Friday, December 26, 2008

Controversy with Mass Mailing?

The post title is actually made with a question mark. I usually tend to generalize a lot of my topics but this one is sort of closing in. I will do my best to not write while I am feeling frustrated at some people. In the past, I have actually written a lot of e-mails to people regarding my club just to promote it. A friend told me that my writing was controversial and that some people placed me on their filters. It was so funny. There should be a lot of accountability involved when it comes to writing to people; otherwise, people will just lose interest in what you are trying to tell them.

I have done a lot of suffering in the past, but never thought that my writing was such a killer to people's souls. I think some people just don't like the idea of having to appear self-righteous and tell you personally their dislikes in writing. They like to really cover it up and spread it through a different form of gossip. I don't think people really care totally what I write, but respect a lot of my statements. I think some people get really flustered when you write diffidently because they can't get a lock on what you are trying to tell them, especially when the focus is on some topic of scorn. People have a pattern of bad-mouthing, but when you introduce it with a different pattern and try to break the ice; people really don't want to question their upbringing. Even though people may say they hate what I do, I think deep down inside they are really hurting with the fact that they aren't perfect people. A pure intent of trying to glorify God should really have no painful dramatic effect on perfect people. This is a real topic that I will be trying to flirt with for awhile just to give my feedback without trying to specifically blame anyone.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas - Living for God

Living under faith with Jesus has been an extreme challenge. It's so easy to get carried away in our emotions and totally lose ourselves from the important priorities in life. I try with all my might but I always come up short. It has to be all about Jesus empowering and filling my life with this joy and purpose. I am not trying to come across as this religious person, but just want to get closer to knowing who Jesus is. I don't have all the answers and my prayers should truly be about God's glory.

Recently, I have been struggling with this one thing that can't seem to get out of my life. I will only write this because it's my blog and seems to be common with other guys. I'm dealing with sexual desires in my life and boy it's getting stronger. I really long for that intimacy these days for some reason. There are no guarantees in life always, but the main principle is to trust in the Lord for everything. The wonderful fruits that God's principles provide should be examined to show that a true loving Savior can give us all we need in this fallen world.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Step 2 to Leading a Pretty Girl

After you hear her say that she has absolutely nothing against you, like the words "No resentment." Try to forgive her with what you are mad about. It's really hard to deal with the pet peeve, but you know she likes you so you want to try to not be a big meanie. It takes a real man to be able to forgive a woman who does crazy things to you, all out of love, especially if she strikes your weak spots.

The next step is to embrace her because you have a good reason that she might like you. Have her communicate something related to what you are mad about with her. Don't make it so obvious with her mistake. Then, reassure her that it's okay to embrace her differences with you.

For example, a woman blocked a man she felt uncomfortable with on MySpace. She told the man that she had absolutely nothing against him. The man is extremely annoyed about it because he can't find a good reason. He later feels that the woman likes him. The man is going to forgive her and express it by embracing the woman. He asks the woman at church, if she has ever been in a serious dating relationship with anyone. No matter what the response, he then lets her know that she answered the most important question and that he doesn't mind the differences that he has with her. He then ends up hugging her and kissing her on the cheek. Do you think she'll run away if the man sits by her? My guess is that she won't.

Friday, December 19, 2008

How You Can Lead A Pretty Girl

I think by using discernment it's sometimes a little unwise to publicize our desires, unless it deals directly with serving the Lord. No matter how weird it seems for the cause, I think there's really no worry in how we should go about glorifying God. Surely, we don't want to really lose sight of Him. We all will fall to sin daily, but it does not mean that Jesus won't be there to pick us back up when it happens. Jesus truly loves each and every one of us. He treats us like his children. Being sons and daughters of an unfailing God is like an ultimate treasure.

Currently, my tastes have been changing around a little bit. To want to better serve God, I have been going through a little tension with this female discussion leader at this small church. I think we definitely have desires for each other but not at the right place, currently. This is something that I am willing myself to write, which is that your height and appearance don't really matter that much as long as you try to stay healthy enough. She had a great first impression on me, but don't want to go into all the details and theorize my whole marriage plan! I think the first step to amending a good one-on-one relationship with a female servant in Christ is for the good-looking brother to initiate a cordial friendship. It could be funny, sweet, romantic, or plain; whatever suits your need or personality. Do not be over-aggressive in tone and start getting mad at her face; just convince yourself that she really likes you and you only want to be friends with this attractive girl (so serious)- this will help you think you are in control of the whole situation.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Making Sure Time is Not Wasted

I realize that I am not that gifted because I missed out so much on life by feeling down with myself. I think I should never have done that to myself. I now see that I'm almost stuck here with no where to go. I can truly thank God for giving me the opportunity to be able to walk in a relationship with Jesus. Surely, Jesus is the way, truth, and life. He will steadfastly return one day to this planet to restore what belongs to him. It's amazing how reading through the whole Bible that it can make sense with how we are supposed to conduct ourselves. We're all sinners, basically; no one's righteous on their own might. I now see that praying to God and growing in my faith daily as I fellowship with Him is becoming better for me. The first thing for me is to always work on the heart and to allow God to cleanse me of all unrighteousness before proceeding. It looks as if I am called to live out my life to gain favor with everyone and to be diligent and to be joyful in the Lord.

