I've been a little unhealthy this past weekend. I guess I have a lot of private issues that seem pretty natural to deal with just like everybody else does. I think it would be really inappropriate for me to talk about the things that make me tick in a bad way because if little kids are reading this, then I think it would mean something bad afterwards. Okay, so some of the things where I was really releasing my negative energy over something I didn't understand- I think those posts are okay.
My blog has reached only 600 views this month which is the largest amount of views ever for this blog! Man, I don't know how this blog has amassed 600 reads for a month after over six years but I guess it's something I don't really mind. I can say that I'm a writer because there's somebody in this world reading this piece of art or junk. I may not be the greatest writer in the world, but at least I try to imitate like one every once in awhile.
I'm seriously going to try once again with the love of God in my life and personal sorrows to end my personal sins that are keeping me from being ideally happy. I think I'm just lacking some serious conviction in my life because I haven't been reading the Bible or attending church in awhile. After the incident of that church kicking me out over questioning if I liked some of the ladies who attended there, I haven't been the same dedicated believer for awhile. It really created a spiritual funk in me. It's a good thing I realize the things that were bothering me and now I know how to go about it.
Oh well, I value friendships with everyone good and bad a lot but looks like if I can't manage them all then I might as well go for succeeding in my life and going after bigger things in life instead of just standing put with something. I think it's all just a matter of being in the mood now. It's really sick that I understand some things a little better now and possibly I should trust some of my senses when dealing with people.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Friday, October 26, 2012
Atheist Mantras
Just now, I looked up an interesting post of Atheist mantras on IMDB after being slightly appalled over Kirk Cameron's Hollywood box office history. Not to mention, Kirk Cameron does seemingly have a really attractive wife and six children so there must be definitely some fun involved with their relationship. One of these days for me man, even if I don't ever get there. It seems like I'm just naturally a pretty funny guy who gets heavily agitated when angry but still tries to stay friendly with everybody while under it. It must be a scary thing to some people while being a guy and really small Asian dude. More and more, I'm getting used to being shorter than the average American and accepting the personal sadness from wanting to be taller. Overall, it just shouldn't really matter to a man or bother him in general.
I've noticed that most Atheist's way of thinking can be likened onto a mature Christian's way of thinking too. For myself, I've actually stuck with trying to be a Christian since second grade and after being exposed to different walks of life and philosophies and other religions all the way through a Bachelor's degree with over 250 units; I can sort of see some major differences between an Atheist and Christian. I'm just going to highlight some of the mantras I saw from that post which was interesting to me:
"Being an atheist means you don't have to think of yourself as a sinful wretch who can never do anything right. "
The Bible pretty much says that nobody is perfect. I've asked random people all my life if they think they are perfect, and they all say that they aren't even though I've heard one say that he is perfect in another area. Yeah, you can be strong in one area and be weak in another; I don't know if it's just natural DNA or something but that's how a human life rolls.
"Being an atheist means you don't have to throw yourself down in agony and beg some terrible cosmic dictator for forgiveness for being the way he created you to be."
The Bible pretty much says that God is a loving person. The Bible says that God is broken up into three persons and are still one. This can still be logically monotheistic because God being omnipotent would be able to do anything impossible like having three persons make up one person. Like water can be gas, liquid, or solid; another one I heard, a person could wear three different hats and be still the same person such as being an engineer, mathematician, and loving husband/father. These three persons of God in the Bible all love the same person which is everyone in the world, even if a human is consistently sinning. Some people are caught in a cycle of addiction and can't get out of it because some disorder happened, so yeah, if there is a God who can deliver people out of addictions, why not let it be the God we read about in the Bible?
"Being an atheist means that when you're sick or hurt, you trust in doctors and hospitals, which actually work, not faith healing and prayer, which don't."
It's pretty clear that in the Bible, medical doctors would be a god send to the people. If they are there then why not utilize them because God cares for us and why wouldn't God of the Bible not allow people to have access to immediate medical attention? Also, prayer is used as taught in the Bible to help dispel worries and aid in a peaceable state of mind.
"Being an atheist means you don't believe in eternal life, or resurrection, or reincarnation, or any other conceit that cheapens the value of the all-too-brief time we have on earth."
Christians believe in a God incarnate which is the Son of God who was sent to this world to be crucified for our sins, dead, and buried in a tomb. After three days, Jesus would be resurrected and reach out to 500 witnesses who allegedly testified to see the same thing. In the court of law, 500 witnesses agreeing to the same detail would be classified as substantial evidence. It's hard enough to get two witnesses to collaborate on scheming with the same details, but if done right the courts will convict!
"Being an atheist means you lack belief in all gods, all religions and all supernatural entities alike."
Christians believe in the one true almighty God who is three persons in one. The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. The Bible lays out the well-known 10 Commandments and first one says to worship the true God and not other idols. This also is stated in context with the Bible that those idols are not alive and will not assist in actual help in times of personal crisis and desperate measures except provide false hope.
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Not Really That In Trouble
After achieving extreme stability inwardly, I now see that the incidents people were getting so uncomfortable about is not really my fault. I sort of see it beyond now and can pretty much laugh about the issue inwardly, while supposedly causing some people to feel like they're going to be embarrassed by me. I guess that's a really horrible feeling to live on a daily basis so it would be sort of easy to form a small grudge against me then.
On top of those people not really knowing me, I'm sensing that it's really about letting myself out there to them and just accepting any decision they want to make even if it's mean. I sort of feel if they're very unpleasant then they're lives are going to be sort of messed up anyway and that I shouldn't really put too much effort than I already tried. As long as I gave a decent effort of putting myself out there with my wonderful intentions, if they can't receive it very well then it's pretty much time to part from them and move on to bigger waters.
It's sort of the fun part in engaging these people and can get really dangerous, but fortunately, I don't deal with extreme people all the time. I just deal with people who just hit a bad funk in their road and those who just found a certain path of satisfaction in their life and now are feeling dissatisfied because they can't handle their own personal emotions from being offended about something silly.
I've learned a really important aspect that I have now personally gained. It's pretty much about being emotionally stable underneath and then attacking the point of conflict of interest with the person in truth and love. If they don't want to talk about it, then I see that the favor belongs to me already. If they stop saying anything, then it comes down to me really making a choice of whether I want to keep them around or not now, and I'm going to have to choose very wisely and examine their behavior from a distant but personal stance with them and then go from there.
On top of those people not really knowing me, I'm sensing that it's really about letting myself out there to them and just accepting any decision they want to make even if it's mean. I sort of feel if they're very unpleasant then they're lives are going to be sort of messed up anyway and that I shouldn't really put too much effort than I already tried. As long as I gave a decent effort of putting myself out there with my wonderful intentions, if they can't receive it very well then it's pretty much time to part from them and move on to bigger waters.
It's sort of the fun part in engaging these people and can get really dangerous, but fortunately, I don't deal with extreme people all the time. I just deal with people who just hit a bad funk in their road and those who just found a certain path of satisfaction in their life and now are feeling dissatisfied because they can't handle their own personal emotions from being offended about something silly.
I've learned a really important aspect that I have now personally gained. It's pretty much about being emotionally stable underneath and then attacking the point of conflict of interest with the person in truth and love. If they don't want to talk about it, then I see that the favor belongs to me already. If they stop saying anything, then it comes down to me really making a choice of whether I want to keep them around or not now, and I'm going to have to choose very wisely and examine their behavior from a distant but personal stance with them and then go from there.
Turning It Around
I remember looking into some of those religious people's faces over an incident that was really personal. I could remember Christopher's face as he looked into my eyes with this angry and disturbed look like he knew what was up and then told me that the girl I was questioning on whether I liked or not was praying for me to turn it around. These are some really funny and awkward moments to recall now.
It's really all about finding the right balance and the good people who can help you get there along with taking a personal journey pretty seriously. It's nice to feel relaxed most of the time though and to enjoy the presence of being among friends, wife, and kids. Yeah, I know the whole world would come to a pretty universal agreement that how this church conducted with me was wrong! It's so whacked out of proportion that it would even be easy to laugh about now. Whether friend or foe, nice or pretty dumb acquaintances, it's pretty dog gone clear that you're not supposed to take something to the next level when it just regards questioning personal feelings related to entering a relationship and sort of wanting to avoid it.
It's pretty crazy that religious people who call themselves a know-it-all would start trying to pound on me mentally or emotionally just because I was contending with personal feelings on some women who I was just trying to come to terms with. It's weird that they forced me to participate in some game they thought would mean the end of the reign of their church, if I would fail them. Hey, I'm honored that I got in trouble by religious people just because I was personally debating to myself whether I liked some girls or not.
