Tuesday, June 30, 2009

That Humble Feeling

This post is just about me releasing all my worries onto this small text box. I've always thought that having a certain emotion that contained a little overwhelming feeling would help me to get through the toughest obstacles. I think sometimes people fail to realize what they are doing wrong and become totally empowered into blaming someone else for their own misery. It could be even with them trying to stand up for someone. What I think occurs is that they feel egotistical and happy about what they are trying to impose on someone else.

It seems to be like their feelings need to be clarified in a loving direction by someone who could lead them. In the context of religion and legalism, I don't find them to be the solution to life. It's more of a distraction, rather than the answer to living out life. What you were born with and accepting some sort of misnomer does not always seem to hit the right places when faced with opposition.

I personally been wanting to show love to others, despite all the annoyances with their unreasonable impositions. I seem to be getting a lot of arguments and full-content breaths from basically people I come across. Just asking has brought me some confusion and triumphs. Perhaps, God knows that I'm listening to everyone's advice and that I have to still rely on God for all comfort when I cannot find it through people. I don't need to focus on theories; I practically want life. Right now, it's really important to get out of a jam in a likable standard.

Monday, June 29, 2009

This is just another post

I finally feel like I'm writing to an open space. I have my own personal psychology. I feel so comfortable just writing where everyone has the liberty to see it, if they choose. Maybe, it's bad for me to always go around and advertise that I have a blog. It must have been really horrible for me to test my writing. I basically went through a funk when I sent out a lot of e-mails. I was trying to get a clearer grasp of reality. Things were bothering me, but I was not intending on hurting anyone because of it. I feel that being direct with a purpose, especially long paragraphs that transcend several pages should be sufficient reason for me to vent whatever is needed to that person.

To do it in a literary manner with perfect grammar, nice speech, and average discernment pretty much encompasses my premature style of making myself a struggling writer. I think having nothing to write about it, but the pastime has brought me a lot more bizarre events with overly sensitive people. They have formed like a mob and pretty much ousted me from their party. If I ever show up again, they will pretty much notify the high officials and I get busted with a restraining order. Ouch, those things are really touchy and take a long time to heal from for the other guy who put it on you. For me, I'm just trying to neutralize the situation. Not that easy when the other guy is explaining his situation and you want to sympathize but something inside of you wants to take over and just literally drill him for being so wrong.

Life continues in the direction of the opposite or the positive, I suppose there's nothing good to expect out of everyone sometimes. To be accepting of it is pretty much my ultimate challenge.

I pretty much just want to get a job where I can make my own schedule, not really intrude on other people's lives, and be pretty lucrative in it. I also would like to repent from personal endeavors that are going to harm me on the long run, if another close person I get attached to finds out.

I just need to let life run its course, while listening avidly to what everyone wants me to do. I'm pretty lost with that direction right now, in how everyone says I should be doing something a particular way because they do not understand how I am feeling. I guess I'm a pretty mellow person, and I just need to open up better to give others room to compromise with me. This situation is something that is going to go on for a long time. The more ruts I go through, the less I want to commit suicide so I think I'm not going nuts because I'm just feeling more empowered.

I also want to work out. I want to get everyone back on my Facebook again. I also want to get taller, even though the dream has been fading away. I don't want to be shy anymore and face my problems head on without running away after I try to initiate a negotiation process. I don't want to be worried about getting hurt and then start lambasting by shouting and yelling at the person and then end up feeling like I need the person in my life. I just want to be really cool with everyone in this world. If the person is hard to get along with, then I have no problem negotiating a basic friendship with them. Disagreeing somewhere does not mean you can't live peacably with everyone.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Feeling is there, just need to persist

The reason why I write this passage today is to just self-motivate myself. I've finally come to terms with how I write. The mistakes that I've made are not entirely that bad, and I think the situation unfolds itself by sometimes allowing your instincts to take over. This is sometimes an even more huger mistake to rely on ourselves instead of a greater source.

I know it feels like a total contradiction with having to lower ourselves and totally consider others. I think the major part of life is to basically just be yourself, a unique creature who originated in some time ago in a certain sphere of space and time.

