Managing Things Well

Yesterday, I handled checking off everything I wanted to get done before going to sleep. I'm reading through a book on managing your time, and it said that I should test how many hours of sleep I need. I ended up going to bed at around 9:00 pm and woke up about seven hours later. I napped another thirty minutes before hearing the alarm go off. I then power napped an additional five minutes before getting up and remembering the words, "Most people feel groggy for the first couple minutes after napping." 

I don't feel bad about all I did yesterday. In fact, I feel great about it! I want to keep this up again, and I think the main key is to just break it down into manageable daily tasks with a bigger goal that I have in mind with doing eventually.  

Breaking Things Down

Currently, I have a list of approximately twenty-two things that I would like to do by the time the day is over on each work night. For the most part, I have been able to carry almost all of them out while some of them may be unique to my own circumstantial needs. 

The two things that I am only missing now are reading and working out. They both seem to be time consuming so I'm going to try breaking them down a little bit more, so it would feel less cumbersome and more manageable. Like for reading, I have put it down for only one chapter instead of making it a reading session to start out. This seems to register a whole lot better for me. For working out, I'm just going to do a set of push-ups and sit-ups. I also have a list of things I would like to buy, so I'm going to limit it to acquiring one thing for today.  

The purpose of this exercise for myself is that I want to be able to complete everything that I scheduled myself for since I've been very bad with myself in time management all these years. I was smart enough to get by and graduate a difficult major, but my GPA was not nearly noteworthy enough for a valuable internship. I'm of course capable of doing all of that now and even have a very confident mind.  

I really may look into finishing additional online courses now just for fun and to possibly brainstorm something that would be cool while building my own portfolio. 

New Thing to Juggle

Well, I learned that having a gun in the household increases the risk of someone dying or committing suicide while using it. It is technically common sense, but I applied for a gun safety certificate and answered false thinking that it would make gun advocate groups happy!  

I went to a gun range and had fun firing a .45 caliber that has really strong recoil. I received some great instruction and had a good amount of practice in two hours while killing the center target from just 5 yards. The instructor said that I did really well and had proper form; otherwise, someone who was bad at it would have not done so well. I need to get better on my trigger squeeze and it would be fun to do some competitive shooting like hitting targets eventually. I don't know, but this is turning into a strange, new hobby for me. 

Dealing With Personal Uncertainty

I think I'm referring to stress because sometimes I get these conflicted thoughts and I'm not happy doing one thing that I think is good for me to invest in, compared to having fun with the other choice. I give in most of the time to letting myself having fun and sometimes, I regret it. It's something that I'm trying to deal with on a consistent basis. 

The biggest therapeutic thing for me right now that I can do for technically free is just writing on this personal blog. It's interesting how I'm really sharing about myself and not minding at all with never hearing back from any of my readers. I'm such a low-class writer, since I do get replies on most of my sent texts. 

Writing effectively for others isn't really my goal to begin with here and this is just a selfish activity I have picked up on to help myself relax and get to the bottom of my issues that are about to almost drive me crazy! In a sense, I've turned into my own therapist since it's easy to search Google for good articles on maintaining a piece of mind. As a good result, it's been easy to listen to what my family and friends are going through and be supportive. 

For the Longest Time

I'm going to admit here that it looks like I used to see a girl who is about a 90 minute drive to get to her place. She turned crazy on me, and it feels like a little too much to stick with her in pursuing a possible relationship. She said she isn't interested in dating anybody, and I totally understand. I'm happy to stay friends with her though. We didn't have anything that turned into something serious either, so I think it would be still cool to just hang out from time to time. I feel like this with a lot of the girls I'm interested in, too. 

I have yet to enter into a serious relationship, and it looks like it might be happening for real soon. For starters, I met a girl who is interested in setting me up with her friend who is interested in settling down. She matches my ethnicity and likes to have fun in a similar way that I do. I'm interested in meeting her and she looks cute from seeing pictures, even though I will be weighing her personality a whole lot more. 

Interesting Random Dream

From having a pretty visual and intuitive perspective, I sort of figure things out by doing them while researching all my possible options and deliberating on random solutions. My reading comprehension has been improving at a high rate, so it's useful now and even less stressful to me.

