I'm pretty unhappy about me messing about with my time management skills and missing a few details on the fly. I'm always trying to put it together in my head, and it's like I'm leaving out a couple important steps. I want to be so good at doing this naturally and being committed at it while so tired and even feeling a bit distracted. In a way, I sort of want to work on personal endeavors from feeling like a machine.
When it comes to people interactions and finding a girlfriend, I can just let emotions run wild and play smart by figuring out ladies and trying to snag the best one out there in the market for me. I'm also trying to play that game now while posing as a decent guy. People just right off the bat usually think I'm smart, so it can scare them if I have some type of beef they aren't sure about. The ones I've been mad at aren't the brightest people around and not at the top of their game and will probably never be a superstar but what are the odds of that ever happening to me? It's like even if they were at the top, would it even matter to me still? Anyways for now it helps me to stay calm by comparing the situations they are going through based on perceiving their economic level of success. Even the police aren't that great and top of their game with money status to me either, especially the ones who bug me!
Looking at myself, I work as a software developer so that already speaks some volume in terms of where I could potentially land up financially. Especially with my personality and being such a crazy video gamer in the past, I just keep on playing to try to win and don't like to give up. I think I was so obsessed at losing in some games and trying to figure it out by myself that I had to let it go so I could catch up on schoolwork and barely passed my classes to graduate college in a reasonable amount of time. Having no job to worry about, it was a lot easier back then and I wish I understood that I could just watch YouTube videos or search online on how to beat those levels so I could save time and move on with my life. Searching online and reading is what I essentially do nowadays to get by with my professional line of work and everybody does it too so it's like it's there to make everyone's life easier and make money so why not keep at it then instead of being stupid and stressing out over some pride issues of trying to pick up knowledge through one's own effort.
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