Where My Sin Is Rooted In

I believe that my sin is coming from wanting to always conquer an area from being competitive and obsessed about it. It's like a point of my pride and can lead to my own destruction, basically failure from living a balanced life. It's hard to stay satisfied for me because I lose the grip of feeling like I'm on top very easily. The area I'm having trouble with is very dirty and addictive. Even though I'm not alone, I'm only speaking for myself and holding myself accountable because I'm willing and ready to face it and let it go. I conquered whatever the mission was today, even though I fell short. I feel sorry for what I did to the Lord and will try to let it go now.