Looks Don't Really Matter to Me Anymore

Beauty is really in the eye of the beholder. From asking my mom and a friend who happens to be physically attracted to me, they both have stated that my appearance is a 7 out of 10. I find that to be not bad since I personally rate myself as a 5 at my lowest point while averaging out to a 6 during my best years. 

From reading a book on attracting potential love prospects, it states that you should stick to someone who is no more than two grades higher or below you. I think I should try to stick to my base of 5 and not go above 7 to be on the safe side. A 10 will likely be too beautiful for me to handle.

Becoming Winning Trader

I'm really hunkering down on my trades lately and it's pretty uncanny that I put together a crypto trading system that might be very effective. I want to test out a few new ideas though, so I will be getting around to do that one of these days. 

It looks like using multiple timeframes is turning out to be my trump card. I'm still developing a useful technique for Forex, so it's pretty wild in that I'm still using some but it's still being accounted for with me making net profit. I can afford the small total loss at any given month now. 

Current Feelings About Finding a Girlfriend

As of this moment, I feel obligated to listen to my messed up dad. I think he has some form of autism because he can't let go of some insecurity that would make him happy. He's pretty much crossed the boundary and is never turning back on this one. I don't really care to disagree about anything with him, since I don't really want to be that close to him anyway. The only way I'm going to be able to do this is by becoming rich on my own terms. 

It's basically getting involved with interracial marriage. My dad will never budge from his unreasonable view. This is what I personally believe in that we are all part of the same species and only have different upbringings and skin tones. I am actually open to learning about these cultural differences and even producing beautiful offspring from it. 

I'm still not hesitant about marrying someone from my own ethnicity though. It's just that it would feel more free to have a choice and live outside of someone's roof who doesn't believe in something that is morally permissible, while I'm okay with it. I'm okay with saying that it's not his life, but my own and that he's being stupid about assuming how I would comply to any personally important demands based on how he sees it. He might as well just die ungratefully while living this imaginary nightmare he concocted from his childhood.  

I've been getting a good amount of interest from single moms out there, but I'm not interested in helping pick up any of their pieces. It's going to be too messy for me. It doesn't matter how lovely and fitting she is for me, but I'm just never going to budge out of this personal belief. The only exception I will make is if I end up becoming a parent to someone else and break up. It will hurt me a lot though, if it gets to this stage so I intend to keep on taking my time and marrying well. 

I would rather wait for happiness to arrive rather than making hasty compromises that don't align with my own personal belief. It doesn't matter to me how long it takes, nor even if I don't ever find anyone because I have learned to stay happy. Doing this is just an add-on for me. 

Laying Off Poker During Flexible Hours

Online Poker is definitely my goto game for entertainment whenever I have downtime and can get to it. However, I want to get better at managing my stress levels and being more clever about managing my time and constantly staying in a high state of happiness! 

I'm going to make reading and programming my next options of preferred choice after being done with my work. Fortunately, programming is also a main part of my job which I'm lucky to be doing. It's helped bring in some money that I can be relaxed about while feeling some purpose has been resolved for me. I'm ready to move on and do my own thing now but I want to play it safe and smart. Why rush if it's pretty good for me right now already. All of these things are just addons for me. 

At the very core of it all, I have my faith in Jesus and it's been like a rock that has kept me going while feeling so excited about living life! I'm ready to also find myself a good wife and possibly start a family while enjoying some riches and comfort of living. 

Ultimate Money Making System

It looks like I may have fine tuned myself a swing trading Forex system that could generate large sums. I could be looking at a very easy, early retirement right now. I don't know too much about this market to see if it's okay to share with others about my system. It would be more like bragging about how I'm the best and constantly bringing in steady profit despite some bumps that all traders inevitably have to suffer. It would be pretty cool for my own ego, but I honestly don't know how long it would last. I'm going to have to regrettably keep it under wraps the day I get this routine down until the day God allows something in the universe to help me see that it would be beneficial for me in the long run like maybe passing it down to a wonderful son or daughter!

I think cryptocurrency and stocks are something you can willingly share with others at any point in time. This is only because I have always been experiencing a sufficient amount of success from someone on the Internet having shared it with me. Forex is such a crazy and rare market to speculate in, but the earning potential is definitely huge while being able to manage leverage legally, which the idea of it will probably scare off most risk-taking investors! 

