Work Smarter Not Harder

I guess visualizing the situation and going after making things convenient for you is what will really help you get more money out of life. I remember watching Duck Tales and it's a pretty cheesy example but the old duck Uncle Scrooge in that show talked about his life story of earning millions. He just worked smarter not harder.

What my grandpa did to earn a fairly comfortable living in the past was farm on a land and then save up the money to buy more land and produce more crops for earning a living. It seems to make sense and a pretty humble way to make a living. He ended up telling every young kid in the family to grow up to be a doctor. No one in my family line took that path. It's not that easy as it seems.

I myself am stating to feel crazy about learning medical practice. The sight of blood doesn't scare me but the thought of saving a person's life would be an exciting business to me.

Keeping In Perspective

I guess what I'm learning is that I was pretty dumb in the past even though I thought I was smart. Maybe I'm actually just slow to learn and full of errors because I'm absent-minded and can feel a little jittery or uptight for no reason. I then have this innate desire to perform at the highest level and impress my peers by getting favors done in a swift manner. What ticked me off in the past was that I ended up feeling under-valued when a few of my peers who were acting in a supervising position sounded condescending with me.

Now I know what triggered my upsetting behavior with them but they still really had no reason to be irritated with me as well. It really doesn't make sense but I guess you won't know unless it happens to you.

Well, This Is Fun

I actually have a hang out buddy with a girl who other guys might find hot! I'm sort of passed that stage of seeing her that way now and like her company now. I don't have too many female friends that I've gone around places with and got to know, but definitely I'm sticking around with this one I've known a little under a year. It's really fun to do stuff with her!

She's introducing me to women who are already taken, but eventually I might come across to meeting one of her really attractive friends and maybe she'll also dig me from being single. This is funny to write about. Patience is a virtue and I'm developing plenty from hanging with this friendly female. She's really nice and maybe, I'll date someone with similar personality like her someday.

On a secondary account of having fun, I'm not quite so irritated about situations that people try to fault me for now. The past situation with that girl who put a restraining order on me is so much of a headache! Thinking about trying to be friends with her feels very unattainable at the moment. The good thing now is that I don't feel so irritated as I used to and stopped making fun of her to really tick her off some more. I was contacting her through messages of Facebook after she failed to extend the restraining order at court.

I sent her about two messages that made fun of her while I was feeling very annoyed, before she blocked my profile. The fact that she couldn't get me arrested brings me some satisfaction. I feel greedy about getting her to unblock me and then add me as a friend. I want to announce on Facebook once I have her as a friend that we ended up becoming friends and burying the hatchet much to her embarrassment.

Happy 4th

I can't show my avatar using an app called BitMoji on here. I find it to be quite cute and can add some humor to my text messages. It's really easy to send but does take a little time to set it up.

I think the best things are meant to take awhile sometimes. Along with having a patient and diligent attitude, I guess overall it just takes time and giving it your best.

Keeping It Simple

Man, I have a lot that I need to accomplish. Anyhow, I'm feeling depressed while I'm talking sometimes and planning stuff with people. Yet, it passes away. I think feelings are really unreliable to begin with and even though I may be suffering underneath, it's great to have something to look forward to anyway. It helps to work on yourself and to let those feelings that are rotting underneath to stabilize.

Okay, with my friend that I like I think I'm going to continue just being friends with her. I actually enjoy that friendship with her. It's nice having that feeling of validation and acknowledgement. That's all I'm really looking for from her. I don't really need to be dating her or anything to receive that type of high. I guess I'm good where it lies now. At first, my feelings were just messing with me and I thought I was falling in love with her or something, but all of that goes away eventually. It just comes down to being if the person is really right for you or not.

Overall, she's pretty good as a friend, and I acknowledge her. I'm still learning to be better with interacting with a girl at a personal level. I'm definitely not shy with attractive-looking women anymore. I guess it helps to work out with scantily clad women. I just don't see women in that way anymore with how they dress. I personally don't care. I'd rather focus on the bigger picture, which is love and finding the right person. I really like the idea of being friends with her. I think she's turning out to be very good for making me a better person and with that experience I'm going to try to find someone a little more hotter and compatible than her. She also needs to be a Christian in my book, as well, so I'll be lying in wait and maybe it will happen someday while I continue to work on myself.

A lot of good people are already taken and will be in the future. I'll just have to let timing play a role then and roll with the punches. I'd rather not give up and that's about it.

Proposing This Stunt

I guess I have a lot that I need to work on still with myself. Timing is of the essence. Learning to have a great deal of patience and also being positive while trying to put in a great deal of hard work, it's been a long journey trying to get there. I'm slowly progressing into that.

I naturally have a to-do list that I don't follow at all. Right now, I'm letting this blog post be my own personal distraction from the pains of living right now. I'm actually embracing it as of this moment and okay with just filling my head with continual positivity.

One thing that's been in my head is that I'm thinking about how I could make that girl with former civil restraining order on me to be my friend. It's really hard at the thought of trying to be her friend. I'm irritated as heck about the whole incident! She didn't want me to be friends with some girls that she knows and so that's why she did that.

I think she did express liking me before all of that naughty development and I was like what the heck at the beginning because I see myself as too short to be dating anybody. Now, I think being good friends with taller girls isn't really a problem.

I see having her as a Facebook friend and hangout buddy as more of a comic relief for me. It's valuable in that if I were to put in monetary value, it would be worth than $10,000 to me. Yeah, I would give up that amount just to hang out with her and comment on her Facebook profile. There's definitely monetary value here and also it contributes to getting work done from lower levels of paranoid feelings and wasteful thoughts of being resentful with a person. I'm soliciting for her being my employee of the job title, friend. There's a lot of business things that I could literally relate this without going off-topic.

Trying To Kick Off With A Bang

Okay, I thought maybe I could fill in a lonely void from being bored by trying to chat with people online.  All I was really doing was saying stuff to make myself laugh. I was making some of the people I chatted with laugh too with remarks like LOL and totally laughing my butt off remarks. Some random guy messaged me to shut the heck up after I was chatting with some ladies on a chatroom. Every remark I was sending was just to make myself laugh and that's what I really was doing.

I think with the whole Facebook thing, maybe one of the reasons why I was losing a friend or two is because I'm adding people I don't really recognize or know. If I were to add someone who I'm pretty familiar with, then maybe that's what keeps my friend count from going away. Actually with the stuff I'm posting, I'm not really trying to be annoying or anything. I just realize that some of those photos have this raw energy that's just very positive. I think positivity will retain people on Facebook, along with continuing to add people who I have a great level of familiarity with.

Starting To Seriously Chill~~~

I like the title in that I put chill ~~~. I'm trying to say it with emphasis and longer Californian tone. Okay, so I'm not doing any copy and pasting for the art of trying to make money off of dumb web surfers who don't know any better. I'm seriously just posting my own original thoughts here and it's being appreciated by some passerbys. I never met them and probably never will. Maybe they came on this incredibly small-time blog site by accident looking for something that I can't afford to give them.

I don't even know what the average attention span is for a stranger who popped into this blog. I for sure spend quite a great deal of here. I'm the one that's typing all of this text, so yeah, it takes some substantial amount of effort!

Honestly, the reason why I made the title and decided to post some random funny details on it is because I was thinking about making fun of people from my past. They are all flipping out a great deal and calling me psycho and all of that fun stuff to make me laugh until the rooster crows next morning. Yeah, they don't even want to talk about it when I ask them. It's because it's bad on them and they can't handle me making fun of them. They have weak minds and can't let go of the past too well. That's why they are telling me that I can't let go of the past because they are so mindful about themselves and they can't do it themselves. It's logical because they don't want to talk about from me having made fun of them and given them a hard time. Why wouldn't they want to not talk about something that didn't bring them pleasure?

It's basically an embarrassing thing that went for them and something they are afraid I'll capitalize on if I end up noticing where their faults are. They end up trying to place blame on me. It's because they are totally aware and just going that route. If I play to win in the most insane and unfair manner, they lose. I guess I can just keep on giving them the "I'm better than you" speech and also the "I'm nicer than you so I can be your friend while you struggle" speech continuously and laugh about it. I can raise my voice to let everybody else hear what I'm talking about and to just annoy them while I'm embarrassing this idiot who blocked me on Facebook because I was irritated with that person and sent them message to make fun of them.

Okay, I'm praying for that person to lose big time now. I'm also praying that the person will love me, as I want to love him or her as a friend. I'm totally a gamer in this area and what makes me win is having that pumped up feeling of how I'm a winner and I'm just going to keep on going with that positive spirit to the finish line and drag that person with me. The person is going to be right behind me because I'm taking first place!

Managing Time Better

What I find myself doing a lot is that I end up sort of regretting letting something get out of my mind because it later comes back to me. This happens to me quite often. I guess I have so many things going on in my head that I end up overwhelming myself a little.

The only thing that I have been pretty consistent with is trying to get to work everyday and working at every other day. Every other activity after that has been so inconsistent. I think I hide my agenda and motives to my own self and just try to go back to rewarding habits which isn't really related to money at all. I don't think I really value money that much, but I would like to have plenty of it so I could have all this time to just mess around with doing fun activities with people. I'll even hang with people I hardly know.

I do feel that discomfort with some people and I believe that it's going to take some time for me to get used to it in some cases. However, I seem to be a pretty forgiving lad.