I still remember the main part of my dream last night, which was from talking to a former TV show host who was acting like a successful life coach with me and giving me good advice. It makes sense because two nights ago, a person I met talked about benefiting from taking part of an effective, life-changing course led by the famous Tony Robbins. 

It's interesting to note how this leading figure in my dream sported long hair that was spiked all the way up. He had dark brown hair, was Caucasian, and looked like the athletic UFC fighter Jason "Mayhem" Miller. He hosted the popular MTV show, Bully Beatdown and had a similar perky personality with how he talked to me. I remember watching a few interesting and entertaining episodes online not too long ago. Supposedly, it's been rumored to have been scripted and the bullies were played by stunt devils. Mayhem had a little gritty appearance and gave off a slightly crazy smile with his facial expression while talking to me in his pretty high pitched and speedy voice. 

He explained that you have to do what you have to. It was his one liner and then I asked him if he could give me extra lessons because I was feeling it. He said that it would take a long time to go through it with me and didn't look that interested.  

From the dream, I get the impression that it's about staying focused on what we have to do and that sometimes, it doesn't feel comfortable. Yet, it's really about pushing ourselves to get to where we want to go in life. 

Keeping Myself in Good Company

A lot of good things have been happening for me after making myself into a very confident person. I'm sticking to my moral principles at the same time while just doing things that interest me. It's been working out well for me. 

I think going to events found on Meetups have been really fun for me, along with meeting people who are friendly and open while being around people. I enjoy doing this and it's been fun to be around a few hot ladies as well. I'm assuming they are taken, until there's enough indication they aren't. Also, I can't really ask out about 99% of them right now because of my financial and living situation.

I really don't want to waste money by moving out to rent an expensive apartment. I would rather make a down payment for a nice home instead. Until the day this happens, I'm stuck with living with my parents. They are also against me marrying a girl outside our pure ethnicity. I'm under their roof even though I'm an adult and don't want to create a stressful situation for myself when it could be avoided. I also don't mind taking my time with becoming rich and then marry whoever I want after moving out. It just makes much more sense to do well while staying relaxed.

I'm very interested in owning a nice home and having enough money without depending on my parents which I still do by working at their business. This is why I'm branching off with investing in stocks and trading currencies. I also have a decent idea with being successful at it while resting easy at night. 

Just a Matter of Time

I see that it's just a matter of time before I start getting really active with that family making business in marriage, if you know what I mean. First off, there's really no ladies around my vicinity that conveniently matches the description my parents want me to be married off to. Also, I really don't want to go through some dating agency with my dad paying for it. I really don't like his plan and it wasn't a good sell so I turned him down. 

I also don't want to go to a boring church just because it has my ethnicity primarily attending it and try to date girls who have the same ethnicity.  

Actually, I think I'm doing just fine now because my confidence level is so high that it has actually increased my acumen as well. I think I was naturally a pretty smart individual to begin with and in an intuitive sense, so this confidence is only promoting what I was naturally supposed to be doing in the first place. It's such a great feeling! 

Seeing Things in Better Perspective

One of my good friends I haven't known that long and is a girl totally lost it with me the other day and couldn't drop something. It was pretty clear that she just couldn't get past whatever the issue was. Fortunately, my confidence has been soaring really high lately so I know I really didn't do anything wrong to her. I asked my mom if this is pretty normal for a woman to behave like this occasionally. The answer was no, my friend had something wrong going on with her. 

I believe my friend is crazy and relating it to how Crazy Lee behaved with me in the past along with her gang of misfits who went against me, they were all being crazy! Each and every one of them had anger issues over something that had nothing to deal with us personally and just couldn't get on the right track with me. It was really painful to me because I'm a relational person and did the best I could, but let's face it, I felt lazy about the whole ordeal and just ran my mouth off best as I could in the nicest way while trying to tear them apart with just text messages that I never wanted to say to them in person. They all got annoyed with me fast and ended up ignoring my messages. 

