Monday, October 17, 2011

Just Doing Business

Okay, the stuff that some people did to me in the past is just a bunch of baloney. I don't really care about it anymore. I really need to focus on making a living just for the bare necessities. Anyhow, bagging on a church with how bad its policies and teachings were might carry some weight for me since I do claim that I want to follow the Bible. It's not really about shooting myself in the foot either. There are probably some really good churches out there which really care about getting involved with the community and helping out.

It's really about examining the fruits of some labor which is how the Bible wants to put it. What sort of makes me laugh is that I've heard from decent friends and kin that church people are really arrogant and narrow-minded hypocrites. I was really sensitive to those descriptions when someone accused me about it in the past, but I guess I'm over it and can laugh about the depiction about it dealing with myself. It's really about a measure of having good faith, and it is something that needs to be examined by looking at the fruits that come out of a person's effort. I guess good leaders can really guide some strong-willed followers to harvest wonderful fruits for others! What I mean by fruits are results of a person's hard work which is how the Bible depicts it as.

Maybe letting go of so much negativity from that one little church that acted like a weed I wanted to pull out of my lawn would help me see the bigger picture of what is supposed to be happening and inspire me from noticing the good things that are happening. I'm also pretty good at opening doors for myself and dealing with a bunch of people who can potentially give others headaches. Maybe, I can use this decent gift to try to help improve the lives of others in a loving way with a cheerful heart.


Avoiding Future Headaches

This time I'm going to make sure that when I commit to something that involves money, I really have the money for it and will be able to be pay it off fast. I believe that I'm more experienced so common sense should say that I might be decent with doing business now. Using OPM is really controversial, so the next time I try it out, I'm going to make sure that I already have enough cash for myself to back out of it now in case anything goes wrong for me. I pretty much over-strained myself in the credit card usage but now I should be able to put myself back in good standing and keep it that way now.

All of this money stuff was about just doing business and trying to make a living. I understand now, so I've lived a pretty exciting life putting myself over the edge dealing with finances. I really think doing stocks and investing could be really up my alley now because I'm just really excited about it. However, I'm going to put my own money into it and be wise about it by practicing before putting my own money into it. It's something I want to do and while having something to support myself, I can put a little time into investing and should be able to find a way to make some additional income without putting too much effort into it.

I am no longer going to procrastinate dealing with business. I'm just going to go in and do the best I can to conquer it while using common sense in business terms. It may seem like I'm a ruthless business leader but then again, I would like to make some good financial sacrifices to practice being pious while not worrying about money in general. Yeah, maybe that additional fun might be something I could afford giving up if it would convert to godly results in improving society. This is all based on me trying to be a follower of the Bible in its purest form. The Bible also says to be on the lookout for all types of greed, so that means watching out for those people who might want to take advantage of a person's wealth too. Hey, proverbs found in the Bible are really intelligent too.

Future Plans

I'm pretty much going to just let this blog sit and with all the stuff I've revealed hopefully I didn't embarrass myself too much from it even though I suppose that I did. I feel a lot more comfortable in my own shell and since I'm trying to follow the practical applications found in the Holy Bible which is really about loving God and others then it might reflect being in okay standing from a legal perspective in the United States which is where I'm currently making my home. Hey, living out what a fully-fledged Christian is supposed to do isn't really committing any crime anyway.

Wow, some people must have had it really rough especially with news I still hear about in how Christians are still being incarcerated in some countries. Persecution may still be around so it still means the Bible is being truthful about it, and how it could be relevant in today's terms. Basically, being a rude or selfish person and then claiming to be persecuted isn't really what the Bible had in mind for those true believers who follow it.

Making Final Preparations

It looks like just having a job now, I'm going to be able to catch up with making payments on all of my card debt. I'm just feeling really excited at the thought of finally being normal again in my financial area. I believe I've learned a lot throughout the process and how some people might be really out there to hustle consumers into giving them more money so they could make a living.

When I was younger, it looks like I was more susceptible to having a dirty mind but now that even feels like old news and something I might have a really good understanding of now. The Bible pretty much says to not covet or lust after things which is probably about learning to behave well and accepting the truth about the condition of man. I'm tempted to want to myself look good in like a holy appearance type of deal, but then I know that I have hidden some bad stuff about me which is not related to really anything in general except my own personal preferences. This means that I haven't done those illegal drugs or any criminal transactions, and I am very sure of it.

