The biggest drawback or blessing I have is that I like to fall asleep rather early, so it's like even if I forget to take a shower then I will have a nice night of stinking up my bed and dreaming very well too. For the most part, I keep in touch with a small group of friends and I guess it's not a bad thing. I also have room for building more friendships too, but it's about time that I accept how stupid I have been for living with my parents all this time! I am a grown man now and it's getting irritating to have parents with anger issues because I am not willing to give them grandchildren right now. My problem is that I'm too stupid to find the really hot girl who will make me happy. They are around and it seems like with my situation, I might just be lucky to be only a friend. I don't want to be just a friend. I want to date and make a really hot and intelligent wife to enjoy a lot of traveling and doing things with.
I'm also getting older too and I'll probably still have chances to marry even if I reach the age of 60. My parents' influence and not aligning with them makes it very difficult because of my financial situation being dependent on them. I work for a family company and they have done well for themselves, but now I'm seeing the bigger picture. I might have a decent skill with taking people's money literally in a game or some trading environment. I mean it could probably turn into millions someday and lead me to diversifying my portfolio and earning a guaranteed lifetime income without doing much while living in early retirement. This is what a lot of people would think is nice, but there's a lot that goes into it. It's like you have to figure out the emptiness that could come from doing nothing really that important.
With my own expectations as of this moment, I'm going to need to work on my financial situation. My uncle has asked why not find a sweet girl who is willing to take you for who you are and work on it while with her, but I don't really want to. I think the only way things are going to get better for me is by first moving out of my parents' home and finding a better place and also having the money to support all of it conveniently. Then, I will be able to constantly relax while working on my self-defense and appearance to enjoy doing masculine things and then have fun with finding and getting rejected by gorgeous, single women until I find a good one to settle down with.
To elaborate a little more on my topic after opting to discuss more of my personal issue I want to fix, I'm seeing that it's nice to maintain consistency and slowly try to add on more tasks you have in mind to complete. My main goal at the moment is to make myself rich and break away from living with my parents. I'm pretty much done with living under their roof and believing in their ethnocentric beliefs. It's basically the idea of how the best outcome comes from marrying your own race. I guess it's nice, but it would be greater for a guy to marry a super attractive woman who is in love with him and looks really exotic and not part of his culture who also shares the same faith and ideals, compared to just some plain woman of the same tribe who has issues she can't let go of. I would be less tempted by other women if I was enjoying my married life with the first option then the second! I'll go with the better choice so I'm going to need to leave my parents and let them suffer with their own crazy beliefs that they should go get some therapy for. If I have so much money, then I could even pay for them to get therapy at like a vacation home.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Friday, August 31, 2018
Wednesday, August 29, 2018
Man, I Was So Dumb
Man, I was so dumb! I had an incident where a crazy woman who was looking to yell away about nothing serious and trying to get me in trouble took me to court to attempt to get multiple restraining orders on me. She couldn't do it. It was just on her. Off the record, she told me she had nothing against me. She was just mad because I wrote that her female buddies were unattractive. Girls are so sensitive and that's the lesson I learned from this. I don't really care to keep speaking the truth though. I don't think they are really that attractive!
Well let me explain in physical qualities and also emotional factors. I think they are a bunch of numb nuts because they can't handle something unimportant as physical qualities. They can't let me get away with making fun of them in that area and to just start laughing about it. What ended up happening was that I gave the girl a hard time who the girl with a restraining order wasn't able to add a restraining order against me. Also, this is crazy but the girl put too much trust on the lady with the restraining order and she didn't go for a restraining order against me after.
Flash forward, I submitted to the restraining order and what made me feel so stupid was that I hired a female lawyer. My dad paid for the fee though, but it was a $1000 waste. It's so stupid. I shouldn't have asked for a lawyer and just submitted like I did without the lawyer's help. The lawyer changed her mind after being angry with me initially and then even made a legal statement to represent me and seriously became interested in defending me towards the end.
I was stupid from not having the ability to say anything to let the conflict pass, but in the end the girl with the restraining order lost her restraining order against me. The crazy girl went for an extension and lost! I went back to where she was at and someone called the cops on me to try get me arrested but by protocol there was no restraining order on me.
Yeah, it was very stupid! It was even more stupid to get my dad to pay for a female lawyer who defended me very heavily in the end after believing this whole matter was stupid too and she looked single as well. I was stupid for not asking out that female lawyer. Man, I was totally stupid back then from being so shy. I had no ability. A definition of being dumb is quiet or in other words too shy!
Well, I realize how stupid I really was and that I have come a long way with working on myself and just not caring anymore. The girl with the restraining order isn't really that pretty to me anyways, so I don't lose much and she no longer has it on me and I know where she is if I ever want to go stick it to her. I haven't even done that out of trying to still be nice. Well, I threw a Jehovah Witness Bible at her Christian pastor who was also being a jerk and stupid with me. I treated that Jehovah Witness book like it was trash and chucked it as hard as I can. I threw "The Book" at her pastor literally!
They can't do anything about it. The truth will be revealed and it's so embarrassing and that's why they can't do anything about it with me now. I have so much knowledge now to go where I want to with this and I'm still saying it was never serious and now it's funny memories for me and something I can deal with to move on without needing their apologies. I can deal with them in person as well and their attempts will be fruitless and everything will be clarified. Wow, it's a totally humbling experience to be able to motivate others to humble themselves too.
Well let me explain in physical qualities and also emotional factors. I think they are a bunch of numb nuts because they can't handle something unimportant as physical qualities. They can't let me get away with making fun of them in that area and to just start laughing about it. What ended up happening was that I gave the girl a hard time who the girl with a restraining order wasn't able to add a restraining order against me. Also, this is crazy but the girl put too much trust on the lady with the restraining order and she didn't go for a restraining order against me after.
Flash forward, I submitted to the restraining order and what made me feel so stupid was that I hired a female lawyer. My dad paid for the fee though, but it was a $1000 waste. It's so stupid. I shouldn't have asked for a lawyer and just submitted like I did without the lawyer's help. The lawyer changed her mind after being angry with me initially and then even made a legal statement to represent me and seriously became interested in defending me towards the end.
I was stupid from not having the ability to say anything to let the conflict pass, but in the end the girl with the restraining order lost her restraining order against me. The crazy girl went for an extension and lost! I went back to where she was at and someone called the cops on me to try get me arrested but by protocol there was no restraining order on me.
Yeah, it was very stupid! It was even more stupid to get my dad to pay for a female lawyer who defended me very heavily in the end after believing this whole matter was stupid too and she looked single as well. I was stupid for not asking out that female lawyer. Man, I was totally stupid back then from being so shy. I had no ability. A definition of being dumb is quiet or in other words too shy!
Well, I realize how stupid I really was and that I have come a long way with working on myself and just not caring anymore. The girl with the restraining order isn't really that pretty to me anyways, so I don't lose much and she no longer has it on me and I know where she is if I ever want to go stick it to her. I haven't even done that out of trying to still be nice. Well, I threw a Jehovah Witness Bible at her Christian pastor who was also being a jerk and stupid with me. I treated that Jehovah Witness book like it was trash and chucked it as hard as I can. I threw "The Book" at her pastor literally!
They can't do anything about it. The truth will be revealed and it's so embarrassing and that's why they can't do anything about it with me now. I have so much knowledge now to go where I want to with this and I'm still saying it was never serious and now it's funny memories for me and something I can deal with to move on without needing their apologies. I can deal with them in person as well and their attempts will be fruitless and everything will be clarified. Wow, it's a totally humbling experience to be able to motivate others to humble themselves too.
Back to Hard Work
I think it's pretty definitive for now. The reason why I have the link to view other bloggers with my undergraduate major is so users can see that I'm number one on the search page! The reason why this happens is because Blogger.com keeps track of people who update their posts the most recent. I am the one who has the most consistency out of the 1500+ other bloggers with a computer science industry label. For the most part, I'm having fun at this and doing it for no money. That's the thing; there's probably no money to be made and so not much of an incentive to keep this going.
For me to have written about random or stupid things and occasionally brilliant posts over the past 12 years, it's a marvel to how this blog even has this many visits without me even trying to advertise it. I haven't really added on any attractive photos either except for the times I joked around about getting a meaningless restraining order from a girl who was mad at me for writing about her church buddies being unattractive. The girl is still an idiot because she couldn't put me in jail and she thought I was a criminal while being a crazy girl over nothing. I don't know but it feels like that woman can't lose her monthly phase of being a little over sensitive and so should get some therapy to get it taken cared of! At least I was being honest and she can't handle the truth!
The people who need to move on are those idiots because they still get mad thinking about it and it was nothing to begin with and from not being perfect people in general. They were acting like kids and just the same as me. It's something you realize after putting some work in yourself. I received the apology I needed from a lady who I believe liked me almost intensely from sharing a similar level of faith in Jesus. Yes, I believe you can score a very hot lady from believing in Jesus very intimately.
It's the past and it was funny and it's something to not get too crazy over and I have put so much work in myself that I am now ready to just not care about what those people think and tell them the truth about how I think they are so stupid if the need ever arises! I can challenge them to prove their claims and put me in jail for being so bad and they will fail miserably and give up in less than 24 hours. By challenging them, it shows them how they were so crazy to begin with over nothing and their ability isn't that good so they aren't even a reliable source of judgement in this area. This pretty much means I score a knockout without putting much thought into this already if I just challenge them and give them their space. I'll just continue being an honest guy and not too worried about this stuff anymore because it wasn't serious to begin with. It was just plain stupid, overall!