It's really all about finding the right balance and the good people who can help you get there along with taking a personal journey pretty seriously. It's nice to feel relaxed most of the time though and to enjoy the presence of being among friends, wife, and kids. Yeah, I know the whole world would come to a pretty universal agreement that how this church conducted with me was wrong! It's so whacked out of proportion that it would even be easy to laugh about now. Whether friend or foe, nice or pretty dumb acquaintances, it's pretty dog gone clear that you're not supposed to take something to the next level when it just regards questioning personal feelings related to entering a relationship and sort of wanting to avoid it.
It's pretty crazy that religious people who call themselves a know-it-all would start trying to pound on me mentally or emotionally just because I was contending with personal feelings on some women who I was just trying to come to terms with. It's weird that they forced me to participate in some game they thought would mean the end of the reign of their church, if I would fail them. Hey, I'm honored that I got in trouble by religious people just because I was personally debating to myself whether I liked some girls or not.
Monday, October 22, 2012
Balancing Trades
Because of the volatility in the trading markets, there is no such thing as a 100% accurate system. This means that without proper training and analysis of the charts, one could be in for a huge loss in one trade or even lose everything in one load. It's pretty much reality, and I think that's the major reason why most people feel it's too risky to even dream of being so rich from playing the stocks- it's like probably winning the lottery or something.
Fortunately, there are consistent winners in the market and these professionals seriously know what they are doing. I'm finding out to become an average trader who profits in these markets, one needs to invest about two years practicing successful trading methods to finally get a working knowledge. The trader has to be fully dedicated and is pretty much the only person who is going to figure out what works best.
Basically, I'm finding that exiting trades is just as important as entering trades. It's really a game that's all about proper timing and playing with the highs and lows of the market. What I found helps so much is learning how to work with candlesticks. I pretty much have a fully comprehensive system that works just for me now- it's probably not going to be satisfying for others but for myself, I really like how far I've come and how profitable it could be for me and ensure a pretty decent life that I've been longing to live. It's really all in the discipline and sticking to it.
What I look for is pretty much harmonic or Fibonacci patterns, breakouts of support and resistance, chart patterns, candlestick formations, the beginning of highs and lows, scalping opportunities, price action, and crossovers with moving averages. Before getting into these good trading opportunities, I look for pretty much the highest probability ones because I would rather wait for a high probability one than gamble and enough volatility in the market. Because of my swing trading habits, I'm starting to not worry so much about the spreads of a currency anymore and the news also. Because I work higher time frames and insist on keeping trades for longer periods, I would rather have better technical analysis rather than looking at the news. I just let the candlesticks run the show which is probably what reflects price action the best.
Finally, a major consideration to make is picking the right broker. I really don't like market makers because they trade against you, despite their occasional offers of lower spreads and better execution times. I pick to work with non-dealing brokers because they actually are pretty friendly with wanting traders to win in the market. They make a small commission off of placing trades with them; therefore, the more money you make, the more trades you make, and the more money they make. They even accommodate traders with decent tools to even have a better edge in the market. I would rather stick with those brokers rather than trading against them because they can screw you over with their big bank roll in the market.
Fortunately, there are consistent winners in the market and these professionals seriously know what they are doing. I'm finding out to become an average trader who profits in these markets, one needs to invest about two years practicing successful trading methods to finally get a working knowledge. The trader has to be fully dedicated and is pretty much the only person who is going to figure out what works best.
Basically, I'm finding that exiting trades is just as important as entering trades. It's really a game that's all about proper timing and playing with the highs and lows of the market. What I found helps so much is learning how to work with candlesticks. I pretty much have a fully comprehensive system that works just for me now- it's probably not going to be satisfying for others but for myself, I really like how far I've come and how profitable it could be for me and ensure a pretty decent life that I've been longing to live. It's really all in the discipline and sticking to it.
What I look for is pretty much harmonic or Fibonacci patterns, breakouts of support and resistance, chart patterns, candlestick formations, the beginning of highs and lows, scalping opportunities, price action, and crossovers with moving averages. Before getting into these good trading opportunities, I look for pretty much the highest probability ones because I would rather wait for a high probability one than gamble and enough volatility in the market. Because of my swing trading habits, I'm starting to not worry so much about the spreads of a currency anymore and the news also. Because I work higher time frames and insist on keeping trades for longer periods, I would rather have better technical analysis rather than looking at the news. I just let the candlesticks run the show which is probably what reflects price action the best.
Finally, a major consideration to make is picking the right broker. I really don't like market makers because they trade against you, despite their occasional offers of lower spreads and better execution times. I pick to work with non-dealing brokers because they actually are pretty friendly with wanting traders to win in the market. They make a small commission off of placing trades with them; therefore, the more money you make, the more trades you make, and the more money they make. They even accommodate traders with decent tools to even have a better edge in the market. I would rather stick with those brokers rather than trading against them because they can screw you over with their big bank roll in the market.
Trading Update
I have pretty much upgraded my list of tools that I use. When it comes to trading, it really comes down to learning how to be a successful trader and there are many building blocks that need to take place before it can happen. Along with it being incredibly risky in the beginning, getting into the field of trading currency can be very intimidating. Let alone, 90% of new traders end up losing more money than they gain which is something to think about.
I've pretty much stuck to having my account managed by a pretty successful trader and did end up profiting but I wasn't fully happy with the result. Therefore, on and off, I kept on figuring out new methods to game this system and I've finally come up with a pretty accurate depiction recently.
The major factors to look out for is placing proper stop loss with decent money management, trading with a trend, and recognizing systematic patterns that become lucrative. The tools I have acquired do a lot of the automated recognition for me because I don't really have the skill to do so; therefore, I rely on some reliable tools to generate findings for me. The next step would be for me to set the proper stop loss and confirm a strong signal. I've turned into a swing / position trader after being a day trader for quite some time; it was really taxing on my full time work schedule, but I really do enjoy this possibility of building residual income and just managing trades only minutes per day.
Living On Principle
I've finally learned that it's more important to have knowledge rather than the looks with being successful. I can see how looking like a really handsome and intelligent fellow could really have its advantages but it's more important to focus on the inward qualities that pretty much help a human survive. In other words, I'm going to be tempted daily into doing things I shouldn't be doing and I can't help it so might as well just accept it on a positive note and make the correct action no matter how much displeasure it brings me!
What I'm finding works pretty well is sticking to the principles laid out on the pages of the King James Bible and going for what's appealing. I should pretty much be doing a lot more praying regardless of how bad I dug myself into a hole.
Overall, if a person lacks in something that could be enviable, I think it could be made up for acquiring the knowledge to get around it. It may seem really pesky to others who just have this certain makeup of how the world should be ran, but overall, getting the knowledge and applying it is going to be competing with the best in the world.
What I'm finding works pretty well is sticking to the principles laid out on the pages of the King James Bible and going for what's appealing. I should pretty much be doing a lot more praying regardless of how bad I dug myself into a hole.
Overall, if a person lacks in something that could be enviable, I think it could be made up for acquiring the knowledge to get around it. It may seem really pesky to others who just have this certain makeup of how the world should be ran, but overall, getting the knowledge and applying it is going to be competing with the best in the world.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Dealing With Unwanted Thoughts
When we go around living in life sometimes and come across something that just bugs the heck out of you, in these moments it's just the situation that you want to get out of, while not caring about anything else. It's hard to control our emotions and to battle them because we just don't really put that much thought into it naturally and only try to bond with happy things like the selfish people we are.
I realize that my feelings and my eyes just might not feel great when I'm angry. I also realize that I might have trouble letting go of the thought because I would feel so trapped inside and tortured. I would just want to fight to get it out of my system. I understand that sometimes the people around me have these types of issues too, and I just never really put that much thought into what they might be thinking. It's like I placed the thinking mode into myself for awhile. It's sometimes pretty misleading to be self-absorbed about some things.
The issue at hand is to pretty much just move forward and make your best effort to do what you think is required for a better place in the world. It's also important to die to yourself, no matter how angry or depressed you are, and then function at being a great adult. If the situation doesn't go your way, then it's pretty much time to let it go instead of wearing yourself out and busting your thinking caps when you could be progressing with other important people in life.
I realize that my feelings and my eyes just might not feel great when I'm angry. I also realize that I might have trouble letting go of the thought because I would feel so trapped inside and tortured. I would just want to fight to get it out of my system. I understand that sometimes the people around me have these types of issues too, and I just never really put that much thought into what they might be thinking. It's like I placed the thinking mode into myself for awhile. It's sometimes pretty misleading to be self-absorbed about some things.
The issue at hand is to pretty much just move forward and make your best effort to do what you think is required for a better place in the world. It's also important to die to yourself, no matter how angry or depressed you are, and then function at being a great adult. If the situation doesn't go your way, then it's pretty much time to let it go instead of wearing yourself out and busting your thinking caps when you could be progressing with other important people in life.
