This post is going to be really personal and private. Just be warned if I write something disgusting then that's just how my honesty is playing. I'm pretty good about trying my best to be appropriate in certain social settings, so don't really expect me to open up like what I'm doing in this writing.
I dreamed quite a lot about sexual events that was dealing with me. I'm not really in the mood for viewing porn and masturbating even though I experienced a sex drive today. I still feel really bad in that I would like to observe a sexual pure existence right now and enjoy sex in marriage only. My mind slipped a little and I was trying to search for some pornographic material even though my mind was feeling some sexual boredom. I feel really bad for doing this and that I should just leave it to waiting for sex in my marriage. Today, I feel like I can control my sexual urges and that the discomfort comes from wanting to reach arousal. I'm pretty much just going to let it rub me in at the back of my head while I go about doing some practical business today. I'm going to keep trying with making strong attempts at just not masturbating and viewing porn. I'm pretty much adding in a lot more practical things for myself now and utilizing with spending my time more favorably.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