For me to have written about random or stupid things and occasionally brilliant posts over the past 12 years, it's a marvel to how this blog even has this many visits without me even trying to advertise it. I haven't really added on any attractive photos either except for the times I joked around about getting a meaningless restraining order from a girl who was mad at me for writing about her church buddies being unattractive. The girl is still an idiot because she couldn't put me in jail and she thought I was a criminal while being a crazy girl over nothing. I don't know but it feels like that woman can't lose her monthly phase of being a little over sensitive and so should get some therapy to get it taken cared of! At least I was being honest and she can't handle the truth!
The people who need to move on are those idiots because they still get mad thinking about it and it was nothing to begin with and from not being perfect people in general. They were acting like kids and just the same as me. It's something you realize after putting some work in yourself. I received the apology I needed from a lady who I believe liked me almost intensely from sharing a similar level of faith in Jesus. Yes, I believe you can score a very hot lady from believing in Jesus very intimately.
It's the past and it was funny and it's something to not get too crazy over and I have put so much work in myself that I am now ready to just not care about what those people think and tell them the truth about how I think they are so stupid if the need ever arises! I can challenge them to prove their claims and put me in jail for being so bad and they will fail miserably and give up in less than 24 hours. By challenging them, it shows them how they were so crazy to begin with over nothing and their ability isn't that good so they aren't even a reliable source of judgement in this area. This pretty much means I score a knockout without putting much thought into this already if I just challenge them and give them their space. I'll just continue being an honest guy and not too worried about this stuff anymore because it wasn't serious to begin with. It was just plain stupid, overall!
Tuesday, August 28, 2018
I'm Secretly Bragging About This
From doing a little research and testing myself, I have found out that I have plenty of that love stamina inside of me. With what my preferences are, I'm not even going to be able to cheat my way with a dating site that I know works because I'm not even going to be saying those things to make an advance on certain people I know will want to experience this thing with me!
With that being said, I can work on making myself happy while being single and without cheating, allow the right lady to come into my life. I'm such an idiot man for still living with my parents! Every time I treated this borderline sinful activity like my homework, it gets me to be less interested in people's good-looking appearances. It's probably because of the purpose that it leads to can feel a little numb and senseless because I'm like trying to hold my breath the hold time. I'm just kidding about that but from breathing and focusing my mind elsewhere like on wanting to please the person, it makes it go a lot longer and become even more powerful. This is why I know I have plenty of that love stamina and can last for at least a little under an hour. From what I have read, I guess it's over doing it if it's going to be an hour and also very tiring. Yet, I have this ability and know I can but if it was everyday, I might lose interest in people's physical appearances in general!
I'm going to just hold off on it best as I can and enjoy being a single guy while feeling stupid from still living with my parents! I need to do something about that now and move on to a bigger home than theirs while having a lot more money than them without needing to count on them for any inheritance. This is the reason why I'm taking up poker and trading while not even talking about my strategies because I don't want to teach anyone. There are some hard losers in those fields especially for those who can lose self-control, and I'm not responsible for them handing me their paycheck on a daily basis! This is why I'm not saying much about it and just that I know with what I know now, I can make a nice living off of it to get to where I want to be and stop feeling stupid about still living with my parents.
With that being said, I can work on making myself happy while being single and without cheating, allow the right lady to come into my life. I'm such an idiot man for still living with my parents! Every time I treated this borderline sinful activity like my homework, it gets me to be less interested in people's good-looking appearances. It's probably because of the purpose that it leads to can feel a little numb and senseless because I'm like trying to hold my breath the hold time. I'm just kidding about that but from breathing and focusing my mind elsewhere like on wanting to please the person, it makes it go a lot longer and become even more powerful. This is why I know I have plenty of that love stamina and can last for at least a little under an hour. From what I have read, I guess it's over doing it if it's going to be an hour and also very tiring. Yet, I have this ability and know I can but if it was everyday, I might lose interest in people's physical appearances in general!
I'm going to just hold off on it best as I can and enjoy being a single guy while feeling stupid from still living with my parents! I need to do something about that now and move on to a bigger home than theirs while having a lot more money than them without needing to count on them for any inheritance. This is the reason why I'm taking up poker and trading while not even talking about my strategies because I don't want to teach anyone. There are some hard losers in those fields especially for those who can lose self-control, and I'm not responsible for them handing me their paycheck on a daily basis! This is why I'm not saying much about it and just that I know with what I know now, I can make a nice living off of it to get to where I want to be and stop feeling stupid about still living with my parents.
Online Dating Update
Well, it looks like a person confessed his or her love to me endlessly and was trying to butter me up by only writing to me on e-mails. It was very creative and fun to respond to and then when I expressed interest in loving this person too by going on a date, the person said he or she needed money. I'm saying he or she because this person says he or she is a very interesting and attractive woman! Well, I'll just call this person a she for now. She's no longer active and stopped her messaging scheme to me because I told her no with providing her some money.
I inadvertently caught a rat but what makes it so good for me is just being honest. It really works so well and I just told her no, I'm uncomfortable with sending her money to help out with her situation! She kept on replying to me that she loved me and the instant I told her no, I'm not sending her money, she stopped sending me messages of telling me how much she loves me. Yeah, I think she was in it for only the money. She invested in all that time and tried to make me fall in love with her from just writing e-mails and then to get declined in getting sent some money or donation.
I don't know how sick this person is to only spend like ten minutes to write e-mails to people and then get them to send money off of their own voluntary will, but I guess this type of legal scam exists. Technically, I never met up with the person so it was easy to say no so now I know this person is literally not really in love with me but only interested in money. There's no longer any interaction so it's a good time to move on and avoid the online dating scene for me. It's really annoying to attract these type of people who are only interested in me sending them money by trying to provide a messaging service and fill you up with love and hope when it was all a lie to begin with.
Actually there might be a way to get around these types of scammers, it's the rule of trying to set up a date with a match fast as you can. I don't have any luck with the gorgeous women I want to meet on those sites. It's like they don't have any activity and maybe they don't even need to be on there. I might as well just try to see them in person and be casually acquainted with them from doing something by fate and if they are interested in me, then maybe I'll eventually go on a serious date when I feel ready.
To get ready for dating in real life, I have to first stop being an idiot about still living with my parents and make a lot of money to support myself and own a brand new home and then just live the dream of being single. I guess from enjoying my single life, I can find the proper woman to want to share my life with and enjoy a happy and romantic life most of the time!
I inadvertently caught a rat but what makes it so good for me is just being honest. It really works so well and I just told her no, I'm uncomfortable with sending her money to help out with her situation! She kept on replying to me that she loved me and the instant I told her no, I'm not sending her money, she stopped sending me messages of telling me how much she loves me. Yeah, I think she was in it for only the money. She invested in all that time and tried to make me fall in love with her from just writing e-mails and then to get declined in getting sent some money or donation.
I don't know how sick this person is to only spend like ten minutes to write e-mails to people and then get them to send money off of their own voluntary will, but I guess this type of legal scam exists. Technically, I never met up with the person so it was easy to say no so now I know this person is literally not really in love with me but only interested in money. There's no longer any interaction so it's a good time to move on and avoid the online dating scene for me. It's really annoying to attract these type of people who are only interested in me sending them money by trying to provide a messaging service and fill you up with love and hope when it was all a lie to begin with.
Actually there might be a way to get around these types of scammers, it's the rule of trying to set up a date with a match fast as you can. I don't have any luck with the gorgeous women I want to meet on those sites. It's like they don't have any activity and maybe they don't even need to be on there. I might as well just try to see them in person and be casually acquainted with them from doing something by fate and if they are interested in me, then maybe I'll eventually go on a serious date when I feel ready.
To get ready for dating in real life, I have to first stop being an idiot about still living with my parents and make a lot of money to support myself and own a brand new home and then just live the dream of being single. I guess from enjoying my single life, I can find the proper woman to want to share my life with and enjoy a happy and romantic life most of the time!
Truly Great Opportunity
I have found out from being worn out at online poker, I could shorten the time I spend on it by doubling down the risk! Instead of one table to play super turbo poker, I can play two at a time and this will pretty much be grinding with my simple system I have come up with. I'm not going to discuss about it.
I also think I have a really good opportunity now to make a lot of money from only trading and playing poker. It will be like I won't even have to show up for regular work and live in a cozy home while being able to travel and donate to great charities I believe in wholeheartedly. I'm not going to discuss about how I'm going about it. What I'm doing may be interesting to some, but I don't believe in teaching others about it. I would prefer a person just put in the time and come up with it on his or her own or just go looking for sources that are accessible to help the person learn. I only came across all of this by going through my own ups and downs and it's now coming together.
I also think I have a really good opportunity now to make a lot of money from only trading and playing poker. It will be like I won't even have to show up for regular work and live in a cozy home while being able to travel and donate to great charities I believe in wholeheartedly. I'm not going to discuss about how I'm going about it. What I'm doing may be interesting to some, but I don't believe in teaching others about it. I would prefer a person just put in the time and come up with it on his or her own or just go looking for sources that are accessible to help the person learn. I only came across all of this by going through my own ups and downs and it's now coming together.
Monday, August 27, 2018
Spending Time Wisely
The proper way to being really successful is to be an ideal leader. An ideal leader has self-awareness and self-discipline while being able to adapt to adversity and influence others to carry out the leader's vision. I think in a nutshell this is a very interesting statement I am making and will probably not be challenged by too many, even if there are any even remotely trying to disagree everything I'm making claims about. I think there really will be disagreement if I mention about how they should believe in Jesus being the Son of Man sent by God the father and that they are the same God doing this!
