Planning Ahead

Well, I'm not really proud of what I did and honestly, climaxing after masturbating to porn felt great too for temporarily but now I'm starting to think that going there is overrated. I've been trending at around once every few weeks. I'm starting to accept that even though my dong is actually in pretty good shape and slightly above average in size, for being a short guy who wants to have sex with a lovely wife, it's not that likely so might as well not try to put myself in a fantasy world when I should learn to be happy from being realistic.

I'm still trying the best I can and I know that it's not good enough. I totally rely on the strength of the full Christian gospel to help me pull through. Nothing added nor taken away- the way the Old Testament and New Testament is now works for me.

My faith is basically not in the idiots at that church, but mainly in Jesus; although I love those idiots. It's because I'll still be friends with them, even though they will initially have problems accepting that about me. I feel so much better from just writing bluntly.

I'm a pretty normal guy and been told that I'm cool; therefore, I only have three lovely Asian girls who I get to hang with right now. They all aren't fat or anything. One of them already has a boyfriend and she's the hottest out of them, but she's a really cool pal to me. I don't mind her being taken actually and the physical attraction doesn't really matter to me. I love her for who she is and she has a pleasant soul. Another friend out of the trio looks like an ideal girlfriend for me on the surface; we look like a cute couple. I like hanging out with her just because of how we look to people. People mind their own business with us really and some cute girls smile while passing us, so I guess that's a great thing. A few have asked if we are dating and my friend would be like no we're just friends while laughing about it. She doesn't seem bothered by it, and I'm not too.