Pulling It Together

I think I was unconsciously doing things that I normally would be doing much to the chagrin of others who I rightfully can blame for being upset at them. Obviously, they just want to run away from all of that negativity that they don't know how to address. It's only human nature to suck at dealing with those things, no matter how much of a pro you think you are at it sometimes. 

Walking away and in my case, people running away from me with the conflict I'm dramatically inflicting upon them after finally picking up on where all the nonsense was left off from a long time ago is sometimes the only option. 

I've worked on picking up a lot of details intuitively from just scanning the unforgettable memory while in my natural creative state of mind. I have an ability that a lot of people can envy easily. I can identify what's wrong with me and what I need to do about it to make it better and then make myself stay happy again even if what I needed never transpires. This sounds normal obviously, but the second detail might cause all the ruckus in that I'm a go-getter and not afraid to go for the glory and sometimes, I do reach it. This is probably what will make some people jealous of me, hands down! I totally understand their loser mentality now and hope they can turn it around. 

Some people who claim to be a good religious individual are holding onto a grudge with me that doesn't have anything to do with us. I think this happened because I was trying to talk to them about it and had my view that I wanted to press on them and they didn't want to have anything to do with it. They picked the side to go against me but that side is turning out to be absolute nonsense in my situation. I have the proof I need. It's all about Crazy Lee here. She was trying to control me with her personal views on psychology and said that I was being excommunicated when she filed a restraining order against me. She failed to keep the restraining order on me and I literally did nothing to get it there. It was just something that's super annoying and ticks me off with a bunch of stupid and young individuals who thought they could impart their two cents while yelling at the top of their lungs with me. I wasn't budging at all in their direction so they just became really terrified of me. 

I don't really care and just want them to let it go fully and be at peace with me while showing it symbolically by accepting me as a friend on any social media platform. It can even be their least active one they hardly ever go on; I don't really care. I don't need to see their posts and they can even modify their settings if they want to. I think they could go see a therapist about this because the way they acted wasn't how a happy individual would normally conduct themselves. I at least didn't act out and land myself in prison which I had a great chance of doing from getting a restraining order which is what ticked me off so greatly because I felt it was for a very stupid reason from Crazy Lee herself over her wacky religious ideas and paranoid views. 

Finding a Good Mate

I do have at least a soulmate friend and I do think we can be ideal lovers. It's just that I don't think she would be that great of a person to partner up with. She already has a lot of baggage with several ex-partners and a couple broken marriages. She's still pretty shallow and insecure about some things with herself after all this time. She wasn't even honest with me about her relationship status with the person she was currently dating. These things just add up to dismissing my soulmate for a serious relationship forever. The good inner-qualities and interests she possesses are what makes her my soulmate along with how we can see each other daily and be good company to each other one-on-one. Because of a deal breaker, I just can't be with her. 

She's still my soul friend though so our platonic relationship is always going to stay good. To appease my soul right now before going around to hang out with this special woman again, I need to get a wonderful girlfriend I see myself staying happily married to for a whole lifetime. I want to do this for mutually assured happiness with the lady I get to be lucky to partner up with and to also show up my soul buddy! 

I'm just looking for a nice girl who is compatible with me and isn't that shallow or insecure or in between about the thought of dating me. It's really that simple for me now. I'm not really judging by looks anymore. I don't really care about physical attraction too much either. It's always going to come and go. 

Overall, I'm actually conflicted because of my overbearing parents. It's really all of their fault but if it ends up happening to me, then I'm going to do a better job than them. 

Keeping It Up Better

I think the best way for me will be to build up good habits that I want to perform one at a time, instead of overwhelming myself with a whole bunch at once. It would be nice, but I just don't seem to have the energy and willpower to do that all the time. I will just go for the small things first, but these can add up to being a lot too. 

