Monday, January 30, 2023

On Considering Romance With a Close Friend

4AverageLife's Main Personal List
  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. 
  2. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  3. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  4. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  5. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
  6. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Finish my software engineering related courses. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now have this undying love and companionship with her and maintain being a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 
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What did I do right today? 

I am making better strides to improve myself and putting up a routine discipline that I can be happy with, while waiting for a beautiful woman to come into my life. 

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It feels really beautiful and natural to have these good thoughts or feelings about being in love with someone and engaging in all the good things that come from being physically involved with the relationship. I've found myself growing once again and I am what I like to call myself and confirmed by an annoying leader on purpose in the Army as part of the crowd in the better half! 

With this close lady friend of mine, I think her bad qualities are that she can be sensitive in a bad way, stubborn, selfish, hold grudges and misjudgements, and flake out on a whim. She does try to communicate and be a good person while constantly failing at it and holding onto her own preferences. I still love her though.

It's a thing of beauty to behold how we can always work out our friendship. I believe that I'm a better and stronger individual than her. I'm also quite a bit sweeter than all the guys she's used to dating and I'm doing these decent things out of the comfort of my own heart. It must make her feel unworthy sometimes and I remember she even told me that plainly a little while ago! 

Another thing that I've come to accept open mindedly is that we can also work out a great romantic relationship. Her weakness can be my strength when I'm weak, and I always feel great about her letting me end some of our arguments peacefully. I think she also struggles with it in a comical sense too!