I'm trying to make Forex my biggest breadwinner but it's a highly risky niche at best to be a part of. I happened to have jumped on the bandwagon early in my trading years and developed a bonded relationship with this market, so I don't see any means of not continuing anymore until something forcibly shuts it off! 

Improving Upon Finding Potential Love Partners

I just finished reading upon the basics of how a person should treat his dating partner. From going out to have dinner with a buddy, I ended up practicing these moves on her while not really feeling moved into being in a relationship with her. I was just being kind and making an effort to understand that this is how dating is going to feel like and what to expect for the upcoming blind date I have scheduled. I'm going to continue practicing to get sharper on these skills with her. She seemed to love it, so I'm not going to tell her unless she notices something weird and unnatural about it and brings it up! 

Last night, I started reading into the more psychological aspects of the human mind with what they search for in a potential love partner. Without a doubt, I think a lot of people are superficial when it comes to looks because it is important to them. Some won't say anything about it to appear nice which I appreciate while with friends or try to downplay it, but deep inside our conscience it does affect who we fall in love with. 

I'm trying to make a stand against this natural instinct and not make decisions based on looks with anything related to love. One of the reasons is because as we get older, we are guaranteed to no longer look that good compared to the new, upcoming generation. I want to stay in a stable and happy relationship. I'm just like another normal human being in wanting what's best for myself and this is what I happen to believe nowadays. 

There are other factors with good looks- there's money, status, knowledge, and personality. The book does recommend to judge yourself or use people you trust to rate your overall appearance on a scale of 1-10. My mother gave me a 7 which isn't bad or could be from suspecting favorable bias. Another female friend who adores me thinks I may be above average but refused to give me a score. It's really about perception, since beauty is in the eye of the beholder. 

I have a picture of the blind date I arranged to see. She looks really pretty and I personally rate her facial features as a 7.  I'm not really going to care if she looks overweight. I'm all past it now. I want to see if I can work out an intimate relationship with her that will lead to a lasting marriage. 

I personally believe your face is a very large representation of your attractiveness. I rate the girl I regularly hang out with as a 7. She's pretty lucky in that category from having already been born with it. The book recommends not going beyond two grades above your perceived ranking in appearance. At best, I believe I'm a 6 but only if I'm really on it with taking care of my face and going to the gym. If I leave it as it is, I become a 5.5 at best and about 5 at the worst. I might be able to literally get to at least a 6.5 though. I have experienced straight women who were my acquaintances sharing with me that I'm so good looking after grooming myself and working out. Their ranking to my perception ranges from 4 to 7. I had the looks category down back then but I wasn't doing enough right moves from lacking confidence to enter into any form of relationship with them. 

It's not just maintaining an average face from putting in all this hard work regularly and for life that counts now. I also need to showcase my other areas, which I have naturally been focusing on all this time. This book has really helped me out, since I'm not really spazzing out like a dimwit. I have the confidence I need and yes, I will say it, I overcame roughly 98% of my inferiority complex. 

Grinding It Out Properly

I think playing online Poker is a reminder to me of how it's not going to feel good that you just spent time on something that feels like all your energy was wasted. This is what I also worry about while conducting higher level things. It's the stress that I'm worried about and want to constantly avoid while making money doing something else that's less time consuming and more fun while less stressful. 

I'm going to accept that grinding is supposed to be a way of life for me. It's how it helped me go places while I was still growing as a person and pretty much closed off to things while undergoing so much shallow insecurities and putting in the effort to always be nice around everyone. 

For the most part, I'm considerably pretty well-liked. I realize that some friends who have gone astray with me are going through some form of autism, which is infuriating to deal with. In these situations, you just have to communicate in a detailed and sound manner. I'm capable of doing it, thanks to growing up with my annoying mother! 

I'm going to dedicate myself to learning to program and preparing myself in this field just to pass the time whenever I don't have enough distractions because it's just something I want to accept myself doing now. It's a feeling of stress that I always want to dominate with confidence and patience. On top of this, I want to keep on reading and make time for hanging out with open-minded people. I currently have a female buddy who hits me up. She's been getting better for me to be around because she was initially a fuss to deal with and I could have walked out on her but my stubbornness didn't let me. 