I'll just brush my teeth twice and use mouthwash if it's available before going to sleep. This practically means whenever I feel sleepy after eating then I should get up and do this to take a small break before continuing whatever it was that I feel so fixated on doing. I think that's all I really need to push myself to do because it's the most important of all the little things I have. I'll set myself up for doing that first and then add on to the other small things that I feel like completing. Once this becomes a good habit, then it's on to the next. 

Solidifying Trading Strategy

I pretty much have a swing trading method going that encompasses the 4HR, Daily, and Weekly charts. I don't really like to keep my eyes glued on the charts and have been working on a personal trading system where I only need to check the Daily once a day. This appears to be my cup of tea, since I'm usually longing for some action but don't want it to be too much or else it will start worrying me. 

So far, I've been combining a trifecta system with trend following filters, price lines that I can determine to be a stop loss level, and a major trend channel that is subject to always change based on market conditions. I have been mainly doing this with the Forex market for so long, and now I'm also testing this system on the crypto world. 

I'm turning a profit this month from following a personal algorithmic system on the indicators that has no emotional bias. It's still being subject to always change based on analyzing my winning and losing trades. It's been about just fitting a story together that makes it comfortable enough to pull the trigger. I do still have a few losses from going into these trades, so I'm trying to minimize mistakes and just deal with only inevitable losses based on following this trend trading and swing trading system verbatim that's still in the works. 

Investing Well

I think the art of investing is pretty much managing risk in a way that if one stock is performing badly then it's not going to hurt the overall portfolio. All it takes is for the majority of them to be doing well with an overall, balanced exposure to the market. 

From reading a book on becoming a millionaire, it describes that you need mentors and a team. I think my team is pretty much the one I hired from subscribing to their investment journals. The mentors are the leaders who do the research and stay on top of these things for a living. It's because they want to make a living off of it for whatever good purpose they have. I don't ever talk to them but their work already does all the teaching or coaching I need to grow as a better investor. I'm sold on all of their offered services as a lifelong devoted fan and student! 

In a sense, reading up on all of their paid information I can get my hands on and free bonuses has made it possible for me to be better off than a few friends who started investing without really knowing what they were doing. They have already faced common struggles and are discouraged to save more, while I have maintained profit. It makes sense in that I have fast tracked myself to wealth for a reasonable cost that I can afford. 

Making Sense Out of Mental Health

It's come to my personal attention that my mind is stable and with how I feel happy for the most part. I'm already happy with just pursuing my goals even if I never reach them. 

I like how it's just a process of staying focused while being relaxed and taking things in easily with the brain's neurons firing away bits and pieces of reinforcing information to your collective consciousness. It's something that I think you have to experience yourself, and it's something I'm working on.

What I notice with driving home, it ends up for a trip that's usually no more than about a total of 90 minutes commute. I want to let my mind usually be in a rowdy and playful state. By taking a deep breath and accepting how I want to be a better listener and comprehender while feeling like this is all easy, I'm actually practicing by listening to the intractable Bible on audio daily! Furthermore, if I can get anything off of it, then it also contributes to my spiritual growth dealing with my brought up beliefs.   

Topic of Dating

I honestly would like to find myself a great partner and get married to her while enjoying so much romance and physical intimacy that never dies while doing fun things with her all the time like traveling and outdoor activities. She's going to be my most important relationship and something I want to invest a lot of my time and energy on. 

I really don't care about appearances that much and okay with her being physically normal even if she stands a few inches taller. I just need to find a very nice girl who isn't that shallow or insecure or somewhere in between. This is going to be challenging for me, but I don't think it's impossible since I don't mind this being a lifelong search. 

With me going after seeking riches and a lot more free time, once I have them then I think it's going to only get easier with making myself look even more physically healthy and having a positive otherworldly spiritual connection that just influences others to bring out their better selves. This is really exciting for me since I know how I want to do it.

I want to do it through not spending that much time making money. I'm going the investment and swing trading route with flexible and leveraged financial markets. I have my trusted guides to support me already as well, but on the cusp of developing my personal touch which will take me to greater heights.  