Trying To Be More Consistent

I guess it really comes down to the bottom line of consistency and controlling my feelings and cravings of wanting to just have fun and let time go loose. Time is money! Once the time is gone, it's not coming back.

I think the worn out feelings underneath probably just mean that I need to continue to persist and let myself aspire with the alotted time I decide to go with. I'm starting to just not really think about it as much anymore and to be able letting myself face better situations.

Going After Smarter Activities

I guess there's really no point now in spending time with some wasteful activities. There might not be anything wrong with it in some instances, but I'm finding out that I don't really have any time to afford in dealing with that mess now.

I think it's about time that I grew up and went after facing my own responsibilities and living in the most optimal manner that I could think of. With the Lord being a blessing to my life and also having made a likable and respectable friend by what just feels like chance, the options to chase after feel a lot more optimistic.

I should really be spending my time exhausting my optimal choices before going after having fun!

Planning Out Activity

It looks like I'm starting to hate my room being so messy! I just can't focus like that anymore. I need to have it cleaned and organized if I'm going to run a personal business of some sort. I think I can categorize my life into three separate piles and basically my personal overwhelms all the others, without a surprise there.

I have work in a category all by itself. My other one I'm listing is errands which are basically temporary activities that I like to put off the side, but once they are done, I don't have to worry about them anymore.

I have a running list of like 12 errands to do, compared to just one for my work category. My personal list, let's just not even go there.

Solution To Dealing With Idiots

I have a very Christian approach to all that madness when it comes to dealing with crazy people who you are just constantly reminded of. It's to pretty much pray everything about it to God and ask for a solution. If the person thinks it's too silly to pray about or something that God wouldn't even be mindful about, then the person is already wasting his or her time thinking about it. The person is just practically being retarded about letting it go!

On top praying for people you supposedly hate, you can't really ask for vengeance upon them or something bad to happen to them while praying about that to God. You need to just have patience and be loving towards them in your thoughts while praying about it. This is the spirit of Jesus that Christians should call upon before making their requests known. It's to have a forgiving attitude and to pray in an exceeding manner while being joyful and thankful for that person who has been irritating you!

So yeah, the people at the small church with attendance that would be at an all-time low and much less than the average amount of friends on Facebook, the ones who have been talking to me in a frustrated manner and made the decision to block me on Facebook as well because of my messages that made fun of them while I was irritated, those people haven't prayed enough to Jesus! I'll be happy to remind that to them someday. I'm going to be a spiritual and physical leader then and it's just part of my natural ability- not even going to force it upon myself to get the magic going.

For the longest time, I felt being a shorty was going to be a hindrance but I guess it isn't if you still have the ability and brains to compete against other tall and handsome guys in the world. I'm saying that I might end up with a gorgeous and compatible Christian wife that guys might really hate me for and start making fun of me while trying to tempt her maybe. I've made some development in not letting my anger get to me and just being patient with a friend that I like, so I'm glad that I met her and we can seriously be good texting/meet up buddies at least.

Nothing Wrong With It

I don't think there's anything wrong with playing Magic: the Gathering and enjoying it with other people for socializing or to see whose deck ends up being better. It's sort of like measuring each other up like whose muscles are bigger or who can make the better 3-point shots in basketball.

I guess the problem is to just find balance with it all. I think when someday I do manage to get the pretty girlfriend and then wife every guy is going to hate me for, I'm not really going to be able to afford having all this personal time. What I believe that I need to train myself in is really making the necessities of life a bigger priority than personal entertainment.

With the personal entertainment, I think I'm making that overlap so much over what I ought to be doing or thinking. For fun, I do enjoy playing and building decks for Magic: the Gathering. I also enjoy watching professional sports games like European soccer and MLB. It's great to watch very good international players compete against each other and to even marvel in their reactions. I also have fun watching anime as well.

Overall, it's not really a bad thing to like those things. I also like surfing the web as well and can get really caught up with playing a fun video game too. I think that's really the keyword for me in that it's about me being caught up with everything fun that I'm doing.

Some of the healthy endeavors that I find myself getting lost in the moment from having fun also include singing and playing the piano and also working out. I really think becoming the leader of creating video games the best I can while developing an all-around knowledge will be a very healthy activity for me. I also have an interest in fitness science and general practitioner's method of medical health. On top of all of that, I would really like delve myself into cooking as well. It's awesome that I have a nice friend whose really busy with stuff telling me about her concerns. I don't care if she has me on her friend zone because that's where I put her at the moment and she's also taken already, so no need to start sweating about a possible future with her.

Things I Need To Work On

With my precious hours right after I finish working out, I really could be using that time to study the Bible. I still have a habit of letting my mouth run off to myself in a bad way. I'm trying to fix that by praying to Jesus this time around. I'm now praying for the people that I feel angered about occasionally from the past. It's been hard letting it go and it comes up every once in awhile just to annoy me while thinking about the what could have been's. Oh well, what's lost is gone and not coming back. It's better to just move on and set sights on something positive and what could be done in the present to make the best out of life for yourself.

Indulging In Too Much

Okay, so I guess I'm going to play catch up then with reading the Bible, working out, and probably programming on my computer to get those trades that I want going.

I have been playing so much Magic: the Gathering. It's been such a pleasure playing against other people. I don't really care about winning or losing so much anymore with it now. Maybe, I'm putting my ambitions on it a little too highly and so I need to let that go and focus on other personal priorities that I have mind in accomplishing.

Once again if I sacrifice this leisure along with putting in a decent amount of effort while staying positive then maybe I'll be running with some consistency. I think for the most part being patient and sticking to Bible principles really help, even if one wouldn't care to believe in God, I still think reading and understanding the Bible should be essential to living a nice and happy life.

Back To Trading Mode

Okay looks like it's for me to start trading now and seeing if I could make a decent living off of it. I'm ready to write another program to assist in my trading and that's pretty much what I'm endeavoring before I go ahead and trade.

On top of that, I'm just starting to read the Bible and understand things better because I'm reading up on some commentaries. I think I'll just pray for the Holy Spirit to guide me in that sense then and just labor in the ways of the Lord while being mindful that one day, I might end up with a smoking hot Christian and compatible wife!

Okay I need to do that along with working out so I'll go after that then. I think I'm seriously going to just bowl for fun along with working out at the gym and playing guitar and piano. I will also try singing and dancing to some tunes, while also trying to create some of my own. I also should get that going in trying to grow taller and keep my patch of hair.

That's pretty much the main stuff that's going through my head.

Minimizing Activities

I think instead of just relaxing and watching sports games. I should really commit myself to doing more physical activities and eating a whole heck of a lot better. On top of that, I could also focus on my chores and finish personal maintenance with what I have in mind of accomplishing.

I'm really going to get that done with reading the Bible, going for an athletic body, and becoming a millionaire. Might as well add to that a beautiful and compatible Christian wife who is better than the girl I like right now. It's only because she's taken and I have her only as a good friend. I feel that joy of friendship though and it's nice to do fun things together. Friend zoning her is not really a bad thing at all for me and might even come in handy by keeping her around as a comrade.

Six Pack Season

I'm leaning out and forming a six pack for reals! I'll post it once I have a real six pack that shows some nice definition. I'm still looking for muscle growth so that's what I need to work on.

I haven't really been paying attention to the stuff that I should be doing. I'm just letting my mind wander off still. I think I really need to just motivate myself consistently. Maybe, I could settle down with a beautiful millionaire who happens to be Christian as well. Why not, go for the high life and laugh it off for the rest of my life in shame from a girl beating me in income level!

I'm really thinking about this strategy now of meeting girls. With the girls I'm attracted to and who are already taken, I should just friend zone them and continue looking for more beautiful girls than they are. Hey, it works and why not? Might as well keep upgrading, until I find someone who is single and beautiful and really ready to settle down with me.

Some Guy's Blog Is Better

I don't know but that guy has some interesting news on his site. He just posted news about a lady running over his HIV positive boyfriend. That's a pretty disheartening situation, in that she's in prison now because of it!

Here's an even more interesting news from back then. The former NBA player Magic Johnson repetitively said that he contracted HIV from trying to help a HIV positive boy off the ground at the Boys N' Girls Club. The boy was bleeding and the blood pretty much smeared all over Magic's hand that had a cut. Well, Magic is alive and well still so I guess.

So the current guy who is number 1 on the search for Computer Science is posting news and is just consistently posting stuff. I don't know if we're going to have a posting war. Well, at least it will keep people on their toes and the competition will become stiffer.

Let's just post away then with original magic on these blog posts! Join us, but only if you dare.

Falling In Rank

Okay, it looks like there's some other people who have caught up to the top. I'm now rank #5. Oh well, I'll stick to my moniker of being Rank #1.

This blog is getting really cheesy. Well, I have definitely developed a style of talking that makes some Asian girls laugh. That's pretty much all I've really been noticing with myself. The Asian girls laugh with the exception of my sister and another girl who sees me as a brother. Maybe my mom doesn't really laugh either with the things I say.

I wonder when I have a wife, if she'll continue to laugh at the things I say or she'll act like my sister and mom.

Ahh Feels Better

Okay, now that I'm more off the radar by disassociating this blog with my social media network, I feel more at ease to communicate whatever the heck I feel like now. I guess I might be too late for some people because they already know who I am.

I have a feeling though that whoever has sort of ill intentions with me will probably not be coming back to this site again because they are going to hate my success or any form of humor I put in here. I think it's because they are going to feel bad about continuing further with reading this blog. Along with that, I don't see them as taking it seriously with me any more in staying mad with me.

