That Day of the Month

Well, it's Halloween and because of my conservative disposition, I don't really care to feel even offended. I'm just in it for the free candy! I just didn't feel like writing Happy Halloween even though I did right now. 

I'm writing this post 44 days ahead of schedule, so looking at what I want to do right now, I should be focusing on cooking delicious and fast meals while working out more. If I can't work out from being too tired or unable to function from being too lazy, then at least I should be watching my diet. All of this, while keeping it ceteris paribus. Yes, it's a big economic word! 

Disciplining Self for Better Reward

I've always had trouble with doing this since I was a kid, but I've always wanted to have fun. Yet, if I didn't do my homework and performed poorly on my tests, I would feel a lot of anxiety. I didn't figure it out, but I just did enough to get by while struggling and then getting lucky. 

It really feels good to work hard and then make plenty of progress. It doesn't even feel like anything sometimes and totally mindless once the struggles are over with. I guess it's just discipline with knowing what you want to do versus understanding what you have to do to get by. 

I think I just need to put in the effort to work out and cook fast meals that are good, while continuing to remember checking up on my Forex trades before giving into some guilty entertainment. I have found a long anime series that is something worthwhile to watch and have finished half of it now. I'll have to work on saving it for last and if I'm unable to get to it then maybe save it for the weekend. 

I guess I need to live my life first with doing these chores I have in mind with doing to maintain my well-being. I also have my paid online courses that have been collecting dust and something I would like to complete to get my money's worth. Since I'm already making a living with my day job as a programmer, I might as well just put in some time to do the extra training and try to have some fun with completing my own apps to sell for fun someday, whether it's hit or miss. I want to make useful apps that won't legally cost me a lot of money to develop.

Riding on Someone's Coattails

I can see myself benefiting off of well-experienced investors by listening to their advice for a nominal fee annually. It doesn't really bother me at all. I would like to get into their highest level of membership and gain access to all VIP services once I have saved up enough from investing.

I think I just need about $100,000 saved up in my portfolio before taking advantage of everything they have to offer. It probably won't happen until about another five to seven years with the pace I'm currently going at. I'm totally fine with it. 

At the same time, their research is the only thing I'm taking seriously into consideration and the rest of the managing is going to be done by me. In a way, I see it as paying to become successful from buying monthly newsletters. It's making a lot of sense to me with what I'm reading and am totally comfortable with putting some of my hard-earned money at risk afterwards. 

There are also available options with hiring a trading manager. I went with this route in the beginning with Forex trading and experienced failure twice. I then decided to go with my way and so have been managing better with far less losses and even taking profit better than their past performances. 

Don't believe in any guarantees trading managers make with you unless you can make a deal with them and put enough trust that they will pay out of their pocket with any losses they incur to your account. This is the lesson I learned from experience and failed to notice from being desperate to make some money. The good thing though is that hardship has taught me to be a lot better at investing and now I'm able to identify profitable trades using my own system I developed. 

Reaching Further in Life

It looks like I'm getting used to staying in any volatile market with its high and low cycles now. I have been honing on when the right time to exit the market is, whether with some profit or taking a loss. It's starting to become more apparent with my routine analysis as I risk really small to try to improve on my accuracy. Once I'm ready, I plan to start scaling my investments. Since I'm doing swing trading for my speculations, I don't really need to stay in the market for a really long time in contrast to how I'm investing in the majority of my stocks. 

I read a book a few years ago by a self-proclaimed millionaire trader. He said that it's good to combine trading in mainly stocks, options, and Forex to become wealthy. This is where I see myself going eventually too, but for trading in stocks and options I'll just leave it to some pros I've chosen to hold my hand for a nominal fee.

I really think my main specialty in  trading deals with Forex. Currently, I'm combining it with a stock portfolio and have one losing options trade. It's all dealing with calculated risk and I've found out that I'm going to need bigger capital than $6000 to make some reasonable option calls that my service provider is recommending weekly. I'm going to have to wait for that someday by saving more and continuing to invest in cheaper stocks. 

Art of Knowing Oneself

I believe there's an advantage to being the owner of this post and how it's intended to do its main purpose. It's really meant to just entertain myself later on from writing so smart that people could read it and think I'm normal while opening myself up so fully. 