I mentioned about this Christianity thing in the form of the gospel in layman terms to a friend who is confused easily and aligns with the Hindu religion. She accepts Jesus in her heart and believes what he did for mankind but still takes on funny beliefs of being able to have direct conversations with other gods and goddesses. She suffers from some psychosis and I'm glad even after all of those crazy episodes she has had, she still believes in Christianity and its cause! I'm very close to her and she really might be a little lazy to push herself, so I'm just trying to motivate her to just work on being herself because it's her own identity and that's the state she would like to bring herself back to.
I mentioned about this Christianity thing in the form of the gospel in layman terms to a friend who is confused easily and aligns with the Hindu religion. She accepts Jesus in her heart and believes what he did for mankind but still takes on funny beliefs of being able to have direct conversations with other gods and goddesses. She suffers from some psychosis and I'm glad even after all of those crazy episodes she has had, she still believes in Christianity and its cause! I'm very close to her and she really might be a little lazy to push herself, so I'm just trying to motivate her to just work on being herself because it's her own identity and that's the state she would like to bring herself back to.
Limited In My Choices
I think there's a nice and cute lady I'm taking a liking for. She's really cool in general but has a mental disorder that she is able to maintain under treatment. It's a major factor for me to consider when it comes to whether I'm going to pursue after her or not. I guess since I have this liking for her and attracted to her cuteness enough to at least have fun while being friends, I would want to explore if I'm really that compatible with her.
I really do like her personality and how sweet and mild-tempered she appears to be most of the time. It's a huge bonus, but she has a mental disorder at the same time! She isn't really chubby and her girly figure is really cute too but it's not really very exotic. She did say to me that she thinks I'm hot, so wow, I was like thanks and for her to be blunt like that to me is interesting. I think she likes me but she also mentions being interested in other ladies too!
All of these factors add up to how I just need to keep on meeting more girls and eventually it is all going to add up. What is another issue is that my parents are crazy traditional and I don't align with their ideology anymore so I'm not also picky about race. I can't make them mad because I have been such an idiot to still live with them under their own roof. I need to start making a lot of money to be able to support myself and won't care if they cut me off to their inheritance while being their only and oldest son. I can seriously make them feel very dissed and wanting to move on to the afterlife if I marry a different ethnicity. I guess when I factor it out, it's really on them and they shouldn't be weighing down on their kids like that. It isn't traditionally American and also God doesn't preach against marrying other believers with different nationalities. Some of the best marriages in the Bible have been between two different ethnicities like Ruth and Boaz and also David and Bathsheba but that was repulsive and spiteful with what David did.
I think my parents should just look to get some therapy to deal with their own personal issues or go for it together because I don't agree with their parenting methods at all. They took little things and saw it as something too serious and it had an affect on me, so I don't really care anymore if my parents don't want any part of my personal life from marrying a different ethnicity. I almost want to do it just to be daring against their own cultural views and also have some wild fun occasionally from being challenged living with another American with traditional views but being a different race. The thing though is that I think I'm open to having a dating relationship with an interesting and attractive female of any race now. Maybe too old or too young might be something I would love to avoid too.
I really do like her personality and how sweet and mild-tempered she appears to be most of the time. It's a huge bonus, but she has a mental disorder at the same time! She isn't really chubby and her girly figure is really cute too but it's not really very exotic. She did say to me that she thinks I'm hot, so wow, I was like thanks and for her to be blunt like that to me is interesting. I think she likes me but she also mentions being interested in other ladies too!
All of these factors add up to how I just need to keep on meeting more girls and eventually it is all going to add up. What is another issue is that my parents are crazy traditional and I don't align with their ideology anymore so I'm not also picky about race. I can't make them mad because I have been such an idiot to still live with them under their own roof. I need to start making a lot of money to be able to support myself and won't care if they cut me off to their inheritance while being their only and oldest son. I can seriously make them feel very dissed and wanting to move on to the afterlife if I marry a different ethnicity. I guess when I factor it out, it's really on them and they shouldn't be weighing down on their kids like that. It isn't traditionally American and also God doesn't preach against marrying other believers with different nationalities. Some of the best marriages in the Bible have been between two different ethnicities like Ruth and Boaz and also David and Bathsheba but that was repulsive and spiteful with what David did.
I think my parents should just look to get some therapy to deal with their own personal issues or go for it together because I don't agree with their parenting methods at all. They took little things and saw it as something too serious and it had an affect on me, so I don't really care anymore if my parents don't want any part of my personal life from marrying a different ethnicity. I almost want to do it just to be daring against their own cultural views and also have some wild fun occasionally from being challenged living with another American with traditional views but being a different race. The thing though is that I think I'm open to having a dating relationship with an interesting and attractive female of any race now. Maybe too old or too young might be something I would love to avoid too.
Staying Occupied With Fulfilling Things
With all this free time available and the knowledge that I'm storing up now, I'm finding out there's so much excitement to what I believe in. I personally believe in making it on my own without looking to a support group. My way of thinking is pretty innovative and I have a hard time finding people with my type of experience. It really comes down to having confidence and what you know and how content you are about it!
For the sake of getting into a relationship, I want to keep on meeting women and find a beautiful woman to connect with and then chase after a relationship. I guess I'm going to have to pursue nicely so I don't know how that goes except that I'm not going force her too much to risk getting myself another restraining order! People can be so serious over things that don't really matter and become crazy about it.
I'm really confident in my personal abilities now with what I would like to do and it was hard in the beginning but it just eventually feels good when things start making sense and you are able to accept a lot of bad things without stressing out about it. It's really important to have a peace of mind and keep gaining knowledge or wisdom in fulfilling areas of your life.
For the sake of getting into a relationship, I want to keep on meeting women and find a beautiful woman to connect with and then chase after a relationship. I guess I'm going to have to pursue nicely so I don't know how that goes except that I'm not going force her too much to risk getting myself another restraining order! People can be so serious over things that don't really matter and become crazy about it.
I'm really confident in my personal abilities now with what I would like to do and it was hard in the beginning but it just eventually feels good when things start making sense and you are able to accept a lot of bad things without stressing out about it. It's really important to have a peace of mind and keep gaining knowledge or wisdom in fulfilling areas of your life.
Making Money From Having Fun
I have been playing a legal version of online U.S. poker for a little bit of money. I started out with a bankroll of $50 and played for only $2.50 each sit-in and all of a sudden in a couple weeks, I have made $30 from only risking that little and not playing for a long time. I'm starting to feel worn out because it's only very fun when you are making money easy. By easy I mean for like my first hand, I would get pocket aces and then double up and then just leave the table. Those are fun moments!
I think I'm not a true poker fan because it's only fun when I'm winning and making money. Other than that, it sucks to lose even if the other opponent outplayed me and I think they had a very nice hand which I comment in my head. It's pretty much like a job then and I don't really want to spend hours paying my dues by giving money away and then catching my break from less skilled players.
From thinking about it, poker doesn't feel very rewarding to me and I want to spend the least amount of time possible at it while maximizing my earning. Because of its fickle nature which is mathematically measured by variance, I'm going to avoid it because I have many sessions where I go from $2.50 down to $0.80 and then to get back to $2.00 and then go down to $1.00 and then go back up to $1.50 and then go back down to $0.90 and then catch a break to work up to $1.75 and then leave the table at $3.30 after playing for about an hour and totaling about 300 hands!
The reason why I played this game was because a super turbo mode was offered and it's very popular with hundreds of players competing against one another. It's like let go of a bad hand and then fish for another good hand and then compete to take the chips away. From a business model standpoint, the poker scene doesn't really fit my ideology so I'll be looking to have fun with honing my trading skills which offer a greater strategy to match my preferences.
I think I'm not a true poker fan because it's only fun when I'm winning and making money. Other than that, it sucks to lose even if the other opponent outplayed me and I think they had a very nice hand which I comment in my head. It's pretty much like a job then and I don't really want to spend hours paying my dues by giving money away and then catching my break from less skilled players.
From thinking about it, poker doesn't feel very rewarding to me and I want to spend the least amount of time possible at it while maximizing my earning. Because of its fickle nature which is mathematically measured by variance, I'm going to avoid it because I have many sessions where I go from $2.50 down to $0.80 and then to get back to $2.00 and then go down to $1.00 and then go back up to $1.50 and then go back down to $0.90 and then catch a break to work up to $1.75 and then leave the table at $3.30 after playing for about an hour and totaling about 300 hands!
The reason why I played this game was because a super turbo mode was offered and it's very popular with hundreds of players competing against one another. It's like let go of a bad hand and then fish for another good hand and then compete to take the chips away. From a business model standpoint, the poker scene doesn't really fit my ideology so I'll be looking to have fun with honing my trading skills which offer a greater strategy to match my preferences.
Tuesday, August 21, 2018
Embracing The Way Of Winning Stupid Conflicts
It looks like I have a daily plan set out and its objective is to make me happy. I mean even if I don't get to all of it in one setting, just having something to attempt is enough for me. From having a vulnerable personality which relies on people liking me, I have learned to be more accepting of how things are especially with annoying people. Everybody can be annoying sometimes and it's the truth that can't be avoided. It's probably because of self-control issues and also from being selfish and not being able to drop something that might not be serious.
