Friday, May 12, 2023

Finding New Personal Grounds

4AverageLife's Main Personal List
  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
  10. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and play a decent round of online Poker. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing, trading, and playing online Poker. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there. 

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What did I do right today? 

I am learning how I could concern people who I felt were walking all over me in a verbal sense.

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I've found humor and a slice of life truth which feels so good to communicate with people who have weaknesses in dealing with me that now I'm more often in a state of mind that I'm not even being bothered by any ounce of it. 

I could really care a lot but I don't that much while it feels like I could influence some of these folks to go through an unlikely rut. It's a side effect that I'm willing to allow just for the sake of feeling happy to just attempt to inspire them to grow more as wonderful and mature individuals while I just mentally picture myself pointing my finger at them and continuously laugh for good measure.

It doesn't matter whether they succeed or fail my pseudo course about always feeling the good stuff in life that I try to lead them in for fun purposes. I mean it doesn't matter if they always run away while shouting at me and act really scared and become very narcissistic from being unhappy and showing signs of having trouble with their communication skills because they are so angry about not getting what they want. It doesn't matter how they act because I'm happy from just always attempting. I'm like always a very go-happy lucky person.

It's really gotten to this point now that I'm spotting things without feeling scared at nothing ever happening. It's more scary to see nothing ever happen because Stone Cold Steve Austin 3:16 says so. Something is always going to happen which is the same definition of them staring with a blank face or even with any expression while complaining. 

The trick is not to turn into like a narcissist like they are already being so in a sense, since I am cool about letting them behave like cry baby monkeys who can't swing on their safety blanket jungle vines to escape perceived danger and will instead select their option to just go hollering which is all they know how to do- I'm actually ready! 

If they elect to try to always stay calm long enough, then everybody is going to be able to see how they were being bad from the start. This will happen from doing this. I'm going to try a made up technique called reverse mental herding in a group setting.