I'm just going to reiterate what I want to do with my life. I do want to get a sexy and nice girlfriend and then go on to have a nice marriage. I think it will always be tons of fun with the right person I'm attracted to. I would like to just have this wonderful and fun connection with her, so I guess that's how you would find out by trying to date that person. I would like her to be satisfied with me mentally, physically, and emotionally. I'm looking for this person from an 80% personality and 20% looks biased point of view.  

Other than that, I'd like to get myself in better looking shape and see if I can keep on growing taller while being able to cook delicious and nutritious meals in a jiffy without scrambling for ingredients so much. I might as well just start practicing while maintaining my side business.

It's really crazy in that I can't find myself hooked to gambling at online Poker. It's just too much risk for me even though I've been only risking up to $5.00 each time. I don't feel compelled to keep on playing once I get into the cooler after a smarter opponent cleans me out! 

However, I feel indifferent about living through an up and down cycle from investing and speculating on stocks and the Forex market. I think I'll just stick with that and drop this showboy act with trying to always hustle smarter people around at Poker. I just have to remember and stick to it, so I'm going to quit while I'm ahead by a little because I can't handle losing to the grinder. 

Yet, my calling to get wealthy off of investing stays regardless of how I'm doing. It just makes sense to me, no matter how rich or poor I'm doing at it. I guess that's going to stick with me, so might as well do something else that's smart to pass off my time while I wait to get in the mood and then connect with the right girl for dating purposes. 

Getting Things Done

I'm starting to figure out that personal happiness is something you must work for to make the most out of it. Some days, the rush isn't going to be there and for other times it's going to be better depending on what you are doing or focusing on.

I'm starting to relate that it's like going for a long run and maintaining it. I have an advantage here because I do run about 8.5 miles on a windy trail with some steep incline. It's pretty fun and exhausting that I have to manage a comfortable jogging speed of about 10 minutes per mile. It's not bad and I'm not complaining about wanting it to be at a faster pace. I personally believe it will get there if I keep on working at it by just doing it weekly at around the same time.   

The way I see it is that you have to know what you think will work best for yourself and then apply some self-discipline with just doing it mindlessly on some days. It needs to be a daily thing and something you should stay positive about. Otherwise, there's something wrong going on and you should be doing some self-examining the best you can.  

Maintaining Consistency

I think my main goal at the moment is building up my wealth soon as possible from investing in stocks, trading currency, and playing a little online Poker. The online Poker format is more like a gamble though and I'm realizing more how my system is working which is really dependent on taking advantage of bad players. Basically, they are referred to as fish. The objective is to play against an opponent who feels like being a fish for that hand and you end up having a nice hand. In a way, this is like making the stars align in a small way to build up your earnings but won't happen consistently because the fish can sometimes get lucky and then run away with your bet!

I would like to have a nice satisfied body so will keep on working out while maintaining a good diet the best I can. It's really all about discipline, so I'm really interested in living a good life routinely and it looks like this is the way to go for me. 

Improving Usage of Time

I believe that I'm just watching stuff during my free time right now. I could seriously do a little better than this to pass off the time by always pushing myself because there's always something for me to look forward to. 

One of the neat things is that I have been doing a lot better from switching to an internally positive emotion. It's like always happy underneath for me and feels stable while providing plenty of energy. 

I guess I just want to be entertained after work but it might not be quite that fulfilling for me. I think there's just more I could do to make the most out of my life. Maybe the biggest obstacle for me is when I'm at home with my parents. It's serving as a slight distraction to me like after eating dinner and waiting for the food to digest. I think it's about time that I moved out, but I still need to save enough to buy a decent home. It's all a process with staying patient and pushing myself while being positive to live out my daily goals and be happy about it. 

Actively Making Money on Side Hustle

First off, I don't really consider investing in quality stocks to be any side hustle. It's really a long term process with acquiring wealth and something that happens passively. I have been rolling along with the punches just fine and not panicking from the volatility working against me. Yet, there are moments you have to cut your losses and I have been following my group's recommendations with it. 

I think I'm cool joining their service with a lifetime membership now, which I did for under $1000. Otherwise I would have been charged $240 per year which is manageable but I ended up overpaying for one of their services I ended up disliking. It's not that it's bad but it requires a lot more capital than I can handle at the moment to make an exorbitant amount of money. 

With this annually paid service being non refundable, I decided to transfer it into a lifetime membership and get a little refund so it's not a bad business decision for me while not letting my money go into any waste. I already know that I plan to be with these guys for 20+ years so I will start getting some value after a few years, since my current stock portfolios are maintaining profit.

