Empowering Beliefs

  4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain or raise a loving family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. 
   
2. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
3. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself. 

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

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What is the most empowering thing I could believe about life? God is always working on my life. 

What is the most empowering thing I could believe about myself and my ability to fulfill my desires? I don't like to give up and already know what I'm looking for. 

What is the most empowering thing I could believe about others? I can learn from the ones who were bad friends. I will continue to enjoy my friendships with others. 

What is the most empowering thing that I could believe about money? It comes and goes. It's not the end after acquiring wealth. 

What is the most empowering thing that I could believe about the goals that I want to achieve? I constantly know what I want and won't ever give up. 

My first time successes include solving programming problems and getting a perfect score on a grad level class.  

My I Believe About Life, Myself, Others, and Money

  4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain or raise a loving family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. 
   
2. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
3. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself. 

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

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Life is about enjoying it and doing all you can to be aligned with the ways of Christ! Life isn't perfect and there's going to be times of happiness and sadness. 

When it comes to my life I just feel good about myself in general and keep on going after my main goals after setting my mind on it. I let myself be distracted to keep myself happy and don't enjoy everyone telling me how I should live my life.  

In my life it always seems that I could have gone back in hindsight and done things a little differently to have a better outcome for myself. My life is overall a work in progress but I am working on things that interest me. 

I am a capable person and believe that I am above average in intelligence, but I still need to put in the effort and time to be able to work through the practicality of things. I always seem to just try to go for it whenever I can and don't like to give up in general. 

I wish I knew how to execute things properly and be able to do things barely enough to get the best in life. In terms of my ability, I usually learn after realizing the mistakes of others and myself. 

When it comes to achieving my dreams I like to take my time and not kill myself over it if it doesn't come to pass. 

People are a mixture of good and bad. Some are very chill and others just try to impose their weird order of will on you. Relationships are not that hard to deal with, especially the ones that matter the most. 

When it comes to other people, I find that I generally don't really mind too much what's on their minds. People always like to leave me be unless they're working on make a living. When I need support from people, they are not something I would figure to be great unless they are close to being world renowned experts or sense they are natural or humble about it. 

Money is earned from working for it. When it comes to money I try to always game the situation in a legal fashion and look to up the ante. With regard to making money I want to obtain it as easily as possible. As a businessperson I am not that interested in making sales, so I prefer investing and trading. Rich people are important to this world economy and can afford to do a lot of cool vacations! 

My Beliefs of Worthiness

  4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain or raise a loving family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. 
   
2. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
3. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself. 

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

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I believe I don't deserve what I want because I have not reached greatness yet.

I think the origin of this belief is from not having enough experience and realizing that it has been taking a long time to get there. 

I realize this is a false, self-sabotaging belief and that the happiness and fullness of life are mine by birthright. I am worthy of receiving what I want and will declare this now and whenever I'm tempted to believe otherwise. 

Choosing One Goal

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain or raise a loving family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. 
   
2. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
3. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself. 

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

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My chosen goal is to keep on working to master the Forex market as a swing trader.

I will be consistent and as smart as possible.

Therefore I will do proper journaling of all my trades. And ultimately I will have free time and lots of money. 

I will achieve this goal by the end the month. 

Everything I Do Well and Enjoy

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain or raise a loving family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. 
   
2. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
3. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself. 

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

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I do well at working with computers and do have quite an enjoyment for making it related to my profession. I am a pretty good driver. 

I enjoy reflecting on life and chilling with my personal time. I enjoy hanging out with people. I enjoy making improvements. 

I am good at being patient and having a determined spirit. I have pretty good physical endurance. I am good at being consistent and practicing the same thing that rewards something good. 

For my life's purpose, I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman. 

List of 10 People I Admire Most From Anywhere

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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These are ten people who I admire in my life and have a quality or character trait that I would love to emulate in my life.

1. Grandpa

His diligence and hard work that never was noticeable to me as a child but was constantly praised by my mom. 

2. Jesus

I would love to emulate anything like his holiness whenever I can.

3. Mike Trout

Reputation as a cool person while being the best baseball player in the world.

4. George Washington

Unanimously favored by leaders to lead the country.  