I ended up blocking the messages of a few people who had a hard time with me too just to feel like I had a leg up over them and even told them this. It was an interesting scenario, and I can easily unblock them and message them again for all I care. They have something that's really embarrassing for them because they didn't really handle it that well with me and want to avoid talking about it because they don't want it ruining their image. It's because I'm such a nice guy supposedly, so they want to be selfish about hiding it from others and say that it's all the past. 

I really think they could all benefit from seeing a therapist about it now. I just was confused for the most part from having my relational side get in the way emotionally. It was frustrating and made me mad to think about it in a daily fashion, but I have gained the self-confidence needed to brush it off without putting in much effort.  

Staying Consistent in a Smart Manner

It's nice to be able to review actions from the day before and then just think about what you wanted to get done and how that took place. There's pretty much some discipline that has to be formed to reach it consistently, and I guess it's still taking me a while to get there. 

For the most part, I'm doing a lot better at getting most of the things done on my daily checklist. I still like to divert my attention to something else that might be useless but entertaining.

Figuring things out and rolling along with some punches has been the name of the game. What I mean is that I can't be the best at everything, and it's been nice to read what others put online discreetly. I seem to have been gathering quite a small crowd with my written comments elsewhere online. 

For the most part, it's been fun to just intuitively come up with an answer on the fly while reading up on how other users answered regularly. I'm really just interested in answering questions that don't have a great answer yet and I haven't written already while being something I'm pretty experienced with already, so I like to try to fill that void and do this just for fun. 

Hanging in There With Confidence

I'm trying out something controversial with trying to make myself grow taller, so I don't even know if it's going to work or not but it seems interesting enough for me to try it out. It cost me a one time charge of only twenty dollars, and it requires me to relax about an hour a day. I'm playing some online Poker to go with it, and I'm finding how I'm not so worried about losing to other players because I'm so relaxed. Fortunately, I'm putting up to five dollars of my money at a time right now but I am still seeking to make some profit as a recreational player. 

I'm also demo trading cryptocurrency pairs and still live trading on the Forex market with the bare minimum just to gain enough experience with my style and become consistent at making a profit. It's getting there but does require some patience and still have a little guesswork to sort through. 

The next thing I'm interested in adding to my repertoire is working out.

Pursuing Things With Confidence, Positive Attitude, and Acceptance

It's finally dawned on me with this consistent good feeling underneath me. It's helping out with keeping me calm and happy inside. It's really wonderful to be alive and to keep on moving forward.

I think it's normal to be attracted to girls for dating purposes, but pursuing after them is another thing. It's probably better to just accept it with the possibility that any one of them could already be taken and just stay nice out of the goodness that's in your heart! 

I would really like to be a good representative for all the good guys out there, even if there aren't that many left. Also, I think this one blockhead I used to know called this other blockhead a good guy, but he's really a selfish pig so I think the first blockhead had a bad judge of character. 

Unfortunately, I just wasn't confident enough to deal with their misgivings and temper tantrums against me. They were really acting out like a bunch of narcissists and sort of convinced others I was some person that I never really turned out to be in the end. It turns out that I was just mad about their behavior with me, but not how they thought. I don't really care what their opinion is because I can decide for myself what's best in the end. I have enough self-control to not get too carried away and do stupid things that would have really dire consequences. I did take perfect risks though that I could have easily maneuvered if only I was prepared emotionally and mentally for anything that would take place. I failed while falling flat on my buttocks! 

The good thing about all of this is that I now have my confidence that I always needed, while feeling really good about myself most of the time. This makes it a lot easier to get them back on decent terms and even add insult to injury by trying to force them to add me as a Facebook friend! I really don't care if this is going to always end up making them mad or not, but I'm ready to recommend to them all that they all go see a therapist while talking to them in person! I plan to be straightforward and let them know how I feel without holding anything back with my usual manners that I personally enjoy always employing.

I just know that while I was mad and really venting via writing nice words to bully them around consistently with messages and not talking to them in person, they ended up blocking them. I still made them do a bigger reaction than I did to them at least. They were totally ineffective with setting out what they were trying to do to me. In the end, I'm just happy to know that they are just a bunch of regular imbeciles and will never be more successful than me!  