I am totally comfortable now with writing about whatever it is with others around me. If someone feels uncomfortable, I believe that I want to pursue after that person gently to understand what is bothering them. Letting go is a hard thing to do. The bothersome feeling may always be there, but look on the bright side. Life moves on, and we need to be alive so we can experience more comfortable things.

I guess it's about expecting what you are feeling as you pursue after some discomforts. To take effort in understanding it and being calm and relaxed and not so angry about it is something that could make God proud if you pass the test.

There are simple measures of tests that a person could do. Simply set up something that gives mechanics about failing or succeeding. Live in commitment to others and don't worry about it if you fail. There's always a brighter future to look forward to. Confess your mistakes, repent from that nature, and then move on knowing that there's something good out there waiting for you. If you don't know what it is, there's a loving savior who wants to release you of all your misery and walk of shame. He brings you to life and brings truth that holds peace that cannot be explained without the person experiencing it through faith.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Dealing with Angry People You Love

This is a very controversial topic. I believe that God has given me free space to live at liberty to test certain options, no matter how others may think I'm crazy. It's only hopefully going to be that way momentarily. I believe it requires a lot of mind power and will to establish peace again with those you truly love, no matter how much they bother you at times.

The Bible says "Do not associate with a man given to anger." Proverbs 22:24 I think this means that no matter what people against you say to badger you, you just have to take it without talking back. Basically, for me it just means letting them know you don't agree with them by doing the cold shoulders to them whenever they bring up anything against you. Everything else should be a normal conversation. Just basically, don't argue with these people who are against you. Do not even remotely say a hint about what the subject in question is about. Say a few words to calmly express yourself and then let them rip you apart because if they do it forever then you'll know that someone could be just wasting his time with you. Seriously, do not fall to their level and start planning revenge. Let the silence treatment do the trick. When they ask a question, you don't need to answer even if you feel bad or inclined with someone clearly in opposition to you. Example, police man siding with a guest of the home calling on another former guest who annoys the heck out of him. Annoyances can end just by applying yourself on the giving end as mentioned on the last paragraph.

Let time heal itself and be on a positive-side of mind. It's about gentle persistence that will keep you from feeling bad about your etiquette. No matter where you go, silence is sometimes golden when dealing with arguments. No matter how much it hurts, just listen, while not having to agree with them, and go on your way. When people over-react and do bad stuff to you, just apologize to them and let them know you will keep coming back to sort it out. Work on other things to keep your mind off of this, as it could turn into an endless obsession. Let go of feelings of anger and bitterness and fear of being rejected or conceiving threats.

When it's about going to be the giving end, you need to approach them and initially read any sign of feeling discomfort. If this happens, you just supposedly walk away from them. Come back and follow up with them in a loving manner. Say only one neutral sentence that explains your position. When you ask questions and these people stop answering them, then I think it's an indicator that they are willing to side with you. Just don't persist with the same questions and help them to recovery and give them gentle support. Timing is your best friend when dealing with problems with people. Time is always on your side as long as your heart is filled with the right intent. Also remember that God is longing to open His heart for you to use with others who can be bothersome to you.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

This blogger's Simple Rules of Living

1. Don't let temptation make you fall into frustration. Easier said than done. It's a total tuffy when you want to cringe because the person is acting like an imbecile, and you feel totally victimized by him.

2. Stay confident, bold, courageous, and diligent.

3. Listen to your mom. I still have a very highly loving mother and very sorry for those who have lost theirs through them passing away.

4. Lead others in a loving way that is suitable. This is so tough because our preferences are made into impressionable statements sometimes, based on the person's needs. Example, I grab a fork with my left hand. You insist I use my right hand. I've been getting a lot of this lately from people. I think it's from me trying to inspire others by being stupid and writing to them with e-mails that try to lambaste their efforts with helping me because I can't see eye to eye with them. Also, I finally can prove it that they were not good at helping me. Because of this, I have some major problems that are over the hill and causing me to go from a cowboy on a rodeo to a stinking infant on a giant's pinky toe. "Fee-fie-foe-fum, what and where is that gnarly smell coming from? "

Sunday, June 14, 2009

I love being human

This is something that I sort of feel. If something does not go well what you write, it's probably best to just deal with it in person. For allowing others to block you from talking to the person, it's only creating more deeper anger with those people who block you. I'm sort of laughing as I write this because it's sort of true. It is super annoying for your friends to like turn against you with a lot of bad reasons and then they start trashing you with even more bad reasons.