I guess I can really give people a hard time because there's really not much on my record. If I really become honest and fulfill the requirements that I'm supposed to do, then usually I come out okay. Getting some useful support from others is something I try to utilize too. Overall, I hope I manage to make it. I tried really hard and tried to delay everything, but now I really need to live up to facing everything to put myself back on track.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Brainstorming Ideas

I believe that I should make my line of work something I could feel that is really fun so then it's not really work then. Well then, I might as well take on some position and be the nicest that I can be of a person. I'm going to make my mind really resilient and not let up with some decisions that I've made regarding my life. For now on, I'm just going to be about diligence and doing stuff that makes sense and is pretty happy driven. What I see in others is not what I'm going to be doing to myself sometimes- that's just the way it is for me but I will still socialize from time to time.

Hey, if I'm really bored from being at the house all the time then I could always do some volunteer work, which would be like giving back. I think my life has been about having fun while striving in excellence- this is how it was back then for me trying to pass those Mario Bros games! I'm going to make all the necessary preparations then have enough time to do other things to entertain myself and also help others out. I'm so used to being overwhelmed with things and that it's part of my growing up cycle.

If I miss out on some things, then I'm going to learn to not to become bitter about it and still try to be the nicest that I can be. There's really no reason for me to get so emotional about everything even though others might be understanding if I do get to that point. Anyway, I think I'm ready to care, be an understanding type of person, and always be stable with myself while thinking quick on my feet.

Where I'm At Right Now

I used to feel like being bored about something was the worst thing in the world for me. I'm starting to get used to the feeling, so now it's time for me to realize what I'm supposed to do right now. Regardless of feelings, I do have needs and wants just like everybody else does. All I can hope for is that I find something that will fit in place for me with the ones that I'm not so sure about. Everywhere else where I can maintain some level of competency, I might as well work hard at it.

This must be a difficult thing for some people in my shoes to realize, but where I'm at is that I'm still pretty young compared to people in their mid-30s or 40s. What I do with my time now is going to have a dramatic effect later now. The adage of live like there's no tomorrow is something that I've always tried to live up to by having fun to the best of my ability. I'm going to have to act like I need to keep pushing until it's the end for me now. What I mean is that I'm currently in a state where I should be investing and that if I run out of time somewhere in my life, then at least I can personally live up to my expectation of fully doing what I wanted to do in the first place.

It was really hard for me to juggle these issues of feeling that I lack time and then I should just go blow my time off on having fun. I now see quite a bit of the more mature side of things now and how it balances with my desires.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Happy Columbus Day

I didn't know today was Columbus Day. Oh well, I guess I've been trying to do other stuff because I'm just so bored right now. I think being outside the home everyday to do something would be really meaningful for me now. Doing a lot of things is just getting really boring now so I really should just deal with the boredom and study hard.

Man, my mind is just totally out of it from not being able to focus so well right now. I shouldn't really put this precious time to waste and do dumb things. I'm going to just really try to get something done now and to use my time wisely for something important. I might as well just spend my time doing some more over-preparing for some things to pass away the time now. I think venturing outside the home long term for taking up an occupation is going to be of benefit to me because I'll be able to see new sights and possibly become more mature. I'm actually pretty excited about it, so before I leave I should just pretty much spend my time thinking about what I'm going to need and just be really ready in a timely manner.

Becoming A Trooper

What's the most important thing to a person in general? I believe it is related to having a significant relationship with something or someone. Maybe one was born with an undying desire to be the top scientist with something, or another could be about maintaining a happy relationship. When I come to really think about it, these reasons really help keep a person from losing it. Coming to terms with something that just isn't going to go a certain direction is what I believe everybody might have a hard time dealing with at one point in their lives. It doesn't matter how much advice they try to give to some people- they're still what some people like to call humans!

Sweating out a lot of bullets may become uncomfortable, but hey, it's necessary to move on sometimes for me. Taking on ultimate positions that test the comfort zone and going all the way for a simple goal in mind is sometimes how God designed certain paths for others. It's just coming to accepting some personal realizations no matter how bad it might feel. It's really hard for some anti-social people to accept some things others might not like about them. I understand this because I was once a sociopath too, but from having a lot of nerves and fear in the beginning, they all gradually went away. My audacity became even greater once I became willing to accept all truths about myself.