There was never going to be any amount of therapy that would make me satisfied while relating to that whole incident with a bunch of pseudo-narcissists so I rejected it. At least they turned out to be pretty dumb, but all I was missing was just confidence, which was the key ingredient I totally lacked in. It's really a blessing though that I found the right guy who did a powerful powerpoint presentation one day and then that just turned my world upside down for the better. I'm still a conservative believer of Christ based on the basics of the Bible and that's never going to change for me. I think that also has something to do with me staying uplifted in a consistent manner.  

Maintaining Confidence

I think the best part of the day really happens from just maintaining a positive mind and staying confident. It really does come down to stability with a good attitude to keep on striving for wonderful things. 

Honestly, I would like to become a millionaire with a six-pack and have started to experience some growth with my investments. I'm not going after risking it really big, neither am I thinking that I'm better than others. I really don't mind with taking awhile to get there and continuing to learn how to speculate and invest profitably in a consistent manner. 

I would like to get there a lot sooner though while also playing it safe off of my side job. The income I am currently making off my day job is enough to do a few fun activities and keep a little leftover for investing while maintaining a decent savings account. It's totally better than nothing. 

Obtaining happiness in my personal life is really dependent on reaching this goal of financial independence because without it, I can't see myself getting my own house and then dating a really nice lady. Well, I probably could if my parents were to introduce me to an interested girl they would like me to get to know, but there's really no one like that for me now.  

Making Myself Ready for Future Dates

Currently, the only girls I can probably date so easily would be the ones who are interested in me and have the same nationality. These girls are really hard to find to begin with because I'm not really anything that special. I seem like a nice guy, which is what my friend said about me while I used to be interested in her, and also short. 

The girls I'm interested in are not that much taller or shorter than me. We are almost level in height and maybe the majority of them are a little bit taller than me. Oh well, it sucks but they are still nice and I'm staying interested in them. I think I have a good time with cute girls who laugh when I bring up my height one time and seem down to earth. Okay, those are the perfect girls for me to hang with and enjoy their company.

The reason why I can't date so easily out of my race like my coworker I'm interested in is because one of my parents is a part owner of the company and so against it. I'm still living under my parent's roof, so I can't go off doing my own cool and Americanized thing until I've saved enough and moved out into a nice place of my own. I'm going to be near 40 in a few years and it sucks that I have to deal with this with my non-conforming parents. Once I'm successfully on my own, I don't really care what they think about me dating hot girls outside my race. 

I want to really work at this and get there soon as possible while doing something I enjoy. This is what I've found for myself and it's only just begun.

Thinking About Possible Relationships

From texting a friend who was potentially a girlfriend to me, I no longer feel the urgency to try to date her anymore. She's still fun to be around for hanging out and providing some company, since we're about the same age while she's pretty. It's just that she feels like quite a bit of a freak to me. I think I'm going to hold out with pursuing after her and just care about having fun in our budding relationship.

A few signs about my friend now makes me feel like it's going to be a deal breaker. I can't put it fully in words but it's just an overall impression about how I'm feeling with her. I'm now going to put my hopes on asking out a coworker. I'm seriously attracted to her and enjoy her personality. I'd like to get to know her more at least as a friend for possibly leading to marriage while being lovers. She might seriously be my type. 

Other than that, there's two other girls I have met and also interested in. I don't know their relationship status and can accept it if they are taken. The same goes with my coworker, since I'm not ready to ask her out yet and get an answer. With these three girls, I'm just not ready even though I know that I'm interested in trying to ask them out someday. There's also another girl who is getting out of a bad relationship, and I sense now that we could maintain great chemistry with each other. We are great friends and have already admitted mutually that we love each other in a respectable manner. 

Therefore, I have four girls I met and am personally interested in dating now after having had like six to count this year. I'm assuming that they are all taken or going to have an issue about dating me, so I don't see this at all as being negative but just waiting it out with some class.  

Keeping Up With Myself

I'm touching upon how my personal distractions right now are really about keeping myself entertained, while having some actual goals that I'm interested in doing. I'm putting some work into getting those things done whenever I can snap myself out of it. For the most part, it does feel relieving to cross off my daily To-Do list and has sort of become like a game for grown ups. 