Taking on Better Understanding

I think yesterday was good in that I kept it simple with what I wanted to accomplish. It didn't take me that long to finish it and I was pretty satisfied that I stuck with it because there were only two major things with one not taking that long. To take up my evening, I think I only need to focus on one or two important things while the rest being little things for personal maintenance or amusement.  

I don't think I can handle too much of the little things because it will just be too overwhelming for me. I do value friendships a lot and also enjoy my personal time in the same way. Eventually, I'm looking forward to settling down after finding a good woman to date. 

There are practically five forms of freedom. It's based on money, time, relationships, spiritual, and physical. By being wealthy with money and time, it allows room to have optimal focus with whatever you want to do and grow in the other three. 

I'm pretty much a person who can be lovestruck over a woman with a great personality. It's probably something she developed over the right circumstances and can even be influenced by others. I don't really care too much about appearances anymore. It's practically too shallow for me to stay entrenched on. I'm not even insecure about dating taller ladies now or slightly shorter ones wearing high heels to look taller than me. I found my own strong footing and can carry my own weight confidently in this world. I really don't need to be a physical beast when I can just use my creativity and experience with preparation to best any opponents who are up to no good. 

Using my rule of threes, it's about having a good face, good body, and great personality. The other one is self-confidence, positivity, and hard work. Mainly it's good to visualize what you are doing while being purposeful with your job so you do well at it. 

Accepting You Can't Do Everything in One Setting

I have so many things that I would like to do in one day. It's cool to stay occupied while looking for things to do and to contribute some value to this world, even if nobody cares. It's really about feeling good after all, and I think being a small guy who nobody cares to pay attention to and does a little meaningful work to make this world a better place is cool! Maybe sometimes people are just going through stuff that makes them talk and/or act like jerks. Maybe it's really them having this mentality of a stubborn attitude, but for me, I'm lucky enough to feel that I can still work around it to push the envelope for myself. 

Timing is everything and it looks like I need to start waking up a half hour earlier to get my day's scheduled tasks synchronized better. 

Moving Along Effortlessly

To keep things natural, I think there's just this little desired effort that needs to be put forth with maintaining focus on a goal that you wish to fulfill. It's like blocking out all these other insecurities or exciting thoughts for the time being to take in information. It's a practice that I haven't found myself doing for a long time. I do listen for a little bit and then I'll check out to think about other things which turned into a negative habit that doesn't put forth the desired result! 

I just need to not think about other things while focusing on anything. No matter how boring it is or whatever insecure or fun thought that's coming upon me, I need to just block it out momentarily to focus on something that has of greater value to me. In other words, I need to grind in a way that feels like it's effortless and is taking me somewhere. 

Learning to Read More Pleasurably

It took me a while but I used to be an insecure imperfectionist. I was constantly under stress with wanting to push myself to be a goody two shoe at everything, so I would constantly wear myself out and be in so much worry about not being good enough.

I don't know how this type of mentality came about, but I think it's because nobody convinced me that it was okay to not be perfect and that you don't have to be the best at everything and kill yourself over it. With every failure that I faced, my negativity level would just keep on rising to the point that I felt like ditching education. Boy, I could have used some therapy sessions but I didn't even know this was what I needed. The fact that I finally figured it out is pretty cool.

I know another guy who has a lame head and stays depressed while accepting that state of mind. He's an insecure and lonely narcissist who really can't do enough to get to where he wants to be in life. This type of mentality is something people shouldn't really tolerate for themselves in the long term. It's physically draining and will only hinder climbing over any figurative speed bumps. This guy should really go see a therapist. 

Getting back to reading, it's pretty simple with what I'm trying to do. I'm trying to read as fast as I can, so I try to fully eliminate subconscious pronunciation and concentrate on taking in the meaning. It does flow more naturally than before. 

Understanding Personal Soulmate Territory

Contrary to what others may like to normally imagine, I have a pretty reasonable soulmate but it's just that I don't really want to be with her. I was just there for her as a friend because she needed someone and from just spending time with her and getting to know her, I didn't fall in love with her but just realized she's my soulmate type!