Not Really So Discouraged

I used to feel really discouraged while I was going after something I believed in doing. I think I was missing a few personal components and lacked enough patience. I was going in bare-blinded and very emotionally ticked off. With time having passed by, I'm just glad I put in the effort to once again state that happily I'm not in trouble.

To be able to have an idea of what people's motives are now and be accepting of them while having a happy mindset, it's been an intuitive gift that I like to sort of pride myself over with people. Whether I'm right or wrong, it doesn't seem to be uninviting of my friends though. Of course, when I'm being critical, people are going to go on the defensive so I would have to justify my claims better. Later on though, with me meaning for a better cause or clearer way of living while being peaceful with each other, I can see that the things I discern and communicate about people from just feeling it and considering what I observed, it doesn't really get rejected and is really based on an honest opinion with really no agenda in mind.

Becoming More Slick

Yeah, I think it would be awesome to have the nickname of Mr. Slick. It's going to be a lot of work under the scenes, but I think the state of being when approaching it will be so cool!

I guess that's where I want to be headed now. It's being slick while being openly relaxed about everything and having a really good work ethic. I'm really positive about the work I put in because the struggle is something that I'm used to putting myself under. I'm not really stressing out over making myself go through more hard work. It's just going to be a lot of personal effort I guess, but over all, it's just joyful to have friends and feel absolutely free and relaxed to be yourself, while still accepted and liked.

Maybe I'll be dating my friend who I'm just so fond of someday. For now, I really have some more things I need to work on with myself. I guess I'll be doing that until it's just the right moment where I'm supposed to dive into this whole marriage thing. I'm just taking my time really and a year hasn't even passed with this person. It feels really nice and cool to associate with. I think the foundations are there from my end at least to stay friends with her for a very long time and enjoy having company while being around her.

Hard Work Attitude

One of the things that I really need to understand for myself is that I have a lot of potential. It's just that I let my mind wander off with lack of discipline. It's like how I just feel constantly bored and have to do something meaningless and that just boosts my ego to keep on living. It's pretty much my hobbies that I'm letting myself stay lingering in.

I guess I feel guilty about indulging so much in my hobbies because I end up feeling bad for neglecting other areas of my life for maintenance. I want to spend my time and do something that's just purposeful and driven to high standards with excellence. It's hard enough that I have a close friend who I spend time with who just struggles in live and gives in to his defeat while hardening his personal soul and relenting about how he isn't fully happy with everything. He's practically stuck and did all he could already in life. He still goes after it when he feels a surge of fortune.

I don't want to live by how lucky I feel in life. I want to live by actual proven work and results! I would like to stick to that formula while considering my strengths and weaknesses. Overall, I'm feeling really happy and good with where I'm leading myself. I just need to continually put up the effort and even though I'm slowing down, I'm feeling good about picking myself back up and putting in the effort again.

Blessed To Be A Part Of Life

I guess a lot of the inside things that I'm talking about is something that only I would personally know. I think having a blog and treating it like a journal and with the possibility that people I wouldn't want to see it, makes writing on this blog so daring!

It's that excitement of trying to go somewhere and even though I was faltering through lack of personal discretion, I'm definitely glad that gaining some valuable friendships have shaped me into a better person than I am today. It's probably just one friendship that has made the difference for me in seeing how other friends come into play for me. I'm feeling so much more stability. Could this relationship really be a spiritual blessing intended by God?

Maybe my reward lies in having labored to be a patient individual and from having a friend I actually cherish, I've been willing to put up with all of it. Maybe it's unconditional love that I'm developing or something but it's been a powerful influence for me and a mighty factor in leading me to a more suitable living.

Letting It Ride

I think I've learned so much over these days that I'm now learning how to approach something in a cool and unoffended manner. I have been tempted while playing out the situation in my head to constantly yell at the person who I'm just ticked off at for just being annoying with me when I'm trying to settle something from the past with them.

I'm not really so angry about it anymore because I did my part to not cripple my living conditions. I still put in the effort to live a good life and maintain self-discipline and self-control to still try to be courteous with those individuals. It pays off on the long run to really be patient and even though my emotions were running and making me feel so hot-headed; by not giving into them, I've had the most success with people even though I'm sure the devil would want to tempt me into saying that isn't so.

Taking the long and hard route has been a journey that I don't think many see fit for themselves to take. It's the narrow road that takes sacrifices and gaining wisdom through experience to understand where life is leading you!

Falling Back Into Place

I'm slipping up in small areas which is pretty much my time management. I need to put my time management back into gear. Fortunately, I'm living a single man's life so that's good. It's also nice that I've developed friendship with someone who I actually admire and would love to spend my days with. I guess I just love this whole giving them space type of deal as I continue to develop on my own.

I don't want to live with any regrets, so I need to work at putting myself back into the mode of living right again. That energy I've been living off, I want to turn it back on and go consistent and steady mode again. I'm just living with mainly one thing that attributes to my positive effort- patience.

Pretty Much What I'm Doing

I'm pretty much just letting my mind go to sleep and do repetitive activities to spend my time. I just let myself forget about the time I'm doing. It's like I've created a job for myself but not making any money out of it. I don't really think anyone who is depending on me would really like this quality about me. I need to shape up and put myself back into gear. I think confidence and positive attitude with hard work going across my mind while giving myself this hopeful expectation that I will develop better is what I'm going to have to do.

Playing Catch Up

I have like a ton of errands to run, so I'm going to go at that then. I'm having a lot of fun with working out and feeling lots of more energy these days. There's so many things that I could do and yet I'm just forgetful about it.

I'm letting my mind run wild again. I need to let myself get disciplined again. Even though I like the idea of putting myself into one place, I think it's good for me that I develop a healthy and productive routine. One that will make me feel after the day is over that I'm getting somewhere with my life.

It's difficult because I'm letting myself fall into personal traps of entertainment and desire. I'm spending time by myself as a loner when I think God could make me useful by allowing myself to be out there with more people. I need to push myself and let myself take better reminders. It's just timing I guess and that's part of the game.

Setting Priorities Straight

Okay, I need to stop playing Magic: the Gathering during the week now. It's a lot of fun for me and I've been just playing against others. I need to once again remind myself that the dream I'm chasing after might not be feasible for me, no matter how much fun I'm having.

There's after all, luck that's going to come into factor. I would prefer that I don't sit around and see what happens when I could just do something else. I would rather not wait on someone else to decide my fate. I really like the set up and forget-go approach with everything when it comes to investing.

Been Awhile

Especially with the stupid topics that I talk about, I might as well take myself off the grid but keep this up for anybody who is lucky enough to read it then. I had originally on my Facebook profile and I think I still have it on some dating sites, but I'm not really caring because nobody cares to contact me from probably being scared of what I'm capable of.

That's right! Even though I'm a shorty, I don't look like one in person actually, so maybe my best chance of being with someone right is to actually meet her in person instead of trying to go shopping online. I think I'll just leave it to that then and just rely on creating a network of personal connections. The hard part is that without having an agent nor any fame, it's difficult to get fitted with an attractive girl who actually has something for you. Maybe, there would be something wrong with her, but then again who knows really?

In Summary

For all of the things I've written, I need to do better time management again. Even though it's not really in my core to do well, I guess I should try putting together a check-list of the necessities that I should really be carrying out which also include my main desires so I can remind myself to live that way.

Basically, I'm going after a relationship with Jesus, becoming wealthy, and really physically in shape. I will utilize discipline, patience, acceptance, and proper energy to get there.

Reviewing Last Posts

It's great to have discipline, patience, acceptance, and energy to keep going in life with whatever you are pursuing after. I guess I need to start doing that again and kick it back into full gear again. I think I need to accept that there are some things that I'm not going to be able to accomplish, even while it's going to be all in fun and make some sacrifices to be happy on the inside.

I think the main things I really want to stay focused on is having a relationship with Jesus, obtaining wealth, and being physically at tip-top shape. Other hobbies like writing music and trying to develop something out of nothing, I guess I can just look at it as trying to make money then.

I think it would be better for me to focus more on skill rather than trying to impress upon myself a little luck to earn some fortune. If I can minimize the time while maximizing my output through letting skill play a role, then I think I've found my niche.

Discipline and Consistency

Having energy through being awake, relaxed, focused, consistent, and disciplined; I think these are the ingredients for a better life. I'm just trying to recall what I said earlier. I guess I'll have to review the post I wrote again.

Letting Mind Slip

I ended up indulging on onion rings which are carbohydrates and watching anime for awhile. I feel pretty sheepish about doing that. I'm going to have to just get it out of my system now and go after my goals again. It's a good time to let myself be positive and bounce back into the person I want to be while being patient and hardworking about it.

I really need to instill upon myself great discipline again. I think that's what I'm really missing and consistency as well.

Okay

One of my posts has skyrocketed off the charts. I think from reviewing popular products and giving my personal recommendation of it from how it actually works for me and explaining it positively is probably what got me those visits. I'm getting really good results from it.

I guess if I seriously want to make a living off of promoting products, then I should really be advertising the stuff that actually works and make it free, I suppose. I would just be able to make money off advertisements then, while making the content free. There's really nothing to it and I think that's how even radio and tv shows make money off of it.

Spending Time Wisely

I feel with all of this time to myself and trying to pursue after good things in life, I'm actually building upon good personal character. What I really feel like doing is keeping myself occupied over good things while working hard for finding those activities that would suit me really well.

