Spending Time Wisely

I guess I'm just not going to get what I want sometimes even when it comes to the opportunity of how I can spend my time. It's how the world works and that's probably what gets people to flip the handle and go off with doing crazy things sometimes. I'm aware of it and coming to an acceptance about how this world is cursed and I need to let it go.

Keeping Self From Regressing

This is one of the toughest areas for me to develop in. It's really not going back to a former state that really had no consequences for me but was very fun and addictive. The only thing about it is that I'm using up precious time. Time is a commodity and feels like it's becoming less available to me. I have so many things that I want to accomplish and that's probably why I need to make ends to get it going.

Letting Go of Distractions

One of my biggest distractions is pretty much when the TV is playing and I'm sitting there, I can just let my mind be glued onto it. It's not something that I preference for doing right now. I'd rather be going around trying to be a successful person these days. Another thing is being glued at my computer letting myself get carried away with reckless time management. I need to figure this out and I want to wake up to not feel like I regressed back into something regrettable.

Simple Goals

Okay, so what I'm still trying to do each day is just get these basics done for myself, but my nature doesn't want me to get there. I also believe that the enemy would hate for me to succeed in these areas, so it's a spiritual battle nonetheless. It's exciting that everybody is a part of it in some shape or form.

I just want to read the Bible, exercise, and trade. If I can get those three things on a daily basis then I think I will have room to make myself grow in other areas. I also realize that I'm playing a little too much and I could work a little harder even off hours to get to where I want to be going. It's difficult but fun and something to just continue to work at.

Boy 9 More

Okay I don't know what I'm putting. I think I'm just going to end my post like this right now. I really need to get back into trying to write some quality posts. By spending a little bit of time each day, I think I can max out my productivity with my goal in mind that I'm trying to do. 1 post a day for my average. This is actually really hard to do now that I figure. Nobody really is doing what I'm doing, so I guess since I'm the only one, it makes sense that I would be #1.

Trying To Adjust Habits

I'm finding myself trying to go for the easy route. This isn't really easy because my personality is one where I can let something influence me and get me off focus. I need to stay considerably with a vision and go beyond something. It's easy to want to stay with the crowd but this is where I need to branch myself out. I want to go to extreme heights to put hard work into something in a natural manner. I guess I'm just built to be that type of person, while still trying to have a heart that cares about people in this world.

Busy and so Very Busy

What's happening for me is that it's really hard for me to adjust to this new work schedule of mine now. It's probably going take a little awhile for everything to sink in. I'm trying to guard myself from gaining so much weight. Basically everything still applies, it's just that it's a lot harder and I'm more aware of what I'm getting done and regretting it most of the time.

Fast Filler Comments

Okay, I'm on my last day right now to make up the whole month. This is just way too much. Let's see how much I can finish in the next five minutes or so.

Following Up With the Promise Continued

Okay, so I'm very ticked off underneath and have all this energy that I could just go off on a talking tirade and make everybody say that I talk too much. I can basically talk a conflict to death like that and tell them to not act stupid with me anymore. They will behave because they don't want to hear me constantly talking about it and then finding fault with it and getting them to worry that I'm going to make fun of them while I'm not doing it.

I'm pretty smart and can be funny apparently still while I'm an angry person. I just prefer to be at ease most of the time. I don't want to be mad. I would rather solve problems from being a cool dude and laughing underneath at the folly of others who are trying to play in a rude manner.

Following Up With A Promise

Now when I see a cop car pass me by, I'm not feeling so paranoid anymore. I was like this for awhile after getting a restraining order from stupid Lee and for years after it went away. After passing off some of my frustration from bagging on her reviews at Yelp, she goes by El Yummy Tummy by the way; I just clicked the "I think it's funny" button for all of her reviews. She isn't doing it as a profession so I will say that based on my opinion, she sucks at writing reviews very horribly and I have no problems admitting that I'm being very biased about it!

Basically stupid Lee gave me some anger problems that I just let off on her. I made her scared once and got her to scream. It's a marvel that I threw a Jehovah Witness Bible at her pastor too while up on stage. I think she's a worship leader. I don't know and I don't care anymore. The fact that the restraining order wore off and I went back to try to do some passive damage makes me think that stupid Lee is very stupid indeed.

