Reaching Goal as Fast as Possible

As of this moment, I'm doing the best I can to be awesome at my day job so that I can gain so much more job experience and take it with me to the next one if I'm forced to. 

For my side endeavors, I'm dabbling mainly in stocks and Forex. I'm slowly building upon experience with holding and trading cryptocurrency assets and playing fast-fold online Poker. These are the main things that I want to be decent enough at to diversify my good and bad days while balancing out to a net worth over a million dollars someday. I'll be happy with just that amount and then start chilling while looking for a genuinely nice lady to settle down with. 

I've made a little progress in my non-dating life. I have a confirmed soulmate friend who is a girl! She really isn't perfect and I think it really just irritates me thinking about her being with someone else, so I guess it reminds me to pick up the pace and work harder to reach my goal so that I can then place my next goal on looking for someone to settle down with. I think I'll just be constantly irritated whenever she's dating someone and I think about it until I'm with a good girlfriend! As of this moment, I'm not interested in trying to get with her but I have started to argue with her to accept the idea of dating short guys who are like me.

Reaching Personal Success Before Getting a Girlfriend

I think personal success for me is becoming a millionaire on my terms from making investments and trades. My style is about holding on as long as possible while holding profit and letting go of losses. 

I do know a friend who thought he was the best from making short term trades, but then he ended up getting burned. He believes in taking a little piece each time and being accurate about it while risking a huge load of money. This adds up to a lot of frustration ultimately. 

My style might not seem even plausible and too laughable to even try to achieve but so far, it's been working out for me and I'm staying super relaxed. It's really about being patient and going at a moderate pace for me. There's no need to let greed or too much blind confidence take over with getting rich. I've sort of passed those stages of emotions now.

Once I've reached my first million dollar net worth and have six pack abs, I'll be ready to get a girlfriend. She might not even be from my parents' ethnicity which will be disappointing to the parents and other old time thinkers but I'm obviously not going to care about eloping since I know the type of girl I really want to marry. 

Critique on Friend About Being Dating Coach

My friend is a slightly funky type of girl and wants to coach one of her friends who has dating problems. I told her good luck on working with that girlfriend. I don't really know if she will be successful with coaching her though. If she was like her sister she grew up with then I would understand but her personality issue seems to be rooted in something deeper than just forcing her to change around a few main behaviors for dating. What if she reverts back to any unwanted behavior for the guy she truly wants to be with? With this whole thing about wanting to be in a committed relationship and failing to do it with someone already with a particular guy she likes, it's like the guy might actually be a good match for her and wants long term too but there might be something about her that just hinders it. I think she could be a candidate for seeing a well-credentialed relationship therapist. I don't even know if my friend has time for studying something so intense like that. 

I honestly think her best level of starting out with some date coaching success will be working with someone hot and interested in a dating relationship but just shy about meeting people. She can then be like their professional wingwoman and make suggestions but they would have to also like them. Overall, I don't think she's totally cut out for coaching people through the more commonly difficult dating issues. 

Following Up Story About Friend Who Was Trying to Force Her Way in to Being My Date Coach

I'm going to share something since I'm starting to warm up to decent discussions about my potential dating life. My thoughts about it are becoming more detailed and pretty interesting. 

A long time ago this friend was quite a party animal and liked making herself drunk. She was more of a lightweight, if you compare her to a regular guy. Maybe she pregamed as well, but I think with just two stiff cocktails, she became so buzzed and blacked out. She hosted and threw some fun gatherings, which I'm grateful to have been part of even though it ended up having an unfortunate scuffle with a former couple. Those two were labeled by another friend as the perfect drama king and queen couple! 

Here's the juicy part. She was a lovey dovey drunk and came onto me a couple times. It was so annoying since I never will take advantage of a drunk girl to begin with. It's just not winning the right way at basically having some good and fun time! I'm still proudly holding onto my chastity like a champ and don't want it to go to waste since I'm just not ready yet to find someone to date and eventually settle down. I just don't have it made for myself yet, but I'm trying harder than ever this time.

I really don't know if she liked me a little in the past and maybe she's forgotten about it by now if she did, since I'll admit that I wasn't at least ugly for a short guy and probably a gentleman for some time before a few crazy incidents took me out of commission. I was just uptight about dating since I had to work on myself and figure it out

Giving Tip for Friend Who Tried to Force Being a Dating Coach

You can start off by being realistic and finding an actual pretty hot or cute person with a high chance of finding dating success. Start off with something easy. I'm not someone dating coaches should seriously consider coaching to begin with. I wasn't very satisfied yet to start looking for dates seriously and distracted with finding personal answers. I'm now living my life to fulfill these answers. Basically, it's a given that a guy being short generally gives him a harder time with finding someone to date. I can't respect a dating coach who can't address this aspect and this friend failed to live up to it.  

The friend is trying to coach another friend who is a girl to find a long-term relationship. I'm not sure if it's occurred to her that maybe the type her friend is dating is the reason for short term relationships. Maybe she should try out something fresh. Also appearances wouldn't matter in the long term when it comes to making daily decisions with a partner anyway. If a handsome guy or beautiful lady you are dating cheats, do the looks still matter with retaining your trust? Why be so close-minded to begin with? 

This is all starting to make sense. 

Updating New Method of Trading Forex

I'm going to just keep it simple with how I trade this time around by looking at the monthly and daily chart, while making an entry on the 4-hour chart. This seems to be making the most sense to me. I'm noticing that with how the monthly chart forms with its candlesticks, the daily chart will show the market following in that same direction in the long term. This practically means to me making reliable money! 

My plan of attack is treating the Forex market like I'm treating them as long-term stocks. I really do like playing it this way, so I'll see how it goes from here on out for the next few months with this same simple strategy. 

Merry Christmas

I've grown up around tradition and I've bought into the Christian faith. There are plenty of people out there who don't want to abide by religious beliefs. I guess I sort of get it now too. It's just so wrong to try to force people to believe something that they aren't ready to receive nor can't perceive. 

I was such an annoying person even to my old and crazy stupid peers who turned into a bunch of failures with leading a highly successful life at the top level. I mean who really gets there, right? For sure, they didn't, which I can write down with a sign of relief! 

I'm someone who is motivated and very confident about reaching his end-game level and then going beyond with just a constant barrage of high-level enthusiasm filled with positive energy and great attitude while sharing a wonderful life with a good woman. 

Honestly, I don't really care about looks anymore. Just don't be a partner who turns too fat and lazy with me. I will be such a mess to deal with from trying to always force that person to improve her health condition. Whatever physically good things I'm feeling with some women, it can still work on all body types and it gets accentuated from just getting to know her nice self. 

It turns out that even my soulmate isn't that wonderful of a person and can be a little ignorant, even though she is still amazing to me, so it won't be too hard for me now to find an interested lady who will exceed her by just a hair. 

Happy Christmas Eve

What's pretty crazy is that I'm writing this post on September 15 of this year. It's just interesting how I'm running these posts. I'm well ahead of my goal of averaging just one post per day on this blog site. 

I've managed to do it fairly well for the most part for almost the past ten years. It's something to be expected of me now, and this is really all for nothing. I thought I freaked out a few people while I was dealing with some emotional problems but I've worked on it over all these years and now I'm happy with a ton of confidence underneath me. 

Physical appearances on a woman really don't matter to me period! I'm really into an acquaintance right now because of her sweet demeanor. I'm one of those kinds of guys. 

For example, a friend told me that I'm like a brother to her and that she wouldn't ever think of dating me. I messaged her a few days later that I was never interested in her anyway and didn't know why she brought that up with me. She felt like I was picking on her! Wow, she better watch out what she says to me in person. I've learned that I'm really sensitive about being called like a brother by a girl except for my actual sister, so I better tell her that before she gets around to hearing how I never was going to ask her out anyway! 

Making Progress

So looking back on the progress I've been making with myself so far, I never did really appreciate a friend demanding to be my dating coach! I mainly had issues with lack of self-confidence and nobody not even those dumb annoying folks who claimed to know more than they thought about me was of any good help to me. Typically, I just need factual information and as a guy who naturally uses the scientific method, I can run personal hypotheses with tests and personally come up with analyzed conclusions that are always subject to change. To explain how it worked practically for me, I just went to a professional researcher's free presentation on neuroscience and then that changed my life around! 

Even though it might feel a little cringy to me at first glance while receiving feedback from a friend sometimes while I know I can't see her facial expressions, I really do appreciate her taking some interest to comment and ask me questions even if I sort of feel like she is still rubbing me the wrong way a little. It's a test of personal strength utilizing anger management! In a way since she is already taken, I can see her like an older sister that I never had while growing up! If she wasn't then, I would want to say to her like most girls that she isn't my type. I don't like mentioning this to most girls when they say I'm like a brother to them. It's because I'm giving off a negative. If I think there's potential with someone like the one who switches back and forth with how I'm like a brother and then later she goes "I love you" then I think I will be happy to tell her she isn't perfect and that I can still date other ladies. She's still quite a special friend to me though! 