5. S. E.

Great overall personality from a short time getting to know her and typically easy going!

6. E. V.

Intelligent, well-spoken, well-mannered, fair-minded, balanced view with her dating experience.

7.  Steve Gates

Brilliant, wealthy philanthropist and can read at a rate of 750 WPM with a comprehension of 90%. He reads about 50 books a year. 

8. Warren Buffet

Brilliant, humble, and patient investor. He reinforces some of the best and simple financial advice.

9. T. T.

Married in-law. His demeanor is always like the nicest guy ever. With his tone, he also has like the best defense mechanism ever which is laughing at small annoying situations. I like to think of him as a tall gentleman. 

10. John Forbes Nash

Brilliant mathematician who was able to work it out with his wife while dealing with schizophrenia which he couldn't cure.  

Happy Thanksgiving

I am technically writing this three months ahead of schedule and I have already figured out an easy way to schedule more than 100 posts automatically. It's quite simple by just opening another g-mail account. The fact that you don't have to be online to send these e-mails is a bonus while not being connected to any cloud server. Best of all, it's free! Maybe it's my best kept secret with how I make it look so easy to post one everyday.

The only catch is that you have to write something and also make sure you don't double up on any dates while scheduling. I've ran into those issues a few times already, but with keeping it free and getting used to it, it works well and is keeping everything free. 

I've decided to run from my current format today just to mix it up a little bit for my readers. Thanks for stopping by, bot or person! Happy Thanksgiving. 

Fine Tuning Values

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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These words resonate best within me:

accountability, consistency, empathy, accuracy, contentment*, enjoyment**, enthusiasm, improvement, contribution, excellence, excitement*, assertiveness, expertise, adventurous, correctness, exploration, attitude, courtesy, expressive, faith***, belonging, balance**, creative, fairness, curiosity, family, boldness, decisiveness, fidelity, calmness, dependability, fitness*, caring, fluency, challenge, diligence, focus, clear-mindedness, fun*, commitment, goodness**, effectiveness, grace, compassion, efficiency, growth, happiness*, hard work, originality, harmony, patience, shrewdness, health**, simplicity, holiness*, perseverance, sincerity, honesty, personal freedom**, soundness, honor, humility, personal growth, stability, strategic, positivity, strength**, inner harmony**, success, intelligent, tactfulness, intuition, quality, thankfulness, joy**, reliability, thoughtfulness, love*, trustworthiness, making a difference, truthfulness, self-actualization, understanding**, merit, self-control, uniqueness, selflessness, self-reliance**, usefulness, sensitivity, vision

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

Core Values

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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What do I value most in life? It's my faith in having a personal relationship with Jesus.

What else do I value most? Understanding what to do for any situation.  

What gives my life meaning? Coming up with a decent plan and then feeling great about it if I executed it after looking back on it.  

When have I been the happiest and most overwhelmed with joy? Finding Jesus when my soul felt so lost. Persevering through difficult and stressful assignments and coming up with a perfect solution (e.g. it happened from completing programming projects). 

What value was I honoring then? Glory. Perseverance while going through a rough patch. Patience. Always keeping a nice exterior while feeling some turmoil. Gritty. Good character. 

When have I felt on top of the world? Finishing something mentally or physically challenging like running long distances or solving a difficult puzzle.

 What aspect of my true nature was I honoring at the time? Patience, perseverance, commitment, self-confidence, hard work, optimism.

Message to Peers About Moving On

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. 
   
2. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
3. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now have this undying love and companionship with her and maintain being a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

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What am I grateful for?

1. A decent head on my shoulder.
2. Making some consistent money on the side with my trades and investments.
3. I developed a special ability to truly move on from anything in my current life. 
4. Finally having a very close friend who I am open-minded about being in a serious relationship with. 
5. Having a life where I feel mostly up and can prioritize my time based on what I feel like doing and improve upon myself.

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What did I do right today? 

Starting to work on scheduling my time better with priorities that I really want to do and succeed at. 

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"This below is another message I sent to my dumb peers who have shown maturity problems and moving on issues. It's not like it's anything out of the ordinary. I think everybody has these types of personal problems!"

I notice that it's really a daily effort to decide to let something go and move on with a blank page. Eventually it just becomes second nature with enough effort and practice that goes into it. 