Not Bad

I haven't posted for awhile and have basically an average amount of views this month just as I'm accustomed to. Right now I really want to just catch up by posting anything right now. This sort of sucks that I let this site go from being busy all month. Okay so I'm just typing fast right now to get this out of the way. Anything is pretty much going now.

Effects of Keeping Journal

What's not that odd for me is that I'm taking a few minutes or seconds out of my day to jot down what I did. Reflecting on the activities that I did honestly, I don't feel too good about a few good activities and I could seriously work on those things.

What I feel honestly pretty good about is something that's just coming out of my heart. I think I should have a pretty good grasp of these activities first before I try to go for adding more tougher accomplishments.

Here's what I have going and trying to work on: daily Bible reading, working out, trading, cooking, taking care not to get more hair loss, socializing, writing and playing songs, salsa dancing, rock climbing, bowling, snowboarding for winter season only, attending Six Flags monthly. If I can get these things done, then I might not have too much trouble adding on some. I'll have to see what happens eventually.

Pretty Simple

I'm just going to make a quick post right now. One of the things that I'm interested in is staying on top of things consistently. With all these interesting books and software I've purchased, I haven't really been able to really put my time into it that much.

I'm still trying I guess and hopefully I'll get there sooner or later. One of the earliest struggles I had was pretty much being able to sit there and read something while coming to a pretty good understanding. It was difficult for me because I felt so out of my place and like my insides were going to tear me apart. It felt like torture underneath because something was taking place for a long period of concentration. It felt very unstable to me and I couldn't make much out of it.

I think that's why I didn't nearly do as well I think I could have in college, along with my procrastinating. These are few of the things I'm openly stating about myself. It's just that now those things are becoming less of a worry to deal with for me.

Need To Stop Procrastinating

I don't why my mind just wants to let things off to the last minute. I constantly do it and don't know why. It's really hard for me to adjust to this and it just feels like I'm giving myself a hard time from not giving into my urges. However, I know that it's good to not give into them.

With that old church incident where that crazy girl was pretty much being a push over with me and looking like she was on crack, it's always going to make me mad thinking about it. I guess it's just how it is and I'll do my best to continue trying to grow up over it.

I think I really just need to continue pushing myself and working harder because I want to succeed and be better.

Wasting Time Again

I guess I was feeling a little sick today from catching a cold but oh well, that's how it really is. I just stayed inside really and didn't do much. I should make better plans with socializing with more people though. It might do me much better from actually being a people person.

Well for starters, I could really start reading the Bible again. Right now, the habits that I would personally like to fix include watching TV and playing card games. I think I just need to control my urges for those things and just man it out even though it's hard.

It's so easy to just sit there and just turn it on and then just lose oneself over it. One thing I'm starting to notice though is that it's not really doing me much. I think the reason why I've been doing it all this time is because it's being acting as sort of a security blanket for me. I could just let it go.

Basically Repeat

I can't everything all at once as I would like to. I'm stuck at my current job right now. I want to be an investor and have all this time to myself to do other things while taking my time with getting things done. It's very hard I know, but I think it's worthwhile to seek after. I'm still going after it because I also find it interesting to work at.

So it looks like I'm going to need to just dumb down a few things and write down errands that I suppose will be exiting my mind so that I can look at them later and try to use them up.

Routine

So my routine is to pretty much try to do a bunch of stuff in a day because I don't really have that much time to do in the first place. I see, so that's how it's going to be for me. I'm going to just keep trying and giving my all. So I practically wasted about 3 hours doing nothing but playing card games. I could have spent it for something better. Now, I've realized that I could spend my time more efficiently not that doing that.

To get everything in order and efficiently for me, I don't really have time to watch TV so much at the moment. Not until I become a millionaire or something and don't really have to work a regular 8 hour job. I guess when that day comes it will feel so good for me. I think I'm really longing for that the most.

I'm really thinking about getting a Master's but it's more on the side for me now. Thinking about what I want daily tasks to be, I can't really do it all. Time is starting to become a very precious commodity for me and I'm realizing that.