I hope that by obtaining a lot of knowledge through good influence and the job that I'm working on that I will be able to be pleasing to God. I think I have a lot more to go, since life is rough and tough for me right now. I need to learn to take the right footsteps and overcome every obstacle. I believe that my needs right now are to make the right choices and be satisfied living to please God. Right now I have a lot of free time to myself to obtain good knowledge and to fill up with passion and to be able to have a better fitness level. I am blessed to be living and to have privileges that I never once thought I did. It looks as if I have been taking too many things for granted, while looking down upon myself. I am learning to gradually make better ends meet for myself, which I need to do.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Letter and Notes Dealing with offended Christian leaders

Example letter:

Dear _____,

You recently stated your decision-making personal preferences dealing with people. I am largely bothered by how it affects me emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. (Please let me finish) I think you should reconsider the values of serving in a ministry. Excluding outsiders and me from your normal events, such as unfolded in social networking sites like Facebook is a sign that you are a falling leader (or person). You ought to not be making a public declaration that you would sacrifice unity for the sake of pleasing your personal comforts. Perhaps, spiritual mentorship over men is not your forte and so maybe you would want to exclude your Bible study group to only women or only suggesting, give your title to someone equipped to serve the purposes of God with better clarity.

Questions:

1. Birthday, books, relationship, hobbies discussed in caregroup.
2. Personal preference outweighs the interest of another person/ or for ministry.
**3. When would you hypothetically block another person and was my conduct worth it?
Trying to forgive but causing friction. Not going to convey a positive meaning to others without being open to each other.
4. If I saw your account through another friend and left a comment would you mind?
5. Do you feel your emotions are always stable?
6. Do you distrust what others will write and want me not to see it?
7. Are you using your own moral standards because you don't want to change?
8. Do you feel like I'm attacking your moral dignity?
9. Do you think I am too unpredictable?
10. Would would you have me done to make you feel comfortable? Can you put it into words that describe outward behaviors?
11. When you say "Ignore it", do you mean that for only your happiness?
12. Is it just not rejecting a person's passive style that's not so everyday while something bad was hapening to you?
13. Do you have good intentions with your personal preference?
14. You social interactions including personal preferences appear selfish, if they aren't what are they?
15. Your personal preferences dealing with people appear that you are selective to those who you find perfect, is that the right way for you to conduct yourself?

You can feel uncomfortable with yourself with a guilty conscience, and so how can you avoid yourself with that personal preference? As a result, how do you use personal preference of discomfort with someone who claim to be comfortable with, but has made you feel uncomfortable? Example: bad present, bad joke, bad hair day!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Questions for People Who Wronged You

1. Wasn't your birthday, books, relationship, or hobbies discussed in a group with me?
2. Does your personal preference outweigh the interest of another person?
3. When would you hypothetically block this person and was my conduct worth it?
4. If I saw your Facebook page through another friend and left a comment, would you mind?
5. Do you feel your emotions are always stable?
6. Do you distrust what others will say about you and want me not see or hear about it?
7. Are you using your own moral standards because you don't want to change?
8. Do you feel like I'm attacking your moral integrity?
9. Do you think I am too unpredictable?
10. What would you have me done to make you feel comfortable? Can you put it into words that describe outward behaviors?
11. When you say "Ignore it", do you mean that for only your happiness?
12. Is it just not rejecting a person's passion style that's not so everyday while something bad was happening to you?

Note: Before developing questions, it would be nice to screen the individual by having a warm discussion and communicating after releasing your angry moments of wanting to really argue. Just put your head down and let the feeling pass before continuing. If it helps with the opposite sex, find reasons why she really likes you. Don't get so consumed in it...

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Managing Emotions

I have had a tough time understanding my emotions, and how to relate it with people. I am not sure why one day, but I just felt bad if people rejected my offer of hanging out. I guess I lacked a lot of purpose with doing things and felt bad about wanting the things that I needed. I have had really good friends go out with me by taking granted for them. One of the weirdest things for me is that I can really hold back aggression for awhile, until I need to let it out. I just need to manage my emotions a whole heck of a lot better and be myself. It's pretty cool that I incorporate manners a lot and can feel a little zoned out with people, at times. I guess it's learning to forgive through my sensitivity. It's had some tolls on me, but I think I'll be fine. In a way, writing to a people who I hardly knew at the time seemed like a great experiment to see where I stand. It becomes very tough to stand for what's right when one gets totally angry. On the other hand, if you feel victimized and so guilty about everything and then relent by destroying your own personality because of a misunderstanding then that can be really hard to deal with. It takes a lot of emotional balance to deal with these situations.