I'm gradually understanding the concept of patience, acceptance, relaxation, focus and alertness. I think with the Lord's help, I should be able to get to where I'm aiming towards. Jesus does come first in my life, and with all the temptations that I'm going through, I wouldn't have been trying to persevere if I never figured out that the Bible has good stuff in it for believers to follow.

Working Under Exhaustion

I've found a great supplement that can really get me focused and stay awake for hours. It's an amazing product and it's not some type of speed. It's a blend of vitamins and caffeine. I guess that's why people drink coffee to stay awake with the caffeine. I don't know how the researchers did it, but it has been working really well for me and doesn't feel anything dangerous like 5-hour energy drinks.

I used to drink those, but then I still get tired with those shots. With this supplement called Liftoff from Herbalife, I'm getting a really good kick out of it and actually not bothered about not being awake enough. Of course, the person has to put in his or her work with having proper nutrition and also exercising on a regular basis in order for all of that to kick into gear and work well.

Trying To End Bad Habits

I'm procrastinating a little too much. When I'm out with my friends, they are having a lot of fun. What happens to me when I'm by myself, is that I still try to get myself occupied with having fun and end up losing a lot of time and forgetting about my priorities that I set myself up to do. It's like I get this worn out feeling of having to do some mundane activity. I just don't want to do it so I set it aside.

I think I need to man up and just take care of business because it's life.

Going for Cooking

What's keeping me going is pretty much wanting a relationship with the Lord, getting a six pack, and becoming a millionaire! I'm not really feeling apprehensive about putting myself in that situation anymore because I figure why not.

I think I really need to just be creative more. About cooking, I'm just going to do what I can now to make healthy and delicious stuff. I'd like to meet new people and just continue to work at my life now.

Working Smarter

I was talking to my co-worker and he said that all it takes is working smarter to get to the wealth that you want. My investing scheme is doing okay and really marginal in profit for the last four months in demo trading. I'm ready to put in a few thousand dollars to see where that goes now.

Also, it takes eating correctly to get the results in the body and now I'm seeing how important nutrition really is to see that chiseled look. I'm putting in the effort with my workouts by sweating out on the average of like 700 calories whenever I work out. I look a lot more skinnier as well. 

I need some protein to get some bigger muscles and that's where I'm lacking a little bit on. It was hard at first to stay consistent even while I was not motivated, but now I'm seeing the bigger picture in that it's actually worth consistently going after a goal that you think is cool. There really shouldn't be any room for doubt in what you want to go after. 

Giving Up

I'm giving up on trying to make a living off of Magic: the Gathering and Poker. It's been on and off because I've sometimes been getting that itch of trying to make money off of it. I just can't see myself making it that far and with the time I commit to it, I feel pretty sheepish about it. It's just me and I'm not trying to put down anybody else online.

I'm just going to continue to work at working out and investing. I'll just have to utilize Meetup for activities then and also find creative ways to hang out with the other friends I currently have.  

Consistency

Right now, I'm making the push for a six pack. Also with the pay I'm getting at work, I think I have enough to support a small family right now as well. I could live on my own right now if I wanted to, also, but my parents leave me the heck alone and most of the time, I'm not at my house anyway. I'll just pay the $700 rent to live in a nice big home that my parents recently purchased. They don't really need the money from me, but my mom is forcing me to pay rent because she intends on putting that money into a savings account and later helping me to pay for my own house someday.

After looking at some nice homes in the Manhattan Beach area, I'm looking at saving up like $5 million someday to purchase a very cool home. Right now, I can live with the home I'm in right now. It's pretty cozy and spacious already and my parents did a good job with picking out a scenic home. I can actually handle living there and enjoy it now that I managed to oust my annoying little sister. I think I felt really annoyed by her because of her constant nagging and unhappy tone I heard in her voice. It was making me really edgy, and I wanted her to add me on Facebook as a friend at the same time. It wasn't flowing very well between her and me as one might be able to tell. She wasn't interested with it and was ready to express herself in a frustrated manner always. Man, it sucked living with her. She left not primarily because of me, even though I want her to think that way, but her savings are being sucked dry because she is renting some place else. I'm in a better situation because the money I put in rent is going to come back to me.

My mom may be weird, but at least she likes to help me out still because I'm always her baby. I tried to act really lazy, and she wasn't having that and said that I'm an adult practically. I can manipulate my mom into calling me an adult or kid all I want and in any mood I feel like, but I want to be called an adult all the time. Anyhow, I bug my mom over the little stuff easily and she puts up with it, while my mom tries to meddle with my affairs still. My dad is actually not really in the picture, but only when he gets mad, he'll start saying stuff and I usually end up giving my dad a headache so he stops talking to me after he says angry words for little bit.

Few More Elements of Success

At work for the last couple days, I've been thinking about what would contribute to success with virtually anything. What I've come up with is that in addition to patience, one would also need room for proper focus, staying relaxed, and have acceptance.

Let me refresh the elements to make it easy. Patience, stay relaxed, have proper focus, and be accepting. I think those things will really help out with staying on top of things especially at work and while trying to learn new stuff to apply to life. Also, it's an awesome thing to be able to stay awake and not distracted with sleepiness.

What I Think It's Really About

When it comes down to a guy having a good relationship with a girl he's interested in, I think it really comes down to connecting with each other at an emotional level. Also, I'm starting to see those relationships as more of a privilege rather than what I'm entitled too. They are definitely a plus to the guy who hasn't really been that outgoing in life.

One of the main things I notice that's important is to have patience. I have a buddy who like to progress at a fast pace, but it might actually be pretty challenging for him to stay with pursuing one lady. The fact that he doesn't realize he doesn't have the foundation laid out before him makes him feel that he's unacceptable in society because of his upbringing. I like to have talks with my buddy all the time and call him out on things that I think are stupid about him!

So overall, it's about making connections and knowing the right people when it comes to beginning or starting over with finding a partner in crime. I think what helps a guy out a lot is to really work out at a gym and work hard at earning a lot of money. On top of that, the guy should just work on being a pleasant person over all. With this top notch quality, it will be hard for people to not notice you and feel positive as well while they are around you. Positiveness will attract happiness in general I believe. Therefore, I say to continue reading the Bible and trying to understand it while reading some commentaries and praying over some verses. Good luck with finding Christ in your life, if you haven't already.

Letting Myself Just Catch Up

Maybe, I'll probably have the best results if I do actually post something everyday to the best of my ability. It can be anything and even though it might be boring, it could still be inspiring for somebody on this whole wide Internet. The fact that I actually have some hits that don't belong to me, whether it be some random stranger looking to make a buck or some person who thinks alike as I do, tells me that quite possibly and in some weird phenomenon, I'm being paid attention to.

It's just crazy that someone would actually do that. Like on my Facebook, very few people do actually catch on to my humor, but I think most of them just don't think it's quite worthwhile to impress themselves with. Honestly, I think the stuff that I'm going for is really high-level sometimes and difficult to really appreciate the time taken to make something interesting just pop up.

Basically, I'm just doing stuff for myself and trying to make myself laugh. Right after doing that, the next day, it's just old news for me. I'm like numbed out to it. I can't say that I know too little or too much, but hey it definitely is cool.

Proofreading

I believe that for no good reason I'm really skipping words that I would normally have while writing something. It's like I'm going after the gist of something, but then I just let it skip without really attention to anything. I think I've learned to type while keeping it on overdrive now and really my mind is just focusing elsewhere.

My nerves just continually act up on me when I don't want it to. I'm just trying to be smooth with stuff, but letting things slip out of my reach. I don't really intend this to happen, but it just does for me. I would like to focus a little better while learning to let go of stuff.

That's actually pretty fun with the things I did. I think it's just continually important for me to maintain personal confidence even if no one is really going to validate it for me. I believe that's probably why it's so good to be human. We really are given our space when we just like come out of nowhere. It can also be really fun as well.

It's really hard with the stuff I'm chasing after like getting a six pack and being a millionaire off of trading investment portfolios. I don't think everybody is in their right state of mind to get there. I just don't seem to really have a hard time with feeling that way now.

Maybe that's why, people don't respond to my really high end goals that I'm actually gradually reaching. It's pretty fun and at the beginning, it might have been a little rough for me and some days were not that easy to stay consistent with it, but overall, just willing myself because I see it at the end of how it's really going to make me feel. I can visualize how it's going to be so cool for me and beneficial. That's probably why I'm able to keep this thing going.

Listening To Sermon On Radio

Honestly, when I'm driving my mind is totally in different places and really zoned out. I have a hard time really listening to the sermons. I'll probably retain like 1% of what the Bible teacher said and that's about it.

At a church, I feel a little more lively and more actively engaged, but I definitely forgot what the pastor said already. I just know that being in the Bible feels very refreshing for me and so that's probably why I continue to just check it out whenever I get the chance.

It's pretty normal and not everybody has time for you, but what was cool is that I've been finding out that I'm able to be decent around most people. I think it's normal to feel mad with some people and get them to shut you out of your life. I mean I bugged those people massively to the point that they don't want to argue with me.

In general, I think I'm actually good with most people and that I'm probably not the main person why some people are going through a hard time. From actually having a pretty calm persona, it really doesn't bother me with how people are going to act now. I think I'm catching on to this whole charisma thing and getting negative angry people with me to sort of stay on some neutral grounds with me. I'm not so much afraid of seeing cops around anymore either. I just don't want to get a ticket for speeding and that's pretty much it!