Making Mistakes About Love
One of the hardest issues for me to deal with when it comes to forming relationships is managing my anger. Maybe a woman won't be so responsive from being busy and not really interested in you, oh well. Being the guy, if I'm really interested in the girl, I'm going to wait it out and do my part in trying to get to know her and see what she's about still. If she ends up forming a bond with someone else then it's like crash and burn and time to find someone else again.
I guess it really helps to hold back those feelings of getting intimate with a person and to get to know the person just to make sure what type of person she really is and to also realize what could possibly happen in the future. Falling in love is actually a lot of fun- I think I might have been in love once but never really gave into the feeling. I believe that it's actually fun to try out new things and to chase after women who you're interested in even if she doesn't really want to do anything with you. The issue with making mistakes is just making painful realizations and I think sticking to some safe principles and keeping a cool head will seriously help in forming a lasting relationship with the partner.
I guess it really helps to hold back those feelings of getting intimate with a person and to get to know the person just to make sure what type of person she really is and to also realize what could possibly happen in the future. Falling in love is actually a lot of fun- I think I might have been in love once but never really gave into the feeling. I believe that it's actually fun to try out new things and to chase after women who you're interested in even if she doesn't really want to do anything with you. The issue with making mistakes is just making painful realizations and I think sticking to some safe principles and keeping a cool head will seriously help in forming a lasting relationship with the partner.
Hardest Things In Life
With so many things coming across my mind now, there are so many other things I could try without worrying about it. It's going to take some time with readjusting but shouldn't be too much of a problem. There's a big life ahead of us and what's more important is to go in that direction.
It's easy to lose track of time when we are by ourselves. These feelings that just have to get recounted all the time might sometimes tire some of us out. What's important is that we don't end up losing our identities over our daily affairs and to not worry so much about things that would end up bugging us.
Many things take courses of action, and it looks like from just having an open mind when looking out there with possibilities, there's just so many things to expect. Setting aside my own personal goal sheet, I'm seeing that I literally am probably only following one or two of them. It looks like with the time given to me, I'm sort of wasting it when I'm by myself by looking into some tasteful leisure. I guess leisure is great and all but I have this personal ambition now where I really want to exceed in great abundance with the things I do.
It's easy to lose track of time when we are by ourselves. These feelings that just have to get recounted all the time might sometimes tire some of us out. What's important is that we don't end up losing our identities over our daily affairs and to not worry so much about things that would end up bugging us.
Many things take courses of action, and it looks like from just having an open mind when looking out there with possibilities, there's just so many things to expect. Setting aside my own personal goal sheet, I'm seeing that I literally am probably only following one or two of them. It looks like with the time given to me, I'm sort of wasting it when I'm by myself by looking into some tasteful leisure. I guess leisure is great and all but I have this personal ambition now where I really want to exceed in great abundance with the things I do.
Realizing Potential
Lot of things happen in life where you might not always understand everything. Being in a situation where I'm at, sometimes the best thing to do is to move forward. From not always being sure about stuff, I sometimes had a knack to do okay things. Despite people doing wrong to me and with the little things that bug me, it's important for me to still get along well enough to get to where I would like to be. Sometimes, people are just not going to be at a destination I'm headed for.
I am okay with it now and with the stupid things I did in the past, I'm now laughing about it even though if it got me in so much trouble. I'm learning to just deal with those consequences underneath and just take it in and move forward now. If the people around me who were affected are not willing to do the same, then I'm just going to have to move along still without them if time does not permit me to get through to them; also, it's just a choice I finally have to make in letting some people go. It's a judgement call that I do not like, but I'm going to have to make it in order to do the right thing. I think I'm just not going to try to do too much now and only do enough that I think pretty much resembles a decent effort and then move along without stressing out so much about it if it doesn't click well.
I am okay with it now and with the stupid things I did in the past, I'm now laughing about it even though if it got me in so much trouble. I'm learning to just deal with those consequences underneath and just take it in and move forward now. If the people around me who were affected are not willing to do the same, then I'm just going to have to move along still without them if time does not permit me to get through to them; also, it's just a choice I finally have to make in letting some people go. It's a judgement call that I do not like, but I'm going to have to make it in order to do the right thing. I think I'm just not going to try to do too much now and only do enough that I think pretty much resembles a decent effort and then move along without stressing out so much about it if it doesn't click well.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Adding Icing To The Cake
I think a lot of things don't really matter, but still many reasons of wanting to be accepted for who a person is and many different crazy ideas out there, it just makes me laugh while blocking out any personal frustrations. I guess I have the basic goods from basically just being born and having some functionality even if it might turn limited later in life.
Forget the past, think forward, be thus minded. Philippians 3:13-16
I guess life gets really hard sometimes but then again might as well just work hard and be patient in my moral upbringing and go from there and be sure to get all those little things done to ensure my health and to have fun later with the right people in mind. I guess it doesn't hurt to paint the barn and work out and build muscle and do some fun stuff like doing back flips and breaking bricks from mastering a form of martial arts. It's a lot of hard work to do those things, but then again it seems like fun to do them and to focus on those things along with a great relationship with a good person.
Forget the past, think forward, be thus minded. Philippians 3:13-16
I guess life gets really hard sometimes but then again might as well just work hard and be patient in my moral upbringing and go from there and be sure to get all those little things done to ensure my health and to have fun later with the right people in mind. I guess it doesn't hurt to paint the barn and work out and build muscle and do some fun stuff like doing back flips and breaking bricks from mastering a form of martial arts. It's a lot of hard work to do those things, but then again it seems like fun to do them and to focus on those things along with a great relationship with a good person.
Finding Stuff To Do
It's pretty cool in that it seems things with the girl I'm interested in have been going along pretty smoothly. I'm still under questioning in that with my Asian ethnicity, I've grown up to really want to marry into just my own race. However, it seems like I need to give it a chance and check out what other races might have in store for me now. One of my friends is pretty funny in that he just wants to be with probably one of the worst type of women out there who are blonde and bimbo-like. He makes all these funny descriptions of what he really wants and is actually pretty serious about it. I accept him for who he is and not going to see for him any less now.
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing. James 1:4
This verse is really important to me in that sometimes my desires might want to catch up to me and get the best of me while leaving me in despair. I think a lot of guys or women out there who aren't really that successful or attractive looking might sometimes fall into this trap of feeling worthless inside. The problem is that some people lose some self-control and do pretty crazy things as a result which might hurt the people who care about them.
I'm now understanding that I need to hold back because it's pretty much the morally right thing to do in some cases. I realize that being a short individual and around 5' 3 - 5"4 which is really short for a guy, I've actually still attracted some women in my life physically. I don't know how it's done for me. It's a paradox in that I would feel so bad in being automatically filtered out by other women for being short, but then in my life while I was pretty zoned out, I was actually pretty attractive to some women I knew.
Anyway, I did have opportunity to meet some women if I really desired at the time- I was just self absorbed in the wrong details and not letting go of some things well enough from being too worried about stuff. Now, I'm really stable underneath and have yet to see what I can accomplish now.
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing. James 1:4
This verse is really important to me in that sometimes my desires might want to catch up to me and get the best of me while leaving me in despair. I think a lot of guys or women out there who aren't really that successful or attractive looking might sometimes fall into this trap of feeling worthless inside. The problem is that some people lose some self-control and do pretty crazy things as a result which might hurt the people who care about them.
I'm now understanding that I need to hold back because it's pretty much the morally right thing to do in some cases. I realize that being a short individual and around 5' 3 - 5"4 which is really short for a guy, I've actually still attracted some women in my life physically. I don't know how it's done for me. It's a paradox in that I would feel so bad in being automatically filtered out by other women for being short, but then in my life while I was pretty zoned out, I was actually pretty attractive to some women I knew.
Anyway, I did have opportunity to meet some women if I really desired at the time- I was just self absorbed in the wrong details and not letting go of some things well enough from being too worried about stuff. Now, I'm really stable underneath and have yet to see what I can accomplish now.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Stability
I think what's made this blog more popular these days has basically been me writing on stuff a little more honestly and basically transforming into a more stable individual from an emotional point. It's something that I totally lacked in the past and something that really killed me all these years from establishing proper relations with others.
I'm really behind the curve in social matters dealing with some people. I mean I've met some really young, courageous, and beautifully minded individuals over the years, and it's been tough for me to deal with my own feelings of despair and vexations. It's a mixture of anger and frustration that I'm just dealing with and letting be a part of me now. More and more, these feelings are just becoming less and being replaced with laughter underneath.
