Discipline

What I can liken to discipline a lot with right now is that it could be in the same way as making love the right way! Special attention and care needs to be given and a lot of hard work comes from the preparation to go after the ultimate experience. It requires constant love and just to maintain the pleasure there needs to be good feedback. With love making, communication has definitely got to be key.

Realizing what I'm capable of from practicing with porn is really bad for me. I'm still not desensitized to it where it won't have any effect on me, but I don't count on going there. I've been using it for my own gain of trying to learn how to properly give pleasure to the partner. It's really boring from looking at this angle. I just can't see it as a form of entertainment really when it totally goes against my personal morals. I'm never going to go after fornicating, maybe in my head, but never physically in person. I just can't do it and it's been ingrained in me that I won't do it and still won't be willing, if I were to even be raped by the best lover in the world. Well, if she was my wife, things change in an instant of course.