She calls me her soulmate friend and a person who has a lot of qualities she looks for in a partner but can't see me as her lover because she's either shallow, insecure, or in between both of them. I'm thinking whatever now because I'll just go dating a girl who isn't like that and is really nice and better than her! Since she has a new boyfriend now, I'm on break with her until I find myself this girlfriend so I can  go on living happily like I'm always in some party mode and then rub it in with my soulmate type friend. 

The Art of Getting Started and Putting in Best Effort for a Good Purpose

The idea that I'm placing forward now is coming from the title. It's a very long title so I guess it's also self explanatory for me. 

It just takes one step which is just willing yourself to do something even if it feels like a stressful or odd job task sometimes. You just have to keep on doing things sometimes even if it feels like it's not syncing that well with your rhythm. 

This is something that I just need to execute on a daily basis. I need to avoid doing something else when I should be doing something I really had my mind on doing no matter how uncomfortable it feels sometimes. I just need to man up and put in the effort to stay positive, confident, and hard working to the best of my ability. 

I really do want to be successful in the long run and enjoy life after all this hard work is done. It also feels good to pursue a hard and worthy goal. 

Applying Better Discipline

I think I just need to get myself started on a goal and just suck it up with the grinding process. With whatever I'm looking for, it's starting to blend really well for my mental health. I'm more patient than ever but I still have trouble staying concentrated over periods where I would like to but I keep on having thoughts over something that feels more worthwhile distracting me. 

I don't really want to be overly stressed out and it's like I want to monitor my mind and body without burning it out. I like to think about bothersome things while looking for an edge to solve it. I'm also very stubborn about doing things on my own because that's just how I like to operate. 

My attitude and mental health are in its rightful place while I'm still sensitive over a lot of small things. I think I just need to keep on reminding myself of the big picture with reasons that bridge things together while striving to improve myself.

Lining Things Up for the Future

I do have an ideal type and have settled on a close friend who I can label as my soulmate. She possesses a lot of the good qualities I look for in a partner. She believes likewise with me also; however, I decided to tell her by text only that I'm cool with us dating others. What's also unique is that our personalities lineup so well that we are able to have serious discussions or debates about anything while never blowing up at each other through texting. I tried doing this with another female friend and it didn't work out, so we have to discuss it over the phone occasionally! It's probably because we haven't spent that much time with each other over our busy lives that we just don't know how to anticipate each other's thoughts. With my soulmate and she's mainly just a soul friend now, we've been around each other so long that we naturally conduct ourselves with the right mannerisms that mutually make us happy. 

To be very happy, I just need to start dating a nice quality woman who happens to be interested in me also. I would like her to be just a hair better than my soulmate. I don't think it will be that hard to look for the right stuff since I'm not weighing in physical attraction anymore.  

I do think a coworker could potentially be just a hair better than my soulmate. It's hard to tell if she's really interested in me, but her body language and mannerisms with me seem to convey some interest. Whether she's being professional or just courteous because that's how she wants to be, I do know that I'm really attracted to this type of personality. It doesn't matter how she looks on any given day like whether she forgot to put on her makeup, gained a little weight, or her face broke out. I don't care about those superficial things that much. I will care though and call it a deal breaker before we get married if she starts acting too lazy and keeps on getting fatter! 

Understanding Investment Risk

I'm starting to understand how to invest right now to get to where my goal is. It's pretty much managing risk and there's really no right or wrong way; it's probably more about going with what you are comfortable with.

There are quite a few ballsy people out there who put all their money into something like Bitcoin and then ride out the volatile waves for long periods of time. It's quite uncomfortable especially if you find yourself going through a patch where you really could use the money for anything! 

