One of the things I can relate to back then is that I recall just losing heart after failing at something and just never really recovering for the moment. I think it really does take a lot of mental conditioning to be prepared for taking on some hardships and overcoming tough obstacles. After all, it's really about obtaining one's dreams and pursuing after it. It's amazing that even brave souls out there will be living for mainly God and not be about going after riches and just be content from leading others into His kingdom. I confess that I have been listening to a lot of the Bible while driving daily. I'm already half way through the book of 2 Samuel. Just listening to Bible passages in an orderly verse by verse manner has been sufficient for me, and it's going to be my third time with trying to listen to the whole Bible.
Something I did pick up on is that when a person is afraid then most likely the Spirit of the Lord has left him or her. I turned that into sort of a joke and messaged someone who is married to someone who created unnecessary drama with me. She replied with a thank you in a matter of minutes after receiving the message! I have been surprised lately with how a few others from my past have been responding well to me, and I didn't even expect it to go that way. It is definitely a confident booster and I'm not stopping with developing myself and becoming even a better person. It's like picturing myself in a form of competition with all those people. In a way, I have to thank them for being the way they were because it brought me to the edge and had me struggling to find answers about myself and how others view me.
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