, it really doesn't matter and is not such a big deal.
Butterflies In Stomach
I used to feel down like when I ask a really important question to myself and then the other person never gets back to me. Sometimes, I was a little too heavily invested on the emotional end and it bothered some people very heavily. With learning to take in their abuse, I've always been pretty good about not turning sour over any relationship.
I guess in some instances you just have to move on and try harder the next time. Honestly, I think it's just going with your gut feelings of what you really want to do and then just adjusting to any situation that works against you to constantly stay on the positive end. Overall, I don't think I really have to worry about too many things anymore from having finally received a perception with people that I'm actually happy with. It's based on acceptance and honesty to the fullest scale and it makes me feel like I'm living a free life with really no burdens on my shoulder anymore.
Also, I'm still getting some butterflies in my stomach when I try to do some crazy feats that I'm sure is unique and something others would never think of trying. I guess I'm not that type of special individual to do those types of things and actually get away with it while others around get to observe the live installments I instigate to ultimately attempt something comical. Yeah, I like to have a great laugh about things to release my own personal stress without physically endangering anyone's life.
I guess in some instances you just have to move on and try harder the next time. Honestly, I think it's just going with your gut feelings of what you really want to do and then just adjusting to any situation that works against you to constantly stay on the positive end. Overall, I don't think I really have to worry about too many things anymore from having finally received a perception with people that I'm actually happy with. It's based on acceptance and honesty to the fullest scale and it makes me feel like I'm living a free life with really no burdens on my shoulder anymore.
Also, I'm still getting some butterflies in my stomach when I try to do some crazy feats that I'm sure is unique and something others would never think of trying. I guess I'm not that type of special individual to do those types of things and actually get away with it while others around get to observe the live installments I instigate to ultimately attempt something comical. Yeah, I like to have a great laugh about things to release my own personal stress without physically endangering anyone's life.
Not Being So Bothered
My anger is pretty much embedded into a personal belief system of doing what's right and strongly persuading others through the raising of my voice to do something positive for themselves. It's pretty much an area of playing with fire, and in the instance of letting my fire fully burn against another weaker competitor like my little sister, she doesn't stand a chance.
I could take on a nice ideology through being angry but it feels like I'm cheating using this method because I would have to absorb a lot of personal pains in my life and also live in an up-and-down roller coaster while not fully developing in some areas that I have preference over. I recall that I tried the witty approach where I would just say something pretty witty and funny to overthrow a lady's roughness. Even if the lady or man decides to become crazy and I have to dodge some of those things he or she brings up against me and even if it becomes a little painful because I wasn't prepared to absorb that type of personal shock, overall, it's actually pretty funny on their end and nothing I should really be so worried about anymore. I shouldn't be dwelling in anger which is the wrong way of associating with this type of thought.
I could take on a nice ideology through being angry but it feels like I'm cheating using this method because I would have to absorb a lot of personal pains in my life and also live in an up-and-down roller coaster while not fully developing in some areas that I have preference over. I recall that I tried the witty approach where I would just say something pretty witty and funny to overthrow a lady's roughness. Even if the lady or man decides to become crazy and I have to dodge some of those things he or she brings up against me and even if it becomes a little painful because I wasn't prepared to absorb that type of personal shock, overall, it's actually pretty funny on their end and nothing I should really be so worried about anymore. I shouldn't be dwelling in anger which is the wrong way of associating with this type of thought.
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Income and Free Time
Being at an age of finally understanding my peacefully, slightly crazy little sister, I think I feel pretty mellowed out. I'm just taking this approach of being fully blunt about what I'm visually seeing in my head and not holding anything back. It's a good thing, my mind is trained to not say bad words out loud when I'm leaving messages on people's voice mail. I would really have a hard time forgiving myself if I used those traditional bad words found in the English language that billionaires occasionally use. The reason for this is because I said bad words to my friends when I was little, and it didn't make me feel proud or anything so I stopped for good.
I pretty much have to accept that most of my friends use bad words! I'm not the one saying those things, but yeah, I understand their expression. Oh well, I'm not fretting about it. Just typing away, I can't help but guffaw at my own writing a little silently. These stuff are just coming out of my head, and it's just how it rolls. I've been given props by a female friend that I write really well, which is nice. I guess when I've had this blog around for quite awhile, then it's really have a place for someone to read it in this whole wide world at a certain moment in time. I am honored that someone will have read at least one of my posts. I guess the main reason is that it might come across pretty funny.
I pretty much have to accept that most of my friends use bad words! I'm not the one saying those things, but yeah, I understand their expression. Oh well, I'm not fretting about it. Just typing away, I can't help but guffaw at my own writing a little silently. These stuff are just coming out of my head, and it's just how it rolls. I've been given props by a female friend that I write really well, which is nice. I guess when I've had this blog around for quite awhile, then it's really have a place for someone to read it in this whole wide world at a certain moment in time. I am honored that someone will have read at least one of my posts. I guess the main reason is that it might come across pretty funny.
Exercising Discipline
I think things are getting a little more interesting for me these days. Despite me feeling numb about feelings of rejection from people and being laughed at by friends for anything I did wrong, I still want to be a man of principle. I don't know how it got to this point of me really being able to handle my own personal emotions and actually become bored or accustomed to them.