This was the issue for me and now I see what I was missing with the individuals I used to be successful resolving conflicts with in the first place. What threw me off in the beginning was that I was bullying them from making fun of them and just letting myself go crazy from being so mad. I would feel bad afterwards, but what I left out that made me so successful in dealing with these people and eventually befriending them was that I challenged them to go after finding evidence for their claims and if they didn't then I wouldn't take it seriously and I would go give them their space to go do it. I would be worried like crazy back then so I didn't want to face the same worry, but this is why it worked because the individuals were too dumb to realize they were thinking dumb and they never got anything done and probably felt like they went to the gutter because they just didn't have anything going with it. After that, I would try to bite their heads off the next time I met them and then they would go passive with me.
What was bad in the past was my aggression, but what was good that I lacked from having gone passive is daring those individuals to prove their stupid and mean claims about me and then showing that they didn't go anywhere because they really didn't have a strong basis to begin with and they were thinking crazy. I can now do all of this without all the worries and headache I used to face. I can do all of this without even having to force myself to be a bully to everybody I'm annoyed by because they are being dumb and crazy about nothing serious with me. What is probably the biggest thing to do in the situation of this meaningless and stupid conflict is to challenge them to do what they want to prove bad about you and then give them their space and then come back the next time you see them and be like I told you so. They will be so dumbfounded and this is where you get the upper hand to hurt or encourage them. Basically, you have formed an influence but all of this happens from being vocal and it's important to stay relevant instead of sounding weird and not so sure about stuff and then going back to challenging them again which scares them but makes them feel good because they want to be selfish about not looking bad.
It basically requires honesty, patience, acceptance, and knowledge of the situation. There's a fourth one I'm preaching about in dealing with stupid conflicts people do to you once in a blue moon- it's knowledge!
This was the issue for me and now I see what I was missing with the individuals I used to be successful resolving conflicts with in the first place. What threw me off in the beginning was that I was bullying them from making fun of them and just letting myself go crazy from being so mad. I would feel bad afterwards, but what I left out that made me so successful in dealing with these people and eventually befriending them was that I challenged them to go after finding evidence for their claims and if they didn't then I wouldn't take it seriously and I would go give them their space to go do it. I would be worried like crazy back then so I didn't want to face the same worry, but this is why it worked because the individuals were too dumb to realize they were thinking dumb and they never got anything done and probably felt like they went to the gutter because they just didn't have anything going with it. After that, I would try to bite their heads off the next time I met them and then they would go passive with me.
What was bad in the past was my aggression, but what was good that I lacked from having gone passive is daring those individuals to prove their stupid and mean claims about me and then showing that they didn't go anywhere because they really didn't have a strong basis to begin with and they were thinking crazy. I can now do all of this without all the worries and headache I used to face. I can do all of this without even having to force myself to be a bully to everybody I'm annoyed by because they are being dumb and crazy about nothing serious with me. What is probably the biggest thing to do in the situation of this meaningless and stupid conflict is to challenge them to do what they want to prove bad about you and then give them their space and then come back the next time you see them and be like I told you so. They will be so dumbfounded and this is where you get the upper hand to hurt or encourage them. Basically, you have formed an influence but all of this happens from being vocal and it's important to stay relevant instead of sounding weird and not so sure about stuff and then going back to challenging them again which scares them but makes them feel good because they want to be selfish about not looking bad.
It basically requires honesty, patience, acceptance, and knowledge of the situation. There's a fourth one I'm preaching about in dealing with stupid conflicts people do to you once in a blue moon- it's knowledge!
Building Confidence
I have finally been able to solve a lingering programming problem for me at work and it feels great! It definitely feels much more relaxing and there's this excitement I'm feeling because of how it could impact this workplace very positively. I have programmed something to do some number crunching and to even package presenting data in a convenient manner and to do all of this automated. This is what programming computers are all about, and it's so useful for helping business owners to know how healthy their business is doing and to even make adjustments as necessary to keep up with competitors and make profit while sustaining a nice quality of living.
I understand the role I have and the critical impact I play for keeping this company on its feet. I am the only programmer as well and it's been a little stressful sometimes from worrying about not getting things done, but after hacking at it with my basic approach and getting enough lucky from googling sources for solutions, I have made progress!
I could surely be a programmer or in this related field of I.T. for the rest of my life. I totally enjoy the challenges with putting everything together and to even think about the business from head to toe and give my full prodigious effort into it. I was born for doing a job like this and I went to school for it and now I have a chance to prove myself that I can excel at it! This has been such a lovely opportunity for me and I think I'm just blessed by God to have got to this position.
I understand the role I have and the critical impact I play for keeping this company on its feet. I am the only programmer as well and it's been a little stressful sometimes from worrying about not getting things done, but after hacking at it with my basic approach and getting enough lucky from googling sources for solutions, I have made progress!
I could surely be a programmer or in this related field of I.T. for the rest of my life. I totally enjoy the challenges with putting everything together and to even think about the business from head to toe and give my full prodigious effort into it. I was born for doing a job like this and I went to school for it and now I have a chance to prove myself that I can excel at it! This has been such a lovely opportunity for me and I think I'm just blessed by God to have got to this position.
Taking Charge Of My Life
I'm not really caring so much anymore about standing out. I think I naturally will from actually being short and people making fun of me because of it. I guess if I was a girl then it might feel worse sometimes from not having some emotions settled yet. It's not too bad from being a guy and having things I like to work on.
I'm trying to fix an all-in-one PC by installing a new and improved SSD and it's been giving me a little hard time because from reading the message boards, I have been confusing myself and making some long drives to exchange them. It's now going to be my third time running to the store for another exchange. I hope to get it right this time because I plan on using this large display to work out, so might as well stick the most fancy and affordable hard drive I can get to boost the load up time and then hook up whatever I like and even run some DVDs. It's not the best quality either, but I will be able to manage.
It looks like my bare minimum now that I'll be looking to do to get by with my personal time is to study the Bible a little, trade a little, and work out quite a substantial amount. I seem to maintain some peace of mind from doing these things. I also have more things to do to keep myself occupied if I don't have anything fun planned for the evening. I guess that's what this is all about. It's about keeping myself occupied and trying to make my life more convenient for myself. I could sure use a sexy and romantic wife to enjoy some quality time with everyday and to even get so much closer and perhaps even raise a family. It would be a very meaningful relationship to enjoy, along with also having great friends to hang out with. People in general are annoying sometimes, but you have to deal with it because you want to and also to have a great time.
I'm trying to fix an all-in-one PC by installing a new and improved SSD and it's been giving me a little hard time because from reading the message boards, I have been confusing myself and making some long drives to exchange them. It's now going to be my third time running to the store for another exchange. I hope to get it right this time because I plan on using this large display to work out, so might as well stick the most fancy and affordable hard drive I can get to boost the load up time and then hook up whatever I like and even run some DVDs. It's not the best quality either, but I will be able to manage.
It looks like my bare minimum now that I'll be looking to do to get by with my personal time is to study the Bible a little, trade a little, and work out quite a substantial amount. I seem to maintain some peace of mind from doing these things. I also have more things to do to keep myself occupied if I don't have anything fun planned for the evening. I guess that's what this is all about. It's about keeping myself occupied and trying to make my life more convenient for myself. I could sure use a sexy and romantic wife to enjoy some quality time with everyday and to even get so much closer and perhaps even raise a family. It would be a very meaningful relationship to enjoy, along with also having great friends to hang out with. People in general are annoying sometimes, but you have to deal with it because you want to and also to have a great time.
Monday, August 20, 2018
Healthy Way of Letting Things Go
I'm finding out that from having established my personal goals to be like my daily homework, it's something I can always fall back on for anything I perceive to be giving me a hard time at the moment. Whether it would be loneliness or being patient with a person and worrying a little about what I said or did, I can go after working on myself. It's like if people are going to make fun of me behind my back and not associate with me to make me upset in the end, I still have my goals that I can work on. In a way, this brings me happiness.
I guess I'm a special type of breed because of my goals being unique after put together and in a way inspiring if I can get it together. It's also very fun so to have this upbeat and positive mindset, it also gives off a wonderful energy to people who hang out with you. It's easy to have a fun countenance, and I think the only thing remaining for me is how it bugs me a little to be shorter than others. I can just brush it off and not care about it much most of the time.
It's really just attitude and having a peace of mind. The majority of disagreements is really plain stupid anyway and like family, people still stick together. I'm totally glad that I don't need apologies anymore from the idiots who attempted to legally harm me but got stuck along the way and couldn't go any more while leaving themselves vulnerable to ridicule. I'm in control and it feels good to have this personal level of contentment. It really comes from committing to following after the Lord's footsteps. Honesty, acceptance, and commitment are all really a part of God's divine plan for everyone who wants to participate.
I guess I'm a special type of breed because of my goals being unique after put together and in a way inspiring if I can get it together. It's also very fun so to have this upbeat and positive mindset, it also gives off a wonderful energy to people who hang out with you. It's easy to have a fun countenance, and I think the only thing remaining for me is how it bugs me a little to be shorter than others. I can just brush it off and not care about it much most of the time.
It's really just attitude and having a peace of mind. The majority of disagreements is really plain stupid anyway and like family, people still stick together. I'm totally glad that I don't need apologies anymore from the idiots who attempted to legally harm me but got stuck along the way and couldn't go any more while leaving themselves vulnerable to ridicule. I'm in control and it feels good to have this personal level of contentment. It really comes from committing to following after the Lord's footsteps. Honesty, acceptance, and commitment are all really a part of God's divine plan for everyone who wants to participate.