I'm really behind the curve in social matters dealing with some people. I mean I've met some really young, courageous, and beautifully minded individuals over the years, and it's been tough for me to deal with my own feelings of despair and vexations. It's a mixture of anger and frustration that I'm just dealing with and letting be a part of me now. More and more, these feelings are just becoming less and being replaced with laughter underneath.
Boy, It's Going To Take Awhile
Wow, looks like I really do cause discomfort in a lot of people. Just the way I am, it doesn't really matter what I do, I just cause so much disruption and annoyances all the time with people. There's just some part of me that has this vibe that people are not really into. The cool part is that I know who some of these people are and that I now realize the stability that's inside of me.
I'm a pretty daring individual and I understand that with my struggles, I sometimes let it out anyway while trying to numb out the pain I'm feeling of being doubtful. Sometimes, I have these emotions of feeling a little panic underneath whenever I did something. Now that I'm actually stable and not really mad, words are just words and people are just people. Some are more prone to being pretty bad with you compared to others just being okay with you.
Because of my ability to be pretty vicarious with people and nowadays, understanding my own personal stability and how to approach things, I'm starting to see how it pans out. Basically, I could probably bug guys all I want and scare them or do whatever with them and make fun of them and threaten to defend myself in a way they would end up being in pain. With the women, I have to just go after the ones who I'm actually pretty fond of now.
The problem with me being unsuccessful was just me not being sure of myself in the past. I now am very sure of myself and pretty confident in my own beliefs about how people are sort of like.
I'm a pretty daring individual and I understand that with my struggles, I sometimes let it out anyway while trying to numb out the pain I'm feeling of being doubtful. Sometimes, I have these emotions of feeling a little panic underneath whenever I did something. Now that I'm actually stable and not really mad, words are just words and people are just people. Some are more prone to being pretty bad with you compared to others just being okay with you.
Because of my ability to be pretty vicarious with people and nowadays, understanding my own personal stability and how to approach things, I'm starting to see how it pans out. Basically, I could probably bug guys all I want and scare them or do whatever with them and make fun of them and threaten to defend myself in a way they would end up being in pain. With the women, I have to just go after the ones who I'm actually pretty fond of now.
The problem with me being unsuccessful was just me not being sure of myself in the past. I now am very sure of myself and pretty confident in my own beliefs about how people are sort of like.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Most Important Post Forever!!!
This is my idea of the greatest post anyone will ever read. Regardless of what the human being is, no matter how great or bad he or she is, and no matter how young or old or whatever situation a person has been put through or battling with, God loves each and every one of us with all of His mind, heart, and soul! We should do the same, along with loving others with all of our mind, heart, and soul and then treating them like our neighbors. This is really hard to do, I know when some of us would rather just talk bad about others for some reason of not being all there or not being that hard working and stuff or not even wager on getting those emotions or frustrated later with somebody. If we labor at it, it can still be done and we don't have to do every single favor for everybody in this planet by being wise about it.
By simply placing faith in this savior who has lived in human history before and is also professing himself to be returning, there is a powerful transformation of the heart that can take place for anyone who simply wishes to accept him into his or her heart. This person is referred to as the chosen one or the Messiah- I think people know what I'm talking about.
By simply placing faith in this savior who has lived in human history before and is also professing himself to be returning, there is a powerful transformation of the heart that can take place for anyone who simply wishes to accept him into his or her heart. This person is referred to as the chosen one or the Messiah- I think people know what I'm talking about.
THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT POST YOU WILL EVER READ IN YOUR LIFE TIME.
You, I know what you are, I'm taking about the person who is reading this, I know your life history. Why the Hell can't you see where your life is going to end up, I see it clear as crystal.
It's your ego, EVERY DECISION YOU HAVE EVER MADE, YOUR PRIDEFUL EGO TOOK PART IN.
Think real carefully (ONLY IF YOU ARE AN ELITE SAINT [1 IN 10 MILLION] IS THE EGO THROWN OUT OF THE EQUATION).
YOUR EGO HAS MANIFESTED IT SELF INTO SOME FORM OF SUB-CONSCIOUSNESS SO HIDDEN INSIDE YOUR MIND THAT YOU WILL DENY IT EVEN EXISTS. AT FIRST READING THIS YOUR PRIDEFUL EGO WILL TELL YOU, THIS IS JUST A DUMB RANDOM POSTING.
SEE HOW SMART YOUR EGO IS! IT KNOWS THAT IT COULD BE DISCOVERED SO IT WILL TRY ANYTHING TO TAKE YOUR MIND OFF OF IT. THE NATURAL CONSCIOUS THAT YOU WERE BORN WITH HAS BEEN TAKEN OVER BY YOUR EGO.
PS: LUCIFER WAS KICKED OUT OF HEAVEN FOR HIS PRIDEFUL EGO. LOL
PS 2: HE REFUSED TO BOW DOWN TO THE HUMAN GENO (ADAM & EVE)
PS 3: NOW HUMANS ARE SO PROUD AND THINK THEY KNOW EVERYTHING THAT'S IMPORTANT, THEY DON'T KNOW THAT WHEN HUMANS REACHE A CERTAIN AGE (34-36) THEIR EGO HAS TAKEN OVER THEIR MIND COMPLETELY, AND THEIR NATURAL SELF IS ALL BUT ERASED, SO THEY NEVER GOT TO NOW WHO THEY REALLY WERE IN THE END AND SINFUL PRIDE IS ALL THAT'S LEFT. lol
It's your ego, EVERY DECISION YOU HAVE EVER MADE, YOUR PRIDEFUL EGO TOOK PART IN.
Think real carefully (ONLY IF YOU ARE AN ELITE SAINT [1 IN 10 MILLION] IS THE EGO THROWN OUT OF THE EQUATION).
YOUR EGO HAS MANIFESTED IT SELF INTO SOME FORM OF SUB-CONSCIOUSNESS SO HIDDEN INSIDE YOUR MIND THAT YOU WILL DENY IT EVEN EXISTS. AT FIRST READING THIS YOUR PRIDEFUL EGO WILL TELL YOU, THIS IS JUST A DUMB RANDOM POSTING.
SEE HOW SMART YOUR EGO IS! IT KNOWS THAT IT COULD BE DISCOVERED SO IT WILL TRY ANYTHING TO TAKE YOUR MIND OFF OF IT. THE NATURAL CONSCIOUS THAT YOU WERE BORN WITH HAS BEEN TAKEN OVER BY YOUR EGO.
PS: LUCIFER WAS KICKED OUT OF HEAVEN FOR HIS PRIDEFUL EGO. LOL
PS 2: HE REFUSED TO BOW DOWN TO THE HUMAN GENO (ADAM & EVE)
PS 3: NOW HUMANS ARE SO PROUD AND THINK THEY KNOW EVERYTHING THAT'S IMPORTANT, THEY DON'T KNOW THAT WHEN HUMANS REACHE A CERTAIN AGE (34-36) THEIR EGO HAS TAKEN OVER THEIR MIND COMPLETELY, AND THEIR NATURAL SELF IS ALL BUT ERASED, SO THEY NEVER GOT TO NOW WHO THEY REALLY WERE IN THE END AND SINFUL PRIDE IS ALL THAT'S LEFT. lol
Pursuance Under Patience
I've had this drunken stupor in the past. Although I was not heavily under any influence of drugs or alcohol and never will be, I've had some trouble figuring out what my stability was. Nowadays, I know my calm and relaxed right inside all the depressing feelings and modes of anger that I sometimes get throughout the day. I'm starting to become very aware of my own personal frustrations and how it ties in with others who are just as bothered as I am now.
Unfortunately, some people are going to feel lucky that I'm never going to go talk to them. I'm okay with it because underneath, I know they're not going that far like how it is in life. I guess the really successful people don't let their frustrations like that get to them anyway.
Unfortunately, some people are going to feel lucky that I'm never going to go talk to them. I'm okay with it because underneath, I know they're not going that far like how it is in life. I guess the really successful people don't let their frustrations like that get to them anyway.
Living Through It All
Challenges in life really pertain to things that just are waiting to happen and not being to able to expect some things. I think the reason why people have been blocking me on Facebook is because they are afraid of how they are going to feel ultimately with me. It's that they're afraid that they're going to act out in a really selfish manner. Anything that's happening, just have to be natural about the incident while minimizing my own sins.
I'm just writing rubbish right now because I'm brainstorming very frantically now. I'm playing out likely scenarios already after establishing some basics in my mind. It really doesn't matter how others feel about me because I have a feeling of what they're going through now.
I think they're just going through a situation where they're just really bothered or mad about something. They need some type of encouragement from me and by me not providing it, it's letting them down. They probably feel like something they don't want to feel under some uncertainty and just can't seem to handle it. Obviously, in the mind everyone can only go so far so that's where everybody is going to converge eventually.