Feel Pretty Sheepish

From actually not spending my time properly, I didn't really get much done on my free time. I could have done a lot better if I had actually tried. Oh well, I guess it's going to take a little bit more work for me then to get it going and to be right about it.

Well the most basic things that I want to accomplish is to just read the Bible, trade, and exercise at least. Those are pretty much what I would like to accomplish everyday with the exception of weekends where I may take a day off from working out and trading.

Adding on to that I could do some socializing and take better care of myself by also trying to cook.

Didn't Post Everyday

Well, I've been busy with playing card games. I realize that it took a lot of my time away. I'm keeping a journal to keep track of everything I'm doing. It looks like I'm having a hard time letting go of playing Hearts, solitaire, and Free Cell. These games are really addictive for me. I think I just need to let it go this time and find something else to do.

Going for Posting Everyday

Just making these quick posts and not really caring about whether people are looking at this site or not is not that bad anymore for me now. I'm not being paid attention to that much and it doesn't really bother me.

I'm going for using several tools this time to help me out. This should be good. Since I'm actually a blogger who likes to occasionally go back to read what I put, I guess I can do this then.

I found something useful today. From working out and having confidence, I can approach girls who I felt acted stupid with me in the past. Those girls don't seem to act so rude with me anymore because I think they are afraid that I will lash out at them and get the better of them, including their muscle that they try to recruit. You know it's actually not that bad then with where I'm at right now for being a short guy. I don't really consider myself super short to the point that it's a disadvantage with where I'm trying to be now.

I think it's really this mentality that I've developed into something that's more of an I can do spirit. It's more like a I can think my way to a solution and work hard at it type of deal. It doesn't matter how short the person is especially if he or she is smart enough already and had a pretty good academic background. Now, I see why education is valuable and something I just convinced myself at this moment as being very useful.

What I Could Let go Of

A few things I could let go of is simply watching TV just for the sake of letting time pass by like an old man. I can't afford to make myself old and not do anything. To practically be a body in the house and not do anything, I would really need a wife who got old with me to make something like that happen. Even then when I'm old, I'm going to try to move her around a lot with me.

Posting Anything

I now bought a few notepads so I can keep track of what I did now. It's more like keeping record of what I did so I can maybe keep myself accountable. By having a log of what I did, I'm sort of keeping a diary and able to self-monitor myself for better success. I hope this ends up working out and something I don't become really bad over.

I think by doing this it might help me out a lot.

Okay

I'm just writing anything again. I'm not trying to go for anything fancy here. This is why nobody is really interested in commenting on this page.

What I Plan To Get Into

I think right after work, I plan on going to work out. After that, I might as well take some time to read the Bible and then work on doing some daily trading.

With the extra time that I have I would love to socialize if I could, get my hands on some cooking, play a little bit of piano, and run some errands. Which reminds me, I should go get an oil change already.

New Adjusted Hours

I'm back to working during the day shift now so my hours will be from the morning to the evening now. It's a little different and I guess it's better in general for me. I have to come to acceptance that I can't do some things and I shouldn't really be wasting my time with some things.

Right after work, instead of settling into working on something to play with, I should be laboring to also get ahead in life. This is what I want to do instead of being lazy.

Girlfriend Situation

I really have no idea if I'm going somewhere with this one girl I met on a dating website or not. I guess we'll see. I'm just being patient and I think she's just really busy with something right now. We did a whole lot of texting with each other and I guess it's cool to just die down a bit now.

I think she's been checking in with me though and I hope it's not because she feels bad for me. I hope she's pretty genuine about the things she's saying, but you never know I guess.

Start of New Year

Okay, I'm back to typing on here again. I guess I took a long break. I don't really have much to write about right now. How long have I been doing this for now? About five years at least and not really counting? Oh man, this has been a whole lot of writing for the last couple years.

It's a good thing that I've developed a personal sense of humor through writing. It's actually helped me communicate better with the ladies via text messaging. It's not much really, but it did build my confidence up for talking to them in person too. I now have a whole lot of Cambodian female friends. I think I know like five of them, which isn't that much. I don't really have too many female friends, so they count a lot to me.