I prefer a more balanced or holistic approach with managing my money. For starters, it's great to have three times the monthly budget for emergencies and then save as much as possible for investing. I've done so well at it naturally the past year during the pandemic that now I believe I have enough to go for a nice run of making myself rich! I found the right source of investing philosophy that matches with how I want to live. 

Patience is definitely a virtue, but it's also smart to take calculated risks. It's really about finding out what works best for you. I'm ready to live a pretty chill life as a wealthy enough person who can enlighten others to be millionaires also and keep on making improvements to this world. 

Finding Happy Resolve

I tend to be very confrontational to the point of wanting to push the envelope with wanting dumb people who were crazy with me to improve. There are many options I have like chewing them out and then continuously looking for different ways of chewing them out! It's a sick, dad joke. 

I've gained a lot of personal confidence over the years, so it's probably unwise to start something with me that's going to make my blood boil. At the same time, I do care about being a good person at the individual level, no matter how mad I feel. I understand that I can not be in the mood with the strong angry and negative emotions setting an undertone for me. I can feel it, so I have to monitor it sometimes or even take a break from another person if it feels too overwhelming. Overall though, I still care about maintaining good relationships no matter how angry I was the night before. It's my own unique personality which might feel like a curse but is probably really a blessing from God to keep myself a sensible person in this world. 

The worst option for me so far is walking away from someone to take a break for a while. I've done it to my oldest high school best friend and also my soulmate! I'm still not going to refuse them if they need me in case of any emergency. They probably wouldn't ever imagine calling me though. 

Staying Genuinely Calm and Happy Under Stressful Situations

I personally think it just takes a lot of mindful effort and pushing yourself just a tad. It doesn't hurt though to rely on the strength that comes from God's Word if you believe in it. 

Seriously, putting my faith to rely on Jesus through the power of the Holy Spirit has been truly uplifting and really meaningful for me. I'm not going to be the type who tries to force it upon non-believers. I shall never support a sect of extremist Islam that has practiced beheading people they call infidels for refusing to convert during wartime! It's disturbing that this type of jihadism still exists in the modern world. It's just totally cruel and inhumane treatment. Where's the love and respect for others even if they choose to stay different?

What I've noticed today is that the former church group who called themselves my caregroup really went to another level of crazy with me in their pseudo-Christianity. They were trying to represent Godhead figures who couldn't even stand me enough to keep around as a Facebook friend while I went around complaining to them in person about it. They took something that had nothing to do with them and made it personal with me. 

This is fine and all but there's only one difference to how I conduct myself when doing this to others. I like to keep a good relationship. They didn't and set up failure by driving me out. I think they could seriously see a therapist now that I think about it. 

I'm looking forward to the present and new day, which is just being Facebook friends or something similar. For me, it symbolizes very strongly being on okay terms and something I'm willing to work for. I'm not even asking them out on any date or forcing them to be with me intimately. It's gross thinking about it to be honest. They can go for a restraining order over wanting to not add me back on Facebook instead of negotiating for something more comfortable to them. It really shows the type of people they are. People with a weird grudge over something that never dealt with them in the first place. They deserve to be laughing stocks and embarrassing black sheep in their families. 

I don't mind the world knowing about what they did and talking about how they screwed up. They thought they were a perfect representation of God, but it turns out they were just whiny and bent out of shape impatient people who should check in with a mental therapist! I was only struggling with confidence issues, but managed to solve the majority of my personal emotional problems. If they can't shape up, then they have a long way to go in reality and I'm willing to do my part to make myself happy in this world. 

Recognizing Something New that Feels Good

I've recognized recently that what also helps to keep me mentally grounded while staying on top of being confident, positive, and hard working is to also feel this surge of adrenaline rush to keep pushing forward adroitly with something that requires physical effort. It's really about consistency, and I'm not playing any competitive sport for a living so I don't need to worry about going all out during certain situations to affect a better outcome for the team. 

It's something that was just brought to my own attention while working out and made my long run seem easier for advancing into faster finish times. With everything kept constant, this feeling probably does belong to positivity. I also have faith in Christ which I can't really pinpoint into any label. 