Keeping Track of Priorities
Well, for myself, I have had to make some adjustments with what I want to do in a daily fashion. To have goals to accomplish everyday, it makes it more purposeful for me. I guess it's always subject to personal reflection of what I'm trying to do with my time. For the most part, I really like my daily goals and it's been healthy to be aware of. I think when the going gets tough for me, I just settle into working on myself and it seems to preoccupy my time.
These are pretty much my main goals at the moment adjusted from what I had written to be my minimum goals to accomplish everyday. In order of preference, it's doing Bible study, working out, trading the Forex market, doing growing taller stretches, and taking care of my teeth, hair, and face! For my secondary level of goals if I have time, it's cooking and doing some maintenance of GoPro and drone footage or images.
If I can get these activities done, then I think I'll be happy from the things I have worked on with myself and be ready to go play in general with people or find something else to do to keep myself occupied. I guess it's pretty much like my desirable homework that I have set up and the amount of time I put in for each objective which becomes so unique for me. There's really no time restriction I have placed on each order of preference, so it could be like five minutes to over a few hours and depending on the days I'm going through.
These are pretty much my main goals at the moment adjusted from what I had written to be my minimum goals to accomplish everyday. In order of preference, it's doing Bible study, working out, trading the Forex market, doing growing taller stretches, and taking care of my teeth, hair, and face! For my secondary level of goals if I have time, it's cooking and doing some maintenance of GoPro and drone footage or images.
If I can get these activities done, then I think I'll be happy from the things I have worked on with myself and be ready to go play in general with people or find something else to do to keep myself occupied. I guess it's pretty much like my desirable homework that I have set up and the amount of time I put in for each objective which becomes so unique for me. There's really no time restriction I have placed on each order of preference, so it could be like five minutes to over a few hours and depending on the days I'm going through.
Unique Way To Make Money
I envision myself being an expert with trading the Forex market to make a nice living. I would like to reach a net income of $1 Million a month. I think going more would be unnecessary after that, but imagining being able to give at least $1.2 Million to non-profit organizations every year and not even wipe a sweat off my brow while thinking a second about it is what is really attracting me to make that much.
I'm currently watching videos on how to trade using only trend lines. It beats having tried to use other indicators and come up with something magical off of it. None of it really works consistently enough for me to keep up with. There was one I paid over $5000 for which also included getting personal lessons from professional traders, but their style of trading isn't accommodating to me. I really was able to tweak their indicators to have an accuracy of about 70% on a good week but it's all about maintaining a high accuracy and that gets difficult to maintain and there's just pressure to not want to lose because the profit I was targeting was a 1 to 1 risk reward ratio.
I'm talking about some things that a normal person is not going to know, and I'm not really favoring teaching anyone how to trade Forex because of it's highly risky nature and how a lot of people who trade it lose money. Even the person I'm trying to learn off of even blew his account before he came up with an ingenious way of reading the market. I follow his footsteps quite a bit in that I hired traders for me to manage my account and gave them some commission but they let me down after having a nice run. I think I lost about $5000 with all the profit included so I'm lucky I'm able to make that much on an average of about every five weeks after paying for taxes.
The reason why I'm going after this risky natured business is because it's my dream to live this life. I can also visualize getting myself there and I'm not really greedy about making money. I want to be able to support close friends and family as well financially whenever it's appropriate and having enough to feed people's mouths and take loved ones on trips and even helping out strangers through wonderful non-profit organizations would be so cool! I'm willing to put in the necessary work needed, so that's why this is my unique way for me to end my normal paying job, which I'm still grinding at but actually loving at the moment.
I'm currently watching videos on how to trade using only trend lines. It beats having tried to use other indicators and come up with something magical off of it. None of it really works consistently enough for me to keep up with. There was one I paid over $5000 for which also included getting personal lessons from professional traders, but their style of trading isn't accommodating to me. I really was able to tweak their indicators to have an accuracy of about 70% on a good week but it's all about maintaining a high accuracy and that gets difficult to maintain and there's just pressure to not want to lose because the profit I was targeting was a 1 to 1 risk reward ratio.
I'm talking about some things that a normal person is not going to know, and I'm not really favoring teaching anyone how to trade Forex because of it's highly risky nature and how a lot of people who trade it lose money. Even the person I'm trying to learn off of even blew his account before he came up with an ingenious way of reading the market. I follow his footsteps quite a bit in that I hired traders for me to manage my account and gave them some commission but they let me down after having a nice run. I think I lost about $5000 with all the profit included so I'm lucky I'm able to make that much on an average of about every five weeks after paying for taxes.
The reason why I'm going after this risky natured business is because it's my dream to live this life. I can also visualize getting myself there and I'm not really greedy about making money. I want to be able to support close friends and family as well financially whenever it's appropriate and having enough to feed people's mouths and take loved ones on trips and even helping out strangers through wonderful non-profit organizations would be so cool! I'm willing to put in the necessary work needed, so that's why this is my unique way for me to end my normal paying job, which I'm still grinding at but actually loving at the moment.
Finding Fulfillment
I think it's a total blessing for me to have found Jesus awhile ago. The journey for me wasn't always easy especially from lacking the desire to study God's Word in the past. I'm still not the ideal Bible student so I rely on listening to others teaching the message and for the most part, there is this relaxing spirit that seems to overflow the environment for me. I find rest in listening to God's Word and wish I could retain much as I can no matter what I'm daydreaming about!
It looks like my purpose in life is to be a healthy short dude who makes enough money and supports Jesus believing ministries and is always looking to do some good for this world. It's not much and probably very ordinary. I'm not looking to be some guy who stands out, no matter how cool it is sometimes. I literally don't have a lot of charisma naturally and just need to keep working on myself and going after things I'm drawn to I guess and try not to waste too much time.
Friday, August 17, 2018
Bare Minimum To Get Things Done
My daily standards appear to be so high that I have trouble to achieve them everyday. Also, this is what I want to do at a bare minimum and having a little trouble achieving! It's about living the dream and working on yourself to get there. There's nothing wrong with feeling down and out and then going after working on yourself. You know it's also nice to have a girlfriend!
I'm going to list my super high standard and that is different from almost everyone. I'm a rare breed and I believe there a few like me out there anyway so maybe I don't feel that special in the end. It's not a bad thing. An annoying friend believes he is a rare breed and looks at himself like he's the hot sell-out of the century but he's not! I always bring him down with a simple phrase and he never has a comeback statement. He still believes he's the best out there, so it gets pretty irritating!
After much digressing, here's the list: read and study some Bible (automatically lost like 70% interested people), do some Forex trading (the what now?), work out for completing a triathlon ( that's already top 1%), cook ( probably most ladies will dig this area about me and make some guys jealous of me the short guy), do some growing taller stretches ( it doesn't exist oh really? ), keep my hair from thinning out, keep on brushing my teeth and washing my face (it's part of my minimum routine), practice some speed reading and perfect memory, do some editing of cool drone footage and camera, and occasionally blog on here.
You can see that I'm a pretty unique guy and all of these add up for being my bare minimum standard to accomplish. I think no one in this world has an exact pattern like mine even though I have crowds who will share in my interest and some people just jealous of me from being stupid to start with. This should be the same for everyone else. Just how unique are you is the question.
I'm going to start off my days with those and get them done like it's my daily homework and then add on some more fun after getting a girlfriend!
I'm going to list my super high standard and that is different from almost everyone. I'm a rare breed and I believe there a few like me out there anyway so maybe I don't feel that special in the end. It's not a bad thing. An annoying friend believes he is a rare breed and looks at himself like he's the hot sell-out of the century but he's not! I always bring him down with a simple phrase and he never has a comeback statement. He still believes he's the best out there, so it gets pretty irritating!
After much digressing, here's the list: read and study some Bible (automatically lost like 70% interested people), do some Forex trading (the what now?), work out for completing a triathlon ( that's already top 1%), cook ( probably most ladies will dig this area about me and make some guys jealous of me the short guy), do some growing taller stretches ( it doesn't exist oh really? ), keep my hair from thinning out, keep on brushing my teeth and washing my face (it's part of my minimum routine), practice some speed reading and perfect memory, do some editing of cool drone footage and camera, and occasionally blog on here.
You can see that I'm a pretty unique guy and all of these add up for being my bare minimum standard to accomplish. I think no one in this world has an exact pattern like mine even though I have crowds who will share in my interest and some people just jealous of me from being stupid to start with. This should be the same for everyone else. Just how unique are you is the question.
I'm going to start off my days with those and get them done like it's my daily homework and then add on some more fun after getting a girlfriend!
Achieving Victory
One of the best things that occurred for me yesterday was how I finally reached VICTORY!!! It's over that stupid incident occurred with a few brats who were just plain crazy kids like I was. They were just a bit worse than I was and I held back so I wanted to go beat them up and I just didn't from knowing I would feel bad and from being tired of not understanding how things are. This is how I got through it without going through therapy. Therapy probably does emphasis these aspects though for a person, but the strongest growth does come from personal effort so I really didn't have to spend a lot of money to hire someone else to help me in this area. It's true I could have got over it faster though with a well-trained professional, but I had special needs I knew he or she wouldn't have been able to meet because of my unwillingness to change back then and also from being too shy.
It's three things put together that are very hard to do, but works in the end. Patience, honesty, and acceptance to the fullest scale. It's scary and can hurt in the beginning but with a little bit of bravery, it doesn't become so bad in the end. I think this is what the spiritual enemy out there wants to prevent everyone from doing. Yet, it's a principle that works and takes you so far. It's like a vehicle that leads the right people to have concern for you.