I'm just going to have to continue trying to fulfill my daily To-Do lists, while snapping myself out of doing extraneous activities that are fun in the moment. I didn't grow up with a really good role figure from my dad who considers being a couch potato as a super fun hobby outside work. This sort of influences me in a bad way, but I'm figuring out that it's better to just be self-confident and stay focused while thinking positive. I'm still looking to have most of my dreams come true someday and now I'm confident about working at achieving them. 

Progressing Better

I'm starting to realize that a lot of my personal time is really spent over giving myself to entertaining distractions. It is a lot of fun to binge watch while streaming good episodes, but there's a limit to how much I want to give into it now. I don't really want that to be the focal point of my life at any given point. 

It's really going to be just a matter of time though, before I get rich enough to be able to move out on my own finally. I'm going to be really nearing my middle age sooner or later. I'm going to have to just keep on trying to minimize my distractions and working to get the hard part out of the way regularly for myself before giving myself over to some well-deserved fun and relaxation!  

What I Could Do Better

Last night, without really intending to discuss it, I really should have known better and I do want to keep these posts as clean as possible so it would be better to just keep it inside my head. 

Instead of going off to do my entertaining pursuits, I could really go after finishing off marking my To-Do lists. I seem to have no problem following them at work, but when I'm home, I totally shut down and lose sight of personal focus. I think the best way to go about this is to just keep on putting in the effort to remind myself and still take heart while I'm feeling a little worn down.

I think I can really reward myself later once I have my necessary tasks in order or maybe I might need to cut down on the excess that I don't find myself interested in. I'll just have to go after pushing aside the extra stuff that entertains me but may provide little value to my time and enjoy them at a later time. I do find myself to be a people person, so I do value others like my own future wife and kids more than just binge watching a cool series.  

Making More Sense

I finally feel like I have it figured out from maintaining a lot of self-confidence along with having a reasonable amount of patience. It was pretty difficult to get to this point, but I'm still glad that I dealt with those ups and downs to finally get to this point. Mainly, it is really hard to do but it all starts with your own attitude. 

Everybody is wired differently with what interests them and for me, I'm really into computing in general. I don't mind learning about anything dealing with computers even though I'll start off with being lazy about it! I also want things to happen as conveniently as possible while building off of personal experiences and even using my intuitiveness at the same time. I think this is why it was important for me to gain plenty of confidence with a positive mindset. 

I'm just not totally swayed anymore from feeling bad about something in the moment. This is why I think I can go for full glory as an investor and speculator of the currency markets while swing trading it! It's pretty enjoyable for me to take the risk while actively pursuing some profits. I might get myself into investing in real estate too, but for this one I'll just turn it over to a good management team for me and collect profit while paying their fees. As long as I don't really have to pay much out of pocket to keep them hired.  

Working a Routine

For the most part, I have made a To-Do list for each day excluding the weekend and probably will make one for them too because it's turning out to be effective. I'm using the list and crossing things out at work. It's probably when I'm home that my mind is really shutting down. Work can be pretty draining for the most part.

It can get totally nuts but that's why I'm glad to have found an investing style that caters to my preferred lifestyle. It's just going to take longer I suppose to get rich, but it will reach there eventually. I'm just going to have to work at getting around to doing everything on my To-Do list eventually. It's really just entertaining distractions that's keeping me too busy. 

Main Thing to Work On

The biggest thing I have going is pretty much falling asleep early, right after getting back home from work and eating dinner. I'm not absolutely fond of living with my parents when I would prefer to move out with a lot of money in my pocket. The way I'm trying to go about this is from investing in stocks and trading currency for money now. It's definitely a risk but so far, I'm doing good so I'm just going to have to keep on going at it. 

My third form of making money which is from doing Poker is just taking off too much time for me now. I think I'm already satisfied with the work I put in at my family company and the income I make. I don't really need to do any extra anymore, even though I could. I just think that it takes up too much time and I prefer to live a more balanced life like working out and cooking food for myself. 