With all of you guys, I notice there's some deficiency in emotional maturity. There's always room for improvement and growth in this area for everyone. If you guys were emotionally mature, then there would be no need to throw tantrums about not wanting to talk about something you started and tried to end with me! You guys are the complainers in the disguise of saying you wanted to help me out on something and I never made anything official so that makes me clean because I always felt like I was good enough without needing assistance. I would have said something first, before you guys jumped the gun to say something, right? 

Being mature would mean being able to always respond appropriately in a positive and kind manner. Do you think throwing a tantrum and saying you don't want to talk about something is being positive, kind, and mature? It's actually funny and also how it really didn't have anything to do with you, unless you were trying to hide something bad underneath. I wonder what that was to be honest. I moved on with a blank page and am open-minded. I finally managed to do it so it feels good to be free. 

People have problems with being positive and kind and acting in a mature manner; let alone always think that way. You guys are no exception, so what made you think you were being better to advise me in this area and try to force things upon me like how a high school fanatic who thought he or she was doing good would bully someone else because that person was letting him or her overstep this person's boundary? What was the reason behind the person allowing multiple bullies to do that to him? 

For starters, I thought I was being stupid for allowing this, but in the end, it made me realize this wasn't serious to begin with and you guys just have issues sometimes with being mature and moving on properly. I seriously want to communicate and refine any personal tools that I may have collected to do good by genuinely helping you guys out while carrying myself well with a humble, calm, confident, intelligent, and charismatic manner just to add some flair for some good laughs. 

Sharing a Few Life Goals

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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For this self-exercise, I'm going to first list three things that I've wanted badly in the past but never got. 

1.) Enjoy regularly giving and receiving a lot of that pleasure you do with the same hot woman you would go so wild for!

2.) Become financially independent and command a lot of free time and resources.

3.) Possess a near perfect body despite being a short man. 

Next step is to list why I haven't received these things yet. For the first one, I want to get married first and have struggled with my discernment and owning up to any opportunities. I also get hungover with my emotional thoughts and can go through this lengthy and complicated process of talking myself out of it. 

The second one is something I'm working on, but why I don't have it yet is because I'm still trying to get that perfect working formula so I can fast track my efforts. This is something I can spend a good deal of time on already, so my commitment level is already pretty high and I feel that my abilities are starting to turn efficient.

For wanting the body, I'm spending more time developing my mind right now by reading and can afford to only work out enough to maintain my weight. 

The only thing I would blame is my genes that I was born with and the circumstances I decided to put myself through because my learning environment never really had a mentor who caught my eye. A few good people were there though.

Spending More Time Wisely

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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I think it really comes down to what is worthwhile for you. With my close friend being a younger woman and even though she's said stuff to me before that I consider to be rude, she's still hitting me up to hang out with her one-on-one. I don't really mind I guess since I've grown to care for her as a person even though she's already taken and I don't seem to be interested in her yet. 

I'm just working on practicing basic chemistry now with her and from doing this, I don't ever feel that salty about being around her. It's turning out to be like a little secret for myself that she will never get to know about. It could just be this great mindset that I'm naturally in from reminding myself to do this. It's getting a positive reception from my friend, too! 

I have been learning to be mostly self-happy. I am interested in this one pretty girl and her looks don't have anything to do with it. She seems friendly and nice from waving hello to me every once in a while when I pass her on the street near the office. I wonder if she can ever become interested in me in that sort of way and also if she's already taken. 

Putting in the Work

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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So a friend and a close one are screw ups who were trying to give me advice on dating. One of them is divorced and the other just kept on breaking up and said that it was an experience when she finally found some happiness. It doesn't matter how happy you are because it's only selective attention that feels good to you that you are going by. It doesn't make you any better of a person and entitled to give advice if the other person doesn't want it from you and you don't see that person having what you feel is good and feel like helping. In a sense from not being that understanding about it and responding to it so negatively, it's because you are being selfish and confirmation that you were never really that good at it anyway. 

The close friend really likes my personality but I feel like she's overall a dealbreaker to be in a relationship with who I'm practicing some basic chemistry on. The other friend really does still have some things to work on. 