Contrary to an angry church congregation and really ticked-off only little sister telling me that I needed to get some help, it's starting to not really matter what the issue was really about. It's a bunch of bulllocks with what I had to go through emotionally, and I guess the fires of the trial put me in a better situation by just making me feel good most of the time.
I think it's actually a lot easier for me to move on now and go after a compatible and loving relationship. I'm holding no grudges because after all, it doesn't really matter with the situation that transpired. Interesting enough, I'm actually laughing at most of the material I've written because even though I don't mean to be funny, I think I can be to a good amount of friends at certain moments.
Contrary to an angry church congregation and really ticked-off only little sister telling me that I needed to get some help, it's starting to not really matter what the issue was really about. It's a bunch of bulllocks with what I had to go through emotionally, and I guess the fires of the trial put me in a better situation by just making me feel good most of the time.
I think it's actually a lot easier for me to move on now and go after a compatible and loving relationship. I'm holding no grudges because after all, it doesn't really matter with the situation that transpired. Interesting enough, I'm actually laughing at most of the material I've written because even though I don't mean to be funny, I think I can be to a good amount of friends at certain moments.
Friday, July 5, 2013
Might As Well Get Used To The Yelling
When I talk to some people who are just helpless individuals like my little sister, she'll just start screaming right away about nonsense and start bringing up stuff to try to make me feel bad about myself. It's starting to make me laugh out loud thinking about that. I wish to always muck the angry feelings that I feel underneath and just tell the full truth.
My buddy tells me that I'm starting to think like a white guy. I'm just going to go based on principle, living my full life, and live a decent life while being fully open it with those full people. I think it's time for me to read people right and prevent very bad situations happening and then work out of those situations. If my life gets cheated, then might as well accept the downfall. I do feel that I fit in the status quo of average people these days, and I seem to have this influence inside of me that draws away negative people and brings the positive ones closer to me. I don't think I'm in a bad position with what I worked so hard for in social situations.
My buddy tells me that I'm starting to think like a white guy. I'm just going to go based on principle, living my full life, and live a decent life while being fully open it with those full people. I think it's time for me to read people right and prevent very bad situations happening and then work out of those situations. If my life gets cheated, then might as well accept the downfall. I do feel that I fit in the status quo of average people these days, and I seem to have this influence inside of me that draws away negative people and brings the positive ones closer to me. I don't think I'm in a bad position with what I worked so hard for in social situations.
Making Emotional Adjustments
I used to have this conscience where if I failed at something for a certain intended purpose, I would just be down on myself and crash emotionally. I was ingrained from an early age that drugs wouldn't solve my problems, so it eventually got to the point where I felt weird from having to overreact with them.
Even though I'm feeling like a horrible wreck underneath and feeling so much frustration and angry with someone, I need to remind myself how it doesn't really matter on the long run. I might as well just go with my gut now in those areas and move on.
Even though I'm feeling like a horrible wreck underneath and feeling so much frustration and angry with someone, I need to remind myself how it doesn't really matter on the long run. I might as well just go with my gut now in those areas and move on.
Becoming Wiser
Man, I forgot to update this blog last month because I was preoccupied with trying to live my life. I feel like doing so many things and absolutely nothing comes according to plan with the way I exactly planned it. I don't think I'm struggling with emotional problems so much anymore.
I think I should let it go and consider how much it really doesn't matter and work on those things that I have a discomfort zone with. Basically, I'm starting to think that visual things don't really so much in principle and that it's really based on long term traits that I'm looking for. If all of it adds up, and I am capable of placing that before shallow things then I think I'll feel pretty good.
I think I should let it go and consider how much it really doesn't matter and work on those things that I have a discomfort zone with. Basically, I'm starting to think that visual things don't really so much in principle and that it's really based on long term traits that I'm looking for. If all of it adds up, and I am capable of placing that before shallow things then I think I'll feel pretty good.
Chilling At Las Vegas
I forgot to bring my digital camera, and I'm at Las Vegas pretty much chilling. It's so hot outside or that's what I'm mainly worried about, and I'm not really doing anything right now because I'm just waiting for the sun to go down. I have been doing a little gambling and pretty much feel worn out already with it.
I don't really know how professional gamblers are capable of running so well and earning lots of profit. I guess it fits very well for some people whereas others will always struggle for the rest of their lives. One can always dream but living that life just doesn't happen for everyone. I think I'm going to not become a full-time professional gambler. I'm realizing that my personality likes to always seek after an advantage but professional gambling is based on marginal odds of profit. In other words, it could sometimes become a lot of grinding.
I think since I'm at Vegas, and there's really nothing to do might as well just gamble at cards a little to pass away the time. My personal preference all along is to make money man and Las Vegas might not be in my favor to run so well and make so much money with my preferred style.
I don't really know how professional gamblers are capable of running so well and earning lots of profit. I guess it fits very well for some people whereas others will always struggle for the rest of their lives. One can always dream but living that life just doesn't happen for everyone. I think I'm going to not become a full-time professional gambler. I'm realizing that my personality likes to always seek after an advantage but professional gambling is based on marginal odds of profit. In other words, it could sometimes become a lot of grinding.
I think since I'm at Vegas, and there's really nothing to do might as well just gamble at cards a little to pass away the time. My personal preference all along is to make money man and Las Vegas might not be in my favor to run so well and make so much money with my preferred style.
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