All these years, the worst things that have bugged me so much and made me think about it to the point of exhaustion and wanting to give up have been about being mad over silly things! I want to end this post right now and because I don't feel like writing but I guess I may start putting down something- this is how I run things around here.
Anyway, I'm much more relaxed from realizing that stupid things that want to drive you crazy are really nothing more than annoying things that you have to let go of and to focus on more healthier things. It's not good to revert back to a vice in place of it- ahem, porno but I've read that it really doesn't help anybody but entertain them down below there. If there's too much of it, it's like building tolerance to alcohol because the effect will be much less and guys who are addicted to it will start having trouble standing up from being all wobbly and having to walk while spreading their legs.
I'm kidding, it hasn't happened to me yet because I'm not addicted to porno. I have better things like hanging out with pretty girls to do then watch them doing something sinful. It's not the most fun idea for me of the night, so I guess when guys have that feeling of wanting to be awakened below there, they really have something that might turn into a handful. I think it's just choosing to not get carried away with it. It's harder at first and then just becomes easier and second nature. The fact that I'm still reverting once in awhile and carrying on like nothing ever happened after, I really need to just suck it up when it tries to hit me home. I haven't tried crying about it to myself but maybe it will work- whining all by myself and letting tears come down because it doesn't feel good sometimes to let that energy dry itself out.
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