Based on the stresses that I've gone through, I feel really sober right now. With the things I feel that I'm lacking in, I can only hope that I'll find a break with them and put a lot of time into them. I'm not even afraid of making the same mistakes over and over again now, as long as I grow from the experience and become a better person which is what matters to me. Sometimes, just sitting there while trying to study or read a boring book, I've had these moments where I'm just thinking about what am I supposed to be doing while being in existence. I think I've come to a more fuller expectation personally and respect for others who have come to realize it, too.

Living Life To The Fullest

It's one of those moments where I'm actually trying to obtain stuff from being straight to the point now. It's pretty much about what I need to get to the next step of my desirable point. There's probably a thing or two dealing with my life that I can't really control so I can't really hold myself fully accountable for it, but I can at least be optimistic or hopeful about it. Becoming serious in some areas for me is sort of what I need along with having fun at the same time.

There's pretty much a purpose driven goal that I have dealing with what I'm looking for. If the opportunity arises no matter how big the risks are, one should really consider taking it because there could be a joyride which occurs at the end of the tunnel. Making personal sacrifices along the way while having goals and ambitions can be a really noble thing. No matter how young one is and where he or she is at, living life to the fullest as best as possible is important.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Body Workout Goals

I've mentioned probably the last week that writing goals on this blog has been very powerful for me because I have actually managed to get them done no matter how ridiculous my desire was regarding it. For working out purposes, I'm looking at becoming a full triathlon athlete so that means being able to do a 2 mile swim, 100 mile bike ride, and full marathon all in one day. I know how crazy that seems to accomplish, but I'm setting my mind to it now.

Currently, my job requires me to be quite physical so the only way I'm taking care of it is by doing push ups, sit ups, and some running all in one day. My current repertoire for now until I have enough money and a break to be able to stay home more often and work out is to do only 60 pushups all in one set of repetitions, three sets of 20 situps which will eventually be combined into just one set of 60, and jogging or running nonstop for at least 17 minutes. This current repertoire isn't really that difficult to accomplish for me, but it keeps me on my toes per say. I mean I've been sore for the last couple days and probably am going to feel it on my abs and legs for the days to come but oh well, the pay off is that I'll be able to endure more strenuous activity at work for some heavy computer job I'm applying for.

Becoming One With The Self

Okay, so I've been getting ahead of myself and posting a lot. I'm just trying to get as much as possible done because when I get back, I just want to see if I can catch up. I'm planning on being gone the next month before I get to type again during the Christmas break, but then again, I might not even have time when I'm back during around that time.

It looks like there's going to be a break somewhere in this blog because I was having overall a good time trying to put something on here for an average of one post per day, which feels abnormal for me right now because I'm anticipating on being gone for the whole year. Maybe, I won't be able to live up to it up to the next year, so there's going to be that uncontrollable gap for me.

Anyhow, I'm sure if all readers read every single of my post then it would really get them to catch up on some interesting posts because I'm sure I might have one or two of those just to try to be modest. Basically, I'm trying to get anymore baggage out of the way by typing on this blog. It seems to be doing a good job with that for me.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Here's That Feeling Again

I need to face the realities of growing up now. I may have been a sorry loser in the past with all my accomplishments which is pretty much being a normal guy in a smaller than personally expected physical body. Literally, when I walk in crowded spaces from being a descendant of short Asians, I see taller people all piled up in front of me and with like maybe a couple being shorter than me. For this reason and being a little older, I don't really care if a celebrity walked into my home and claimed who he or she is- man, I don't really care that much about asking for an autograph and photo taken. I just don't seem to really care about those types of things anymore now. I guess it's a type of purgatory I felt like I was going through to try to be playful about my past situations.

I guess if I was a celebrity, I would just want to go to places and be recognized enough and then not be hounded by stalkers and paparazzi because it would feel so weird. I guess I really hate being by myself and would like to be in the company of someone nice most of the time- I guess that's why I would want to stay married to my wife.