I think we shared a similar fate with one another, so maybe we could spark an intimate relationship some time down the road if it makes sense to but as of now, it's always conquering these lustful feelings and seeing for who she really is to me underneath everything- a true friend! Sometimes, I don't feel like hanging out with her but I just do it anyway because I want to give her company. She's been the one to ask me out most of the time; we're just buddies and it's going to stay that way for a long time, I think. 

What I Think

With all of these annoyances and necessary things I needed to do for myself to find comfort, yeah, a soulmate wasn't being that wonderful of a person to me for the past couple years. It was just all about her while being so impulsive. I think she is still prone to giving over to having mental lapses of temporary autism. 

It's like she has this image of being a cranky and washed up old lady to me. She kept on asking me why some things don't happen the way she wants them to. I believe the reason is because the fault really lies with her. I wasn't able to speak up and voice my opinions too well, but I'm glad that I did even if it was in the form of a very off putting joke that I loved spewing privately all over her just to get back at all the negative things I felt she said about me in person, when she could have never brought it up to begin with. She was such a mess and from bringing it up out of feeling indignant, I don't mind any misunderstanding or hostilities it can lead to. I am able to communicate and elaborate what I fully think in a stoic manner. 

Ready to Find Love

I have been doing some reading up on what a friend says is basic, but nonetheless it's helpful to me because it saves time from having to go out and acquire it with real world experience. In a sense, I think what I'm doing is better and also necessary since I'm now ready to find myself a fiancee. 

Finding love shouldn't really be a thing that's forced upon others nor really questioned if the person isn't ready for it. It's not something that needs to be addressed and what I believe is that, you don't need an erotic love partner to have fulfillment in this life. 

I think finding love is really something that happens on an individual basis and even if there's some insecurity or sadness, it's okay to leave alone. I believe it's something that needs to be settled by the individual, and it's not a problem to me if the person never gets there. 

For a friend to have constantly brought it up with me and not do anything about it for himself, it was really pestering me. I think he does have a form of autism from not being able to understand or try to relate to what I felt was wrong about him. He only ends up trying to change the topic.

Approaching Financial Independence

Personally, I'm happy to be living the life I have going now. It's to the best of my ability and what makes things so exciting for me is that I anticipate working hard to keep on making it better to reap so many benefits later. It doesn't matter when it's going to end for me because I have learned to always live with this mindset. 

I'm now open to marrying someone who can help me approach this goal faster. I think with the current potential love partner I will be meeting next week, I'm going to be trying to plant some seeds that will convince her that she's the right wife for me. I'm only looking to be close enough to the ideal husband she wants. I will be just my true self and see if I can work things out with her on our first, semi-blind date.

It's really helping that I'm preparing for all of this by reading a research-backed book about falling in love! I've been totally clueless this whole time and from reading it, I'm absorbing it like a sponge. Here's a basic acronym that I will share: SOFTEN- (s)mile, (o)penness, (f)orward, (t)ouch, (e)ye contact, and (n)od.  

Becoming Smarter

I'm finding out that I'm maintaining myself a lot better from taking the time to read thoroughly about something everyday. Currently, I'm reading a book on how to literally make anyone fall in love with you. Without looking at it first, I came to the conclusion that the one can really be anyone and even the person you least expected it from. It comes down to being at the right time and place of their life. 

When all things look like it's faring worse then just communicate while not being a jerk about it! To me, this just means being blunt while not getting lost in any angry thoughts which I will keep on labeling as temporary autism. 

Available With Finding Love

I want to work really smart and make a lot of money consistently. I'm now open to love before I turn rich, but she's going to have to be my ethnicity just because of my parent's influence. 

However, if I'm able to turn rich then I will ignore my parent's autistic view of marrying only my own ethnicity. I honestly don't care about interracial marriages anymore or even finding myself in one. 

For my next date with a girl of my ethnicity, I'm interested in trying to make things work with her. She's a potential love partner. For my other female friends, they are not part of my ethnicity but they also could become a potential love partner if certain things did line up. Technically, it could be with any lady if my minimum requirements are met. 

Looks don't matter anymore. It's more about attracting love from stimulating each other's brain or love conscience, which is the most important. 

Reading Good Books Lately

Something that's been good of late has been taking up some time every evening to read. This doesn't even count the good amount of time I usually take to read all of my emails thoroughly. It's starting to become enjoyable and helping out with making my brain function healthy. 