What happened yesterday was a major great outcome for me! A stupid guy's wife apologized on behalf of the stupid guy for what he did and with all of that humility she put herself through and what I could sense, yeah, I felt so good about it that I don't have to go try ruin the brat's life anymore. It's a major achievement and she really was sensitive to the details I explained to her. I was just being honest and proving to her that I was in control of the situation now and had a hard time getting there. I think she was concerned how I could have been so mad and out to hurt them and at the same time feeling bad about it, so she genuinely said she was sorry. It's tempting to do a me against the world scenario while feeling all violent inside but acting peacefully to enact my charge that can scare other brats who went crazy with me.
I think that's the thing though about me in that I was part of not serious incidents where it got too out of hand with the other person going ballistic. He probably has it repressed out of his head and if I were to bring it up, he would go crazy again and this is where I can start pointing my finger at him and laughing and making a fool out of him and then coaching him to be a better person if I want to or just moving on if he can't handle what I'm doing to him. I didn't have this confidence back then, but now I do so with the apology from someone else close to him, I accept it and don't need one from the brat and can go on with my life peacefully.
It's three things put together that are very hard to do, but works in the end. Patience, honesty, and acceptance to the fullest scale. It's scary and can hurt in the beginning but with a little bit of bravery, it doesn't become so bad in the end. I think this is what the spiritual enemy out there wants to prevent everyone from doing. Yet, it's a principle that works and takes you so far. It's like a vehicle that leads the right people to have concern for you.
What happened yesterday was a major great outcome for me! A stupid guy's wife apologized on behalf of the stupid guy for what he did and with all of that humility she put herself through and what I could sense, yeah, I felt so good about it that I don't have to go try ruin the brat's life anymore. It's a major achievement and she really was sensitive to the details I explained to her. I was just being honest and proving to her that I was in control of the situation now and had a hard time getting there. I think she was concerned how I could have been so mad and out to hurt them and at the same time feeling bad about it, so she genuinely said she was sorry. It's tempting to do a me against the world scenario while feeling all violent inside but acting peacefully to enact my charge that can scare other brats who went crazy with me.
I think that's the thing though about me in that I was part of not serious incidents where it got too out of hand with the other person going ballistic. He probably has it repressed out of his head and if I were to bring it up, he would go crazy again and this is where I can start pointing my finger at him and laughing and making a fool out of him and then coaching him to be a better person if I want to or just moving on if he can't handle what I'm doing to him. I didn't have this confidence back then, but now I do so with the apology from someone else close to him, I accept it and don't need one from the brat and can go on with my life peacefully.
Wednesday, August 15, 2018
Simple Method of Planning and Executing
I have found out that this works a lot to my favor, but is a little difficult to manage. It still needs a little more work but has been helpful. It's probably mainly because it's all on paper and for my eyes to review about myself. All you have to do with my idea is write it all out on paper with anything you are setting yourself out to do and then just go after completing them!
It's really that simple, unless a person doesn't have anything to do on his or her mind and then I guess it's just go play and be a kid everyday until that gets really boring. I was like that in the beginning at the ripe old age of 25. I was playing video games and watching T.V. and trying to get my fix looking at pretty girls, but all of it got boring! I don't even approach pretty women from all the looking I did in the past and just don't care anymore about it. It was that bad with how much I got tired of doing those things. It was also depressing, so I snapped myself out of it eventually and feeling happy but it started from waking up and putting my mind to working out. It feels so good after the workout and there's a benefit to feeling like you are ready to conquer your day and tasks.
I really enjoyed doing all of those workouts and became super skinny while lifting bigger weights than them and people looking at me all crazy and wanting to quit from being jealous. I would high five them all the time too! I'm back to being average and have to pick it up again. I think it's on my TO-DO list and this is all I was talking about.
It's really that simple, unless a person doesn't have anything to do on his or her mind and then I guess it's just go play and be a kid everyday until that gets really boring. I was like that in the beginning at the ripe old age of 25. I was playing video games and watching T.V. and trying to get my fix looking at pretty girls, but all of it got boring! I don't even approach pretty women from all the looking I did in the past and just don't care anymore about it. It was that bad with how much I got tired of doing those things. It was also depressing, so I snapped myself out of it eventually and feeling happy but it started from waking up and putting my mind to working out. It feels so good after the workout and there's a benefit to feeling like you are ready to conquer your day and tasks.
I really enjoyed doing all of those workouts and became super skinny while lifting bigger weights than them and people looking at me all crazy and wanting to quit from being jealous. I would high five them all the time too! I'm back to being average and have to pick it up again. I think it's on my TO-DO list and this is all I was talking about.
Company Needs Me
I'm finding out that my position as the only computer programmer of this company is very valuable! I'm programming their database, along with the software they use and trying to make everybody's life convenient. It's pretty much taking all of the data and transforming it into a piece of art that makes money for my boss. I'm finding myself with enduring the challenges and still going back at it the next day. I just don't mind the pressure I feel from wanting to perform at my peak level. I am meant to be at this job and grateful this is a position I can handle without really any regrets.
I would have to say that computer programming will be my high level job that can get me a six-figure income. It's a lot of fun and isn't the most difficult thing in the world for me. It's really about taking the time to gather the right tools and thinking about the right method to take and then spending time to implement all of those things at once and then patching up problems that arise later. In a nutshell, programming is like life hacking because it's about creating software to conveniently and efficiently do other people's work for them.
I would have to say that computer programming will be my high level job that can get me a six-figure income. It's a lot of fun and isn't the most difficult thing in the world for me. It's really about taking the time to gather the right tools and thinking about the right method to take and then spending time to implement all of those things at once and then patching up problems that arise later. In a nutshell, programming is like life hacking because it's about creating software to conveniently and efficiently do other people's work for them.
Friday, August 10, 2018
On and Off Disciplined Focus
Yesterday, I ended up doing work and driving to a salon to get my hair treated. I have a monthly membership with Hair Club and I do have hair loss in the form of my hair thinning out. I am trying to retain most of it and grow back some and so far, it's been working. I haven't had any major loss from taking some precaution. It's pretty expensive though in the form of being 200 dollars a month. I guess it's worth it to me then.
I ended up going off after being tired after driving back from work. I think that's the main factor I need to deal with while blocking out distractions. It's going to take quite a bit of discipline. Also, I need to be aware of how I could be having so much fun but have to cut it out to get something else done. This is pretty much how I should be living my life because I have a variety of things that I would love to do. I might as well try to exhaust my list of objectives I have in mind of completing for today.
A friend mentioned to me how he is task oriented. I think it can be really fun to keep those things in mind. I used to be thinking I'm goal oriented and all of these tasks do have one common theme in mind. It's about enjoying myself and being content!
I ended up going off after being tired after driving back from work. I think that's the main factor I need to deal with while blocking out distractions. It's going to take quite a bit of discipline. Also, I need to be aware of how I could be having so much fun but have to cut it out to get something else done. This is pretty much how I should be living my life because I have a variety of things that I would love to do. I might as well try to exhaust my list of objectives I have in mind of completing for today.
A friend mentioned to me how he is task oriented. I think it can be really fun to keep those things in mind. I used to be thinking I'm goal oriented and all of these tasks do have one common theme in mind. It's about enjoying myself and being content!
Thursday, August 9, 2018
Practicing Daily Awareness
A practice I have been naturally doing on a regular basis is writing out all my goals. The more I practice with remembering these goals, the better I know what I want with myself and my progress with them. I guess I'm fortunate that I feel none of them are impossible. This is in turn makes me someone who can be quite average and not that spectacular if I manage to achieve those objectives. Mainly, it personally deals with having comfort and enjoying the company of good people I've been blessed to be around by fate.
After setting up these goals, I think the most important thing to do is complete them! Instead of lounging around and trying to soak in more information and letting myself prepare for it, I guess it's a good thing to do this but for myself it can take a long time. I would like to snap out of it a little faster for staying focused. Therefore, it's been really important for me to preach and practice full honesty and acceptance. Without those two, it would have been difficult to gauge where I want to be and how I'm currently doing.
After setting up these goals, I think the most important thing to do is complete them! Instead of lounging around and trying to soak in more information and letting myself prepare for it, I guess it's a good thing to do this but for myself it can take a long time. I would like to snap out of it a little faster for staying focused. Therefore, it's been really important for me to preach and practice full honesty and acceptance. Without those two, it would have been difficult to gauge where I want to be and how I'm currently doing.
Mastering Self-control
I'm on like a mini-quest to improve some self-control issues. My main worry is that when I'm around nobody, I can start blurting out swear words and then immediately switch to being quiet if someone approaches me and feeling sheepish while hoping he or she didn't hear me! It's funny that I laugh about it but my thought patterns can be so random and lead me to the same memories that bring me shame. I don't cry about it, I just want to swear while feeling so much discomfort about those situations. It's been long passed obviously and maybe I killed my positive reputation already from doing those things with certain groups, but I would like to finally come to a peaceful resolution with myself and let it be something I accept without too much squirming and continuing to work hard on myself.
It could be that I gave it all I had during those moments but ended up falling short. It hurts a lot with repeating the same trend for awhile. Coming to an acceptance in this area and finding the right source of information and inspiration is probably the closest thing for separating the boundaries of success and failure. For myself, it's a constant reminder of the heartaches I went through and with time, it feels like I'm able to stay calm from unwittingly remembering those stressful moments and with anything closely related to it testing my patience.