Warming Up the Brain

I think I could seriously just improve my self-awareness at a continuous rate and become efficient at including everything and doing it all at the same time. It's a work in progress and something I would love to accomplish someday. I think everybody wants something like that in general and it would actually promote self-contentment. 

Yet, I think God's the real reason why I'm able to continue to push forward. Without that knowledge of God's saving grace upon believers, I don't think I would have such an optimism outlook to look forward to. Not everyone is willing to be accepting of it because it would definitely be easier to just be negative about things and shutdown. 

Negativity and shutting down might be really easy things to do, but definitely they both are really depressing for me, so I would rather work hard at improving myself consistently and just moving along. I'm so used to it.

Feeling Good About Life

I think there's sometimes a moment where you'll just overload. I'm so glad that I sort of have a sense of humor. I think it also helps out to. In a sense, it's quite interesting how it can be really fun at the same time. I guess I just have this type of style of speech that doesn't really get a reaction from anyone but somehow it just can be fun and not really need any response back in general.

I think it's fun to lead and go after those win-win situations for everybody. Maybe it's cool to just have fun at the same time and just laugh about those incidents.

Becoming Better At Things

I think just within time and practically being awake with lots of decent energy, I'm finding myself to be quite productive. Maybe the stress can really come from just anticipating something to happen and just not being able to handle the waiting period. It can wear out a person quite easily.

I guess just taking the time to relax the body and getting used to making yourself a better person through just patience and accepting things better through time is what determines his or her success.

Patience Is Definitely A Virtue

Yeah, I can't really say much except that it takes me a long way especially with really long goals. I'm not sure what to really write on here right now. I think I really need to get back into track with doing the best I can. There's really not much I can do right now, except that it's pretty fun with everything that happened.

Stuff I'm Trying To Be Mindful About

I really want to just keep out the negative and go with the flow in positive. I'm really idealistic like that and I think what's really missing in my life right now is the consistency with reading the Bible. Well, right now I'm stuck in Song of Solomon. Oh it's a book that has a lot of deep meaning I suppose because it's in a poetic sort of way, so yeah I can see why it would be tough for me, but I should really being having fun with it.

Okay, I'm going to read the Bible a little bit then and try to get it going. One of these days, I'm thinking about getting my feet wet in the video game industry as well. Going to pick up an electric guitar and sing something with it too. Maybe I'll form my own band with some friends eventually just to have fun.

I would also like to study survival in the woods as well and why not, might as well add some green technology in there to make life easier for me as much as possible without having to rely on stuff that require some manufacturing with labor. It would actually be cool to study electrical engineering and see if I could apply that knowledge on like an uninhabited island. Just being self-reliant like that would be cool in case I needed it. I would also like to learn quite a lot about health too, so maybe being a physician assistant someday would be great too.

Starting To Do Things On Own

I spent so much money trying to have others spoon feed me a successful blueprint that would make me happy. I'm one of those unfortunate people who got sucked into a money-less pit. I did all I could and it was cold marketing that people were able to make money with something.

I had a really hard time and just things weren't feeling right and I was totally trying to wing it the whole time. It's a really disconcerting feeling, and I just couldn't do anything about it at the time. I was so helpless because I had an inflexible mind and felt like a complete failure and loser the whole time. It was really my outlook in life that made me fall.

These days, things have been picking up and I'm seeing light for the better.

Cashing Out

With putting not that much effort, I'm starting to close in on a very effective way to trade on Forex. It's a little bit too crazy that I don't really want to share it with anyone. You know it's a competition out there, and I'm grateful for some people helping me get there, but now, I really have my own thing that I want to develop.

Actually, nobody really knows what's going to happen in the financial investment markets. The successful traders just have found a way to beat it I guess. My biggest fear is really letting down pupils, so I would rather prefer my future kids to become a stockbroker if that's where they are digging it.

I think I'm just a rarity among the people to do this. I'm not really going to promote it nor say anything bad about it. It's inherently a risky business and requires some degree of skill that is unmatched in this typical world. I can't really explain it from just doing it.

Maybe when I branch out to the more traditional forms of investing, I'll be more social about it, but for the Forex market, it's definitely a wild beast that can't be tamed but has to be challenged by privileged people who are into doing it and just let it fall into place.

Working Out

I'm feeling so much confidence these days and plenty of energy from working out, having good nutrition, and getting a good amount of rest. I think those three things factor into a very healthy life. There has to be a balance that needs to be maintained though. 

I've been accustomed to running and I think I'm going to do that like every other day if possible. I'm also working out quite hard all around my body as well. The finishing touches that I'm missing is just flawless dieting. If I can get that into play, I believe that I'll have something good going. 

Interesting Way To Meet People

I think one of the biggest things that people hate about online dating services is that they aren't free. There's a free one like Craigslist, but the people on there might be crazy and just messaging them with an Internet photo doesn't ensure that they will respond back to you. Also the people on there do not list on most occasions what they look like nor even send out their photo. The person on there could be anybody and for safety precautions it's probably better to just avoid being part of that scene.

I met a few overweight and crazed females on Craigslist and it wasn't happiness for me. They did chase after me and asked me out a few times after we hung out once. I wasn't interested in them anymore. Yeah, it's not a cool thing for me, so I'll just pass on doing that now.

I think the better method is to go on Meetup.com and find people who share the same interests as you do. They will even list their photo so you get an idea of how they look like. Through making these types of friendly connections, from knowing the right person, it might even lead you to the right person to form a happy bond with. That's what sort of happened for me. I met some cool people through there that make me feel comfortable.

Fitting Others Into My Life

Well, one of the things that occur for me when I commit to an activity that includes others is most likely, sacrificing some of my sleep. I've been used to it enough that I can still function with a little rest, even though I risk tiring out throughout the whole day and fight to still awake while driving on the road with most occasions.

There's a really nice person in my life right now who likes to share things that are going on. It's really fun to just talk while texting each other and I've been getting along nicely so well. I'm realizing my selfish ego is pretty jacked up from talking to this person, so in a way, it's been helping me let go of those prideful and angry issues. It's just made me grateful to have a person like that to help build my character.

Trying To Manage Personal Schedule

I'm seeing that I'm practically avoiding my time usage with playing Magic: the Gathering throughout the week. It looks like I have more bigger priorities to get myself accustomed to. As I become more efficient with myself, I think that's going to be a major factor for me.

Because of how I look at myself now, if people don't really have time for me then I'm not really so much fretting or being disappointed about it anymore. I have enough trouble as it is already to try to get everything in order for myself.

Reaching Towards Goals

I'm pretty much the same as always. I want to be proficient at the Bible and living under its holy guidance, get a six pack, and become a millionaire! It's just little by little, I will be making myself better on a daily basis. 

Concentrating and diligence are such useful qualities to have. These days things have been actually getting better for me because of my willingness to have patience with people who just upset me now. I'm totally willing myself to find personal solutions that would make it easier on myself without having to push them out of my life. I just like pushing myself through those concerns because it makes me still feel positive. 

Pretty Much Easy

I've been told that I'm really intelligent by people who have tried to cross me with their differences of opinions. Yet, I'm still living and trying to keep on pushing on ahead. Okay, I saw this ad at a volunteer site about this animal shelter that needs people to walk dogs and socialize with cats at a minimum of 8 hours a month. I'm totally buying into it.

I've always wanted a dog and cat and someday I will. I have been struggling with managing my finances a little and did some crazy things with it while trying to get out of the rat race. I placed myself in a number let's say like $30,000 in debt from trying to do business that I had no shot in. It's like I paid for an expensive school and then dropped out.

Now, I have a decent paying job and could probably pay off everything I owe so far in a matter of a few years if I really tried, but I'm having so much fun with trying to live life man. I'm just procrastinating with paying off debt because it's so fun and acquiring new gadgets to assist me. I'm practically normal and slightly living on the edge for that thrill of excitement and adventure.

One of these days, everything is just going to come together. As I continue to fix myself and focus on the better things that's required for myself, I'm really bad at developing routines with myself. Again, that's a pretty normal situation. I can connect like this with everybody.

Spending some money on me just to see how it's like and not doing it that often now and trying to save up the majority of it to pay off everything I owe, it's really going to come together for me and I'm going to start getting it all together someday. After all, words are cheap and people will be angry and disappointed, but overall, my intentions if they make me happen will probably pay off if I continue to work hard at it, especially with this major plus side about me that likes to do self-improvement.

Developing Myself

One of the things that I have to admit is that I've been having a little trouble keeping focused on the things of God these days. I'm tuning in the radio and whenever I can, I'm listening to tidbits that the pastors speak, but other times, I found my mind wandering off to other things. This is basically a really normal thing then.

I feel like I could commit myself more in this area of studying the Word of God. I'm sure people out there will be like you should and there will be some who would feel like what's the point of even bothering with it. From the Bible itself, I've found that passages are really rich with deep meaning especially if I look up some commentaries on verses that I don't understand. It's really ripe and the spiritual fruit is just read to be eaten. It gives a wonderful perspective in this life.

Basically, everything that has led up to this point has been about living for some cause. This life that we live has been all about making independent choices because we are blessed with that opportunity. Yet, it's not uncommon to see people struggling with what they want in life and suffering from something.