They add even more insult by saying that I should get some help. I don't need help. I think they do because they mentioned it first to me. I've never really been thinking like that. I think the best thing to do is to be open to research and to ask questions for what might work best for you in this situation of conflict. I personally like to pursue and initiate peace. I have to really careful to not go off tangent with hurting the person with bad insults, no matter how funny it is to me. I don't want to hurt girls in general because I'd rather be looked up to as a gentleman then go on feeling so much resentment about it. Man, no matter how annoying it is. Just got to suck it up and go in for what you want. Take in a lot of time to research and don't step out of boundary when the opportunity arises.

Friday, June 12, 2009

I'm such a weak writer

hey I think with me writing a lot and touching upon things. I'm finding logical counters and just letting it rip. If this causes you to feel bad, then I don't think you were really supposed to help in the first place. I'm perfectly fine. I know that my system is cleaning itself out through writing about good intentions. I cherish a lot of things more than you can imagine, and God is by my side supporting my every action and move. If my upbringing causes me to laugh now with all the silly efforts to try to help me because I truly like to honor people in friendships and acknowledge them despite whatever chaotic things they do to me, then I think this whole e-mailing thing can disperse.

It's time for me to take some serious action and to sort of disregard what a few guys are trying to do me. I'm afraid that I'm going to need to backtrack and add a little good flavor to it out of intentions of loving people because that's how I've raised myself. This whole facebook thing is a wonderful way of me gauging on people and how we need to make sort of a treaty again. The more collisions that it occurs the more I'm made to deny the trouble of having pride with myself. All of these statements and words find its meaning and these guys were a little off course. I don't think we are on the right page and this is not about me stating that I'm trying to be selfish. I wish they could all just see that they are totally lacking something. It's patience.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Bible verse

2 Chronicles 17:9-10 states "They took copies of the Book of the Law of the Lord and traveled around through all the towns of Judah, teaching the people. Then the fear of the Lord fell over all the surrounding kingdoms so that none of them declared war on Jehoshaphat." Jehoshaphat became the king over Judah after his father passed away after ruling for forty one years. (2 Chron. 16:13) I'm totally amazed by how good kings who feared the Lord brought amazing stability, peace, and inspiration to the people. The Bible talks about how at least some of the kings who did evil in the sight of the Lord brought upon destruction to the land because they were not really doing their job in leading the people to fear God.

Based on 2 Chron 17, it's really important to me in noticing how sometimes enemies are moved to goodness because the people are encouraged under the teaching of the Word. Jehoshaphat sent out some of the best teachers known in his land at that time and it's wonderful how the message spread out to other nations because the people could have been showing good stewardship and telling good testimonies about God.

A thing I surely am sort of pondering about right now, is that sometimes someone may not want to be fully your peaceful ally. It's been really challenging for me in how I could deal with it because of my upbringing of choosing people to be my friends. To this point in time, I need to open myself more to the Lord's attention with me. I think for starter's, it should be about worshipping the Lord wholeheartedly by being ministered upon by others and truly having a heart that's received joy from the Lord through knowing that Jesus has come into your life and set you free to become a new person.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

My writing has had some up and down period. I sometimes don't even know what I'm writing. So this whole blog is just about expressing myself. It's so cool to write on a public domain somewhere. Even if I don't get noticed, it's like I don't really mind anymore. I still have this pressure to write really well in a good sense. I've had a countless number of times where I told myself that my writing is very bad. I'm just starting so random again and taking not enough time to edit it and try to make sense. If I do it so badly, then it probably entails to others that I need some help.

I don't really mind anymore what trips people have had with what I've written to them. Instead of resorting to making fun of people on this blog, I personally am going to still stick with my manners. I just love the sense of powerful words flowing from my heart. This yearning desire that never quenches. That causes a few to ponder what I totally want in life. It's a passion that never dies of thirst.

Pretty much, I need to stop on some things that are marked with total brutality in my life. I'm starting to relive with better focus and wisdom. This area of comfort was something that came by free will and absolute inspiration from the Holy Spirit. I keep missing the mark, and I don't want to leave it to some other time to let the Lord reveal to me what He has called me to do.