Getting Things in Order

I think the reason for maintaining a To-Do list for me is just to see with my eyes the list I have set in place for me. It's like a starting point for me because I have a bunch of distractions lined up to take me off course at any given moment. 

The art of time management is to be fully invested on the important tasks and prioritize them in order of time sensitivity. I prefer to get things out of the way first that can be done quickly that are important and stand out.

Staying Fully Invested

I think my secret and internally intangible sauce comes from just thinking fully invested while putting it on auto-pilot instinctually. 

From what I'm feeling, it looks like my friendship with this one lady is blossoming more beautifully and emotionally it's better than awesome when things are going good. I don't know, but maybe I've found my future romantic partner. She isn't perfect by any means, neither is she the ideal body type I look for in ladies normally but there's just something really special about her to me. I guess I'm more mentally checked in with her than I was with being zoned out in the past. 

Understanding How to Be Da Bomb

I've managed to write a pretty good song for use on the piano and it also includes original lyrics. It took me a pretty good three years to just get the gist of the whole composition. It's a sad song about breakups but has a very positive tune to it. Yesterday, I played it for a girlfriend. 

Our future status is pretty wild and unknown. It's fun and I like it that way! She's been such a sweetheart with me and I always enjoy respecting her space. I'm making subtle moves on her whenever I feel like it and it's just for fun. She's also dating other people and hasn't felt committed to someone yet understandably. Anyhow, I'm taking her dating tips and suggestions very seriously whenever she shares them. It's important for me to put them into use right away for her primarily and keep it in mind whenever I try to seriously date another lady. She's been such a cool find for me! She says that I've practically gained many qualities over the years to be her type. 

Getting to my main lesson of the day (TA-DA!!!) , the song I made by myself and can proudly state is like a favorite child of mine came out to be pretty good. However, when I tried singing Backstreet Boys with a seasoned singer at a small TV studio yesterday, boy, I was so terrible and out of tune. Yet, the audience and singer were super sweet with me. 

I've learned something very valuable. In order to turn into someone good at something, you should be fully invested in it like how I was with developing my song.  

Finally Killed It

I think I finally killed it. The saying goes that you can only understand life from having past experiences but you can't live backwards. 

This is what I wrote to those dumb people and this is likely my final message that they will never be able to confirm with me:

The secret to being in harmony with me and also applies to others is knowing your spiritual gifts. What all of you guys tried to do with me is not a demonstration of your spiritual gifts. It was more of trying to force your opinions or advice on me that was never invited by me. I disagreed and you guys became too negative. 

Maybe identifying one of your weaknesses as not being that patient because there's really no length of time that should be involved and not in self-control while angry about not being left alone which all of you guys deserve to have placed upon you for having been stupid with me is a good place to start! 

What I Think It's About

Nowadays, I think it's all about having a ton of self-confidence with a positive attitude and working hard while concentrating as best as possible daily to reach your main goals! The key is to be consistent while committing to something that just interests you so you can stay motivated. 

I'm really not all that into being recognized and don't really mind the world never setting its attention on me. I'll just keep doing the best I can while continuing to grow as a person. I really enjoy doing this and still feel like a fresh person with this type of mindset. 

Continually Making Progress

My next line of interest after doing stocks and Forex trades is working with cryptocurrency coins. I'm looking to diversify my side business with low starting amounts and looking to let that ROI grow into an extravagant rate while moving fast and being able to repeat all of this as much as possible. I also want to keep all of this convenient without having to stare at the screen all day. I prefer managing all of it just once a day ideally, unless I'm trying to figure out something. This is what I'm mostly doing to begin with. 

I'm not entirely worried about going broke, since I have my limits already capped. 

My financial expenses are still in order with bills getting paid. I plan to keep it this way while working on this whole side business. Lastly, I'm back in business with learning to master some recreational and fast-fold online Poker. 

Gaining New Forex Creativity

I'm starting to understand that there's really no perfect system, but from tracing the current indicators I have, I might have put together something really powerful for myself. From reading up on past strategies that were hard to comprehend, I just made sense out of it with what I have and it's finally aligning up with telling a believable story. 

The idea is to buy low and sell high. This is pretty much the main idea and using trend lines to create a channel pretty much helps. I've found some likable indicators to make the filtering process smoother with analyzing potential trades, but for the most part I think I almost have a complete system that I can faithfully stick close to. The process of how I'm trading seems to be lining so well with the market's direction. It just totally makes sense. 

Updating Forex Trading Strategy

It looks like I'm back to another losing month where I'm trying to make sense out of my indicators and getting it to work conveniently for me like an artform. For me, the story goes like this. I want to first know the directional bias of the market for the week. The indicator I'm using is a simple oscillator that shows me up or down at any moment.

Next, I want to check if the price for today is at a favorable level to make a trade or is pointing in the same direction. I'm using a trend level indicator and/or the same indicator from the weekly. 

My last check is on a subset of the daily chart from breaking it down to 4-hour movements and looking at practically the same thing as I did with the daily. 

What I have going is based on how the week is doing and deciding if today is a good time to get in with set parameters, get out early, or switch directions. 

What I'm Noticing

I think the main things to do well in life are to basically put in the effort to consistently concentrate while knowing what you want to do and staying positive with a ton of confidence. It can be hard sometimes or maybe you will want to get lazy from feeling worn out. This is probably where the mental health concerns can come into play. It requires a ton of dedication to basically set your mind on something that appeals to you. It can really be just unexplained feelings of negativity and feeling worn out while pushing through, but it can be lived through from thinking positive thoughts and having confidence no matter what and just pushing yourself to the limit on a daily basis. 

What matters in the end result is that you're happy with what you are doing. 

Main Things

I think it really comes down to having confidence and building chemistry with the girl a guy wants to be with. Obviously, it gets a lot easier if both are each other's type. My type is simple. She has to be a very nice person and someone who I want to always get intimate with! 

I've learned something new that I should apply. If any lady, even if she's a friend, says that I'm like a brother to her, I can just say something along the lines of how I'm still busy working on reaching my goals and/or she isn't perfect while agreeing that I could be dating someone else. If I don't really like her after thinking about it in that way, then I can just tell her that she isn't my type and apologize to her about it while laughing. 

The past in dealing with others who turned crazy with me is ironically centered around the subject just being all about me. I accept it with a lot of positivity now and some hidden feel-good laughter. 

Balancing Time Management With Personal Principles

I think establishing a predefined set of actions with common decision-time situations will really help move things along more efficiently. This can help identify some wasteful activities from binging carelessly on some mental or physical cravings. There are also a bunch of in-betweens that can happen too and leave one without much resolve. 

I think it's really about just giving it your best every time and looking around the best way you know for solutions while staying positive about all of it! 

What I'm reminded of is that it's like putting yourself at the starting line and then going for a long run while self-managing and focusing on everything you can about yourself. 

Staying Committed With Self-discipline

This isn't anything old, but now I figure that in order to reach personal goals and especially those hard ones then it's going to require some consistency with putting in the effort, while setting aside the smaller things. It doesn't necessarily have to feel good sometimes unless you're lucky maybe but it's really about being committed to some sort of lifestyle. 

I do have some clear goals now, and I've gone through so many ups and downs that they are still the same after being tested for several years. I can now put those concerns of having a lack of direction aside and focus on the actual meat. 

This is very valuable and might as well treat it with taking care of the most important and mandatory or time-sensitive things first before giving in to other things to keep yourself balanced. I think this is the very essence of time management.

Feeling Willful Duty

I believe in my heart that it's my duty to remind the others from my past of how stupid they were with me! 

I couldn't tell what they were up to back then and I was really struggling to find my own personal ground from lacking so much confidence. I felt like I was being walked all over by them when I would persist in talking about what they were doing to me. I wanted to be nice by just nudging at them to remind them about being a bunch of jerks. They were so focused in that crazy zone to even take notice of themselves. 

Overall though, they failed to do whatever bad they were trying to do to me. They totally had it all wrong with trying to force their own help on me negatively. I never asked for their help and neither did I let it get to me so much that I put myself in any trouble. They couldn't handle me talking about myself and the subject was me which they claimed to know more by acting in a crazy manner because I disagreed with them and went for discussion. 

I'm totally on par or better with my optimal state so I'm ready to take on this duty to just let them know and advise them not to be like that with anyone or themselves when they are so angry about anything. Let's make this world a better place to live in for others who are shy to have less reason to be scared. I have been one of them, but broke out of my shell.  . 