I honestly wish I did all I could from an early age to ensure that I reach like 6 feet in my height and be athletic with a really attractive and sweet girlfriend. Even if that would mean like the world to me to have, the joy of being able to seek something greater than myself makes it much more worthwhile to still make the best out of what I can at this point in time.

Level of Appropriateness

Well this is something that I'm going to have to end up questioning myself a little in the realm of ethics. From reading up on my own personality, I am naturally made up to be a leader. I have strong qualities in those areas of wanting to improve myself and to be of good service for others. I want to lead a team that's just fired up to do good stuff in this world. I want to be part of a vision that I can successfully hang on to and be boldly happy about with leading the charge, while enjoying the fruits of its labor.

Basically, I'm just a normal person after all everything has happened for me. I'm doing the best I can, but it doesn't matter in the end because everybody is meant for something big in this world. I want to continue to humble myself and just be humorous to the best of my ability. I would like to just continue to focus in general with life.

Let the Good Times Roll

I'm starting to see that things are getting a little busy for me and that I don't really have time for doing some luxuries that I'm accustomed to. I have so many things on my mind at this point in time that the issue with timing has a lot to do with what I'm going through. Overall, I guess it would be nice to be an influence to others in a positive way, but I'm not so good at reaching out to the masses.

For the first part, I'm not someone who looks the part of a charismatic person. Heck, I'm not even the typical person to be supposed to be using the English language. Maybe just hanging in there is probably the best thing I can really come up with and to just be patient about things. It's pretty cool and all, but I see that I can't really make everybody happy. Others are the same way for me too. Yet, I constantly feel like I'm getting somewhere these days. It's just like one day at a time for me.

Journey With Trading Currency

I've adopted a patient method of trading Forex now. For the last three months of demo trading, I've been marginally profitable. My fourth month is also proving to be the same. I will be ready to put in a few grand to invest now starting next month.

Factoring In Stuff

I'm just going to try to have fun with it. That's pretty much all I can really do. I might as well do that and also relax in general. It feels good to be that way and enjoy myself. Man, I don't know what I'm really typing on here. I'm just going random with it again. Nothing really fancy here.

Doing Best I Can

There's pretty much three things that I'm still trying to work on after all these months. I'm still trying to read the Bible, learning to trade currency, and working out. I'm pretty much on my fourth consecutive winning month with trading and it's starting to make me a little profit for the small amount of time I put into it.

My fitness level is like way better than ever as well, and it's like I can't believe I've got this far in a matter of five months of dedicating myself. I don't see myself stopping because I love the energy level that it provides for me while I'm working out.

Moving On

Well, it looks like just me typing on this blog is definitely going to get me a few visitors. These days, I think I'm just this really small guy that nobody really wants to listen to. Yet, I feel comforted from just reading the Bible now.

I also finished reading Marvel's Infinity Gauntlet which is a really cool comic book. Well, nobody really knows what's going to happen to them tomorrow, so why not live it out like it's the last day? It's not easy to do always because sometimes it's just a typical and daily routine that could be filled with heartache.

I personally see that a lot of positive attitude can go into it, along with putting in the effort to get to where you want to be.

Sense of Humor

I think having a sense of humor really helps with feelings of being let down. I think it's really important to have a great deal of patience when it comes to having decent relationships with people. I mean everybody just goes through different walks in life. 

You just can't have it all in this world and not everybody is going to end up with a picture perfect scenario. Even working for it is going to be tough, but all the while it's worth the effort and the experiences you gain from them is sometimes really meaningful. 

I guess when it comes to forming relationships, it's really all about meeting the right people and then just being patient instead of being some weird person that initially scares everybody near them out of some misunderstanding that got out of hand. 

It's an awesome thing that even though time and time again, I may feel let down and sometimes angry with someone and about to blow up on them for something not really that serious; I'm actually glad to take part in this world with someone I'm really interested in getting to know and attracted to. 

I'm just going to continue to improve myself and keep going after my goals. With whatever time may permit, I'll do the best I can. 

Finding A Chance At Love

Hey, I think I'm finally catching onto this whole finding someone to marry thing. It's basically in a nutshell you, the man or woman, find the opposite gender who ends up having feelings of love for you. By doing so, the man can ask the woman who is in love with the man to marry her.

It's just that simple! This was really all under the nose for me. I think the hard part is learning that through the depressing thoughts of having nobody to care for us, it's really just that those feelings are underneath and like something that's coded in our DNA from birth.

It's a natural feeling that you just have to be aware of and by doing so, you can just take control of that emotion and do something about it. You can take charge of that feeling and motivate yourself to feel better by working hard at what it is you are trying to accomplish.

I know that it's hard to do this and sometimes emotions can be just so powerful and overwhelming, but just by giving it some time and having a willful mind to be patient, it allows you to start understanding these basic emotions that we have had to deal with since the beginning from when we were aware of them.

Made Up Story- Day Of Baking Pizza

SNIFF! SNIFF! Kyle was suffering from seasonal hay fever while in his early 30s'. He managed to finally land a job as pizza maker to help pay for his school tuition. He was barely making it and managed to live in his crammed and cozy apartment for a few years. I'm not going back to my crazy folks, thought Kyle to himself. The last he had heard from then was a minute ago because his mother was constantly texting him insecure messages. Come back home Sweetie. Mamma has got some nice T-bone steak cooked for you and some of your favorite apple pie. This was one of the latest texts that was going through Kyle's mind.

The food was always good, but fortunately I have a fast metabolism, thought Kyle. I could live off of just free pizza for ten years.

"Heck, I could just eat toppings to get my daily vitamins in. Let's see, there's tomatoes, bell peppers, anchovies - yum yum (!) my mouth is getting so watery, mushrooms. Man, how can I go wrong? I got this, " Kyle said out loud to himself.

One of his subordinates gave him an odd stare and had an expression that showed neither fear nor approval. AHHH CHOO! AHH CHOO! AHHH CHOO! Kyle started sneezing uncontrollably while he was working with the flour. He accidentally sent powdery substances to the strong air vents and soon enough the whole kitchen was covered in smoke that was a mixture of Kyle's saliva and powder.

Kyle's assistant Ace started coughing and waving at the air as he reached for a cloth to cover his mouth. While scrambling to go tell on Kyle, Ace ended up burning one of his hands in the oven by accident.

"I can't see, it's too cloudy in here Kyle!" yelped Ace.
"Let me help guide you out of there," said Kyle smoothly as he grabbed his assistant's burned hand.
"Ouch! You are hurting me! Let go!"

"Go home Kyle!" yelled his angry boss. "Get those allergies fixed. Here take some of these my doctor prescribed me to use as a sample."

Kyle swallowed a pill blindly. "Boss let me take care of this mess. I'll help clean up."

"Kyle! Just go home. I've had enough stress and worries for today. You are done for the day. I'm going to clock out for you."

Jerk, thought Kyle as he stood there smiling at his boss and nodding affectionately in approval.

Made Up Story - Bible Reading

Oh man, I thought to myself. I felt so sick and tired and really sad. My boss decided to give me an impossible 18-hour shift. I was dying to myself to keep myself awake. I was falling asleep while standing! I couldn't believe that my boss had the nerve to do this me and say that for the whole month I'm being switched over to a salary. I have a few of these shifts remaining. Maybe the Bible will bring me comfort.

I haven't read the Bible in awhile. I think I read one sentence and then lights out. I was knocked out on my own desk. It's so bad that I could use it as a bed time story to force myself to sleep when I have to instead of staying awake.

The next day, I opened the Bible again. Oh man, it's light out. Oh darn it, I had to go to work. I'm going to be late oh no! Save a wretched man like me.

The third day, I look at the cover of the Bible. Blank. The fourth day, it's still going on over and over like this. I want to give the Bible a chance. What's coming over me? It's my stubborn mind that just wants to do foolish things like this.

The wind blew on my face. I unconsciously stashed my copy of the Bible in my picnic basket at a park while going on a lovely play date with my girlfriend. The Bible was there and the wind blew a few pages of the Bible open. Then, my girlfriend Kate decided to flip through the pages a few more times.

She mocked me as she laid there and for the nerdy person she was, she had a pen in her purse and underlined a verse for me to read. She said to read it to her and that it would be like the perfect bedtime story for her. She jokingly said that I better not fall asleep or the food would go to waste for both of us.

I held my breath and thought to myself, if I'm going to marry this decent lady someday then I better be able to suck this in.

"For God so loved the world, " I staggered with my voice. I was falling asleep, oh no!

"That He gave His only begotten Son," I had more lines to read. "That whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." I read a full sentence in the Bible finally. My heart leaped with joy.

My girlfriend sat up and kissed me on the check. "Great job," she said, "when are you ready to attend Sunday service?"

Oh boy. "Amazing!" I said. "Grace, I mean. It's amazing grace. Maybe I'll act a little bit more alive the next time you drag me there sweetie!"

Made Up Story About The Calculator

Johnathan was having a hard time enjoying his life in high school. He wanted to get into an Ivy League school because he just felt a special calling to be there. Early on, he just knew that he wanted to follow in the footsteps of his role model George W. Bush, who went to Yale University and also attended Harvard Business School. Little did America know this, but some critics mocked President Bush's inability to pronounce words properly.