It's not so weird anymore and the thing I'm doing now is catching myself not paying attention to something and going back to reread something. This is actually very hard to do with lecturing. I think I just need to take good notes on it if I find my mind wandering off so I can just look back and see if I can make some sense out of it. 

My mind is capable of simplifying a lot of intractable information going through at once now. It's just the art of applying it that becomes the challenging part and something I would have to focus a lot of time on because it's the most important. 

Proper Goal Setting

The good thing is that I finally know what I really want to do. If it's not working at any given moment because I feel stuck with something, then I'm confident enough to just put it on autopilot that comes from my subconscious. It's like these reasonable thoughts can come from a blink of an eye!

The next thing to do is to every once in a while to think about if what I'm doing is reaching a goal. If it is, then I should feel good about it and continue. If not, then I have to ask myself what I need to change and then put it into action. 

Overall, this is pretty much the gist of how to be a self-managed one minute manager! 

Putting Self into Action

I have a lot of work to do still, but for the most part, I need to stay more accountable to myself and start putting in the time and effort to stay as efficient as possible.

In a nutshell, I just need to start committing myself to finishing work and finishing up my side routines quicker which is a privilege to be able to enjoy right now. If I get stuck on something, then I don't think it's a problem to keep on working at a decent solution and grinding away. This is just what I need to be doing for myself.

Goals for Today

Today, I just feel like making a lot of money from trading and investing. It's pretty much what I'm banking on for creating personal wealth as soon as possible.

I really want to try hard to do well at it, while not letting it distract me too much from getting my work done. Playing Texas Hold Em' is also another thing that I'm playing as well, just because it's fun to grind my time if I don't have anything else to do. I think I'll just leave it as a last resort then, plus it would be something that I'm working at to increase more earnings. 

Self-monitoring to Reach Goals

I'm starting to feel a lot less worried about getting stuck with having to finish some overwhelming task. What's also pretty cool is that I finally have a working game for playing online Poker. It seriously is an up and down game, but it's all about staying in it while doing all you can and then catching a profitable momentum before cashing out. The time needed and opponents being faced are always going to be different. It's really a game of patience and waiting your turn to receive some spare change headed your way. By optimizing your skills, you can also increase your earning potential! 

It's really got to the point that I don't care about how bad my looks are. I just see myself as being different and it's not something you really need to judge for yourself as being negative. Besides, I feel a lot of confidence now. 

I honestly think now that people like Crazy Lee, who were making themselves so difficult to get along with, might be dealing with some form of temporary autism. They really aren't making themselves aware of the situation and haven't been able to read my intentions too well. It has been that bad, but I don't care about them being that way anymore. I see them as having been irritating and mean, but still funny people. 

Figuring Things Out

Yesterday, I started reading a best seller called One Minute Manager. What I've learned from it so far is how all you really need to do is write down each major goal in 250 words or less so that it can be glanced at in a minute or less. 

Next, you give yourself a minute every once in a while throughout the day and ask yourself how you are doing and if the things you are doing is promoting on reaching your goal. If not, you then simply fix it by finding and applying the solution. That's pretty much it. 

I have been so distracted as of late at work from trying to make money off of my daily trading. It's something that I will be limiting as soon as I finally get it. 

Using Time Wisely

I have discovered enjoyment in reading a good book! I've finished a few books already this year and it's more than I have ever done any other year. I have noticed for myself that my mind tends to wander off while reading, so I have to go back and reread a section. What I have picked up on that's been useful for me is speed reading. 

It's not the greatest yet, but I can work with it and expect to keep on gradually getting better at it along with increasing my motivation and comprehension. It's great that I have books that I'm interested in reading and it's a line up waiting for me back home. 

I have a trip coming up where I'll be accompanying a friend who is moving to Texas. He wants a traveling buddy to switch off driving duties. I will be flying back home. I want to pack up most of my things tonight if possible. I don't think it should be that big of a deal though.

Something new that I've picked up on from reading a good book is that it's okay to make decisions in a split second with complicated things, so I will take it with finishing up tasks that just clutter up my mind. I'm also going by my intuition and being true to myself while socializing with friends, instead of worrying about what I will be saying. I'm not afraid of dealing with disagreements and discussing these issues in a plain manner. 