Working Hard to Make Some Money

I'm figuring out based on my personal principles that it makes sense for me to take the long term and easy approach. I don't really want to spend my time researching anything and just use a systematic format that's just laid out conveniently for me. I don't want to limit myself in what I can invest, too. 

This is why with the funds I currently have, it makes the most sense for me to invest in stocks and trade in both Forex and cryptocurrency. With all of these, it's easy to put in any amount that you want to risk. I have been doing a little bit of options, but find that it's not that favorable for me because I don't have enough funds to risk it and the price of entry does get too high for me right now. I'm going to have to wait to build up my portfolio with the others first. This way, I'm going to have experience with the foundation in case I have to start over. I hope it never comes to that though because it's probably going to take many years for me to get there. I don't really mind though.  

It's just four things for me to build my wealth. My last one is software engineering. 

Asserting Something About Myself

From what I've learned about my preferences while having e-mail discussions, I think it sucks to hear regular people's thoughts about personal relationship topics! I never ask for it and a few have tried to impart their flawed wisdom on me. This is how Crazy Lee came barging into my life! It's a pet peeve of mine and something that I'm going to have to minimize experiencing by keeping my feelings to myself moving forward. 

I don't see my future S.O. as a regular person but someone super special! I have been learning that being completely honest about it with others when I'm confronted has been working well for me on maintaining relationships.

Understanding a Friend's Lack of Potential

Looking back, a high school friend of mine is really quite an idiot. He likes to be a show-off and feel like he's on top of the world one day if something happens and relive the most memorable ones, after it passes even if his life is sinking deeper into depression!

I can accept it while laughing at him and telling him straight up but I still need to put some work on myself so he won't be able to make any comeback statements that end up irritating me. For this reason, I'm not hanging out with him anymore but I'll be back once I have that in order. It's been a year already and might stretch out into several. I guess it's good to avoid his negativity and work on my main goals while being comfortable spending my time with some great friends instead. I just don't need anything from him anymore!

For the most part, I have four points about him that I will be sharing once I have my main goals in order:

1. He thinks working to make money on his own and then owning his own place is very hard. He claims that he knows everything, but this shows he doesn't.

2. He thinks he's a little better than everyone overall. There are people who have gone all the way from the bottom to the top. He's not better than these people.

3. Once I reach my main goals of being a millionaire with a nice home, six pack, good wife with possibly kids, and living much more happily; all of this is just a plain average life to me. He is below average.

4. It makes sense that he has come to accept his own depression. He deserves to be where he's at in life and to stay there. 

Basing It Off Personal Principle

In order to maximize reaching my main goal, I have realized a basic principle for myself. I want to get there in the smoothest way possible. This means that I'm setting aside my dating life and maximizing personal gain to the best of my ability. 

Poker is a pretty fun game to play with others and to try to master even with little money involved, but I don't want to get serious about making it a profession to reach my personal goal of becoming a millionaire. The reason for this is that I want to always put in the time for positive gain and how some Poker sessions can turn out to become a losing one. Even the best Poker players in the world have bad outings once in a blue moon and are televised for our entertainment!  

Playing online Poker to gain only play chips which I'm doing is enjoyable because none of my money is being put at risk. I'm even a high rolling billionaire in the Play Poker app I'm using! 

The unique situation I have going with investing in stocks while trading in Forex and cryptocurrency is that I don't need to put that much time into monitoring it while I can do something else. If my portfolio is losing one day, then I can just wait for it to turn around or just exit some positions. My money is being put at work to gain passive income and the associated risks don't really outweigh the benefits of enjoying my free time at any given moment. 

In contrast, for the very same reason of how my principle is to not put in work for a losing session, I'm not meant to be a traditional business owner because I don't want to put my money at risk like I'm doing with playing online Poker. However, investing in stocks and swing trading as a business is affording me a lifestyle that I have preference for. It's just different in that I can put in some negligible time into it, in order to build wealth. 

For my day job, I'm going to stick with software engineering because I enjoy it. It's a positive activity with learning because the more I know, the more I'll be putting myself in a good position to start off my own successful line of software products and working in a cushy job. 

To start off with building my wealth, I'm going to stick to only four things: stocks, Forex, cryptocurrency, and software engineering. 

Balancing Things Out

Maintaining my main goal in a sense does cause me to have a more balanced and cleaner life. I want to be a millionaire with six-pack abs! It's not really for all the social status as it would probably not even be enough for that. I just want liberty from having worked hard for financial independence and having free time to enjoy the great outdoors while being healthy. 

I think I have barely enough talent to make that happen for me. The rest of it is going to be putting in so much hard work. 

Let's Get Rich

Learning how to get rich will probably take a while to figure out because you will have to know what you are truly interested in. Exploring your options while going through some ups and downs is so worth it. It's just better to maintain a ton of positivity and keep it consistent once you are settled in.

For myself, I want to be less of a hands-on kind of person and spend a lot more time doing other things instead while investing or trading. This is why I enjoy long-term holds or swing trading. I don't want to be constantly staring at a computer screen while chasing after a target or figuring out when I should make an early exit. 

I've settled with hiring some help and am pretty happy with my setup. I have entrusted a conservative investing group for research and another for simple software tools to make managing my portfolios daily so much convenient. I probably average just thirty minutes a day at most now to build my portfolios. 

Something that could take me a little longer than an hour is playing fast-fold online Poker for money. I'm looking to double up or bust before calling it a day. I have a strategy that works fairly well and is starting to close in with consistent gains. 

Overall, I have five things right now to build my wealth. I plan to diversify with more once I have a high enough portfolio value. They are software engineering, Forex, stocks, cryptocurrency, and fast-fold online Poker. 

Getting Better at Making Money

I think the main thing is pretty much knowing what to look for and being comfortable with the money that's being put at risk. It's probably good to get your feet wet and read up on your sources and if it makes sense then just go along with it. 

I'm really looking forward to the day that I won't really have to work anymore and just be home while collecting wealth off of an early retirement and living comfortably in a good home while married to a nice, attractive lady. It seems like the best dream goal to go after for me. 

For a personal update on trading Forex, I'm implementing a multi-chart system and it seems to be working well so far with signaling a decent amount of profitable trades. I'm still fine tuning it but feel like I can only keep on getting better with it. I have made the Weekly to be looking for my main trend, the Daily to be matching the weekly trend, along with an oscillator that follows price action and is on the upper half of the price channel; and lastly, for the 4-hour chart to be on its upper half of the price channel. Something new I plan to add is that if the Daily trend is showing uncertainty then I will be looking at the 4-hour chart for confirmation. 

All this can't be explained without leaving out a video or chart but I'm not in the mood really to be fully sharing this system. I think I've given enough hints for anyone interested to start out with making their own trading system which will probably end up being entirely different from mine as well!

I'm going to be getting into cryptocurrency trades now as well. Online fast-fold Poker is something I look to be playing for profit as well. 

Reaching the Top Potential

I think in order to get there, you really have to be able to take on the labor intensive requirements while adjusting yourself on the go naturally. You have to start thinking about how you can utilize some things that interest you while letting yourself be educated by smart people! The way I like to learn right now, which is not too much different from the past, is doing it on my own. 

Looking back now, I don't think I ever needed to go to school and could have dropped out, but I lacked direction and had virtually no self-confidence and motivation from being mind-locked and eventually numb about my concerns with the future. I pretty much came up with a simple goal and did enough to barely graduate a 4-year college, despite not performing at my highest level while being a young college student. 

My worries used to be on things that didn't relate to school, like I wanted to do well on all my friendships, even the bad ones. I assumed in the beginning that everyone was good and equally trustworthy, so the ones who were friendly with me were okay to be around. It was only wishful thinking, now that I'm fairly disillusioned about it.  

Trying Hard to Gain Rewards

With the basics that I know so far and works for me, it's mainly about keeping a positive mindset while trying to stay focused and working so hard in a steady fashion. It's not easy to maintain this because the mind, body, and soul will naturally want to rust and place itself in a happier and less stressful environment sometimes. 

I think this is why always maintaining a high level of confidence with a positive attitude is so crucial to keep your main goals alive. It's really just a matter of doing it consistently and should start feeling better once you start experiencing more success from constantly practicing in something. 

Eliminating negative distractions really do help and it's also something that's tough to recognize for yourself. I realize now that I lucked out by doing it naturally for myself for some time. 

Staying True to Main Focus

Right now, I really want to work on reaching my main goals before finding a good lady to settle down with. Being simple minded, I possibly have in mind a couple girls already who I get along with if they end up staying single. I'm not too sure it will stay that way though, but still, I'm not worried at the very least about getting married late in my life. I already know my type of girl is bountiful in this world and that there will be plenty more to pursue if I ever get turned down.

I'm really enjoying what I'm going after right now. It's not the most difficult thing in the world either from being relaxed about the help I've decided to hire. I'm starting to connect the dots I want while feeling the confidence without having any qualms about working so hard. 