I'm just writing rubbish right now because I'm brainstorming very frantically now. I'm playing out likely scenarios already after establishing some basics in my mind. It really doesn't matter how others feel about me because I have a feeling of what they're going through now.
I think they're just going through a situation where they're just really bothered or mad about something. They need some type of encouragement from me and by me not providing it, it's letting them down. They probably feel like something they don't want to feel under some uncertainty and just can't seem to handle it. Obviously, in the mind everyone can only go so far so that's where everybody is going to converge eventually.
Getting Around
Recently, I've been finding out that the people who do really know me are the ones who are probably going to handle my own craziness. I guess sometimes people get moody at stuff and just cut the cord because they think it's the right thing to do. The world as it is, is getting pretty crazy and violent out there.
I really accept my weaknesses and everything about myself now. What's really saved my hide with the good people has been to just be an honest person. My mind is just starting to numb out with all the morality in this world. However, there is something in my belief in God category which is keeping me from engaging in some sinful activities. I'm now cutting them out, and I'm also not worrying so much about my predicament.
I really accept my weaknesses and everything about myself now. What's really saved my hide with the good people has been to just be an honest person. My mind is just starting to numb out with all the morality in this world. However, there is something in my belief in God category which is keeping me from engaging in some sinful activities. I'm now cutting them out, and I'm also not worrying so much about my predicament.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Trading Discussion
This is just a generalization of how I'm running my own trading system now. I've had a lot of help from different sources and from putting it together, I've come out with something that is testable and is part of my preferences. In the beginning, I thought I could come up with a one-size-fits-all method where I could just leave it there and keep on making money automatically! I created a trading robot and with all those painful hours of coding, I managed to come up with one and easily create a new one whenever I wanted to.
After all the excitement of creating my robot, I put it to the test. It was a failure! Then, I started looking at different tools while feeling pressured to make money. I ended up spending countless hours analyzing tools that I wanted. All of a sudden, I found some consistency with a trading method and ever since I've been building upon it with new information and cutting edge stuff!
Now, I can say that I trade with the idea of not being on that long analyzing the markets. I just don't want to put my heart into sitting there and watching how the market reacts which might be fun for some traders. I just pretty much look at the daily charts and plug in some indicators. I gauge how the market is doing and then act when it seems to be a profitable opportunity. I'm not trading every single day though because my indicators tell me not to.
The thing that I'm trying now is just trading on Monday through Thursday and looking to close out on trades at the beginning or end of the month. This would just eliminate any headache and worries of how the market is going to react. I'm finding myself becoming really rapid in analyzing the trades and this is really good for me.
I'm also trying something new which is doing add-on trades- this is a concept I never thought of doing before. Whenever I'm already in a profitable trade and another signal pops up for a good trade, I should pretty much add on to the collection plate! My money management scheme is to pretty much just risk only 2% of my account per trade. This just eliminates the headache of losing huge each time and worrying about not making it back. I find that it's better to play this conservative route.
After all the excitement of creating my robot, I put it to the test. It was a failure! Then, I started looking at different tools while feeling pressured to make money. I ended up spending countless hours analyzing tools that I wanted. All of a sudden, I found some consistency with a trading method and ever since I've been building upon it with new information and cutting edge stuff!
Now, I can say that I trade with the idea of not being on that long analyzing the markets. I just don't want to put my heart into sitting there and watching how the market reacts which might be fun for some traders. I just pretty much look at the daily charts and plug in some indicators. I gauge how the market is doing and then act when it seems to be a profitable opportunity. I'm not trading every single day though because my indicators tell me not to.
The thing that I'm trying now is just trading on Monday through Thursday and looking to close out on trades at the beginning or end of the month. This would just eliminate any headache and worries of how the market is going to react. I'm finding myself becoming really rapid in analyzing the trades and this is really good for me.
I'm also trying something new which is doing add-on trades- this is a concept I never thought of doing before. Whenever I'm already in a profitable trade and another signal pops up for a good trade, I should pretty much add on to the collection plate! My money management scheme is to pretty much just risk only 2% of my account per trade. This just eliminates the headache of losing huge each time and worrying about not making it back. I find that it's better to play this conservative route.
More To Come
Even though the doors may be shut sometimes by some influential people, there is a bigger picture. There are more opportunities out there- meaning there are always bigger fish in the sea to go after and catch. It's a hard world out there and without having the slightest clue of personal morals and standards, it's going to be a very bouncy trip out on the sea.
The Bible states that honesty is like a kiss on the lips (Proverbs 24:26). I guess looking at the verse it would mean to encourage us to answer honestly to our loved ones for a more intimate relationship. It also means that being truthful when questioned allows others to regroup themselves if something cataclysmic happens.
I'm finding myself becoming more addicted to being an honest person because it's helping me deal with some rotten issues in my own selfish nature and how it applies to leading others in the right direction. It's just laboring when being honest and also cunning and funny and very nice at the same time. It helps in getting along with others, and it's something I am finally living in with patience.
Honestly, I'm so glad that I have some women who I am attracted to, regardless of their marital status and pursuing an honest friendship with them. It's just helping me figuring out who I am and what I'm made of and when the moments comes for me to become a husband and dad, I won't be standing around in the sidelines or will myself to failure.
The Bible states that honesty is like a kiss on the lips (Proverbs 24:26). I guess looking at the verse it would mean to encourage us to answer honestly to our loved ones for a more intimate relationship. It also means that being truthful when questioned allows others to regroup themselves if something cataclysmic happens.
I'm finding myself becoming more addicted to being an honest person because it's helping me deal with some rotten issues in my own selfish nature and how it applies to leading others in the right direction. It's just laboring when being honest and also cunning and funny and very nice at the same time. It helps in getting along with others, and it's something I am finally living in with patience.
Honestly, I'm so glad that I have some women who I am attracted to, regardless of their marital status and pursuing an honest friendship with them. It's just helping me figuring out who I am and what I'm made of and when the moments comes for me to become a husband and dad, I won't be standing around in the sidelines or will myself to failure.
Blog Is Now Charity
Google has stated that it will switching over to affiliate ads instead of the usual ad one would see at the end of every post. I'm not going to spend my time advertising products because face it, I'm not really on here to make money with this site. I'll just call this site as a way of giving back my thanks to the world for my upbringing with beautiful parents and a little sister who I've had trouble coming to terms with in the past.
I'm also grateful for all the neat friends I've been able to meet up. Although they are few in number, they are incredibly unique, gifted, and beautiful people. It doesn't matter how old they are neither do their appearance even matter to me- man or woman. I'm finding myself purusing after creating ties on people I'm attracted to now. I'm afraid that I had to establish a personal judgment system on those people who have closed their doors with me.
It's really quite simple because I know how to be straight up with people now in person or whichever medium they prefer. Basically, I'm just sticking around with females who are related to me or the ones I actually like when problems surface. Because of the female psyche and array of emotions she can display, it is possible for me to relate with the lucky girl and let her know how much accepted she is and how much I don't give a dratz about her faults with me.
Because of the emotion and sense of security factor that women seem to universally possess, I'm only sticking to the ones who I'm actually attracted to or related to. If there are women who just like being friendly regardless of my own personal bias with her, I accept her even though I don't have any desire to go dating with her. In other words, I don't mind working things out with people instead of closing the door on others. I'm the one who does most of the leading anyway, or that's what it seems like with how I've been raised.
I'm also grateful for all the neat friends I've been able to meet up. Although they are few in number, they are incredibly unique, gifted, and beautiful people. It doesn't matter how old they are neither do their appearance even matter to me- man or woman. I'm finding myself purusing after creating ties on people I'm attracted to now. I'm afraid that I had to establish a personal judgment system on those people who have closed their doors with me.
It's really quite simple because I know how to be straight up with people now in person or whichever medium they prefer. Basically, I'm just sticking around with females who are related to me or the ones I actually like when problems surface. Because of the female psyche and array of emotions she can display, it is possible for me to relate with the lucky girl and let her know how much accepted she is and how much I don't give a dratz about her faults with me.
Because of the emotion and sense of security factor that women seem to universally possess, I'm only sticking to the ones who I'm actually attracted to or related to. If there are women who just like being friendly regardless of my own personal bias with her, I accept her even though I don't have any desire to go dating with her. In other words, I don't mind working things out with people instead of closing the door on others. I'm the one who does most of the leading anyway, or that's what it seems like with how I've been raised.
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Interesting Turnout
Basically, the girl I actually felt comfortable liking for the first time in my life since high school had okay results. Man, those high school puberty days were so horrible! I remember trying to squeeze my acne and feeling terrible about my appearance and then telling this cute Caucasian girl that I liked her on the phone. Man, that was so hard to admit it to her. It was the toughest thing I ever did in high school which was to admit that I sort of liked her.