Making My Life Easier

I have switched over to a more sensible and relaxing trading approach, according to what I think works. Of course, it's always subject to changes but now since I've made this jump, I feel like I don't need to be constantly looking at it anymore. 

It feels like my free time is starting to open up again. With playing Poker, I feel that it's really about just hanging in there until you catch the right cards and have proper momentum come to you. I think you just set a target and then just go after it, while sometimes spending a considerable amount of time on a rinse and repeat cycle. 

Channeling Productive Energy

I don't think it's really a matter of feeling it or not but just doing what you are normally accustomed to and getting a nice result out of it. If you don't really like something, then sometimes you are just stuck with it and have to do it out of feeling obligation for the moment. Once you get it done out of dedication and commitment which I have found myself doing so many times, then I think that's just how it is.

I think the best way to meet someone is to establish a physical connection with them via seeing them in person and just communicate to see if you can establish any form of relationship with any compromises, if needed. If it can't be met, then you just have to move on. Fortunately with a close hangout buddy and even though I have feelings for womanizing her and even have this for every proper girl I know, I'm able to deal with it from a deeper perspective. I believe that even if I am under the influence of anything, I won't even act on this instinctual drive! By ignoring those feelings momentarily, I only see her as a friend and even if I developed true feelings for her then I would be able to let her go on living happily if she needed to be with someone else. My true love for anyone isn't selfish at all!  

Besides, I can always make room for finding another soulmate to be with. I don't care how long it takes because I'm always going to stay happy wherever I'm at in life! 

How I See Myself

To get what I want, I think it's about finding out all of the accurate information you can get. In a sense, you have to be open-minded to receive it and just naturally gravitate towards it. I feel like I have been associating myself in the right clubs these days by mainly just being a reader and letting things that make sense to me flow better for my life. 

It's pretty hard to say, but it could be that I'm finding myself to be more lucky to be in the position I'm in. I don't have an appearance that the majority in the world grew up to admire but I don't see myself being different as a bad thing. I think I can still make the most of what I have been given with my body and even keep on improving upon it for longevity and looks without getting any invasive surgery done!  It's a lot of hard work well spent for me.  

In a sense, it's a form of autism with letting yourself go and losing control over things without being aware of what's going on. I don't think it's horrible, if you think you're having fun with it, as long as it doesn't harm or wrong someone. Plus, if you don't like it then you can just look to prevent yourself from ever doing it again. The truth can drastically hurt though when you put it out there for someone, and I believe you have to man up to it while communicating even if it's directed at the wrong person. I'll just be always looking to play a lot smarter from opting for an easy angle that works. 

It seems like I'm having fun and just look different in general from what I'm accustomed to seeing. I still want to do the best I can to always look nice, just because it feels good for me. I don't really need anyone else's approval in that category. I'm going to start investing in facial products and working out more for muscles just because I want to make myself feel like a good looking stud while looking in the mirror. I don't really need others to tell me this. This may be the case for me, but I don't really care how other women look when it comes to dating purposes now. 

Just by association with my preferences, I think I'm not attracted to lazy women so if they aren't fit then I might be wondering if they don't think of exercising as a priority which would make me overly concerned about their future health and being able to keep up with me from wanting them to tag along with my outdoor adventures. A soulmate doesn't really have this issue. The question I'm guessing someone might want to ask is why not be with her? I believe that I'm never supposed to be with her and how she should have found herself already being in a happy relationship and that's final! I think she's pretty autistic right now because of the stress that built up from three major breakups and not coping with it in a way that's mature enough for me. She's at fault as well for her messes from having done them while being a shallow individual.

Plus, I don't believe that appearances are the most important thing to get carried away with. It's more about how you conduct yourself with your mannerisms, actions, and nonverbal cues while spending time with someone and then form a loving relationship by getting to know them more intimately. 

I personally believe in being true to myself, so I won't hold anything back. If the love interest goes crazy and says she can't be with me, then she probably isn't that great of a person to begin with and has at least an autistic issue to work with while I hope she will come around at a later time with someone else. I find myself pretty easy to deal with and make compromises with. 

Staying Productive

It looks like since my swing trading sessions deal with using very intelligent systems that have been designed by myself and don't take very long, I may have a lot of guiltless free time opening up for me during the evenings now. I'm looking forward to making a lot of money in the near future!