Relating to Something Interesting

It's probably a great thing to live life without having any regrets. Sometimes things happen from not getting timely information or not being dealt a good hand. In those situations, you just have to embrace it and do your best to work around it or just reset.

Something positive that I've learned from an inspiring quote is that anything isn't really a waste of time if you enjoy it, no matter how big or small it feels to you. I enjoy working on relationships, even the bad ones. I think I can end up making all of them look bad and project that image onto others who are near. It sort of makes sense to me that they would feel like they have nothing good anymore to add and how I naturally just like to pay attention to certain details while interacting with people whether it's good or bad and then bring it up right away to them whenever I feel it's necessary or appropriate. In other words, I've become absolutely capable of quieting annoying dissenters who claim they know more than me when it comes to relationships! I haven't ever been asking them for that kind of advice anyway. 

Making Plans to Get Rich

My personal goal is something I'm focusing on right now like a mission. I want to be financially settled in before dialing in with trying to settle down with a beautiful and nice lady. I will be keeping up with my goal to get a six pack as well too, along with working on my arms for more toned muscle. 

I have stocks, options trading, Forex trades, fast-fold Poker, cryptocurrency, and developing apps at my disposal for gaining financial independence and plenty of free time. This is what I want to work hard for from knowing God has something good for me out there upon reaching it! I feel like I can't wait for it underneath and have so much excitement. Let's get this done. 

Things I'm Working on

I think I've really figured out my type of girl that I'm really looking forward to marrying someday. The main thing is that I want her to have a nice personality and have enough to make me want to get intimate with her regularly. I can't find any other honest way of saying it properly!  I'm not really going to stay disappointed either if I get turned down for any reason. I believe there's already enough out there to try pursuing. Overall, I think this is just natural and comes from God. 

One of the Christian girls I used to write to ended up sounding weird with me. She said that we're going to be leaving this Earth anyway so it doesn't matter what we accomplish in the end. What she learned was probably just a hyperbole supported by a Bible verse but instead, God still has His plan for us while we are living in this world. It's already been said that all things work according to His goodness. It could be a coincidence but I think deep down inside she's been associating herself around ignorant believers with negative energy. I probably made her feel really dumb and offended with my response, which I intended as a joke because I was always trying to get her to laugh and she never showed any signs of doing that while I was trying to bug her with messages. She wasn't ever able to get me in trouble either and prefers shutting herself off right now.

   

I like to think outside the box and be successful with it, but it isn't easy to come by often. I think my main goals may really be in line with the Lord's plans since the Bible also talks about them without mentioning them to be sins. It's also naturally who I am as a person, as I am living my life based on the level of faith I have in Jesus. 

Update With Making Investments

Nowadays, I'm adjusting to my plan of getting rich while using the tools I currently have. I'm about taking a conservative approach with trading high volatile markets. Most of my investments are in stocks though, since it has been my most stable long term portfolio. I want to increase my ROI so I've sold some shares that I'm uncomfortable with and will transfer them into mostly crypto. I do have a system in mind that I will likely be following. 

The biggest thing that I've been uncomfortable about investing in crypto is the high tax rate that the IRS looks to impose on those traders. I plan to suck it up and pay my dues. I prefer being financially well-off rather than being fearful about high income tax that I'm totally against paying. I can find clever means later to do tax write-offs like the rich people do anyways, if things end up going my way. 

While doing options, I'm now open to calling puts and also selling covered calls later on when my stock portfolio gets to be big enough. I don't intend to risk more than 1-1.5% of my portfolio for speculated trades while gunning for huge profit. This way I get to take advantage of my highly diversified portfolio and have exposure to all the markets that are out there. 

Making Progress

I might honestly have stumbled upon a money making trading system that really suits me. The main idea is really simple- it's buy low and sell high. It's from testing out different ideas over the years that I'm just putting it all together that works best for me. We will see if this works out in the next three months. I think I'm really onto something that might always work consistently now. This can make it my secret million dollar trading system that I've been looking for all this time. 

Overall, I'm really happy to be doing things that I'm interested in and learning new things. I want to keep on getting better at being efficient while putting in the work. Basically, my money makers on the side are going to be for now investing in stocks, cryptocurrency, and options, playing online fast-fold Poker, trading Forex, and developing apps. I really have a deep interest in doing well at all of these things and would like to make myself into a millionaire. 

I plan to also get into investing in bonds, precious metals, and real estate as my wealth accumulates. It looks like I have a really satisfying direction to make myself financially independent for the rest of my life and will be obtaining an ability to pass this off to my posterity. 

This Can Happen to Normal People

I do a lot of self-analysis so I'm figuring out that people berating me over the little stuff gets me mad and then I do something I think is funny and creative to them to get it out of my system. It gets on the nerves of those who discontinued communicating with me. I was never that bad because they can't get me in trouble with the things I say to them while I can with them but those people have negative energy that they should get some mental help to exercise self-control or relieve some anger issues. 

So for example, Michelle got all scared from not understanding the situation. It was between only Washington and me and had nothing to do with her. I was asking her if she could get involved to help out with my vendetta against Washington. I just did it with the intent of getting even with Washington and just needed Michelle to talk to him about it to feel relieved of the situation. I also wrote in an obvious sentence that I wasn't going to bring it up ever and let it go if she said no but she ended up turning weird and dramatic while not being able to drop it. That's why she can't get me in trouble and blocked communication with me while complaining I was a scary 5 feet 3 inch man! I was filled with so much anger from calling it B.S. under my skin. She was just filled with negative energy from maybe like going through her girl cycle? I don't really know, but it's not important for me to ask her about it now. 

It's Really All in the Attitude

What I'm noticing for myself is that having a positive disposition in life helps a lot with personal confidence. I think a friend who I haven't spoken to in a while thinks he's always a little better than everyone else so ends up acting reckless with pursuing his dreams. What makes it even harder to relate to him is that he's also very shy about making a move on girls even though there's really nothing physically wrong with him. He talks about how he doesn't want to raise any kids, but wants to be with his soulmate at the same time. This type of negativity has been irritating me for some time. He isn't mentally fit enough for me anymore to be one of my closest confidants even though I've known him the longest from high school. 

For myself, I have tried and realized that in the online dating pool, my dating profile just doesn't interest the ladies I want to try being with in general. Studying the numbers, it has added up for me. 

Single ladies in general are insecure about dating short guys. There are only a handful in this world who are very secure about themselves and don't mind dating short men. From my experience though, I have some luck with dating mainly girls around my equal height. They don't seem to mind staring into my handsome face most of the time! I can't reach these girls online either, since I know they are already in demand with normal guys. I have to physically meet them in person to make the attraction count. This isn't really my preference most of the time, but I can also have dates with ladies who are slightly taller than me because I do have enough manly features. I just need to muster plenty of confidence and like them enough already before I try asking them out. 

Keeping Up With Energetic Focus

I'm gradually realizing my hopes and dreams a lot better, along with understanding true confidence. Ideally, nothing should bother someone and occasionally despite the disadvantages; you just have to find a smarter way around it while working harder than people normally would. It's just the way it is with working your way to get to the top and reaching a nice satisfaction point. 

I think with everything I have going so far, I'm only meant to be a one-hit wonder when it comes to getting people interested in me. I want to bank off of it by using any talent to make a popular app. I have reasons to keep on learning to be a better software engineer. 

In addition to being fun, I want to increase my wealth by perfecting my craft in trading and investing. I look forward to the day that everything comes together and I get to finally reach my ultimate goal. 

Applying Good Qualities for Obtaining Long Term Success

I'm having so much fun trying to get to my main life goal right now which is becoming a millionaire with a six-pack. It is really sad to notice a few individuals out there who look out of it and have nowhere to go in life. Whatever led them there, I can only hope that they can find the right souls or inspiration to keep on existing at least sufficiently in this world. 

I know what it's like to be suffering from not having any job that you can be happy with and also struggling with self-confidence issues. Still, I put myself through the grinder and it's from just seeking for answers out there while also being blessed in my faith of the Lord Jesus Christ that I've managed to come along and find inspiration to keep on perspiring with my purely good motives. 

The things I've identified for myself that will result in reaching my ultimate personal goal are positivity, confidence, patience, consistency, and hard work.

Working on Decent Hustles

For this post, I'm going to be using some jargon to mainly keep myself accountable. It's pretty interesting in that I feel that I am holding myself accountable by being honest about myself and doing all the emotional dumping that I have to do on this blog site and get away with it! This style of posting is really about never accepting any responses. It's mainly just plugging in regular content and then getting something or few people to visit this site daily, besides myself!

In general, a lot of these things are my side hustle besides my main job. I'm embracing my role now.