Managing Time Better

It looks like I prefer watching this action/comedy anime right now for fun. It's a long series that stretches over 300 episodes plus a few movies. I'm not really going to mention what I'm watching though, so maybe I'll forget what it was twenty years later while reading this post, right?

It's pretty neat to have something that I've put up over the last ten years and I'm like the only one to do this, out of my other peers who have blogs and categorize it with my major. I've left a link up on the top to check out profiles and my name is really a joke, so it's an attempt to make someone laugh after realizing it's me on the first page. It's just a personal joke practically because I don't get any credit for writing this.   

I basically have left no connection with my civilian name because of the small controversies I have on this blog. I'm also not looking to get into politics but to kill two birds with one stone, why not if it ever makes sense to. I wrapped up my personal issues with some people a long time ago after sending them a message. I think they have seriously shut themselves out now and figure I'm too smart for them like a force of nature! This is what I want, so heck yeah!

Everything takes time to get somewhere you desire to be at, and it's wonderful to live through the down days from maintaining positivity with a self-disciplined approach. It really can't be any simpler than this.  

Making Dating Considerations Economically

I'm realizing a really good idea to follow now. Compared to my shorter guy friends and yes, they are puny in size with slightly unattractive personalities, putting it all together they never had any much success with online dating. With my profile, since I identify myself as a Christian, I do get quite a few Christian women chasing after me once in a while. It's pretty funny because I mentioned on my profile that I want someone who is pretty. A lot of times, I don't really find myself fully attracted to her appearance but to be nice, I just click a free button that says I'm also interested in her. 

A lot of them also live too far away, despite some women probably being desperate to find someone and also a really, honestly good person. Putting it together, I want to just meet the person I'm supposed to be with from being around good friends or at any random place at the right time. 

I'm looking to settle down with a single girl who is nice and decent looking. I'm at about 80% now with primarily looking at her personality. I have learned to figure out a few of my dating pet peeves, so I'm actually happy for a guy and girl who I went out with once ending up together who are also good friends. 

In the future, I will have to get a single and viable woman to go out with me to find out if there's this really good connection, and how much I can handle her turning crazy with me! The added bonus I'm really looking for is that I'd like to find someone with some longevity in enjoying getting in that mood privately at home! I mean I'm willing to work at the relationship and maintain some fun to keep it healthy while staying faithful, regardless of how tempted I get with finding any other interested women to be so hot. I think I can be absolutely satisfied from the strong bond that forms while falling in love and sharing a lot of romantic attributes while being devoted to each other. 

Great Qualities

I believe that having self-awareness, and self-discipline, along with patience, positivity, and a hard working attitude is the way to go with being a successful person. 

I think this just means doing things that would make yourself happy without having much regrets because the results aren't really going to be that bothersome. This is why being positive and having this mentality to keep on improving is important. It's all about continuing to make adjustments to be successful at doing what you love. 

Practicing on maintaining this calm and positive spirit underneath really does help out a lot to not stay stressed about things. 

Living Through the Process

Right now, I'm slowly creeping my way to building some wealth. It looks like I'm going to have to accept some down days to keep this lifestyle of investing in stocks and trading some currency.

The way I look at it now is that as long as you have more up days than down days, practice good risk management, have a decent ROI, and continue to improve on your accuracy then you will end up becoming a wealthy person. This is just my first year of acting upon my desires to invest with a good amount of money. I was just holding myself back this whole time trying to get it all together.

I just feel like I was there at the right place and time on my computer when I clicked on a business ad out of interest. It has turned out to be a great decision from the moment I decided to join.  

Doing Right Thing

Honestly, I think asking out a girl I liked and is a Facebook friend was the right thing to do! Looking back on it, I wasn't quite sure if it was dumb but it's what I was supposed to be doing. 

I don't have many ladies that I asked out like that, so I wasn't quite sure. My first dates came from scoring ugly ladies on Craigslist! I was this total gentleman and tried to be a smooth talker to earn their trust via e-mails. I think those ladies were sort of crazy to begin with anyway and I was too. I've learned my lesson. Don't offer people, especially the ugly ladies, any money online just to try to date them!

I was lucky to find cute girls online but they got fat later on and they were weird too so I think it all makes sense to fail at connecting with them. Man, I wasn't just having it from being upset with their behavior. I mellowed down a lot lately though and picked up on much needed self-confidence, so it's a smoother road for me now. 

