Feeling Little Tired

I pretty much spent some time at a friend's house last night and feel a little tired after it. I think my mind needs to relax a little bit more before I dig into my new investment career. I'm having a little trouble acting out in faith and dilligence right now because I just want to play right now. I do have a full-time job that pays extremely well for what I'm trying to learn right now. It's alright and better than nothing. I'm still tempting myself to break off the sexual commitment I made, but I've managed to hang on for only two days. The longest I've ever gone was about one year, and I seriously don't know how I did it. I guess just keeping myself busy and seriously dating an attractive woman I mutually respected helped me stick to it. I think it's better that I learn to fulfill this commitment before trying to tie the knot, which I picked up from reading a book by Josh Harris. He has written a popular book that has sold pretty well, "I Kissed Dating Goodbye." This may surprise a few individuals, but I've managed to keep my virginity. It's just dealing with my personal experiences of dealing with pornography and masturbation.

I think I need to develop a little more poise with my own situation and have some more persistence with what I want to do. Instead of just letting my youth walk away, I think I should store some useful things so that I could enjoy my youth. I don't really want to get caught up in this rat race, anymore. Neither do I want to take any unhealthy routes.