My main form of profession is software engineering with an emphasis on developing software. I'm happy to have found something that I'm decent at and enjoy doing to make a living. I'm going into mobile app development on the side and want to put something on the market based on being inspired. 

For investing in stocks and options, I'm relying on a conservative group for guidance and will be sticking with them for as long as they can keep the fire burning. I'm saving up my money and putting in at least $1000 each month into investments. It's just a matter of time before it compounds and makes me a healthy chunk of change!

My next level of investments belong on the riskier side. They deal with trades in Forex and cryptocurrency.

I'm making Forex trades on a 4-hour chart that I feel comfortable with after examining the monthly chart for each currency pair. This is now my new style that I'm experimenting with. 

For cryptocurrency, I'm only interested in holding Bitcoin for the long term so I'm trying to rely on my Forex indicators to give me a decent entry point. 

Lastly, I'm playing fast-fold online Poker at low-stakes buy-ins and it does have it's great moments without having to spend so much time at it. 

I've only been at all of these things for less than a year now. I'm always looking to raise my ROI so that I can obtain my goal faster. 

Current Happy Distractions

Besides wanting to be in a seriously intimate and fun relationship with a fine lady, I'm currently having fun with mainly two of my homegirls and enjoy trying to become a millionaire with a six-pack! These are serving to be a really fun distraction for me besides finding someone to settle down with right now. I'm in no hurry to get married from not wanting to be tied down to anyone I could end up losing interest for. Well, I can be starting to feel the hots for one of my homegirls who I've hung out with regularly while doing fun outdoor things. She can even sort of have trouble keeping up with me! She is older than me by a couple years and has been single for only little more than a year, but I at least feel that we could really be like soulmate buddies. 

I've had a few other opportunities as well already, but I just didn't feel ready for it at the time. 

For the time being, I honestly feel great and happy with myself underneath. I really want to focus on building my wealth and get to a beach body to challenge myself and reach a level of personal fitness to signify good health and provide me plenty of energy to enjoy different outdoor activities.

Spending Lots of Time on Important Things

It looks like I'm finding my personal direction that satisfies me. For the most part, the biggest thing for me is my faith in Christ. It's true though that this world is fleeting away like that one ignorant Christian lady messaged me while looking like she was all over the place and implying that my goals don't matter. I came up with a counter, which was absolutely honest on my end and told her that my goals are about being happy in the Lord and have nothing to do with being worldly. She doesn't truly get it and then I practically told her to shut up next in a nice way while meaning it as a joke. I think she doesn't see herself as equipped enough, so she wants to let anything I want to say go now. 

To keep the conversation alive longer, I could have pointed out the flaws in her assessment but I just felt like joking around with her. This could have upset her as well while making her feel dumb at the same time, so in the end, she's taken the unhealthy decision of running away or staying frozen there like a lame duck. I really shouldn't mind that much about it, but at least I think we both know that I will always have the upper hand. 

I'm pretty much a winner because of my artform. It's a passionate expression of how I'm responding to something crude that was done towards me and not minding on staying friends while taking some precautions with them and advising them to stay positive. It's a form that requires the person to be very direct and honest about himself and may involve telling them what's wrong and what they could do to make an improvement and telling them to stay positive. The last line is to keep on saying what I want from them while saying it like I don't care how they are acting even if it makes me react badly towards them and that I will stay friends and to let others know I said it. It's basically leaning in for a one-sided conflict that favors me more while always being truly honest about it at the same time. I'm ready to use it for the sake of wanting to inspire a better future for anyone who observes me doing this whenever I feel this way, no matter how big or small the situation is; I will still give it my all. 

Fun to Imagine Interpersonal Battles

The approach I'm going to be using is direct verbal contact instead of anything physical. I'm going to be just straight-forward and pick apart my opponents while telling them I don't care what they put me through and that I'll still be their friend in the end. I strongly believe that it's a winning artform in verbal sparring. I might enjoy some colorful choice of words and occasionally raising the voice, but other than that the most essential part of my art is that I will stay a friend while being careful about detecting my opponent's stupidity and not being keen on taking any of their advice. I will also be making a lot of honest comparisons between us that favor me more, of course!

In the end, I'm looking to make these continuously entertaining confrontations and inspire others to always interact nicely with each other and positively to make the world a better place. I'm doing this only for honor like a knight would and always has a big place in my heart. 

Personal Endeavor to Making Money on the Side

First of all, I'm not really doing this for the sake of being richer than anyone. It's really just a personal goal that I realize is something I should have done years ago. I want to play catch up in this area before making myself available to marry any lady I fall in love with. It's also possible that I may be hanging out with my actual soulmate right now regularly. 

My main purpose of investing is to save up money and create wealth for myself while looking to do it in the long term. I'm not really into day trading that much as it takes away too much of my time. I prefer just spending a few minutes each day managing my trades and then going on with my life.   

The current things I'm looking to invest in are stocks and call options once a day; secondly, managing Forex trades once in the morning and late afternoon; thirdly, playing some fast fold online Poker daily; fourthly, adding some Bitcoin investment on a dip at the end of the day weekly; lastly, working on a fun mobile app to sell and make some money with! 

I'll be happy with just becoming a millionaire as soon as possible and then living a much freer life. I'm really happy underneath with pursuing this dream life while being a positive and confident person who believes in Christ as his Savior.  

Current Ways With Making Money

One of the biggest things that should be taken into consideration is creating a stop loss when it comes to making any investment in stocks. This should also be applied while trading the Forex market as well. 

I'm currently doing stocks, options, cryptocurrency, and Forex. Forex is still a work in progress, but I just can't wait for everything to start coming together and start making enough. I only see money as a tool that I wish to acquire for my own personal usage. I want to have freedom besides relying on someone else's money. Another really fast hustle that I'm getting into is playing rapid fold Poker tables online for money. My stop loss for Poker games is losing two buy-ins per day. In a matter of up to two hours, I can double my buy-in or lose it. I seem to be doing fine at it, but will have to wait and see how the stiffer competition will act towards me. 

As I gain enough profit, I will be looking to exchange a little in for some more services I'm interested in. This way I keep on making progress with adding things onto a winning trading portfolio. 

Reason for Working Hard

I think my main reason for working hard is to just make enough money so that I can have more free time to do other things that interest me. Also, I will have a greater degree of freedom with gifting others after putting in all the labor I enjoyed. It's pretty straight-forward like that. Getting here mainly takes putting in a lot of time and hard work into it. It's a lot easier to do if there's some positive association to it like enjoyment and passionate pursuit. 

I'm just glad to be doing all I can these days while learning to manage my time. I'm not so lightly carried away anymore and making myself feel bad about having neglected a chore. It's really just a matter of committing yourself to something you need or want to do. Maybe, there's a craving to do something else during other moments but I'm not feeling like dying anymore from letting off of them. 

Making Money

I'm starting to figure that I really enjoy making money with long term investments. I don't mind just sitting there and letting a handsome return come back to me at a later date. Trying to gun for short-term profits isn't really cutting it for me. I probably need at least a few months in the stock market for me to be satisfied with any good returns. 

For the Forex market, it is really volatile and I have only managed to cut back on significantly decreasing the amount I'm losing each month while actively trading in it. It's acting slightly worse than a coin flip. I'm still going at it trying to come up with a reliable method that will let all my trades last a few days and average out to a good monthly profit. It's coming along though and won't be giving up any soon.

For the cryptocurrency market, I plan to just invest a miniscule amount into Bitcoin since I'm not comfortable having most of my money in it. I figure with that much high-growth potential and volatility at the same time, if I win big than the small amount I started out with is going to be a large number anyway; whereas, if I end up losing then it won't really negatively affect me. I'm not looking to be greedy about gaining as much as I can. I'm happy with taking some time to achieve a stable and continuous growth of my wealth. 

My last two things don't relate to investing that much, but I plan to try to keep on hustling players in Poker and take their money from fair play. The last one is that since I'm already working as a software engineer, I'm getting myself into mobile app development as a personal side business. 

Why Crazy Lee is Crazy to Me

Well Crazy Lee is crazy to me because she started yelling at me over stuff that had nothing to do with us both and then filed a stalker restraining order against me which I didn't contest out of shock. Anyway, those are traditionally reserved for crazy exes when there's opposite sex involved and we never dated each other. I was never that interested in dating her either from being against dating outside my ethnicity at the time. She went for trying to extend it and it got dismissed with prejudice by the judge. She went for petitioning and the motion was denied again. I didn't even know she did this, which I noticed on that public court website. She should learn not to do that while holding a grudge against others like me that was never meant to be hers. She took something from her church problems that she wanted to blame on me and then compartmentalized it into something that's meant for personal and dating purposes only. This isn't really the reason why people get restraining orders on each other in the first place. You can only expect that court order to have fallen through and never affect my personal life. 