Gracious people who don't really have to struggle with typical ideas of adolescence while being adults and can stay single for the rest of their lives are just really awesome people. Not to mention, there are single morons though, especially in guys- it's not uncommon for them to have a wife too like myself- hey, as long as they are always sweet to their significant others, I think that's what counts the most. However, if I have struggled with it from the start then I guess I'm going to have to stay married with my current wife and try to have her put up with me congenially. I'm just an average dude who thinks he's a lot smarter then he is sometimes; it's wrong for me to think that way- I'm still just trying to get by like the rest. I have a long life ahead of me and being miserable most of the time isn't the way I want to be headed because I'm going to be alive through it all, so might as well invest my time wisely and learn from an accurate and honest source- the Bible.


Going To Be Gone For Long Time

I'm not going into anything metaphysical or something related to that which would convey that I'm going to shut down this blog. No, nothing like that- I physically mean that I'm going to gone to go working. Hey, everybody has to work for food- this is like a basic, general requirement for everybody. The secret to life is that there is no free lunch, unfortunately for children; I guess they better wish they grow up faster so they can obtain a dream job.

Boy, being out on the road especially with a decent job with okay pay is going to be something I have to do for myself because I really want to be a part of some safe investments later. In other words, if I can invest with the money I'm trying to save up then it will teach me a lot of valuable lessons as I work hard at investing right!

Everything requires diligence and hard work for me to good at anything; even mastering a video game is a work of art for me- basically, I would have to wake up really early and then dedicate myself about say 12-14 hours a day to get really good at a video game and then show off my skills to any onlookers. Likewise, if I ever treated school with that type of attitude I would be called a geek- I don't mind because I could just state facts about stuff or even slightly exaggerate some detail and people would sort of want to agree because of my credentials of being a geek; see how I could take advantage with the image of a nerd?

Thursday, October 6, 2011

New Goals

My goal is to pretty much be able to stay at home most of the time with no financial worries and to be able to raise a lovely family while being able to play with some cool gadgets, learn about technology, and study about health the way doctors would. Also, I would like to be able to get a greater grasp of the Bible each year and let it improve my relationship to loving God and others- for this is the greatest commandment in the Bible and it's a great one indeed if a person looks deeply into it. In order to get to what I'm looking for, I really need to work hard at it.

Watching T.V. as fun and enjoyable it can be gets really exhausting and tedious for me now. I'm just not in the mood for it that much anymore especially when I feel like I have a lot of other stuff to conquer in this world. One of these days, I will be obtaining this goal of mine and hopefully it will be a keeper for me and ensure a decent quality of life for me. To top it all off, I want to get a couple more inches taller still so I'm going to be working at that too and also work at becoming a world class athlete.

As hard as my goals seem, if I really work hard at it everyday regardless of how bad I'm feeling then maybe I'll be a little closer to getting there. It's going to be about taking it step by step for me and that's pretty much where I have to start with. One of these days, I feel like I'll be in a wonderful place so might as well make the right choices morally and physically for myself to increase my chances of getting it sooner.

Dealing With Exhaustion

I haven't worked out a lot as I did yesterday in awhile. I guess I need to take things slightly more easy and keep trying. The mind is the most motivating factor to me, and it seems like the more I engage myself into something no matter how hard I try, I just have to keep pushing it with whatever I can do and just research on it whenever possible.

I guess writing out goals for me have been useful because it has been fulfilled one way or another for me. Like I wrote about how I was trying to make myself taller and then bing! it happened for me. Another time was wanting to lose weight and that also has happened for me too.

I guess in a way, writing about my goals is really powerful and in some cases if my goal is to work against someone whose reading it, it could be really scary for the person because he or she isn't running away from it anytime soon. I don't necessarily have to go into all the details with what my goals are so basically it's just general stuff that I would personally like to accomplish.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

How I Lost 15 Pounds In 2 Weeks

It's amazing the amount of weight I lost. I dropped 15 pounds magically all of a sudden. I am now at my ideal weight that I should be at and no longer have any problems with it. The strategy of losing weight like this is to know one's body, as simple as it seems. It probably is and I'm about to share how I did it for free because why should I charge something for something I'm happy that I got rid of which is additional weight.