Those were some funny days- she's my Facebook bud and all grown up all settled down now with kids of her own. At least she likes one of my Facebook posts and probably still gets a decent amount of encouragement from me. Okay, I'm cool with it.
This girl I've been talking too is pretty chatty and I sort of like it! I can tell that I'm getting a lot of useful info on how women like to think or basically, the kind of women I like. I guess it's really positive for me with how things have been going for us. In a matter of four months, she's technically text me more times than any other human has done in my lifetime. That's some serious amount of texting and I like it! Chatting comfortably with a woman that I'm actually into feels good. I'm really cool about how she wants to run things with her boyfriend and all- I don't mind if they get married now; I'm just on my own personal journey and I've been told by another female friend to not worry and that my time will come.
Those were some funny days- she's my Facebook bud and all grown up all settled down now with kids of her own. At least she likes one of my Facebook posts and probably still gets a decent amount of encouragement from me. Okay, I'm cool with it.
This girl I've been talking too is pretty chatty and I sort of like it! I can tell that I'm getting a lot of useful info on how women like to think or basically, the kind of women I like. I guess it's really positive for me with how things have been going for us. In a matter of four months, she's technically text me more times than any other human has done in my lifetime. That's some serious amount of texting and I like it! Chatting comfortably with a woman that I'm actually into feels good. I'm really cool about how she wants to run things with her boyfriend and all- I don't mind if they get married now; I'm just on my own personal journey and I've been told by another female friend to not worry and that my time will come.
Tough Luck
Looks like the woman I was aiming for actually might have a boyfriend she's into already! I was under the impression that she didn't like him anymore or something just didn't work out between the two. Anyhow, I'm not breaking up any relationship because of me. I'm going to respect that she's a grown adult who gets to make her own choices even if it doesn't mean me thinking she's going to get everything she deserves.
I'm going for the personality type and decent lifestyle in a woman. It doesn't matter how pretty her face or something curvy on her body appears to me- I really like to see the inner beauty of a person now. I mean I feel attracted to a woman whose around my age, and I know that I'm going to stay dedicated. More and more, I'm working on becoming the right type of person for the right woman to become my spouse. Even if I don't end up getting married or having that life of being with children, at least I got to enjoy playing the game in a morally acceptable way. Okay, I'm really sticking to the principles of the Bible and despite me not having come out very appealing to people in the world, it doesn't really bother me that much anymore. I'm just learning to become more stable these days, and I'm still going to pick up a few things that I need to know along the way.
I mean I could see some possible weaknesses if I were to have gone into a relationship with her. Maybe it's for the better, if the opportunity doesn't go there. I'm okay with just staying friends and getting to know her- I think I could seriously benefit from actually becoming close with her. Maybe, I'll be able to form a decent friendship with her man too. I don't really care- I'm just in it for me to understand what I like in women and I'm going to be friendly about it without playing mean and selfish like some other grumpy young men do.
I'm going for the personality type and decent lifestyle in a woman. It doesn't matter how pretty her face or something curvy on her body appears to me- I really like to see the inner beauty of a person now. I mean I feel attracted to a woman whose around my age, and I know that I'm going to stay dedicated. More and more, I'm working on becoming the right type of person for the right woman to become my spouse. Even if I don't end up getting married or having that life of being with children, at least I got to enjoy playing the game in a morally acceptable way. Okay, I'm really sticking to the principles of the Bible and despite me not having come out very appealing to people in the world, it doesn't really bother me that much anymore. I'm just learning to become more stable these days, and I'm still going to pick up a few things that I need to know along the way.
I mean I could see some possible weaknesses if I were to have gone into a relationship with her. Maybe it's for the better, if the opportunity doesn't go there. I'm okay with just staying friends and getting to know her- I think I could seriously benefit from actually becoming close with her. Maybe, I'll be able to form a decent friendship with her man too. I don't really care- I'm just in it for me to understand what I like in women and I'm going to be friendly about it without playing mean and selfish like some other grumpy young men do.
Monday, October 8, 2012
Accepting Fate While In Denial
It's sometimes embedded in our hearts that when we deny something we're worried about it, it actually occurs- then what?! This is what I feel, if I approach this one property then I will be dealing with people who just hate me and will do anything in their power to get rid of me. The ironic thing is that the place is a church! Yeah, it's really funny to get this feeling from a religious group- they're a pretty sensitive bunch who gave up on me after being desperate about trying to change me.
I can't resist the urge to go there and cause a little social havoc. It's just too funny now to see them act up and call the cops on me. I'll be out of there before the cops arrive and maybe they'll try to sue me on grounds of just bothering them with appearing at their property. It's just too entertaining to feel the suspense of what's really going to happen. I'm really anticipating my arrival at that place one day once I have enough in order.
Yeah, if the judge officially tells me to stay off their property then yeah, I'll be laughing in person and say, "No problem, your honor; I was just bored and needed a little entertainment from some disturbed people." I'm really learning how to be this balanced and sought after individual now, and I guess that's a good thing to realize. I think this woman I'm trying to date really likes being pursued by decent men in general and enjoys the thoughtful comments people make about her. I feel little sad that I can't be involved in some fun and cute photos like she does and then posts on Facebook. Right now, it's really about exploring for me, so I'm glad that I'm interacting with her pretty positively- it's fun because I'm interested in her culture and upbringing right now. I really need to know what the women I'm interested are about and how it ties together with mutual desire or attraction.
I can't resist the urge to go there and cause a little social havoc. It's just too funny now to see them act up and call the cops on me. I'll be out of there before the cops arrive and maybe they'll try to sue me on grounds of just bothering them with appearing at their property. It's just too entertaining to feel the suspense of what's really going to happen. I'm really anticipating my arrival at that place one day once I have enough in order.
Yeah, if the judge officially tells me to stay off their property then yeah, I'll be laughing in person and say, "No problem, your honor; I was just bored and needed a little entertainment from some disturbed people." I'm really learning how to be this balanced and sought after individual now, and I guess that's a good thing to realize. I think this woman I'm trying to date really likes being pursued by decent men in general and enjoys the thoughtful comments people make about her. I feel little sad that I can't be involved in some fun and cute photos like she does and then posts on Facebook. Right now, it's really about exploring for me, so I'm glad that I'm interacting with her pretty positively- it's fun because I'm interested in her culture and upbringing right now. I really need to know what the women I'm interested are about and how it ties together with mutual desire or attraction.
Things Are Different
It's a small start for me now in that with every Facebook comment that I'm making, it's virtually affecting people in an intended way. The hard part was learning to control my anger I had with some people. It was really clouding my judgement in a way that I really was not pleased with. From writing about it truthfully, I found the degrees of burn that I was dealing with- what I mean is that, while feeling enamored about something I just let it all out on this blog while sticking to a few basics of being appropriate. Basically, I don't like cussing in writing or in speech period because it doesn't make me feel good about myself.
I don't feel great about bagging on people too or insulting them because thinking about those details makes me feel sick! I guess the only person I don't mind making fun of is just myself. I don't care how bad the person is now if he has a vendetta with me in how we portrays me as to others. I think it's pretty funny to laugh about too even if it's slightly off in a pretty vexing way.
I was compared to a tall person as a shorty or the other guy was seen as a giant. I started laughing! In the past, I would hide my sorrow. Now, I'm just learning that it takes great effort to live happily even if you are a tall person. The magic trick comes from making everything look easy, and I guess knowing a tall, successful, and handsome guy feels great with supporting him especially if he has a pretty warm heart with you. It's like being entertained in a way and losing ourselves momentarily while reflecting on human greatness. It seems to be part of nature to do this, so even if I hate it at times, I can't control what other people want to think.
I don't feel great about bagging on people too or insulting them because thinking about those details makes me feel sick! I guess the only person I don't mind making fun of is just myself. I don't care how bad the person is now if he has a vendetta with me in how we portrays me as to others. I think it's pretty funny to laugh about too even if it's slightly off in a pretty vexing way.