For work, I just want to make money now. It's pretty much wanting to be my own boss and enjoy some freedom in this world from having gained it through hard work and being as smart as possible with making a living. I also want to have a nice livelihood and start asking out some girls I deem to be worthwhile since I'm confident to know that I can get over rejections rather quickly without minding it so much. I think it helps to practice basic chemistry with people who you think are in your range for dating so you can start gauging their personality, character, interests, and qualities while understanding your own. 

Trading Smarter

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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It looks like I still am in the process of understanding a profitable approach and how it's really you don't know so might as well put yourself in the best position that you know how to and do it as consistently as possible. This is the challenging part, but it's been exciting for me so I think I'm meant to be doing this on the side and hopefully, not for long I'll be on an even more exciting adventure with a nice spouse and family to be the head of and take care of responsibly. 

For all my years that have developed with progressing through building my confidence in dating relationships, I have become close friends with a female who was practically born to make me feel like she's a dealbreaker to me without being able to help it! I guess my mind has been opening up more since now I'm wondering what her true heart's intentions are even though her parents inadvertently raised her to become like this. 

Practicing basic chemistry with a natural approach has been giving me a nice sense of flow in our close friendship. I'm more patient with her while being at ease with trying to help her to accept and feel good about who she is individually when she's filled with remorse from feeling bad about stuff she never meant to incur on herself. She can be quite a pessimistic creature with social anxiety but I'm managing to make her feel good vibes from me. I must be doing something right- it leaves me to ponder this now: do opposites always attract? From what I'm speculating about her personality and doing a little causal research, our opposite personalities can complement each other in an ideal fashion. It's quite interesting and humorous for me to dwell on it privately! 

Feel Good Message for Myself With Past Dumb Friends Who Acted Like Adversaries

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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(The following below is my raw copy of what I wrote. I am archiving it on here for purposes of showing off because I think they really are stupid and harmless people in the end.) 

I'm accusing most of you guys of being paranoid with anger issues and being so uptight. My example is simple- you don't want to add me on Facebook as just a friend. It doesn't matter because you can adjust your settings so I don't get access to whatever your business is on there. If you don't even go on it, then who really cares about adding me or not. My point is that you guys have this anger issue that you can't resolve too well while being uptight. Go ahead and tell the whole world about it! I don't mind coming around and bringing it up with everybody around you. I'm very confident about my debating skills even though it might end up feeling demeaning to you guys. It's the cost that I am willing to pay while being confident of my beliefs that you guys can still mature and grow up more. 

I was just too dang shy to bring this up so many many years ago when I had the chance. I choose not to be like that anymore. I really don't care how you feel about me because my feelings outweigh it more and I can see most of you guys as just dumb friends! Personal laughs intended. Man, it was angering me so much with you guys behaving so rudely and doing it so repeatedly with your responses. 

Whatever thing you guys were trying to influence me to do, well it just means you weren't meant to be there at that moment in time. If you were then you wouldn't have needed to be so rude while saying you were trying to help me. It wasn't clearly about my best interests but you guys just blowing off steam from being stupid and paranoid about stuff that others didn't want to step forward to tell me about. Man, I was worried I did something so wrong too but now I see that it's probably because you guys were just not thinking straight with a lot of tunnel vision and going through some mess that made you guys think so arrogantly while being so stubborn and negative as well in your thinking. Just by your responses and actions alone, it's enough to justify you guys have anger issues you should be aware of and on top of that, it's stupid and something you can laugh at about yourselves and accept while working on not being so much of a jerk if you care about it. Otherwise, you guys are narcissists and really gave me a lot of feared respect. Again, personal laughs intended. 

Becoming a Natural

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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It looks like I have a lot of confidence building up. What I think now is even if my physical appearance of being short doesn't really attract the hottest looking women in general, it really doesn't matter to me so much anymore. I'm more about looking at the inner beauty, character, and good qualities over her appearance now. I don't really mind that much anymore because I'm in the mood for loving and it outweighs how I feel about any girl's looks! Some obviously look better than others and I will unsurprisingly pick the prettier one if I can but what's more important to me is feeling some genuine compatibility. I will leave a bad hot girl in the dust to be with a sweet and plain looking woman forever in a heartbeat!