Yesterday, my mind ended up slacking off from turning off my smart genes and I gave in a little to my lustful temptations. I don't believe in getting physically intimate before marriage because for me, the Bible says so and I don't really care what other reason is out there. It's just preposterous and the main thing to focus on would be fully loving your partner and not looking for anything smaller than that out of just wanting some pleasure. Once the marriage is set in place, it's time to make it a more fun deal instead of feeling like it's work sometimes. 

Picking Up an Investing Style

I'm starting to understand how I'm going to be investing my money for the long term. I believe that I'm part of a really good investing group and feel comfortable sticking with it, so that's how I will go about it. I want to really be a low maintenance type person, so I don't mind doing copy and paste while letting everything balance each other out. The only thing I'm going to be arbitrating is my allocation amount. 

Because I'm not starting out investing with like $100,000 which would be ideal for making a bunch of cool investments, I'm going to have to compact it down a bit to something more manageable and will work for me. It looks like it's really exciting to invest for my future and hopefully, I'll become a millionaire soon and not have to keep living under my parent's roof as a personal safety net.

They were sort of failures with raising me properly, since I grew up to be really sensitive so I don't always like their advice anymore. Yet, I told my mom honestly that if I end up making a lot of money then I'm going to marry whoever I fall in love with even if she's outside my ethnicity. They really don't have anyone they would like to introduce me to because I appear to be a loser, so maybe I should first move out while doing well for myself and then tell them that I'm interested in marrying whoever they would like to introduce me to so in the end, they can only be upset with themselves if I end up marrying someone they don't like! 

Staying Caught Up

I think the biggest distraction for me is spending my time watching things when I can find better things to do. To get over this ailment, I'm probably just going to have to run up my To-Do list and get used to crossing it off on my off-hours. It seems to be going really well for me at work for the most part. 

This is pretty much it for me. It really doesn't matter for me how things turn out with whatever I'm going after to seek. I will just continue to learn and improve myself as best I can. Playing online Poker does feel pretty stale to keep up pretty consistently now. I'm going to try to lay off as much as possible now. Maybe, when I'm waiting somewhere and going to be there for a while then I can do something like that.   

Working on Better Things

I pretty much have three main and unique To-Do lists now and they are just unbelievably simple to maintain! I'm using the G-mail suite of course and applying the To-Do list spreadsheet template. For the date column, I just number it based on my preferences and priority with Number 1 being the highest priority. I then just update the list by sorting it from least to greatest. It's pretty seamless considering how I don't have 1000s of things on my mind to do. 

The book I'm reading on managing time suggested it, so I have decided to apply it and it's working out for me. I just check off the tasks I completed and mostly go in order with it. It's been working well with managing my busy days so far. I'm just amazed with how a simple idea can be so powerful and useful with your own creativity. 

A guy I worked with last year called me up a few days ago to try to sell to me on being a life coach with me. I liked how it worked for me, but then I just wasn't interested in it anymore because I'm already busy with doing things that are making me happy. He told me to reach out to him, if I ever needed anything later. I think he's really interested in making it a business so he was trying very hard to convince me, but I decided to pass on it and wished him well. 

I'm not really disappointed by experiencing failure anymore. I don't mind moving forward still and maintaining this confident and happy state. I'm looking forward to reaching all of my goals someday and hope to do it sooner or later, but it looks like I'll probably be hanging on to a couple for the rest of my life, so there will never be any end to it. The point is that I'll be consistently working at it while self-motivating myself.  

Staying at a Good Place

Regardless of any situation I find myself in, it now looks like I'll stay happy however things turn out for me. It's a wonderful feeling to be in this state of mind, and it's mainly from running with a very confident and positive mindset. I don't know how it just kicked into gear, but it happened from picking up on some neuroscience and then applying it mentally.

It looks like things are starting to make a lot more sense to me and becoming less of a burden. I'm really in a pretty good peaceful state of mind these days, and it's great how I love to keep on building upon it. What's also awesome is that from not putting much thought into my grammar, this email composition from G-mail is correcting most of my noticeable errors on the go. 