New Form of Time Management

I have mainly two things that keep me from doing proper time management. The first is something I need to always work on: it's putting things off from doing something else and also having a tendency to forget until a day goes by which feels like it was too late sometimes. The second thing is something I need to accept better, which is falling asleep out of exhaustion. 

I see the best thing is to just go in order of importance and continue committing to them while doing the best I can to be timely on everything I do. While I'm working on something, if I get tired in the evening then I think it's time for me to do some self-hygiene and get ready to pass out for the next day while trying to push myself to stay awake longer to pursue my personally demanding schedule. 

News in Dealing with My Soulmate

With my soulmate, I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to ever be in a serious relationship with her. She is my ideal mate for sure and we are so right for each other, but I think it's safe to say that she struck out blindly with me. I'm now ready to get a girlfriend and think she can easily be just a hair better than my soulmate. I won't have any problems at all with being devoted to my new girlfriend and then maintaining a happy marriage.

I think my soulmate is still a great person and an awesome friend while I do feel she's amazing, but it's just not going to work out at the romantic level, even though we are ideal for each other. Here are my three reasons: first, she's been in a couple failed marriages already and been disillusioned repetitively about being in love; I see this as unnecessary baggage while she isn't getting any less cranky as the days pass by either! I've managed to stay consistent on her good side which she considers rare and also enjoys my company on a 24-7 similar basis.  

Secondly, she's either shallow, insecure, or both about dating short guys in general. I don't know how she blocked out issues with dating while hanging out when it was just us two, but I was a little insecure about her wearing high heels when we just hung out together too. I don't think I mind anymore or getting used to the idea of dating taller women since the coworker I like might be standing a tad taller than me or vice versa. She even went as far as to state herself she thinks guys can be too short for her to date around my other short pal and me! I take offense to that because I'm short too! 

Lastly, she said she was going to move very slowly with the person she was dating. They were smooching each other after the next couple times we hung out. She also didn't mind making me feel like a third wheel. Okay, this has been too annoying for me to handle! She doesn't get it too well, but I tried calling her out on it nicely and made an agreement to take a break with each other.

Three strikes and my soulmate is no longer a love interest. She's still my soul friend and I'll always care about her but in terms of being ideal lovers, it's just head knowledge for life! I think I can easily find someone who is just a hair better since I'm now the kind of guy who cares all about personality and compatibility and not physical attraction. I just don't want her to be too fat and lazy which is my physical turnoff. I have a type too and I can model it after my soulmate. It's never been easier to pursue a girl who is my type and might easily exceed my needs by only a little which will keep me so happy and in love. It's enough to stay satisfied for the rest of my life and willing to work at maintaining a strong marriage without feeling much effort. 

Working on Focusing

It first comes down to understanding the results and being satisfied with them or not. If you're not, then you need to identify the issues that are blocking you from getting to the happy result. The next plan is to figure out what needs to be done to fix the issue, which might be doing the opposite. The last thing is to put a three step action plan into it. 

In other words, proper habits will bring about proper results. It's crystal clear and the only way to reach success is to work on eliminating enough bad habits that block you from reaching it. 

I'm not fully happy with my results yesterday because I didn't manage to finish my day by doing self-hygiene. This needs to be fixed.

I recognize that my sleepiness still overtakes me and then I'm pretty much done for the night. I'm going to need a better time to complete doing the extra things I'm interested in doing. I'm going to need to first update my To-Do List. 

Dedicating to Learning Something

I think it's good to read up something in general for self learning so I'm going to make this a little thing to do each night. I'll just put in like an hour or less to start off, but do a little bit of it so it feels good by seeking after something new or challenging.

For some reason, I am still distracting myself over less serious issues that have already been satisfactorily solved. It's starting to add up and make a lot of sense with how things are just happening for me. I'm pretty good at adapting over challenging circumstances but it's starting to be more meaningful because I have an actual purpose that makes sense and makes me feel happy from just pursuing it. 