I seriously love Nike's slogan - Just Do It. It's like waking up and feeling numb about doing the same hard routine of working out and going for it. Once it's finished, it feels great after the body went through some persevering. It's totally worth it to exercise regularly and best as you can. I think the biggest challenge is being aware of priorities and getting them sorted out with the time that's given to us everyday. It's because some of them won't be finished in one day and needs to be carried over. Along with priorities, it's great to attach them with desires to fulfill but sometimes it may not be the case and that's where it can get pretty tricky and cause laziness who suffer from disapproval.
It could be that I gave it all I had during those moments but ended up falling short. It hurts a lot with repeating the same trend for awhile. Coming to an acceptance in this area and finding the right source of information and inspiration is probably the closest thing for separating the boundaries of success and failure. For myself, it's a constant reminder of the heartaches I went through and with time, it feels like I'm able to stay calm from unwittingly remembering those stressful moments and with anything closely related to it testing my patience.
I seriously love Nike's slogan - Just Do It. It's like waking up and feeling numb about doing the same hard routine of working out and going for it. Once it's finished, it feels great after the body went through some persevering. It's totally worth it to exercise regularly and best as you can. I think the biggest challenge is being aware of priorities and getting them sorted out with the time that's given to us everyday. It's because some of them won't be finished in one day and needs to be carried over. Along with priorities, it's great to attach them with desires to fulfill but sometimes it may not be the case and that's where it can get pretty tricky and cause laziness who suffer from disapproval.
Wednesday, August 8, 2018
Proper Maintenance
With a lot of great planning and being prepared for it, a great execution of the intended procedure should follow through. To have maintenance is pretty much about creating a regime to stick with. A lot of these plans are really about what you want to do and getting around to put yourself in that position. I know a few friends who are horrible at maintaining their lives and complain about it with me. It really isn't easy because there are things out there that can supply some fun to keep yourself pre-occupied and lose track of time.
I had to get out of those things myself and still putting some work into it. It looks like for most of this year and the last, I have been soul searching while writing on this blog to find an understanding to what makes myself tick and to optimize my lifestyle for obtaining the things I want. I need to be prepared for a lot of dry hours at work here to earn an income. It's going to be like my grinding session and even in the end of all of it, it's still very rewarding to work hard at it and earn a living. I have pretty much barely enough to get by all on my own. I'm looking for adding onto it to enjoy more things and I will get myself there from all this understanding and relieving myself of past drama that really sucked and never even mattered. I choose to forgive those lame brained idiots who tried to do me wrong without my consent and went crazy with me which is one of the things I hate to deal with in people. My soul will always find rest from trusting my life to Jesus.
I had to get out of those things myself and still putting some work into it. It looks like for most of this year and the last, I have been soul searching while writing on this blog to find an understanding to what makes myself tick and to optimize my lifestyle for obtaining the things I want. I need to be prepared for a lot of dry hours at work here to earn an income. It's going to be like my grinding session and even in the end of all of it, it's still very rewarding to work hard at it and earn a living. I have pretty much barely enough to get by all on my own. I'm looking for adding onto it to enjoy more things and I will get myself there from all this understanding and relieving myself of past drama that really sucked and never even mattered. I choose to forgive those lame brained idiots who tried to do me wrong without my consent and went crazy with me which is one of the things I hate to deal with in people. My soul will always find rest from trusting my life to Jesus.
Limiting Amount of Fun
Having fun is very addictive especially when it comes to making money without having to put much effort into it. Some things are just made for people to be good at naturally and probably in most cases, it's interesting to the person and just has to be something that needs to be worked on. It then makes sense to go to a college to earn a degree and then pass an interview to go work for someone. Another route could be coming up with a brilliant idea from being fortunate and selling on it to become rich. It's awesome how it comes together for some people and inspire others to want to do the same.
It can be a good amount of fun, but there needs to be priorities involved to set some boundaries of how much time will be spent. Being a hard worker isn't such a bad thing once a person can get used to it. I'm starting to realize having a balanced life really does take quite awhile to set up and to maintain it will require some effort daily. Just how much time to spend for having fun and work is really going to be entirely up to the individual. I've always felt guilty whenever I spent too much on something fun that amounted to nothing in the end.
The biggest trick to everything is having great reading comprehension and secondly, the willpower to practice or see it through. I used to be bad at understanding textbooks and what other people wrote. It gradually became better from just wanting to practice and stay committed to it. It then becomes like second nature and the benefits that arise out of it is tremendous and too much of a blessing to want to miss out on. From being honest with everyone, I have managed to form some great relationships with beautiful people and to even sort out friends who still need to work on themselves.
It can be a good amount of fun, but there needs to be priorities involved to set some boundaries of how much time will be spent. Being a hard worker isn't such a bad thing once a person can get used to it. I'm starting to realize having a balanced life really does take quite awhile to set up and to maintain it will require some effort daily. Just how much time to spend for having fun and work is really going to be entirely up to the individual. I've always felt guilty whenever I spent too much on something fun that amounted to nothing in the end.
The biggest trick to everything is having great reading comprehension and secondly, the willpower to practice or see it through. I used to be bad at understanding textbooks and what other people wrote. It gradually became better from just wanting to practice and stay committed to it. It then becomes like second nature and the benefits that arise out of it is tremendous and too much of a blessing to want to miss out on. From being honest with everyone, I have managed to form some great relationships with beautiful people and to even sort out friends who still need to work on themselves.
Tuesday, August 7, 2018
Prioritizing Time
I'm starting to realize I have a lot of work cut out for me at this job. Currently, the system could use a lot more fixing especially with users complaining about how the old software doesn't have something. It's really nice to be able to stay busy at work. I don't have time to slack off now especially with not needing to work as hard anymore. I want to do so much with this opportunity at this job. It's beautiful that I'm learning a lot and able to apply what I know to make this software into a work of art and all by myself to make this company generate so much profit and easily!
For my personal time, I'm calculating that I need about five and a half hours a day. I remember working at one point and only getting like fifteen minutes a day to myself which was miserable and to do that for eight weeks straight! Mainly, I'm foolishly limiting my Bible reading and studying sessions to only fifteen minutes a day. I do enjoy listening to Biblical teachings from current pastors on the radio and to also tune into an awesome Bible recording. This additional time I spend from driving to work isn't something I count for my personal time. I was pretty shy about mentioning all of this to an online date I never knew had interest for me in the beginning of all time and took the step to message me. She's pretty cool and an attractive lady. We're about to take the next step, I think! I think I don't really know actually! It's going to be a lot of fun to make time for those dates and hopefully things turn out well. I'm hoping I don't slip up in my tongue or something that gets her upset and then I lose a good friend. I would like to see where this relationship will lead to. It may be enjoyable since I share a lot of her qualities.
For my personal time, I'm calculating that I need about five and a half hours a day. I remember working at one point and only getting like fifteen minutes a day to myself which was miserable and to do that for eight weeks straight! Mainly, I'm foolishly limiting my Bible reading and studying sessions to only fifteen minutes a day. I do enjoy listening to Biblical teachings from current pastors on the radio and to also tune into an awesome Bible recording. This additional time I spend from driving to work isn't something I count for my personal time. I was pretty shy about mentioning all of this to an online date I never knew had interest for me in the beginning of all time and took the step to message me. She's pretty cool and an attractive lady. We're about to take the next step, I think! I think I don't really know actually! It's going to be a lot of fun to make time for those dates and hopefully things turn out well. I'm hoping I don't slip up in my tongue or something that gets her upset and then I lose a good friend. I would like to see where this relationship will lead to. It may be enjoyable since I share a lot of her qualities.
A Social Weapon People Might Be Afraid Of
A few foolish people acted very dumb with me after going crazy with a word or sentence I tried to communicate. They were scared from being angry and thinking crazy but not able to do anything to me because I'm pretty smart! These weird and funny individuals struggle with having a peace of mind and there's no doubt about it. A lot of these issues can be resolved from obtaining enough knowledge and letting time pass. This is something I was so impatient about which was what made my relationships with these people even worse. Overall, it's all a part of us somehow and it's annoying and because I'm all over it and can be up in people's faces about it, I'm not really supported on Facebook with all of my comments that are quite normal and often times self-reliant; that's probably why I don't get likes because I don't really need it to be happy.
Boy I was so weird in the past because I was depressed about not wanting to be a leader! I was weird because I didn't want to spend any energy to control people while I was angry at them. It made me depressed to have these feelings. I wasn't born to be a selfish person, but someone who struggles to understand the weirdest people in this world. It's a depressing desire to be born with. Yet, it's funny to realize this dream and be happy to have made some progress. This was all an introduction to only like one sentence to describe my title which is my topic of interest.
I possess a tool where I can make people look bad and it arises from just being openly honest about them. The ones who have an unstable mind with me and have clashed with me might feel bummed out with me. I think it makes sense that they would fear me a little now especially with being able to sway their own crowd into thinking that maybe those individuals truly have flaws that affect personal relationships with others. In a way, I think it's a social weapon to be fearful about and out of that fear, to stay out of my way much as possible as long as I don't bother them. If I do decide to bother them now, I have enough knowledge to direct where I need it to go and have fun which is what they won't like. Again, this is all from being selfish which is better being left alone and for one to work on himself. In other words, this weapon I have is something I'm personally aware of but will want to use at a minimal amount to shift momentum into my favor and then drop immediately with the worst individuals to get in an argument with. I don't ever intend on arguing with a lady and it's a definite no-no to use this tactic on her, unless she's a crazy psychopath then maybe.