Johnathan became angry with himself while trying to memorize concepts in his Organic Chemistry text book. "I'm just not getting this and it's almost already 12 am," thought Johnathan while he stretched and yawned at his desk. He took out his TI-83 Plus calculator and then started putting in all the formulas he needed because the chemistry teacher would not allow notes for the exams. By the time it was 2 am, Johnathan had created a simple program that would solve some tedious equations by inputting numbers into it. He ended up with an A+ on his exam and reasoned with himself to not brag about it with his peers, out of apprehension of being outed as a cheater. Johnathan was also a candidate for valedictorian at his high school. 

Made Up Story About Mr. Mogi

Mr. Mogi's office was painted in all red to signify that it was the only room inhabited by a human. With thousands of doors jammed together, this color-coded section helped Mogi get to his location a lot faster at the factory. All the other doors were inhabited by his self-operating robots.

Mr. Mogi was working on machining a complicated part for Aerospace Inc. The tools broke and he had to switch them out with new ones and setup the machine again. As he worked, he accidentally nicked his hand. By reflex, Mr. Mogi ended up sucking his own blood while running over to his first aid compartment.

Preventing Future Clashes With People

I sometimes get riled up with stuff that makes me want to feel anger. I need to be careful to not turn on that switch of wrath. If I show it in only small increments and then switch it off, it's going to give some people I used it on some anger management problems.

After all of those incidents happened, I think I'm ready to do the best I can to make myself a better person over the experience. A lot of it is what's underneath me, and from knowing those feelings of discomfort, I can just switch it to a more comfortable feeling when it feels out of tune.

Yet, I think all of this effort of keeping myself in check now and moving forward consistently, it's really from desiring to follow God's Word diligently. God has already done the work, and I'm just in joy from having learned how Biblical principles do contribute to a better life and more blessings that matter to the heart.

Living For More Joy and Less Fear

"I'm in so much pain!" screamed the demoness. "He's coming too close to me! Arghhhhh." These are the screams that a man of my stature and exact likeness would love to dream about. Actually, since I'm narrating and this is my story, let's hypothetically say this was true, would I really be playing with fire?

This is just a whole bunch of nonsense but I feel the terror like what if I said I'm imagining myself terrorizing Satan's daughter! No, that can't be right and ending up in a marriage with her is just so not supported in the Bible. Okay, I don't believe Satan has a daughter and then why did I entertain it? I used the word demoness, so I needed a play-on character with something. This is all make believe and hocus pocus stuff to try to get to my point.

Jesus died for me and you. Okay, and then he conquered hell. That feels good and is like the most important story that everyone should believe upon if he or she ever gets the chance to.

Within You

Within you lies the "feels good" power. Literally, such a thing called the "feels good" power does exist. Sometimes it's clouded by distractions such as sadness and anger. The feels good power can arise out of our systems when we try to evoke some phenomenon that reach out to other galaxies beyond the furthest reach of humanity itself. To the home of aliens maybe, they too might have the privilege of practicing laughter!

Blank Story

Cool story brah!

Breaking Fourth Wall

A man walked into the middle of nowhere. "Alas," he said, "alas? What does that mean? Tell me reader!" For all its hype and creativity, I am a character of this story. I have been ingesting food for thought all day. I feel so queasy! This is a story about a man who was breaking the fourth wall.

"I can be like Deadpool too," said the man. "Did I get your attention? No?! Okay." The man felt very lonely after saying those statements out loud to himself. I conclude this short story of the man who was trying to break on through to the other side. Those lyrics of The Doors still resonate deeply within me.

Another Made Up Story

"Fantastic to see you burning up, mate!" said a man with a high-pitched masculine and Australian accent over the cell phone. Jerry peaked into his mailbox and took out a postcard with a full-sized photo of his friend's pet kangaroo posing with punching gloves on the front side and then flipped it over to nonchalantly see the same phrase reiterated next to his stamped address.

"When are you finally giving me your address without having to hack your phone, you wild ass?", Jerry sarcastically asked on the phone. Immediately after sensing anticipation, he drew the HTC away from him and rolled his eyes while his friend Jack erupted in laughter on the other line. After catching each other's breath, Jack resumed, "How's Jenny?"

"I don't know, she left me! I'm stuck living in the middle of Death Valley until I finish my poorly funded research. It's so freaking hot here." Jerry stood there lamenting about how his unwavering dedication to his scientific community was contributing to his crumbling marriage with his high school sweetheart.  

Trying To Stay Nice

With people having tried to screw me over with the most stupid things in the world, I just don't care now because I still have money and friends! I'm not incarcerated because they are a bunch of idiots who couldn't control their anger problems with me. I don't really care anymore what they did to offend me in the past. I'm ready to turn the page and reconcile with whatever remains in their rotten heads.

The reason why I got involved in those stupid misunderstandings is because I was texting them snide jokes about how they were giving me anger management issues. I guess I'm grateful to just have entertaining and simple text conversations with people I'm attracted to, so it's been a really good incentive for me to gain better grounding in a moral sense. I'm just starting to get really comfortable with my own shell now.

Losing My Touch

I guess I've been spending time texting other people that I've lost track of how to put something on this blog. You know, I actually prefer texting others and getting response back rather than putting on something here that no one is going to be able to respond to because I intentionally took commenting privileges off.

I guess after staring at the 0 comments for a long time on this pretty generic looking blog that nobody needs to read for anything significant, except just me exercising my personality drives, it would make sense for me to disable the comments for aesthetic purposes because there's really no point for people to make a discussion against my brain. It's probably more like shut themselves off from me making a nice effort, unless I just get them really riled up. I'm not going to do that. At least, having this blog, I get to explain myself repetitively!

Making Up a Pointless Story

Once upon a time, a man named Gringo wondered after all these years why people would stare at him. Throughout his life, he managed only one friendship with a shy girl, who he knew from his childhood and held very dear to his heart. Wilma had a fine complexion about her and liked to wear a blue dress on most occasions. She liked to wear her hair in a ball-like fashion. She used to dread how she was raised in a family that had a phobia for the color red and was forced to help them cope with it by dying her natural red hair to her next preference of hair color, brunette!

Guess I'm Meant For One-on-One Interaction

I can't really appeal to the masses that well because it always leaves me feeling uncomfortable and disgruntled. I just have that personal wave of discomfort underneath me. This one girl thought I needed some speech therapy so she recommended that I go to this one person. I don't know what she was smoking, but from how she said it, she was just handed a Master's in Psychology for just letting her mind run however she wanted to when it came to her analysis. Man, she was a bit hairy literally and also taller than me too, so yeah, I couldn't help but feel not very attracted to her and also I don't know why, I wasn't that intimidated by her.

I think I was just feeling pressured a lot because I wanted to say the right things and act the proper way all the time. I was afraid of getting mad when people started to go out of their way to try to give me bad advice. I felt like I was going to lose it so badly, that I ended up doing passive aggressive attacks to redirect my frustrations and then they received them and couldn't cope with anger I had already been learning to come to terms with all my life.

Settling My Instincts

Okay, I guess it's all a part of life with being guys and all. Feeling like a loser or a wimp or a nobody who has nothing going for him. Practically, just being unhappy about life. I know a guy who feels that way, but he's just not smart I guess to figure it out.

I think it's all just a part of life that we all go through. It's just a phase. It's something that we are sometimes wired to feel that way for some reason. It just comes and go. It's a part of us internally and something we can regulate within ourselves to make our lives better.

One of the biggest fears I have is probably the reason why I don't strive to make this blog so great. I'm afraid that I'll put down something that makes me largely misunderstood for and just create more rambunctious people to start running their mouths about me and try to get me in trouble. It's happened to me on numerous occasions and I've failed to deliver because I don't want to unleash my "Hulk" - you know that green, raving, terrorizing monster that just can rip people apart after he screams so loud that the other person's lungs feel like popping!

I'm joking which is a good sign of my unconventional humor. I've developed some reason to just make comments that nobody really appreciates, but those people leave me alone. I'm always making those types of comments so that people wouldn't under appreciate the comments I make and then start trying to bash me.

Totally Behind Here

It feels like this blog is just practically a whole bunch of just putting them random sentences to just keep my mind occupied. Maybe I should just start writing stories that have no coherence at all! Sure, a few people I show this website will be like whoa, you actually have one. I didn't know about this guy. Next thing you know, some guy is misunderstanding me and then making all of these rude assumptions about me.

It happens I guess and for some reason, I don't really know, I'm just trying to be cool with everybody. Actually, for the most part, I really am and I guess I've been letting some little things get to me about people. It's those little things that keep me from connecting with them. Well, everybody goes through problems and this spunky site of mine where I just get to write sentences that I find funny just to entertain myself and anyone else who just happened to find it, I don't really know what else to say now.

Controlling the Mood

I've read that calming the mind can be pretty relaxing by learning to meditate. Honestly, I think it's really hard to meditate on the Word of God. It would be quite troublesome actually to try to recall passages that seem so hard to understand. Yet, going through all of that process and eventually just looking up interpretations from Biblical scholars and sitting through it a little and relying on other verses to double check their work is trustworthy, I find that God's Word is totally rewarding and can put a protective shield around one's heart.

One of the latest things that I ignored reading in the Bible is that a man who vents all of his frustrations is a fool! The wise man knows how to control those emotions and not show it to everybody. I'm now honestly going this route because I seriously believe that it's true and has some deep meaning.

Instead of being a stupid and unfair man who yells at everybody for causing him some anger issues, I'd rather stay calm and knowledgeable with the situation I'm dealing with currently.