First off, the person needs to know his or her body type. If he or she is the type of person who can lose weight by dieting, or is there exercise that needs to be involved, or is there a combination that makes it work? For myself, I just need to be awake and limit my calories to about 1200 to 1800 everyday. That's pretty much the strategy of losing weight; just limit the calories at around that range- make sure that the food is providing enough nutrients to sustain the body healthy.

For example, a bowl of protein-enriched cereal with soy milk makes a delicious and healthy breakfast that won't max out over 600 calories. Try to limit all meals enough to add up to no more than 1800 calories. So for instance, limiting to 600 calories for each meal three times a day will seriously help with losing weight. In addition, try to do something while awake instead of just sitting there and watching T.V. Even reading a book is staying active and is better than just staring at a television screen while laying down. What I found helps is taking your time while eating and then thinking about the amount of calories- you'll be surprised to how much your intuition is correct with what your eating. This really means stocking up on a lot of fibers and chewing on those carrots and celery to limit calories and have a healthy dinner. If you don't know how much calories a food has, you can always check the label.

After a dinner, I have one of those delicious and healthy ice cream fruit bars- it's really good and has only 80 calories while providing plenty of Vitamin C. It's a healthy way to end the night and also good while satisfying. Having a warm glass of milk and chewing on some crumbs of a good coffee bread also helps to satisfy a little hunger in the morning. It's pretty much eating smart, delicious, creative, and in a healthy way. It's so possible that anyone can really do this. For those who have to do more than just exercise, then it's going to take a little more discipline to lose weight but if the mind is willing then the weight can be kept off.

Jerko Jar Bear

Once upon a name, a cub was born by a nameless Mama Bear. The Papa Bear had unfortunately been shot down by some innocent citizens who had done all they can with precautions to cover up the food but afraid they were going to be mauled at camp. The scent of the good barbecue was just too much for Papa Bear. Mama Bear stayed in her cave and had a good feeling that her husband had fought a warrior's battle and moved on peacefully.

Due to the culture of the bears in this story, the Papa Bears would also give their sons a nickname before they ended up marrying to become Papa Bear. The daughters of this culture were treated with a lot of elegance and pampered- they were pretty much treated like how queens of the underworld were. After the female cub had all grown up, there would be no more support except bearing another cub and being under the protection of a Papa Bear.

The baby cub grew up with no role model of a Papa Bear to look after him and never was given a nickname, even though Mama Bear had found happiness again with an older Papa Bear who had lost his beloved Mama Bear at birth. The baby cub would go around bouncing into the other Bears' business and wouldn't stop scolding at others when there was a misunderstanding. When some Bears would come to reason and be sincere in their words, the baby cub would still start yelling at them without stopping and never let go of his distorted image of them.

Like all baby cubs, they have a weakness. This one in particular was just so fond of honey found in a jar. One day, the other baby cubs decided to play a joke on him- they gave him a bee hive to feed off of. Once the baby bear had stuck his hand in, bees wrapped around his sticky fur on his hand from the honey and kept stinging him.

"Ow, ow, ow!" said Baby Bear. He then became so enraged that while all the bees were stuck to his hand, he started chasing everybody in the Bear community- infants, juniors, teens, young, and old who were alike to his one-dimensional brain. By setting frenzy to the whole community, the Bears had a town meeting and decided to banish him from the community. Therefore, this baby cub became known as an infamous tale Jerko Jar Bear. He was the first baby cub to be banished and to never make it to become a Papa Bear. 

Chaister and Bahnie

Chaister and Bahnie sat on a farm,
Talking and mocking one another.
Chaister was a barn cock-a-doodle.
Bahnie was a black sheepish poodle.

Chaister cried "Where'd you get your name Bahnie?"
Bahnie yelled back, "I don't know, it's supposed to be Bonnie."
Chaister then replied, "What's wrong with the phonetics of Bahnie?"
Bahnie then stood still in a trance wishing her name was Bonnie.

Bahnie moaned and crowed like a coyote.
Chaister covered his ears from being annoyed.
Bahnie mocked, "You like to call the cow honey."
Bahnie chased after Chaister with a tongue that was gooey.


Totally Fictional Story

Once upon a time, a person named Leelu felt like something was missing in her life. She was bored by a mother who grew tired of her name Wally Wonka Streppophonivich. Leelu's mother had stated "I want a new name people can relate to and stop calling me a guy over. Oh dear, what the heck was wrong with my Russian dad." Leelu's grandmother on the maternal side was a Thai-German type of mixed ethnicity.

