Firstly, I can be very proud of myself that I didn’t get off of porno last weekend! I don’t think anyone really cares so much what I put on this blog so I wil treat it for personal entertainment purposes and if it inspires something good in others then I will be happy with that too. Honestly, I don’t really see as participating in self-love with porn and holding it in long as possible is really anything of much value anymore. What’s more important is maintaining a proper relationship with the significant other and being able to have good things that come out of it.
Man, I totally forgot to let one of the owners at work know about my decision if I was going to join a planned company anniversary event this weekend. I will have to let him know today. I also do need a car wash because it’s like the birds did some target practice all over it. I guess since the weather here isn’t really that hot right now and I prefer daylight I could do it myself tomorrow at work during my break periods.
These are all little things and I feel like I messed up so much with my time management issues. I think it even turned off a potential relationship with a girl who gave me a chance. Well, I think the crush I had on her died out because I was so stressed out with these feelings while worrying about how she had a boyfriend who was slowly walking out on her. I don't really so much feel in love with her anymore and it's probably because her best friend might have miscalculated with her words of wisdom also. I guess people close to each other won't always even know what's going on, so it's always going to be better to just the ask the person straight up if it's worthwhile and to live with the turn out. If it doesn't go one's way, it's time to move on and try again while chasing after another opportunity until something great happens and to not be lazy and give up with always chasing after something to find a good deal of happiness.
I asked the girl if she was ever attracted to me and she pretty much gave me a long-winded answer which is the same as a yes. I think her fiancé probably knows so he is trying to come out to events if he knows I'm going to be there with her. She messages me that she thinks of me as a brother though, but I think her fiancé doesn't want to leave anything to chance and being sort of protective about their relationship and feeling jealous whenever she gives me a passionate and warm hug of embrace which is what she does as a person with me. It's between him and her to figure it out, and I don't even know what's going to happen if the relationship ever starts dying down in passion. It's going to take a lot of money to do things with her and spice things up, which helps but it's not like she's a materialistic person. It's just the excitement and what a rich guy can do with his money to put his point across that can be so attractive to ladies sometimes. I hope to get there someday while dressing like a normal guy still which will be fun if I still need to find a nice girlfriend to settle down with.
People have problems of happiness to deal with and like to do messed up things to one another even if it's in its smallest form which is what I find people doing to me. It's really important to stay sharp and be happy for the opportunities we have had with the majority of people instead of letting the few stinkers ruin our moods on a daily basis. It's really about finding the opportunity and working hard for happiness. Communication is really the key if there's something with people that needs to be sorted out and I have been realizing that even messaging each other can be so powerful.
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