Getting a Girlfriend

I was doing my usual mile walk for some exercise during my break at work and then it came across to me how I'm supposed to go about finding a girlfriend. Mainly, the art of fostering a wonderful and happy relationship with a lovely lady is based on how you connect well with her from having conversations. 

First off, she should definitely be single so there won't be much complications with trying to fall in love with her. I think that all these books on picking up women are really just hustle and trying to make money off guys who struggle with it. You sort of learn by trial and error while being brave enough to take plenty of rejections as they come, while learning to be a gentleman and finding that one girl who likes you for who you really are. 

It's really just going around to ask out single ladies you are interested in. That's really all it is and waiting to find that girl who likes you from connecting well with her. You really have to carry yourself well with talking to a girl or maybe have some really nice friends who can set you up.  

Writing About Simple Tasks

I'm starting to understand my personal routine of trying to make money while being a swing trader and investor. It's going to have its own ups and downs that I don't really mind anymore. I'm not really affected by the down days so much, but the up days really feel so swell and something I want to keep on feeding and building. I guess I'm meant for this kind of stuff because it makes sense to me and is also my dream occupation! You better believe that I'm working hard at this while being consistent.

I bought a new car so I ought to be registering it for insurance now, while also taking care of some more expenses. I want to buy some cheap ebooks today on cooking with this world class chef that focuses on putting together dishes in a short amount of time. 

Systematically Making Money

I have been honing my skills on actively making money with trading the Forex market and collecting passive profit while following an investing group which deals with stocks. They also specialize in investing with bonds which I am interested in doing later on my career.

My main way of learning to do well originates from pretty much investing with such a small amount that it won't even matter if I lose but because of my pride I want to win much as possible while earning the most amount possible!  

I have also learned a few things about playing Poker on an online site. I'm not going to discuss which one I'm playing at nor my screenname to protect my anonymity. I've learned that the past really doesn't matter and the best you can do is to follow a rinse and repeat cycle of making the right decision until you reach your financial target. The amount of chips you have at the Poker table will often dwindle, and the objective is to pretty much play winning Poker to build it back and then collect more pots you win to turn a profit. It's a game of winning small and big pots while making timely bets, calls, folds, or bluffs. 

I'm not going to discuss my strategy fully either, but one of my main ideas is to call someone's raise whenever you think it's worth it to call someone else's re-raise and to re-raise whenever it's appropriate. It makes so much sense to me! 

I'm not in the mood to share any of my secrets that I have been working towards and will probably guard it closely for the rest of my life. The only exception may be like for my best friend and future wife if they are interested in making money this way. 

I think the only thing that I won't have a problem sharing about are my stocks that are doing well and proper principles of investing. Trading Forex and playing recreational Poker are competitive and my active space of trying to make a living so I will contain the secrets I pick up on to stay successful at it as much as possible. You have to earn it yourself from putting in a lot of work to do well. 

Realizing Self-control

I'm starting to realize that acting out in anger is technically a mental breakdown. It was hard to admit it to myself at first, but I came around to just accepting how it is from staying positive about my situation.  

I understand my weakness is hating others who put up a rude and unfriendly front with me. My strength is that I don't stay bothered about the past for too long, if it really isn't that serious. My bad relationships with fomer acquaintances have been over trivial and senile things- it's so stupid but I worsened it from being mad at their immaturity. I realize it's something I need to be careful about not getting too carried away with. 

Even with this weakness and because of my strong point, I was still interested in just chilling with them and getting back on decent terms. It's now evident to me that they were all going through a mental breakdown and trying to resolve it by kicking me out of their life! It doesn't even have anything to do with us personally, so they were just being crazy about it with me. 

In a way, I'm lucky with taking responsibility for them because I never incurred any costly punitive charges from being against them. I failed to realize this back then like I do now and also had a mental breakdown from being furious at what I perceived to be their immaturity. I'm over it now though and ready to lead the way with making a peaceful settlement for my own selfish gains while not going through any more mental breakdowns.    

Staying Patient

Instead of being in a rush to get some satisfaction and accepting a huge risk to obtain it fast, I think it's better to risk a small or acceptable amount you can afford to lose while keeping everything comfortable as possible.  

I've found that not having to constantly stare at the market works very well for me. I love the idea of being less hands on while still reaping a reward for having taken some initiative. This is my desired way to become a millionaire!  