Practicing basic chemistry with some female friends has been helpful to me a lot. It's also building up a lot of confidence for me while being in acceptance and continually thinking positive whenever I'm by myself. It's awesome to have a close female friend take initiative to hit me up regularly. I sort of just like to leave her alone and maybe she's attracted to this outgoing personality of mine which is generously friendly and will make you feel accepted. I admit that I don't always enjoy every detail of her daily drama and she can be like a little Miss Dealbreaker to me but I'm still continuing to practice basic chemistry with her and it's been helping me out some! 

Picking Up on Useful Things

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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For the most part, it makes sense with Bill Gates having a reading speed of 750 words per minute and a 90% comprehension rate. He's been bound for success! I'm noticing that a lot of billionaires and successful people like to read a lot. 

I have decided to become an advert and fast reader myself and it's something that I grew up hating. Yet, I am now turning it into a great habit for myself. I really am willing to work hard and stay committed while giving it my all and ready to accept working on all the negatives I can improve upon and enjoying all the good stuff associated with always trying my best. I have enough confidence now to stay positive with myself and pick up on what is going to be done to earn some satisfaction! 

Becoming More Stable

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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Underneath the surface, I think I'm just an ordinary guy with likes and dislikes. The main thing that I'm trying to do right now is make a lot of money so I can enjoy my freedom of time to do other things besides having to make money. On the side, I am open to hanging out with friends and also finding myself a romantic relationship. 

It's really been about just figuring things out while keeping myself a happy camper and being committed to some things I decide to do with my time. Picking up on self-confidence has been a major game changer for me and is helping me stay consistent with being a hard worker on whatever it is that I want to do. I am also making the best use of what I can.

I do get sucked into things quite easily, so it will always take me longer to sort things out. It's inevitable but I'm blessed to still know enough about Christ to let him have an impact in my life. 

Taking Upon Better Understanding

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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I'm someone who will make adjustments after doing something that might be uncomfortable to another person. Basically that person can't handle me because he or she is being like a whiny brat. I think we all have that little kid inside of us, but for myself, I don't go off right away. I like to hold it in because well, I'm usually very shy to bring it up until I can't handle it anymore! From being confident, I have let it out right away especially if I naturally dictate the situation isn't that serious. Most recently, I lambasted a friend because I rejected all of his dating advice and did it publicly to his humiliation. My close friend wasn't helping by siding with him because I hate her advice too at the moment. She accepted me saying I'm not comfortable and she's heard me multiple times already. She practically smiled at me in respect and acceptance. 

The guy's confidence was visibly shaken. In my similar conflicts, the other person ends up getting offended by me because I'm transferring all that negative energy I felt onto people I'm at this point with and they usually don't know where it came from because obviously, they are being stupid about not being able to notice their own behavior while remembering and accepting it. 

Does it mean that they are bad people? Not necessarily with just this much information already presented but this is the conflict that has culminated with my end stage of ripping them apart and then they go away quietly and want to hide out in some dark corner for at least a little while. I have become a lot better at explaining so sometimes it's like I know this and you see it too now with what I just told you so you are forced to accept it and move on but maybe not in the way you intended with me originally because of my influential personality with explaining and doing things pertaining to my relationships. I have learned this about myself and intend to fully take advantage of it. If you have it then might as well, if it's useful for particular situations even if others don't quite have it down already like you do. 

Moving Along

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 

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I'm noticing that I'm training myself appropriately for situations that I intend to see myself in now. Making the best out of what I have, especially with a close and young female friend, I'm just practicing basic chemistry with her without her knowing and keeping it natural. It appears to be that I'm doing well with her, if this is how I intend to talk to my future lover after adding in calling her pet names and physically touching more intimately. I intend to use this experience to help me out with my dating life. 

For my analysis of my buddy, I really don't mind however she wants to look and how messed up I believe her thinking is sometimes. I truly care about her but it's been all about sticking to my own principles on dating. She possesses a deal breaker that she can fix but it looks like she's now admitted to being stuck with it for the rest of her life now. It's sort of causing her problems right now with her current relationship. She can't fix it and treats it like some type of hated disease. 

