Relationships

Sometimes, a relationship with someone is just meant to not work out. In human nature, it's natural for a person to want to get something selfish or desire out of someone. It's annoying sometimes and that's for sure, but it's one of those things that sometimes, the better thing is to maintain self-control.

My stumbling block is coming from the 4% crowd. I'm lucky enough to not be hooked by them all the time because an hour or two might feel like a lifetime to me and then things would just get boring and depressing. It's pretty much reset mode for me again. Let's see if I can last longer than a year without stumbling again with the same addictive concept.

About people, when a fallout occurs, I can actually turn the table to support myself again if I can find that window of opportunity to bother them about it. I'm going to be applying some thought about a person before I go after him or her. In more rash terms, I'm just going to think about my sentiment towards them and what I want out of it before willingly approaching them. I know that I can be annoying without wanting to be. It's something I accept as a part of me and doesn't daunt me anymore to express my crazy words that come out of my shouting mouth!

For example, I want that girl who put a restraining order on me to add me as a friend on Facebook. It will be like the ultimate insult for her and such an embarrassing thing too. She doesn't have it on me anymore, and I let her have the maximum amount of years too from not caring. I even had the whole lawyer thing because my dad was concerned for me. Nothing came out of my pocket, so she tried to extend it and failed to go through. I know because the dumb pastor told me and gave me the envelope and then the police came over and confirmed it too. So yeah, that's why she's an idiot. It would be so funny to me and something for me to show off about with people who are bothered by me at the moment.

I can accept her not being around and avoiding me and all her contacts and trying to move on with her life. It's something I think will cripple her mental thoughts in a way for the rest of her life. I'm not really intimidated and all is forgiven no matter what happens in the end because the forgiveness part comes from believing in Christ. It can't be broken no matter how much I doubt it; I can't run away from it, and it's who I am now, a sinning Christian who also tries to keep on repenting to please God.