I can see myself eventually working at lowering my taxes legally and possibly even being able to get a maximum tax write-off by donating to charities I believe in. I'm really looking forward to the day that I become a wealthy individual with a lot of time on my hands! 

I already have the proper channel that feels like it is working out for me. I still haven't had the chance to get engaged yet, but it looks like I've found a lady I might be really interested in. We're still just friends right now who hang out one-on-one, so maybe it's pre-dating stages right now. I seem to be taking a nice liking to her. I think I enjoy being around her decent personality. She is also pretty hot too in an underrated fashion. I'm not worried about how people see us, so it seems cool so far.  

This will get interesting if I end up in a relationship with her because I could be tested with having feelings of wanting to see other ladies. For the time being, I guess I'm in no rush. 

Dealing With Striking Out

From my last post, I mentioned five basic things that I believe make up a successful person. They are self-confidence, unwavering positivity, hard work with concentration, prayer, and self-regulation. Being complete with those qualities just feels so good that something like being rejected by a hot lady isn't really going to sting that much! I don't know really but I am interested in finding out. 

This is really about what is going to make me happy. Thinking about it now, I'm very interested in a co-worker right now, but I have heard she has a boyfriend already. I don't really want to mix in work with dating someone right now because I'm working at my family's business. I also don't want to feel so awkward after asking if she has a boyfriend, especially if she works very closely with the person who told me she was already taken.  

Overall, it does feel sort of weird right now so I'll just settle with being happy to just notice her daily at work. I'll just keep it professional, since I don't really know her personally. Honestly, my feelings underneath aren't really killing me so I think I'll be fine with finding another hot lady outside of work.    

Being Successful

I think a lot about being happy with having personal success really deals with taking how things go with what you can do, while making any necessary adjustments. I don't think feeling negative about something not working out is really a good thing to hold onto. It's really hard letting it go sometimes though.  

Well, I'm going to be very biased here because this blog is obviously about what I think works best for me. There's really no research needed with anything that goes into individualism! 

While taking a mile walk for exercise during my break time, I did a little bit of brainstorming about what I think creates success. These are the ordinary thoughts that have transpired for me:

1.) Self-confidence

2.) Unwavering positivity

3.) Hard work with concentration

4.) Prayer

5.) Self-regulation

Living Up to Personal Standards

I think my personal standards are pretty manageable for myself. I do like to live a pretty active life though. I don't think it's fun to just let myself always get carried away from watching entertaining stuff while cooking for my best friend and getting nice compliments from her. It's pretty fun to waste time like that in other words. I also enjoy traveling with her and going on nice adventure hikes. She's currently taken though, but our connection is strong enough from being bonded with our personal interests that she wants to accept me as her only main guy friend. 

It's really neat and I'm satisfied with how it is but I don't think she'll ever live up to my bedroom standards, just to be honest. This is why I never provoke her to do anything naughty with me. I can't really understand her complicated feelings about love, and she has also stated truthfully that she is mentally unstable. I don't think she's the one, but I know for now, she's my best friend and I'm really happy about it! 

Being Mindful

It looks like now I'm aware of myself going through a possible mental breakdown whenever I'm getting mad about anything. First of all, it's dealing with selfish thoughts and probably not even related to how God wants me to behave based on the overall picture of the Bible. I guess critics will even go far to say that Christianity is supposed to be a turn-the-cheek religion. 

I, myself, view it as a personal relationship with God through placing my faith on the Lord Jesus. The Bible talks about righteous anger but I think nobody is capable of doing that like God is able to. He is slow and abounding in grace and mercy. Yet, Jesus was a man who probably did have some mental breakdowns. It's a picture of how I think that because of our sinful nature that we can't be aligned to the Lord's ways while we are going through any mental breakdown. Jesus is God himself, so even through all the emotional issues he may have exaggerated from being human at some points, he is still perfect unlike the rest of us. 

It's just this realization from wanting to be humble about accepting my mental weaknesses, I now realize that lashing out at others is really a form of having a mental breakdown. It's seen as being mean obviously by some people and even offensive. It can even cause a response of the other person getting a mental breakdown, too. 

It's really about realizing the state you are in, and I guess I'm so far into wanting to be a certain type of selfish person, mainly about staying nice even if it ignores the wishes of others; I am better able to self-acknowledge that I'm about to enter a mental breakdown while being mad about something or bring myself out of that state of mind.  