I'm on her side still and think this is who she is and have told her that while giving her my full confidence in who she is as a person. I'm still open-minded to the possibility now since she can't fix it and I don't think she should be faulted for it. It's now about figuring out what her real intentions are whenever she's ready to share them with me. 

Doing Things in a Timely Manner

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 
10. Organize room more

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I think what might help me a lot is sticking to a routine and for the ones I have a harder time doing something different but productive and leading in that direction as a warm up. For example, I'm looking at exploring a little in my software engineering courses before doing my work because practically that's what I have chosen to do to make some money. I'm also trying to make money while swing trading and investing. 

I just need to come up with a routine that I can always stay committed to without coming off as too much fault and perform at a satisfactory level. 

The secret sauce to my relationships is to practice basic chemistry. I didn't know that and now I'm seeing it. It's thanks to a few friends who were annoying me with their weird advice on dating. I don't need it from them and it's funny too but not for those friends who I openly tell that I never want to talk about it with them. 

Some Consideration

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 
10. Organize room more

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To start off with what's on my mind, there's no doubt to myself that I am the right partner for my close hangout buddy who is a girl! To fall in love, it's going to require consummating but one of her natural deal breakers is that she can sometimes have some trouble with being intimate. From how she was raised, she sort of inherited a mental disorder that can affect her thoughts, mood, and behavior. It's also something that she admitted to having no control over.

This is definitely something considering how I wish to still be open-minded about it. I've lasted this long in our friendship and have been slowly climbing up on her list of personal favorite people. The only question I have now is what are her true intentions since she has a deal breaker she can't really fix no matter how hard she tries. I don't want to really count it against her, and what makes this easier to deal with is how I truly care about her. 

Cool Thought for Me to Accept Privately

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 
10. Organize room more

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I'm never going to be mentioning this to my close hangout buddy who is a female nor to anybody else who has ever been acquainted with me- I think I'm the right partner for my close hangout buddy. However, she isn't the right one for me because she still has a deal breaker that she can fix on her own! It feels good to feel like this in a confident manner. 

Anyway, I did talk about deal breakers already and forwarded one of these posts about how I think I could have partnered up with her to some weird acquaintances. I just didn't mention that I feel like I am the right person for her and see it in a very confident manner now. I'm never going to send this portion out to anybody nor even mention it to my female buddy. 

I have been working on practicing basic chemistry in a natural way with her, which she would call organic. She has responded beautifully to me. It's all natural and genuine since I truly care about her, but still not interested in ever dating her. I simply think about my "Baby" or "babe" and then text or say things to my buddy without putting it at the end. She's given me several thumbs up over these texts, but she doesn't know what I intended to put at the end. She never will! 

Totally Ready to Move Forward

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 
10. Organize room more

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Based on a friend being so butt hurt about something unusual, it's a guy and I made him mad because I said that all of his dating advice makes me feel uncomfortable! I also made him feel embarrassed by berating him in front of others about it. I didn't notice at the time, but he struggles to be a positive person and is a very stubborn individual when things don't go his way while wanting to paint only good things about himself and always feel this way in a selfish manner. He might struggle with being a little narcissistic and maybe underneath, he struggles with true self-confidence and having acceptance of anyone with an open mind. I think there are plenty of people in this world who might feel like he does and his older sister who is a soulmate of mine is even worse!

This soulmate really messed herself up and was verbally abused by her last ex in her failed marriage. There's even some allegations that could potentially be made by her having been criminally assaulted but she decided to never officially report anything. She pretty much screwed herself over with what she thought was true love and somewhat became like civilized white trash even though she would appear to be an average Asian to go on dates with! I guess it's not that bad of a description that I would get myself in trouble for. However, I won't ever be officially speaking of it like this. She has emotional problems and is going to vent to someone at almost an inappropriate scale after establishing what she knows is an unbreakable one-way street (it's always going to be more in her favor) while saying this and that and having her moment of being stubborn and not open-minded about moving forward while feeling like staying on great terms. 