After Leelu heard so many private complaints from her mom while growing up, her surname was finally legally changed to Popper. From having a cloudy family history and being raised by a single parent, Leelu started questioning her family origin. She started to feel that she wanted to belong to one ethnicity and feel close ties with one nation. From having plenty of American friends, she eventually felt that the United States was a place where diversity belonged to- not to mention her personal excitement over the election of the first non-White President Obama. After starting out a little rough in her studies from being constantly distracted and ridiculed by children for having a pale-white complex with blue eyes and golden brown hair, she found a few friends to keep in touch with and became a straight A student and entered the Dean's List.

 Due to Leelu's background, instead of going to an expensive college where scholarships would not come by often due to budget cuts, and because of her pretty stable position working as a general manager of a convenience store, she decided to attend a school where most of her friends went.
While she was in a spiritless state surfing on the Internet looking at steamy photos of attractive men and after having a daily routine of turning down dates from average, unemployed male students, she decided that she needed to go on vacation.

Fast forward because the narrator of this story is getting really turned off by continuing this story- Leelu turned into a hypocritical and philosophical junkie who struggled with lots of conflicting views such as between pleasing men or feminism  and eventually had to settle with learning to coexist with others while appreciating differences in people. She is currently in the process of settling down with a good man even though she doesn't really seem to stress it that much from not having really caught anyone's eye anymore. 

Eating A Whole Chicken

Sometimes people can be cantankerous and not care about how rude they are being because they can't handle some situation that's in front of them- they are pretty much what some people would label as brats. A lot of this whole success in getting along with others seem to be about opening enough a pretty good deal and having a pretty decent tolerance level. Some people are just awesome at not stressing out with any situation, and these people are like my role models.

If something is missing in life and a person really wants to know, I say that it is better to just use the imagination and think about how it is in reality while doing the best to try not to sin about it and then accept it while moving on. I think that it is a fair compromise in a good amount of instances and will prevent from getting the person into unnecessary fisticuffs with others.

Art of Making People Laugh

Sometimes, individuals feel that I'm being a pain to them. In these instances, it's important for me to try to get them to laugh by being the most natural I can be. Having a sense of humor can really be a life saver in general and throw away any bad feelings some people have about me. I think laughter is best experienced in person for the most part and in a spur of the moment kind of deal. I know that there's also observational humor which can be really funny too.

I guess it really takes a lot to get to know one. One of the hardest things I've had to deal with was dealing with others' irrationality- it's really hard to get a pinpoint of the source that caused it sometimes. Anyhow, when I'm experiencing it now I seem to think about how they should get some counseling to cope with whatever issue they have. Because of this thought process I have now, nobody is really acting irrational with me. It's strange how when a person thinks he or she has something all figured out after struggling with it, it never needs to really occur again.


Building Patience

Sometimes when I write on this blog it feels like I don't really want to continue doing this everyday. However, because of me trying to put something everyday it sort of feels abnormal even though I only average about one per day. I guess it's reasonable to deduct that I sort of like writing on here preferably on a daily basis.

I had a pretty interesting dream in that I was taking a reading comprehension test. I guess my brain was able to transmit all this information to my subconscious including the answer. With one answer, it felt like the answer was implying something in a subtle manner. I understand that some difficult reading questions require the person to have an extensive knowledge of vocabulary and skill of reasoning to draw down to the most appropriate answer. It's pretty much all about practice to get good at something like it.

For some reason, my reading skills lead me to comprehending still only about 85-90% when averaging out easy and hard questions. I guess it's good enough for me to pass in any educational system, so it's been quite a long ways for me.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Letting Go Of Sins

This is a prayer that I made just right now. I guess being at home right now with nobody here and pretty much like on break, it makes it a lot easier for me to slip up especially when there's nobody keeping me company.

This is pretty much my prayer- I guess the guidelines that I'm trying to stick to is depending on my personal faith in Christ to keep me from continuing in a path of sin and to allow him to guide me away from it. By doing so, I'm actually doing the right thing which is what really matters to me.