Staying Positive Through It All

It looks like mental breakdowns are just constantly about to happen at any given moment, but because I just want to be nice and really selfish about being that way it just doesn't stick around long enough to send myself to jail! I really scared a lot of people from my past who had terrible mental breakdowns with me. I wish I could solve their problem they had with me. They even said, I wasn't their problem to begin with. This is a very confusing matter and so how would I go about solving their problem when they say I wasn't the problem, but they had a terrible mental breakdown with me to force me to get kicked out of their lives?

I guess some people are terrible lost causes like they are. It's a shame though but the thing that's always nagging at me is their past rude behavior. I really don't care how they thought about me or what their opinion was, whether good or bad. I was just bothered by their immaturity. 

Yet, from taking baby steps and realizing they were all having mental breakdowns around me, it's a new personal realization to just how friendly of a person I am. I just don't care really even with their rudeness and still want to be their friend just because I'm selfish about wanting to feel so good from being the nice one! 

I realize it's selfish with what I'm doing and I admit it's a bad side of me, but it's not because I'm having a major mental breakdown. I'm not even fixated on the past, but from the information I gathered, I know they are crazy people and pretty sick to the head to the point that they don't want me to be around them anymore. 

How can I really solve this dilemma? It's really simple, just stay self-confident and positive about all of it. It's really the attitude because all this time, it's a waiting period and it doesn't matter if I die off sooner than they do. I will be then going away while being a happy camper. 

Mental Breakdowns

I'm realizing now that from me being mad about anything, it's really going through a mental breakdown. In a likewise manner, I actually dealt with people who were going through massive mental breakdowns with me too! It's because they were yelling at me and telling me to stop talking about something that they instigated in the first place and thought was settled. It was irritating at first and then I got mad about it, so it caused me to get a mental breakdown. Then, they were telling me to go find help! 

I'm realizing all of this now, and it's good because sooner the better and probably would have still been good if I realized this when I got a lot older! The fact that people around me all over including me are getting mental breakdowns from being selfish about something, even if it's for good purposes, it's definitely bad but I don't care that much about the past because I cared more about getting over how they behaved with me. 

I've finally tracked the origin of my major mental breakdown. It took a long time and it's like I'm the most qualified to analyze my own self so far because I can still legally get away from talking to a shrink.  

I guess everyone is different but I'm sure there are some people out there who don't like the behavior of someone acting rude to them, regardless of whatever the other person is thinking. This must be how I am, from being a selfish individual of wanting to feel so good from always being a nice person. If a person acts rude towards me for long enough, then I will definitely be having a mental breakdown but still be acting nice enough to never land myself in jail!  

Learning Something New

Everything I've done has a purpose and the times I have been mad, I was going through a mental breakdown. The reason why I didn't act upon those crazy thoughts is because I'm just too nice. I'm really selfish to the point of wanting to be judged as the nicest person in the world. It just feels too good to ever drop it for me. 

Gaining a lot of confidence was just part of it, but there's another thing I picked up on. It's having gone through personal realizations. I don't really care about the past from being so nice that it doesn't bother me. I was going through mental breakdowns from how these crazy people were behaving so bad with me. I don't really care what their issues were with me. I'm not offended by that and don't mind being the one to initiate upon renewing friendship. This isn't dwelling on the past. This is about looking onward into the future. This is about having selfish goals met, which is feeling like I'm the nicest person in the world from gaining friendship with these crazy people! 

This is all there is to it. I've just learned they are crazy because they were going through so many mental breakdowns and consistently too from being so frustrated about something that had nothing to deal with between us. This doesn't bother me and I'm so nice that I can let their past behavior that made me feel a lot of grudge all leave me. I'm not even thinking about the past in that common manner anymore.

I'm pretty much a selfish goody two shoe and happy to be one!  Now I understand how they were seriously being crazy with me, and how my feelings really come into play. I'm really different and perceived differently, which can make me a negative catalyst for more mental breakdowns of others. It's something I have come to accept now, and how I can sympathize that it scares some people from wanting to hang out with me. 

I gained my constant happiness from reaching never ending confidence and being satisfied with it. I'm happy being a single man still and will probably be happier once I have met the right lady to marry. 