My routine is still pretty challenging and it looks like I'm a natural procrastinator with wanting to always stay entertained by doing something less challenging and trivial like watching movies. Too much of it doesn't feel good for me at all and makes my conscience feel so guilty. I think it's just a matter of commitment and staying consistent with it while thinking positive and feeling confident. I think this is what hard work for me is all about, which is the last stage of my personal mantra, "Self-confidence, positivity, and hard work." 

Working on Self

I'm now on a matchmaking site which is what my parents ended up signing me up and paying for. I'm getting pretty close to an old age and still haven't married. It makes sense for young people to think that I'm really old. I'm pretty secure about it and ready to settle down now. 

To think in terms of practicality, I already have a soulmate but she isn't perfect with a lot of baggage. My dad argued that she isn't, but I told him that even with her faults, I still think she's amazing and will always be so right for each other. This really makes my dad uncomfortable, so I think he has caught on to how I want to make a lot of money and then live my happy life without needing to carry on a relationship with my dad because I didn't fulfill his selfish desire with me. 

In the end though, this is how it should be because my parents wanted to be so meddlesome with telling me to always do what they think is right. I have become too disillusioned that I now don't need their approval for anything. 

Spending Time Wisely

Currently, I really do want to get rich and find myself a good girlfriend now. This is pretty much my main goal. The waiting process is challenging and on my way to getting to this point, I've learned that what's helped me the most is my personal mantra, "Self-confidence, positivity, and hard work." Still, my faith is in Christ and that's never going anywhere which I can "confidently" say for the rest of my life and based on my faith, eternally!

Another thing that really works is picking up on facts that help reinforce your belief system with something positive over anything that has brought you down for a while. For example, I'm short but I have convincing arguments which make me believe that I have the average American height gene. I have large feet and broad shoulder length which match the average height of American males. 

Overall, I think combining self-confidence, positivity, and hard work with enough faith and positive beliefs based on facts is enough to be secure in any negative circumstance. 

Figured Out What to Do

Yesterday, I was really stuck with what I wanted to do and figured out that I won't really be hurting anymore if I never get with my soulmate. It's only head knowledge that we are so right for each other. She has too much baggage even though she will always be an amazing person to me. I think I can easily find another lady who I can be a bit happier being with, so this would mean she's better than my soulmate. Already thinking about it, for example with dating a coworker I really like, I can sense a possibility already that this could be the case for me.

Everything is starting to come together for me, and it's pretty awesome to be honest. With my own free time, I want to continue working on building this personal wealth ASAP while researching on reaching my goals, working at it, and focusing on fitness and well-being.  

Building Wealth ASAP

For myself, I don't really want all my eggs in one basket and then ride it out because that will get too uncomfortable. The number one rule that I look to follow is to never invest with money you can't afford to lose. A few people I know will just put too much into one thing from believing in it so much and then only to experience a longer duration of a bear market which can be mentally draining and quite taxing on them if they really need that money for something. 

I do experience normal growth so far in my wealth and it's only going to be a matter of time before I start seeing some consistency. I believe it's going to happen soon and I'm always on the verge of getting there. My hope hasn't unwavered and I'm not hurting from risking only a few hundred dollars a month every once in a while to work on gathering up investments.

I have my own routine for doing things lately and it's a decent rate but it's going to be long term. I just want to conveniently work on something that will be quite easy and have a higher rate of return a lot of the time. I'm not giving up at all. 

Focusing on Routine

It's pretty simple with what I'm looking for. I just need to hunker down and put in effort with moving myself into action with my routine. I'm still pretty slow at forming habits because it takes me a while, and I do have so many things that I want to consider doing while having time for only so many things.  I do have my priorities set forth on my current good friends, along with reaching my main goals which I'm still working on.

It's really a work in progress with everything, but I'm realizing that I need to put in a little more effort while I'm sleepy and to also keep myself in motion with finishing what I need to do for the day.