It keeps on getting better for me. It's unbelievable with the work I've naturally put into with the proper mindset finally paying off for me. I'm totally comfortable with putting my money at risk to make a lot of money, while doing my best to not lose any of it and to make a nice profit! 

I'm going to continue reading and conducting personal hygiene. I will also work on finishing up any errands that come to mind so I can save time and not have to really hustle. I want to utilize my time properly!  I am working on focusing very well. 

Exercising Self-Discipline

I think it's better to be a loving and hardworking person while accepting anything that's bad. Maybe you don't really have to think about it or just see the bigger picture which is pretty hard to do. My mental health has been doing a whole lot better as of late, and I've done this without seeing any therapist. 

I guess I have been working really hard on myself and trying to push myself to always do the right thing while staying focused and being nice to whoever happens to be part of my life. Currently, with a friend I regularly hang out with I do have thoughts of wanting to womanize with her often. It's just that these feelings are shallow and consistently get shot down on my own. When I look at my feelings for her from a deeper level, I only see her as a friend and how she still isn't good enough for me to want to date! According to her, we're very close friends and she's fond of my personality so I do have the most important quality she looks for in a person. She thinks of me as family and calls me buddy currently or jokes around by even calling me her dad since we're about seven years apart in age. I do demonstrate a pretty intelligent stature in the EQ category. It only keeps on getting better from growing more as a person via spending time with her. She's been an important catch for me!

I am getting old now and still haven't found a girl to marry yet. I'm going to be 39 this year. This is quite an issue because now I just don't seem to really care about the women I meet while dropping my standards a bit. I might actually detract unattractive women naturally from being myself the whole time and plus I am short. I don't think being short really matters either in the long run in personal relationships because it's all about being yourself and how you are able to connect with others. I don't really mind being opinionated and always true to myself even if it causes any fallout with people. It's truly their loss and I'm going to still be happy. 

I want to be more of my true self, so I can find the right woman to maybe properly have romantic chemistry with someday. I'm also accepting that the women who feel physically attractive to me might be already taken, so it makes sense that I've already been pursued after by few available women. It's crazy that the subtle details never crossed my mind, but now my mind is working from being secure with my outer shell! It's too bad that I might have influenced a soulmate to think bad about her own short stature and thus, become openly scornful about dating short guys! It really angered me and triggered me to text her an insulting remark that she has some trouble getting over. We aren't spending time with each other at the moment, but I think I will pursue her friendship again when things settle down and I've found myself a good girl. 

It doesn't matter for some reason when dealing with any form of insecurity by always trying your best. In a sense, I don't think I'm a bad human product in itself. It's more like most people in the world won't ever have enough time to figure me out. Through gaining more experience and knowledge about people's ways, I can finally see myself getting married to the person I want to be with. 

Switching Trading Perspectives

From not really wanting to consistently be focusing on the computer, I have decided to increase my stop loss risk by basing it off the weekly chart. In theory, if this system ends up working for me then I should be able to possibly automate trades based on this logic with smaller time frames and net a bigger return. I have manually been getting the right timing of the market but haven't been able to stop the bleeding on time from wanting to leave my trading positions alone as much as possible. 

This time, I'm opting to use bigger timeframes so hopefully I can relax more. I'm now open to taking a net average profit instead of trying to fight for every single cent. I will let it keep running until it starts giving back on average which is supposed to come from my indicators. The reason for doing this method is because I have accepted that I don't know what the market is going to do, and all I'm really doing is just trying to conveniently follow where the money is coming from. 

Therefore, I have decided to get busy with officially swing trading the Forex and cryptocurrency spot markets! 

Sticking to a Routine in the Evening

For the time being, I see myself trading Forex and cryptocurrencies, reading, washing up, and liberally spending my night before hitting the hay. 

I'm also starting to realize that I don't care if I end up staying a failure or not. I'm going to keep on grinding away even through all of the discomfort and suffering until I get there. I'm going to stay happy wherever I'm at and even if I missed some useful details. 

I no longer feel letdown because of negative circumstances, and I can relax from feeling comfortable while living as a Christian. I don't really have any judgments now with the women I want to date too and can be anyone except for single parents, the ones who are too old to bear children already, and maybe have been in a little too many crazy relationships already. I don't care if I never get there and how long it takes. I'm going to stay happy. 