My confidence is back and I know who I am and what I want while staying positive and going to be persistent. 

Investment Opportunities

What I'm figuring out now is that I'm really distracted right now with trying to make a lot of money and settle in with my own place. I'm really happy to be working on this goal right now along with having already some good friends to be with. It's probably good that I realize one of my good friends can possibly be my soulmate! I can tell sometimes she's physically attracted to me, but I'm not pushing it with her. She does want me to practice on her though for being a lover, while figuring that I'm acting more like a brother to her but this view could also be from her being insecure about finding another partner. I feel a little mushy and sad underneath when she brings it up, but yeah, I already told her that I don't believe those are her true feelings with me. 

She hasn't kicked me out of her life or anything. She invited me to go on a hiking trip with her out of state and her brother. It could be another strategic moment for me to make her strongly feel that I'm not really her true brother in any spiritual or physical form! 

With these investment opportunities, what's wonderful is that my successful approach can also work well with convincing people like Crazy Lee when I go see her someday. I hope she's not there honestly, but I'm committed to this crazy endeavor that could potentially turn out good for both of us.

What's required is just two steps. I like only two step methods; hence, it's my own inspired method because it's easy to remember just that my sentences might get too long! The first step is to always think positive. The last step is to work hard to be successful at all your endeavors. 

It's pretty rhetorical. How the first step relates to convincing Crazy Lee is to keep on telling her positive things she should do while pursuing something that's purely good that also deals with both of us. In turn, this is going to make her look like a trash can to others if she doesn't do them. Her image will go down so low, so consider it to be a constellation prize but tell her she shouldn't stay there and do the good thing that's so great for both of us. It's really being so rhetorical but you get to always be a positive person and be seen the way you want to be at the same time with others. It's pretty genius, so it's conclusive that Crazy Lee messed up and she's crazy enough that she should go fix herself up! 

Interesting to Go Figure

While still being single, I think I get tempted to lust after medium-to-large busty, slightly curvy to petite, and really nice Asian women in general! If I'm able to find one to marry and consummate on a regular basis, then I'm very sure I won't get that much of a bigger urge to be with someone else after getting used to it like a fun chore with her. This must mean that I need to marry well while continually making strides on being a great lover. 

The easy part is finding a girl who looks the part from being quite loose about appearances these days, but the difficult part is going to be finding one who doesn't have too many insecurities about being with me and doesn't really get under my nerves. I think short girls in general despite being a short man can still get around to being physically attracted to me like one of my really good homegirls. I can tell now that she likes being around me while being vice versa and is probably saying I'm like a brother to her because she is insecure about being in another serious relationship at the moment. 

My homegirl isn't quite that busty enough for me to want to naturally lust after her, but I'm finding that the emotional and physical connection we share sometimes can make things really tempting. In fact, she might even be my actual soulmate like she pointed out to me, but said it's only at a friendship level! It's starting to make sense that some of my girl friends may find me to be attractive despite feeling like I'm so short. I definitely have a few physical features that distinguish a taller guy like broad shoulders and chest, large and wide feet, and still weighing a lot while still looking like I'm skinny. 

When it comes down to it, it's really about staying genuinely confident while hanging out with these ladies so they don't feel that sign of something not being right and ruining any good opportunity that's supposed to happen. 

Keeping Diligence With Focus

I know now what I want to do to keep myself occupied. I'm totally accepting and have embraced any possibilities of things not going my way. I'm still going to be happy in the Lord regardless of whatever happens to me. 

I have learned to be grounded and it's just a matter of time before I get somewhere. It really looks like I have a shot with women who are around my height or slightly taller than me and they don't come across as too crazy to the point that I worked at a romantic possibility. It's really about how well a man can carry himself sometimes and that's where I've been headed. I'm a pretty rare individual living in this world. There aren't too many people out there who are in a position like I am and focusing collectively on the same things. I'm my own person and have different advantages despite being short in appearance. 

It doesn't really bother me anymore nor it shouldn't whenever I feel a little sorrowful. I should be working hard with the inward things more while doing the best I can to look good on the outside. I don't need to feel any personal insecurities anymore and conduct myself with plenty of self-confidence while being a man who is happy to worship the Lord in his heart daily. 

Just a Matter of Time

I'm gradually getting better each month with managing trades for Forex on my own. I see myself doing well enough consistently one day with it. I'm not really going to be a professional Poker player because I just don't have enough passion for it. However, it's fun to play competitively once in a while and hopefully come out with some winnings. 

I also feel like I have to project a lot more inward confidence with positivity while around others. It's hard to remind myself sometimes that I should be looking at things inwardly for myself because it just works better for me. It's all about putting in the hard work to understand how things are while constantly improving yourself to the point that you are leading yourself in a happy direction. 

From being asked how I know these things, I've responded that it's about holding onto a vision and working hard to obtain that position and then enjoying the fruits of labor. 

Getting Good at Life

I'm starting to realize that my programming skills are getting so much better and that most of the time it's really referencing technical information that you need to make your work run more efficiently. You just have to know your objective and then spend a lot of time thinking and working hard without skipping out on any detail. 

I know that my style can get really overwhelming, but I still enjoy it though. This is probably why it makes sense to make software engineering my ticket to bigger income, while I also do investing and trades on the side to build upon my wealth. I'm in the mood for working very hard and consistently while having fun with a positive attitude. I don't really care how long this takes now because I know my destination that I'm trying to reach. 

Tapping in on Long-term Wealth

Thanks to subscribing to two investing groups, I'm still profiting on my investment portfolios without having to put that much time into it. Eventually, I want to see a lot of dollar signs as fast as possible while doing this. For the time being, it's really about saving more money and managing growth. 

I'm still really into trading Forex and want to get good at it, so it's what I'm still working on. It looks like getting serious with playing Poker has become meaningless for me. I'm going to need something in place of it, and I've figured out what it already is. It's programming! 

Along with investing and trading, I now want to program on the side some apps to make money and turn this into a serious career for myself with gaining some more income. It's pretty simple with how my personal layout is now, and it's making a lot of sense with what I'm into. I'm fortunate to realize that I don't need to be noticed by others and have enough talent to get any opportunity. I can pave my own path. 

The basics still remain the same. It's about confidence, positive attitude, and hard work. 

Maybe I Met My Official Soulmate?

A girl who I'm very good friends with texted me the other day that she thinks I'm her soulmate, but only in a friend kind of way. 

I don't really feel like she's my true type for being lovers with, but I do recognize we have a very special and unique relationship. She likes to tell me to come over to her place regularly and that I'm always invited to spend the night. We never get dirty with each other, but I do feel like getting intimate with her just for fun often. It's not in my Christian belief system to behave in that manner, so I always refrain and am comfortable with it. I've been doing this for a long time now and it doesn't matter if she's the most beautiful person in the world, I'm going to consummate only in marriage. 

Cutting Out Excess Negativity

It appears that making up positive things of improving yourself in the moment and then sharing them with people who are clearly annoyed with you beyond crazy is such a funny thing. It's really hard to not let their negativity get to you, but it does happen. It's moments like these that I never look forward to, so now I figure that a stronger and positive attitude coupled with hard work will generate more meaningfulness and purpose underneath even if it never amounts to much. Getting used to hard work can create such a happy feeling anyway. 

I think that one Christian girl who shared with me about how we're all going to eventually die or leave this planet, so everything is vanity while pointing a finger at my goals made a foolish decision, since I relate them also to my faith. She has withdrawn herself from even looking at my messages and playing an active role now. I think she used to feel like she had some type of duty to place upon herself, but she inevitably failed. I'm too good for her, and she's pretty much useless and out of commission for now. I don't even feel bad for her honestly, and it looks like I've even grown stronger with more ammunition that could wipe out her evil circle of friends! Well, they are evil in a stupid or crazy sense and given over to a bunch of hypocrisy and emptiness with only a thin line of living under personal security. 

I feel very good underneath actually. 

Basics of Asking People Out

I had a conversation with one of my homegirls while we were doing a group trip together. I ended up filling her in with the basics of dating someone. It's really easy to remember and requires only two steps and the last one might require some more effort. 

The first thing is to have enough confidence. The second thing is to go ask her out. The last requirement is that she needs to be the right person in order for her to say yes and things to work out in the end. The last requirement might take a while to get it to work, but by playing a numbers game and approaching all the women you can, you will logically increase your chances. 

Honestly, I think there's really no reason to try to steal a girl who isn't that interested and says she's already taken! It's going to be a waste of time, plus there's a greater chance you will find out a deal breaker about her if she lets her guard down after being friends for several years which means all this time that can't be brought back was lost. It's pretty sad but it is still better to just move on, if you aren't interested in having any friendship.  