She's basically kept on her toes by people she wants to stay friends with and aren't comfortably close to her yet but one of her true colors is that she can be a rude person. She loses friends and blocks it out of her mind while thinking of it as something common. However, she can feel guilty so will allow for amends sometimes. I think she is dealing with some abandonment and anger issues while denying any of its claims and saying that she's fine. She really is stubborn as well and struggles to always be positive because she can't do it on her own. She has become mentally unhealthy from a relationship point-of-view and is looked up to by her brother who feels close to her but the brother is still better poised than she is. They both have this issue that they could grow out of but I doubt they see it as anything good to work on with themselves and thus have a deal breaker that some people can sense and will act accordingly to while they choose to always deny it with their friends!  

I have already brought it to their attention in a different way but hope a little tough love with a more gentle touch from me will motivate them both to be lovely more consistently. 

Reflecting and Moving Forward

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 
10. Organize room more

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It feels practically good to realize the things that I want to work on and think are obtainable. I think it really comes down to time management and figuring out how to approach certain things without always being so frustrated about it. Another thing is to do some grinding, but now I think it should be done in a positive spirit with the best intentions for yourself. 

Planning Steps With Plenty of Confidence

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman. 
2. Buy a single family home. 
3. Do some smart cooking.
4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.  
5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam!
6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
8. Read a book  
9. Finish my software engineering related courses. 
10. Organize room more

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I have gained a lot of confidence now so it isn't that hard for me to plan my steps to reach my goals. I mainly just need to be committed. 

I'm distracting myself with watching baseball and texting my close friend I guess. To get things done for me, I think it's just intuition and taking it step by step.

Therefore, I believe that I need to be vigilant about figuring out what I need to do to be efficient while feeling satisfied for the day. It's probably one of those things where I can feel like I don't need to do anything and go after something else to let my mind wander off into. I think I need to be able to snap myself back into place.

Improving on Myself

  4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.
2. Work on staying concentrated and finishing in a timely manner.   
3. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
4. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
5. Read a book  
6. Buy a single family home. 
7. Finish my software engineering related courses.
8. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.
9. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 
10. Do some smart cooking.
11. Organize room more

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I think the main thing for me is pretty much practicing basic chemistry, even if I don't feel like I'm that into someone. My close hangout buddy who is a girl still remains a deal breaker for me! I have been practicing it on her and she doesn't even know it to the point that I hardly recognize doing it on her now too. 

I am so tired of appearances now and everything eventually feels the same for me. They are all the same body parts with slight variations so what's the point of always feeling turned on at such a shallow level? It's pretty stupid to me now, and I'm pretty much at the minority end of this circle among guys. I know there's a minority of girls who want a very physically attractive looking man in their lives with a great personality to sweep them off their feet though. I guess it's not about settling for them. A soulmate of mine is one of them, but it looks like I could end up being slightly better looking than her overall, so is it going to really matter after all? 

I just want to feel swept off my feet now with a girl who has the right qualities. Dang, I felt it with this one girl I went on a date with but she turned me down. I was pretty stupid on that date and so I'm not getting any more dates because of my bad reputation or something at the same place. It's taking a long time and I don't think it's going to be reliable for me anymore.

My confidence level and creativity is starting to take on a new life, since I don't care about being rejected solely because of my looks alone now or even who I am overall as a person even if I made any mistakes. I'm going to just continue practicing basic chemistry which I currently believe is my secret and natural ingredient to finding myself a nice wife. 

What Might Have Triggered Me to Grow Up

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.
2. Work on staying concentrated and finishing in a timely manner.   
3. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
4. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
5. Read a book  
6. Buy a single family home. 
7. Finish my software engineering related courses.
8. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.
9. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 
10. Do some smart cooking.
11. Organize room more

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Out of all the rude people out there, there is someone still at a church who thinks she's entitled, holy, and chosen by God to lead me on some mystical spiritual journey of transformation, Crazy Lee! Absolutely not, I just needed to gain enough self-confidence and not self-esteem; they are actually two different entities. I finally gained it and grew up with this type of ruckus interfering with my growth but it could have been anything, right? Maybe I was already a smart alec to begin with. 

Anyways along with Crazy Lee and her gang and also a couple jerkwads like "Ace Mags" having responded rudely so continuously while I wasn't backing out and trying to be nice and all these angry emotions caving in to being tempted to go on murderous beatdowns with fists and feet, I just can't because I'm just dang too aligned with the good side. Actually what triggered this angry emotion and made me want to go on a rampage was just calling me crazy. It's like how dare they when it would be them who are crazy, right? 