I was compared to a tall person as a shorty or the other guy was seen as a giant. I started laughing! In the past, I would hide my sorrow. Now, I'm just learning that it takes great effort to live happily even if you are a tall person. The magic trick comes from making everything look easy, and I guess knowing a tall, successful, and handsome guy feels great with supporting him especially if he has a pretty warm heart with you. It's like being entertained in a way and losing ourselves momentarily while reflecting on human greatness. It seems to be part of nature to do this, so even if I hate it at times, I can't control what other people want to think.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Growing Up Pains
I remember how much it sucked talking to a girl who looked like she was into you. I had this mentality that I had to protect my image at all costs and that if I didn't know what to do, then it was like don't do anything at all. It was really hard to open up and act when the opportunity positioned itself. I mean I had a pretty significant advance from two beautiful and morally conservative women. I took one look at them and noticed how tall they were and just couldn't fess up. I remember being with a girl smaller than me, and I felt like she was too short. Man, I was just so insecure about my height. Now, I'm just laughing about it internally and don't really care anymore. I think if she was too tall and she had some significant amount of mass on her then it would be pretty hard for me to keep her on her toes when she needs the support. I mean if it were to happen, I would have to do a lot of working out to get really strong then maybe I might have a good chance in keeping up with what I think a good husband should be composed of.
It seems like with how I am in stature and overall nature, I'm getting pretty fortunate to see some decent window of opportunity with pretty desirable women. I seem to be really monogamous and committed to one I like though.
It seems like with how I am in stature and overall nature, I'm getting pretty fortunate to see some decent window of opportunity with pretty desirable women. I seem to be really monogamous and committed to one I like though.
Friday, October 5, 2012
Managing Trades
I've come across something that might actually work to fit my work schedule! Basically, my strategy is pretty much a break out of support and resistance along with occasionally trading harmonic patterns for counter trends. Pretty much, the trend is your friend and I'm sure if I spent a lot of time at the computer then I could probably do a great amount of milking but I think it's something I could sacrifice as long as I make a decent return off of this market. I would probably be ending up profiting with little bits of chunk change during every trade if I focused on trading for long periods of time each day! By spending only about a couple minutes each day, I can setup a great return which is an astronomical reward compared to the level of effort I'm putting into it. The saying work smarter, not harder is a great adage to apply in my daily trading career.
Basically, I've found that the market will have these large swings on a daily basis and enough trending to potentially make a really good return! I'm basically now reading my charts with relevant moving averages and powerful indicators that form patterns in the shape of creatures like bats and butterflies. I'm really excited about the opportunities that might now pose itself. I'm also using another neat indicator that I have overlooked for awhile- candlesticks. These candlesticks really help in determining the market sentiment of whether it's going bullish or bearish. In my opinion, interpreting them properly is the main driving factor in determining price action along with using moving averages to help filter out very choppy markets. They don't always work, but it helps prevent drawdown to the account.
I believe that trading is a really risky activity and possibly the safest one is to go for the long haul investment which will be pretty slow in depleting a person's account. It's all about how much a person could afford to lose in a reasonable way. The next step would be then to develop a trading arsenal that suits the person's personality; this really takes a lot of hours of hard work to really come up with a profitable system that is suitable for one person only! It doesn't to hurt to obtain the best help along the way, or to get somewhere the best you can.
Therefore, my trading style and methodologies from all this time of practicing and studying this market suits me the best and is the most profitable when I'm doing it for myself. Whereas if I were to manage people's accounts then I could end up with some really angry clients because they might not agree with how I conduct trades and disturb my own focus. It would be all dainty if people never lost trading in the markets but there are those trades where the acceptable thing is to exit and take a loss. This is where money management strictly comes into play and where everybody has their own personal temperament and feelings about the market. I have stress that money management is the most crucial element to any trading system and is what will make or break a system. The risk to reward ratio should at least be 1:2 with risk coming from stop loss- this is the best way to trade in a very volatile and incredibly risky market. My system allows me to be right a little more than half of the time while at least doubling profit I put into the market. This allows for a decent amount of money each month and possibly become my main income for only spending minutes a day in the market. I can live with this financial opportunity and experience a fuller life that's more meaningful with friends and family. It's all in the dream that's kept me going!
Basically, I've found that the market will have these large swings on a daily basis and enough trending to potentially make a really good return! I'm basically now reading my charts with relevant moving averages and powerful indicators that form patterns in the shape of creatures like bats and butterflies. I'm really excited about the opportunities that might now pose itself. I'm also using another neat indicator that I have overlooked for awhile- candlesticks. These candlesticks really help in determining the market sentiment of whether it's going bullish or bearish. In my opinion, interpreting them properly is the main driving factor in determining price action along with using moving averages to help filter out very choppy markets. They don't always work, but it helps prevent drawdown to the account.
I believe that trading is a really risky activity and possibly the safest one is to go for the long haul investment which will be pretty slow in depleting a person's account. It's all about how much a person could afford to lose in a reasonable way. The next step would be then to develop a trading arsenal that suits the person's personality; this really takes a lot of hours of hard work to really come up with a profitable system that is suitable for one person only! It doesn't to hurt to obtain the best help along the way, or to get somewhere the best you can.
Therefore, my trading style and methodologies from all this time of practicing and studying this market suits me the best and is the most profitable when I'm doing it for myself. Whereas if I were to manage people's accounts then I could end up with some really angry clients because they might not agree with how I conduct trades and disturb my own focus. It would be all dainty if people never lost trading in the markets but there are those trades where the acceptable thing is to exit and take a loss. This is where money management strictly comes into play and where everybody has their own personal temperament and feelings about the market. I have stress that money management is the most crucial element to any trading system and is what will make or break a system. The risk to reward ratio should at least be 1:2 with risk coming from stop loss- this is the best way to trade in a very volatile and incredibly risky market. My system allows me to be right a little more than half of the time while at least doubling profit I put into the market. This allows for a decent amount of money each month and possibly become my main income for only spending minutes a day in the market. I can live with this financial opportunity and experience a fuller life that's more meaningful with friends and family. It's all in the dream that's kept me going!
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Time For Me To Start Working Out
Looks like I have a little disadvantage right now with trading because of my work schedule. I'm just going to have to wait before I can get access to a computer at work, or I could just find another broker that could tailor to my needs. It doesn't really matter, but I guess I'll just do ghost trading meaning keeping track of my trading methodology by looking at it everyday.
It's now time for me to go work out. I'm just typing this really fast because I have to go in for the swing shift at work right now. I think in my free time during the week, I'm just going to work out, try to study, and play the piano now. I'm also going to look at possible trades and see if I can wing it.
It's now time for me to go work out. I'm just typing this really fast because I have to go in for the swing shift at work right now. I think in my free time during the week, I'm just going to work out, try to study, and play the piano now. I'm also going to look at possible trades and see if I can wing it.
Trading Example
Almost everyday, I have been focusing on mastering the Forex market. I have grown pretty interested in making a living off of this stuff. It's very tricky and extremely difficult to obtain the rewarding life-style that can come out of it. It takes a lot of discipline and practice so in order words a lot of time and commitment to get to where you want to go. What's even more disheartening is that the majority of people who try this market end up losing! It's more like 95% of people lose in this market.
Without knowing proper concepts like money management and rules of engagement, one won't really have room to succeed. What's really the proper way when there are so many people trying it and how does one go about succeeding in this risky career? I don't know how I managed to claw out of those doubtful feelings and get closer to the gold waiting for me at the other side of the rainbow. I guess it's just a dream that I've been hanging onto which has allowed me to try to pursue this field. This is what my trading application looks like and after about one year of going back and forth with it, it looks really professional! It's like I just put it all together in one breath of fresh air. I don't know how I manage to do this.
The broker I found is a hybrid- meaning that it will both work and act against you depending on what type of trader you are. It can be very intimidating when starting off, so practice, practice, and practice to make this broker become your friend. Despite it being a hybrid, it offers some pretty decent spreads which I found so I'm trading 20 currencies with this broker and they are all under 4 pips. I believe that traders should have the comfort of not letting spread be a factor with trades so anything over 5 pips in spread should be considered negligible. There's plenty of trading opportunities and profitting chances with lower spreads.
Without knowing proper concepts like money management and rules of engagement, one won't really have room to succeed. What's really the proper way when there are so many people trying it and how does one go about succeeding in this risky career? I don't know how I managed to claw out of those doubtful feelings and get closer to the gold waiting for me at the other side of the rainbow. I guess it's just a dream that I've been hanging onto which has allowed me to try to pursue this field. This is what my trading application looks like and after about one year of going back and forth with it, it looks really professional! It's like I just put it all together in one breath of fresh air. I don't know how I manage to do this.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Trading Currency Endeavor
I think I've stepped into some very useful grounds with trading. Trading currency is an extremely risky business without having the proper mentality and training. It's extremely difficult to get on the right track with varying amounts of principles out there and how traders really want to make a living off of it.
I can say that I have some grounds now with my own personal methodology. I'm not really going to share it because even though it might turn out to really profitable for me, I think people are not really going to want to buy into it even if I make a billion dollars off of it because I'm mentioning the truth! Anything can happen in this market, despite your practices and staying strict to your disciple and proven rules of engagement; it is possible to statistically lose more than one could chew.