Message to All My Political Enemies

All I want from you guys is adding me back on Facebook as just a friend. I don't need access to your news feedback, nor do I really care who you associate with.  I don't even have a desire to hang out with you guys any further after working hard to earn this transaction. It's just who I am.  It's just symbolic to me of supporting a good thing.     

From looking at both my end and your end, you guys are currently messed up people who can't agree to this meaningless thing. It just shows me that you guys will be in trouble with handling bigger storms in your personal lives. I recommend you guys go see a counselor or therapist but it isn't my responsibility to ensure it. With you guys being paranoid about me doing stuff to you with just a harmless Facebook page that you guys have full control over already, you guys aren't even important people in this world. Get with the program, so I have a strong passionate reason to stay persistent now. This is going to happen once I reach my ultimate goal that's tied to my spirituality of being a millionaire with six pack abs. I'm half-way there now. 

This is all inward and has nothing to do with outwardly now. I have more potential than you guys because I've been at it longer and always will be moving forward. It just means I'm better at it than you guys. I consider myself to be just average. 

You Guys are Always so Out of It and I Accept that With All of You,

4AverageLife

Not Too Bothered

I'm honestly not that bothered by my height anymore. I'm standing at only 5'3" as a man, and it looks like it even doesn't phase the stupid individuals I forced myself to deal with! I can vouch that this is probably only the main good thing about them.

I've really learned to get over my personal insecurity from deducing how I have mostly tall cousins on my mom's side, my dad who is a pretty tall Asian, and how I have larger, wider feet with broader shoulders than my dad that I possess normal genes too and something might have happened. 

I don't really care so much about it anymore and always feel like I'm five inches taller underneath. I don't really have that much personal insecurity over it! Who cares, God can still use you regardless of how tall or short you are on the outside or inside. 

Going for Main Goals

I'm now figuring that I want to work really hard and then retire with enough money while having a stable passive income. I'm open to getting married now as well, but right now my bigger focus is on becoming financially stable on my own. I think it's like having this personal ego trip of not relying on my parents for anything. I want to be the one who can actually support them and do more things in the future.

Currently, I do have a girl who I'm very close to and get invited to spend the night at her home often. We travel, sing, eat, exercise, and even do small projects together.  I stay in her guest room, even though she's offered me to share the same bed and from getting cold too easily. I naturally declined from thinking it would get too warm. This is only platonic but I recognize from an emotional or mental state that we have a very special bond. 

Overall, I'm starting to feel she's like a sister to me which keeps our relationship platonic while we're still technically friends with benefits. How I came to believe we have this status is that she says I can freely practice on being a good partner with her. I'm making the effort as well. It's a really unique relationship and nothing like I've ever experienced before. I'm very comfortable sharing things with her and she's really open about it with me as well. 

Working on Little Things

I'm now realizing what I want to accomplish in practical things while keeping it on a timely basis. It's really difficult to figure things out sometimes while also being quite stressful, but I find it to be still rewarding in the end now even if I made very little progress for the day.

For my life right now which is trying to work hard and become financially successful, I'm attracted to long-term investments and swing trades. I don't think I'm really meant to be a professional Poker player because it does feel meaningless to me sometimes. I think the top-rated professional Poker player is very skilled at it and can also be quite a nutty individual from getting angry and then blaming his failures on others who won some of his money! It's very entertaining and funny when I think about it, but I just think it's meaningless in the end with making money while staring down some hidden cards and trying to hustle around others to take all of their chips. I guess it's just not really meant for me to take that seriously even though I always like to play my game whenever I buy into any table, so I'll try to be the best opponent I can be that you have to beat to take some dollars off of me! I'll just live with any result.

To make money, I'm now feeling a deeper interest with programming mobile apps so I just need a one-hit wonder to make something happen for me. This doesn't feel impossible for me at all, since I like to go off of inspiration and surprisingly, I do have very few things about myself that can connect with plenty of people at the right moment. I like to consider myself to be average and nothing more. 

I want to manage my time better and just get my focus off of dumb things to distract me while I'm temporarily disavowing my personal goals to have fun and feed my other weird curiousities. I think half the battle is already won from just committing yourself to getting started each day and just keeping a level of moderate effort without blowing yourself out. I'll still love myself and keep on living with any result. I think I need to set a reasonable time limit that I can handle to do all these things before giving over to fun and personal distractions to let the day or night go by quicker. 

Finding Solid Grounds

I'm going to be honest but still keep this PG so I can't really talk about the birds flying around to reach their tree! Okay, I have to admit that I already wrote some very mature content and still didn't get busted for it so I would be safe to write it so bluntly while technically being anonymous but yet, I don't exactly know my readers here and I do prefer being nicer and less controversial whenever possible so it makes sense with where I'm trying to get at now. 

I've already dealt with a few stupid people and just getting over all of my personal insecurities now. It was difficult doing this on my own, but what helped me was pursuing and reading up on resources and doing things in a natural and straight-forward manner to let my own individual personality shine through with my writings. In addition, my faith in the Lord has always supplied me this sense of serenity whenever things feel like it's going south. 

It's been neat to notice how Christ can still be working on my heart. Also, now I realize that other well-referenced believers can have bias in their faith just as much as I do, so it can be challenging sometimes to find out who to agree with in an impartial manner. I'm seriously just relying on the Holy Spirit in faith to guide me through those wrestled moments. 

Message to My Former Dumb Buddies

"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood"- Marie Curie.

[To Former Dumb Buddies]:

In the past, you guys did a full 180 in dealing with me and then blew it up into something that went exponentially out of proportion! At the surface, it's easy to judge and say "Not enough prayer!" or make lamenting complaints about how stupid you guys were which I still like to do but that's not the big issue. It's all vanity in the end anyway, so it shows people can be so petty sometimes and not want to make time for the silliest thing and focus on other things from being selfish. You guys definitely didn't rock and for that, I have to be in gratitude for having already experienced this fallout with dumb asinine people like you guys at some point in my life.

Coming Across More Understanding of Routine

Currently, I'm trying my best to reach this goal of becoming a millionaire with a six pack. I have been messaging a Christian girl who might sound a little hostile with me sometimes, but I definitely have a stronger influence upon her now than before. It's crazy because I know I could be selfish all I want to and put her down so much while getting away with it if I want to, but I don't out of my fear in the Lord. 

She tried to reach out to me out of a misunderstanding that I was just bragging about my goals, which I wasn't. I explained to her that it really isn't anything worldly but something I'm doing from being happy in the Lord. 

Philippians 4:8 talks about how anyone should apply themselves in a highly positive manner and reach excellence. We can do this by dedicating ourselves to the Lord on reaching our goals. 

It looks like my interpersonal senses are back up and I can definitely tear apart my old and foolish Bible study group if I want to for the past conflict they forced upon me. I can turn into like the chess piece that the spiritual Enemy uses to terrorize them! God will probably even allow it for a while, if I pursued it. I choose to take a nicer path, but it will definitely be an unsettling learning experience for them. Those are the best situations to be forced into because it's like being put in the hot seat while not knowing what you are getting into and going to inevitably fail. In the aftermath, a true believer should look to come to the Lord while humbled and be brought back up again. 

Working Hard for Favored Living

I'm now realizing that investing in stocks, trading options, and trading in Forex looks like the best way for me to go right now for building my personal wealth. It's starting to make a lot of sense for me and slowly building it up to upgrade my current tools. I'm still roughly about half way there before I break even with using my expensive tools. I have been climbing my way up here in only a year so I should be surpassing it by next year. I'm looking forward to taking it to the next level.

For the time being, I want to start working out on my own at home using DIY tutorials and also practicing a good diet. I'm going to cancel my gym membership which I haven't been using because it doesn't make sense to leave it alone for so long and save me a little more money. I want to try to do growing taller stretches for fun to see if it works. I don't feel bad about being short anymore and so over it. I'm only going to do this for fun. I'm just fortunate that I feel very confident about believing that I was supposed to come out taller but something happened to me.  

For chasing after the right ladies, I'm noticing that I have a shot with all the ones who are already stable which may be hard to find. It sort of makes sense for ladies to have some form of insecurity in general. The Bible considers them to be the weaker vessels for a reason. 

Resolving Main Personal Insecurity

I wouldn't say that I grew up in the best environment while being a good kid and trying to soak in everything like a sponge but finally overcoming negativity and personal insecurity as a grown-up, I can say that it was cute to have gotten away with a few bad things that resulted in just a slap on the wrist. I'm still inclined to do good though and I'm just not in it for the money so you could count on me to distribute resources with however I'm supposed to based on any plans or agreements (laws). 

Something that affected me for most of my life was always being a shorty! Going on online dating profiles and constantly seeing attractive profiles that said their ideal mate's height numbers were taller than me didn't help my confidence that much either for a while. What really changed everything in scope was starting to think in a positive direction. Positivity is also well-intended by God. Take for instance what this famous Bible verse says:

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.  Philippians 4:8 (NIV)

Without a doubt, combining self-confidence with a positive and diligent attitude fits in like a charm! It's important to remember that true humility which is admirable isn't about thinking any less of yourself. It's thinking less often about yourself. 