I think I'm going to lay off of Poker more often because of its time consuming activity while also being stagnant sometimes. It just doesn't bring me enough fulfilling joy to compete and try to take other players' money. It's of course a great rush when you're consistently winning though but there are periods where you have to wait for a good setup. Knowing myself, I prefer to tell someone or program a computer what to do when that happens and pay for any applicable fees. 

I'm starting to figure out how I'm getting very comfortable with being intuitive with the useful resources that are available to me and making the most out of it. As long as I'm having fun, I don't seem to really mind dealing with my mistakes and perfecting my craft while becoming consistent enough to make a living out of it. 

Working at Building Wealth

I have been very interested in doing my trading and I probably could have benefitted a little if I were to stay up a little longer last night, instead of attempting to take a short nap but just ended up falling into a deep sleep. It's funny how I watched this anime episode where it had a boss fight and he placed a spell that was capable of putting any of the heros to sleep for eternity. He said that once their eyes stay closed, they would be dead. How fun would that be, trying to keep yourself awake while doing battle?

I'm still not mentioning this anime that I've been watching and I'm about twenty more episodes away from finishing the whole series that took the makers about ten years to complete. I guess that would be normal though to binge watch something this long, if you turn into a fan.

I think when i'm finished with this distraction then I'm probably going to have a lot more time on my hands to figure out my practical things and hype myself up to get them done on a daily basis. 

Letting Things Go

I'm still in November as I write this post, so it's going to be like talking about how 2020 has been going instead of focusing on the New Year. This might literally take place when I start writing these posts in the first week of January. 

I'm not really so worried anymore from being really confident in myself. I don't want to stay mad at silly people from having gone along with their silly schemes like a numbskull. I was so lacking in confidence and trying to look to the wrong individuals for support. They made it only worse for me because they really showed signs of how they could use a therapist. 

These people aren't really all that and neither will they be getting to the top, and it looks like they prefer moving on as well while keeping themselves distanced from my view. It's probably because they have values that I personally find to be weird. It's all okay because we were all made out to be differently from one another. 

They seriously tried to swing their heavy bats against me and didn't do much offense in the end because it was like a very long playoff series to me. I wasn't capable of making good explanations and couldn't really put up much of a fight either but they still couldn't get much off the ground while being against me. It's totally a lost cause situation and it sucks that it had to happen but it did so now it's time to move on, while trying to not still get so worked up about it. This is what I really want to do and have the swagger these days, so it's better that I continue to strive for personal improvement for my own happiness. I don't really care how selfish it may come off as either, but I still know they are all qualified candidates to go see a therapist!  

Finishing Up Distractions

I think my biggest distraction is really finishing up this one anime series right now. I'm really close to finishing it, and I really did enjoy watching all the episodes even though I blanked out on a few of them from being too tired while watching them. What's funny is that I'm not going to mention which show it is! I want to see if I forget which one it was like twenty years later if I ever go back to read this post again.

It's possible that at the rate I'm creating these posts on the fly, I could eventually get to being a year ahead of schedule even, so by the time it rolls around, it won't even be relevant to the current times. It's possible that it can even get so annoying for people to read. Oh well, I don't know which crowd I'm serving right now but I'll just stick to continuing on getting myself ahead with these posts. 

It's probably funny in the way I see that by the time I get married and mention it on here, it could be like that was already over a while ago. I personally know the dates that I'm writing it for of course and it's possible that I could do a little sorting but I just want to keep a simple routine going. I'm electing to not get paid for posting on here and doing this mainly out of my convenience, while also not being worried about noticing a drop of daily visitors. I'm just going to continue to post at the same time and same place, regardless of whatever happens as long as the Google servers continue to operate which could end up being like forever at this point! 

It would be sort of in good humor as well, if I were to pass away and hopefully with a good old age and happy man while continuing to feed posts once daily until it reaches the last one. I'm hoping that I'll still be sharp and healthy enough to share some good experiences that anyone can enjoy or learn off of if they want to when that time rolls around. 