Maybe trying to always stay in touch with my wife in a pretty consistent manner even though it feels like a couple hours sometimes drags might actually keep me on my toes. The common slip ups that I think some losers do is that they want to still try to be selfish even though they accept their personal downfall. Hopefully, this prayer I'm sharing is something I can relate with somebody in this world:

Dear God,
Please forgive me for my sins from having lack of self-control and sinning against your will while knowing it at the same time. I wish to completely depend on you for direction. I want to sometimes settle myself for being more than average and then it causes me to live out impulsively in a selfish manner. Please guide me away from this sin and keep me on a path of purity. I know what your will is, so please soften my heart to accept it and keep me from pursuing after my sin from having a hard heart.


Sunday, October 2, 2011

Realizing True Potentials

In life, there are always going to be a lot of implicit meanings because a person just can't explain every sentence that comes out of his or her mouth. Based upon reasoning with the given information, some useful deductions can come out of it even if the person wants to be laconic. By thinking about all the bad stuff in my head right now, I'm actually drawing positive conclusions right now which must be a sign of a good working mind right now haha.

I understand how girls can be crazy which is a sigh of relief for me. There were some really good girls I spoke to who told me that girls are crazy in general- I was just dumbfounded at the time and didn't have a clue of what they were saying. Now, I totally understand and can actually discern a pretty good deal of what's happening in today's world by observing others. I don't really need a girl to tell me how she's feeling- I can sort of sense it now if something is wrong with her.

Honestly, I'm a short guy and have to testify over and over again that it doesn't matter how small a person is- if he or she has all working body parts and is healthy with a studious brain then all may go well. One of my friends told me that his philosophy teacher in high school said something like, "Who cares about being short? Why did people build ladders? Everybody would have to use them anyway to construct a big house." I think when taller people bag on short people, it's only because they're making jokes about them so I get it now- I think it's actually funny too. Look on the bright side, taller people have a higher tendency of being negative about stuff and also live shorter lives than short, healthy people because a mutation in some genes that give a shorter person a longer life. My grandpa was really short and he lived to be almost 100 years old- no joke; being a short and healthy person can really be beneficial to a person who wants to live a long time. Women tend to be shorter than men and the life expectancy of women are also longer than men, so being small and soft is something that God must enjoy blessing in the circle of life.

Prioritizing Properly

It's really important to be able to prioritize personal time to be able to feel sufficient and think like living a pretty happy life. When we go throughout life living, we develop some needs or come across some chores that really need to be done. Being a guy who just wanted to play hard all the time and be left alone most of the time, I felt lonely after awhile so I guess it didn't work out for me.

Now, going out with some group of good friends and doing stuff together; trust me when a girl organizes an event, it seems like other girls come along too and therefore, it attracts more guys in the beginning. I think there's always been maybe a little more guys than girls coming to those events, so I guess it speaks volumes in itself.

Okay, going back to what it's like with prioritizing- it feels good when it's completed. Sometimes, the day runs out and I have to sacrifice some fun but I think in the long run I would have time to do more fun things without needing to worry about things that stress me out from not having them done. Therefore, getting the necessary things out of the way first paves a foundation to do fun stuff later.

Million Things To Do

Yesterday, I had a seriously interesting day. There are obviously many roads I can take now, and I see how just working for some money flow if it's needed isn't really a wrong thing to do now. I used to feel immoral about going to a job place especially if it was something my heart wasn't set on doing. I'm just now doing it because I need the money-not that I really love money or anything, I just really need it now so it can help me live a desirable life and to be able to assist others.

There are millions of opportunities a person can take for starting up a career. It took me awhile to realize all the different paths I could take, even if hypothetically I had a shady public record. Thank God, I don't have anything bad on my record. I guess I passed the test that God put me on, but just barely. I'm starting to see things more clearly like how a wised up adult should see things.

I understand that if people are going to block me on their Facebook page, and it's not that I haven't experienced it, then I could always move on anyway and find other people to add and make more friends eventually. It's going to be hard, but it's something I feel very confident over doing now for the long term. It used to feel really battering for me, and I was a little vulnerable to criticism at the time, but now it doesn't really bother me anymore. I know how to respond back and get what I want out of them now. So technically, if I had more time I would have made the people who blocked me on Facebook unblock me. I guess I'm just that good enough to be able to do it no matter how difficult it may seem to others.