I've been able to get away with realizing that I was probably meant to be taller but something happened! My male cousins are tall. I have broad shoulders and large wide feet that would match the profile of an average height Caucasian (5'8"-5'9")! 

It's all about nuances that one has to realize which is difficult at first while being moody and unwilling to let go of something, which will make some dumb people insecure about you like it already happened to me!  

For going on to the dating world now, I believe that women wanting men to look a certain way including their height is more likely to be based on physical attraction with having some form of insecurity. It totally makes sense because including some good friends I know, there are several ladies out there who wish they were taller, smarter, richer, slimmer, or prettier. How this fits into my life now is that I think I have a shot at pursuing a lady slightly taller than me because she might already feel very secure about her height and able to manage herself well around others. I've already been fortunate to meet a girl like this and she was so head over heels romantically interested in me before, even though I said it's too much! I'm not running back to her either, even though my heart for any love interest has opened up recently. 

In conclusion, when it comes to refusing to date a short but average good man, the lady is either insecure from being below his height level or massively a giant(!) or she's just choosing to look down upon that aspect out of personal preference. It's no worries because I've realized that the ones who aren't that insecure or shallow tend to be very beautiful outwardly anyway. It goes to say that a short but good ole' single and interested man should stay happy, confident with himself, and be diligent at it while waiting patiently upon the Lord to deliver him a heavenly match!  ( Honestly, what helps me the most now to stay upbeat is that I have strong personal evidence that I at least have average and healthy genes on American standards to pass on to posterity. I think something happened that made me become shorter than I would have liked.)

Message to Same Old Acquaintance that Builds a Strong Embarrassing Case

Leaders appointed by God don't necessarily have absolute power over the individuals they are assigned to oversee. This idea came about during the medieval times, which led to the revolutionary Magna Carta and then inspired the creation of many, modern human rights laws.

This is how Crazy Lee and most of you guys felt in that you guys said I was supposed to fully submit to your irrational thinking and then made it sound like it came from God. I hope you know that before the first king was introduced to Israel in the Bible, Samuel was reluctant to do it for the people. The idea of a king to those early Jews is having someone who is strong and charismatic enough to lead a powerful army and protect them from enemies. In other words, a king is ideally a servant to the people in God's eyes.

With me pouncing around freely and joyfully while never having declared any serious ties at your old church, the true spiritual leaders shouldn't be in any scornful or negative mood and be happy for me as well. I'm going to take a shot at all of you; you guys sometimes stay stuck in the Dark Ages and fortunately you guys all suck so much that you won't ever band together to form a messed up nation like North Korea. 

Message to Old Acquaintance

Romans 8:31-33 KJV says,

If God be for us, who can be against us? [32] He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things? [33] Who shall lay anything to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.

With how most of you guys treated me and ended up deciding to remove me as Facebook friends, it's all based on insecurities. I see it now just like how most short ladies try to avoid dating short men! I'm short myself at around 5'3" so I've finally taken notice of these nuances. What I'm saying is that since I'm on God's side, it's still cute that I've always been able to get away from all these "petty things" in the past, which also includes your [referring to everyone who showed signs of being miserable or frustrated with negative energy by yelling at me at that church as a whole like how God says my people Israel in the context of you] horrible and low-class mannerisms which drove me up a wall! The hard part is personally learning to control any negative moods and converting it into something positive. I'm doing it out of love for life and what's primarily fueling it these days is my full faith in Christ.

With your guys' insecurities and making decisions to avoid communicating with me while yelling and shouting at me to be quiet while I keep on pursuing a normal conversation, it's actually quite funny and shows you guys are only human. Out of ignorance or silly pride, Chris and Jarred have a tendency to say they are better than most people and try to be selfish while letting their crazy hormonal feelings take over to the point of forgetting their true identities in Christ. It's like they've momentarily become heathens and this is what I experienced with most of the old members at that church. This is wild beyond my imaginations. You guys should really go see a therapist, if an annoyance this little is something you still can't handle that well for moving on to adding me back as a Facebook friend and even being more open-minded afterwards.

I totally get it now with why I want you guys as a Facebook friend. It's symbolic of me taking you guys under my wing. I'm the guy who is half-millionaire and forming six pack abs right now. I'm aiming for my ultimate goal of being a millionaire with six pack abs.

I'm so focused that this is my main priority over finding someone to settle down with. I'm also satisfied and glad beyond indescribable words thanks to the Lord and finding out who I am. It's like having the same good emotion that never ends day in and day out. I'm a positive person, so turning the page instantaneously after being driven angry and venting in a very intelligent way after making very late realizations from learning new things in the present and reflecting with my remnant of memories for answers is part of why I'm still writing to you. I want you to still benefit from this because I'm such a nice guy! 

Staying Focused and Working Hard

I now really want to keep on staying focused and working hard at something while being happy about it. I really want to develop a better level of concentration for doing detailed work in everything regarding my life. It's going to take some practice along with self-discipline and maybe some self-sacrifice. I'm pretty serious about doing well for myself now. 

Overall, it's really just having a nice run with carrying lots of patience while staying positive and diligent. It's like I believe for myself that when I'm ready to settle down and find the ideal woman for me to marry, I realize that it's going to be like finding a needle in a haystack. I know that I'm not so worried about being turned down by anyone and able to move on while staying friends, if she's okay with it. 

One of these days when I'm rich and have so much time on my hands, I'll be trying to make a move on some nice and beautiful ladies! Something that I'm visualizing for myself and getting comfortable with is the thought of getting physically intimate while knowing I'm a short guy. It seems like there are few women out there who don't care, so I just need to find that attractive one who happens to be available and ready for me! This part is going to be like finding a needle in a haystack and for myself, I'm feeling happy about pursuing it and waiting for it to happen even if it never gets there in my lifetime. 

More Trading Adjustments

For trading the OTC Forex market, I'm now examining the monthly, weekly, and daily charts while looking at the 4-hour chart for a good entry. I'm pretty fed up with constantly checking every few hours and want to limit having to do this. This approach is known as swing trading and it's taking a lot longer than I thought. I'm trading with real money and currently losing at it but it's not enough to even sting. 

A few days ago, I mentioned that I was only trading the Daily chart. This didn't result in a desired outcome, so I'm now back on the drawing board and briefly looking at indicators on the last four highest timeframes of Metatrader 4. I have both leading and lagging indicators and am looking to trade in both directions. I'm not planning on giving up with my own system any time soon. 

For playing Poker,  I have learned that it's not a bad thing to keep on playing if you are winning and then to stop if you are losing too much that day. Even the pros will sometimes lose a ton of money in the short term. It is actually advisable to not play against great players and only try to beat silly players for making a living. Still, it looks like there are days where you won't be able to make anything but in the long term, if you are a winning player then that's all you need to get started.  

Chasing After Main Goals

I now have my main goals in mind which is really to settle with being financially independent and creating a lot of time on my hands so I can enjoy doing a bunch of common things without needing to stress out about not having enough resources and being uncomfortable. For the time being, dating is out of the question since accomplishing my personal goal is coming first. I feel happy to be single right now and having a purpose that aligns with the Lord's will so it's about just pushing onward and loving people. 

I just need to get used to working hard while feeling a lot of stress sometimes and being able to turn it off when I don't need to work anymore. I need to practice and keep on self-monitoring myself while maintaining a positive attitude. I don't think I'm that special and just want to work really hard now to just earn a happy average life. 

Focusing on Building Wealth

I am now ready to embrace however long it takes on my own time to become a millionaire and not have to work a single day in the office anymore! It looks like I'm buying into strategies from two investing groups for doing stocks and anything else related to it. I'm about half-way there now with turning a net profit from what I paid out of pocket to use their resources. It's been only a year and to me that's pretty good for the long term and stable process that I'm buying into.  

I'm still working on a convenient system with the Forex market but it looks like I'm back down to trading only the Daily and looking at it once ideally in the mornings. I don't really want to constantly check it every four hours, when I prefer just letting it sit there comfortably in a highly volatile market with a stop loss level that can hit at any given moment! 

I'm just going to let my cryptocurrencies keep on riding at this point while not purchasing any more. I really need an edge that I believe in and something that I can simply apply to gain a lot of profit and I think I have the system in mind that interests me but it's on hold for me this year. 

To add to my side business of trading and investing, I'm also interested in programming an app to sell on the market now to gain some profit and experience. I'm also not playing Poker that often anymore but I think I picked up on a resource for playing successfully at the micro level, so it's just to have fun mainly while trying to win in the long run on average.