Not Feeling Too Excited About Being Part of History

Yesterday, the Golden State Warriors of the NBA beat the Memphis Grizzlies to give themselves the all-time record of most wins in a single season with 73 and 9 losses. The previous record was 72-10 with Michael Jordan leading his Bulls. I think it's cool to have lived through both of those moments, but I was unaware when the Bulls set their record. In a way, it's okay I guess now that I was able to actually see what was happening.

Maybe, if the Los Angeles Angels of the MLB end up having the best record again and then win the World Series, I'll be feeling actually pretty good about it for days. For now, with the Warriors, I think all I can is to just sit at the comfort of my own couch and then congratulate them via twitter or some social form of contact.

Trying To Not Neglect This

Well, now I've been picking up on a few tricks here and there. I mean I'm pretty cool with how things are progressing, but it looks like how I'm going to find dates is just finding a girl who is single and interested in me after meeting her in person! That's pretty much it. I used to be shy because I didn't know what I was doing and felt like a loser from being a short guy. I know, pains that stick to you from adolescence really suck!

I've been realizing more and more that my desires are really rooted in my own selfish pretenses. As strange as that seems, it's just how I never really imagined myself seeing that way. I think the more bigger reason is because I'm trying to live in God's Word when it comes to dating and living one's life. Just the fact that I have the temptation right in front of me and making the choice to not really give into my primal urges and exercise self-awareness and control makes me feel like a stronger and energetic person. I'm still a work in progress, but I'm glad that I've finally developed a pretty neat relationship with a lady. It's been helpful to me in that I have someone who is actually fun and someone I can look forward to doing stuff with. She's a really cool and nice friend, practically at the moment. I don't know where it's going to progress in the future, but I'm open to possibilities and I think it can only keep getting better, unless something happens and then we plateau somewhere.

Proper Time Management

It looks like I'm moving myself away from trying to be a professional bowler now! I do enjoy the game a lot, so I wish I was good enough already to lock in the millions of dollars from competitions and just have fun with my life. Well, it's not going to happen. You can't always have everything in your life, especially if you aren't willing to put in an insane and stupid amount of time with something.

With that happening, I see myself actually forming a rock/pop band for just fun now. I'm already okay at playing the piano and can bust out a few tunes from having practiced them for several months. However, I want to try learning the electric guitar for fun and see where that journey will take me. I believe that I might be able to foster a good rocker's voice, if I train myself with a talented vocal coach.

I honestly think it would be really cool to meet and date a girl who is quite into Magic: the Gathering. It would be such a delight to bring her to some card shops and let her socialize with the other guys. I wouldn't care if she beat me or talked smack to me so much, but for like my closest friend, man I get so worked up and try not to let it get to me all the time. All of a sudden, I decided to not to play my prized deck against him. He's always up for that challenge though, but I'm just not in the mood anymore.

I just read in the Bible that venting is for fools and that a wise man knows how to keep it in under control (Proverbs 29:11). This is pretty much how it is, and I'm sheepishly feeling grateful over this, but I'm actually glad that fools don't really like to be my friend. I'm not going to say everything that I'm feeling anymore. I'm going to put a lid on it and find sound reasons for what's happening.

Exercising Discipline

I don't really have a lot of this discipline. What I do have is habits. I feel like doing something consistently when it turns into a habit. I can just continuously and aimlessly be stupid and go after things that don't make sense! I think I was trying to stand up for what I believe in which is really my motive and doing the best I can to conceal my anger.

It didn't work out well because I was trying to be nice. Well, from showing my true colors which I think was mean, I ended up being the best of friends with some people. That just goes to show that stressing out over feeling like how I'm so mean isn't really going to make that relationship last. I think it just comes down to laying out an emotional foundation and building upon it using trust, generosity, friendliness, and acceptance.

I was confided in really well by those people who were a bunch of jerks with me initially. I ended up being nice friends with them. I think I was just trying to hold back because I'm just thinking that what I'm doing is a sin. It's more like, I'm trying to go for the higher ground which is being a cool person and knowledgeable as well in dealing with situations.

I'm not going to fruitlessly watch T.V. and play video games, neither am I going to play Magic: the Gathering for awhile and just go searching for dates I guess or just go reading up on stuff that I would like to get better at.

Looking At the Right Places

I don't really want to be scandalous and steal people's girlfriends. Some guys are open to try stealing mine, but I'm not going to do it out of just respect no matter how much I think I'm compatible with a lady. It's just my own code that I have decided to live by. Besides, relationships can sometimes be meant to be broken, so what's the point of intentionally being the focal point of a serious breakup?

I really hate that, and it was that irritation between two guys who were fighting over me that I earned myself a restraining order from a troubled man! He's a pretty bad guy. He cheated on his own wife, what a stupid man too. He raised my eyebrows a lot, and I was out to get revenge for the restraining order he planted on me, so his ex who used to be my friend is never going to understand that. I didn't tell her that was my motive. I was trying to hide it because I didn't want to accept what I was doing is evil and so scandalous! I was going to set a bag of dog poop on fire and force him to clean it up on his property.

What's really cool is that I'm now able to talk with women as just friends now. I just need to talk to the single ladies more. I've been more associated with girls who have boyfriends or maybe they just got in a relationship and I just didn't notice. Well, it's time for me to upgrade to a girl who I think is even better than the other girls I ended up liking for a relationship.

I think the secret might be through connections, so by being friends with these friendly and beautiful women, they might attract some more beautiful friends and I might get an opportunity to be friends with them and maybe, if it just hits in a natural setting, I might be able to settle down with my dream beauty. I'll take my time on it and not rush things, like some people are apt to doing while being swept off their feet.

Never know, you might find something you don't like. Anyway, it's cool that I approached women with the whole, unconditional mindset of acceptance. I think that's what they feel comfortable being around and will encourage them to open up. If I can set my eyes on a really beautiful girl who happens to be available and is open to committing with me, then wow, it would be like mission impossible that came true.

Making Friends and Meeting Fun

It's a lot of fun in meeting different people. I'm just taking my time and not really being that active, but definitely making some friends with girls has helped me so much! I'm just going to continue to just be nice and helpful with this one girl I like. I don't really care that she's dating someone and just wants to be friends with me. I guess I'm just naturally nice to people I really like. I'm a little sad, but it's not something that I'm going to hold on to forever. Maybe, I can meet more girls I'm attracted to and be friends with the really nice ones who have the right personality, if they are dating others as well.

Overall, there's really no trouble in being friends with people who are taken already, but being attracted to them. I guess it's a feeling that's going to be overlooked as you move on and fall in love with someone better than that person. Yeah, I think it's really important that I settle down with someone I'm totally cool with and sure about.

Nothing Really

I feel like I'm this really short guy, but that doesn't seem to be stopping me anymore. Honestly, now with this experience of becoming a nice friend with a beautiful girl I like, I'm really glad that I tried sticking with God's principles! Through the trials, I decided to honor God's ways despite me not wanting to while being caught up in the moment.

I now realize how if I had fully been immersed in God's ways then I would be having better relief than I'm in right now. Anyway, it isn't really picture perfect with the girl and her situation seems to be a little messy. It's funny that she revealed it to me in a comfortable fashion. I guess I'm seriously cool with that.

Definitely, I have a nice friend in a girl now. Someone who is chill and open to me coming out to hang with her when she has the time and mood for it.

Getting Used To Things

Sometimes, you just can't have everything in life. I think God's ways are really there to protect us from getting in some deep trouble. True, conflict exists and some people will be fortunate enough to figure out their own mess. This doesn't really happen for everyone though.

Well, I found out the girl I like has already been dating someone for like a few years. We have gotten along really well as friends. I mean I'm really grateful that I learned to be patient with people from texting her on a long term scale. She's still someone who can be a nice friend to talk to over the years and developments.

Anyway, she's so cool and I guess I might be able to meet other cool people as well. I mean I could meet someone who could be a lot better for me than her. This could be a wonderful opportunity to go on that search, so even though I feel a little sad about not having the happiness in the moment, it's still pretty cool to think and laugh about. I'm still enjoying having a friendship with her and just hanging out to do fun stuff. It's just talking and being cool with each other. She makes me laugh, and I can see her providing nice advice in the future.

Totally Keeping Myself In Line

These days, my blog isn't really so hot anymore. I think my peek was when it reached just a 1000 views on a blog site that just has a bunch of text. It grew in numbers when I was posting stuff that I didn't feeling comfortable about reading myself. Uh oh!

I think the trend is really that I need to post this site on a daily basis and update it without acting like I forgot about it. I think that's the reason why I'm not getting any visitors on this site anymore. If you don't put in the work consistently, then you can forget about it. Anyhow, it just looks like I'm not caring so much about the quality of my work now and putting down whatever my individualistic self wants to say. I'm just not that attractive I guess, but to a degree, I can say stuff.

Going For An Upgrade

Well, looks like not a lot of people really like to share my own sense of unique vision with humor. It must make them think about themselves and how they aren't doing so hot or what they could do to improve themselves. I don't think telling jokes with people really matter anyway.

Maybe the crowd is just in the mood for being evil sometimes. I mean people can laugh at sick jokes and think it's nothing. I do it too! My heart is evil like that, and I admit while laughing to it. It's not really a good thing to get involved with it in real life. It's like if people talk about doing evil stuff, I'd have to question if they are joking. If they are serious, oh mean, I wish I could do something to prevent it. I guess there's morals that we need to check up on as well.