I don't know where I really left off, but I guess I decided to be considerate to everyone. I think venting my thoughts through writing and feeling nervous about the reception was a great way for me to grow. It's been part of my identity, as I have been accustomed to doing these things. My mom and neighbor have told me to not to take these things so seriously. I guess having just a tad of frustration is good enough for me because I don't seem to go super crazy when venting in person, whether writing or statement. I do not believe in cursing out someone. I do not even know what's going on fully through a person's head and so I need feedback from these people who can get bad moods. What a tough realization! I don't really care anymore whether it's going to be negative or positive. I need to try to look at things where logically and reason it out with these people, even while I'm angry. I need to always be considerate, even while I'm angry. I just have to be assertive and allow myself to be more laid back.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Relational Things With People

Writing is a great way for me to unload. Maybe people may be feeling like I've lost base with them through writing in like, hey, "You are ignoring me." In actuality, I am trying to give real effort in being considerate and letting them know what I don't like about them. It's amazing because I can actually live through the hardships and have to always feel left out. I really do have private feelings that I do not want to publicly address. It seems to be abusive to my soul to write things that I would rather keep to myself. I think sharing is really important, and knowing that I'm pretty good against emotional arguments, I probably could set an agenda while being completely honest.

The problem that I had in the past was that I would be too sensitive about everything. I would take it so personal, like things would all fall on me with a burden that was too hard for me to deal with. What I am starting to realize is that if I develop good faith in a person, then he or she will react positively with me. It takes a lot of focus and practice to gain a total understanding. To be willing to work through the pressures, anger, attractions, anxieties, and compassion. For me, I really enjoy being filled with an emotion that has regard for others. It feels good to do something about it and put the person at ease. I am going through a lot of trials, and it's so important for me to not lose it. I know that certain types of people can understand my drives, but as I am becoming more conservative and relaxed, I don't need to feel bad about everything. I am armed with a mouth of all types of reason- emotional and physical. I have to see passed through it- I'm like thinking that life deals with marriage. I truly have nothing against guys marrying women I like; I'm happy for them and wish them well and will pray for their success. I believe in honoring a person's marriage to a very high standard.

The only real problem is that I sometimes conceive myself as being short. Well, I do have a mouth and if I want to help then I just need to holler. People don't seem to barge in all of a sudden and just say that I can't do something. I think I've attracted taller women without a problem, which is a total bonus! I am so serious; one time, I received a highly enthused call about hanging out with two, unrelated beautiful believers at separate times. I think it was from putting up a positive attitude at a car dealership not doing so well and making a courtesy call for them to come down. It's baby making season! Oh yeah, and I happen to be around the corner. I just need to stop being so stupid with thinking that I'm short. I have to deal with these insignificant emotions and let it get out of my system. I have a very large testosterone build-up that wants to be engaged only in marriage and causes me to want to be there for the woman of my life. I know who she is, and I hope she can make me the most fortunate man in the world. I'm not the greatest individual out there and so I can understand if passions ensue elsewhere in the end. However, I want to really know her and do the things she likes doing and so God will be still great no matter we form a family or not. I now feel blessed to have received this calling to marry.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Battle With The Misfits

I think I can literally pinpoint sometimes who the insecure people are, especially by them wronging me in certain areas. Perhaps, they are trying to battle with themselves of a total insecurity that they are unaware of. I've never thought of writing this type of subject but I think they have a truly bad outcome in the future because of their unwilling minds to expand. It takes time to get to know one, and I can sort of see the negativity behind the social engagements. I have seen this type of person before, and I truly don't need to apologize to them for whatever reason. It should be the other way, around. =)

I have never really thought that writing could become a tool for offending people. You basically write with confidence and then see how they react. With the events that circulate, sometimes these readers can fail to see the truth behind nothing in visual text. I'm really holding back all my frustrations and engaging in slight mental laughter and allowing them to read it. It's an area where I hold a ton of power to these readers. They can try to offset me in the social world, but it comes at a price. If they mention it to anyone, it will be to their downfall. If I say it, I just get some laughs from friends. My intentions are not really to harm, and if I have no legal law suits and even if I'm very personable with writing, these individuals seriously have an issue. I'm finally seeing that they really know about their own problems. I think my personality displayed on any medium is a force that's helping and brings the truth out of people. I just need to not let my anger get in the way with these pet peeves. If I do, it will only be relenting to trouble. I can seriously see myself with victory from the hard work I put into it. God has made me into a peace keeper, and now that I know, I don't have to be afraid to work under annoyances and stay patient.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Struggles With Desire

Life is filled with temperamental desires.
The emotions that set you apart from others can leave you.
Struggles and undefined values of the past.
Longing to have something-that has now departed.

The will of the Lord is to sometimes make us bolder.
To make sense and meaning in life by living the right way.
To know the love of the Creator and be reminded by it.
Daily bread that can satisfy us all to the heart's content.