To start out, it's really important to pick a good broker that would supply the needs of a trader. There are basically two types- the market makers and non dealing brokers. The non dealing brokers are pretty much a trader's friend because they make money off of traders who trade very often. The market makers trade against traders like a casino. I think I'm going to stay away from market makers. The problem I'm noticing is that in the U.S. many brokers are pretty much market makers, so it's extremely difficult to find a perfectly friendly broker that will cater to U.S. citizens. I've read that there are also hybrids meaning that brokers will do both, so they have a win-win situation. The best I could come up with is a hybrid broker in the U.S. Unless I decide to have residence somewhere in Europe, I'm not really going to get access to the best brokers in this currency market. It's the best I could do, so most definitely, from being a trader in the U.S., I definitely won't be able to make clients profit off of investing with me. I'm definitely going to stick to making millions my way while assuming all of the natural risks there and managing it to limit losing so much.
I can say that I have some grounds now with my own personal methodology. I'm not really going to share it because even though it might turn out to really profitable for me, I think people are not really going to want to buy into it even if I make a billion dollars off of it because I'm mentioning the truth! Anything can happen in this market, despite your practices and staying strict to your disciple and proven rules of engagement; it is possible to statistically lose more than one could chew.
To start out, it's really important to pick a good broker that would supply the needs of a trader. There are basically two types- the market makers and non dealing brokers. The non dealing brokers are pretty much a trader's friend because they make money off of traders who trade very often. The market makers trade against traders like a casino. I think I'm going to stay away from market makers. The problem I'm noticing is that in the U.S. many brokers are pretty much market makers, so it's extremely difficult to find a perfectly friendly broker that will cater to U.S. citizens. I've read that there are also hybrids meaning that brokers will do both, so they have a win-win situation. The best I could come up with is a hybrid broker in the U.S. Unless I decide to have residence somewhere in Europe, I'm not really going to get access to the best brokers in this currency market. It's the best I could do, so most definitely, from being a trader in the U.S., I definitely won't be able to make clients profit off of investing with me. I'm definitely going to stick to making millions my way while assuming all of the natural risks there and managing it to limit losing so much.
What's On My Mind
I can't really just let the day go to waste by not applying these wonderful ideas formulating in my head. I really need to apply them by exercising them now. I'm going to have to just do the best I can with taking these baby steps and try to remember where I left off.
Let's see these are the interesting details I have in my head. I have a couple books on doing stretches to make yourself taller- I don't care if people think I won't get any taller and say that it's genetics. At least I have some motivation to do something healthy to my body each morning; it also hurts my chances because I don't care that I am a short person now. When people write on the Internet about how we need to be like 7 feet tall to attract other people, it used to hurt my feelings but now I'm laughing and seeing the actual humor in them. So in the morning, I will try these growth exercises- it actually works; I grew half an inch somewhere in my body permanently! Man, that is powerful stuff- just half an inch difference is wonderful.
I'm going to pop in one of those work out videos. I'm also going to eventually find time to improve my French- not literally, I meant a foreign language- my Asian culture. I really reek in speaking my parent's native language. I can read and write it and say stuff but I don't understand what's happening at that country most of the time because I didn't learn enough to be really proficient at it. It's a good thing I have this language software that is pretty entertaining to try out- okay, it gets really boring but I'm saying it's fun to learn from. It's just the potential in using the language by expressing yourself the way you want it and laughing at people who don't understand you because they only know English.
Let's see these are the interesting details I have in my head. I have a couple books on doing stretches to make yourself taller- I don't care if people think I won't get any taller and say that it's genetics. At least I have some motivation to do something healthy to my body each morning; it also hurts my chances because I don't care that I am a short person now. When people write on the Internet about how we need to be like 7 feet tall to attract other people, it used to hurt my feelings but now I'm laughing and seeing the actual humor in them. So in the morning, I will try these growth exercises- it actually works; I grew half an inch somewhere in my body permanently! Man, that is powerful stuff- just half an inch difference is wonderful.
I'm going to pop in one of those work out videos. I'm also going to eventually find time to improve my French- not literally, I meant a foreign language- my Asian culture. I really reek in speaking my parent's native language. I can read and write it and say stuff but I don't understand what's happening at that country most of the time because I didn't learn enough to be really proficient at it. It's a good thing I have this language software that is pretty entertaining to try out- okay, it gets really boring but I'm saying it's fun to learn from. It's just the potential in using the language by expressing yourself the way you want it and laughing at people who don't understand you because they only know English.
Strategizing Time
I managed to acquire some work out videos and ideas on how to grow my muscles. The end. Now, the real problem that I need to figure out is how to put this into play and actually get myself to working out. I need a really good reason- well, I could use the health benefits and smile most of the time looking at a mirror and actually laugh at the weird shapes and lines that go along the muscles. I think it would definitely give me a lot of confidence in approaching the love of my life!
Reason is set, now I have to stop thinking like a loser. This is the hard part because I can't willingly change myself overnight. I really need to just go after the gold which is what I'm going to do. I have a lot of details in my head right now and I just want to write them out but it seems like I'm putting out something else!
Reason is set, now I have to stop thinking like a loser. This is the hard part because I can't willingly change myself overnight. I really need to just go after the gold which is what I'm going to do. I have a lot of details in my head right now and I just want to write them out but it seems like I'm putting out something else!
My Daily Plan
I'm ready to become more fit and do what's required of me to get there. I think my mind is used to taking a real mental beat down and still does not affect my desires in life. I used to feel bad about disciplining myself and obtaining something great because I would feel that I need to be guilty about something. Man, that's a whole lot of bullocks! Just get out there and do the best you can and go for things that really appeal to you naturally. Hopefully, it all adds up and makes you into a wonderful person!
Sometimes, we can't do everything on our own no matter how much we think we have it going. I guess that's why some people desire to read books for the purpose of finding great ideas on how to live and to explore different principles to apply for their life. It's great to lead others into a more happier place out of loving them and wishing to encourage them in finding that warmth.
I wish I had an actual person in my life who knew exactly what I was going through, but I like many others feel that I'm too complex to be exactly the same with someone else. I am a pretty unruly person inside my heart even though I subject myself to legal authority by not trying to selfishly shoot someone and willing to be faithful and loving to my future wife who would be the caregiver of my nookie.
Sometimes, we can't do everything on our own no matter how much we think we have it going. I guess that's why some people desire to read books for the purpose of finding great ideas on how to live and to explore different principles to apply for their life. It's great to lead others into a more happier place out of loving them and wishing to encourage them in finding that warmth.
I wish I had an actual person in my life who knew exactly what I was going through, but I like many others feel that I'm too complex to be exactly the same with someone else. I am a pretty unruly person inside my heart even though I subject myself to legal authority by not trying to selfishly shoot someone and willing to be faithful and loving to my future wife who would be the caregiver of my nookie.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Staying Focused
I've learned an emotion that's been very valuable for me now. I have learned to not let my emotions get the best of me when I'm feeling extremely irritated or angry about something now and still be myself. It's pretty weird and neat at the same time that I just put everything together on the spot like it was nothing when dealing with people. I wish I was capable of doing this back then when I actually had the issue presented in my face.
I really understand that it really lies with forming a mutual understanding with others you want to relate to. After all, there's really no point in associating with people who are unstable, doing bad stuff to you from being angry or justifying something, and don't want to be your friend. I guess it would be natural to not really like these types of people back. Anyhow, the woman you like, the wife, or female relative might sometimes display some of these characteristics and it's just one of those moments I'll put up with it just because they're the type of gal I want to be around most of the time.
I seriously don't care about being a short person now. It used to make me feel really dejected and solemn about my dating life, but now I don't really care and besides women who judge on the outside surface a whole deal are probably females you wouldn't want to marry anyway. I guess some females have these crazy feelings of depending on a person for having some assets that they don't have just to fend off their personal insecurities. There's just no way I can really be angry or frustrated about it anymore, if I want to function like a regular person.
I really understand that it really lies with forming a mutual understanding with others you want to relate to. After all, there's really no point in associating with people who are unstable, doing bad stuff to you from being angry or justifying something, and don't want to be your friend. I guess it would be natural to not really like these types of people back. Anyhow, the woman you like, the wife, or female relative might sometimes display some of these characteristics and it's just one of those moments I'll put up with it just because they're the type of gal I want to be around most of the time.
I seriously don't care about being a short person now. It used to make me feel really dejected and solemn about my dating life, but now I don't really care and besides women who judge on the outside surface a whole deal are probably females you wouldn't want to marry anyway. I guess some females have these crazy feelings of depending on a person for having some assets that they don't have just to fend off their personal insecurities. There's just no way I can really be angry or frustrated about it anymore, if I want to function like a regular person.
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