To protect yourself with this, it's important to be equipped with building or coaching the person with fine techniques. I think being honest, nice, and diligent with working on yourself is really all you need in dealing with weird idiots like I came across. Even if it's about being yourself and going on the attack, it's important to be honest and nice as possible. It took awhile to realize that these situations might not be that serious and is indeed pretty funny. Before going in for the attack, accept everything about yourself and play for the gold. I was naturally born to win at these trivial games with people anyway and it's so stupid! Play this game at a minimal amount and limit it much as possible and accept the truth. I think I won all of my trivial wars with people, except for maybe one in middle school and also with a lady I wanted to be in a relationship with; man she was so hot, but she sort of became fat. Oh well, it's the way life is sometimes.
Peace Of Mind
I'm inspired by this morning from having listened in to a talk given by a pastor named James McDonald. I was only able to listen to him for like a few minutes before zoning out, but it was refreshing to hear. He stated that to contemplate on wrong doing, it means forfeiting a peace of mind. There's a benefit to having a peace of mind especially in the field of pastoring a church. It allows you to be looked upon so honorably, no matter how bad any situation was. I ended up football tossing a Jehovah Witness Bible at a pastor who also works as a car dealer in front of his congregation. I did something really crazy and it leaves the members there feeling so concerned for their safety because of me. It's really funny to me now but I think the reason why I did that was because I was in disagreement with this pastor's interpretations of the Bible. It didn't feel relational to being built on the foundation of God's Word. He was sharing different translations of the Bible and I felt he could have been easily misled by a simple wording, instead of taking the time to study the customs and cultural context of the Bible which is so important. Overall, he doesn't feel like an ordained pastor to me and I don't belong at that church anyway- I was just trying to go there to seek relationships with the weird members there. It was very foolish of me, so I guess scaring them was the next thing to do so they would go after removing me from attending their church.
It's just a thing of the past to write about and have great laughs with now and to stay at peace with myself. I'm in a good position with also friends who care about me, so I don't need to bring it up with them to assert any opinions on it anymore. There is a foolish guy I know who is a brother to another foolish friend, who is a train wreck! He likes to constantly bring about this past conflict with the church and all the stupidity I put myself into to try to torture me, but lately, he's given up on doing that because I have a strong peace of mind. He only wants to be entertained by teasing me about stuff I'm attached to, but he's been losing a lot of ground lately with me and so it seems like he has been feeling depressed because I'm not much of a source of fun to him anymore.
All of this acceptance stuff with full honesty and being inspired by Jesus has led me to developing a peaceful state of mind. I will continue to work on myself and go after completing my priorities via administering self-discipline.
It's just a thing of the past to write about and have great laughs with now and to stay at peace with myself. I'm in a good position with also friends who care about me, so I don't need to bring it up with them to assert any opinions on it anymore. There is a foolish guy I know who is a brother to another foolish friend, who is a train wreck! He likes to constantly bring about this past conflict with the church and all the stupidity I put myself into to try to torture me, but lately, he's given up on doing that because I have a strong peace of mind. He only wants to be entertained by teasing me about stuff I'm attached to, but he's been losing a lot of ground lately with me and so it seems like he has been feeling depressed because I'm not much of a source of fun to him anymore.
All of this acceptance stuff with full honesty and being inspired by Jesus has led me to developing a peaceful state of mind. I will continue to work on myself and go after completing my priorities via administering self-discipline.
Thursday, August 2, 2018
Life Update
Getting ready to go to work today, I found out that my car needed to have its battery terminal connectors replaced. Fortunately, it doesn't look like a lengthy cost for the mechanic. I called up roadside assistance and my car was started up. After I left for work, the car shut down on the left turn lane before entering the freeway. I'm fortunate with cars being able to drive around me and being left in a suitably comfortable spot for a car to break down. It was a lot of waiting around to get a tow truck and I took it to the mechanic shop near my workplace and then headed off to work.
It doesn't really seem like a stressful day for me because all I wanted to do was go to work and clock in. This is where I'm currently at now and it's like my day has been a rush. I found out yesterday that I have more than 5,000 songs on my hard drive and I thought it was originally 3,000. I have worked my way to sorting out the songs I like from about a 1,000 so far and it's just going to take too much time for me. I will just break it down into around an hour each day then.
It's about time I put myself back into the gym after working out like only once a week. I want to be a pretty muscular triathlon athlete. Supposedly, a person needs to put in about five hours of work a week with heavy weight training to see some significant increase in muscle and to also intake a good amount of protein each day. I would like to combine triathlon workouts with weights and also include pull-ups, push-ups, sit-ups, jumps, and yoga stretches into my daily part of life.
I think my most challenging days will be Monday through Thursday and the other days will be all about taking breathers. There is this useful program called T25 by Beach Body Workout which specializes in doing a full body workout in 25 minutes and doubling it on Friday. I guess I'll just follow the program and if I skip, I'll just move to the next one for that day. Nothing wrong with skipping if you body isn't into it. Just get into it when you feel ready. I want to work out and it always feels hard but after putting in the effort, it feels great and it was only like an hour or two and from putting that much time into my body, I'm feeling much more lighter and awake and it feels great in general!
It doesn't really seem like a stressful day for me because all I wanted to do was go to work and clock in. This is where I'm currently at now and it's like my day has been a rush. I found out yesterday that I have more than 5,000 songs on my hard drive and I thought it was originally 3,000. I have worked my way to sorting out the songs I like from about a 1,000 so far and it's just going to take too much time for me. I will just break it down into around an hour each day then.
It's about time I put myself back into the gym after working out like only once a week. I want to be a pretty muscular triathlon athlete. Supposedly, a person needs to put in about five hours of work a week with heavy weight training to see some significant increase in muscle and to also intake a good amount of protein each day. I would like to combine triathlon workouts with weights and also include pull-ups, push-ups, sit-ups, jumps, and yoga stretches into my daily part of life.
I think my most challenging days will be Monday through Thursday and the other days will be all about taking breathers. There is this useful program called T25 by Beach Body Workout which specializes in doing a full body workout in 25 minutes and doubling it on Friday. I guess I'll just follow the program and if I skip, I'll just move to the next one for that day. Nothing wrong with skipping if you body isn't into it. Just get into it when you feel ready. I want to work out and it always feels hard but after putting in the effort, it feels great and it was only like an hour or two and from putting that much time into my body, I'm feeling much more lighter and awake and it feels great in general!
Wednesday, August 1, 2018
Attracting the Right Attention
I believe that the right people will act the right way as long as you are being yourself. If you commit a heinous crime then the right people won't rest until they bust you and some right people will try to have you convicted for capital punishment. I'm basically saying from this crazy example that the right people exist in both negative and positive spectrums. From being a crazy psychopath in my head while wanting to just beat up people who refused to be my friend (I guess I knew the reality of how once people are dead, you can't have fun with them anymore), I managed to stay nice while being crazy angry at all walks of life who refused to be my friend for any reason!
It now comes to my acceptance that some people are morons and can't show this common courtesy to be friends with me for whatever level of ability they have or just going through something. I see the bigger side of things now. Most of the people I'm attracted to will allow themselves to be a quiet reminder to me at the bare minimum; whereas, people I don't feel that way to even though I managed to make them my friend will quietly bow out of my life and not try to stir up too much conflict with me. It's happened even though idiots tried to get me legally in trouble for stuff they couldn't handle. I write this and can make fun of them and they still won't do anything because they want to practice ignorance! It's how if I act a certain way towards them, then they will respond. It's like the white piece moved and then the black piece reacted in a game of chess.
My game strategy for forcing upon them to tell me they can't handle me is to just ask them and move on if one of them says so. I'll be nice like that and laugh at them because it will be so fun to move on after getting them to admit something that was bugging me to know about for ten years. The right people are in place to also care about me too so I could leave those losers aside if I'm forced to deal with these crazy psychopathic feelings of wanting to tackle them and then help them back up and do it all over again and shoving it down their throats that I want to be their friend. However, they were the right people to act like dumb people anyway. With this post, it relates to my beliefs. I believe that God is in control and I can worship Jesus the Son of God wholeheartedly just from having wrote this.
It now comes to my acceptance that some people are morons and can't show this common courtesy to be friends with me for whatever level of ability they have or just going through something. I see the bigger side of things now. Most of the people I'm attracted to will allow themselves to be a quiet reminder to me at the bare minimum; whereas, people I don't feel that way to even though I managed to make them my friend will quietly bow out of my life and not try to stir up too much conflict with me. It's happened even though idiots tried to get me legally in trouble for stuff they couldn't handle. I write this and can make fun of them and they still won't do anything because they want to practice ignorance! It's how if I act a certain way towards them, then they will respond. It's like the white piece moved and then the black piece reacted in a game of chess.
My game strategy for forcing upon them to tell me they can't handle me is to just ask them and move on if one of them says so. I'll be nice like that and laugh at them because it will be so fun to move on after getting them to admit something that was bugging me to know about for ten years. The right people are in place to also care about me too so I could leave those losers aside if I'm forced to deal with these crazy psychopathic feelings of wanting to tackle them and then help them back up and do it all over again and shoving it down their throats that I want to be their friend. However, they were the right people to act like dumb people anyway. With this post, it relates to my beliefs. I believe that God is in control and I can worship Jesus the Son of God wholeheartedly just from having wrote this.
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