Getting Things Back in Order

I think the main thing I really need to do is limit my binge watching for entertainment and work on cooking and working out. Yesterday, I was too full after dinner to be interested in cooking so it looks like I will have to wait for possibly the weekend. I think at this point, it looks like it will make the most sense to cook something fast and that looks good on the weekend. It is expensive to do online shopping for groceries but it saves so much time which is more valuable for me than paying up to an extra $10 for getting someone else to do the shopping and drop it off for me. I think it's a great idea and good way to make money, while being innovative. 

I managed to do some shopping for ingredients, so it's now time to put in time to work out and make a routine out of it. I do have an expensive gym membership that I have been neglecting all this time. Who really doesn't? I should be getting my money's worth out of that place, since I'm committed to sticking around, so that's where I should be putting my time. I also want to grow taller still while being an old guy and it's doing these yoga stretches that supposedly make you feel better anyway, so I should be concluding my night with those exercises. 

I even have a portable pull-up bar that I can install in my room and I don't mind doing a set of push-ups and sit-ups each night so it's just going to be really all about consistency at this point. 

Adding Small Changes

Some days you feel it and other days you just don't. On the days that you do feel it, it can still come out pretty dry if you aren't feeling it right away. Later on, if you say or write something, it can totally be off putting to some people who should go see a therapist!

Anyhow, I'm starting to cook and want to add in working out now to get some more balance in my life. The investing and trading is going along nicely for me right now. It's going to take several years to build up a fortune but I'm totally ready for it. There's just this inner drive with so much confidence that just keeps me moving along. 

It's interesting how answering questions on Quora shifts focus into a less selfish activity but more giving attitude. It looks like it's so effortless too with the answers I'm putting in, so I'm not getting that much credit for saying what goes on a lot of people's minds already. I guess it's pretty neat still that this blog is so focused on me, the main character as a narrative; while, Quora focuses on answering questions for someone. I still talk about myself while making explanations and laugh about my past that I struggled in. It's fun for me. 

Happy New Year's Day

Happy New Year's to everyone passing by this site today. I know this isn't a very big blog and maybe one person might be thinking this blog sucks! It's okay since the best YouTube videos also have their haters. The objective is to get views anyway and possibly bring the owner of it some income, so viewers should have the right to express however they feel through clicking an approval or disapproval button if they want to.

A lot of things that I have been living through have become a lot easier from gaining acceptance and a huge level of confidence. Things can't always go your way, so persevering through it is the way to go! For some who just have trouble coping with it, they should definitely go check out a therapist. 

I was very stubborn about not going to see a therapist because it costs too much money, but I know for sure that I don't need it because I'm a happy person underneath and always feeling very confident about himself. Even going through ups and downs, I still feel like there's so much to live for and to keep on working hard for something meaningful even if nobody cares to give me enough attention that I feel is well-deserved. I will just keep on going for being consistent because there's a passion that's developing inside of me from having gained all this personal confidence!

Basically, I'm self-motivated now and not dependent on others to really set my mood. It's fun though to have like the right girl in your life to enjoy and do some partying with. I don't really need to be on Facebook anymore, but I still care about sharing and trying to influence something great sometimes. 

It's nice to stay positive and have people you can relate to. Also, it seems like I'm around a good number of people enough times who could probably benefit from going to see a therapist. The way I have noticed these people will stick around in a nice way is to bring up their issues in a sensitive manner and address it with a positive solution that makes a lot of sense. If I'm making fun of it intentional or not then they are going to get mad and try to run me out of their mind. Still, if I talk about this with them then they are likely to change their minds again later. 

It makes sense to feel like I'm seeing cops now whenever I talk about Crazy Lee. I'm obviously making fun of her. She failed so silly and couldn't extend her restraining order on me. What an idiot! I was never interested in dating her either from having personal insecurities and still do with her. Anyways, I'm a relational person so I will try my best to get along with her since we were acquainted with each other at one point and this just feels really good to me. I can also accept her being more of an idiot and not wanting to do anything with me, too. This is where I believe I don't need to go see a therapist about it anymore. Let's just talk about her idiocy with her face-to-face and bring that up while debating on what her personal problems are and then tell her to add me as a friend on Facebook because it is like a handshake where I can just treat her as another insignificant stat and move on with my life.