I'm down for Christ but when it comes to getting that boogie woogie, I'm pretty unashamed about admitting to having a lasting predilection for women in general with really almost no physical preferences [pretty please don't be an actual man]! It can always feel so hot on fire like that so bring me a nice woman to be my wife, Lord of Hosts! I really think the secret to doing it is finding your own secret; I think I found mine. 

A Tiny Harmless Thing

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.
2. Work on staying concentrated and finishing in a timely manner.   
3. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
4. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
5. Read a book  
6. Buy a single family home. 
7. Finish my software engineering related courses.
8. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.
9. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 
10. Do some smart cooking.
11. Organize room more

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I think I'm working on being more smooth in my speech delivery so I can carry on a romantic relationship in the future with a woman! Fortunately, my close hangout buddy is a woman even though she's taken right now and has two or more lingering deal breakers she would need to fix and then slowly build back my trust. I'm just not telling her I'm practicing basic chemistry on her. I just think of something I would call my wife like baby or babe and then think about that at the end of my texts with my buddy besides ending it with the endearment. I think a good personal note to myself is that I'm going to need to stay sober enough before texting her! 

It's been very natural for me and totally me but what helps so much also is that I genuinely care about her a lot. Honestly, this is something I'm keeping a secret from the whole world and I just happen to be bragging about it on this puny blog which has turned out to be successful on my own terms! If she finds out about it, then it wasn't through me and I'm not ever going to bring it up so she might even question its validity. Plus, it isn't really that bad but it doesn't feel smooth to tell her about it because it might just mess up our fun chemistry. 

It's starting to make sense to me that I am a capable man to the eyes of many. It was my lack of self-confidence that was holding me back. Even though I am a short man, I look physically normal to the eyes of my honest mom and even my close hangout buddy has been giving me a few compliments about my appearance. I think I'm actually not that bad looking of a guy now especially with my genuine smile, so it makes sense with me practicing a little harmless chemistry on my buddy, she seems to be getting swooned quite a bit. 

I'm going to keep this up and never tell her until maybe I'm happily married and I'm open-minded that if she ever is able to consistently stay out of trouble with her deal breakers when those occasions arise then I'll pick her whenever she's ready! 

I think in general I should be practicing a little chemistry with any decent lady I see and so maybe this is what first blind dates are all about for me. This could maybe be my little secret that I don't care to investigate more on. 

Another friend is actually weird trying to jump the gun with his views on life and dating, but he turned out to be selfish, dependent, and stubborn about wanting to see it implemented on everyone he could see fit. He thought I was one of these people he could do it to from wanting some type of validation or something, while thinking something he saw with me was too out of place. I still can't believe I picked up on this bad behavior from him that he tricked himself into masking while developing some personal "good guy-isms" after going through a rut. ( Well, it could be that it happened to me before, but I wasn't that good about coming up with all the details like I can now.) This can probably be one of the dangers from being your own self-help buddy. I totally tore up his insides while holding nothing back with my texts. It's crazy that my bad texts have affected everyone in my past. I must be this smart while they are just unaware and stubborn about not thinking why they are being so bad. 

I like to think he's sort of in a jam right now with this life purpose that he wants fulfillment over. I think he's so weird and he also needs to be more careful right now about not making me a hot topic for him! I have enough details that make so much sense to put him down out of defense. I think this is also the same for Crazy Lee and her gang now! I think the issue is long gone already but they might still feel very negative about it collectively. They are so crazy, but now I have enough nerves to be combative with enough brain power that I naturally obtained from being my normal, confident self. 

Working Hard

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.
2. Work on staying concentrated and finishing in a timely manner.   
3. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard.
4. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  
5. Read a book  
6. Buy a single family home. 
7. Finish my software engineering related courses.
8. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products.
9. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 
10. Do some smart cooking.
11. Organize room more
12. Reactivate drone

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I think my mind just wanders off too much and I just need to be proactive and try my best to stay concentrated. I guess it can be like this activity where I just refocus on what I'm doing, if my mind goes somewhere else and I should look the part.