Being onto Something

I think I'm seriously onto this whole trading and investing thing now to bring myself to obtaining wealth. I guess from speculating I will be looking to gain a large amount, but I'm not going to start off with large amounts of money in it until I have a long and existing track record of reeling in consistent profit. I don't mind taking a long time to get there, but it will sure be nice to get it sooner rather than later. 

I guess it's about trying my best to focus and to try not to let my distractions get the best of me. I think for every crazy thing I've done and got away with so far, it's been for a purpose even if it was hidden from me for the longest time. 

Putting it together, I'm looking to invest more while getting better at it on allocating my funds with financial instruments which also includes speculating on the Forex market and learning to do cryptocurrency now. I'm totally interested about doing all these things and going after becoming wealthy on the side! 

To top it off, I want to work out and cook. It's these three main things that I want to do. Yet, I'm always going to have a heart with trying to understand the lengthy Bible even through all the distractions. Maybe I should be praying more about this, which I really haven't. 

Through writing, this has probably made me become more like an open book. 

Refreshing Investing Game Plans

I'm subscribed to an investing group that I personally feel happy to be a member of. The customer service is pretty flexible about giving refunds to unhappy customers. I see myself actually utilizing this service to make myself wealthy. Of course, it may still not be for everyone and I think we are all trying our best.

I'm planning to build my wealth with this group and then build enough profit to become a lifetime member at the highest level that they offer. This is really my goal for now. 

In the meantime, I have said that I have been working on swing trading in the Forex market. Now, I want to also invest some of my attention to cryptocurrency. It looks like there's so much opportunity in this market to make some good money. I'm going to speculate only about $1000 to see where that takes me. Win or lose, it doesn't really bother me because I'm looking to keep on improving and turn a profit. 

I guess my official side business now is being an investor/trader. My daytime job is currently being a software engineer. 

Going After Enjoyment With Making a Living

Honestly, I think it still sucks to lose money while gambling in a game of online Poker. Playing it for long hours is boring and doesn't give me much contentment. I think I'll just include finishing my grad-level software engineering courses when the going gets tough instead of trying to make money from playing Poker. Okay maybe I'll keep on going after grinding it out, while looking for odd jobs to do and on the downtime studying while trying to apply for a software engineering position. 

In the meantime, I don't think I need to focus on Poker anymore because it's only good when I'm winning and so terrible accumulating small losses after one another. It's just my feeling, and I think professional Poker players out there might snap more commonly every once in a while. I'm going to lay off playing Poker for money unless I'm waiting in line with my friend to go on a amusement park ride since we don't talk much. I will save it for when I'm in desperation mode for money like I lost my job.

On the other hand, I don't feel bad about my business investments struggling to do good at all. I only want to keep on getting better at it, so this is probably the best place for me to keep it consistent. This must mean that I still enjoy playing it a little risky and not throwing in an absurd amount of my hard earned money. 

Main Things I Desire to Touch Up

I just want to keep at it with investing, trading Forex, and not playing online Poker for a very long time. For all these three, I'm just at the beginning stages right now and it hasn't got that big yet. I'm willing to take my time while learning from my mistakes and really trying to succeed now. I'm not let down from losing money anymore because I couldn't keep track of something. I'm just going to keep on trying and hopefully, I'll gain a working strategy that allows me to be consistent with gaining steady profit. 

I totally believe that this is within reach for me now, and I feel happy about going for it. I think I really need to put in some willpower to get into cooking and working out more regularly. These are the last two things I'm really interested in. I guess it really doesn't matter so much about whether I have time to socialize or not. I'm definitely interested in it, but I've learned to not really mind keeping to myself. I'm still pretty cool about staying friendly within my circle. 

Daily Things to Take Care of

It's basically really simple for me. A few years ago, I was really all about working out and trading. I forgot what my third action that I proposed was. Oh well, it's a long time ago and it was pretty simple to go about doing. 

I have seriously come a very long way to feel really confident with myself now. I don't feel any personal hindrance anymore to get things done. It's just a matter of continually taking steps no matter how hard the battle gets to go somewhere in life. What makes it even better is sticking to a very positive attitude when the going gets tough. 

This is probably how I was able to gain a lot of self-confidence. Well, I do have a To-Do list that I hardly look at now. I think the main actions that I want to do are already implanted in my brain each day. It's just a matter of going about executing them swiftly now. 

Overall, I feel so relieved to not be so touchy anymore about my past or anything really personal people want to ask me about. I'm really not bothered by it now.