Happy 4th of July

Well I don't know if anybody reading this blog isn't really American but yeah, I guess the reader should have been able to tell by now that I'm an Asian dude who was brought up in America somewhere that's considered to be a nice place to live. 

I'm starting to get this whole dating process, after just meeting someone out of the blue I fell in interest with. I'm not saying I'm in love with her because it's pretty weird for me to do that. I ended up making myself not fall in love with her at that one spot.

It's not so weird anymore now that I'm understanding it. I just need to find someone who is just right for me. I can meet several of them and they are practically my soulmate if they have or shown some interest in me. 

I do have a soulmate but she's not quite good enough for me, so I'm not going to really mention her anymore to my other dates. It's just not going to cut it and turn out to be a stupid joke to them after explaining everything. It's just how I feel. 

Laughing Underneath at My Parents

They signed me up for this dating agency and I am getting some great ladies out of a small handful to go on dates with. So far they have all said, I have failed to make them feel romantic chemistry. 

I want to work on some techniques with maybe a dating coach now. I sort of want to fine tune everything about myself, like I want to apply skin care on my face again and wear better clothes. I think talking is going to be most of the work, but it looks like communication might be one of my strongest assets. 

Personal Problem With Online Poker

For myself, I have finally realized that there is no set time period to ensure a desired profit. This does not really work for me too well with my time management because I only have so much time left before my mind wants to shut off. I have come to accept a different form of working on receiving profit on the side.

I am going to stick to overnight trading with Forex and cryptocurrency at the moment. It's the most accessible for me to play with, considering how I don't have that much capital compared to the very wealthy investors out there. I want to increase my ROI while increasing my accuracy and frequency of trades and also sticking with an overnight strategy. 

This allows for predictable time management because I can routinely analyze and make every trading decision within the same allotted time daily. The profit will vary, but at least I get to keep my schedule. I'm considering my time to be more valuable than trying to sit there and receive a lot of profit from playing Poker, even though I've become quite accustomed to doing well at it on most buy-ins. 

I'm going to lay off of Poker now only because it can conflict with my schedule of chasing after personal interests. The only time I can see it working for me is if I have a lot of downtime like during a road trip or waiting in a long line for an attraction. 

Creating Winning Trading Strategy

For the time being, I'm trading with three different timeframes among two different intervals. I'm taking precedence with the higher interval first. It's turning out that technical trading is indeed an artform. I don't really want to constantly be deadlocked with going back and forth while turning a small profit each month. I need more accuracy in order to turn a nice profit. 

It looks like from entering more of these setups, I may have a bigger chance at locking in big moves each night and then just repeat it. During the first hour of the afternoon, the market seems to be very unpredictable so I think I won't be entering any more trades in the morning to avoid nice trades messing up because of it. I will be looking to make my money from leaving it overnight from now on, and I think this is going to be the key to my success while having an easier time with it. 

Finding the One

I think abiding by my parent's rules isn't really going to make them happy in the long run. What they want is for me to find a Korean maiden they approve of for a wife and to have babies. However, this hope of theirs is slowly dying because there's not really anyone like that interested in me right now. 

I only woke up to the idea of getting married recently and I'm almost reaching 40 which makes me old while being able to still laugh it off with blocked out pain. I don't really care if I don't ever reach any of my goals. I'm going to still work through it and hopefully, in time it will get there. I think this is life for me as planned by God. Everyone has a different life setup for them, so I just happen to be sharing my own ideas here without receiving any judgement or backlash. 

In general, I must be a pretty likable person then if I'm not really attracting that much controversy anymore. Plus, I think I'm pretty funny and not really doing it for attention. I want to promote something special or excellent that might inspire others to try it at a later time. It's more like planting a good seed in a sense. 

I have been squashing my idiotic antagonists as well as of late. Boy, I think they are so stupid going against me when I haven't really been against them in the first place. They let themselves get carried away over nothing really bad which they thought was at the criminal level. I then said that I accept it all and to turn me in, which proves they were already being stupid because there's really nothing for them to go on, no matter how hard they try. With me pointing out what I'm going to do while calling them stupid, it's really me priming them to have low confidence in holding on to their irrational beliefs about me.